YA_YAYA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=YA%5FYAYA YA_YAYA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ This is How it Works..Right Friends? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525059 So my biggest issue since I started my diet I believe is how I have defined it... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/9/l894083386.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Then I thought about my weaknesses...I really, really love sugar and once I have a little I end up stuffing my face with it until the sugar supply is gone... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l888165178.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This sugar addiction and problem with the definition of diet really has lead to unpleasan... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 23:03:10 EST Oh Frustrated Me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5521802 I have consistently been at least getting in an hour of exercise each day. Today however I wasn't able to and now I am a combo of tired and anxious. That kind of feeling you only get when your body gets used to feeling healthy and you take a total dive off the cliff into fattyville. Today my diet was poor poor, to much sugar, not enough exercise. Tomorrow I am in the car at 6 a.m. and don't get home until 9 p.m.ish. I have to find a way to eat right and exercise. <BR> <BR> Green tea i... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 22:57:59 EST THAT JUST HAPPENED- MOTIVATION http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5514443 Yep, that just happened, I got engaged. This past weekend the love of my life and best friend proposed to me on top of a mountain. The day in hindsight is pretty funny, I was the only one at his family’s camp who didn’t know that it was going to happen on Saturday. After learning that, I could then start to put together the funny little pieces of information – like the comments that seemed a little off, or the fact that we hike as a group every year and this year it was just the boy and I,... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 16:37:42 EST What happened? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5508312 To my willpower with food? I used to be much better about getting back on the wagon with regard to food but now as I get older my willpower to do this has diminished. Exercise, not an issue. I can do that. Eating however, my demise. I actually get anxious on a daily basis about it. I don't know if I need a diet or psychologist. Maybe both. Very frustrated with myself. Tue, 8 Oct 2013 20:27:11 EST Lesson's Learned http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5503896 There are some people who are born to struggle, one in particular, a beautiful 6 year old boy, lost his life a week ago this past Monday due to a battle with a heart defect. <BR> <BR> I sit here and can't help but think how hard life was for this child, and how he embraced it, fought for it, and made every day "the best day of [his] life". <BR> <BR> I feel he has taught me that where there is a will there is a way. That I should take every opportunity to live a healthy and long life and... Thu, 3 Oct 2013 22:08:58 EST Down 1.5lbs... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5486848 How?Ate out less & exercised more. <BR> <BR> Fitbit helps keep me honest. I can see the in versus out so I can't lie to myself about how active I am or if I am eating too much. I am still glad that I bought it. <BR> <BR> I also have used the fitbit to set goals that I didn't have before so I am walking more (about 4000 steps more) <BR> Mon, 16 Sep 2013 05:01:47 EST I Will Never Forget... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5483078 I will never forget the moment by moment play of 9/11. It was the one time in my life that my Guard unit had a real recall, not a practice. We never went after being called since so many other first responders flooded the city that sending more in would have just added to the chaos. We all so badly wanted to help; you couldn't help but watch things transpire on TV without feeling the need to do something to help all of our American brothers and sisters who were suffering. I will say a prayer ... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 21:06:40 EST The Cold That Won't Go Away http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482047 I am going to take a minute to complain because DANG this cold won't shake. It seems to be worse not better over time. I am so freaking tired, no voice and just done with it all. <BR> <BR> Positive thinking...it will get better, it will get better, it will get better! <BR> <BR> Thank you for listening and good day! