WUMPASTAR's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WUMPASTAR WUMPASTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Who's my worst enemy? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903066 Thoughts about negative self-talk. <BR> <BR> For around two years now my weight has been around 160 pounds. The lowest I've seen on the scale is 159, and the highest I've been was 170; usually around times of high stress (frequently changing apartments, breaking up with exes, moving far away...). But I've managed to always get down to 160. <BR> <BR> Now while I know it's still not the healthiest weight I can be, I feel comfortable. I'm aware that health-wise my fat percentage is still too h... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 16:30:26 EST First run of the year!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902503 Can you tell I'm excited? <BR> <BR> Last week was pretty busy. At least, busy compared to every week I've spent here so far ever since I moved!! Finishing the dinner theater set in a rush, and Thursday night I went there. Alone, on my own. Even though I knew three people with whom I was sitting, I still had to find them and all! Yes, social anxiety, I see you. <BR> <BR> The evening was AMAZING, I laughed SO MUCH. It was hilarious. The food was good, entertainment was awesome :) <BR> Also I ... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 18:32:00 EST Soreness & paint http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899432 Yes, paint, not pain. Though I'm in pain too. Hahaha <BR> <BR> This week has been very good so far. Monday like I said, I went grocery shopping, and then went on a kitchen spree; I made protein balls (like cookie dough balls with protein powder in them) and lentils spread for my snacks. Then I tried coach Nicole's Total Body Sculpting DVD I received with my SAT last Fall. <BR> <BR> Okay, here's something about exercising DVDs. Back in 2010 when I started taking better care of myself I bough... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 12:16:58 EST The difference between wanting to do it, and actually doing it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898159 Yesterday I went to bed with the extremely strong conviction that I would work out first thing in the morning. <BR> <BR> No need to say I didn't. Boyfriend problems made me go to sleep later than expected, so I didn't get 8 hours of sleep, and snoozed once; then I got up and felt hungry and didn't feel like exercising hungry so I made me a smoothie and drank it in front of the computer. Then I went to a customer's for two hours. <BR> <BR> Now being recently self-employed I have a LOT of fre... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 12:28:13 EST When NEW becomes a necessity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5897622 Now this weekend I've done a lot of thinking because I haven't been very busy, hahaha. Outside of helping paint the set of props for the dinner theater Saturday (we've been doing that for two weeks now and it's my main activity to be honest) I've been home sitting around and relaxing. My boyfriend is down with a very nasty cold (has been since Thursday) so he's been sleeping a lot, and I'm a little bored. <BR> <BR> It snowed last night and it's been snowing all day today. I wish I didn't let... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 16:43:10 EST I was afraid of a food journal!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895936 Recently I've felt a little demotivated and I decided to read my first blog entries here on SP. It's been almost 3 years since I joined so this felt like AGES ago. I read maybe the first ten, skipping the ones I found boring (wow, that's mean lol). <BR> <BR> It's fun reading them again because I was attending a gym for the first time back then (started in January 2012), and I'd write about my daily struggles. <BR> <BR> One thing I notice is that I considered the gym to be good exercise, and... Thu, 19 Mar 2015 13:21:51 EST Sports bra adventure (with pics!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5895131 So last Saturday we went to Yorkton to get some shopping done. <BR> <BR> I'm not a big shopper, particularly on Saturdays when there's just too much people, but I wanted to go with my boyfriend for once since he needed some things, and my time is starting to get more booked. <BR> <BR> So we left at 9 Manitoba time, and it's an hour long drive so we got there at... 9 Saskatchewan time! (Time change is messing me up so bad.) We started by running some errands in the general stores, and I visi... Wed, 18 Mar 2015 09:32:10 EST Summer is coming! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5894582 Okay, it's not even Spring yet, maybe I should wait for it first. Hahaha <BR> <BR> Since last week the weather has been significantly better, always around 0*C and the snow is all melting away. Everyone's saying that we'll get a bunch more snow later and that it's just temporary, but I'd rather see the good side of it and go outdoors as often as possible until it's back :P it's only mid-March after all. <BR> <BR> Yesterday my boyfriend told me he wanted to start working out to get in better... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 11:29:40 EST Influence of the media: real or not? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893985 I just watched this video: http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/dailys<BR>park-videos-detail.asp?video=65 <BR> <BR> I read a lot about how the medias - mostly magazines - influence what society thinks beautiful is, especially women-wise; and I always kinda thought to myself, well, they don't influence me, because I know that this is not real. <BR> <BR> Watching this video though made me think and I realized that even though I KNOW that what I see in magazines, billboards, ads, stores... is n... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 13:29:24 EST This article made me feel 857295% better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892485 http://www.bodyforwife.com/the-exercise-my<BR>th/ <BR> <BR> (The % in my title is an approximation. Just sayin'. Lol) <BR> <BR> If it's too long for you to read, what the guy says is that you don't have to love exercise and you don't really HAVE to do it. <BR> And by exercise I mean profusely sweating for an hour. <BR> <BR> Honestly after my gym experiences I thought I just had to learn to love it. How come others could and I can't? Surely my brain is just dumb and not able to appreciate a... Fri, 13 Mar 2015 21:17:58 EST Self-control won't be happening overnight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5891916 I find what I'm having the most trouble with food-wise is self-control. I realize it sounds very general, and... well, it is. <BR> <BR> Some people can't resist certain types of foods: for most I know it's sweets. Well, for me, really, it's anything. <BR> <BR> I can go on super healthy streaks of never eating out of range, getting plenty of water regularly throughout the day, and only eating homemade food; and then it feels like it crashes and burns and I'll indulge, indulge, indulge. <BR> ... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 20:36:03 EST I need a blender http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890981 So when I moved here one of the first things I did was go to Yorkton to do some grocery shopping, see what vegan options they had available at the Canadian Superstore. If they had nothing I still had a choice to visit the organic/bulk grocery store there but since I'm tight on money I figured I'd try CS first. <BR> <BR> Turns out they have a huge selection and I was quite satisfied with that. When I visited here for a week in Dec/Jan we went to a CS in Winnipeg and they had nothing. I do mea... Wed, 11 Mar 2015 09:13:53 EST The difference between a treat and a disaster http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890519 Men make me fat. <BR> <BR> Okay, they don't. But still. I'd always been a somewhat chubby teenager - I hated sports and physical exercise, didn't eat well at all and often binge ate my emotions - but when I started dating my first boyfriend when I was 18, I went from chubby to obese. <BR> <BR> I remember stepping on the scale when I was around 14. I think I was around 150 or 160 pounds at the time (my current weight) but I thought I was an enormous whale. Then my weight went up and up very ... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 14:00:11 EST Setting a routine in a new life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888060 So it's almost been 3 weeks since I moved here to Saskatchewan from Quebec City and I'm getting used to it. <BR> They say it takes 3 weeks for something to become a habit, well I've still got work to do to set a routine in my new surroundings. <BR> <BR> At least this week I started exercising again even though it's just walks. On the front page of SP I think last Monday, I saw this ad for the 30 days walking challenge and I decided to participate. So far it's really helped with my motivation... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 10:40:23 EST Live from Saskatchewan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881706 So I moved! This is finally done! <BR> <BR> Let me tell you a little bit about this crazy idea we had. <BR> <BR> My last week in Quebec City was tough. Final goodbyes to everybody, packing up everything, not having food at home, stress... LOTS of stress. I had to repack everything 3 times because I had too much for my little car (it's all I had to move all my stuff) and sometimes choosing what I'd keep and what I'd give away was the hardest part. I'm not one to keep extra stuff and I've nev... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 09:45:34 EST Move is coming up, weight is coming up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868863 So last week I decided to start tracking my food again and that does feel REALLY good. <BR> <BR> It's not as time-consuming as I remembered and gives me a good idea of my habits. SP says I should eat between 1800-1900 calories a day to lose weight and I'm eating about 2000 right now. I know this is far from being exact science and I don't rely on calorie counting alone to lose the weight (or maintain), but at least now I'm not completely in the blue as to what I'm eating. <BR> <BR> It also ... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 18:31:57 EST Something's not right, and I'm not coping right either http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862182 I know the concepts of "right" or "wrong" are generally frowned upon in the fitness community, but right now I know I've been wrong for a while. Very very wrong. <BR> <BR> So I'm moving to Saskatchewan in three weeks - less than three weeks actually; in three weeks we should be home and unpacking the car if we're not done yet. It's a 33-hours drive if we do it nonstop (Russ is coming here on the 12th and we're leaving on the morning of the 13th, which is a Friday; my goal is to make the trip... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 11:41:46 EST I feel an update is kinda due... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852111 Well I disappeared. For over a month. <BR> Sorry? It happens. It's happened for longer before. But I missed you guys. <BR> <BR> I just took an hour to read everything I missed (aka blogs) and now I'm ready to talk about me. Lol. <BR> <BR> I don't know where to really start. December, particularly the end of it, was hard. As usual, the Holidays were not easy food and exercise-wise, but as I read on Facebook, it's okay to give in from December 24th to January 1st, as long as you remember to k... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 20:01:11 EST Week 7 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825268 Week 4: Nov 23rd - Nov 30th <BR> <BR> Starting weight: 160.8 lbs <BR> Ending weight: 160.8 lbs <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 4 days :( broke my streak Tuesday <BR> Total exercise time: 309 minutes <BR> Exercises done: walking, bellydancing, strenght training <BR> <BR> Nutrition: fell off the wagon. Not brutally, but I ate out a LOT this week. I don't know what happened. Saturday I had a poutine with a friend, Wednesday a (huge) brownie dessert with another friend, Thursday I ate sushi... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 15:59:48 EST Week 6 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5821621 Week 4: Nov 16th - Nov 22nd <BR> <BR> Starting weight: 162 lbs <BR> Ending weight: 160.8 lbs <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 22 days <BR> Total exercise time: 270 minutes <BR> Exercises done: walking, bellydancing, yoga, strenght training, dancing <BR> <BR> Nutrition: not too bad. Sunday I made chocolate pie but I shared it with a bunch of people throughout the week so I ended up having 4 pieces out of the 8. I didn't feel OBLIGATED to eat it either (usually when I make dessert I feel l... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 12:28:19 EST Slip, fall, get back up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820769 This week has been very self-motivating fitness-wise. <BR> <BR> Wednesday night I had NOTHING planned. It's very rare (I don't think it's happened in a month), so I decided to take care of my to-do list and work out for an hour. AN HOUR!!! I haven't done that in a long, long time, except when I take long walks. <BR> <BR> So I decided I'd go for a 30-minutes walk and then I'd do strenght training for half an hour. Fair enough. I took care of a bunch of chores I had to do (that I'd been postp... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 17:14:34 EST Week 5 recap + PHOTOSHOOT PICS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5817645 Week 4: Nov 9th - Nov 15th <BR> <BR> Starting weight: 164.4 lbs <BR> Ending weight: 162 lbs <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 15 days <BR> Total exercise time: 261 minutes <BR> Exercises done: walking, bellydancing, jogging <BR> <BR> Nutrition: this week's been hard because I was constantly feeling hungry. CONSTANTLY. I don't know what happened, because I'm not exercising more than before, and I'm drinking a lot of water. And I know it was hunger, because I'm really good with knowing what... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 09:08:26 EST I ran with 4 shirts on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816324 Today was the kind of days where you wake up not wanting to get up at all. It's not even that I didn't wanna go to work - I didn't wanna do ANYTHING. <BR> Thursday is always my least favorite day of the week because of the customers I see weekly then. <BR> But this morning I felt so bleh. <BR> <BR> Lots of traffic while going to work and it felt like people were driving really slow just to get me mad. I'm way better with my road rage than I was two years ago when my ex moved to Quebec City w... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 18:31:17 EST Life shifts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5815384 For a month now I've felt my life shifting to something new. <BR> Actually my whole life I've got that feeling of constant change. <BR> <BR> I keep every picture I take or that has been taken while I was doing something with someone and I sort them on my computer by year, then by month. Well if you open for example the Octobre folder in 2014 and the October folder in 2013 I don't look like the same person. <BR> Same goes for the 10 years prior. <BR> <BR> When I was a teen I was changing a l... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 08:35:31 EST Week 4 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5813500 Week 4: Nov 2nd - Nov 8th <BR> <BR> Starting weight: 163 lbs <BR> Ending weight: 164.4 lbs <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 8 days <BR> Total exercise time: 267 minutes <BR> Exercises done: yoga, bellydancing, walking, zumba <BR> <BR> Nutrition: since I actually tracked my food (not here on SP, but in my Excel journal) it made data analysis way easier for me. Overall I did pretty well; but it seems I fell back into a pattern of evening binges. At least they didn't happen just because I w... