XOXPENGUINXOX's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=XOXPENGUINXOX XOXPENGUINXOX's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Lost my moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4917748 Everyone has to hit their rock bottom, or have there ah-ha moment when it comes to changing their life and moving forward. I had my ah-ha moment a few months ago when I started on this journey. When I got sick, every ounce of caring, motivation, want, and need went away from my soul. I have sunk down into my hole of depression again and I can't seem to get out. I'm furious with myself some days, and others I just don't give a $#!+. I don't know how to care anymore! I think about all the reaso... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 13:10:32 EST Lack of activity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4899488 If ya haven't noticed, I kinda dropped off the face of the earth the past few weeks. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Sadly, I've had pretty much 0 motivation for anything. I attribute it to working SO hard, and not seeing any results. It was really hard to see that. We were trying to do everything right and getting nowhere. On top of being sick, my back started to get worse. I started doing some research on it, and started new supplements hoping to improve it. (sam-e's if you have ever heard of it.)... Sun, 27 May 2012 00:33:26 EST Finally! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4872986 I've been absent the past few days :( But finally I hope I'm out of the woods. I started feeling better, as I posted before, but then I got hit with some nasty allergy-type dealy-o's. I seriously felt like someone had parked a mac-truck on my head. I was so congested my freaking teeth hurt! <BR> <BR> I still haven't been back to the gym, but honestly I'm ok with that. I was getting winded just trying to pick up around the house. Tomorrow is the day I tell you! I will go back and take it eas... Tue, 8 May 2012 21:24:48 EST So close to being able to speak! lol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4865158 Apparently, this lil cough/cold thing I managed to get is a bit stronger then I previously thought. Poo. I thought yesterday I was getting my voice back, but I was wrong lol No luck today either. <BR> <BR> Hubby has the gym ban up and going, which I'm grateful for lol It makes me feel less guilty about not getting out there and shaking my groove thang. lol At least when I go back I will be well rested. <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Now I just need my appetite back. Today i attempted pork chops,... Thu, 3 May 2012 18:03:24 EST I hate being sick. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4863101 Just when everything goes right, and my body is feeling good. BOOM a cold/cough. Had a sore throat on Sunday, slept most of Monday, almost all of Tuesday, and today I seem to be semi-human. I have NO voice, and it still hurts to swallow. BLEH i say..well type because i couldn't say it if i wanted to. The hardest part about all this, is when people in this family start feeling better after being sick, we normally spoil them with goodies, and delicious foods. This time i get a big fat nothing l... Wed, 2 May 2012 13:02:49 EST Rest days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4860063 Saturday was a great rest day for us. We headed up to the "bigger" towns. I woke up to a back that felt loads better after decent sleep and iceyhot patches. So we were ready! lol Merrick got his nails trimmed, and spoiled at Petsmart. We had to look for better treats, and ones that weren't made in china. One of the workers there attempted to help, but ended up annoying me lol Its not that hard to do, but she was especially "know it all"y. lol That was just a minor blip on our good day. <BR>... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 20:58:27 EST Attempting to deal with pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4855307 We've been working out for a while now, and luckily I've experienced less pain and discomfort then i thought i would, other than the typical "soreness". However for some reason today/last night my back has started to act up. No..not act up. HURT. HORRIBLY. <BR> <BR> I'm semi-used to this...by that I mean as used to it as one can be. My two pressure points in my lower back/butt area are horribly sensitive. If something even lightly grazes them, it can cause me to cry. A doctor once told me ... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 18:29:13 EST Accomplishment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4852117 We decided to go heavy on cardio today at the gym. Hubby wanted me to do 30 min on the elliptical. I thought he was crazy. I said I would go for 10, and judge how I felt. Well long story short, I did all 30 minutes. I did OVER a mile! That's insane to me. Just a few weeks ago I would have never imagined that. I feel pretty good today. The only negative about the day was to much caffeine made me super jittery and I couldn't keep my heart rate down for a while lol O well i guess :D Lesson learn... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 17:54:05 EST Carb-Free coffee creamer?! HECK YES!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4851211 So I have a confession to make...I am quite possibly addicted to coffee. <BR> <BR> I like my coffee 2/3 coffee 1/3 creamer. Maybe 50/50 lol <BR> <BR> But since starting the Atkins diet, I had to cut it completely because I cant afford to lose half my carb intake on just creamer! <BR> <BR> So after doing some research I found this lil amazing recipe. <BR> <BR> Coffee <BR> Heavy whipping cream <BR> Sugar free Coffee Syrups (like Torani brand) <BR> <BR> <BR> Its very, very, close to ac... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 08:54:51 EST Rest day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4849242 Yay rest day! It was pretty great I gotta say. <BR> <BR> No gym, but of course the diet stayed on track. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow we go shopping again for more stuff i found today to substitute out carbs. Stuff i've been craving lol Coffee creamer, and desserts. mmm..tomorrow after the gym...JELLO!! yay jello! lol <BR> <BR> If I can get myself back into the gym mode.. Blah... <BR> <BR> <BR> Anxiety attack is coming soon. I can feel it in my tummy. Fingers crossed I can distract and get rid ... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 03:19:45 EST Breaking Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4847247 Working out 14 days straight starts to get to you after a while. I didn't notice the weary and the weak sneak up on me. Today while at the gym, I actually jogged. It was kinda crazy. But after that I was DONE. My entire body was spent. Sad part is, that was the start of my workout. I ended up trying to push myself so hard I broke down and cried. Hubby being the supportive guy he is, offered for me to be done. but I refused. I was going to finish the workout no matter what. Granted my weights ... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 22:15:10 EST I'm super, thanks for asking! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4842965 So...yesterday was not one of my finer moments. I had the worst hunger pains I think I've ever had. I had eaten a banana before the gym, worked out, went food shopping, realized I didn't get enough fish, so I had to hit safeway. But as we pulled into the store parking lot, I started getting super nauseated. It happens sometimes when I haven't eaten and I get to hot. I sent the hubby in for the fish and some emergency bananas. He was gone for what seemed like forever lol. I chowed that sucker ... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 17:36:56 EST Hunger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4841497 So today started off pretty horrible. I woke up in a horrible mood, very unmotivated, just plain cranky. However, after finding this site i became a little more motivated. My hubby agreed to rest today, since we were supposed to rest yesterday but did cardio still. However, around 5 am (we usually go at 7) I changed my mind. We went and we all worked HARD. I am achy all over lol However i am STARVING. I've eaten my full meals and snacks but I am still craving food. I even took my acidophilus... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 20:00:45 EST