XENAMY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=XENAMY XENAMY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Insanity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3279096 There exists little doubt that I was probably insane to attempt Insanity anyway, but I got through the fit test. Perhaps it's more fair to say that I got through watching the fit test, for I did more watching than the exercise itself. No matter! I have begun! Hmmm... is that correct grammar there? Begun? Note to self... look that up. <BR> <BR> <em>216</em> Sat, 29 May 2010 08:04:45 EST For Laughs - 10 Truths! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3179297 Stole this one from Lawraloo's blog - made me crack up... so I'm reposting (short version). <BR> <BR> 1. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die. <BR> <BR> 2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong. <BR> <BR> 3. There is great need for a sarcasm font. <BR> <BR> 4. How the crap are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet? <BR> <BR> 5. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a ... Fri, 30 Apr 2010 12:49:40 EST Dear John Letter to my Evil Scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3096864 Alright, so here's the deal. I'm done with you. Our relationship is over. After working out for 3 weeks, every morning I look to you to see a number less than the day before. Every day you beckon me to come to you and then you disappoint me gleefully yet again. I am done with you scale. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/3/l335297592.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have looked to you for approval and validation for years, wanting you to love me back, wanting you to tell me... Thu, 8 Apr 2010 18:44:16 EST Exercise for Stress Management http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3066896 So we all have those days... no sleep, evil work day, crying baby, cranky husband, overdue project, unending to do lists - whatever the source of stress, nothing seems to wear it away quite like exercise. I even refer to it as performing an exorcism! <BR> <BR> You start to move, every motion an effort, committed to your journey. Don't look at the clock.. the time... just ignore it. Each movement becomes more fluid....and then you hit that stride that's so high, so free. Your brain begins... Wed, 31 Mar 2010 21:23:43 EST One Word Survey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2996203 Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. It's really hard to only use one word answers. <BR> <BR> Where is your cell phone? <BR> Here <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> None <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> Growing <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> Aaaaargh! <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> Uh. <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? <BR> Planning <BR> <BR> Your dream last night? <BR> Scary <BR> <BR> Favorite drink? <BR> Water <BR> <BR> What room are you in? <BR> Office <BR> <BR> Your hobby? <BR... Sat, 13 Mar 2010 20:35:32 EST Back on the horse... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2959107 So after a hiatus stemming from poor stress management skills, I've gotten enough of an internal kick to know that I've got to get it together and start it all over again. This is alright. It's better than not getting back on. <BR> <BR> The following quote from Buddha applies here - <BR> <BR> There are two fatal errors that keep great projects from coming to life: <BR> 1. Not Starting <BR> 2. Not finishing <BR> <BR> I am ready to take a deep breath, enjoy my body, my health, my mind,... Thu, 4 Mar 2010 18:07:19 EST Project 4am http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2757992 I don't know why I can't go to the gym at any other time. A few years ago, I was getting up at 4:30am and going to the gym for a few hours, then heading to my day. I did it for about 3 months, and I can honestly say that it was the best 3 months of my adult life in terms of my mental space. That is, once I got into the habit of doing so, which took about 30 days. <BR> <BR> There's something euphoric about knowing that I'm up this early doing something constructive while most people ar... Sun, 17 Jan 2010 15:59:55 EST 100 Pushups - Week 1, Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2741872 I am actually in shock that I was able to get through the set of pushups. I did one set of 12, one of 10, two sets of 8 and the final set of 12. Granted, still modified pushups... but OMG!! <BR> <BR> I'm so glad I get tomorrow off! Wed, 13 Jan 2010 20:31:44 EST 100 Pushups! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2732550 Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! My arms! Ouchie........ <BR> <BR> Ahem.... so I did my initial pushup test at 16 modified pushups. And then I followed that by the exercises. At the last set I'm pretty sure I was either having a spiritual experience or my arms were going to shoot off to the sides and then turn and beat the crap out of the rest of me for doing this to them. <BR> <BR> Anyway, DONE. Tue, 12 Jan 2010 00:37:59 EST Facing REALITY and the power of ACTION. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2722754 What is it about us humans that makes it so easy to hide from the truth? To ignore the issues? Even (and probably especially) when the issue is ours or affects us so closely? Why does it take a light bulb to not just go off but explode with demon-like ferocity for most of us to painstakingly take ACTION and make a decision to change? <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/5/7/b574906333.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Perhaps it's a REALITY having to do with health or weight ... Sun, 10 Jan 2010 09:58:48 EST Almost 2 months on Sparkpeople. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2707242 So I did not eat like a little piggy today. I think the food thing is more or less under control. I'm more aware of portion size, and avoid excessively fatty foods, other than the occasional run-in with the Brownie Beast and Pizza Pirate. Yes, they are the villains that make me eat the brownies and pizza, and that's all I have to say on that matter. <BR> <BR> <BR> All joking aside, I'm coming up on 2 months on SparkPeople. I've lost about 8 lbs over the course of that time. It's been ... Wed, 6 Jan 2010 23:28:59 EST 7 Things About Fat People - EVERYONE KNOWS THIS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2685736 7. There is no doubt that when you are fat, you are lazy. Everyone knows this. Even fat people judge other fat people. Because you must be fat because you love zee pastry, no? And you don't move off the couch. Plenty of tv, and sleep, yes? This laziness must transfer into all other facets of your life. Yeah... and I bet you suck in bed too... and not in the good way - in the fat, don't want to move, lazy way. You're probably lazy at your job too. Why? Because you're fat. And Fat... Sun, 3 Jan 2010 13:52:18 EST Make a decision. Then live it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2657840 Everything you do starts in your mind. Today, I decided that I was going to have a productive, fabulous day. I actually decided this last night as I was falling asleep. It was a deliberate, conscious, well thought out decision. And you know what? I did! I cleaned out my garage, didn't eat like a complete wild hyena, despite a run-in with brownies... Mmmm... Yummy Brownies!!