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Tue, 5 Jul 2016 17:07:29 EST Of forgiveness, moving on, and loving myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6194776 I will never be perfect. Nobody will ever be perfect. <BR> <BR> Yet for most of my life that's what I shot for. Perfection. And, obviously, I could never achieve it. And I hated myself for that. <BR> <BR> It took me a long time to put words unto it, to understand what I was doing to myself. I remember having a long conversation with my dad about failures when I was 16 and severely depressed and that's when I started to realize I was a perfectionist. <BR> <BR> To quote Nia Shanks (Lift Like... Mon, 4 Jul 2016 18:32:17 EST Reality check: at the gym, nobody cares about you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6190578 So I went to the gym this morning. <BR> <BR> At last. At last I had a full workout. I feel awesome right now. Truly I missed it. <BR> <BR> I moved to a new city on June 4th, a Saturday. I started my new job two days later (June 6th). The next day, I took a long walk around town, visited the library to make my address change, and ended the walk with a visit to the gym to get a membership. <BR> <BR> It didn't go well. I knew there'd be a lot of people since it's the only gym in town and it w... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 13:14:49 EST To create a habit, tell a good story http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6188880 Leo Babauta wrote an excellent article a couple days ago on his blog: <BR> http://zenhabits.net/story/ <BR> <BR> The timing for me was simply perfect. <BR> <BR> As I've said in my last couple blogs, my habits have been thrown out the window since I moved three weeks ago. Okay, not all of them, and to a certain degree, but still. <BR> <BR> Food-wise, I've been eating way more junk food, I've been eating out more often in three weeks than I'd normally go in a whole year... The good side thou... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 13:51:41 EST Feels like I blew it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6187086 I'm bloated. I gained weight (at least it looks like it in the mirror). I'm constantly exhausted. <BR> <BR> Since I moved I feel like I threw all my habits out the window. And in the last couple days it's been easy to feel despair and to blame myself, or to use the move as an excuse, or... <BR> <BR> In fact, it's been easy to do anything except just go back to the habits and forget what's happened. <BR> <BR> I tend to make this long list of mistakes in my head and repeat it to myself just ... Tue, 21 Jun 2016 18:19:24 EST Trying to find a routine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6186264 So it's been two weeks since I moved. It feels like two months with all that we got done, lol. <BR> <BR> Last week was more and more tiring. I was pretty much just waiting for the weekend to arrive. I wanted to sleep in, to have some time to do nothing and relax, I wanted our apartment to be "done" and it felt like there was still so much to do... <BR> <BR> I got good news Thursday when I got a paycheck - I thought my first one would be on June 30th, so I was living on a 5 days paycheck fr... Mon, 20 Jun 2016 11:44:22 EST Swamped, but hanging on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6182778 I used to highly value being super busy without a second to think. Now I despise it. I miss my calm, boring life, lol! But it's only been a week and a half since I moved and it's slowly settling. <BR> <BR> Truth: I am stressed, very highly stressed. Last weekend was fun but so tiring. We left Friday evening to Winnipeg. It's a five hours drive, and with the time change between Saskatchewan and Manitoba we "lost" an extra hour; we went to bed at 2 AM and got up at 8 for a whole day of shoppin... Tue, 14 Jun 2016 13:11:50 EST The big move is done and I'm exhausted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6179214 So last Saturday I moved. It was a stressful week and now is another one, even more stressful. <BR> <BR> The move itself went well. My boyfriend got to my place Friday, we delivered some furniture back to people I'd borrowed from. The next day we finished packing, got rid of more furniture, packed up the vehicles and cleaned up the whole apartment. At one in the afternoon we were on the road and made it at 4:30 at our new place, unloaded the vehicles, and then I was left alone while he went ... Wed, 8 Jun 2016 19:19:28 EST An excellent GGS article on control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6173752 https://www.girlsgonestrong.com/blog/femal<BR>e-fitness/genes-jeans/ <BR> <BR> I fell in love with Girls Gone Strong maybe just a month ago. I'd always heard about it but never checked it out. I guess it didn't help that I didn't REALLY fall in love with the weight