ZAAFIRAH's SparkPeople Blog ZAAFIRAH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Day 36 - Just Sad Today's been rough. Actually since yesterday afternoon I've just been down. My eating is on track as is my fitness, but I am just depressed really. Everything feel like a chore and I really don't want to be around the world. Oh well. Off to the gym. Thu, 25 Jul 2013 10:31:22 EST Day 34 - Time to Focus Had a great holiday although I didn't eat as clean as I'd have liked, or exercise as much as I'd have liked though I did keep active. I did learn one thing - I am enjoying weighing and tracking my food. No one is more surprised by that than I am. I like the control planning, weighing and tracking my meals gives me, and I think I have a better appreciation for how important it is to be in control of your eating especially when you are trying to lose weight. Nervous about my next weigh in but ... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 04:30:24 EST Day 22 - Weigh In Day For the first time in years, the scale is consistently moving in the right direction :) It really is motivating to see the early morning gym and meal planning pay off. ( for the first time in 22 days I haven't prepared lunch and I feel so lost - not making that mistake again :( ) <BR> <BR> I go on holiday from tomorrow and I'm nervous that I won't be able to keep up the food part of the deal. A lot more eating out, a lot less control over what I eat. The fitness will be easier. If anything ... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 06:46:36 EST Day 12 - Second Weigh in I've had a good, busy weekend - and I am very proud of myself for tracking daily even though I don't blog as often as i'd hoped to. I had joined spark people about 4 years ago but I think I was on it for 1 week with little consistency. At the time, I was very active and at a healthy weight so the tracking was more of a hobby. <BR> <BR> I also finally committed to my second lifestyle change - gym. Only started today but I have made a financial commitment cos I know that will keep me hones... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 08:17:33 EST Day 8 - Panic sets in I decided to change my weighing day to Mondays so I weighed myself early this week and I am under 80 kgs for the first time in about 2 years. And I don't know when I last lost more than 1 kg in a week let alone 5 days. I was ecstatic. I still am on some level - but the joy was quickly replaced by panic. On one hand I keep thinking what if this is a fluke? What if in next week's weigh in no matter how hard I try, I am just not capable of losing the weight and achieving a weight that I am com... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 09:35:46 EST Days 3 and 4 Day 3 went well...had a really good day but the eating wasn't great. Skipped lunch (too much work) and had 2 glasses of wine <em>24</em> . On the plus side, even with the cheat, I managed to keep my calorie intake on track and didn't compromise too much on the nutritional value. <BR> <BR> Day 4 - today is tough. The cravings have hit with a vengeance today. Haven't given in to any of them - so far. <BR> <BR> Day is over and I am pleased to say that I didn't give in to any of my cravin... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 05:55:14 EST Day 2 I think I'm actually getting the hang of this. Day 2 and I actually woke up early to prepare my meals and snacks for the day - and considering how cold it has been, that is no small feat <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> I have to admit I am surprised by how much food I can actually eat when I am eating right. I was so used to skipping meals that I didn't realise that the strange feeling in my stomach was hunger. <BR> <BR> Feels very weird to share my feelings online but it is surprisingly catha... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 16:28:34 EST Day 1 Day one is officially over. I think it went well. It's amazing how when you make a conscious decision to eat right, you start craving foods that you don't normally eat, or even like. Like your brain is fighting your decision and wants to be in control. I also just realized how many calories I discount by not thinking about food I tasted when cooking, or the odd splash of jam, or butter. So my motto now is whatever morsel of food makes its way into my mouth must be tracked - however small o... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 13:45:14 EST The Begininng Day 1 of weigh less and I have to admit, i'm not as excited or as positive as I could be. I know I need to do something about my weight before it gets even more out of control than it already is, not just aesthetically, but my confidence. I am beginning to feel insecure in my work, my r/ship and my body generally - which is ironic because I have received a lot more male attention than usual over the last couple of days. <BR> <BR> The reason I am a little negative about weigh less is that ... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 06:58:02 EST