YANDI4LIFE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=YANDI4LIFE YANDI4LIFE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6405401 I'm on <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/7ad0bf4f-d1ff-452b-9774-49352dc9b441.jpg">vacation in SC for a week. The food is so good here. I'm trying to stay on track, but I'm having a hard time with my eating. I did manage to hit the gym, and I plan on going everyday even if I only walk the treadmill or get on the elliptical machine. <BR> I hope that when I return home next week I haven't done too much damage, but if I find that it's worse than I'm expecting, I will not beat mys... Tue, 29 Aug 2017 15:28:28 EST Day 2 at Montebello http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6394652 I went back today for another two miles. Today I only walked because I feel the walk/run from yesterday in my right hip, and I'm still in the recovery phase. I just figured it's better to be safe than sorry. I don't want any setbacks. It was still a good workout, and I made sure to stretch afterward. <BR> It really feels great to be getting back on track. I've been trying to keep up with my food diary too. For the most part, I've been good. There have been a few slip ups here and there but no... Tue, 1 Aug 2017 11:12:19 EST Great start to my day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6394197 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/616c2d02-fb4f-447f-8cd6-5e5a9232df3e.jpg">This morning I got out of bed, washed my face, brushed my teeth, put on some clothes, grabbed a protein bar, banana and a bottle of water and headed out the door. I did all of this without thinking to much because I didn't want to have time to talk myself out of what I was doing. <BR> I was determined this was my morning to restart my walk/run routine. I chose Lake Montebello as the spot this morning. ... Mon, 31 Jul 2017 10:32:47 EST What a morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6392686 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/6974b025-84b1-4c2a-9405-9a4194abb467.jpg"> I am beginning to come down from being extremely irritated. Work ,people not doing what they say they're going to do, and people not having respect for other people's (my) belongings have all made my blood boil today. I had to sit alone and regroup. Normally I would be calming myself right now with some unhealthy comfort food, but today I chose to be in control instead of letting my emotions take over.... Thu, 27 Jul 2017 10:31:45 EST Finally!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6392261 I look in the mirror and like what I see. There has not been a major change in my appearance. If anything, I'm larger. The difference comes from within. I am finally learning to accept me for who I am...me. I do still want to lose the extra weight, but not for the same reasons as before. I am (all 236 pounds of me) a beautiful person. If I knew how to get the pictures off of my phone, I would show you <em>30</em> <BR> This morning someone told me I was glowing. My baby days are long gone,... Wed, 26 Jul 2017 10:34:21 EST Learning from my mistakes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6359577 Iam so happy that everyday is a chance to start over because yesterday was horrible! T feels like I ate Fromm the time my eyes opened unto I went to bed. Trust me; it wasn't a good feeling. I woke up today determined to do better. One of my mistakes was the snacks I bought when did he grocery shopping. I purchased snack cakes because I thought I had control. I don't. Lesson learned. I'm going back to healthy snacks only in the house. Tue, 9 May 2017 04:32:11 EST Small goal set http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6303651 I was looking over my driver's license and realized I'm 6 pounds over the weight listed on it. That's my new goal...to lose 6 pounds. I know it's not a lot, but it's a start, and I believe I'll reach it. It's a great way for me to regain composure after the holidays. Mon, 23 Jan 2017 09:41:23 EST New Mindset http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6267144 The other day I had a complete melt down and decided to blog about it. SP members responded and lifted my spirits. Thank you to all that left comments on the blog. Today I report that I am feeling a lot better. I know this is going to be a journey that will have good and bad days, and I am going to try not to be so hard on myself during the bad days. What I realize now is that it will take some planning to make it work. <BR> <BR> One of the things I decided to do was upgrade my account to pr... Tue, 15 Nov 2016 06:28:59 EST I Know Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6265295 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5e67e2bd-8c44-40e9-9b5a-7b2526d01cb8.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I claim to know so much about nutrition, and I'm quick to give advice on the subject, but when it comes to my own wellbeing, I screw up every time. Today I am so disappointed in myself. I'm so tired of not getting it right. I really don't know why I haven't thrown in the towel. I know what I want, and I know how to make it happen, but I can't seem to make it happen! What is... Fri, 11 Nov 2016 14:01:49 EST Feeling better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6264844 Doing better today. I haven't had any emotional eating problems <BR> today. I made bean soup for dinner, and I'm about to get <BR> my rest for work tonight. I need to get back to work and get <BR> moving. Between my back and foot problems, there hasn't <BR> been much of that, and I miss it. Thu, 10 Nov 2016 14:12:29 EST Emotional Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6264409 Today my son and I had a huge disagreement,he said some pretty hurtful stuff. He wasn't disrespectful, but what was said still hurt. Although I tried not to think about it after he left, I