XSCAPEREALITY82's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=XSCAPEREALITY82 XSCAPEREALITY82's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Off the Wagon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862098 You know the phrase, fall off the wagon? I jumped. It was bad and it was just all due to poor planning and horrible schedules. Hubby and I are on opposite schedules right now. We are both major night owls but I am on a day schedule because of work. So when I'm up at 8am, he's no where close to up. So I end up eating like 4-5 times more than I normally would because I'm eating my meals as normal, and then eating with him as well. <BR> <BR> I had a really bad night last night with Del ... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 09:46:08 EST Weekends are the worst http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859348 I have a hard time during my days off to not over indulge. I think a lot of it is because I'm not at work and in a controlled environment. I have been fluctutating back and forth with this one pound for the last 3-5 days. It's frustrating because I had just an amazing first week. I know I can't let it set me back but it's just frustrating. I really just need to be more careful with going out to eat. We went out for dinner the last two nights. I am going back to the gym today for the fi... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 08:56:16 EST Did Something Different Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857700 I'll always take the small victories when they happen, because to me, the small steps are what really makes the journey. Every morning for breakfast on the days I work, I like to make myself a Chicken Fajita Egg Mug. It's really low in calorie but I really like chicken fajitas so it works out really well for me. Well this morning when I was getting ready to make breakfast, I was missing the cheese I need for the meal. A few months ago, heck, even a few weeks ago, I would just say screw it... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 08:25:46 EST First Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857120 The first week is over and I've lost 9.2 pounds. I was at 11 but I gained weight last night. I have a hard time on the days that I'm off on following my diet. Sometimes, it's because hubby and I go out with friends or go run errands. So when we did go out, we had really rich, full meals and I ate way too much. So, I just can't do that. I need to bring along crackers or something so if I feel like I'm starving, I can grab a quick bite, long enough to get home. <BR> <BR> In other news, ... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 12:37:19 EST Day 3 of 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5853747 Well, 3 days in and I'm still going strong. Had a weird situation today where I didn't have anything to make my breakfast, so I stopped at McDonald's. Ate in between healthy and unhealthy but it didn't feel me up. So I also didn't have anything for lunch so I went out and got a Chicken Souvlaki Salad for lunch. Still didn't really feel me up. I'm starting to believe it's all Mental and I can beat it. Tue, 13 Jan 2015 18:59:56 EST Such a good way to start over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852544 I am 100% re-focused after getting on the scale today. Sometimes it's so hard when you are trying to lose weight and the scale is fighting you. I know there are lots of reasons the scale can be against you, such as gaining muscle or water weight. But today, finally, I got another push I Needed. I got on the scale today and I had lost 3.2 pounds!!!!!! It really set my mood for the day and really helped me make sure I stay focused. Sometimes it's hard because I really like Chocolate but th... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 10:04:56 EST Lots of Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851669 Well my birthday was Friday, so as a final last hurray before really focusing on my weight loss and on me, and my journey to a healthy me - my friends and I went out to Tucanos (Brazilian Grill) for my birthday celebration. We ate so much yummy food - and I didn't care about calories, didn't care about the fat - I just wanted to have a good time. Afterwards, we went to play board games at a local gaming store. The Operations Manager knows our little gaming group - so when he found out it w... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 09:54:21 EST June 7, 2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848413 So I'm a klutz. Like not your normal, run of the mill Klutz, but like State of the Art - use my body for science klutz. The last two days I've managed to slip on the ice and yesterday I ended up with Patella Bursitis which was beyond painful. It sucks trying to start over when stuff gets in the way. No gym for me until at least tomorrow. <BR> <BR> On a side note, I now have a super goal in mind. The whole new outlook on weight loss was so when we got to Japan April 2016 I'd be able to... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 09:27:15 EST Egg Mugs and Weight Gains http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846547 Well I decided to start weighing every day. I feel like if I don't hold myself accountable to the scale every day, then I'll start going - oh I was really good this day, if I'm bad today, it will work itself out on the scale. Instead, if I know I'm going to weigh every day then I'll be able to really think about my choices. That being said, yesterday was my first day back. I thought I had ate pretty well for the day but when I weighed in today I had gained a pound. I'm not really sure wh... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 10:59:41 EST 01/04/2015 The New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845591 Well, I'm back on the weight loss wagon again. I really fell off hard the last six months or so and I really want to re-focus and find myself again. I've stopped drinking as much water as I used to, I've stopped being as active, I've stopped going to the gym. Well - I'm going to stop - stopping. Instead of focusing on all the things I want to change, I want to focus on a few small goals each week. This is a hard week as I'm adjusting to go back to days but my hubby said something last n... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 12:20:10 EST Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721055 Last night went pretty well. I ended up not feeling very good and went to bed early. I'm still hungry a lot because I'm adjusting to not over indulging. I did spend some time today looking up some new recipes to try. I've got a busy weekend so hopefully I'll find some time to get to the gym this weekend. Either way Ill make sure to get some walking in! Excited to be re-focused! Thu, 19 Jun 2014 00:42:44 EST Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720091 I've started over again. I've decided no matter how many times I start over, it's worth it to me. I just need to not get in the mindset that I'm missing out by not indulging in all the food. You know what I'm missing out on? <BR> -Shopping at a normal store <BR> -Not feeling like everyone is staring at me <BR> -Not being out of breath by climbing a few flights of stairs <BR> -Not going on roller coasters or going to amusement parks because I can't ride the rides <BR> -Not being in the be... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 18:35:20 EST Slow and Steady http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715412 Well I've tried to be re-focused but there is so much yummy food to be had in the world. Today we had pizza buffet, and I've been craving dipped ice cream cones. What does everyone else to do stop with all the bad food cravings? I don't have any problem making food at work and following a guide but then sometimes I just go off track for no real reason. i think some of it is that i'm bored at work at night with not a lot to do so I eat as well. Any suggestions,tips, guides would be aweso... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 03:13:09 EST It's been awhile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713825 So it's been almost six months since I last posted a blog entry on here. I'm not sure what happened but I just gave up. Because of that, I'm back to the weight I was 2 years ago whe nI started all of this. I gained six pounds, this week alone. I've got a trip coming up this summer that I was really looking forward to and now I'm dreading it because of my weight. Two of the things I realized was that I stopped posting my blogs and I stopped counting all of my calories. So I'm back to doi... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 00:52:31 EST UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5556396 So my day has only started and I'm already 800 calories over for the day! I really wanted an ice cream and so I stopped before work. I've been craving chocolate and sweets so bad the last few days. So I have all night at work to really think about what I want. I plan to think about why I keep sabotaging myself. I mean i did really good from April to August and I wasn't fighting cravings or anything. I've found a meal that's pretty decently low calorie for work. I just like to make excu... Tue, 3 Dec 2013 23:53:08 EST Thanksgiving Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554677 Well Thanksgiving has come and gone. I decided to not count my calories on Thanksigiving (because I did not want to spend all day using the recipe calculator) to figure out most of the items. i did however, tried to watch my portions and eat as well as i could., When I weighed in on Friday, I had lost .6 pounds. It's the first loss I've had in over a month so I'll take it. <BR> <BR> I went on Saturday and did some clothes shopping. I've been trying really hard to not buy any new cloth... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 23:51:26 EST Plans for December http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550277 I'm really excited. I went to breakfast at Subway today because I was already out running errands and saw their December special is going to be a 6 inch Meatball Marinara SAndwich for just 2.00! That's a lot cheaper than I can usually make meals so I think I'll be getting a lot of those over December! Mon, 25 Nov 2013 22:06:50 EST I Dream Big then I don't fulfill http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5549497 Well, it's been 2 months since my last blog on here, two months since my last forum post, two months since anything. What do I have to show for it? 12 pounds of weight gain. Back at the end of August, I was so close to my 350 mark, and now i'm getting closer and closer to being back at 370 again. I stopped tracking my calories all the time, I started having more and more bad days and finally just stopped caring all together. I kept telling myself, Oh I'll eat really bad today and really... Sun, 24 Nov 2013 23:34:55 EST Great News Last Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494605 I got my latest lab results back last week. My A1C level has dropped down to 6.0 which puts me in the Pre-Diabetes zone again! Woot! I'm so excited. It really was what I needed to put my butt back into gear. I've done good the last two days and have been under my calorie goal. My hubby and I had a long chat about working out with the gym, and my 12 hour work schedule. I go to nights next week and I think we have decided for now we are going to focus on working out on the days off and t... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 08:47:29 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452398 I think I'm trying to get on and blog everyday. I'm sorry for my readers because I do not lead the most exciting life. Today was a good day. I did not get to the gym last night; however, I made sure to get it in today. We did a lot of fun strength training work outs and then swam for 20 minutes. i've decided to just really focus on my calories, drinking my water, bloggin and getting my strength training in. At the end of August, first of September, my television shows all start up again... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 03:56:06 EST Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5450960 So far so good today. I had to work a 12 hour day shift in the middle of all my night shifts to help out a co worker so I'm worried a little bit about my eating today because I have to stay up all night. So to make up for it, I am putting in a full 40 minute Cardio swim time at the gym after work. I'm also going to watch and make sure I don't "bored" snack either. Sat, 10 Aug 2013 15:32:52 EST First day back on the Weight Loss Road http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5449372 So, I'm still on nights at work. I got up at about 2:30pm, didn't even get on my computer, just started to get ready to go to the gym. Headed to the gym and did some strength training and went to the pool for about 20 minutes. I kept my heart rate up the whole time. Grabbed some Subway on the way home for breakfast and then took a shower. I got to get on the computer for about 30 minutes when I was done with everything. I have food for dinner tonight with some healthy snacks. All in al... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 22:52:03 EST Everything is out of Control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5448396 So I thought about something this week. From the first of February to the First of May, I lost 25 pounds. From the First of May until the first of August, I've lost 3 pounds. Why? Because I've lost whatever focus and whatever drive I had before. I enjoy eating junky, bad for me food. I hate feeling guilty and I don't like going to the gym. But before May, I enjoyed the gym. I loved the feeling of eating food that is good for me. I don't know what has really changed but I know I'm hu... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 05:30:25 EST Back to Work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5440570 Well two weeks off of work was just a great vacation. However, I'm on nights for the next three weeks (with one day shift thrown in the middle) because I like to volunteer. So my schedule is completely out of whack. However, I'm back on track with my goals again. I went over my calories most days while on vacation but tried to make sure I was active. I noticied little things on the trip (mostly that I could go up and down one flight of stairs without being too winded) and big things (no ... Thu, 1 Aug 2013 04:29:42 EST Back home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5435874 Well vacation is over and it's time once again to re-focus on me and my health. However, I no longer need any motivation!!! I am happy to report on both the flight to Minneapolis and the flight home - I no longer require a SEAT BELT EXTENDER!!! Best NSV ever! Sun, 28 Jul 2013 04:16:17 EST Close to starting war with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5430996 So far on vacation I've stayed at or right below my 2000 calories...until today. I'm not sure what it is but I have just gone hog wild all day today. I had a bagel for breakfast, which is what I normally have, but then I had Wendys for lunch even though I know that's a large amount of calories. Then for a snack in the afternoon I had a medium french fry and a dipped cone. Topped that off for dinner with 2 bratwurst, a handful of chips, cake and corn. All in all, I went over my calories ... Tue, 23 Jul 2013 20:24:28 EST First Day in Minneapolis http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5426285 I had such a blast yesterday! We were at the Mall from basically 3pm to 930pm and we walked around most of that time. I'd say at least 4 hours worth. They had all kinds of cute and fun little shops (including a Christmas store). But today, my feet and upper thighs want me to die a horrible, horrible death. I think the plan for today is to take it a little easier and we are going to the aquarium and a movie and then back to the hotel for some r & r. There's also a casino in the area that... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 10:17:04 EST Last Entry for a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5423938 Hi guys! This is probably going to be my last blog for the next 10 days or so. As I've mentioned before i'm going on vacation and I am not 100 percent sure yet if we are bringing the laptop or not. I do have myfitnesspal app on my phone for food logging and i'm also bring my pedometer so I can keep track of the steps. I was reading about the Mall of America yesterday and they will actually show you in the mall where you can walk 1k, 5k and even 10k. I thought that was kind of an interest... Wed, 17 Jul 2013 09:05:40 EST Macabre Kind of Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5420512 I woke up this morning at about 1am when my husband was just going to sleep. Per normal, I could not go right back to sleep so I got on the internet for a little bit. I went to my usual website and was stunned to see Cory Monteith had passed away. He was just 31. Normally, I take most celebrity deaths with a: well that was sad, but I didn't know them personally. However, for some reason this one has hit me extremely hard. I don't know if it's partially because Glee is my favorite show a... Sun, 14 Jul 2013 08:54:42 EST Down another pound http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5414385 Weighed in this morning and was happy to see I was down another 1.2 pounds. If I keep this up, it will be 4 years before I hit my goal weight but 4 years does not seem like that long to finally be at a healthy and happy weight. Like I mentioned in a previous blog, I'm really focused this week on finding what drives me and what drives my happiness. Mon, 8 Jul 2013 13:02:24 EST Fanfiction and Gaming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5413103 I have had a really interesting 3 days off. This week was double XP weekend in SWTOR (STar Wars: The Old Republic) so I knew a lot of my time would be spent leveling my character up with my hubby. However, on Wednesday I got home from work at about 1030, then took a 2 hour nap. On Thursday, I woke up at like 2am, took another nap at 11 then again at like 2pm. I couldn't stay awake most of the day, the same thing happened on Friday but instead of napping a few times, I just slept from 330 ... