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a new number

Sun, 5 May 2013 07:41:07 EST

I have been steady and secure with my number for awhile now, so happy to be in the 60s and not the 70s for a change. 263 on April 1. Finally 262 this morning's weigh in. I am glad I leveled out for a month, it made the change real and secure. I was ready to start a downward trend again though.
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I got really sick again, this is #3 since mid-Feb. I am seeing the doctor tomorrow, it will be day nine and no sign of improvement. I do not want to be back on antibioti...

can't believe this

Thu, 4 Apr 2013 18:00:32 EST

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The doctor was right, she thought the sinus infection wasn't cleared, and my face exploded in pain 3 days later. I am now on round 2 of antibiotics. It is working, I feel a big difference 4 days into it, so I hope this will be it. I want Spring weather to come. I babysat my granddaughter on Tuesday and we needed winter coats with hoods up, and we had snow squalls. Spring is overdue here in New England. There is hope, I saw crocuses up and blooming, a...

my doctor is SO HAPPY

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 09:32:23 EST

Not as happy as I am though! Since my last visit with her I have lost 25 pounds on the dot. She is so proud of me, breaking through the 270s wall at last after over a year and a half. She said, 'I guess what they say about plateaus is right, when the body is ready, the weight will come off again' She said "do you know how rare it is for someone of your size to lose weight, hit a block, and quit, regain what they lost out of frustration and disappointment?" I told her that the biggest cha...

long recovery

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 08:58:25 EST

The day after my antibiotics stopped I physically crashed, and was beyond exhausted. I still am feeling it but can do more than one thing before needing a nap. I actually felt worse last week that I did the 3 prior. My body is just having a hard time recovering from the virus and the antibiotics. I see my doctor Wednesday and I am looking forward to getting her opinion. Also very happy to have lost so much weight since my last visit. She cannot say I lost too fast, it has been 4 months ...

I think I am really getting better!

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 14:30:57 EST

It has been 4 weeks, and today I feel like I am really getting better at last. It is the last day of my antibiotics, the symptoms of my sinus infection have dwindled, and I feel like sewing again. I am not overdoing it, lest I relapse yet again, but it feels oh so good! I am working on my granddaughter's purple and yellow quilt.
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I managed to eat enough this whole time so that my metabolism didn't slow down. I am in new numbers, numbers I haven't seen in over a ...

Continued to be ill

Fri, 15 Mar 2013 15:21:51 EST

I was slowly improving but suddenly got worse, and started chills and severe sinus headache, which was a new symptom. Doctor says I have sinus infection as a secondary infection and that I had 'walking pneumonia' (viral). I was treating the pneumonia right, with rest, fluids, and that was improving.. but needed antibiotics for the new bacterial infection in my sinuses. I had to concede the point and now I am on the one thing I was trying so hard to avoid! But the sinus pain is going at la...

ill 15 days and counting

Thu, 7 Mar 2013 11:59:45 EST

I can tell I am on the mend but the lingering cough and sore throat are so tiring. And something killed my smell. Someone gave me lovely roses as a gift, and said these smell amazing... and I could not smell even a hint of scent. My nose is clear so I can inhale through it without difficulty, but can't smell a thing. Even my only chocolate indulgence, my hot coca, doesn't even taste like chocolate. I can taste salty, sweet and bitter. I am beside myself.
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so sick

Tue, 26 Feb 2013 12:02:07 EST

I have a terrible cold, maybe one of the worst I have ever had. It isn't the flu, no body pain and fever is low, but I am wiped out. I know I am not eating enough but my appetite is low, and I can't taste anything! 6 days and counting. I worry that not eating will change my metabolism to even lower gear, but my body is in a war, so it is using up energy! Nothing I can do about it anyway. I will eat when I get hungry again.
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In new numbers at last

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 09:33:50 EST

What a struggle, lasting over a year. I am finally out of the 270s! I weighed in at 269.4 and I know it isn't much under, but that 6 made my day!