couldn't let it go. Before I knew it, I was baking cookies. One dozen...that's how many I ate before I stopped myself. Now I'm sitting here with an upset stomach and a bunch of empty calories to go along with my hurt feelings. Guess I better not brood over it too long or I might find myself eating a gallon ... Wed, 9 Nov 2016 15:08:33 EST Not too bad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6261691 My vacation was AWESOME! One of the first things I did when I got home was hop on the scale 🙄 and to my surprise, I only gained 2 pounds😅. I guess all that walking paid off. Now I just need to get serious and motivated about getting back into some kind of routine. Fri, 4 Nov 2016 02:52:21 EST Vacation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6255317 Today I weighed in at 241 pounds. My cruise starts tomorrow, and I am hoping that when I return, I won't be to upset with myself. It has been years since I have had an exciting vacation, and I don't want to ruin it by over doing it. My plan is to take full advantage of the on board fitness center and track. Who says I can't have fun and stay healthy and fit 😉 Sat, 22 Oct 2016 09:20:45 EST Today I'm a Pear http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5942852 My waist to hip ratio is 0.78. That makes me a pear. It's something I've worked hard for over the years. Usually I would give up, but something was different this time around. My determination and courage and belief in myself that I could make a change is much stronger this time around. <BR> <BR> For the last ten weeks, I have been taking part in the Y Fit Challenge. The support of my group was AWESOME! I can't wait for the next session to begin in September. My team work hard, and last nigh... Wed, 10 Jun 2015 10:14:39 EST I love my trackers but.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938720 I have a Fitbit Charge HR, SPAT, and a Polar heart rate monitor. I love them all but I don't want to have them connected to my SP account anymore. Actually the Polar never was. They are all very good for what they do. It's just too confusing when it comes to calorie counting. I was going in circles for the last few days trying to make up my mind about disconnecting them. After looking at my tracker tonight, I decided it was time. I will still use them because they are handy weight loss tools ... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 22:07:00 EST Why is enough never enough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5938070 I have a new obsession. It's good and bad. It's good because I have developed a habit that I must get at least 30 minutes of exercise everyday. It's bad because I have a hard time turning it off. NO matter what I do, I always convince myself it wasn't enough. I know it's crazy, but how do I stop it. I completed my strength training circuit earlier today, and when I got home, I felt like I had to do more. I'm surprised I haven't worn myself out. I love exercising now and finding new ways to ch... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 19:55:29 EST Reality Check Needed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5936510 I was just in bed thinking about my day. I was actually being horrible to myself with my thoughts. I messed up tonight by eating too much ice cream. Early today somebody shared something with me that left me feeling sad. I guess the ice cream was my comfort food. Anyway, I was thinking how horrible I am for blowing it with the ice cream and how I didn't workout as hard as I normally do. When all of a sudden a <em>3</em> went off. I have not missed a single day of exercise in 59 days. Today... Fri, 29 May 2015 22:55:46 EST The mirror made me do it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935386 I had just about talked myself out of going to the gym. As I was passing the mirror in the hallway, I took a peek, and I saw more of my collar bones than before. It was all the motivation I needed to get out of the house. I did my C25K run/walk and my strength training circuit. When I got home my pooch was looking at me like he knew mommy didn't feel like our usual walk. The look sucker punched me. I don't know how I did it, but I manage to take him out. It was a shorter walk than usual, but ... Wed, 27 May 2015 21:26:08 EST Winding down for the evening http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934264 I'm still holding on. Some days are easier than others, but I manage. At least I am free of school for a couple of weeks. The ed of the semester was really stressing me out. I have decided to take one class over the summer, but it doesn't start until mid-June. My appetite is still getting use to have to eat more because of the amount of calories that I burn. Some days I feel like I'm not going to make it or that I'm eating too much, but I haven't gained, so I guess I'm not consuming too many ... Mon, 25 May 2015 23:04:40 EST Getting healthier by the minute http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928686 I can bend over and tie my shoes now. I can sleep through the night. I have so much energy, and most days I am not bothered by depression.I feel stronger. I like what I see when I look in the mirror. My fat rolls on my back are still there, but they are much smaller. I have learned to like sweating. That's a big one for me. I have control over eating instead of eating having control over me. <BR> <BR> These are just a few of the things I have noticed in the last week. It's funny because I w... Fri, 15 May 2015 13:53:08 EST Still making progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5924827 It's official...no more blood pressure medication! My consistency has paid off. Also, the scale budged in the right direction this morning. It wasn't a full pound, but it moved, and I'll take it. Last night I was looking in the mirror, and I liked what I saw looking back at me. I thought "If I