YOGAGIRLNH's SparkPeople Blog YOGAGIRLNH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Mother's Day Mother's Day has always been filled with mixed emotions for me. I love my mom. We've had some dysfunctional moments, but she really is a great person. <BR> <BR> The problem lies with me. I always wanted to be a mom, had always planned to have children. It just never happened. I married at 36 to a man who swore that we would have children "within 2 years". In two years, he said he wasn't ready. Two years after that, he still wasn't ready. The marriage ended last July, and pretty much ... Sun, 8 May 2011 10:37:53 EST Today Today, I had to take my cat to the vet. He has been throwing up, not eating, and acting disoriented. He's 16 1/2 years old, so naturally, I assumed the worst. <BR> <BR> Turns out, he's got a bacterial infection. I have to administer liquid antibiotics for the next couple of weeks and inject him with an IV drip twice a day. I wasn't sure I'd be able to handle it, but love will get you through difficult moments. <BR> <BR> I'm relieved that he's ok. Tue, 3 May 2011 22:39:03 EST Lazy Sunday Enjoying a lazy sunday, drinking coffee (an indulgence, since I normally avoid caffeine), cat in lap, and waiting for my boyfriend to wake up. Life is good. Sun, 20 Mar 2011 10:33:15 EST Good Weekend It's been over a month since my last blog. I've lost a couple of pounds, reunited with an old flame, and the anti-depressant/anti-anxiety medication is working really well. I took my niece & nephew to the movies and out to lunch, and then we came back to my house and played Wii fit. Sat, 12 Mar 2011 23:07:22 EST Off the radar I haven't spent much time on Sparkpeople in the last couple of weeks. Last week, I made the decision to go on anti-depressants. I'm not suicidal or anything--I've just had this persistent sadness with frequent crying jags. I realized that it was a problem when I nearly burst into tears at work. <BR> <BR> So far the medication seems to be working. It is supposed to help with anxiety, which is good. The only side effect that I've noticed is some mild drowsiness. I'm sleeping better, and ... Sun, 30 Jan 2011 21:49:48 EST Shopping for Pants This evening, I went to Lane Bryant to buy a pair of pants. I asked if they had my size, and the clerk said, "I'm sorry, we don't make pants that small". VICTORY!! Thu, 27 Jan 2011 20:15:42 EST Bitter New England Weather The water pipes froze up last night. I'm fortunate to have a neighbor who has had to deal with this sort of stuff before, and had a portable heater. The rest was done with a hairdryer, and I've been instructed to leave the water dripping tonight so that they won't freeze again. The good news is that the pipes didn't burst. <BR> <BR> Buying this house has made me humble. I hate asking for help, but since I've never owned a home before, and have very few handyman skills, that's exactly wha... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:21:05 EST More Snow...... I should be on Week 3 of Couch to 5K, but due to weather issues (more snow) and scheduling conflicts, I'm still on Week 2. Technically, I don't have to finish until May, which is good, because it's going much slower than I thought it would. Tue, 18 Jan 2011 19:58:31 EST Fighting the good fight Today was my 2nd training session of Couch25K. I made it through the entire workout, but this time I didn't have to take an extra minute of walking through one of the walk/run intervals. <BR> <BR> I remembered to bring my IPod and a pony tail holder for my hair. I also dropped my speed a little on the running intervals, and wore some new moisture-wicking Aididas workout shorts and shirt. I'm not saying it was easy, but I made it through. <BR> <BR> I've decided to motivate myself by re... Wed, 5 Jan 2011 19:42:34 EST Couch-to-5K (Week 1, Day 1) One of my goals for 2011 is to complete the 8 week, Couch to 5K program. I started today. <BR> <BR> For those not familiar with the program, it is a graduated walking/running program. You train 3 times per week, for 8 months. <BR> <BR> Let me just say that I am by no means a runner. I am 40 pounds overweight, not really athletically inclined, and was usually one of the last kids picked in gym class. But what I lack in natural athletic ability, I make up in motivation, guts, chutzpah, w... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 20:46:22 EST The New Year At the end of the year, I always find myself reflecting on the past 12 months. For me, the last 12 months have been a rollercoaster ride. I moved, finished my 1 year anniversary of my promotion at work, lost 16 pounds (and kept them off), started couples therapy, separated from my husband, got divorced, and bought a new home. It has not been dull. <BR> <BR> I also find myself contemplating what the next 12 months will bring. There are so many possibilities, so many wonderful surprises th... Sat, 1 Jan 2011 20:25:37 EST Trying to get back into the routine Lately, all my fitness minutes have come from packing, unpacking and cleaning. I have returned to the routine of keeping a food diary, and have re-committed to earning sparkpoints. <BR> <BR> I'm still unpacking, still not settled in completely, but I'm feeling the need to get back to my fitness routine. I need to get back to the gym and the healthy snacks. <BR> <BR> I've started thinking about fitness resolutions, too. I'm thinking about doing the "Couch-to-5K" program and participating ... Sun, 26 Dec 2010 20:36:50 EST Merry Christmas I have been missing in action here on Sparkpeople lately. Last Saturday, I moved into my new home. I brought the last load of stuff from my old place today, shopped for Christmas dinner, and took my first nap on the couch with the cat. <BR> <BR> The new place is a "fixer upper", which means that right now, it's a mess. Tomorrow, I will host Christmas dinner, and I have learned to live with the imperfections of my new home. <BR> <BR> I have not been recording my physical activity or food,... Fri, 24 Dec 2010 18:56:25 EST A New Home Well, it's official. I closed yesterday on the house. It's a "handyman special", so I will have a lot of work to do to get it to match the wonderful vision that I have in my head. <BR> <BR> I realized yesterday morning why it has been so important for me to get a new place. Every time I go into the kitchen, I relive my last argument with my ex-husband, throwing my stuff on the kitchen floor and screaming at me. I need to be able to get that image out of my head. <BR> <BR> On the positiv... Fri, 3 Dec 2010 20:54:22 EST Progress on the new place I spent a few more hours yesterday at the new place, cleaning up. The good news is, I got a great deal on it. The bad news is, it needs extensive cleaning and removal of the former owner's stuff. <BR> <BR> I didn't buy any Christmas presents on Black Friday, but I did buy a new stove. The new place didn't come with one, and this one was on sale, and had all the features that I wanted. Makes me feel like an adult. <BR> <BR> The next project will be going to Lowe's and Home Depot today to ... Sat, 27 Nov 2010 09:49:00 EST Plans for Thanksgiving I've invited my parents to have Thanksgiving dinner with me tomorrow. It is my first Thanksgiving since the divorce, so it will be a little weird to not have my ex-husband here for the first time in 6 years. I'm thankful for my friends and family. <BR> <BR> I hope you all have a great day tomorrow. <em>429</em> Wed, 24 Nov 2010 21:01:09 EST I'm going to be really busy... I went to the new place today, and was overwhelmed at the amount of work that needs to be done. The former owners left furniture and trash everywhere. We filled 5 trash bags and that barely made a dent. I severely underestimated the amount of clean up that would be required. <BR> <BR> I'm not regretting my decision to buy the place, I'm just feeling tired and overwhelmed by the work that lies ahead. I have made a "to-do" list, and will begin again tomorrow. Sat, 20 Nov 2010 21:01:12 EST More Major Life Changes on the Horizon I'm meeting with the Co-Op board tomorrow night. It is the last step before I buy my new home. I'm thinking positive, and can already visualize the renovations and decorating. It will be a fresh start for me since the divorce. I need a new place to make new happy memories. Fingers crossed. <em>41</em> Tue, 16 Nov 2010 21:46:46 EST It's Raining Men (Ok, not really....) But seriously though, since I swore off dating for 6 months, I've been getting all sorts of male attention. Maybe I should take a vow of poverty....I could end up with a huge influx of cash. Ha, ha. <em>30</em> Mon, 15 Nov 2010 22:09:42 EST Not Ready Yet So my divorce has been final for a month, and I've been happy getting reaquainted with my single self. An ex-boyfriend starts chatting me up on Facebook, then starts asking me out on dates. I told him I wasn't ready, but he kept asking. I was feeling really pressured, and on the drive home from work I just started bawling in my car. <BR> <BR> I got up the nerve to call him, tears