20 pounds lost

Mon, 4 Feb 2013 09:17:14 EST

Since I started my elimination diet one Dec 1. I am so close the the 60s I can hardly stand it. I tried milk again and thought it was okay until I had 2 glasses in a day instead of one, and I suffered horribly for 12 hours, so very sick. So no corn, no milk, and no wheat. I think my 'elimination diet' is over. Now it is just what I eat. I am okay with that, my gut is so much happier and that makes this lady happier too. The constant ache is gone.
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I have lost 18 pounds

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 09:37:49 EST

This loss is since Dec 1, when I started my elimination diet to help my digestive issues. This was unexpected yet so very welcome! I am back to the weight I was a year ago and I hope this process gets me past my wall into the 60s at last. I have been in the 70s for 2 years, and up to 290 in the Fall last year. This has been the first time I have had such hopeful results, and my tummy feels so much better now that I have settled into avoiding those 3 foods. My doctor suggests that my chan...

Still on track

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 11:22:36 EST

I have added peanuts to my list of things I CAN eat! This is good news, an easier source of protein. I can eat gluten, I had barley with no problem. Wheat is not on my list yet, I am afraid of it for right now. I am going to stay right where I am food wise, and stay away from milk, corn and wheat. I know for sure corn is out, I tried again and I suffered so! I will try lactaid milk in Feb. to see if my reaction was from the lactose. I am proud of myself for continuing to avoid artific...

improving

Mon, 7 Jan 2013 10:13:48 EST

My poor tummy, it reminds me all the time what it cannot do. My most recent addition was an egg yolk, I did good on that, but adding the white caused great distress. So the verdict is, no egg white. The best part of the egg is the yolk anyway. I have little use for it, but I may figure out how to add it to my diet. I despise boiled eggs, that dry yolk gags me. I am willing to wait though, and figure it out another time.

I had been so tired, and someone suggested I eat more....

trying to feel better

Fri, 28 Dec 2012 14:02:03 EST

I start a large elimination diet on the 1st of this month, my tummy was in bad shape. I did not even care if I lost weight. I took out soy, peanuts, milk, wheat, sugar, artificial sweeteners and corn. I started reintroducing them one at a time. So far, corn is a big no! Next was milk a week later, another no. It feels like my intestines are on fire. I am unsure if its lactose, but I hurt too much to try again right now. When I added soy milk, a bad hurt. Between additions my tummy fe...

stopped Weight Watchers again

Wed, 10 Oct 2012 10:20:32 EST

It really did nothing more for me than this site, except get me on track to healthier eating again. No losses. This site will do the same thing for me. The problem is in my head, not my food plan. I know this. Paying for WW made me stress out about wasting money while working on my brain. My doctor said, relax, no pressure, focus on getting your bloodwork numbers better and don't think about loss right now. I need to be kinder and gentler in my thoughts, respect myself and *breathe* wh...

Hit the wall again

Tue, 28 Aug 2012 13:32:28 EST

Not only hit it, but it bounced me back 6 pounds. I had some kind of mental thing happen on the 19th, and I have been totally off plan and eating without a care. But I woke up today with a clear head again. If I wasn't at the tail end of menopause I would swear I was having PMS. Acne flair, water weight, carb cravings, moody... at 56 I thought this was in the past, and a year and a half since my last monthly too. Oh well, it is a new day and my mind is back. I am going to do whatever it...

finally a loss

Fri, 10 Aug 2012 14:22:29 EST

I had been at 273 for weeks, and I am 271 now at weigh in today! I hope this is the beginning of finally getting more results. Though I do have to say, my clothes fit better now, like the weight was settling and readjusting. I am on the very edge of wearing a size 26 pants, so today I bought a nice black pair on clearance for the Fall and Winter. I already wear a 26 on top so shirts and dresses are already there. This may seem like a big size to some, but coming from a 34 it is sweet!

I did it!