don't lose another pound, I'm okay." For the first time in a very long time, I'm comfortable in my skin. In no way am I stopping here, but I like the way I feel at this stage. I'm beginning to gain conf... Fri, 8 May 2015 12:42:34 EST Received some good news Friday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5922730 During Friday's doctor visit I was told my blood pressure is "beautiful". I don't remember how long ago I was diagnosed with high blood pressure because it's been so long. But it was good to hear that if I continue going the way I'm going that I might be coming off of my medication soon. At the least, my dosage will be decreased. I was shocked. My doctor was totally impressed when I showed her my picture collage of pics of me since early March. I told her about the different steps I have been... Mon, 4 May 2015 22:57:56 EST Doing good and making progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920778 Laughing at myself this morning because I have completed 30 minutes of exercise. Why is that funny? I forgot I have an activity tracker <em>2</em> Silly Me. I was sitting here tracking my exercise, and I saw the device on the screen. It threw me off guard for a second. Then I realized what it was...duh me. I guess old habits do die hard. I'll make sure to put it on for the rest of the day. <BR> My waist is getting smaller. It's now 40 inches. I haven't been this small in the waist for a v... Fri, 1 May 2015 11:45:56 EST Wishing my mood gets better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919240 I'm finally over that sluggish bloated feeling. It had me wanting to scream. I couldn't figure out what was causing it. Yesterday after my gym workout, all I could do was lay around. My stomach (or whatever it was) did like me, and I wasn't liking it. I almost skipped going to the gym, but somehow I managed to get out of the bed and go. I don't know what's up with my mood today. I just told my hubby and daughter that I feel so heavy. It's not about my weight. It's my mood. There is a lot goin... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 17:27:48 EST I'm not vain...I'm amazed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5918130 I cannot walk past a mirror without looking at myself. I try not to do it, but I can't help it. The transformation I see taking place before me is amazing. I've lost one of my faces. I see cute curves beginning to form, and my butt is actually getting smaller (unbelievable). I have pictures, but when I try to post them, they upload sideways, so I delete from my gallery. I've been told I look younger and happier. I actually feel both. Why did it take me so long to get with the program. Oops, t... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 20:13:23 EST I'm getting stronger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917655 I had to take a fitness test, and I was able to do fifty squats. I could have kept going, but I was stopped at fifty. My upper body is still not as strong as I would like it to be, but it's stronger too. <BR> I know as I continue to train that my my strength will continue to grow. It still amazes me how many different areas are improved with exercise. Yesterday I was told my complexion has a glow to it. I can feel my posture improving. It's absolutely wonderful. I can't wait for the weather t... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 21:42:23 EST My daily check-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5917198 Another good day. I am feeling a little sore from my workout earlier. My daughter came over and cooked dinner for me. She kept it simple and healthy. I guess she sees all the effort I am putting forth. I'm just thankful for the dinner because all I wanted to do was rest. I have a lot of studying to do before Tuesday, and I need my mind clear. Fri, 24 Apr 2015 21:43:03 EST Good Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916664 Today was a good day. Nothing exciting or super fabulous occurred, but it was a good day. I'm tired. I feel like I could sleep for at least twelve hours. I've completed my thirty plus minutes of exercise and I have eaten my meals, so all is good. Now I'm going to do what's next on my list...go to bed and rest. Thu, 23 Apr 2015 22:57:46 EST Tired, Tired, Tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916027 It's been a long day. I was happy with my (official) weekly weigh-in. I'm down another 2.2 pounds. I'm glad I got my exercise done early today because this old girl is done. I went to the gym and did a water fitness class, rode the recumbent bike, and completed a strength training circuit. I needed to pick myself up because I didn't do too good on an exam yesterday. I said, "No,no,no there is no time for sitting around sulking." By the end of my workout, I felt a lot better. <BR> I decided to... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 21:33:46 EST All I could say was...WOW http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5915475 This evening my daughter was scrolling through the pictures on my phone and came across a picture of me that was taken on March 3rd. I still cannot believe the difference. It's amazing what consistency will do. I am so motivated and determined to stay on track. I laugh at myself sometimes with the crazy things I do. For instance tonight I was beat after training. I saw that I was coming up short on my calories and protein. I went to McDonald's and ordered the new grilled chicken sandwich with... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 23:32:15 EST I still can't believe it....I completed 30 minutes non-stop on the elliptical machine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914832 My workout partner was cheering me on. I was so excited. As she was helping me get set up on the machine, she asked me if I was going for another 7 minutes (that's what I did Saturday). I said "No, I gonna try for thirty." And I did it <em>104</em> I am amazed at my strength now. My legs felt strong enough to carry me through it. My consistency is beginning to pay off. I'm down 10 pounds now, and my new measurements are looking good too. My hubby said he can tell I'm getting fit because I ... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 22:10:15 EST Trying and liking new things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914101 Now that I have just about gotten in the habit of making healthier food choices, I'm ready to start adding to my selection. I'm beginning to love the things that I used to turn my nose up to. My salad at lunch today consisted of raw veggies that before were eaten soggy and heavily seasoned. I actually enjoyed the crispness of the veggies. I will not lie. I did not go into with an open mind. I was only eating because it was healthy, but as I started chewing it and taking in the flavors, It st... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 19:10:36 EST Still hanging in there http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913660 I had an awesome workout today. I did 1.5 miles at the track. I went to the gym and did my strength training. I've been tracking my food. I've been a good girl. But this good girl is feeling really bad. My cold has me feeling like I'm on a roller coaster...up and down. I'll be glad when it's over. Now I'm off to bed for more rest. Sat, 18 Apr 2015 22:26:27 EST Getting better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913167 I'm feeling better this evening. Tomorrow I'm going to attempt to get in a full workout, if my body says no, I'll listen. Tonight I'm a little sleepy because of the cold medicine I took. Of course I had to make time to finish up my evening routine. I'm working on breaking old habits and replacing them with new productive ones. I still feel good about how it's going. I can see and feel changes ooccurring. So far, all of the changes are good. Fri, 17 Apr 2015 22:25:43 EST Ugh.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912566 Today I'm feeling worse than yesterday. I glad exercising can be broken up throughout the day. I really don't know how I pulled it off, but I got 36 minutes in today. It's funny how I got sick after I decided to step up my game a notch. I even went out and bought a new pair of shoes. I guess they will have to stay in the box another day, or maybe I'll wear them around the house to break them in. <BR> <BR> It's been a trying day all day. School was awful. My appetite is still not right. I'm ... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 20:38:29 EST Not feeling well but doing okay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5912070 Today was interesting. First I have a cold; it's not bad, but it has me feeling kind of sluggish. The crazy thing though was my food cravings. It's my fault. I was running late for an appointment and forgot my snack bag. I try to carry one along everywhere that I go. By mid morning, I was sitting in the chair thinking of all of my past friends. Their names: cheese steak sub, whopper with cheese, and Mc D's fries. Yup, I was gone. In my mind as soon as my appointment was over, I was going to s... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 23:39:39 EST I Love SP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5911502 I absolutely love this site. There is so much here. Sometimes I have to remind myself that this (site) should also be done in moderation. I truly believe SP was not created for me to be on it 24/7. All of the tools are here when I need them. I log, I track, blog, and so much more here. I am truly thankful for SP. But SP says to be active. That's why I also need control here. Making these recent changes have already started to have an effect on me. I have more energy. I feel stronger. My moo... Tue, 14 Apr 2015 23:55:09 EST Never knew food tatsted so good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910825 I have been drowning my food. Using too many sauces, condiments, and seasonings is how it was done. I never knew wholesome naked food was so good and filling. I told my DH that my facial muscles hurt from all of the chewing that's involved now. That's a good thing though because my face is also getting toned (a natural face lift). I'm glad my food choices now hold me from one meal to the next because everything is so tasty that if I wasn't measuring everything (and I do mean everything) I cou... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 22:32:35 EST My confidence is growing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5910182 All in all, today was a good day. I got 30 minutes of exercise in early this morning. I was only 24 calories under my goal, so I don't have any complaints there. It's amazing to me how I am meeting my nutrient goals because I'm not eating a lot of meat. I'm down to once a day now. AND I don't miss it. Also, with the exception of my occasional cup of coffee, I'm not adding sugar to my foods, and I have completely let go of the sugary drinks. I like taking the time to prepare healthy meals and ... Sun, 12 Apr 2015 22:34:04 EST Morning refection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5909372 I woke up this morning feeling sluggish. I did not want to do anything. I managed to eat a small breakfast (almonds, banana, and oj), I managed to get to the track, and I managed to walk 1.5 miles in 31 minutes. When I got home, I realized I did pretty good. The fact is I did what I thought I was incapable of doing this morning. I did not give in to whatever it was I was feeling. I had some choices to make, and I think(I know) I made the right ones. <BR> <BR> I read a SP article (How to Bea... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 11:16:11 EST My daily check-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908830 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1747066002.