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l492672461.jpg"> <BR> Tue, 10 Sep 2013 21:10:38 EST Yep, Still a Cool Toy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5480973 Fitbit week 2 begins. Love this thing. I have made sure I have walked more so that I meet my step goals which also increases my calorie burn. I can see how many calories I burn a day compared to what I am eating. It takes the mystery out of weight loss. So cool. <BR> <BR> I also keep looking at me sleep log which has simply proven that I don't get enough sleep. I wake up way too often. It can't be normal. I will at least have something to show my doctor now. I can say with some accura... Mon, 9 Sep 2013 20:45:36 EST The Fitbit Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475905 My new obsession -FITBIT- it is awesome because it syncs with Sparkpeople (yay!). <BR> <BR> What I have learned in a few days: <BR> <BR> I have sat on my butt way too much! <BR> I am not sleeping very well...I get the right amount of hours but don't actually sleep the whole time (this is no surprise). <BR> I need to eat less. <BR> <BR> None of this is a surprise to me. This past weekend was spent in a small cabin in the Adirondacks with a lot of people. I could have gone for a run in ... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 16:24:38 EST Getting Ready For a Successful Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5465345 I really am at a point where I am ready, so ready, to commit to a healthy, fit life. <BR> <BR> I am a bit anxious over my week ahead which involves two nights of eating out and a holiday weekend in which I will be out of town. <BR> <BR> Monday night is the first out to dinner night and my plan is to order a garden salad w/ dressing on the side and the seared ahi tuna appetizer as my meal. <BR> <BR> Friday night the menu changes by the day so I can't really pick something beforehand but my... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 23:57:04 EST Feeling the Burn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5463348 I stuck to plan again today:) Success day by day is the plan. <BR> <BR> Given I am not starting at ground zero in the fitness department as I am a runner and have run marathons, triathlons and Tough Mudders I am thoroughly amazed at how sore I am from my second day on Crossfit. Today was a kick butt workout (aren't they all in Crossfit?), I was by far the weakest link in the class. Based on prior experience I know that I won't always be weakest link as with consistant effort my body will gr... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 18:24:37 EST Celebration Time Come On -- Well not so fast... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5462359 Victory - today was an active day w/ two work outs and a successful food day with body nourishing foods in the right quantity at the right time:) My energy level was good and consistent throughout the day. <BR> <BR> I was successful because I had a plan, which I stuck to (the hard part). The morning workouts are hard to get up for but they take away all excuses other then the lame "just too tired" excuse. <BR> <BR> I had my food put together the night before and left work early enoug... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 20:25:00 EST Workout Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461524 Wednesday - Plan: 6 am Crossfit; Lunch run; Evening walk-- <BR> Actual: 6 a.m. Crossfit; Lunch run/walk <BR> <BR> Thursday- Plan: 6 am Crossfit; Lunch walk; Evening Yoga <BR> Actual: 6 am Crossfit, no time at lunch, too sore from prior workouts, need to <BR> rest up for tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Friday- 6 am Crossfit; Lunch & evening walk <BR> Saturday - morning bike ride (60min); yard work (60min) <BR> Sunday: walk(60 min) Tue, 20 Aug 2013 23:14:01 EST Sweet Tooth Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461474 My arch nemesis is sugar so I have joined the Sweet Tooth Challenge. <BR> <BR> To be successful tomorrow I have: <BR> Put together some crockpot oatmeal that I will turn on when I head to bed. <BR> I have a lunch put together <BR> I will avoid going into the cafe at work tomorrow <BR> I will get in a cross fit workout in the a.m. <BR> I have planned dinner and will make it when I get home tomorrow:) Tue, 20 Aug 2013 22:15:04 EST It's All a Rollercoaster http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461445 Feeling: Discouraged <BR> <BR> Diet today: Poor <BR> <BR> Weight: Up 5lbs (new high) <BR> <BR> Energy: Low (possible new allergies?) <BR> <BR> In need of: Real Committment + more work outs + less sugar in my diet <BR> <BR> <em>46</em> Tue, 20 Aug 2013 21:51:20 EST My Run http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454525 When I reflect back in trying to figure out why I have gained weight it is largely tied to running. As part of my bucket list I trained and ran the Boston Marathon. In that training I failed to properly plan my diet and over compensated for the calories burned. After the marathon I was both injured and burnt out from running so I stopped. Stopped running and working out altogether. I didn't reduce my calories and so as a natural consequence my weight has climbed. My body feels under used a... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 23:03:40 EST What it Feels Like to Lose http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452178 Cautiously fantastic. What a week. Quasi successful, at least I spent time paying attention to what I ate and understanding my triggers. I tried to counter act my triggers by being prepared with healthier options. Brought my breakfast to work, bought an afternoon treat that was 1/2 the calories, 1/2 the fat, lower in sugar and higher in fiber the my traditional afternoon snack to keep at my desk. Packed the fridge with fruit, veggies & lean meats. All the above kept me 85% on track. It ... Sun, 11 Aug 2013 21:47:02 EST Today's Observations & Tomorrow's Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5445687 Evaluation of today: <BR> <BR> Breakfast- Over did it. I had a mini bagel w/ PB, 1 c fruit, 1 yogurt, granola. The yogurt was a Trader Joe's greek yogurt. I hadn't read the label ahead of time and assumed it was similar to other greek yogurts I have had. Nope, this one was 320 calories, 26 grams of sugar and 18 grams of fat (11 g of sat fat). Yikes. Who knew? I will be sticking to what I know for greek yogurt and skipping the Trader Joe's version. <BR> <BR> Lunch- Didn't have much tim... Mon, 5 Aug 2013 20:54:20 EST Commitment and Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5444610 For years I have been starting and stopping the diet process and although I have had some successes (one particular one that has been somewhat lasting) I find myself here again as I gain weight feeling particularly frustrated and discouraged. <BR> <BR> Over the past few years I have steadily gained weight. At each "freak out point" I become self-loathing, emotional, and on the verge of hopelessness over it. My body and mind both feeling the weight and increasing inefficiency. At this jun... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 22:11:30 EST Tuesday's Goals Met http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5341221 I have been pretty good about sticking to plan, today is no exception however right now I want to dive into a pizza then wash it down with a oreo hot fudge sunday. I am almost ready for bed and fortunately do not have access to a pizza or ice cream. Phew! <BR> <BR> I am wondering if it is the run today that is contributing to my hunger. I ate all that I normally do, very balanced and healthy. Nonetheless, I am still hungry. <BR> <BR> I will have to accept it and not let it ruin a perf... Tue, 30 Apr 2013 21:13:01 EST Tuesday Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5340302 Stay 100% on the meal plan and run 3 miles. Tue, 30 Apr 2013 05:18:36 EST Another Successful Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5340056 Phew, another day down and with the meal plan I have been successful. The boy and I also enjoyed a much needed therapeutic walk on the beach. There is something about the breeze, smell, sound, and sight that just breathes life into me and relieves my mind of its worries. <BR> <BR> Mon, 29 Apr 2013 22:07:19 EST New Week, New Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5338727 Last week I started using the meal plans and fell in love with the variety of options. I stuck with it and lost weight. I am excited to use the meal plans again this week. However with a new week I want another goal. My goal is going to be one goal for one day. I will revisit my goal making again Monday night to decide what to do next. <BR> <BR> Monday's goal = No television. Sun, 28 Apr 2013 21:42:12 EST 5lbs Down...Want to know how? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5337457 I did it with the Spark meal plans. It is just so crazy awesome how easy and flexible the meal plans are; they leave me full and satisfied; and they don't require me to waste food. <BR> <BR> For the first time in a very long time I feel like I can do this, that I am on the right track and very soon people are going to start asking me "how I did it". Best of all I can tell them about Spark, a FREE weight loss website that teaches you how to eat, not how to diet. <BR> <BR> I appreciate the... Sat, 27 Apr 2013 16:09:09 EST Word of the Day: Satisfied http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5335772 The meal plans on Sparkpeople are leaving me satisfied. One of my MAJOR struggles with weight loss is controlling sweet cravings. They are strong and distracting. HOWEVER, I have stuck to the meal plan now for almost a week and notice that I don't have such strong cravings. I am satisfied, I don't need more food. The food I am eating tastes good, there is enough of it, no complaints. <BR> <BR> My protien intake is about 35-50% higher on any given day. My fiber intake and Vitamin D int... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 22:25:02 EST A Lesson from Some Very Strong People http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334911 A friend of mine died in an accident. The cause of the accident, the man who hit her was texting at the time of the crash hitting her on her motorcycle, full speed, from behind. <BR> <BR> She was a single mom of one son, she had a brother previously deceased from cancer, a sister, and her parents, amongst many aunts, uncles, cousins and friends. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was the sentencing of the man who hit her. He got 6 months with 3 months on good behavior. <BR> <BR> This short sentence did ... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 07:07:41 EST Sparkpeople Meal Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5333362 Two words: Love It! <BR> <BR> I have avoided the meal plans for as long as I have been on here but have started using them this week. They are awesome because they are so easy and flexible. You can swap out by item or meal however if you stick to the options you always end up with a balanced diet. <BR> <BR> I am very excited to keep going. This is what I need. Hello Sparkpeople, looking forward to using your wonderful tools. No more resistance. Tue, 23 Apr 2013 20:06:04 EST My Demise-Cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324411 My mind obsesses on sweets to the point where I physically crave it. It consumes me. It is crazy how strong the desire, the ability for my mind to hiper focus on the thought of caving into the cravings once it starts. I wish my mind could hiper focus on something more productive and healthy! <BR> <BR> This obsession, hiper-focus, desire, craving whatever you want to call it is eating me. I am trying to control it tonight. I just want to make it through this evening. That is my only goa... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 20:37:18 EST It's Been a While http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5316512 I haven't been blogging, mostly because, you guessed it, I fell off the wagon. Frustrated with a few things that seem to act as rode blocks got me off track. However, what makes people successful? Getting back on the saddle and trying again until they succeed. So I am back. <BR> <BR> I have something that I didn't have before, a boyfriend who has gained enough weight that his doctor told him it is time to change. He is taking that seriously. I think this will make all the difference, w... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 22:50:23 EST To be Organic or Not to Be... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302487 This week, I thought I would go mostly organic. Lunch, breakfast, snacks all organic. Dinner not so much. <BR> <BR> I do admittably feel better, my mood, my energy level, bloat wise, better. Cravings even, better. Is it the organic thing or not?? I don't know, but I started out a warn out and stressed and as of today, day 3 of organic life. I am less tired, less stressed...not yet 100% free of either. <BR> <BR> I also have less bloat which say's a lot right now (time of month). <BR> <... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 20:55:25 EST Sweet Tooth Challenge Week One http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5295419 <em>15</em> Emotionally stressed, physically exhausted.... <BR> <BR> I bombed it today. I ate cookies and cake and a couple of spoonfuls of ice cream. There are also brownies in the oven that I am committing to NOT eat. Those are going to work. <BR> <BR> A shrink should come with the sweet tooth challenge. My current shrink is sugar. Arghhhh. <em>46</em> Thu, 21 Mar 2013 19:53:16 EST Sweet Tooth Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5294134 On week one of Sparkpeople's Sweet Tooth Challenge so I am posting, per protocol how my day went. <BR> <BR> I stayed away from cookies, candy, cake, ice cream.... <BR> <BR> I ate grapes, drank coffee and ate Fiber One 90 calorie bars. <BR> <BR> Since I gave up coffee a while ago and I ate two Fiber One bars I think I am just exchanging one set of calories with another. <BR> <BR> The grapes are a good fall back. Tomorrow I will work drinking tea (no sugar) rather then coffee and limit ... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 19:42:51 EST Sweet Tooth Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293002 List the reasons why you want to cut back. Maybe you want to lose weight, prevent diabetes, manage your blood sugar levels, or just make more room for healthier foods. Keep these reasons in a place where you'll see them every day when you need a boost. <BR> <BR> <BR> -Lose Weight <BR> -Feel healthier <BR> -Prevent diabetes <BR> -Manage blood sugar levels <BR> -Better vitamin absorbtion (high sugar = low stomach acid which ='s poor absorbtion of vitamins) <BR> <BR> I will read this blog ea... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 22:36:31 EST Fitness Challenge Setback http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5290297 Today would be day 16 of the P90x 30 day challenge but for a problem with my T.V. My video's will not play on my computer or my T.V. I went out to the store to buy a new DVD player to only find $30 later that it isn't he DVD player. It is the T.V. My T.V. is undoubtably old but why would the video function stop detecting my DVD player? Everthing is hooked up properly, plugged in properly but nothing, no picture. <BR> <BR> I am very disappointed and I am not sure what to do. To add sal... Sun, 17 Mar 2013 20:52:08 EST Day 14- FITNESS CHALLENGE - almost halfway! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5287439 14/30 day p90x challenge. <BR> <BR> Workouts this week were mentally easier then week one. The workouts are hard but a little experience goes a long way. It is time to incorporate better nutrition into the mix. <BR> <BR> I feel as if I need to exercise now to feel good as oppose to chill out to feel good. My one rest day a week is good enough. <BR> <BR> It is also easier to stick to the program as I travel since it is easy to throw the videos in my bag and do the workout where I go. <BR> ... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 08:32:13 EST Day 11 - FITNESS CHALLENGE- challenginggggggg http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284426 p90x - 30 day fitness challenge - Yoga x <BR> <BR> On a scale of 1-10 today I feel about a 5. Not feeling myself today. Sick to my stomach, tired, chills/hot...ick. <BR> <BR> I climbed stairs at lunch today for 30 minutes...slowly, but still painfully. I can not belive how hard climbing stairs can be, especially when I am feeling clamy. <BR> <BR> I did 45 minutes of the 90 minutes of yoga before I just crapped out. I don't feel good but really that just gave me an excuse. I am not o... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 20:50:39 EST Day 10! -FITNESS CHALLENGE- Milestone:) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5283012 P90x- 30 Day Challenge <BR> <BR> Yes, yes, yes I am 1/3 of the way there! I feel good about what I have accomplished so far. Today was round two of Arms & Shoulders and then Ab Ripper X. I stepped up the weight for my arms. I definatley need to get more weights for variety purposes. <BR> <BR> As Phil from Duck Dynasty would say "Happy, happy, happy"... <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> Mon, 11 Mar 2013 20:19:36 EST Day 9- FITNESS CHALLENGE- It's Routine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281717 P90x- I am now in my second week of my 30 day p90x challenge and I am in the routine. Mentally, working out an hour plus a day strangely gets easier when it becomes part of the everyday routine. Everyone around me knows that I am going to consume the T.V. for at least 1 hour a day. <BR> <BR> It also helps to put some walk to all that talk. I don't know how many times I have said "Starting tomorrow..." This repetitive proclamation then lack of commitment has yielded a lack of faith in m... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 21:32:08 EST Day 5- FITNESS CHALLENGE - It's adding up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5276548 p90x Legs & back & ab ripper x... <BR> <BR> 60 flights of stairs <BR> <BR> 890 calories burned! <BR> <BR> My body feels tired but stronger and more flexible... <BR> <BR> Now off to get some well deserved rest! <BR> <BR> <em>362</em> Wed, 6 Mar 2013 21:13:47 EST Day 4- FITNESS CHALLENGE- Toughest one yet! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5275045 P90x - 30 day Challenge, Day 4 = 92 minutes of "Yoga X" <BR> <BR> I bend about as well as a steel rod. Yoga x is no joke and is surely advanced for me but nonetheless, I am done. <BR> <BR> In addition, I completed 6 flights of stairs and 30 minutes on the elliptical at the gym. <BR> <BR> Today's calorie burn = just under 800 calories. <BR> <BR> I was HUNGRY after the gym today. I made some poor choices as a result. Planning my nutrition better on "extra" workout days is going to be ... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 22:07:10 EST DAY THREE FITNESS CHALLENGE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5273314 Yes, yes, yes...Day 3 complete. 