and all, and explained that I was still reeling from the divorce and was not ready to even think about venturi... Sat, 6 Nov 2010 12:01:36 EST Halloween Candy I did not resist the temptation of the halloween candy. I'm not going to beat myself up about it. Tomorrow's another day, and I will bring the remaining candy to the office, so I won't have temptation quite so close at hand. Sun, 31 Oct 2010 22:12:52 EST Yuca I decided on a whim to buy yuca at the grocery store. Now I just have to figure out how to prepare it. Any suggestions? Thu, 21 Oct 2010 21:37:48 EST Making Strides Today, I will be walking for Making Strides Against Breast Cancer. My grandmother, my Aunt Carol and my Aunt Louise are all survivors of breast cancer. Sun, 17 Oct 2010 10:14:51 EST Monthly goals 1. Exercise 250 minutes per week. <BR> This week, I surpassed it by 20 minutes. Yay! <BR> <BR> 2. Yoga at least 3 times per week. <BR> Missed it by 1. <BR> <BR> 3. Finish curriculum for Intermediate Photo class that I'll be teaching. <BR> One presentation out of three is done. <BR> <BR> 4. Try 2 new sparkpeople recipes per week. <BR> I made three new recipes this week. <BR> <BR> 5. Try to get 8 hours of sleep at least 4 nights per week. <BR> Missed it by 1. Sat, 16 Oct 2010 22:21:51 EST Progress on October goals Progress so far on my October goals: <BR> <BR> 1. Exercise 250 minutes per week. <BR> No excuses--I need to step it up next week on this goal. I missed this goal by half. Not good. <BR> <BR> 2. Yoga at least 3 times per week. <BR> Missed it by 1. See comments on goal 1. <BR> <BR> 3. Finish curriculum for Intermediate Photo class that I'll be teaching. <BR> Still working on it. <BR> <BR> 4. Try 2 new sparkpeople recipes per week. <BR> Okay, this one I rocked. Made 2 new casseroles,... Sun, 10 Oct 2010 10:42:57 EST October Goals So I'm a little late getting my October goals posted..... <BR> <BR> 1. Exercise 250 minutes per week. <BR> 2. Yoga at least 3 times per week. <BR> 3. Finish curriculum for Intermediate Photo class that I'll be teaching. <BR> 4. Try 2 new sparkpeople recipes per week. <BR> 5. Try to get 8 hours of sleep at least 4 nights per week. Tue, 5 Oct 2010 21:31:23 EST The reflection in the mirror As some of you know, I'm in the process of a divorce. In fact, it may be finalized in a week. <BR> <BR> During my marriage, I became someone I didn't recognize. My husband was so insistent in his opinions and preferences that mine seemed to fade into the background. I'm being diplomatic actually; the man ruled our house like a dictator. I was aware that I was stress eating, but I kept blaming it on my job. I didn't feel like myself. I didn't look like myself. <BR> <BR> I don't think ... Tue, 21 Sep 2010 22:56:46 EST Progress on September Goals. 1. At least 250 exercise minutes per week. <BR> 2. Spend at least one hour per week taking photos. <BR> 3. Lose 5 pounds by the end of September. <BR> 4. Go apple picking. <BR> 5. Complete 1 artist trading card. <BR> 6. Get through my divorce hearing without a meltdown. <BR> 7. Finish knitting Kyle's blanket. <BR> <BR> #4 is done--went apple picking with my niece and nephew this weekend. <BR> #7 is almost done. <BR> <BR> The rest are still pending. Mon, 20 Sep 2010 22:14:55 EST Hello 160s! After more than 3 years, I am back to the 160's! I'm hoping to hit the 150's by Christmas. <em>30</em> Sun, 19 Sep 2010 09:15:46 EST Success! I weighed myself this morning, and was shocked to see that I've lost another pound. I am so close the the 160's, and am hoping to hit them next week. This is the lowest amount that I have seen on the scale in over 3 years, and I'm so happy to see some progress. <em>9</em> Mon, 6 Sep 2010 08:10:01 EST September Goals 1. At least 250 exercise minutes per week. <BR> 2. Spend at least one hour per week taking photos. <BR> 3. Lose 5 pounds by the end of September. <BR> 4. Go apple picking. <BR> 5. Complete 1 artist trading card. <BR> 6. Get through my divorce hearing without a meltdown. <BR> 7. Finish knitting Kyle's blanket. Wed, 1 Sep 2010 19:27:40 EST Still in progress.... Okay, so I'm getting a little down on myself today. For the second day in a row, I've gone over my calorie range. Not by much, but still over. And I haven't exercised in 3 days, minus a 10 minute walk that I took with a co-worker this afternoon. <BR> <BR> I've decided not to beat myself up over this. Tomorrow is new day, and my goal will be to stay within my calorie range and go to the gym after work. I know I can do it. Tue, 31 Aug 