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Heading to the gym. I wanted to go to the track and start my running program, but I saw a weather report calling for possible thunder storms, so I'm taking the gym detour. I'll walk on the treadmill. I don't like the way it feels under my feet (I'm weird like that) and start my running program another day. I feel pretty good this morning. One major improvement since restarting my healthy living approach has b... Fri, 10 Apr 2015 10:43:50 EST Huffed and puffed my way through it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5908599 Tonight's walk was tough, but I persevered. It was a very long walk (only 1.2 miles), but some reason I found myself huffing and puffing through it. I just kept breathing and going. Eventually it got better. I wondered if that was the second wind I had heard so much about. When it was over, I was glad that I didn't quit. Thu, 9 Apr 2015 23:43:20 EST Feeling great and loving it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5907757 I had an awesome time at my fitness challenge last night. I was actually afraid to go because I thought I would hold my team back, but my worries were for nothing. I'm on a great team (actually the entire group is awesome). There is so much support there. We have meetings once a week, but we are given challenges for the rest of the week, and regular exercise and good eating habits are strongly recommended. SPARKPEOPLE (yeah SP) was one of the sites that was recommended to use for additional s... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 13:51:54 EST Never giving up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904738 Well I'm here, so I guess that means I haven't given up. That's a good thing right? Of course it is. I'm still determined to get fit and healthy. This time I'm doing for more than weight loss. I decided to take baby steps I stead of my usual all at once approach. I've also decided not to go it alone. I think the attitude I'm using this tie.e will help with my success. Fri, 3 Apr 2015 10:39:49 EST It feels good to be home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5473618 I've been away from home too much. I feel like it's holding me back. This week the scale didn't move for me, but I'm not too upset because that means that I didn't gain weight. That might change by my next weigh-in because it seems like all I did at work this weekend was eat. I'm still feeling stuffed. I was able to get some exercise in, so it might balance out. I'm still trying to figure out a schedule that will allow me the time to do all that I need to do. I didn't realize it would be so d... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 14:53:38 EST Creeping but moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5456629 Today I posted on FB that it was a Murphy's Law day for me. My day started off crazy. By noon I was ready to throw in the towel find my bed and cry into my pillow. Yes, it was that bad. And that had nothing to do with my pain issues. I just felt like someone somewhere hated me and was making me pay (for what I have no clue). The sun did break through a little. Grades were posted, and I did very good. I'm still an 'A' student despite everything that is going on. I did manage to get some walkin... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 22:24:08 EST My garden; my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5436140 For the last three days I've been working on getting my front yard together. Yesterday while pulling weeds I realized the garden was a lot like life (my life). There were so many weeds in there that the life was being choked from what belonged there. Yes, I admit had neglected the garden for quite some time (much like myself). As I began to pull the weeds, I saw that there was a lot of good in there; it just needed the mess removed (much like myself). I missed the first bloom because I put of... Sun, 28 Jul 2013 11:35:58 EST I think Yandi is back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435352 What a day. I got a few things accomplished. I'm happy about my garden coming together. I was embarrassed every time I walked up to my house. I just wasn't in the right mindset to get things done. Ever since that phone call on Thursday it seems like an "S" has appeared on my chest. I feel like I want to do things again. I'm looking forward to my morning walks and my strength training. I'm smiling again. I just feel normal again. Don't get me wrong; I still have other stuff popping out at me,... Sat, 27 Jul 2013 15:08:08 EST Trouble don't last always http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5433552 Today I received good news. I have a job. I have not worked since January 2012. For a while I was unable to work. Then when I was able to, I couldn't find a job. I began to feel bad about myself and lose hope. Though I would pick myself up and try to be positive, I would have my bad days and sometimes weeks. But to God be the glory, that's behind me now. I'm not out of the woods (financially) yet, but in time that will be okay too. As I already posted this evening, I have rejoiced to the poin... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 20:55:45 EST Trying to pull myself together http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431002 It has been a very long, very emotional, and very exhausting week for me. I thought I was over my whatever this is that I'm going through, but I'm not. One minute I'm up, the next I'm down. I'm not really in the mood for anything. I won't lie; some days it takes everything in me just to log on, but I manage it. I haven't been exercising or eating right. I'm not overeating. I'm not eating enough. I keep telling myself, "Trouble don't last always." I try to focus on positive things, but the neg... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 20:30:14 EST