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 11:02:49 EST

I lost the 15 pounds I had regained and I am still going strong! Love it!
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Finally

Sat, 23 Jun 2012 12:01:51 EST

I am finally getting somewhere, I have promised myself the I will do everything I need to do to get myself back on track. I am under 280 at last again. I have started to weigh myself every day. I have decided this because I need to get over my dread of the scale. The email I got from Spark was about the 5 habits of naturally thin people. One was they weighed themselves everyday, and the 1 - 2 pound changes they did not worry about. I made a chart and I am charting my weight every day no...

lost some weight

Sun, 3 Jun 2012 11:16:50 EST

I have lost the 5 pounds I regained so I feel like there is hope. I am hoping the new ache in my knees is just temporary, I must continue to walk.
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3 weeks and no weight loss

Thu, 24 May 2012 09:56:20 EST

and it is clear as a bell why, I am not eating less food. I am not tracking, and I lack motivation. HOWEVER, I found motivation finally today, figured out what I was missing. The mirror. I just want to look better. I hardly care about 'healthier' and 'smaller sizes' or even 'numbers on the scale'. I looked in the mirror and I remembered why I started to do this in the first place, 2 1/2 years ago. I want to look better in the mirror. This is not about self image, it is about reality ...

Doing better now

Mon, 7 May 2012 10:33:34 EST

I am really responding well to the change to WW, I feel more motivated and I had a good shopping day on Saturday, those bad habits that had overtaken me did not sneak their way into my basket. I had to really work at it, but it felt so good unpacking food at home and finding self-control won!

no longer wwrefugi

Fri, 4 May 2012 10:40:45 EST

My name means weight watchers refugee, and I rejoined WW today. I needed to get back into the swing of things and when I was on WW I felt more compelled to getting healthier when I was on it. I do it all online, so no meetings, but I am proud of myself for making the 3 month commitment. I know I can do this!
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Back again

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 15:52:11 EST

I kind of went missing for a bit. I was eating a lot and not healthy either, and did not come too often at all. But yesterday I kicked myself in the bum and I am back to tracking and eating healthier today, like I had never hit that bump in the road. Feels very good!
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Really sick again/still

Mon, 16 Apr 2012 12:51:36 EST

When I saw my doc 2 weeks ago I had the continuing sinus issues. I have Spring allergies and take Flonase every March onward. I got my script, but she said if this doesn't help in a week call me. Well it helped, until Thursday when I got suddenly so ill, and the next day she started me on antibiotics, which I hate. I doubted I had a real sinus infection, but I took them just in case. Well this morning I woke up and feel improved! She was right, I was wrong. If this helps the infection ...

Interesting test results

Fri, 6 Apr 2012 09:40:04 EST

the blood test revealed I am very low on B12, which really surprised me. So I have to take supplements and retest in 3 months to see if I actually need shots instead. I am hopeful this is a cause of my fatigue and I will start feeling better soon. I have not been really paying attention to what I eat for 4 days now, but today I begin yet again. It is a start and restart for me a lot. At least I restart! Every day is a new day with no mistakes in it, a clean slate. No carry over of gu...

refocusing

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 17:42:43 EST

I am slowly feeling better emotionally, and I have gotten back on track with not eating after 8, and eating healthier foods. My doctor took blood to check for B12 and iron to see what could be a cause of my bad fatigue, in case it is nutritional. She is happy that I am maintaining my total loss and adds no pressure to me about losing more right now, which really helps me. So I hope to really get back on track soon.
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Crash and burn

Fri, 23 Mar 2012 13:58:28 EST

I had a terrible experience yesterday trying to get to my important appointments with my pdoc and therapist, I have State provided transportation, but they did not come, so I called and they said I wasn't there. They said they would come back, and they never did. I called and they said again I wasn't there. I was standing in the parking lot, I am a big girl, they could not miss me, so they lied. I missed the appointments. I was crushed, and crying, and I went for a walk and bought food a...

new habit change

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 16:32:06 EST

I think I am doing well, and as I had hoped, it is having a ripple effect. Being more aware of my new goal of no eating after 8 has made me more aware in general of my eating throughout the day too. I had a friend, my neighbor across the hallway, die this week, and it made me reflect on my own lifestyle habits. I thought, if only he took better care of himself... I do not want my friends and family saying the same thing one day, so I am taking better care of myself now so that day may not...

new habit getting stronger

Mon, 12 Mar 2012 16:43:06 EST

My decision to battle night time snacking is going well. I took a cue from my granddaughter's potty training chart... every night I succeed I put a sticker on the calender, the one right here where I go most often in the day. Seeing those stickers gives a chuckle, but also feels good to watch them add up. It sounds silly, but by golly it is working!
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thursday

Thu, 8 Mar 2012 15:56:26 EST

I actually went for a walk today, the first day I actually felt strong enough. It is super windy here, but in the 60s and what a nice walk I had, discovering the little green sprouts staring from the bulbs. I cannot believe it has already started, but they sure are a welcome sight. If we are not going to get a real winter, let spring be here already.