2010 20:46:45 EST Access Regained I've been without cable tv and internet access for the last few days. My soon-to-be-ex-husband was supposed to change the billing into my name. I had filled out papers and given them to him about 3 weeks ago. Instead of giving them to the cable company, he terminated my service on Thursday while I was at work (and then called me to taunt me about it). <BR> <BR> The good news is, not only did they offer to do my installation on a sunday, but they also are giving me $20 off my bill for the ... Sun, 29 Aug 2010 20:46:33 EST Finding My Voice In the last 4 weeks, I've been finding my voice. I tend to be easy going, but sometimes easy going turns into getting taken advantage of. I used to be the girl in the group who says, "Whatever", when asked what movie I want to see or what restaurant I want to eat at. <BR> <BR> I'm figuring out what my preferences are. What I want to eat, where I want to go, and what I want to do. I'm getting to know myself again. And today, when my downstairs neighbor started cranking his techno music, ... Wed, 25 Aug 2010 20:02:27 EST Happy With The Scale Those who have read previous blogs will know that my weight loss has been a slow process. From April to mid July, I fluctuated between 178 to 176. I refused to change my ticker because of the constant up and downs. <BR> <BR> On July 29, my husband and I decided to divorce. It was not an easy decision, but despite months of counseling and a Herculean amount of effort on my part, it was the right thing to do. What does this have to do with my weight fluctuation? Apparently, a lot. <BR> ... Sat, 21 Aug 2010 08:36:26 EST The Real Age Test with Dr. Oz I took the online Real Age Test with Dr. Oz about a couple of week ago. My results? 41.6 (My actual age is 40.5) <BR> <BR> What did I learn? That I need to boost my vitamin E, calcium, and Vitamin C & D intake, reduce my stress, reduce my weight, and stop worrying. <BR> <BR> It is also recommended that I drive a bigger car (not going to happen--I love my compact car) and work on my relationship with my husband (again, not going to happen since we've separated and decided to divorce).... Sat, 14 Aug 2010 22:00:32 EST Stronger The last week has been a challenge. 8 days ago, my husband announced that he wanted a divorce during an argument. I thought he'd change his mind, but so far, he hasn't. He went to his brother's house to stay "for the night", which stretched into a week, which turned into him getting an apartment of his own. <BR> <BR> Honestly, I go back and forth, emotion-wise. Most of the time I'm convinced that it is for the best, but sometimes I get caught up in the sadness. Throughout it all, I have... Fri, 6 Aug 2010 22:37:30 EST August Goals This month's goals: <BR> <BR> 1. 275 minutes of exercise per day. <BR> 2. 8 hours of sleep per night. <BR> 3. 1 hour of taking photos per week. <BR> 4. Keep current on my stress journal. <BR> <BR> As some of you know, I am currently going through a divorce. These 4 goals should help reduce my stress and keep me on the proper path to good health. Sun, 1 Aug 2010 16:08:40 EST New Beginning Recently, my husband and I decided to divorce after 4 1/2 years of marriage. It was upsetting at first, but I'm focusing on making my life even better than before. I'm more committed to eating healthy, exercising and getting proper sleep. This week, I've gotten better sleep than I have in over 5 years. I could have used the excuse that my marriage has sunk to binge beyond belief, but I haven't. And I've been spending a lot of time at the gym, because I didn't want to be at home. Things ... Sat, 31 Jul 2010 17:14:13 EST Rough Day My husband & I got in an argument this morning. We have decided that it would be best to divorce. The kicker? He wants to stay in the apartment with me for two months, rent free, so he can save up money to get a new place. I've been taking care of him for five years, and apparently I did such a good job of it that he doesn't want to leave. Aaargh! Thu, 29 Jul 2010 20:07:05 EST Sleep Challenge Goals I'm doing well by tracking my food, getting my exercise in, and working on my stress level. My weight loss progress has been quite sluggish. So I'm starting to look at my life as a whole, and to see if other areas need attention. <BR> <BR> The tiredness I feel when the alarm goes off is a good indicator that I'm not getting enough sleep. I signed myself up for the Better Sleep Challenge. <BR> <BR> My goals are: <BR> <BR> 1. Go to bed by 10:00 pm on work