YINYANGSJM's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=YINYANGSJM YINYANGSJM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Getting ready for http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3744745 Ok, 48 hours from now I will hopefully be officially divorced (crossing fingers). I've got a lot of mixed feelings about it so decided to blog...I'm sorry ahead of time if I ramble :). Here's what I'm feeling: relief, dread, scared $hitless, strong, sad and a whole lot of other things that I can't even think of the words for. I know that I've made the right decision. It's been just over a year since I moved out and I honestly think that was one of the best decisions I've ever made. I'd ... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 19:24:37 EST My favorite place to grocery shop!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3479557 I live in Dayton, OH which is about 45 minutes or so north of Cincinnati. Well, I consider myself really lucky because Cinci has a place called Jungle Jim's which is the best store ever! They have huge cheese, wine, dessert, meat and produce departments. Also, they have great selections of food from other countries. Well, I was on a quest for fresh figs. KARVY09 mentioned them a couple of weeks ago and TURBOGIRL mentioned them today. I've never had a fresh fig so wanted to check them ou... Wed, 28 Jul 2010 18:07:00 EST Getting my http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3360681 I picked up the term "RAWR" from my best friend. When I think about it I picture someone who feels strong (mentally and physically), powerful, confident and not afraid of change. I had some "RAWR" for awhile but lately it's been lacking in my life. I am in the process of a divorce (I had no idea it would take so long) and I've been frustrated with the situation lately. I'm starting to feel powerless about what's going on. Today I had a stern talk with myself (no beating myself up, just p... Tue, 22 Jun 2010 17:44:04 EST A good trip to the grocery store! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3322990 I made a long overdue trip to the grocery store today. I took my time and tried to stick to the perimeter of the store (just like you're supposed to do) and ended up with some really good food. I was so proud of myself I just wanted to share. <BR> <BR> OK...I couldn't get my pictures to load...grrr!!! So, I'll just tell you what I got: fresh pineapples, strawberries, asparagus, brocoli, salad in a bag (my goal is to eat this, I am horrible about buying them and not eating them), sliced ... Fri, 11 Jun 2010 01:39:03 EST I am oh so smooth!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3257490 Today my friend Sandy and I went shopping together. She is a very good friend and always makes me feel good about myself, we always have a lot of fun together. So, we start out shopping at the flea market. We went past a booth that sold hair extensions and the things that make your ponytail look fuller...all kinds of hair stuff. Well, I always wear my hair pulled back in a ponytail...it's just easier that way. I found a ponytail "booster" (not sure of the technical term) that matched my ... Sat, 22 May 2010 18:31:36 EST A dog-sitting adventure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3052379 This week I am house, dog and cat sitting for some friends. It's actually kind of a mini vacation for me. They have an awesome house. Since my husband and I separated in October I've been living in our old house. I haven't signed up for cable so I've been using my Netflix subscription very regularly and I don't have an actual bed at the house so I've been sleeping on an air mattress (not as bad as it sounds, it's pretty comfortable). So I've kind of been living "in limbo" the past few mo... Sun, 28 Mar 2010 12:49:47 EST A project while I am off work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3003214 I have decided that while I am on my leave of absence from work I am going to try to cook more at home. I was looking at my freezer today and I seriously think I have enough food in there to get me through until I go back to work. My goal while I am not working is to only buy fresh produce and milk and use the things I have in my freezer and pantry to get me through until I go back. I like to cook and just usually don't have enough time so I'm looking forward to trying out some new recipes.... Mon, 15 Mar 2010 17:22:03 EST Regaining control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2993709 OK...I have had a fair amount of stress in my life lately. I am separated from my husband. I am trying to get a divorce as amicably as possible but he is dragging his feet and not signing the papers. It's been almost 5 months since I moved out and I feel like I haven't made any progress. <BR> <BR> I thought I was handling it Ok but recently found out that I've developed ulcers and gastritis (you'd think that the fact that I've thrown up almost daily since the end of November would've been... Sat, 13 Mar 2010 01:15:55 EST Too fat for yoga...what the heck??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2911193 Ok, I was going through some old workout tapes (yep I said tapes...that's how old they are) and found a set called AM and PM Yoga. I'm not nearly as flexible as I used to be and I always enjoyed yoga so decided to start using the workouts. I did my first p.m. workout tonight. I've never really carried my weight in my stomach area until this time around...it got in my way when I was doing some of the poses. What the heck is up with that???? Sheesh...I thought yoga would be a good way to e... Sun, 21 Feb 2010 23:26:01 EST Looking forward to 2010 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2671930 It's that time of year...the New Year's resolution list time :). I have decided that I need to make 2010 the year that I start taking care of myself. I don't want to sound selfish but I'm 42 years old (yikes) and I'm finally ready to start doing what's best for me. <BR> <BR> Of course I want to lose weight...that's always somewhere on the list but I'm more interested in improving my health. I don't know how I've weighed this much for so long and have been lucky enough to avoid any major... Thu, 31 Dec 2009 11:59:44 EST Starting over...again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2590717 OK...I am going through some major changes right now. After 11&1/2 years of marriage I have left my husband. We've had a rocky relationship for awhile but this past year has been really rough and after putting it off I finally decided I needed to do what was best for me. If that makes me selfish...so be it. Oddly enough, since I left, my husband has decided that now he can treat me the way I deserve to be treated and is asking for another chance. I am second guessing myself every day but... Thu, 26 Nov 2009 19:46:28 EST A new exercise goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2376036 I found out the other day that my niece (8 years) and nephew (5 years) are participating in a new program at school. The goal is for them to complete a marathon over a period of time. They get to school early 3 days per week to run and their distances are tracked over the time of this program. They've both passed the half-marathon mark. I've decided to try the same approach. I'll start with the marathon then go from there. I think it's a pretty cool way to get the kids involved in an ac... Sat, 5 Sep 2009 17:05:35 EST What am I doing???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2336951 Ok...I know what it takes to lose weight. Eat less (and healthier) and exercise more. I know that I feel better when I do these two things. Why can't I seem to get myself together and just DO IT? Things are crazy in my home and work life right now so you would think that I would welcome the chance to have control over something...my diet and exercise. But I can't even seem to handle that. I know I just need to take some deep breaths, step back and evaluate my situation but it's like I'v... Sat, 22 Aug 2009 14:19:38 EST Stepping out of the bacon box http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2298412 I have decided to try making some food substitutions to help cut back on my calorie count. I had my first BLT of the summer today and tried it with turkey bacon. I was pleasantly surprised! Not as crispy as the real stuff but the flavor was pretty good. This is a trade I think I can stick with. I have tried the veggie bacon in the past...that experiment didn't work out quite as well :) <BR> <BR> Here's to trying new things!!!! Sat, 8 Aug 2009 15:11:40 EST Ready...set...GO! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2292201 OK, I think I am finally ready to get started on this program. The best part is that it's just common sense, eat better and exercise more. The bad part is that I don't always follow my common sense which has gotten me to this point in the first place! I am off work for the next 10 days so I am hoping to get going with the food and exercise tracking so I will be better prepared when I go back to work. <BR> <BR> I am hoping that this is the program that will work for me!! Thu, 6 Aug 2009 08:44:55 EST