XNANNY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=XNANNY XNANNY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Feeling a bit better! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6399429 I hope this is the start of the end of my depression! The higher dose seems to be helping but this could be the result of my Dr said that I looked better and that looking better comes before feeling better! Even one day is great! God bless! Sun, 13 Aug 2017 15:35:24 EST Life is not going my way! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6399160 I think this is probably my own fault but depression makes it hard to take responsibility for your choices! Each day seems to slip away from me with little or nothing done. I want to go to Mass in the morning so need to go to bed early tonigtht! God bless and keep you all! Sat, 12 Aug 2017 20:36:48 EST I am having a hard time going to bed on time! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6398803 I was up until sunrise this morning and that is not good for me! Getting to bed earlier is much better for me then I can get up in the morning instead of going to sleep then! Maybe tonight will be better! God bless and keep you all! Fri, 11 Aug 2017 20:42:07 EST I need help! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6396472 I am not very interested in my weight anymore! Some day's I still eat well but others I eat junk food and high calories! Depression seems to work this way for me! God bless and keep everyone! <BR> <BR> <em>529</em> Sat, 5 Aug 2017 22:01:45 EST Up late and not sleepy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6395758 Funny that this should happen tonight as I had wanted to get up early tomorrow and take care of some business that needs doing! Next week will have to do. I am a major procrastinator and depression adds to it! Fri, 4 Aug 2017 00:35:06 EST It is comforting to know I am not alone in my depression! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6394843 We each have our own specific problems but we are together in the overall depression! I think my Dr. needs to be a little more proactive with my troubles as the meds so far are not helping. I will see him on the eleventh of this month and hope he will do more for me! Tue, 1 Aug 2017 21:35:09 EST Monday blues! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6394393 Even without a job I find Monday's hard to live through. I wish I felt better and wanted to exercise most days! I will be walking soon but am not happy about it. Mon, 31 Jul 2017 20:15:03 EST My Mother will be seeing her heart Doctor soon! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6393921 She is in South Dakota with my sister Rosslyn until her heart troubles are delt with. Dizziness is one of her symptoms along with fatigue. At 92 and 1/2 she is in good shape, but her children want her to be as healthy as she can be. <BR> <BR> My sister that I live with is back from her vacation and working today! It is nice to have her here again so I feel more accountable about my eating! <em>9</em> Sun, 30 Jul 2017 17:33:28 EST Got some yard work done yesterday, but am depressed today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6393245 I almost felt normal yesterday and hoped the meds had finally started working! Today it is clear they have not, as I am as low as ever. I know exercise can help depression get better but it can be so hard to get going on even a walk. I do pray about this and hope others will too! Fri, 28 Jul 2017 20:05:48 EST I did not take a walk on Friday but did on Saturday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6391073 I am very sleepy today, my sister is off on vacation this week so the house is extra quiet. I will need to mow the lawn tomorrow, but she got an electric mower with two batteries so it is not as hard as it could be! God bless and keep you all! Sun, 23 Jul 2017 15:21:58 EST Need a walk this evening! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6390364 I have not gone for a walk in many days but today I will! I need to get some sleeping med at the store so I can go to bed early! Today's lunch was a nice one with three of my sister's, my aunt, my niece and her baby! She is the best behaved baby I have ever seen, only one fuss and that was for her bottle. She is growing like a weed as my sister Erin said, only three months old and looks more like a six month baby. Fri, 21 Jul 2017 21:27:18 EST My ninth blog in a row! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6389934 I have never had a streak of blogs before so this is my first! Being depressed makes it hard to do much. I will be going out to lunch tomorrow with my family! I will fast on Saturday instead of Friday as I want to share food and not just sit and watch others eating! I hope the friends reading my blogs are not too disappointed by my lack of writing ability, some of my relatives are much better at this sort of thing than I am! Thu, 20 Jul 2017 19:59:08 EST Thunderstorms and strong winds today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6389511 The window screen blew out of my sister's bedroom window and is siting on the sidewalk out front. I do not want to go out and get it but might if the rain stops for a long time. I watered the potted plants we have indoors today, the rain made me think of wet Wednesday a reminder to water! Wed, 19 Jul 2017 17:41:42 EST It is hard to get moving today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6389036 I have been awake for five or more hours and have done little or nothing so far! I need to get up earlier and go to sleep earlier too. My days are mostly waisted full of depression and reading. I do hope my meds will start to work soon! Tue, 18 Jul 2017 16:33:49 EST To hot to do much today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6388720 With no AC the weather has been bad for me this summer and it is hard to do much of anything on these days! Global warming seems to be part of the problem, as years ago summer's where much cooler. I was in this town one summer in the early 1970's and it was much nicer weather then. Mon, 17 Jul 2017 22:12:33 EST Nephew's dog is back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6388318 If she was well behaved it would be easier to have her here, but she is a very bad dog! She barks at most things outside, she attacts other dogs if she gets close enough and she has a habit of wandering around smelling things befor she will do her business! Sun, 16 Jul 2017 23:12:17 EST Hot today but the church is airconditioned! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6387796 It will be nice to sit in the air conditioning before Mass this afternoon! I plan to get there about 4:30 maybe go to confession as well! Depression is hard to live with! Reading books is my favorite thing to do, even when I am depressed I still love to read! PS vitamins are a major part of my expenditures so I get a good amount of everything! Sat, 15 Jul 2017 15:43:18 EST Blood donation day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6387511 I even made an appointment for next time today! I like to go to the Red Cross place here in Mankato as it is a nice walk from the bus stop! My niece gave blood a day or so ago and I did not know about it! I am not staying involved with my family as much as I had been. It might be part of my mental health problem as I normally keep in close contact with my family! Fri, 14 Jul 2017 20:07:40 EST May have a trip later this summer! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6387024 My Mother thinks we might take a little trip someplace near just for fun later this summer! We might go to Winona on the Mississippi River as it is not far and has some fun things to do! As she is 92 it will depend on her health and energy level! I am a little disappointed at the cancellation of our trip to South Dakota but my great niece needs to be cared for and her GG likes to do that!! Thu, 13 Jul 2017 17:02:10 EST Started on Wellbutren this morning! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6386637 My Doctor has added another med for my depression and we both hope it will be the thing needed for an improvement! I am still on the first med just added the other one! My weight is up a bit but the Dr said as it is close to the first weight I am steady as far as weight goes! Wed, 12 Jul 2017 19:47:28 EST Barb my counselor will be on vacation soon! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6383870 My next appointment will be next Wednesday and then it will be on Monday the 17th with two weeks off after that. I might get to go someplace with my Mother and sister this summer! I would like to feel better soon but the meds are slow to work for me! Thu, 6 Jul 2017 00:15:18 EST Intermittent fasting is good for me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6382996 I like to fast three days a week on Monday, Wednesday and Friday! I have been doing this for over five years and find I never feel weak on my fasting days. I would like to get to my goal but depression has slowed me down. I hope nobody is concerned about my fasting as it really is a good way to live! I also take fiber pills before meals with a glass of water mixed with organic apple cider vinegar, it helps my digestion! Mon, 3 Jul 2017 21:58:15 EST Trying to keep the calories in check! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6382190 Today I wanted to keep medium to low calorie but that can be so hard! I had a banana and peanut butter for lunch at about 190 calories dinner was much higher and the day ended with a count of 1488 or so! Tomorrow will be a high calorie day as I like to make my Sunday's fun foods day! Sat, 1 Jul 2017 22:49:16 EST My youngest sister's Birthday is today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6381347 She has bipolar syndrome and does not feel well enough for a family party today! I called her and wished her a happy birthday! She is nine years younger than I am and we commiserated each other over growing old as she just turned 51 and I am 60 years old! Thu, 29 Jun 2017 18:39:30 EST Low calorie day, today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6380998 I did not eat until dinner time and then I kept my calories down to near 500! I went a little over as I wanted a nice wrap to eat with dinner! A 90 calorie flatbread, 28 grams of turkey, a slice of white cheddar cheese and 20 grams of baby spinach! I had Kashi Go Lean Original cereal with blueberries, strawberries and almond milk first and was still hungry so had the wrap too! Wed, 28 Jun 2017 22:18:33 EST Nice concert across the street! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6380602 We life across from a small park and each year the local band plays a concert in that park! We sit on the sidewalk just outside our house and it is a nice time together! Tue, 27 Jun 2017 23:31:17 EST Slept late today as I was up late last night! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6379704 I seem to be turning my days into nights and my nights into days! Not good for me and hard to change back too! I need to get to bed about midnight tonight! Sun, 25 Jun 2017 23:16:23 EST Rainy days are hard to exercise on! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6378511 I have done some walking in place today but it is not so easy as walking to somewhere! I have always liked getting something done with my exercise instead of just getting heathy from it. Tomorrow should be a better day! Thu, 22 Jun 2017 21:43:56 EST Felt to bad to do much today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6377681 I wanted to go to the band concert in the park tonight but I just did not feel well enough to do it! I have not felt like this in a long time and it is odd as I am now on more antidepressant med than before! I think that it might be the med that is messing me up! Tue, 20 Jun 2017 23:42:52 EST Hard to get anything done some days! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6376785 To day I wanted to do many things and now it is after seven o'clock! I have done nothing but spark and reading! My day was wasted as far as I can see! Sun, 18 Jun 2017 20:09:51 EST Upping my meds is the word from Doctor! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6375734 I am starting tomorrow at 15 ml. and after four days I will go to 20 ml. That is twice the dose I have been on. Doctor said there was only a 50/50 chance for the lower dose to work, of course he said this today not last month when he put me on it! Fri, 16 Jun 2017 00:44:26 EST Lazy hot humid Sunday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6373820 I am just sitting around doing spark today! Wish the weather would change now instead of tomorrow. Gray skies are not happy making! Sun, 11 Jun 2017 17:06:31 EST Too hot to even think! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6373410 I did not put on a cool top for Mass today and will be uncomfortable I am afraid! It is over ninty degrees out today with some humidity to make it worse. No air conditioning in this house makes summer harder to life with! Sat, 10 Jun 2017 17:40:54 EST I like to fast three days a week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6373105 I have been doing this for over five years and it is habit for me! If I take a break from it I feel odd and find it hard to eat everyday. I stared this before I joined Spark People and the first team I joined was Alternate day fasting Friends of Dr. Johnson. IF is one of the newer ideas about diet to come along and many people are happy with it! So no need to worry when <BR> I say I will be fasting until dinner as it is not hard for me! Fri, 9 Jun 2017 22:01:02 EST Ate too much today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6371883 I had a plan for nice lowish calorie day but then I started eating all sorts of sweeties! Peanut M&M's are so easy to over eat! My stomach is over full and gassy! I feel like a baby that has colic! Tomorrow is no food until dinner so that will help. God bless everyone! Wed, 7 Jun 2017 00:03:58 EST Had books from the library that I own! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6371407 It can be hard to remember that you have books that you want to read. Last night I found a lot of books that I had forgotten! Glad to have them as they are very good books! Mon, 5 Jun 2017 22:32:48 EST Depressed is not fun! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6370781 Feeling so bad is not making my life easy and my weight is up with the way I am eating with my depression. It would be easier if I had no hunger with my depression but I always think that sweets will make me feel better! That does not work but depression makes you think it will. Sun, 4 Jun 2017 16:44:18 EST Hot Saturday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6370360 I wanted to get moving early today but it is so hot that I am going to take my time and do little! Mass is a must and I need to get there early as I will be a lector tonight. Sat, 3 Jun 2017 14:12:36 EST New insurance is OK with my dentist! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6369258 The last insurance I had was not something the dentist I saw would take but my new one is! Still need to get permission before doing work on my missing tooth but better than paying for it all on my own. This is the dentist my youngest sister goes to so he was willing to see me without good insurance! Wed, 31 May 2017 23:27:15 EST Broken jump ropes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6367412 Trying to put one back together and it is a pain!!! Sat, 27 May 2017 19:22:54 EST Candy has a hold on me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6367111 My tax return had me buying stuff that I had not had for months including candy! I still want to get my weight under control so just might have to not eat as much as I have been! Sat, 27 May 2017 00:32:30 EST Paid the dentist today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6365431 I even have an appointment to see him next week. I am missing a front tooth and he will make a new one for me! It will be nice to have a good smile again. I am still not sure of what will be happening on my mental health front, I need testing to see what is really wrong. My cousin is going to help with getting me an appointment for this. Tue, 23 May 2017 00:50:25 EST No job or move in the near future! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6363666 My nefew is not moving back in with his mother after all. So I can stay longer here with my sister. I need to do more house work and not complain so much! My family is not as messed up as most families are, but we do have our own troubles! Thu, 18 May 2017 19:09:21 EST Feeling cold today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6361167 It is over seventy degrees and I am cold! This is just so strange as I have fasted on a blood donation in the past with no trouble. It is 74 inside the house and still I am cold! Fri, 12 May 2017 20:53:42 EST Started my antidepressants yesterday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360274 The pharmasist said that this med takes four to six weeks to work, not what I wanted to hear! The sooner the med helps me the better as I need to get things done! Lots of side effects with this med but as I am starting on a very low dose I should not have trouble. Wed, 10 May 2017 17:45:35 EST I am just depressed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6359915 I feel like it should be more but the doctor said it is just depression and gave me a prescription to help the me have more energy! I need a job so I can have a place of my own to live. I wish I had a large amount of money to live off of! God will help me I know! Tue, 9 May 2017 21:39:37 EST Nothing day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6357774 I did not get anything done today that I wanted to do. Maybe tomorrow will be better for getting things done. I did help my sister with dinner tonight but that is not much! <em>496</em> Thu, 4 May 2017 21:53:23 EST Feeling blah! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6356847 I ment to go shopping today but instead I just sat around and did nothing! I need to do better at taking care of my needs! Life is just overwhelming me now. I hope the county worker I see next week will know just what is wrong with me. God bless and keep all of you who read my blog! Tue, 2 May 2017 21:40:33 EST Mental Health care from county! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6356214 I am having a hard time getting myself into the system for care from the county. I do have an appointment for Tuesday, May 9, 2017 so that is good! Sometimes it can take weeks before they will see you. My cousin has been helping me as she has much experience with the county. <BR> <BR> <em>24</em> Mon, 1 May 2017 15:42:21 EST Doctor's appointment tomorrow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6354083 I am not sure if my problems are physical or mental but the doctor is the first step to finding the answers! My family has a long history of mental problems so it is quite likely that I have one too. I hope that I can get some help quickly. Wed, 26 Apr 2017 23:42:28 EST