WUMPASTAR's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WUMPASTAR WUMPASTAR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Week 1 recap, or what happens when resolutions remain resolutions... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801287 Week 1: Oct 15th - Oct 18th 2014 <BR> <BR> Starting weight: none <BR> Ending weight: 166.6 lbs <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 0 days <BR> Total exercise time: 60 minutes <BR> Exercises done: zumba <BR> <BR> Nutrition: woops. I said last week that eating out was done, but I've done it again, and again, and again. Thursday night I was going out with friends but I ate at home first, I made soup. Proud of myself because I knew that chopping all the veggies would take a while, and since I h... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 06:39:37 EST Back to it, and everything was just a big break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798513 Over a month ago I kinda put my life on hold. Quit my boyfriend, moved out by myself in a small apartment, then met someone else, well, someone I'd known for a year and a half, came to visit me. <BR> And finally, FINALLY yesterday I got working internet at home, over a month after moving. I didn't feel like it was a big deal not having it at first (I don't even have Facebook - I pretty much just use internet for Sparkpeople and checking my email) but it started to get on me as days went by an... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 07:20:42 EST A difficult separation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5797519 This morning I had to get up at 5 AM to take Russel to the airport. His flight was at 6:25, from Quebec City to Toronto, and then to Winnipeg. <BR> Saskatchewan took my man back! I hate it. <BR> <BR> It was hard coming back home alone, and I cried. But I managed to read and then sleep an extra 2 hours since today is Holidays. I never celebrated Thanksgiving (it's not a big thing here in Quebec) but I feel like I might in the next years. <BR> <BR> Last weekend was really great. Good food, go... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 15:39:05 EST I figured I should let you know I'm alive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795752 Well first of all I'd like to say thank you to everyone who took the time to check on me, sending me goodies and sparkmail and messages. <BR> I know I haven't been answering so this is why I'm writing this blog right now. <BR> <BR> A lot of things are happening in my life, especially this week. <BR> <BR> As you may know I've been single for over a month now. <BR> Well let's just say I'm not anymore since last Sunday. <BR> Yes, again. XD roll your eyes. <BR> <BR> This is a long story so I'l... Fri, 10 Oct 2014 09:53:10 EST Coping with loss and mourning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781612 Well it's not that easy actually. <BR> <BR> At least I haven't cried since Sunday night; I had tears in my eyes about an hour ago while texting my ex but that's it. I've been truly enjoying being alone, and yesterday after some shopping, my apartment started looking more like... a liveable place. <BR> <BR> Monday night I needed to eat, obviously, so I made a quick stop at the grocery store on my way home from work, and I bought some veggies and stuff I knew I lacked. I also gave in and boug... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 11:45:57 EST Moving, a true workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780143 So I moved out of my old apartment and into my new one. <BR> It's small(er). But I love it. <BR> <BR> Last week went by so fast. I did all my address changes, I opened new accounts for services, I worked a lot, I worried a little, of course. I'm the worrying/stressed type, but this went pretty well actually. <BR> <BR> Thursday night a friend helped me pack up my stuff, and Friday night I packed some more, and cleaned my new apartment. That was well needed. I also moved some stuff by myself,... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 08:44:45 EST Quick update: why I'll be absent for a while http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5776621 So I'm single. <BR> <BR> Long story short, I left my ex Saturday, and I've been pretty busy since. <BR> <BR> I have to move out, so yesterday I visited an apartment and I'm signing the lease tomorrow PM. I'll be moving out ASAP. <BR> <BR> At least everyone is very nice and understanding. My boss, my colleagues, my clients, and especially my friends and family, are amazing. My sister came with me to visit apartments after her day of work; all of my friends suggested they help me move even t... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 14:18:06 EST How far can you go with your partner? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773810 By partner I mean life partner - husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, whatever... <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had a fight with my boyfriend, about working out. <BR> <BR> As you may know I'm doing a 10 minutes a day of fitness challenge and my streak is now... 16 days. I started this with my boyfriend two weeks ago because I felt like neither of us was working out sufficiently - and even less regularly. <BR> <BR> So far I'm really enjoying it, and I think it's the first thing I try that really w... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 08:05:21 EST My prom dress is too large: pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772776 But first of all, a picture of the vegan banana split we ate last week. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1851989133.jpg"> <BR> <BR> YES, IT WAS DELICIOUS. A banana, homemade blueberry-vanilla jam, dairy-free chocolate chips, some pecans, some blueberries, and the chocolate sauce is made with soaked dates, cocoa powder and coconut milk. <BR> <BR> This is the gang I was with at the vegan potluck: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1489... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 17:33:37 EST A dream come true? My prom dress is too large! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772181 Well I always guessed it. <BR> <BR> When I was in secondary 5 (last year of high school here) I weighed around 190 pounds, maybe more. I didn't step on the scale around these times, because I didn't care (or didn't want to); but I remember thinking at some point around that age "if you get to 200 pounds, kill yourself". <BR> (I didn't, obviously, even though I reached 205 pounds.) <BR> <BR> So in secondary 5 around the end of Winter I went prom dress shopping with my best friend and my mom.... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 21:23:09 EST Week 2 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771352 I'm back! Weekend was FUN and AWESOME! And also very, very relaxing :) pictures coming as soon as my sister uploads them ;P <BR> CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S SEPTEMBER!!! <BR> <BR> Week 2: August 24th-August 30th 2014 <BR> <BR> Starting weight: none <BR> Ending weight: none <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 12 days <BR> Total exercise time: 304 minutes <BR> Exercises done: walking, cycling, tennis, yoga, swimming <BR> <BR> Nutrition: very good start of the week with light "giving in" (chips, beer)... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 19:16:50 EST My friend Nicolas, the inspiration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767844 Yesterday I rushed home from work, prepared supper, changed clothes, and left. I drove to my friend Nicolas' house on the south shore (and barely got any traffic - yay!) where we'd be leaving for a little moto ride and eat together somewhere pretty. <BR> <BR> I met Nicolas two years ago when I started my job as a tech support for an accounting software. He was a level 2 tech and he'd been working there 6 or 7 years. He knew his stuff. We didn't get along very well first (seems like most of m... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 06:43:04 EST My whole body aches... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766591 But it aches in a good way! (I hope. Lol) <BR> <BR> Yesterday was an AWESOME day. I was feeling very energized and ready to do anything! I got up around 8:30 in the morning to make breakfast for my boyfriend and I (chocolate pancakes, maple beans and coffee). Then we sat around a little but around 11 we took our bikes out of the locker, pumped up the tires (they deflate so quickly...) and went for a ride. <BR> <BR> Very close to our apartment there's a bike path that used to be a railway, s... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 09:10:20 EST Week 1 recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5766201 So this was my first week of... well, going it again. <BR> I feel GREAT. <BR> I decided that each Sunday I'd do a recap of the week (from the previous Sunday to the day before, aka Saturday) using this little form I put together. <BR> Yay me. <BR> <BR> Week 1: August 17th-August 23rd 2014 <BR> <BR> Starting weight: none <BR> Ending weight: none <BR> <BR> 10 minutes a day streak: 5 days <BR> Total exercise time: 127 minutes <BR> Exercises done: walking, pushups and situps, yoga <BR> <BR> N... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 18:26:33 EST Rediscovering SP and making new plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764999 I'm trying to take things super slow right now so ever since I started coming back more to SP (aka not just to spin the wheel and read blogs) I slowly built my mind to do stuff again. Just... do something. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I had a very long day at work - worked over 9 hours nonstop - and I got home really exhausted, and also ANGRY at one of my customers for an email he sent me that was really belittling my competences and my work. Lots of traffic even though it was almost 6 PM, and as soo... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 14:51:14 EST You're too fat to bellydance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763785 For a very, very, very long time I deemed myself too fat to wear a bikini. <BR> Even though I agree that sometimes it's better to show less than more, I was still jealous of 50+ years old women wearing a bikini at the beach, no matter their size. They wanted to wear one and they did. I was in my early 20's and I couldn't wear one. Bummer. <BR> <BR> Then in 2012 I bought my first bikini top ever. Hot pink with white polka dots. And I wore it often. I still have it, but it's getting a little l... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 19:24:40 EST Babybabybabybabybaby steps... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762778 Yesterday I binged, on cashews. The weird thing is that I never really liked cashews. I prefer most nuts to cashews. But yesterday I cleaned out the pantry and found this pack of roasted cashews and for some reason I decided I had to eat them all. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I feel like my brain is broken, and I'd like to get a new one, or at least be able to fix it. I'm not giving up just yet, but it feels like some parts of it just shut down whenever I'm in a particular situation. I'm extremely co... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 09:51:47 EST Camping trip gone RIGHT! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761512 I absolutely adored my weekend, and I'm so glad we left, only the two of us (my boyfriend and I) and took time to ourselves. <BR> I always loved camping, and I always try to go at least one weekend every year, but this year we hadn't been yet (with the trip to Hawaii taking up all our time and not wanting to spend money on other activities), but when we came back, we decided to go. <BR> <BR> It's a camping I'd been to 3 years ago, with my ex in 2011, right before moving to Quebec City. It's ... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 15:35:45 EST I don't know what to do anymore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759416 Right now I'm on the verge of giving up. I know I won't. But it feels very tempting. <BR> It doesn't even feel like I've been trying even since I came back from Hawaii almost 4 weeks ago. <BR> <BR> I've gained weight, but not a lot. I don't care about that, though. I care about losing all the muscle mass I was able to build since last November, I care about my flabby belly, my back fat, and my general appearance. It takes me a while in the morning to pick which clothes I'll wear for the day,... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 07:36:47 EST OUCH!!! Back to the gym!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748843 I'm sooooo sore. I haven't been this sore in a long, long time. <BR> <BR> But all I did yesterday was run for half an hour on the treadmill. <BR> <BR> For some reason I felt nervous to go back to the gym. I hadn't been there in 3 weeks. I felt like when I was a child and it was the first day of school! Haha! It was so weird being in the locker room and having to think about everything I was doing - it had became such a routine before that I never even thought about it. I had to double and t... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 10:15:38 EST A pretty hard week, and back on track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748066 I don't like the whole "starting over" thing and I believe strongly in doing a little everyday instead of giving up and starting over the next day... <BR> But it's happened and I couldn't help it. <BR> <BR> The good news is that my cat is back. Wednesday I printed missing cat posters at work and in the evening my boyfriend posted them around the area where he was lost. The next night, just a little before 9 PM he got a phone call from a guy saying he found our cat and brought him in his hous... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 09:02:33 EST Back from Hawaii http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743636 Hi guys! I'm back from my two weeks vacation to Hawaii and it was pretty great. <BR> I say "pretty great" instead of "awesome" because EVERYTHING or almost that could have happened, happened. <BR> Excluding a tsunami, which I'm glad didn't happen. <BR> <BR> I won't describe it a lot here since I'm waiting until I get everyone's pictures to choose the best and talk about my trip. <BR> <BR> Overall it went well. <BR> <BR> The negative sides: <BR> - Our first flight was delayed, then cancelle... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 18:39:03 EST Two days until Hawaii... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5731515 What a crazy week this was. <BR> <BR> Last Sunday was my last day "off" before my vacation. Meaning I had nothing planned. And we didn't do much. In fact I overslept, and then took a nap in the afternoon while my boyfriend went to the gym. I fell asleep before he left, even though I'd intended on going with him. <BR> Which means I haven't gone to the gym in over a week, and won't be going for two weeks for obvious reasons... <BR> <BR> It was still freakin' too hot Sunday, and it's been like... Thu, 3 Jul 2014 20:51:46 EST Bikini shopping: SUCCESS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728295 Yesterday went fantastically well. <BR> <BR> I slept in, cleaned the apartment, did some laundry, and after taking a shower and eating lunch I picked up my sister-in-law at her parents' place (she's staying there for the Summer). Then we went to the mall. <BR> <BR> We started with Reitmans, where I was exchanging a tank top I bought Thursday night. I bought a medium without trying it on and it was too big. Err... so I exchanged it for a small one. Then I got a refund for the bikini top I bo... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 11:34:57 EST Excitement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726872 In eight days I'll be in the plane taking me to Newark (NJ), and from there I'm taking a plane to Honolulu. <BR> In eight days and a half I'll be in Hawaii. <BR> <BR> My schedule is completely packed until we leave. I'm working the whole day today (we're supposed to be closing on Friday afternoons in the Summer, but I have too much to do); tomorrow I have to clean the apartment and I'm bikini shopping with my sister-in-law; Sunday is my only "day off". Then I'm working Monday (and I have a v... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 07:01:00 EST Yet another unproductive week... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5721880 Yesterday I decided that I would go for a run. <BR> Since I never run anymore, and I'm actually running a 5k tomorrow, which I'm totally not ready for (more info about that later in this post). <BR> <BR> It was disastrous. I'm not even being negative - it just didn't... work out. <BR> <BR> I ate a salad for supper, a big salad made of lettuce, spinach, carrots, some seeds, cheddar cheese, hard boiled eggs and a dressing I invented (that was quite delicious). <BR> <BR> Then I ate a little p... Fri, 20 Jun 2014 07:12:53 EST How I stopped caring about what others thought http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5719206 And how it so awesomely changed my life <BR> <BR> Yesterday I went to Village Vacances Val-Cartier. I guess it could be translated to Val-Cartier Vacation Village. It's an aquatic park not so far away from Quebec City. Last year I took a seasonal pass: it's the cost of going three times, so if you go more than three times you save. Well it was a mistake (I felt I was forced to go even when I didn't feel like going, and honestly, it's fun, but not more than once or twice in a year!) so I deci... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 15:14:15 EST The final sprint to vacations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715979 So Hawaii is in 24 days. <BR> For two weeks I'll be visiting Oahu Island and Big Island, trying surf for the first time, walking on the Volcanoes National Park and seeing lava, enjoying beaches under the sun... <BR> And maybe I won't be in shape. <BR> <BR> Maybe I'm stressing too much over this vacation - but it's the first time in my whole life I'll be on vacation for two weeks, and go somewhere for two whole weeks. That I'm paying for. That isn't by car. That isn't me being hauled by my pa... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 18:35:26 EST May recap, June goals, and an overindulging weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709148 So my goals for May were: <BR> <BR> - Better my running technique <BR> - Reach 160 pounds and maintain it <BR> - Buy 80% of my food at the grocery store from the fresh sections (fruits, veggies, dairy) <BR> <BR> Mid-may I had some kind of breakdown because of my financial problems and even though I didn't quit altogether - I swore I'm never doing that again - I kinda took a break from my health-related goals to just relax and sort my life out. <BR> So the goals were set aside and I didn't ... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 18:35:35 EST Define: beauty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5707460 Sometimes I wonder, if I was born all alone on Earth, and would have remained alone until my death (giving that's possible), if I would have thought I was beautiful. <BR> <BR> How many times have you spent quite some time on your appearance, choosing the right clothes, hairdo and makeup, adding the final touch and felt that satisfaction flow through you while you looked at yourself in your mirror, only to find that satisfaction gone like dust in the wind the second you step out of the comfor... Sat, 31 May 2014 12:16:40 EST Bra problems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5704181 Last week I was on fiiiire! I almost exercised every day. I only took a break Friday because I was completely exhausted from my week. I didn't follow my exact schedule but then again when is that gonna happen? Life gets in the way. Wednesday night I saw a friend and I was supposed to go for a run before but I left work too late, so we took an hour-long walk outside instead. I mean, that's still good! <BR> <BR> Friday night we picked our stuff for Color Me Rad. The t-shirts are huge. Last yea... Tue, 27 May 2014 08:50:55 EST Sun is finally here (with pictures!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698340 So yesterday was my boyfriend's only day off. <BR> He usually works Tues-Sat and has Sunday and Monday off, but today he's working because they gotta take the inventory where he works, and also he took next Saturday off for Color Me Rad. <BR> <BR> So we wanted to make the most out of the only day we had together for the week. <BR> <BR> At first Saturday night we wanted to leave and go someplace, and only come back yesterday, but I didn't want to spend any money on sleeping elsewhere, and it... Mon, 19 May 2014 10:51:19 EST A motivation visual http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697018 Back in 2012 I made one of these. It was just a Word document with a plan and steps to reach my goal, and motivating quotes. <BR> It helped the first weeks but then I kinda forgot about it. It was pinned next to my mirror in my bedroom and it stayed there for a long while - until I moved out of the apartment, in fact. <BR> <BR> I made a new one this morning. I badly needed this. <BR> I felt like sharing it with you guys. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l20485536... Sat, 17 May 2014 12:10:36 EST ENOUGH!