I am starting a new good habit, and all my work is going to be focused on making this one happen... no eating after 8 at night. I...

I do keep trying

Thu, 1 Mar 2012 11:26:36 EST

This recent illness has really derailed me from my healthy eating. I ate what I wanted, because I wanted so little. I have not been well enough to go shopping for groceries, and now I have almost no food in the house which is making me crazy with cravings. I am too tired to do any exercise or walking, my knees buckle with the fatigue. I was going to try to find a ride to the store yesterday or today, but unbelievably we had our first snowstorm of Winter and no one wants to go out right no...

Turned the corner!

Tue, 28 Feb 2012 09:50:53 EST

I have turned the corner of this illness and am feeling improvement every day. I did some housework yesterday, some sewing, and did good on my food plan. The best part of being sick is the feeling better, really makes one appreciate the level of health we have, no matter what that is.
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illness continues

Sat, 25 Feb 2012 06:25:24 EST

I am still pretty sick with this cold, or maybe the real flu, who knows. Fever for 2 days, and this is day 4 of severe cold symptoms. I am miserable with fatigue, joint pain and cough. At least the chills are gone. I am eating healthy things.... when I eat.

sick

Thu, 23 Feb 2012 22:37:35 EST

I haven't been around for awhile. I have a nasty cold, the kind that knocks you down, and then sits on you so you can't get back up again. Having the car was nice, it got me out and about, so who knows where this lovely virus came from. All I want to be able to do for now is finally sleep more than an hour at a time.

Saturday

Sat, 18 Feb 2012 12:25:49 EST

I am still bouncing around with my moods, but I almost finished the dress for my DGD and she likes it, I saw her yesterday. I did a bit of refining, it helps to see it on the person to know where the tweaking needs to be done, and I can get snaps today. My eating today so far is good, but I have an unusual challenge for a few days, I have my son's car for the weekend, and now I am mobile and usually when I want to eat something, I have to go with what I have in the house. I have to think a...

Wednesday

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 22:35:37 EST

The past 3 days are a combination of good and bad, today being the best. I had lots of water all the days, more veggies yesterday and today. And today i really craved the veggies for some reason. i made a spaghetti sauce and added some sliced cooked carrots, and boy it was so yummy. I cut out a pattern for a dress for my DGD that I plan on working on tomorrow, but the 2 quilts sitting around awaiting basting to backing are a weight on my shoulders. What a sorrow, to have such feelings ab...

Sunday

Sun, 12 Feb 2012 12:53:26 EST

I am slowly feeling better, but not all there yet. I am paying attention to what I am eating and writing it down again, and now I know that at least I am eating. Checking off my water too is helping. I am blown away at how hard this past week was, I think I wrote a hundred different times in my journal that I was tired!
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where did it go?

Fri, 10 Feb 2012 11:02:00 EST

I seem to have lost Weds. and Thurs. I have been exhausted and numb, and can hardly remember the past 2 days, they are in a fog. I don't know if I even ate right, or what I ate. Taking care of my Evie just wore me out, and it is sad that because of my disability and bipolar I get triggered into depression and fatigue so great I lose time. I need to try and wake up.
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Tuesday

Wed, 8 Feb 2012 12:11:44 EST

Well, I knew it would be hard, and it was, there were no veggies at all, and only an apple for fruit. There were chocolate Kisses and chocolate chip cookies, and then dinner out, Italian, where they make THE best pasta sauce. *BIG SIGH* Today is a new day, and I am off to a good start. I will be able to go back to the good habits and healthy foods I have here at home. It would be nice to be able to carry that to their house with me, but it doesn't get packed in my overnight bag for some ...

