WWREFUGEE1942's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WWREFUGEE1942 WWREFUGEE1942's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ PSYCHIC ANIMALS MAKE LIFE INTERESTING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813508 Last night my turtle Mandy woke me up with a terrible nightmare. I dreamed that my dog, Freddie, had chewed half of Mandy's body away. I was horrified and I went to Mandy's home in the closet and got took her to bed with me. She was so happy. I had been neglecting her since I got my new Dandee Dinmont Terrier and she was feeling like the dog was eating her alive because he was getting all my love. Mandy has sent me dreams before when she was feeling neglected but this one was the worst. ... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 09:56:49 EST HUNGER CAN LIGHT YOUR PATH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811999 Last week I had trouble keeping my calories down. I was STARVING. The reason is that I was getting emotionally involved in my girl friend's eviction. I research her landlord and discovered a huge fraud. I was eager to expose the fraud and figured out how to use his court complaint against her as a way to discover the mysterious parties behind the state wide fraud. I could not control my eating. I continued to fight. I drove down to the County Recorder's office and I found more evidence... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 12:56:53 EST BACKUP GIRL NO MORE! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674344 No more will I accept the humiliations of being the backup girl to a Don Juan. I am not a victim of family abuse because I have freed myself of my family. I am no longer fat because I have lost 75 pounds in the last ten years. I go to the gym every day and am building up my paper thin muscles. As my muscles wake up, so do I. I have told him I resent the role he puts me in and he tries to convince me I am crazy. Hahaha. He's crazy if he thinks he can intimidate me by calling me crazy. ... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 12:02:32 EST DO NOT EAT CROW! IT IS TERRIBLY FATTENING! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482000 I am convinced that eating crow puts on pounds. Here is an animated cartoon of what I turned into (in my own mind) when I saw myself accepting abuse from a new group. I am working hard now to keep my promise to myself not to get involved with these people and I use this video to remind myself of where I could end up if I keep eating crow. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1540991004.jpg"> <BR> I am naturally attracted to the high emotion, high frustration, low satisfaction ex... Tue, 10 Sep 2013 20:07:05 EST DO NOT SLOWLY AND METHODICALLY SUCCUMB TO YOUR WEAK MINDED INDULGENCE. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5465839 The devil grins when you slowly and methodically succumb to your weak minded indulgence. It is there all the time. You were born with it. You cannot get rid of it. The hope that we will one day eat like other men and women is the obsession that must be smashed absolutely. <BR> <BR> When you need a fix, buy your demon off with a lesser evil. Sun, 25 Aug 2013 14:53:09 EST WEEDING OUT DESTRUCTIVE FRIENDS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454291 So far I have given up two morbidly obese best friends who nudge me off my track with their quirky comments. Today I realized my dog has been interfering with my diet by waking me up at night and demanding that I give him a midnight snack. It is just too hard for me to go through this without eating myself. So, with tears of sadness I have divested myself of another best friend. I have to remove all obstacles to losing this weight which has plagued me since childhood. My obesity is not a... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 18:31:08 EST 65 POUNDS IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH! 75 POUNDS IS BETTER BUT IT'S NOT ENOUGH EITHER! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5440227 I will probably go to my grave angry that I have not lost all of my weight but it is better to be angry than to be complacent. Even though I have to work as hard as I can every day of my life to lose weight, and even though I do not lose weight, at least I am not gaining weight. <BR> <BR> <em>212</em> <BR> <BR> Yeah! A year later I added 10 pounds weight loss for a total 75 pounds. Now my statement is "75 pounds is not enough!" I need to lose another 20 pounds! Wed, 31 Jul 2013 20:30:40 EST NEXT STEP: 128 POUNDS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5425835 I lose weight in chunks. In the first couple of years I would plateau for weeks or even months and then blump! Down six pounds! Then the challenge would be to keep the weight loss and then another long wait of weeks or even months before another chunk of six pounds would suddenly disappear. I decided I was losing weight in the same chunks I gained it. Recently I just lost ten pounds which brought me down to 136# which was my top weight when I was 21 years old. I remember the horrible to... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 22:36:58 EST Woke Up So Hungry I Was Shaking. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5245325 I grabbed my tupper ware tub full of lettuce, tomato and onion and dumped it on a plate. Then I poured over it some salsa to which I added Equal. I started scarfing. It was not enough food. I put some oil and water into my steel skillet and cooked two low carb tortillas while I cut up an apple. I took the whole heaping pile of food to my bed and started scarfing down the delicious food. Poor dog. I completely forgot about him. He jumped up on the bed and coughed right in my face to re... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 16:42:18 EST My Vision Collage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194186 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1809344015.jpg"> Mon, 7 Jan 2013 01:11:07 EST THE MEN WHO MADE US FAT ON YOUTUBE. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180474 I want to thank Sparker Valkyrie for referencing the 12 part Youtube video called "The Men Who Made Us Fat" produced by the BBD. It is very entertaining and has kept me happy all day as I did my daily chores and worked on my animation hobby. It is available on Youtube. Sun, 30 Dec 2012 02:05:46 EST MORNING LIBATIONS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178969 Boullion soup <BR> Coffee with Equal <BR> Diet Coke <BR> Iced Lemonade <BR> <BR> Set up the night before the following: <BR> <BR> 1. Coffee cup with one tsp instant coffee <BR> 2. Soup cup with one tsp boullion <BR> 3. Empty glass for diet coke <BR> 4. Empty glass for lemonade <BR> <BR> On waking, pour boiling water into the cups with the coffee and the boullion. Pour diet coke into the glass and add ice cubes. Use one ice cube to cool the coffee so that you can add Equal. <BR> <BR>... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 15:20:40 EST NEW WEIGHT WATCHERS IS AS BAD AS THE OLD ONE. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5153701 Today I went to Weight Watchers to weigh in and see what their new program holds. The report is that there is no change. They are still hanging on the points plus program which encourages fruit as the way to satisfy hunger when your points are all used up. <BR> <BR> I went through the new book to compare it with the old book and there was pretty much no change. They are introducing more emphasis on daily habits like eating breakfast, putting your fork down between bites, but nothing subst... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 15:31:33 EST WOMEN IN ANIMATION http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5150252 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1029301812.jpg">Tonight I will share my animation RAVE with animators. I am very scared. Not only because it is very scary to share my animation but I am afraid I will forget a necessary technical detail: speakers, external hard drive, laptop. I want to wash my car before I show up and maybe get my hair cut and colored. No matter what happens my heart will be beating. Thank God I have lost enough weight to get rid of my high blood press... 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