XIAOLINMEI's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=XIAOLINMEI XIAOLINMEI's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Being scared http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5802961 Just a year ago, I thought I was fat. Very fat. I did not like my body. I wished to be a lot thinner. I thought people judged me when they looked at me. <BR> <BR> I would have never thought that a year later I would weigh 44 pounds more. Now I look back at those pictures and wish I was still there. I have gained what I wished to lose a year ago. Ironic isn't it? <BR> <BR> Right now, when I walk around the city, I never think about what people think when they look at me. <BR> I do know I am ... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 18:55:46 EST Struggling... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789914 I am exhausted from the long hours I spend in classes. I am drowning myself in so much new info every day, but I'm loving it! This is by far the hardest semester I have ever faced. <BR> <BR> But, the more classes I have, the more I walk, so in the end, classes and fitness go well together in some weird way! The spark tracker continues to keep me motivated and makes me feel like I am still on track somehow, even though I have no time to Spark, at all! I love how it syncs by itself! Thank you... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 18:21:06 EST First week of school! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783049 So first week of school is over! I m super excited about this semester! Looks like I m going to be learning a lot of interesting things and it s going to take a lot of hard work to reach my goals, which I like. The harder the goals, the more satisfied I ll be once I reach them. The months to come are going to be a real challenge, but I m doing what I love, which is learning, and I get to do it while being around people that I love! I missed my friends during summer break. <BR> <BR> Stress c... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 15:21:04 EST Aaaand I ve got the flu :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773412 So today I m sick <em>527</em> I have a soar throat thanks to my family. They all were sick when I visited them in the past days. Great! Although I feel like I have a little bit of fever, I did go for a walk to get some workout done for the day. <BR> <BR> I ve been sleepy all day but I did not want to give in and spend my day in bed. Instead I cooked and tracked my recipes and ran a few errands. Being sick when the weather is still so good can be very annoying! <BR> <BR> I think I shoul... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 15:04:05 EST First day back on the treadmill! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770116 Yesterday was my big day! My first day back on the treadmill. <BR> <BR> There were only 15 mins left for the day to be over and I felt that I had not worked out enough during the day. <BR> <BR> It had been a very busy day. I had spent most of it visiting family, and I must say, I had eaten a lot! But that was not my issue. I did not want to run just to burn few more calories. <BR> <BR> I wanted the day to finish with me having felt "alive" again, the way that running makes you feel ali... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 20:35:12 EST Feeling empowered! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768873 I ve just finished exercising for the day and instead of feeling tired I actually feel relaxed and energized! <BR> <BR> It has been a long time since exercising has made me feel this way. I had forgotten that if you stick to it, after a while it feels sooooo good! <BR> <BR> It is also weird that last time I felt like this, I was 15 Kg less at the time. Looks like it doesn t matter how much you weigh, exercising regularly makes you feel awesome at any weight! <BR> <BR> I ve missed feeling ... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 17:13:08 EST Omnicentric Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767203 I started today a method by Tracy Anderson called Metamorphosis. I chose to go with Omnicentric because I gain weight all over my body. <BR> <BR> Cardio: I can only do 10 mins of it. Jumping up and down is not my thing yet. I jump on my thick yoga mat to avoid getting my knees hurt. This has helped a lot and I feel no pain at all after the workout. <BR> <BR> Transformation: I only did half of the program. I gave up on the part where she raises her legs in various ways. My butt was killing ... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 09:05:30 EST I should really track my recipes. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766821 The process of losing weight is taking a while longer than expected. <BR> I have not gained any weight, but I don t feel like I've seen any major change since I started being more serious about losing weight. It looks like I need to become more organized. I m either eating more than I should or I m not exercising enough. It has to be one of the two. <BR> <BR> Maybe the major reason to blame for not seeing the results I wish for, is the fact that I don t track my food. I don t track it becau... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 15:43:30 EST Finally, back on track. