XIAOLINMEI's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=XIAOLINMEI XIAOLINMEI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Fat shaming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6240431 To all of those who have fat shamed us, you never know why someone becomes fat. No, it is not a disease as a dear friend called it. <BR> <BR> It is suffering, it is either emotional/psychological, or physical. Fat people are hurting inside. They are trying to face others, lift themselves up when they have been broken, or they are trying to face some medical issue. <BR> <BR> I don't blame people who cannot understand. They haven't been there. They haven't experienced how it feels like being... Fri, 23 Sep 2016 02:04:22 EST Hitting the gym early! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6240430 So yesterday I went to bed really early in order to get as much rest as possible. After sleeping a whole 8 hours (!) I woke up feeling rested, so I did it! I went to the gym early in the morning! <BR> <BR> I spent 16 mins walking at a fast pace on the treadmill, and 11 mins on the elliptical. <BR> <BR> According to my polar heart rate monitor, in 27 mins I burned a total of 317 calories. <BR> <BR> I didn't spend any time using the machines, I avoided all the people hanging out at the abs ... Fri, 23 Sep 2016 01:58:27 EST 1st week of school http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6239780 One week has passed since school started and I've only lost 1 Kg since then. <BR> <BR> Maybe I didn't lose the 2 Kg I wished to have lost, but at least I didn't gain any. <BR> <BR> I have been eating on the upper part of the suggested calorie range and have almost done no exercise apart from walking around on campus all day. <BR> <BR> I am still trying to balance out studying, exercising, socializing. At least I have eating under control. <BR> <BR> I was worried that I wouldn't lose any ... Wed, 21 Sep 2016 17:40:47 EST Sparked friend right here!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6238657 Thank you all for your support! I feel you all helped me face my first days back to school stronger than ever! Your positive vibes held me consistent. <BR> <BR> School has never felt the same. It's like I am a different person. I have dealt with a lot of stress these past few days, but I have managed to not become overwhelmed by it. <BR> <BR> I still haven't exercised as much, trying to focus on keeping up with school work and getting enough sleep. I am trying to incorporate things one at ... Mon, 19 Sep 2016 18:44:16 EST Back to school... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6235170 Another two pounds gone this week and I couldn't be any happier! It is nice to see that my metabolism is finally working! All it took was some trust. I am so sorry I didn't trust my body earlier! <BR> <BR> First day back to school tomorrow and I couldn't be any more anxious! During summer break, I had the change to be home, prepare my meals, stay away from stressful situations, but tomorrow, tomorrow I get to go back to "real" life, outside the comfort of my home! <BR> <BR> I will have to... Tue, 13 Sep 2016 12:48:45 EST Wake up call http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6233607 Hi all! September has been going well! I am down 11 pounds since school ended almost 1.5 months ago. <BR> <BR> Turns out that stress is our worst enemy. The moment summer break started, my mood started changing, I started having more time for myself and loved ones. <BR> <BR> It is certain that I still have a lot of things to learn about myself, I am nowhere near my goal of leading a healthy lifestyle. In the past years, I have been unable to control my weight gain. At some point I was so ... Sat, 10 Sep 2016 21:32:04 EST Celebrating 1st week of going to the gym! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6133695 After trying to lose weight unsuccessfully by just eating mindfully, I decided that I had to try to go to the gym. Few days later a cheap yearly subscription plan came up for Planet Fitness. It was like a sign. I couldn't afford a more expensive one! <BR> <BR> Being Planet Fitness, it's packed with people from lunch time all the way to late at night. And I hate crowded gyms. So I only had one choice. Wake up at 6.00 in the morning and hit the gym before school. And so I did for this past wee... Sun, 3 Apr 2016 03:11:13 EST Appreciating life... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5994174 Fresh College year, fresh start! So many challenges ahead and so little time to work out. <BR> <BR> My weight doesn't bother me for now. My mind is elsewhere. As far as I am not gaining any weight, I m ok with it. I do know that although I gain some here and then lose some there, in total, I am losing weight over time. Even if I have only dropped 5 Kg in the past 3 months, it is still 5 Kg. Every little bit counts. <BR> <BR> I went shopping for new jeans today and I was happy to see that I... Wed, 9 Sep 2015 13:43:07 EST Dreaming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5973531 During the past weeks I have gained back 2 Kg instead of losing any. I took a break from studying, fear for the exams and anxiety caught up with me plus I had family issues. In general it has been some rough weeks. But the good news is that I'm not going to let that destroy my diet. This is another thing I have learned on SP, not to let setbacks ruin the overall plan of losing weight. <BR> <BR> This is a long journey and it will not be perfect. Life will always interfere with it and I am st... Fri, 7 Aug 2015 07:06:33 EST 2 week summary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5962819 It has been two weeks since I started dieting again. I am down 6 Kilos and feel so much better! <BR> I have noticed that I now feel full by eating a lot less than before. I guess our body and mind adapts once we are determined to fight the urge of throwing ourselves to food. <BR> <BR> As an emotional eater, learning to eat for nutrition purposes has always been a challenge. I found myself wanting to eat out of sadness during those 2 weeks. But I managed to keep myself away from food. It is... Sat, 18 Jul 2015 15:53:07 EST Plateau.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5959522 Today I finally overcame my plateau. It feels so good to see the results of my efforts! <BR> <BR> Until recently I felt my metabolism being really low and was afraid that I wasn't going to lose weight any soon. <BR> <BR> All it takes is determination. I am determined to loose weight and to try my best in my studies. <BR> <BR> One step at a time, one day at a time and hopefully I ll reach my goal soon. 44 pounds to go! <BR> <BR> Hope you are all doing well! Sun, 12 Jul 2015 11:29:06 EST Juicing!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932832 Two days ago I started juicing! I found it the only way to take some veggies in! I grew up in a home where no one had vegetables. Ok, I m not having the fiber this way, but it's a start! Every day part of my breakfast is a 500mL juice! Plus I devote time to cook for myself every day, trying new dishes as I go. <BR> <BR> I had to google how to clean beets, celery and zinger since I had never seen anyone doing that before. Surprisingly they don't taste as awful as I believed they would. <BR>... Sat, 23 May 2015 02:09:25 EST Moving on :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889780 Hello everyone <em>213</em> <BR> <BR> Well, it turns out that I didn't make it in med school this year. I will have a go at it next year. Who knows, maybe one day I will become a doctor! I am still happy about my performance even though I didn't make it in. <BR> <BR> I am already studying for my finals (for the Economics major) and everything is going well. I love school, I love learning! I wish I had more time in life to learn even more! <BR> <BR> I have moved some furniture around t... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 10:47:58 EST Breeze of change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880894 I finally got to visit an endocrinologist last Wednesday! Turns out my metabolism is on its lowest and he prescribed me a thyroxine pill. I am going to revisit him in 6 weeks. <BR> <BR> Finally midterms are over and my anxiety levels have dropped! It s the first time since last May that I feel less anxious about school! My next exams are on May, but for some weird reason I m not anxious about it. <BR> <BR> I think visiting the doctor was a wake up call and it motivated me to take care of m... Mon, 23 Feb 2015 03:07:11 EST New Year, full of dreams and hope! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843022 Happy New Year to all of you! I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for having been there for me throughout this very difficult year for me. I can't thank you enough for your support! <BR> <BR> I'm sorry I didn't reply to you after my last blog. The past few months were so hectic and left me so tired that all I did was sleep when I got back home. All this exhaustion of the long hours of classes and the stress of the upcoming exams brought me so much down, I got so depressed it was... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 15:53:13 EST Being scared http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802961 Just a year ago, I thought I was fat. Very fat. I did not like my body. I wished to be a lot thinner. I thought people judged me when they looked at me. <BR> <BR> I would have never thought that a year later I would weigh 44 pounds more. Now I look back at those pictures and wish I was still there. I have gained what I wished to lose a year ago. Ironic isn't it? <BR> <BR> Right now, when I walk around the city, I never think about what people think when they look at me. <BR> I do know I am ... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 18:55:46 EST Struggling... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789914 I am exhausted from the long hours I spend in classes. I am drowning myself in so much new info every day, but I'm loving it! This is by far the hardest semester I have ever faced. <BR> <BR> But, the more classes I have, the more I walk, so in the end, classes and fitness go well together in some weird way! The spark tracker continues to keep me motivated and makes me feel like I am still on track somehow, even though I have no time to Spark, at all! I love how it syncs by itself! Thank you... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 18:21:06 EST First week of school! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783049 So first week of school is over! I m super excited about this semester! Looks like I m going to be learning a lot of interesting things and it s going to take a lot of hard work to reach my goals, which I like. The harder the goals, the more satisfied I ll be once I reach them. The months to come are going to be a real challenge, but I m doing what I love, which is learning, and I get to do it while being around people that I love! I missed my friends during summer break. <BR> <BR> Stress c... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 15:21:04 EST Aaaand I ve got the flu :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773412 So today I m sick <em>527</em> I have a soar throat thanks to my family. They all were sick when I visited them in the past days. Great! Although I feel like I have a little bit of fever, I did go for a walk to get some workout done for the day. <BR> <BR> I ve been sleepy all day but I did not want to give in and spend my day in bed. Instead I cooked and tracked my recipes and ran a few errands. Being sick when the weather is still so good can be very annoying! <BR> <BR> I think I shoul... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 15:04:05 EST First day back on the treadmill! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770116 Yesterday was my big day! My first day back on the treadmill. <BR> <BR> There were only 15 mins left for the day to be over and I felt that I had not worked out enough during the day. <BR> <BR> It had been a very busy day. I had spent most of it visiting family, and I must say, I had eaten a lot! But that was not my issue. I did not want to run just to burn few more calories. <BR> <BR> I wanted the day to finish with me having felt "alive" again, the way that running makes you feel ali... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 20:35:12 EST Feeling empowered! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768873 I ve just finished exercising for the day and instead of feeling tired I actually feel relaxed and energized! <BR> <BR> It has been a long time since exercising has made me feel this way. I had forgotten that if you stick to it, after a while it feels sooooo good! <BR> <BR> It is also weird that last time I felt like this, I was 15 Kg less at the time. Looks like it doesn t matter how much you weigh, exercising regularly makes you feel awesome at any weight! <BR> <BR> I ve missed feeling ... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 17:13:08 EST Omnicentric Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767203 I started today a method by Tracy Anderson called Metamorphosis. I chose to go with Omnicentric because I gain weight all over my body. <BR> <BR> Cardio: I can only do 10 mins of it. Jumping up and down is not my thing yet. I jump on my thick yoga mat to avoid getting my knees hurt. This has helped a lot and I feel no pain at all after the workout. <BR> <BR> Transformation: I only did half of the program. I gave up on the part where she raises her legs in various ways. My butt was killing ... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 09:05:30 EST I should really track my recipes. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766821 The process of losing weight is taking a while longer than expected. <BR> I have not gained any weight, but I don t feel like I've seen any major change since I started being more serious about losing weight. It looks like I need to become more organized. I m either eating more than I should or I m not exercising enough. It has to be one of the two. <BR> <BR> Maybe the major reason to blame for not seeing the results I wish for, is the fact that I don t track my food. I don t track it becau... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 15:43:30 EST Finally, back on track. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756979 I had to recover from an ankle sprain before I could start walking again and that among other things caused a minor depression. <BR> <BR> Overall, I've had some progress in the past few weeks, my body has started to change. I feel more fit as days pass and my weight bothers me less throughout the day. <BR> <BR> I've not followed my nutrition plan correctly, but the only consequence is that I've not lost as much weight as I would have normally lost by now. Good thing is that I didn't gain an... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 15:57:38 EST 5 Miles! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743535 First day of the "real" diet, and everything went well! <BR> <BR> Ate what I was supposed to eat, and even exercised double the time I had initially planned! I walked for 2 hours, 5 Miles total! <BR> <BR> And all this while I felt a bit down today. It takes time to adjust to sudden changes in one's life. But maybe for the first time in my life, instead of feeling depressed and throwing myself to food, I just went out and walked. And once I was done, I thought I could walk some more, so I r... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 15:17:00 EST Meal Plan is ready! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742839 So tomorrow is going to be the first day that I eat on a meal plan! Wish me luck! <BR> <BR> I have thought of interchanging things a lot when it comes to breakfast. That way I will not feel like I am on an actual diet. I thing variety is a key when it comes to breakfast. Again thank you for all the lovely ideas <em>129</em> Plus, I tend to have less sugar cravings in the evening if I have had a breakfast that I really enjoyed on that day. <BR> <BR> As for lunch, I plan to have plenty o... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 16:39:26 EST Boooooored :P http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741584 Today I've been bored out of my mind, it has been extremely hard to focus on any task at all, and all day long it felt as if everything went in slow motion. Very weird day <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> But what matters is that nothing stopped me from keeping myself active. I walked back home instead of taking the metro and I went for my evening walk as well. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Today I ve been thinking that I do not want to be a slave of my food. Food should be about nutrition, not a way... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 15:11:39 EST Walking or running and.... breakfast ideas! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740891 Today my evening walk turned out to be a 4 Km walk! I felt like pushing harder today so I chose a different route. When I came back home and checked the activity tracker could not believe that I had just spent almost an hour walking! <BR> <BR> The truth is that I walk every day because I don't feel confident enough to start running on a treadmill yet. I m worried that it is going to put too much pressure on my knees. After all, I have never tried running before while weighing 207 pounds <e... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 15:09:34 EST Baby steps! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739960 I ve been using the spark activity tracker and I find it really motivating! I love how it tracks exercising on its own. <BR> <BR> Although I haven' t cooked this past week, I ve tried not to overindulge in fast food and ice cream. Although I think that I ve spent every day of the past week eating a tiny bit more than what I ve been burning, I feel my clothes a little more loose! I haven' t been on a scale yet, but it feels like I am healthier! <BR> <BR> Maybe walking every day and pushing ... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 09:50:23 EST Change and the big unknown. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736700 This past week has been extreme. It is always sad to lose someone from your life. I really cared about that person. But things happen and people are never going to stop to amaze me. Few people have this unique ability to just dump someone so easily. <BR> I don't know. I believe that we are supposed to work through things in a relationship. You don't just give up on someone. Maybe I live in the wrong era. <BR> Relationships are not supposed to change overnight. Unfortunately, some do. And it... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 11:55:53 EST Zumba it is then! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726679 Today I had planned to start exercising again, using Jillian's "Boost your metabolism" dvd. <BR> I have found in the past that I really enjoy that one and the "Kickboxing" one. <BR> <BR> Today though, I did not feel like exercising. It had been really hot all day and I felt really tired after coming back from school. <BR> <BR> A little voice in my head was telling me that it would be ok if I skipped training today, since I would train tomorrow anyway. That it would not harm my goal of losin... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 21:45:43 EST Drawing the line http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726039 This is me drawing the line and letting go of the past. <BR> <BR> I cannot change my past but I can definitely shape my future. <BR> <BR> And since this starts from the present, I am ready once again to stand on my feet and deal with whatever has been throwing me off every time I have started fresh before. <BR> <BR> I seriously need to build a defense mechanism and not let people or sad situations bring me down again. Family is supposed to be there for you, but sadly, some of us stand com... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 01:15:12 EST