1 hour 20 minutes of arms, shoulders and abs complete. Feeling good, a little sore but keeping on, keeping on:) <BR> <BR> Yoga is day 4 of p90x ...90 minutes long. It is going to be good for my soreness but the strength portion is not going to be easy. 90 minutes. 90 minutes...boy oh boy. Mon, 4 Mar 2013 20:41:18 EST Day 2 - FITNESS CHALLENGE - Boom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5271797 Day 2 complete! I had a house full of ladies and even with an audiance I did it. I am a little sore and feeling really good about this accomplishment. Tommorrow day 3...here I come. <BR> <em>344</em> <BR> Sun, 3 Mar 2013 21:43:11 EST DAY 1- FITNESS CHALLENGE- ROCKING IT! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269575 My challenge - 30 consecutive days of p90x lean program. <BR> <BR> Today- Core Synergisitcs which is an approximately 58 minutes, fluid video (by fluid I mean very little rest). <BR> <BR> My goal is to do the workout in the morning before anything else to prevent against any excuses not too. <BR> <BR> MISSION ACCOMPLISHED today...by 9 a.m. on a Saturday, without leaving the comfort of my home I have completed my work out. <BR> <BR> I was feeling anxious about making this commitment ... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 10:35:08 EST FITNESS CHALLENGE----tomorrow Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5269132 Word #1 = Anxiety <BR> Statement #1= Desire to finally lose some weight and get stronger <BR> <BR> Committment #1: <BR> <BR> For the next 30 days I will follow the p90x fitness program....I will incorporate 120 minutes of cardio along with the p90x program. <BR> <BR> I will get up and do p90x in the morning! First thing. No excuses. I will find an interval cardio program to increase my cardio endurance. <BR> <BR> WHY DO I HAVE ANXIETY???? Failure in this case is a choice. I am not ... Fri, 1 Mar 2013 22:42:56 EST Challenging Week Ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5264049 I am on track. I really am. Finally I feel strong, I found my willpower, I have increased my activity. I am enjoying the food I am eating. Yay.... <BR> <BR> This week however is a tough one- tonight I went to ladies night, Wednesday I have a wine/food pairing event and Saturday I have friend coming in from out of town for a bachelorette party. <BR> <BR> I feel like I can get through this but need some pointers. If anyone has any suggestions please let me know:) Mon, 25 Feb 2013 22:30:39 EST Can I get a Woot Wooo???!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5259127 Key word of the day- Willpower. Today, despite hunger pains and sweet temptations I have had success! I used this thing called "willpower". Have you heard of it before? <BR> <BR> I thought that this willpower thing was a myth, something that skinny people made up to make fatty's feel inferior. It's real however and I tapped into this special power. <BR> <BR> Now, truth be told, I didn't like the way I felt about it as it was happening. The café at work purposefully made some yummy des... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 19:01:44 EST Oh Dang http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5257813 How do you turn a perfectly good, well-planned day into a flop-- come home from work and in one swoop eat ice cream, candy, and rice cakes with butter. Oops:( <BR> <BR> Skipping what I planned for dinner. <BR> <BR> Not proud of myself. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> Wed, 20 Feb 2013 17:51:52 EST Good Day's are Adding Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256655 Visualization - picturing myself thin, picturing myself making a better food decisions, planning my food out for the day, making sure I have food in the fridge that tastes good and is healthy... these things are helping the "good days" add up. <BR> <BR> Good amount of protien, right number of calories, good amount of fiber, vitamins and 60 minutes of exercise...this is a good day for me, now I have had two of them:) <BR> <BR> <em>248</em> Tue, 19 Feb 2013 20:25:56 EST Daily Celebrations and Mini Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5255429 Today I (1) stayed within my calorie range and (2) I got in 60 minutes of exercise:) <BR> <BR> My mini goal this week is to use visualization to get through those hard moments. I will wake up and picture myself at my goal weight. I will visualize myself choosing a healthy food over a trigger food. I will visualize myself completing an hour workout. <BR> <BR> This is an easy goal to achieve. I have learned that this is the way to be successful in the fast break program. I am putting as... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 21:33:12 EST