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756979 I had to recover from an ankle sprain before I could start walking again and that among other things caused a minor depression. <BR> <BR> Overall, I've had some progress in the past few weeks, my body has started to change. I feel more fit as days pass and my weight bothers me less throughout the day. <BR> <BR> I've not followed my nutrition plan correctly, but the only consequence is that I've not lost as much weight as I would have normally lost by now. Good thing is that I didn't gain an... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 15:57:38 EST 5 Miles! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743535 First day of the "real" diet, and everything went well! <BR> <BR> Ate what I was supposed to eat, and even exercised double the time I had initially planned! I walked for 2 hours, 5 Miles total! <BR> <BR> And all this while I felt a bit down today. It takes time to adjust to sudden changes in one's life. But maybe for the first time in my life, instead of feeling depressed and throwing myself to food, I just went out and walked. And once I was done, I thought I could walk some more, so I r... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 15:17:00 EST Meal Plan is ready! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742839 So tomorrow is going to be the first day that I eat on a meal plan! Wish me luck! <BR> <BR> I have thought of interchanging things a lot when it comes to breakfast. That way I will not feel like I am on an actual diet. I thing variety is a key when it comes to breakfast. Again thank you for all the lovely ideas <em>129</em> Plus, I tend to have less sugar cravings in the evening if I have had a breakfast that I really enjoyed on that day. <BR> <BR> As for lunch, I plan to have plenty o... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 16:39:26 EST Boooooored :P http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5741584 Today I've been bored out of my mind, it has been extremely hard to focus on any task at all, and all day long it felt as if everything went in slow motion. Very weird day <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> But what matters is that nothing stopped me from keeping myself active. I walked back home instead of taking the metro and I went for my evening walk as well. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Today I ve been thinking that I do not want to be a slave of my food. Food should be about nutrition, not a way... Fri, 18 Jul 2014 15:11:39 EST Walking or running and.... breakfast ideas! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5740891 Today my evening walk turned out to be a 4 Km walk! I felt like pushing harder today so I chose a different route. When I came back home and checked the activity tracker could not believe that I had just spent almost an hour walking! <BR> <BR> The truth is that I walk every day because I don't feel confident enough to start running on a treadmill yet. I m worried that it is going to put too much pressure on my knees. After all, I have never tried running before while weighing 207 pounds <e... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 15:09:34 EST Baby steps! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739960 I ve been using the spark activity tracker and I find it really motivating! I love how it tracks exercising on its own. <BR> <BR> Although I haven' t cooked this past week, I ve tried not to overindulge in fast food and ice cream. Although I think that I ve spent every day of the past week eating a tiny bit more than what I ve been burning, I feel my clothes a little more loose! I haven' t been on a scale yet, but it feels like I am healthier! <BR> <BR> Maybe walking every day and pushing ... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 09:50:23 EST Change and the big unknown. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736700 This past week has been extreme. It is always sad to lose someone from your life. I really cared about that person. But things happen and people are never going to stop to amaze me. Few people have this unique ability to just dump someone so easily. <BR> I don't know. I believe that we are supposed to work through things in a relationship. You don't just give up on someone. Maybe I live in the wrong era. <BR> Relationships are not supposed to change overnight. Unfortunately, some do. And it... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 11:55:53 EST Zumba it is then! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726679 Today I had planned to start exercising again, using Jillian's "Boost your metabolism" dvd. <BR> I have found in the past that I really enjoy that one and the "Kickboxing" one. <BR> <BR> Today though, I did not feel like exercising. It had been really hot all day and I felt really tired after coming back from school. <BR> <BR> A little voice in my head was telling me that it would be ok if I skipped training today, since I would train tomorrow anyway. That it would not harm my goal of losin... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 21:45:43 EST Drawing the line http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726039 This is me drawing the line and letting go of the past. <BR> <BR> I cannot change my past but I can definitely shape my future. <BR> <BR> And since this starts from the present, I am ready once again to stand on my feet and deal with whatever has been throwing me off every time I have started fresh before. <BR> <BR> I seriously need to build a defense mechanism and not let people or sad situations bring me down again. Family is supposed to be there for you, but sadly, some of us stand com... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 01:15:12 EST