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 09:52:51 EST Back to the Gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5408646 Well it's been about two if not 2.5 months since I've been to the gym. I was going regularly, 3 times a week for at least strength training, then missed a week because my work schedule went crazy. That week turned into two and so on and so on. However, last night I came home from work. I ate my subway sandwich and watched some Glee. I went to bed about 8pm, and woke up at 3am this morning and went to the gym before work. My husband and I did a few ab crunches, tossed the medicine ball a... Tue, 2 Jul 2013 14:02:33 EST Out of the 360's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5407289 <em>244</em> I weighed in this morning for my weekly weigh in and I'm down another 1.8 pounds. While this alone is exciting, the best part is it puts me at 358.2 so I'm out of the 360's. It's amazing to thing a few years ago I weighed over 400 pounds and I'm slowly losing all the weight. It was a great way to start the morning. Mon, 1 Jul 2013 10:55:37 EST Bagels and New Work Schedule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5406212 This week I switch back to days at work. The way it goes is we do 3 month rotations between days and nights. I am 100% a night owl. i just function better at night. But its time for days again. This week my sleep has been horrible but overall I've managed to maintain a pretty good food habit. I haven't ate the healthiest food but I've been doing pretty good on calories. Well, we will see when I weigh in tomorrow morning. <BR> <BR> One of our co-workers today brought in bagels and I had... Sun, 30 Jun 2013 10:25:03 EST Wendy's http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5401797 I love Wendys. I like that I can get a spicy chicken sandwich and a medium fry for about 900 calories. It's a lot but it feels me up and is usually a treat I give myself about once a week. However, I started to pay attention to the carbs today and realized that not only are the fries about 50 carbs but so is the sandwich. I think it's about time to switch to something else. Myabe still go get the fries (they are my favorite part), then do a home made chicken sandwich. It's time to start ... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 21:39:23 EST Best Weigh in I've had in a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400937 So today was my sparkpeople Monday Virtual Weigh in. last week after gaining 3 pounds, I was ready to see those go away. Not only did I lose the 3 pounds from last week, I lost another 2 pounds on top of that. 5 pounds WOOHOO!!! I was very excited to see the number. <BR> <BR> I'm having a hard time trying to not be bored with foods. Today I made a Broccoli and Cheese Soup on the crock pot but it came out kind of mushy. I think I need to make sure next time to not chop the broccoli so ... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 05:07:47 EST My First 5K http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399617 On Saturday, I completed in my first 5k. I was not doing so good but I made it through! It was such an amazing sense of accomplishment but now, my feet feel like they are going to fall off every time I walk :( <BR> I was pretty bad yesterday because I ended up eating 4 meals because of my schedule with the race. Then in the morning I went and had 2 CANDY BARS. I talked to my husband and asked him to make sure I kind of steer clear of the double candy bars from now on. I just need to re... Sun, 23 Jun 2013 22:35:12 EST A New Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5392612 Man, I've spent the last six weeks talking about how I'm ready to get back on the horse, how things will change for me. And I just haven't done it. I was sick this last week and I ate LIKE A MONSTER. There wasn't a snack food safe from me this week. So when I got on the scale today, I had gained 2.8 pounds. Shocked? No not at all. But it was what I needed to see. I made dinner today before work instead of going to McDonalds or Wendys. I made a cucumber sauce for my pita. My husband i... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 22:28:08 EST Friend or Accomplice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5379585 This last week I attended a class called Change Anything. During the class, you learn there are six influences that will hinder your ability to make changes in your life. This can also including weight loss. I feel motivated, for the most part, when it comes to weight loss and am very proud of what I have accomplished so far. That being said, I realized today just how much of an Accomplice my mother and my grandmother are. We were at Breakfast (well Dinner for most people not on a night s... Wed, 5 Jun 2013 21:04:44 EST Still not back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376356 Well it's been about four days since that class and almost a week since my blog and I still haven't changed a lot of anything. I am being more conscious of the food that I am eating, but I'm still not going to the gym. IT's been a month now of 35.00 gym fees that I'm losing by not going. Hopefully this week, we'll find more time to go to the gym. I did get the lawn mowed yesterday, which was nice and active, but then went to McDonalds and spent all the calories I burned on a crispy chicke... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 07:21:33 EST Wow - looking back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5369751 So today I realized that it has been a while since I've been to the gym. It's amazing how one week, turns into another week and I'm coming upon the month mark now. So I get to refocus. This week is going to suck because I have to switch from nights to days for a class on Wednesday. I will go back to the gym tomorrow and when I have days off I will be more aware of what is going in my mouth. <BR> <BR> I looked at my calories today and realized my V8 VFusion have 30 carbs in them in each... Mon, 27 May 2013 21:44:39 EST Noticing a Pattern http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5368951 So I've noticed lately that on my days off, I tend to ignore spark and also most of my diet. I go over my calories, but I don't go over by much. I think a lot of it is because my husband was on board with losing weight and then suddenly has decided its too much work. We have been going out to eat a lot and when he has the attitude of "I don't care," it makes me have the attitude as well. <BR> <BR> However, I know I'm seeing results and seeing stuff change. I mean, the biggest thing now is... Mon, 27 May 2013 02:53:10 EST My first 5K http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5366363 I signed up for my first 5K today. I haven't been nervous about it until the moment I hit accept on my credit card payment part. My friend and I have discussed it in detail and we are going to just walk the 5k. I know that my body is not ready for me to start running yet. <BR> <BR> Other than that, the calories have been really good and I've been doing a great job making sure to eat my veggies every day. I'm trying to eat 4 servings of veggies and 3 servings of fruit so I can make it a... Fri, 24 May 2013 06:10:55 EST My new Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5360759 Today, I got up a little late and instead of doing the normal routine (just going to McDonalds), I went ahead and made us our salads. We had steak for lunch at work (because we all pitch in and it's like 2 dollars a person). One of my goals for this week is to really be considerate of how much fruit and vegetables I am eating. <BR> Tomorrow is a trip to the farmers market. I think I'm going to get some bell peppers to try dipping my hummus in. Maybe some celery as well. <BR> <BR> I t... Sun, 19 May 2013 04:58:05 EST My Week of Bad Habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359923 So like i've previously mentioned, I've taken this week off of being good. I"ve had a weird work schedule and we have been going out to eat. I haven't gone super crazy any day but I've really looked back at this week and just saw the crap I was eating. I tried re-creating this Carne Asada Burrito I love very much but I cannot seem to re-create it. <BR> <BR> I need to find some more foods to eat while at work. I just get tired of the same thing over and over again. <BR> I've also been... Sat, 18 May 2013 06:21:10 EST Being away from Spark People http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5357017 Hello all! I'm not sure what has happened, but I've taken some time away from spark people. I used to blog almost every day. I think because I don't use the food tracker on spark people, I've started to steer away from the website in general. <BR> <BR> Life is going good. I'm down to 364 pounds. Since the first week in February, I've lost 20 pounds which I am happy with. I had a bad week last week and just got frustrated with anyone and everyone, including myself and my weight loss. I ... Wed, 15 May 2013 06:04:43 EST A Long Time Coming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5332338 It's been a while since i have been on sparkpeople. I'm not sure if I was just at the point of getting ready to give up or I just don't seem to want to spend the time on here anymore. The last few weeks have been good. Hubby is coming on board with the weight loss and is starting to watch what he is eating as well. <BR> <BR> We are trying about two to three new recipes every pay period to see what we like. I'm going to start working on a cookbook to make that will have all of our favor... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 22:54:57 EST A week away from all things diet and exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5316387 I just got back from vacation last week to immediately turn around and head to Portland for another mini vacation. This time I tried to be careful of what I was eating, to a point, but I really just enjoyed myself and decided to take the week off. Today, I lost 6 pounds since my weigh in last week. I think sometimes the stress of the weigh in is what is killing me. I put too much pressure on myself. <BR> <BR> I had a great NSV the other day. I am completely out of jeans but we ended up... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 21:10:25 EST It would be so easy to just give up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308373 Well I just got back from Sakura Con this last weekend and my scale decided to tell me i had gained 7 pounds. I'm not shocked by the gain because we did a lot of eating out but we also walked on average, about six miles a day all four days. According to myfitness pal, I never went over my calories and so now I just feel defeated. I was so proud of myself for all of the walking but now I just do not seem to have any motivation to care. I've also started my night shift at work so I'm not wo... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 03:04:12 EST Disappointment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5299800 So today I did my usual Monday weigh in and I gained 1.4 pounds. I'm really disappointed in this because I have not been going over my calories and i've actually been more active over the last week. I know there is more that I should do and I think I'm going to have to do it. I am leaving tomorrow night for Seattle for 3 days. I'm really looking forward to the trip and I think I will enjoy Sakura Con. I know we will be doing a lot of walking so that wil help with most of my cardio for th... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 17:15:45 EST