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 09:48:32 EST The activity tracker: more than just a tracker http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5812714 It took me a couple days to get used to it, and to lose it once too, obviously, because I tend to lose things. At least it just fell on my car seat, lol. <BR> <BR> When I bought it I was really curious about my average number of steps I'd have on a normal day of work. I do desk work as an accountant so obviously I don't walk a lot, but I typically visit at least one customer per day, spending from 5 minutes to a few hours there, so I'll at least have to get up and walk to my car, down and up... Fri, 7 Nov 2014 17:08:44 EST Sticking to your goals: I finally did it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809878 So there are many steps to having goals. No matter what they are. The first step is picking them up. The second step is writing them down. <BR> I usually end there for some reason. <BR> <BR> Ever since my life started to settle down a little after my breakup in early September and my moving out on my own, I started back to week 1 for my 10 minutes a day challenge (ongoing forever), using the same plan: picking a goal for each week, no matter what it's related to, either fitness, food, or hea... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 10:03:26 EST Week 3 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809200 Week 2: Oct 19th - Oct 25th 2014 <BR> <BR> Starting weight: none <BR> Ending weight: 163 lbs <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 1 day <BR> Total exercise time: 130 minutes <BR> Exercises done: bellydancing, walking, heavy cleaning <BR> <BR> Nutrition: one of my biggest accomplishments this week was food. Sunday night something "terrible" happened - I had 9 beers, alone, at home, in 5 hours. No need to say I was feeling pretty terrible the next day, both physically and mentally. It'd been a... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 09:04:35 EST Already lost my Spark activity tracker?! And found it. LOL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807007 I just had a big big big scare! <BR> <BR> Yesterday afternoon I came back from my afternoon's customer, to my office to a big surprise: I'd already received my activity tracker that I bought a week or two ago. <BR> I was only supposed to get it on the 31st, so that was a nice surprise. <BR> <BR> Of course as soon as I got home I installed the software and checked everything out. Then I had a MK meeting and when I came back I checked it to see I had made maybe 300 steps. Not bad for sitting ... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 13:46:28 EST Week 2 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805066 Week 2: Oct 19th - Oct 25th 2014 <BR> <BR> Starting weight: 166.6 lbs <BR> Ending weight: none (weighing in tomorrow morning) <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 1 day <BR> Total exercise time: 337 minutes <BR> Exercises done: bellydancing, zumba, walking <BR> <BR> Nutrition: I tried and... well, didn't always try. First of all I think I should really start having snacks again because around 9:30-10 I get really hungry but push myself to wait until lunch time, which I know is a horrible thi... Sun, 26 Oct 2014 13:50:37 EST Week 1 recap, or what happens when resolutions remain resolutions... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801287 Week 1: Oct 15th - Oct 18th 2014 <BR> <BR> Starting weight: none <BR> Ending weight: 166.6 lbs <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 0 days <BR> Total exercise time: 60 minutes <BR> Exercises done: zumba <BR> <BR> Nutrition: woops. I said last week that eating out was done, but I've done it again, and again, and again. Thursday night I was going out with friends but I ate at home first, I made soup. Proud of myself because I knew that chopping all the veggies would take a while, and since I h... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 06:39:37 EST Back to it, and everything was just a big break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798513 Over a month ago I kinda put my life on hold. Quit my boyfriend, moved out by myself in a small apartment, then met someone else, well, someone I'd known for a year and a half, came to visit me. <BR> And finally, FINALLY yesterday I got working internet at home, over a month after moving. I didn't feel like it was a big deal not having it at first (I don't even have Facebook - I pretty much just use internet for Sparkpeople and checking my email) but it started to get on me as days went by an... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 07:20:42 EST A difficult separation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797519 This morning I had to get up at 5 AM to take Russel to the airport. His flight was at 6:25, from Quebec City to Toronto, and then to Winnipeg. <BR> Saskatchewan took my man back! I hate it. <BR> <BR> It was hard coming back home alone, and I cried. But I managed to read and then sleep an extra 2 hours since today is Holidays. I never celebrated Thanksgiving (it's not a big thing here in Quebec) but I feel like I might in the next years. <BR> <BR> Last weekend was really great. Good food, go... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 15:39:05 EST I figured I should let you know I'm alive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795752 Well first of all I'd like to say thank you to everyone who took the time to check on me, sending me goodies and sparkmail and messages. <BR> I know I haven't been answering so this is why I'm writing this blog right now. <BR> <BR> A lot of things are happening in my life, especially this week. <BR> <BR> As you may know I've been single for over a month now. <BR> Well let's just say I'm not anymore since last Sunday. <BR> Yes, again. XD roll your eyes. <BR> <BR> This is a long story so I'l... Fri, 10 Oct 2014 09:53:10 EST Coping with loss and mourning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781612 Well it's not that easy actually. <BR> <BR> At least I haven't cried since Sunday night; I had tears in my eyes about an hour ago while texting my ex but that's it. I've been truly enjoying being alone, and yesterday after some shopping, my apartment started looking more like... a liveable place. <BR> <BR> Monday night I needed to eat, obviously, so I made a quick stop at the grocery store on my way home from work, and I bought some veggies and stuff I knew I lacked. I also gave in and boug... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 11:45:57 EST Moving, a true workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780143 So I moved out of my old apartment and into my new one. <BR> It's small(er). But I love it. <BR> <BR> Last week went by so fast. I did all my address changes, I opened new accounts for services, I worked a lot, I worried a little, of course. I'm the worrying/stressed type, but this went pretty well actually. <BR> <BR> Thursday night a friend helped me pack up my stuff, and Friday night I packed some more, and cleaned my new apartment. That was well needed. I also moved some stuff by myself,... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 08:44:45 EST Quick update: why I'll be absent for a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776621 So I'm single. <BR> <BR> Long story short, I left my ex Saturday, and I've been pretty busy since. <BR> <BR> I have to move out, so yesterday I visited an apartment and I'm signing the lease tomorrow PM. I'll be moving out ASAP. <BR> <BR> At least everyone is very nice and understanding. My boss, my colleagues, my clients, and especially my friends and family, are amazing. My sister came with me to visit apartments after her day of work; all of my friends suggested they help me move even t... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 14:18:06 EST How far can you go with your partner? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773810 By partner I mean life partner - husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, whatever... <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had a fight with my boyfriend, about working out. <BR> <BR> As you may know I'm doing a 10 minutes a day of fitness challenge and my streak is now... 16 days. I started this with my boyfriend two weeks ago because I felt like neither of us was working out sufficiently - and even less regularly. <BR> <BR> So far I'm really enjoying it, and I think it's the first thing I try that really w... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 08:05:21 EST My prom dress is too large: pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772776 But first of all, a picture of the vegan banana split we ate last week. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1851989133.jpg"> <BR> <BR> YES, IT WAS DELICIOUS. A banana, homemade blueberry-vanilla jam, dairy-free chocolate chips, some pecans, some blueberries, and the chocolate sauce is made with soaked dates, cocoa powder and coconut milk. <BR> <BR> This is the gang I was with at the vegan potluck: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1489... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 17:33:37 EST A dream come true? My prom dress is too large! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772181 Well I always guessed it. <BR> <BR> When I was in secondary 5 (last year of high school here) I weighed around 190 pounds, maybe more. I didn't step on the scale around these times, because I didn't care (or didn't want to); but I remember thinking at some point around that age "if you get to 200 pounds, kill yourself". <BR> (I didn't, obviously, even though I reached 205 pounds.) <BR> <BR> So in secondary 5 around the end of Winter I went prom dress shopping with my best friend and my mom.... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 21:23:09 EST Week 2 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771352 I'm back! Weekend was FUN and AWESOME! And also very, very relaxing :) pictures coming as soon as my sister uploads them ;P <BR> CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S SEPTEMBER!!! <BR> <BR> Week 2: August 24th-August 30th 2014 <BR> <BR> Starting weight: none <BR> Ending weight: none <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 12 days <BR> Total exercise time: 304 minutes <BR> Exercises done: walking, cycling, tennis, yoga, swimming <BR> <BR> Nutrition: very good start of the week with light "giving in" (chips, beer)... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 19:16:50 EST My friend Nicolas, the inspiration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767844 Yesterday I rushed home from work, prepared supper, changed clothes, and left. I drove to my friend Nicolas' house on the south shore (and barely got any traffic - yay!) where we'd be leaving for a little moto ride and eat together somewhere pretty. <BR> <BR> I met Nicolas two years ago when I started my job as a tech support for an accounting software. He was a level 2 tech and he'd been working there 6 or 7 years. He knew his stuff. We didn't get along very well first (seems like most of m... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 06:43:04 EST My whole body aches... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766591 But it aches in a good way! (I hope. Lol) <BR> <BR> Yesterday was an AWESOME day. I was feeling very energized and ready to do anything! I got up around 8:30 in the morning to make breakfast for my boyfriend and I (chocolate pancakes, maple beans and coffee). Then we sat around a little but around 11 we took our bikes out of the locker, pumped up the tires (they deflate so quickly...) and went for a ride. <BR> <BR> Very close to our apartment there's a bike path that used to be a railway, s... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 09:10:20 EST Week 1 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766201 So this was my first week of... well, going it again. <BR> I feel GREAT. <BR> I decided that each Sunday I'd do a recap of the week (from the previous Sunday to the day before, aka Saturday) using this little form I put together. <BR> Yay me. <BR> <BR> Week 1: August 17th-August 23rd 2014 <BR> <BR> Starting weight: none <BR> Ending weight: none <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 5 days <BR> Total exercise time: 127 minutes <BR> Exercises done: walking, pushups and situps, yoga <BR> <BR> N... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 18:26:33 EST Rediscovering SP and making new plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764999 I'm trying to take things super slow right now so ever since I started coming back more to SP (aka not just to spin the wheel and read blogs) I slowly built my mind to do stuff again. Just... do something. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had a very long day at work - worked over 9 hours nonstop - and I got home really exhausted, and also ANGRY at one of my customers for an email he sent me that was really belittling my competences and my work. Lots of traffic even though it was almost 6 PM, and as soo... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 14:51:14 EST You're too fat to bellydance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763785 For a very, very, very long time I deemed myself too fat to wear a bikini. <BR> Even though I agree that sometimes it's better to show less than more, I was still jealous of 50+ years old women wearing a bikini at the beach, no matter their size. They wanted to wear one and they did. I was in my early 20's and I couldn't wear one. Bummer. <BR> <BR> Then in 2012 I bought my first bikini top ever. Hot pink with white polka dots. And I wore it often. I still have it, but it's getting a little l... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 19:24:40 EST Babybabybabybabybaby steps... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762778 Yesterday I binged, on cashews. The weird thing is that I never really liked cashews. I prefer most nuts to cashews. But yesterday I cleaned out the pantry and found this pack of roasted cashews and for some reason I decided I had to eat them all. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I feel like my brain is broken, and I'd like to get a new one, or at least be able to fix it. I'm not giving up just yet, but it feels like some parts of it just shut down whenever I'm in a particular situation. I'm extremely co... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 09:51:47 EST Camping trip gone RIGHT! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761512 I absolutely adored my weekend, and I'm so glad we left, only the two of us (my boyfriend and I) and took time to ourselves. <BR> I always loved camping, and I always try to go at least one weekend every year, but this year we hadn't been yet (with the trip to Hawaii taking up all our time and not wanting to spend money on other activities), but when we came back, we decided to go. <BR> <BR> It's a camping I'd been to 3 years ago, with my ex in 2011, right before moving to Quebec City. It's ... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 15:35:45 EST I don't know what to do anymore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759416 Right now I'm on the verge of giving up. I know I won't. But it feels very tempting. <BR> It doesn't even feel like I've been trying even since I came back from Hawaii almost 4 weeks ago. <BR> <BR> I've gained weight, but not a lot. I don't care about that, though. I care about losing all the muscle mass I was able to build since last November, I care about my flabby belly, my back fat, and my general appearance. It takes me a while in the morning to pick which clothes I'll wear for the day,... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 07:36:47 EST OUCH!!! Back to the gym!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748843 I'm sooooo sore. I haven't been this sore in a long, long time. <BR> <BR> But all I did yesterday was run for half an hour on the treadmill. <BR> <BR> For some reason I felt nervous to go back to the gym. I hadn't been there in 3 weeks. I felt like when I was a child and it was the first day of school! Haha! It was so weird being in the locker room and having to think about everything I was doing - it had became such a routine before that I never even thought about it. I had to double and t... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 10:15:38 EST