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696170 Picture me in my panties and pj t-shirt, with a mug of coffee in front of me, wanting to SCREAM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS. <BR> <BR> I'm not mad. I just feel like a tiger. <BR> <BR> I really loved today's top stories (the 4 shortcuts on the start page), particularly these ones: <BR> <BR> http://www.sparkpeople.com/resource/dail<BR>yspark-videos-detail.asp?video=79 <BR> THIS VIDEO. WAS AWESOME. I like watching montages people do when they go on a weightloss journey and they usually motivate me... Fri, 16 May 2014 07:34:37 EST So I binge ate yesterday... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5695463 Hi! It's been a while. <BR> <BR> Honestly I needed a time off, and I'm not sure I don't need it anymore. Times are hard. When I'm struggling with my finances it always leaks off to every aspect of my life - relationships, work, and of course working out. And right now I can't afford anything, my boyfriend is paying for everything and I absolutely hate owing someone money. <BR> But I'll be fine. <BR> <BR> I've had a couple really bad crisis, but I calmed down. I think I'm way better at manag... Thu, 15 May 2014 07:51:28 EST A two-sided party http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5685777 The tax season in Canada ends on April 30th. It's a really harsh time from February to that date here because of that, since my boss is really hella busy and he gave me a lot of work to do in his place since he was doing so many tax reports (400+!). <BR> It was my first time working in an accounting office during tax season, and I liked the challenge. I'm exhausted, though. <BR> Every year a few days after April 30th, my boss throws a little get-together after work, here at the office, so we ... Fri, 2 May 2014 12:45:39 EST Goals for May http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683761 I can't believe it's already April 30th. One third of the year is already over. Aaaahhh! Where did it go?! But good news is that I'm leaving for Hawaii in 66 days! <BR> <BR> So since April is ending tonight at midnight I gotta choose new goals for May. <BR> Honestly I hadn't given it too much thought since I was so focused on April. XD <BR> <BR> So my goals for April were: <BR> - 1500 monthly fitness minutes; <BR> - Lose 3 pounds <BR> - Eat more veggies and eat cheaper <BR> <BR> I thought ... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 08:11:46 EST A sweet'n'sour weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5682382 I went through a rollercoaster of emotions last weekend. <BR> <BR> Friday night, after supper, my boyfriend and I picked up my friend and she and I went to my favorite running store, where I bought my shoes two years ago, and my boyfriend's shoes last Summer. I love the employees there because they really know what they're talking about and I really feel welcomed there. I tend to feel out of place in sports stores because I'm larger than the average customer, and it seems to me like employee... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 12:23:10 EST In need of a push http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5679985 The second week of April went very well for me. <BR> The third week not so well. <BR> And well now we're in the last week plus a couple of days. 6 days left in the month. <BR> <BR> For some reason I thought I hadn't reached any of my April goals so I went back to my blog entry to read them. Turns out I did reach 2 out of 3. <BR> I hadn't written them down anywhere else so that probably was a bad idea because I didn't remember any but the one I haven't reached yet. XD <BR> <BR> But still. I'... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 07:08:46 EST My first run of 2014 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677606 So I finally did it. <BR> <BR> My running season was supposed to start last week. But for some reason Mother Nature decided it was Winter again and the temperature never went above 2*C for the whole week; I came back to my thick gloves, my wool scarf and my boots. <BR> Last weekend it was better, but I spent most of my time inside, with family. <BR> <BR> Yesterday after blogging I mostly sat around and read magazines that my mom brought me. I cleaned a little around the apartment, I ate, I ... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 07:06:40 EST How could I do this to myself weekly for years?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5676909 I overate for three days. To the point of feeling sick and nauseous, to the point of intense regrets. <BR> It hadn't happened in such a long time that it made me ponder. <BR> <BR> Friday after a (VERY VERY) long day at work I went back home, took my cat to the vet where he got his shots, then came back home and changed while waiting for my boyfriend. Then after his shower we went to my sister's apartment. <BR> <BR> I saw my parents, whom I hadn't seen since early January, that was fun. We b... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 09:20:02 EST Finding balance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5675091 Holidays are hard for me. <BR> <BR> When my parents visit I want to spend as much time as possible with them, since I rarely see them (it's a 5 and a half hours drive to go to my hometown where they still live and I can't afford it most of the time, nor can they (time-wise)). So for the long weekend they are here and we have a lot of things planned. <BR> <BR> Also I had a ton of appointments this week and I was seeing some friends. An old colleague I hadn't seen in a while, and a friend who... Fri, 18 Apr 2014 12:49:05 EST About negative self-talk... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5674079 Yesterday I mentioned in my blog about my two year Sparkversary that I'm less self-conscious than before. It's somewhat true, but sometimes I almost feel like I'd feel better ignoring my body image altogether than giving it so much thought. <BR> <BR> When my weight hit 205 pounds I rarely thought about it. I didn't get on the scale very often anyway, and I didn't realize what I was doing to myself. I didn't even avoid pictures like people tend to do when they're obese. I just... didn't reall... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 07:07:27 EST 2 years Sparkversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673786 Last year I missed it by two days, this year by one. XD I always kinda remember it's mid-April but why can't I remember April 15th?! <BR> <BR> Anyway, yesterday was my two year Sparkversary and I figured I should mention it, celebrate it, and think about how my life is better now. <BR> <BR> In 2012 I joined a gym and it went pretty well for the first month. Then I hit a plateau and I didn't like the fact that I felt so alone in all of this. I had a friend who attended the same gym (I actual... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 18:34:39 EST A wonderful discovery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672597 We're all busy. I don't think I haven't heard anyone I know say that at some point. It's one thing we seem to love saying when we're swamped with work, chores, or tasks. It seems our to-do list never comes to an end. There's always something to do. <BR> <BR> I have a naturally very critical mind. And like most people who do, I'm very, intensely critical with myself, way more than I am with anyone else. So when I surprised myself complaining about being busy, a lot, every day, I decided to an... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 07:50:33 EST Cleaning up my life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671965 I mentioned recently doing my yearly Spring cleanup, aka decluttering my home. <BR> It's something I do every year and I always feel some kind of relief after. I'm not a big hoarder, but sometimes I cling to objects that I have never used in years, and that aren't of any use to me anymore. <BR> <BR> Recently at Costco (consumerism paradise) I bought a book called Zero Waste. It's about a French woman called Bea Johnson who now lives in the US with her husband and two children, and they produ... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 11:23:46 EST Job stress can ruin my intentions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670312 Thursday I updated my blog in the morning before heading to work. Then I went straight to my customer's office, where I spent all morning, like all Thursdays. <BR> <BR> While I was there my colleague texted me and asked me to call back another one of my customers because apparently it was urgent. So I did (with my cellphone, since I don't have a phone there, but it's my personal phone that I hate using for work since I pay for it) and it wasn't urgent at all, it could have waited in the afte... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 08:14:45 EST 10 pounds lost: an ode to joy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668758 What a beautiful, sunny morning full of surprises. <BR> <BR> It is Thursday, weigh in day, which got me out of bed while I was being lazy (I set my alarm clock to 6:30 but shut it and went back to bed, intending to get up around 7). I thought hey, come on, do it now, you wanna know. Yes, I did want to know. I've been very active this week, and since my body is on a losing spree, I was feeling positive. <BR> <BR> I was right! <BR> <BR> This morning my scale read 164.2 pounds. <BR> <BR> Tha... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 07:25:08 EST Even my panties don't fit anymore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5668037 I've had a major shrinkage in the last two weeks. <BR> <BR> Clothes don't fit. Like, everything. Okay, not everything, I'm exagerating, but most of my panties don't fit anymore. ... it's not something that's really ever happened to me so I don't know what to do. XD I haven't bought underwear in a LOOOONG time (at least a year, yes that is a long time to me), but I don't feel like throwing it all away. <BR> <BR> But just as clothes that are too big don't look the best... underwear that is to... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 08:49:04 EST A productive weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666511 I had a great weekend fitness-wise with lots of fun activities! <BR> <BR> So Saturday it was still slushy and snowy outside, and pretty cold, so my friend and I went shopping. There are three big malls next to one another here, near the university and that's where we always go when I'm with her for shopping. I had places to go in all three malls, and so we did a lot of walking. I didn't buy a single piece of clothing; all the pretty stuff was stuff I don't need, and I was able to refrain fro... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 12:38:09 EST