Sunday and Monday

Mon, 6 Feb 2012 13:42:01 EST

Good day yesterday, and so far today is good. Tonight I will be eating with family, and spending the day tomorrow at their house babysitting, and the house is not healthy eating friendly. I hope she bought some fresh fruit and veggies at least.
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Good report

Sun, 5 Feb 2012 08:01:56 EST

The scale was very good to me this morning! I lost 9 pounds. I know! How did that happen? I figure I had eaten way too much the day before I weighed in last week and the number was not a correct reflection of my real weight gain, but I still gained weight, at least 6 pounds in January. But I am so deliriously happy about this loss, no matter whether it is 6 pounds truly, or really 9, I DON'T CARE! It is a great reward for working so very hard on getting back on track. I am on my way to...

Friday and Saturday

Sat, 4 Feb 2012 22:15:04 EST

The last 2 days of my first week back on track, and did very well on both. Even in the check out aisle at Joann's fabric, lined with candy, I was able to keep my focus on my Feb. goal. Tomorrow is my first weigh in, I have stayed away from my scale so I would not go nuts with any ups or downs that were not related to real weight. One weigh in a week.
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Thursdsay

Thu, 2 Feb 2012 23:21:05 EST

Another good day, but sprained my ankle while doing a little stair climb to my doctor's appointment, how fortunate for me huh? Minor sprain but rest etc. for it until the swelling goes down and it hurts less. So silly. I am proud of the effort I made though, and a lot of good choices for food too.
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Wedensday

Wed, 1 Feb 2012 16:15:59 EST

Doing well, I even went to the store for a quick pick up of some sweetener and meds, and I was not even tempted to go over to the aisle of food I was eating just last week with abandon. It is a slippery slope once you start down that way. I am trying too hard to lose the weight I gained last month, no giving up allowed. I think I gained because I found the switch over from Weight Watchers harder than I expected, and I felt kind of lost and lacked motivation. But I have read some articles ...

Monday and Tuesday

Tue, 31 Jan 2012 14:02:22 EST

I had another good day yesterday and so far my Tuesday is good too. I am being extra careful, writing everything down, weighing and measuring everything, drinking water. I intend to get to that goal by the end of Feb. of less than 270, and will do whatever I need to do to stay on track.
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Sunday

Mon, 30 Jan 2012 09:35:10 EST

First day of new resolve, and I did very good. To my shock my microwave died mid-cooking last evening! It has been a very long time with one, so having to heat up my milk for hot cocoa on the stove top was quite a new thing for me this morning, but I think this turn of affairs might slow down my eating for sure. If I have to bake or stove top heat everything I want to cook, there will be an obvious pause between hungry feelings and eating. And frozen dinners that I buy in the bag will nee...

starting over

Sun, 29 Jan 2012 09:06:40 EST

I have gained weight this month instead of losing it. I have been depressed and in a lot of pain so moving less, and not caring about what food I eat. But today I start anew, and I am making a short term goal. I will eat the way I was eating before when I was losing weight, and watching what I bring into the house, and eat better if I go out to eat, from now to the end of Feb. I can do anything for a month.

thank you

Sat, 21 Jan 2012 13:34:08 EST

It is nice to get feedback like this, and thanks for the comment about my wallpaper; this is one of the quilts I have made. I used Laurel Burch fabric, she is one of my favorite fabric designers. The idea of a numbered chart is a great idea, I have never heard of it, so thank you for suggestion it, I am going to do that for sure!

unmotivated

Sat, 21 Jan 2012 11:40:04 EST

I have been on a roller coaster of emotions for a couple weeks, I am bipolar and it is a normal thing, but the lack of motivation and depression is more often than the better thinking mood. A body at rest can only do one thing, rest. I do not want to move around, do interesting things, follow a healthy way of eating. Even my cat suffers when I feel like this, he gets so bored. I know what to do when I feel like this, I am an old pro at this, and I have many tools to keep me going, but it ...