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/6/7/b672313962.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Where was I? Ah.. yes. A... Sat, 26 Dec 2009 23:14:26 EST 1st day of P90x http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2652718 Yeah, so I started with the ABS dvd. Which is really a copout as the whole DVD is only 15 minutes long. Still! It is 15 minutes of your soul want to jump out of your body! Oh.. yeah, I could only operate at about 40% of the entire dvd exercises. <BR> <BR> ... So, considering that the entire workout consisted of 349 ab situps, crunches, sidebends... that means that I still did roughly 100. 100! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> GO ME!!!! Wed, 23 Dec 2009 17:24:09 EST Getting rid of clutter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2646223 I went through the entire house and got together about 8 trash bags full of goodwill stuff. Readying myself for a potential move to Texas this upcoming year, went through the first wave of getting rid of stuff. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/2/7/b272605433.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Freedom Manifesto marries Feng Shui de-cluttering sort of thing. Even Lucifer joined in and started getting rid of some of her junk as well, without being asked. Odd. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://... Sun, 20 Dec 2009 15:25:37 EST The sugar that calls you... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2638810 I know everyone's different. We all have our demons. Mine is the sugar demon. It's almost as if when I start to eat something sweet soft music begins to play somewhere in the distance. <BR> <BR> Today, I had half an eclair, and I heard a harp being lightly plucked. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/6/6/b666286741.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Then I had a coconut macaroon....mmm....coconut macaroons... <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/6/3/b632636704.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ...y... Wed, 16 Dec 2009 19:12:29 EST Pie = Bad. My lesson of the week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2594616 Alright... I know what you're thinking. It doesn't have to be that way, right? Nothing wrong with a small slice of pie. Well, here 's my issue, you well adjusted folks... there is no such thing as a small piece of pie. There are several small pieces of pie that mysteriously find their way onto my plate in rapid succession. <BR> <BR> Here's what happened. I said to myself, "Self, I shall make a pie... it's Thanksgiving, and there's nothing wrong with a piece of pie". So I head on... Sat, 28 Nov 2009 23:28:06 EST Exercise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2590255 So I went into the gym today, on Thanksgiving, and logged in a good 2 hours of exercise. I came out feeling like a lottery winner. Riddle me this... why is it that exercise leaves me feeling so damn good, yet it's such a hassle to drag myself to the gym? Not to mention that I feel like a big turd when I don't go. You'd think that it would be a crisp, clear choice - you wake up, you go to the gym. Period. No questions. No thought. Automatic. Hmmm..... <BR> <BR> In any case, I'm work... Thu, 26 Nov 2009 13:10:44 EST 1st Week Done http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2585716 Alright, so I got through the first week of watching what I eat. I watched it, and then I ate it - more or less, anyway. The first part of the week wasn't that great, with one specific day exceeding 4,000 calories. 4000! OMG... I was ashamed to even log it into my food tracker. Anyway, at the end of the week, I lost 1 pound. One little pound. <em>15</em> I suppose the fact that I lost one pound in the same week that I had a 4,000 calorie day should lend truth to the fact that I did so... Tue, 24 Nov 2009 11:47:43 EST Perspective... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2571573 So I did the gym today. 2.5 hours at the gym today, to be exact. I'm trying to take up running, did an hour on the treadmill run/walk/run/walk/run. I keep on trying to reach the gym high, as I know my day will descend upon me and quickly threaten to systematically destroy every ounce of hutzpah I managed to build up in the morning. And that is exactly what happened. <BR> <BR> And so I came in to work, and as my day slowly starts to unravel, I realize something. There are children som... Wed, 18 Nov 2009 12:14:42 EST Fat Calories - I keep on going over!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2569101 So yesterday was the first day that I actually made my calorie goal without going over. Today is in progress, and I had two slices of pizza for lunch, which I'm sure I could have done without, but it's not completely in the crapper yet. <BR> <BR> One thing I noticed... even with staying within my calorie range, I still ended up consuming double the recommended fat allowance. How is that? Maybe I need to be more aware of empty calories? I just seem to somehow gravitate towards bad things.... Tue, 17 Nov 2009 14:42:19 EST Work - Stress - Eat cheesecake. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2565850 No more apple pie. I made two of them on Friday and had whirled through them both as if with the wrath of the devil by Sunday. I am done. I am sheepishly recognizing the connection between boredom, frustration, stress, and eating. At some point, the cycle has to be broken. I also realize that my space feels somewhat empty without the mindless eating. Food is somewhat consoling, a pat on the back... telling me how good life would be if I just had a slice of really good cheesecake. <BR... Mon, 16 Nov 2009 12:40:42 EST Aaaaaargh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2562388 Ever feel like you're doing so well, and then your body and mind is taken over by aliens who direct you to the refrigerator and pantry to do bad things? I'm serious, I have moments of absolutely no guilt or accountability whatsoever where I simply consume copious amounts of whatever feels good. The guilt comes in some 5-7 minutes later, when the high of my almost crackhead-like behavior begins to wane. Well, needless to say, I had one of those days yesterday. <BR> <BR> Nonetheless, tod... Sun, 15 Nov 2009 07:53:01 EST