nights. <BR> 2. Set up a pre-be... Tue, 27 Jul 2010 22:00:10 EST July Goals Progress--Week 3 Here were my monthly goals for July: <BR> <BR> 1) 250 exercise minutes per week, starting 07/04/10 -07/10/10. <BR> 2) At least one bike ride per week ( I haven't gotten on my bike in over a year, but I'm inspired by one of my Sparkfriends, who is a biking phenomenon). <BR> 3) Continue with stress-reducing techniques, to avoid stress eating. <BR> 4) Keep my desktop neat and tidy. <BR> <BR> On Monday, I wasn't feeling very well. I went to work on Tuesday, but my throat was sore. Skipped... Sun, 25 Jul 2010 18:51:00 EST Feeling Better Now My husband works as an instructional aide in a local elementary school. Working with kids is definitely a health hazard. He was sick earlier, and I started feeling it on Monday. By Tuesday, I had a sore throat. Yesterday, I feel like I got hit by a bus. Needless to say, I didn't feel like eating. Exercise was out of the question. <BR> <BR> Today I'm feeling a little bit better. I ate more, but way less than my minimum calorie range. Exercise still didn't seem like a good idea. I'm n... Thu, 22 Jul 2010 19:19:26 EST July Goals Progress--Week 2 An update on my monthly goals. <BR> <BR> 1) 250 exercise minutes per week, starting 07/04/10 -07/10/10. <BR> This week I hit well over 300 minutes. Check! <BR> <BR> 2) At least one bike ride per week. <BR> This was not easy. For the last couple of weeks, it has been either extremely hot or rainy out. I compromised on this one by hitting the exercise bike inside. Sort-0f Check. <BR> <BR> 3) Continue with stress-reducing techniques, to avoid stress eating. <BR> I have knitted, crochete... Mon, 19 Jul 2010 21:52:11 EST Dear Mr. Scale Dear Mr. Scale, <BR> <BR> You and I have been together a long time. But lately, I haven't been very happy with our relationship. I exercise and eat right, yet you never seem to notice my accomplishments. I think we should spend a little time apart. Don't feel bad. It's not you, it's me. <BR> <BR> Sincerely, <BR> Me Thu, 15 Jul 2010 22:05:29 EST Food Shame Earlier this evening, I was reading a blog on sparkpeople. In it, the writer was talking about having a fast food habit. I can totally relate. <BR> <BR> Years ago, when my husband decided to go vegetarian, he wanted me to join him. Feeling guilty and ashamed because I had gained a few pounds, I agreed. But not 100%. While I was at work, I would indulge in meat and dairy. And more than once I went through the drive-thru after work, gobbling down a burger, throwing the wrapper in the t... Tue, 13 Jul 2010 22:45:22 EST July Goals Progress--Week 1 Here are the July goals that I posted last week: <BR> <BR> 1) 250 exercise minutes per week, starting 07/04/10 -07/10/10. <BR> 2) At least one bike ride per week ( I haven't gotten on my bike in over a year, but I'm inspired by one of my Sparkfriends, who is a biking phenomenon). <BR> 3) Continue with stress-reducing techniques, to avoid stress eating. <BR> 4) Keep my desktop neat and tidy. <BR> <BR> This week, I got almost 300 exercise minutes. Goal 1-met. I didn't ride my bike. The ... Sat, 10 Jul 2010 19:33:43 EST July Goals 1) 250 exercise minutes per week, starting 07/04/10 -07/10/10. <BR> 2) At least one bike ride per week ( I haven't gotten on my bike in over a year, but I'm inspired by one of my Sparkfriends, who is a biking phenomenon). <BR> 3) Continue with stress-reducing techniques, to avoid stress eating. <BR> 4) Keep my desktop neat and tidy. Sat, 3 Jul 2010 22:38:47 EST Take care of me vs. take care of the world We all are alloted 24 hours per day. We have to balance our time between work, exercise, family, diet, etc. Today, I have said "yes" to things I'd rather not do. <BR> <BR> My husband, who lived in a city with public transportation for most of his life, does not have a driver's license. I would like him to get his license, because it will open up time in my calendar that I am currently spending driving him to and fro. A family member has kindly offered to teach him, which should save s... Sun, 6 Jun 2010 10:21:05 EST The Fit Test I read an article here about a fit test that you can do. All you need to do is walk for one mile, and time yourself. Your timing diagnoses how fit you are. According to the fit test, I am in poor shape. However, this fit test doesn't take into account that I am 5 feet tall. Someone with longer legs could certainly make better time than me, right? I refuse to let the stupid fit test define me. Thu, 27 May 2010 21:07:09 EST