YSEAULT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=YSEAULT YSEAULT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Test results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6005595 I had to have my annual bloodwork recently and it came back with an elevated glucose. My anxiety immediately had me believing I was dying. I love my anxiety disorder! At least now I understand that is what drives those types of thoughts. <BR> <BR> Nonetheless, I am terrified that I have diabetes. I am only 44( turning 45 next week) but I am 70 pounds overweight and have not done a great job exercising. It also runs in my family. How did I let this happen? It has been a long time since ... Mon, 28 Sep 2015 13:38:59 EST Who is this me? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5519416 43 years old. 60 pounds overweight. I feel like a turtle on my back most of the time. How the hell did this happen? <BR> <BR> It is hard for me not to beat myself up in the name of taking responsibility. I am really good at beating myself up. Probably about 30 pounds worth of good. :( I am also attracted to toxic people and high stress situations. I am not great at saying no, except to myself. <BR> <BR> So, I am back to basics and trying to focus on the whole picture, not just weight... Mon, 21 Oct 2013 12:54:57 EST Time to actually lose weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4364009 My husband took a picture of me last night and, granted, I was slouching on the couch with shorts and a t shirt and no makeup, but when I saw the picture, I was really upset. Who is this person? Is it me? How did I get so big? So, I challenge myself. My challenge is to lose 10 pounds in 30 days. I know I can do it because I have done it before. That person, however, seems to be hiding lately. <BR> <BR> I have struggled for the last 2 years to overcome an anxiety disorder and to regain... Fri, 15 Jul 2011 08:23:57 EST Back to Bootcamp http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3667647 Well, my last blog was right at the start of week 3 of bootcamp. Shortly after I wrote it, I hurt my back and was seriously derailed. After some serious yoga to de-spasm my back, I'm ready to finish the bootcamp. SOOOO.....here I go! Fri, 24 Sep 2010 13:19:20 EST 3rd week of the Bootcamp Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3615464 Well, I have started my third week of the bootcamp challenge. I have to say I am pleased and a bit surprised (which is surprising) that I have stuck with it. I have been sore and tired but still done my workouts. And you know what....my clothes fit just a little different this week. I have not weighed in because I was on vacation and not so great about watching what I ate last week but still my pants are more comfortable. I think I am going to do this. Tue, 7 Sep 2010 15:05:43 EST How did this happen? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3576073 I can remember a time when I gladly worked out every day and did not hurt. I did not mind sweating. I did not sweat from simply walking. I never really stopped to consider that I was in shape and never appreciated it. <BR> <BR> Now, I started the 28 day bootcamp challenge this week and have successfully completed the first 4 days. 30 minutes of cardio each day. My whole body hurt and I'm not even doing that much--only 30 minutes. What an eye opener...It is hard to kid yourself about b... Thu, 26 Aug 2010 09:03:44 EST SPARK CHALLENGE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3566155 I am really excited. I started the SPARK 28 day bootcamp challenge yesterday (and completed the goals for yesterday). I am not expecting miracles but it is nice to have a path to follow. YEAH! Mon, 23 Aug 2010 13:36:06 EST Change in Strategy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3485009 Ok, so I have not been doing so well watching what I eat...well, I am watching it as i put it in my mouth! So, I've decided to break the goals up into more manageable parts. <BR> <BR> Today's goals are: <BR> <BR> Track all my food <BR> Make good food choices <BR> 30 minutes exercise <BR> 5 minute pep talk <BR> <BR> So far, so good. I also changed my weight loss goal to 10 lbs from 60 lbs because the 60 seems unattainable. Keep you posted! Fri, 30 Jul 2010 09:36:06 EST Monday blahs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3471248 Did you ever just begin the week with the alarm going off and seriously want to turn it off and sleep til noon? I am having one of those days. It did not help this morning that my 4 year old son was in bed with us and snuggling. There's a real incentive to get out of bed and go to work. NOT! <BR> <BR> This same 4 year old woke up and refused to get dressed, refused to put his socks and shoes on and refused to eat his blueberries. End result, we were late getting out the door and I was l... Mon, 26 Jul 2010 13:30:16 EST Good Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3454485 Well, I am having a good day for the first time in what feels like about a month. So far this week, I have met my exercise goals and tracked my food. Although I have eaten too much every day, I am not beating myself up mentally about it. One step at a time. <BR> <BR> I am having lunch with a good friend and have thought about what I am going to order and checked the calories. Boy, I feel in control--isn't that a change. And doesn't it feel good... <em>244</em> Wed, 21 Jul 2010 11:35:23 EST Maybe the sun is coming out? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3438118 Well, I was in a pretty dark place the last time I wrote a blog. Things are looking a little more sunny today though. The magic of sleep, rest and I am in a much better place--despite getting on the scale and gaining a pound--which I am chalking up to it being 96 degrees and very very humid. So, I'm willing to keep on plugging here and try to lose these pounds! Fri, 16 Jul 2010 11:15:47 EST UUUGGGHH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3431447 I really really need to lose weight and I believe that I really want to lose weight. Why can't I get it under control....My appetite is HUGE! and I am going to need to buy BIGGER clothes if I cannot get my eating under control. That will be so depressing. <BR> <BR> So...here I am again feeling like a complete failure but trying to pick myself up and try again. I am starting with the community here because I think I will do better if I am involved. That is one of the things I like about ... Wed, 14 Jul 2010 13:08:06 EST Changes!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3174294 I have worked really hard the last two weeks to meet my exercise goals, including my strength training goals. I have done it and guess what? My body feels different!!! Already! Sure, I'm a little sore but nothing I cannot cope with. But I feel STRONG! I started karate classes about 2 months ago and in class last night, it was the first time I did not feel like falling down at the end of class. <BR> <BR> I have not really lost much weight yet but I am confident it will come if I keep wor... Thu, 29 Apr 2010 09:13:11 EST Success at last http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3165727 Sometimes it is the small things that mean the most. I have been having huge motivation problems to stop eating. Yesterday, I did it!! and I made my exercise goals! A class A day for me --I cannot believe how unbelievably proud I feel <em>224</em> Today, I'm going to try for day number two and start a streak. <em>306</em> Tue, 27 Apr 2010 06:54:10 EST Where does the motivation come from? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3145589 I get up every morning and say I will stay in my calorie range today. By evening, I am tired and only want to enjoy myself which these days means food. I love food and a slice of pizza has never really done me a wrong (except it is always one slice and one more) I am having a motivation issue and an attitude problem. I am working to remind my self that exercise is ME time and not more work. I need to remember that the calorie range is not only good for me but important for my long term wel... Wed, 21 Apr 2010 15:41:07 EST Mixed Messages http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1736470 Well, my third weigh in was today. I knew I did not have a great week. I knew I could not sustain the 3 lbs per week loss I had for the last 2 weeks. But I am still disappointed at the .2 loss I had this week. I am trying to focus on the good--I still managed to lose an inch in my waist and in my hips this week---Hooray! At least I did not gain. <BR> <BR> I think I needed to not lose this week to help me stay focused and on plan going forward. Renew motivation! I Can do this and I WIL... Sun, 25 Jan 2009 07:30:24 EST Successful first step http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1684610 Well, I had my first weigh in this am and after sweating and being sore every day for the past week, I am down 3.2 pounds. Hooray! I am also down 4 inches in my waist and 2 inches in my hips. This week should feel like a success. So why doesn't it? I had hoped to lose more weight initially, especially since I worked so hard. I can't believe the loss of inches--my goal for this week is to be happier with the small steps and improvements as no one loses 70 lbs in 1 week no matter how much ... Sun, 11 Jan 2009 08:09:13 EST