XRSIZE18's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=XRSIZE18 XRSIZE18's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Dear Pregnancy, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5511969 Dear Pregnancy, <BR> You seem to light up the room when you walk in. I had heard about your special glow, but after experiencing it in person I am blinded. And jealous. <BR> Seriously, how can you manage to stay so adorably cute when you have gained 30 pounds in the last 5 months? And that carton of ice cream you ate last night could have done wonders for my foul disposition. For now, I guess I'll just stand in the corner eating my carrot sticks, waiting for your belly button to pop. ... Sun, 13 Oct 2013 00:01:18 EST Dear Red Lobster, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5507230 Dear Red Lobster, <BR> May I just say that you have very nice biscuits? It seems like they are endlessly fulfilling. You have a way of making a girl feel special. <BR> My problem is, as enjoyable as you are when I'm with you, I wake up the next morning with regrets. You know exactly how to butter me up and leave me feeling satiated, but the next morning I remember what I've done and feel disgusted with myself and start to get crabby. <BR> It's time for me to leave your buns alone a... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 17:28:18 EST Dear Denial, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5502389 Dear Denial, <BR> Why can't you just admit it, you aren't doing me any favors! I used to think I could just curl up in the recesses of your arms and the world wouldn't touch me. We could go on together, happily ignoring each other's imperfections and mounting problems. Just you and me. <BR> But, as it always does, the rest of the world eventually intrudes and sheds light on the lack of true glamour and love that ever existed between us. It's become evident that I need to get over you ... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 11:02:37 EST Dear Elevator, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221716 Dear Elevator, <BR> You're up. You're down. You never can seem to level off and just stay there. I remember when I first began seeing you... You promised to take me places and it just seemed so easy. But I feel like we are stuck. Every time I thought we were on the way to happiness, you suddenly just seemed to stop the forward momentum. <BR> I'm sorry to say this - I know we've had some good years - but I think I'm leaving you for Stairs. The potential relationship I could have with hi... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 13:45:14 EST Dear Happiness, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182297 Dear Happiness, <BR> Oh you fickle, fickle creature! I have never met with anything more mysterious than you. You seem to change from day to day, never keeping the same form. One day I think I have you within my grasp, and the next? You have vanished, leaving a trail that's difficult to follow. How am I supposed to know how to find you when I can't even pinpoint exactly what you are?! <BR> Here's the thing, happiness. I'm done searching for you. I'm done seeking and craving the likes of... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 13:39:07 EST Dear Santa, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172881 Dear Santa, <BR> I know you really like those Christmas cookies each year. You know, the ones dipped in chocolate, slathered in frosting, or sprinkled with sugar? And I know you love the glass of whole milk I set out just for you. <BR> But the thing is, Santa, if things keep going like this, I'm going to be on the permanent naughty list. Seriously, there's only so much temptation a girl can withstand! And I don't have a ton of little elves to help me consume tasty treats. So I'm sorry, ... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 12:31:19 EST Dear Body Image, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5066098 Dear Body Image, <BR> I know we used to have our issues. I hated you, you hated me - it was a mutually self-destructive relationship. I avoided thinking about you at any point in time and you? Well you just threw yourself in my face any time you got the chance. <BR> And then I decided that I was worth it. That I didn't have to feel defeated every time we crossed paths. I began to change my mindset, and slowly grew to love you. Maybe it was Stockholm syndrome? <BR> Anyway, I want ... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 10:07:18 EST Dear Commitment, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5055260 Dear Commitment, <BR> Oh, hello. Welcome to my life. For the longest time I thought I'd never get to meet you. I thought I didn't deserve you. I thought that you and I just didn't see eye-to-eye. <BR> I thought you would cramp my style. I'm the carefree, adventurous, spontaneous, crazy girl and I didn't understand how much I was missing until - bam! - there you were. I guess I realize that I can still be me even though I've let you enter my life. <BR> <BR> Whole and happy, <BR> Be... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 23:00:32 EST Dear Driver's License, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5018210 Dear Driver's License, <BR> You and I are getting more and more alike as the years go by. If I didn't know any better, I'd say we could be long-lost twins. You have somehow become this important thing and we're constantly together. <BR> The last few years we've had our issues - you really started to make me look bad. You even made me lie a few times. But now the picture is starting to look better. Let's be friends, ok? <BR> <BR> Dashingly yours, <BR> Becca O. <BR> <BR> Well, I am n... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 14:24:13 EST Dear Endorphins, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4993927 Dear Endorphins, <BR> I just wanted to let you know that you are welcome back any time. You make me feel so awesome about myself and I'd be happy to have you in my life forever. Sure, sure - it may seem like a lot of work getting you to come around in the first place. But in the end, I suppose it's worth it. <BR> <BR> See you soon, <BR> Becca <BR> <BR> Do you ever have one of those days where you sit down on the couch before bed, breath a sigh of relief that the day is done, and then sm... Mon, 30 Jul 2012 22:32:57 EST Dear Belt, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4989477 Dear Belt, <BR> Look, you and I are going to have to take things down a notch or two. Lately I've been feeling like you don't support me at all and I'm getting tired of it. I know when we first began our relationship, I kept pushing you farther and farther away, and that was my fault. <BR> <BR> But now that I've let you get closer and closer to me, I realize just how unnecessary you're becoming. It's time for me to find someone else. <BR> <BR> Done Hanging On, <BR> Becca <BR> <BR> <BR>... Fri, 27 Jul 2012 15:15:41 EST Dear Desk, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4947954 Dear Desk, <BR> You've asked for a sit-down meeting with me every day this week! I don't understand how it is that I expend no energy at all during these meetings and yet I seem to be physically drained when they end. <BR> You're really challenging my ability to accomplish my goals. I guess I'll just have to find some way to work with you without losing myself. <BR> <BR> Sedentarily Yours, <BR> Becca <BR> <BR> <BR> I cannot believe it's been almost two weeks since my last blog! I ap... Fri, 29 Jun 2012 16:22:47 EST Dear Dancing, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4929598 Dear Dancing, <BR> Somehow you always know the right moves. I can't help but to smile when you're near because you're so much fun to be around! <BR> I know we had a rocky start - you and I used to be like oil and water, pepper and soap, skinniness and a food addiction; we just didn't belong together. But you've managed to waltz your way into my life and now I can't get enough of you. <BR> <BR> See you in Funkytown, <BR> Becca <BR> <BR> <BR> Ah, dancing. What's a 5-foot-two-inch ... Sun, 17 Jun 2012 00:58:27 EST Dear Chocolate, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4924000 Dear Chocolate, <BR> At first I thought you were the answer to all of my dreams. You were so smooth and sweet, weren't you? I couldn't resist picking you up and taking you home with me. You melted right into my heart. <BR> But then I saw your dark side and things turned rather bitter. You get ugly really fast and now I'm so over you. You're not worth it anymore. <BR> <BR> Washing my hands of you, <BR> Becca <BR> <BR> <BR> Do you ever have those days (ok, ok, weeks...) when you j... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 22:17:54 EST Dear Questions, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4912429 Dear Questions, <BR> I will probably never figure you out - no matter how hard I try. You're just so puzzling and I can't figure out why or who or what you are. But I won't stop trying or asking you to help me. <BR> Maybe one day you and I will come to an agreement and live cohesively, but until then I want to thank you for keeping me on my toes. <BR> <BR> Seeking and Finding, <BR> Becca <BR> <BR> So I got this in my inbox today from an AWESOME Sparker and after I wrote an ENTIRE b... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 23:24:06 EST Dear Sweat, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4910797 Dear Sweat, <BR> You're a real wet blanket aren't you? I'm already working hard enough without you making things even more miserable for me. Sometimes, you just get too much to handle and my eyes start stinging and tearing up because you won't leave me alone. <BR> So you know what? I'm going to live with you. And I'm going to take what you have to give me and revel in it. You can't bring me down. I'm strong... and I have YOU to prove it to me. I'm not throwing in the towel. I'm usin... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 23:59:50 EST Dear Size 14, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4905068 Dear Size 14, <BR> Well, well, well... We meet again. I remember the first time we met. You strolled into my life like you owned the place and I felt like I didn't have any choice but to let you stay. <BR> But the truth is, I did and do have a choice. I don't have to be locked in by bad decisions I made in the past forever and ever. I have the choice NOW to get you out of my life for good. <BR> And I'm taking it. <BR> <BR> So hello for now. And Goodbye soon. <BR> Becca <BR> <... Wed, 30 May 2012 23:00:49 EST Dear Pain, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4902069 Dear Pain, <BR> What do you think you're doing? You think I'm just going to let you keep hurting me over and over again and never have anything to say about it? Well I'm stronger now and I don't have to let you run my life! <BR> Although I've developed a tolerance for you, I'm no longer quelled by the thought that you might show up unexpectedly. So come on over any time. You make me want to push myself even harder. <BR> <BR> In Spite, <BR> Becca O. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> This is me bef... Tue, 29 May 2012 01:04:55 EST Dear Time, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4895502 Dear Time, <BR> Just when I think I've had enough of you, you're gone and I'm suddenly left wondering why I couldn't have appreciated you when you were with me. I get so busy rushing and wishing and hoping that I forget to cherish the moments of pure simpleness and just be with you. <BR> And then one morning I wake up and wonder how I ever got to where I am and how I ever became this person. And I realize it was you, all along, just carrying me through and gently changing me. <BR> <BR... Thu, 24 May 2012 01:11:24 EST Dear Shopping, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4890564 Dear Shopping, <BR> <BR> Oh, you think you're sooooo special, don't you? Every girl just falls all over herself for you and you set little hearts aflutter with a simple thought. You think you spread universal cheer to the feminine species. Not a single girl can resist going out with you and then taking you home with them. <BR> <BR> Well not this girl! I think you stink. In fact, I've never been more uncomfortable with anyone than I am with you. You make me want to avoid mirrors and stay be... Mon, 21 May 2012 01:28:13 EST Dear Meat & Potatoes, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4881903 Dear Meat & Potatoes, <BR> You are so hearty! All it takes is a little time in your presence and I feel satisfied and happy. If you're in the picture, I never long for anything else. You're perfect, just the way you are. <BR> The problem is, you're just not very good for me. I used to have you and ONLY you on my mind and never was able to think about other things that I also needed in my life. Our relationship isn't healthy and so I'm going to have to limit it. You can't be my obsessi... Tue, 15 May 2012 01:20:38 EST Dear Shame, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4874932 Dear Shame, <BR> I've often wondered what it would be like to live a life without you... to wake up in the morning and hold my head high... to stare in the mirror and not see you beside me... to be confident enough to know that you really have no hold over me. <BR> I had gotten so good about not running to you when things got bad. I had pulled myself out of your cold, clutching grasp. I had. <BR> And now I find myself once again drowning in your deep, brown eyes. I once again f... Thu, 10 May 2012 02:47:51 EST Dear Right Now, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4868761 Dear Right Now, <BR> I always thought my life was too full to have a friend like you. Our relationship takes a lot of work to maintain. I can't just say - no, I'm visiting Mr. Tomorrow today because you're always in my thoughts these days. <BR> Even though our relationship can be complicated, frustrating and exasperating, I wouldn't give it up for the world. Because I see how good we are for each other. You simply make me a better person. <BR> <BR> Living Life, <BR> Becca O. <BR> ... Sun, 6 May 2012 11:10:13 EST Dear Passion, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4858565 Dear Passion, <BR> You are overwhelming to deal with sometimes. You think you can come into my life, scramble things around, jumble my thoughts and then just leave? You think that you can just enter my life and then walk out leaving me a confused mess? <BR> I'm here to stop you. I've let you walk out that door one too many times. Well not anymore. You just go right back to where you were, mister. Get comfortable. You're staying for the long haul. <BR> <BR> Not playing around, <BR> Be... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 02:49:39 EST Dear Ladies, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4849163 Dear Ladies, <BR> I want you to know that I've always been proud of you. You're a pair of gals who are never afraid to stand firm and be exactly who God intended you to be. <BR> Sometimes, though, you can make life hard. You started to have some ego problems and got a little too big for your britches, if you ask me. It's time you learned some lessons and settled down. We're in this together for the long haul and I don't want any serious problems to develop. <BR> <BR> Your bosom buddy... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 00:36:49 EST Dear Halfway, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4844205 Dear Halfway, <BR> You really helped to lift me up when I met with you a month ago. You reminded me just how far I've come in my journey and how much effort it took to get to where I am today. You gave me hope and encouragement when I needed it. <BR> But then you stuck around. I thought you were coming for a brief visit and then you'd be gone, but you just never left. Look, I like you, and all... but you just gotta go. I have no place for you in my life. I need to move on. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 14:09:29 EST Dear Soda Pop, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4833153 Dear Soda Pop, <BR> I don't understand how people can NOT like you. There's something about you that intrigues me and draws me back, over and over again. You're so bubbly and full of zest and I can't help but to feel excited, elated and exuberant whenever I'm around you. <BR> It seems that whenever you leave my life, I'm missing something. I've tried to fill the void, but nothing ever seems to compare to your presence. I just know that you aren't good for me anymore, but I can't seem t... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 09:52:18 EST Dear Help!, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4823950 Dear Help!, <BR> Sometimes you come from the most unexpected places. Seriously, you could scare a girl jumping out of corners like that. But I have to admit, I do admire the way you always have my back. When I'm in a tight spot or about to really screw something up, you have always been there for me - so I guess I can put up with a few scares now and then. <BR> <BR> Thanks for your constant friendship, <BR> Becca O. <BR> <BR> <BR> I really feel like this letter describes my life most (i... Fri, 6 Apr 2012 22:58:53 EST Dear Desire, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4821258 Dear Desire, <BR> You're here. You're not. You come. You go. You're just all over the place and I wish you would make up your mind whether you want to stay or not because there's no consistency to our relationship! It makes me want to scream! <BR> I need you to stick around this time. I need you to help me get through my problems. I need to lean on you when things get tough. So don't go away again - I need you right where you are. <BR> <BR> In earnest, <BR> Becca O. <BR> <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 01:52:07 EST Dear Complacency, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4817900 Dear Complacency, <BR> I've been meaning to write for awhile now, but our relationship had been pretty good and I didn't really need to. I knew we were doing just fine together and I didn't really have to worry about you anymore. <BR> But things have been getting a little stale between us lately. I've decided we need to mix it up -- go crazy, get wild. I'm sick of being stuck in the same old drudgery. <BR> <BR> Here's to the journey, <BR> Becca O. <BR> <BR> <BR> Why is it that hi... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 02:50:44 EST Dear Girl On Fire, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4804891 Dear Girl on Fire, <BR> Sometimes you are a blazing inferno - hot and smoky, visible for all to see and admire. And other times you are nothing but embers - slowly burning, just waiting for a little more fuel to feed the flames and bring them back to life. <BR> I'm really coming to admire you. You've come close to being snuffed out. But somewhere, somehow, a spark always remains, ready to ignite. <BR> <BR> Keep on burning, <BR> Becca O. <BR> <BR> I have to admit, I stole this blog ti... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 01:26:30 EST Dear Dreams, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4796191 Dear Dreams, <BR> You're just not reliable. You're either sweet, or you're a nightmare to be around. There are times you've given me incredible peace and other times you've crushed me. I'm gettting tired of letting you determine my life and my feelings. <BR> I'm going to take control from now on. If I want you, dreams, I'm going to have you. I'm not going to give you the option of getting away from me. You are mine and I will work to keep it that way. <BR> <BR> Floating on a cloud, ... Tue, 20 Mar 2012 05:24:10 EST Dear Running, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4790769 Dear Running, <BR> We are free! Finally free! Nothing can hold us back now. No one can catch us! It's just you and me and a road that has no end. You are like a breath of fresh air, there's just nothing that can compare to the exhiliration you make me feel. Just thinking about you makes my heart beat faster. <BR> We'll stick together you and I. As long as we keep plodding forward, step by step, we'll go places. <BR> <BR> Together at last, <BR> Becca O. <BR> <BR> <BR> Way back, befo... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 14:12:22 EST Dear Game Night, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4788402 Dear Game Night, <BR> You are so much fun! You know how to make me smile and laugh and I know a night spent with you will leave me feeling elated. <BR> The problem is, we get a liquored up. A glass of wine, some soda, some pizza - these things used to be so much fun, but now they just stress me out. Changes need to be made to our relationship. I'm still going to spend as much time with you as possible, but I need to work on me - not you. <BR> <BR> Rolling the dice, <BR> Becca O. <B... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 02:22:30 EST Dear Guilt, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4784939 Dear Guilt, <BR> You are so useless! All you do is sit around and wallow in your own mire, just making things worse around here. I can't seem to help you because you don't want any help, you just want to feel sorry for yourself. <BR> Well I'm done being your sounding board. If you want someone to listen to your problems, then talk about them - don't just mope around feeling bad for yourself. If you're feeling blue, try painting yourself a different color. <BR> <BR> Leaving the mire, <... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 05:44:59 EST Dear Birthday Party, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4781181 Dear Birthday Party, <BR> You and I were childhood friends. We've grown up together. Each time, as I turned another year older, you were right there by my side. I can't help but to smile when I'm around you. <BR> I don't want to seem ungrateful, because you've given me so many gifts throughout the years, but I need to talk with you seriously. Our relationship is unhealthy and we need to fix it. I just can't go on like this anymore. I know I love you, but you're bad for me. And som... Sat, 10 Mar 2012 20:33:43 EST Dear Exercise, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4773030 Dear Exercise, <BR> I have to make a confession to you. I've always prided myself on not talking about others behind their backs but, yesterday, I did. And it was about you. So, I'm going to come clean. <BR> I called you sweaty and gross. I want to take you aside, in confidence, and tell you that you may have an odor problem. Also, you are very greasy and a hot shower and some soap could be a good remedy. <BR> I'm not sure if you're aware, but your actions are causing pain in other... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 03:02:30 EST Dear Barriers, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4769611 Dear Barriers, <BR> How do I put this nicely? You have a whole lotta ego going on. You think you're so tough and so much better than I am. You think you can break me and tear me down and that I'll never be able to get the better of you. Well I have news for you, and you aren't going to like it: <BR> I'm not the girl I used to be. <BR> I'm a fighter. I'm tough. I'm not just going to lay down and let you steamroll over me any more. I will claw. I will scratch. I will fight you until... Sun, 4 Mar 2012 07:42:45 EST Dear Beginning, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4764921 Dear Beginning, <BR> You were so exciting and full of life that I couldn't help just wanting to be around you and soaking up all the energy you oozed. You brightened my mornings and motivated me to be a better person, to change. <BR> And then you stuck around. <BR> You aren't so exciting anymore. In fact, some days I wake up and wish you had never come into my life at all. It's hard to make this work anymore and it gets harder with each passing day. I know you're still good for me an... Thu, 1 Mar 2012 09:35:52 EST Dear Sleep, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4759042 Dear Sleep, <BR> Look... we've got to come to some sort of understanding here. Either you're never around when I want to find you, or we spending every... waking (well, almost waking)... moment of every single day together. Our relationship is teetering on the brink of oblivion and I, for one, am exhausted by the drama. <BR> You are supposed to build me up and give me the strength I need to face the day. I know I'm mostly to blame for our dysfunction, and I've come to say I'm sorry. Giv... Mon, 27 Feb 2012 04:54:49 EST Dear Gaining, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4752495 Dear Gaining, <BR> Over the years, we've gotten to know each other so well. Even though I've tried to ignore you, you've always managed to stick your nose into my business and remind me you were there at the most inopportune times. <BR> You were there with me through bouts of depression, a marriage crisis, and a career change. You even managed to cling to me during times of joy and elation. I just could never shake you. Why do you have to stay with me? I want you to be gone and am wor... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 01:52:01 EST Dear Fashion, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4750653 Dear Fashion, <BR> Sometimes I look into your windows and wonder what it would be like to have you for my own. I often imagine you draped across my body, knowing I would be the envy of every girl. You and I would be so good together, and yet you've always been so far away. <BR> But I'm not going to take no for an answer much longer. Each day, I know I'm getting closer to having you. We WILL be together. You can't escape me this time. <BR> <BR> Wishing patiently, <BR> Becca O. <BR> ... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 03:02:33 EST Dear Liar Liar, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4742875 Dear Liar Liar, <BR> For so long, you've told me I wasn't worth it, that I couldn't change, that I'd always be the fat girl. When I looked into the mirror, I heard your subtle whisper telling me what to see - not a girl filled with beauty and wonderment, but an overweight woman who was destined to always be the biggest thing in pictures. <BR> Liar Liar, you told me I would never get the gumption to actually change. You told me that watching movies on the couch all day would be so much e... Fri, 17 Feb 2012 06:36:22 EST Dear Expectations, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4715652 Dear Expectations, <BR> I know I had plans to meet you in two weeks, but I don't think I'm going to be able to make it. I know, I know... We've been here before and I've tried to be able to get together with you, but it just never seems to work. <BR> I really do want to be able to see you someday. I'm working towards it on a constant basis. I'm not going to feel badly that we missed catching each other this time. I'll just make sure our paths will cross soon - no matter how hard I need... Wed, 1 Feb 2012 03:09:24 EST Dear Numbers, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4706352 Dear Numbers, <BR> Let me just start out by saying... nobody likes you. I know that must be a rough one to hear, and I'm not often in the frame of mind to hurt others' feelings, but I felt it necessary to say. <BR> Seriously, unless you count slightly pseudomasochist people who are pasty and will gladly spend all day in a room with you, I'm pretty sure my above statement is accurate. <BR> With that out there, I would like to do something that's very hard for me. I want... to thank ... Fri, 27 Jan 2012 01:48:27 EST Dear Size 16, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4694647 Dear Size 16, <BR> There are so many things I've been waiting to say for you. You left me over 3 years ago, wondering what happened and what I'd done to drive you away. I'm sorry for all the choices I made that brought us to the point of separation. <BR> That being said, although it's nice to see you back in my life, I'm going to continue to make tough choices. And I know those choices are going to once again force you out of my life. So, while it lasts, welcome back. We'll spend a sh... Sat, 21 Jan 2012 06:00:43 EST Dear Chinny Chin Chin, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4690434 Dear Chinny Chin Chin, <BR> I'm glad to see you're getting out there in this world. I love that you're beginning to define yourself and that other people can clearly see the direction you're headed. <BR> I feel like you were hiding behind things before and it's good to see you stepping out on your own. I can already tell this is going to be a great year for you. <BR> <BR> Affectionately, <BR> Becca O. <BR> <BR> Since the beginning of this whole weight loss journey 7 short weeks ago, ... Thu, 19 Jan 2012 00:46:00 EST Dear Secrets, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4683400 Dear Secrets, <BR> I used to let you rule my life. You took over everything - my willpower, my self esteem, my beauty. And I just let you. I let you run rampant over my life and leave me this shell of someone I barely knew. <BR> But now I'm fighting back. I've learned that it's ok to stand up to you. It's ok to ask for help. It's ok to tell others what's going on in with our relationship. Secret, you're out of my life. <BR> <BR> Feeling stronger than yesterday, <BR> Becca O. <BR>... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 01:17:56 EST Dear Sunshine, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4679807 Dear Sunshine, <BR> How do I miss thee? Let me count the ways... <BR> I really would have liked you to have shown up today, or yesterday, or the day before. You haven't been around very much lately and you have no idea how much I miss you. <BR> You don't understand how your very presence just seems to brighten my day. All you have to do is show up and you shed a whole new light on all of my problems. I wish I knew when you'd be back in my life. <BR> <BR> Missing your warmth, <BR> ... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 09:21:04 EST Dear Malaise, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4675229 Dear Malaise, <BR> Look at you over there on that couch, looking all suave and cool. I know you're just waiting for me to join you and spend the night with you, but that's not going to happen! <BR> Because, guess what, Mr. Malaise? I know you're just a fancy, dressed up version of your cousin Lazy. I already told Lazy I was through with him and now you want me to jump into a new relationship with you? I don't think so. I'm stronger now. <BR> <BR> Standing on my own, <BR> Becca O. <BR... Thu, 12 Jan 2012 00:39:38 EST