YOHANNAN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=YOHANNAN YOHANNAN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Chemo Day for Matthew http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6369726 What a day! Have you ever done some simple task over, and over and suddenly found yourself focusing on the moment and the impact of what's happening? Then it all seems just too unreal. I realized how much I have to put myself into robot-mode just to give Matt his pills every day. Today is the worst day of the month- The Oncology clinic, but it's not as bad as what happens next month- It's is the dreaded three month clinic visit with a spinal tap. Let's think about that later. For now it's one... Fri, 2 Jun 2017 00:59:24 EST Try, Try, Try, Try... Again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6305194 I have been gone for three or four months this time. I have excuses, excuses, excuses... I have to learn to deal with my emotions no matter what troubles come my way. I will always have stress. I will always have reasons to cheat and "treat myself". At the same time, I have a lot going on in my life and I must start being kind to myself about my falls from grace. <BR> <BR> I fall down so much, too much. It's over and over. I must have quit Sparkpeople and started again at least a dozen times... Wed, 25 Jan 2017 17:54:20 EST Day Six of the 30 Day Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6231329 I am making up for the day six blog that I was supposed to do yesterday. It's for the 30 Day Challenge. I am happy to report that I lost almost five pounds last week, well, 4.8 pounds to be exact. For some reason it's a very big deal for me to be in the 200's even though I know it's been closer to 300 for the last year. It goes to show the kind of mind games that I often use to motivate myself. <BR> <BR> Speaking of self motivating mind games, I am practicing new techniques to keep myself in... Tue, 6 Sep 2016 21:16:31 EST It's Now or Never! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5883050 Wow! I haven't made a blog entry since just before my wedding. What a crazy year I have had, and not in a good way. Don't get me wrong, my marriage is great! Rick is my hero in so many ways. That's not the issue. I would be living my newlywed life in bliss if it wasn't for our heartache. <BR> <BR> Disaster had to go and strike our little family again. Most disasters are able to be defeated relatively easily, I suppose, but this one is different. My child, my good little boy, Matthew, has be... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 10:28:32 EST Two Weeks to the Big Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5523013 Just two weeks to the big day. Of course I fell in love with a dress that was only available one size too small. Yikes! I just got down one size in eight weeks! Time to speed this process up. The wedding's in fourteen days. I need to work hard the next two weeks to fit into that dress. Time for wedding boot camp! <BR> <BR> First, I am going to eat as many fruits and vegetables as possible. I brought in a cooler for the overflow of fruits and veggies that will not fit into the frig. I am goin... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 09:20:56 EST Happy Days Are Here Again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215165 Finally the winds changed and we have some better days ahead. The ex finally came through with child support and then some. My Fiance got his first paycheck from his new job. (Fingers are crossed for some hours this week!) I have decided to go back to school and become a full time student for the first time in my life (That's the first time that I declared that!) We can now drive my truck legally again. Best of all, we were able to go buy some healthy food for the first time this month. <BR> ... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 07:16:49 EST Hard, Hard Times= Massive Depression. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199746 Well this is it. We have reached a new low in our families life. We are beyond broke. Our vehicle registration is due and we can't pay our bills this month. Things are really, really bad. <BR> <BR> We have been living off the food left in the back of the freezer and pantry, but there isn't even enough to get through one more week, let alone another month. So, I went to a food bank for help. What a humbling experience that was. Tomorrow we pick up our food box and I will have to make whatever... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 00:05:17 EST Getting ready for the New Year! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180821 Well I was very naughty over the holidays. I wasn't even going to commit to losing weight because I knew ahead of time that I would fail. Once again, I failed before I started. (Hmm? I think I said that once or twice before. I will have to get back to that thought later.) So I gained four pounds the last two weeks. <BR> <BR> My new family is great and unlike my family back home, they like to celebrate with food just like me. Before I had total control being the one who made the majority of ... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 11:45:46 EST Oh no! I gained. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5153672 Last week was supposed to be the week that I got back to losing weight. Three weeks ago I told myself that it was okay that I didn't lose any weight. At least I didn't gain right? Then Thanksgiving week came and of course I didn't lose. I thought, I have an excuse. So I told myself that I shouldn't expect to have lost again this last week, but I was shocked to have gained two pounds! <BR> <BR> My first thought after weighing myself was about that one motivational poster. The one of a hand h... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 14:44:03 EST Day One!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5116546 Here we are on my first day of my new diet. Well, actually, it's day two, but my new strategy is to take a page from Dr. Phil's book and to give myself a free day once a week. Since we almost always go out to be with family on Sundays, It will most often be that day. So my day one was actually a free day where I eat whatever the heck I want. <BR> <BR> I just finished an eight week detox diet. I had done that in the past with terrific results. I had lost 45 pounds in eight weeks. I expected ... Mon, 29 Oct 2012 09:39:39 EST