room at the gym until February or March. I always kinda enjoyed lifting, but I always sticked to what you always see women do at the gym - lots of reps with tiny dumbbells, and staying away from those scary barbells made for men. ... Tue, 31 May 2016 12:27:25 EST Celebrating the NSVs: not buying chips http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6173071 I've had a very stressful, emotional weekend laden with a bit of depression. <BR> <BR> Okay, I spent the whole afternoon and evening in bed Saturday. That hadn't happened in a very long time. It came from NOWHERE. I think it's a combination of things. I've accumulated frustrations all week with both my personal and my professional life, and then the stress of the upcoming move piled up on top of it, and I had to start packing up... <BR> <BR> So Saturday morning I went to Yorkton for some er... Mon, 30 May 2016 12:29:30 EST NO, I'm NOT dieting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6171399 Something happened yesterday. <BR> <BR> I saw my ex's mom for the first time in months. I saw her briefly at an art show in town about three weeks ago, but other than that I hadn't seen her since maybe February, maybe even before. I used to work for her and I helped her build her website for her band and photography. Since I'm moving away in a week, she wanted me to show her how to do some basic stuff on there to add content, so I went there yesterday evening after dinner. <BR> <BR> We chat... Fri, 27 May 2016 12:46:24 EST Food epiphanies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6170896 I'm not sure if I've blogged about this before but yesterday while having a second serving of ice cream (yup - guilt-free - finally) I was thinking about my "food epiphanies". Now when I list them and think about them they kinda seem obvious, but truth is, for most of my life, they were NOT obvious. I figured maybe it'd help someone else. <BR> <BR> FOOD IS BOTH FUEL AND PLEASURE. <BR> I remember when I first dabbled into fitness and better eating and whatnot years ago (six years ago to be ex... Thu, 26 May 2016 17:43:46 EST May recap... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6170162 I haven't blogged in three weeks because I didn't feel I had anything to say. I deleted my last blog post after it raised too much concern from everybody for no reason. And then I just didn't wanna blog anymore. Sometimes I think such breaks are necessary. <BR> <BR> I've just been doing my thing, shifting my focus a little bit. <BR> <BR> EATING <BR> <BR> Lean Habits is going fine, it's steady. Looking at my stats, the one constant I see is that when I'm out of my apartment for several days... Wed, 25 May 2016 13:04:34 EST Weekly check-in. Barging into Spring. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6154794 I feel great, great, great!!! <BR> <BR> Usually when I feel this way it doesn't last. I never even expect it to last - I accepted long ago the fact that life is made of ups and downs, and that not every day has to be extraordinary (unlike social media wants us to believe). But in the past week I've been feeling pretty awesome and upbeat. The weirdest thing? Aunt Flo is coming up very very soon, and normally for at least a week before that, I'm emotional, restless, and exhausted all the time.... Mon, 2 May 2016 12:33:54 EST I'm eating a TON of food and I'm LOVING it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6152823 Almost two weeks ago I added Lean Habit #5 to my tracker. The goal of the habit is to have 2-3 cups of non-starchy vegetables with every meal. However, I was pushing this habit and never starting it just because I didn't know what to do with breakfast. <BR> <BR> Solution: ignore it for breakfast for now. I wanted to practice it for a few weeks for both lunch and dinner and see how it goes, and then find ideas to add 2 cups of veggies into my breakfast. I always have oatmeal in the morning, w... Fri, 29 Apr 2016 11:35:04 EST I want to look like this! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6150801 It started in my teens that I was uncomfortable in my own body. When I was a kid I never gave much thought to what I looked like, and I don't remember comparing myself to anyone but my older sister. I just remember being taller than everyone at school, and always being in the back row in group pictures. <BR> <BR> Actually, the comparisons started happening when I switched school for my last year of primary school, at age 11. I attended a special bilingual program that was only available in t... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 13:51:08 EST Weekly check-in. Not beating myself up over everything. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6150075 Okay, overall last week was a real rollercoaster, but I had a very good weekend. <BR> <BR> Last week I posted about being immensely stressed about having to find a job. I'm moving to Estevan in less than six weeks and couldn't really find anything online. I ended up sending my resume with an open cover letter to the big accountant firm in town and I received a quick positive response - even though they didn't have any openings right now, they were interested in my candidature. So that lifted... Mon, 25 Apr 2016 14:33:24 EST I'm all about respect, but I should also respect myself. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6148066 When I think about what I value most in life, it always comes down to respect. I think respect is actually a very basic value for most people (but a lot of them don't live by it, which is sad). <BR> <BR> I've had a rough week, a very stressful one. Everything is unfolding right now and I've got a lot of change coming up: in six weeks now I'll be moving down south to Estevan. I have yet to find a job, and it turns out it's even harder than I thought. It's a ghost town, deserted by all the oil... Fri, 22 Apr 2016 14:57:47 EST Weekly check-in. My future apartment. Calming down. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6144944 I had a pretty good week last week. Nothing spectacular - just good. <BR> <BR> I revisited all four Core Habits of Lean Habits and wrote down what I think I'm doing right and what needs improvement. Overall, I'm doing pretty awesome! I'm above 85% with the first three, and Habit 4's stats are coming up. (I was tracking it a bit harshly in the beginning and went below 50% at some point, so I'm not giving it much thought.) <BR> <BR> I only went to the gym once (Wednesday morning), and reflect... Mon, 18 Apr 2016 12:44:41 EST The power of words: how I'm losing weight by changing my vocabulary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6142322 I love starting blog posts with a nice clickbait title! Lol! <BR> <BR> Okay, disclaimer, it's not the ONLY way I'm losing weight. I'm also moving my body in ways that I enjoy (for me that's lifting weights, a bit of cardio at the gym, walking, yoga, short runs, biking, snowshoeing, dancing, and anything else I try and enjoy); I'm developing lifelong healthy eating habits and behavior with the help of Georgie Fear's Lean Habits; etc. <BR> <BR> But I found that changing the way I talk and thi... Thu, 14 Apr 2016 16:14:29 EST Self-image. A weird dream. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6140721 Almost every morning I remember what I dreamed during the night. Sometimes it's just little pieces, sometimes it's a long story. I always have very vivid dreams and not always pleasant. Most of them never really make sense, aren't logical and aren't possible in this world. Always entertaining, though! <BR> <BR> Last night I had a more "normal" dream. I don't remember anything but this one little part: I was walking somewhere, wearing jeans, and they were just falling off. I looked down at my... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 12:49:24 EST Weekly check-in: the effects of stress on my eating habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6139963 I had somewhat of a big breakthrough last week. Thursday, I quit my job. <BR> <BR> Okay, it sounds way more dramatic than it is, hahaha. It's something I knew had to be done soon. My boyfriend and I live far away from each other (it's a 3 hours drive between us) and so we'd been talking about me moving there somewhere in the Summer. (He farms and sadly you can't move a farm so it only made sense that I'd be the one moving there.) <BR> <BR> Normally I'd be for going slower but I'm really, re... Mon, 11 Apr 2016 13:56:43 EST Weekly check in. Simplicity, in all and everything. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6134847 Last week was loooong. I hadn't worked a 5-days week in a long time - first Friday I took a sick day, the second Friday I took off for my friend's visit and the last one was a holiday - so it felt like forever, hahaha. But, I did pretty well with exercising: three gym visits and I upped most of my weights (and ended up very sore Saturday morning, hadn't been this sore in months!); I walked a little more and did some yoga. <BR> <BR> I also had... a PERFECT WEEK with Lean Habits! Yup, I checke... Mon, 4 Apr 2016 15:02:16 EST One quarter of the year in... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6131768 So April starts tomorrow. UGH! ALREADY?! <BR> Crazy how days go by so slow yet we're already one quarter of 2016 in! Ouch! <BR> <BR> Anyway I decided I would write down my monthly goals for April. I haven't had "official" monthly goals / guidelines in a while outside of "doing my best with Lean Habits" hahaha but whenever Spring kicks in I always get this boost to do a little bit more. My fourth SP anniversary is coming soon too! So much happened in four years :O <BR> <BR> <em>34</em> Fi... Thu, 31 Mar 2016 13:02:56 EST Check-in: post Easter... and booze http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6129383 I had a complicated week last week. I am in a turning point in my life right now and I've got decisions to make. I know I'm moving down south to Estevan soon because I want to live with my boyfriend and that's where he's got his farm. The problem I found is that Estevan used to be a mining and farming community, but then petrol started and it burst. But as petrol always does, it crashed pretty bad, so now the city is pretty much dead. The economy is purely GONE and there's NO jobs there. I go... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 12:50:14 EST Weekly check-in: an awesome week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6125109 Last week was fantastic. I had a university friend staying with me until Saturday. I hadn't seen her in over a year, she now works in Ontario until May, she's a French tutor in an immersion school, and next year (August-June) she's going to be an au-pair in Spain! Hope I can visit her there! <BR> <BR> Anyway, I really appreciated her presence. I'm a very solitary person so I thought that I'd grow weary of her being at my place and kinda never being alone but it never happened. I think it hel... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 11:44:00 EST Obsessing over details and expecting perfection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6120841 Nia Shanks' latest article really resonated with me: <BR> <BR> http://www.niashanks.com/9-fat-loss-mist<BR>akes/ <BR> <BR> I realized I was doing about half of the mistakes she's listing to some degree. (Yup, it's so adequately titled since I didn't totally realize I was making them, lol!) Here are my biggest three. <BR> <BR> 1) You expect perfection instead of preparing for inevitable failure <BR> This one I've always done. I've always been a nasty perfectionist. This was the source of my... Wed, 16 Mar 2016 18:03:10 EST Weekly check-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6118996 I've been doing better since my last blog on Thursday. Last week was tough but since I wrote this blog I was able to pick myself back up and my head got clearer. It was just a little setback. <BR> <BR> After a super long week at work I was glad when coworkers decide to have happy hour Friday at 4:30. We had wine and snacks in the conference room and my boyfriend joined us (I felt bad making him wait at my place since he just drove three hours to spend the weekend here, lol). It was pretty fu... Mon, 14 Mar 2016 12:37:51 EST Letting go of shame, one peel at a time... a tough blog to write. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6115973 I need to write this, I know I need to write this to end this cycle I've found myself falling into this week. <BR> <BR> I had an amazing weekend, but then, I don't know what happened. I'm still trying to understand it. For four days now I've basically rebelled on everything I know. <BR> <BR> The good sides first: I've exercised a lot and that's helped me feel better. I'm over 500 minutes for March. I've been doing a lot of yoga videos (I usually only do 10 minutes before bed every night) an... Thu, 10 Mar 2016 11:21:49 EST Weekly check-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6113556 Last week went uphill starting Wednesday. I cleared things up with my boyfriend and got rid of most of my mental stress. The gym went well, yoga was bliss Thursday night, and I exercised a lot. I also did pretty well with Lean Habits, although I'd been having a couple sweet cravings that were bothering me. <BR> <BR> I was still exhausted though, and Friday my condition got worse. I woke up with my TOM suddenly there, and I had cramps all morning, on top of an itchy throat, a complete lack of... Mon, 7 Mar 2016 14:42:39 EST Still alive & fighting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6108484 I vowed to blog less & make my entries shorter, so I guess doing a weekly update would be better. <BR> <BR> I don't have much to say. I've had a very rough week last week, and an even rougher weekend. The good side, however, is that I never binge ate or almost. I did have popcorn at the movies last Friday (I was volunteering at the snack bar to sell it, and after spending two hours staring at bags of it and smelling it nonstop, I just gave in) and I actually tracked all three of my Lean Habi... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 11:19:01 EST My tips for mindful eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6103095 I say MY tips but, mind you, they're actually tips I took from a lot of people and readings. And maybe invented myself, I can't remember. Anyway. Since I started putting a LOT of focus on mindful eating a week ago, I can't believe how much my life's changed. Yup, just a week. I know it sounds ridiculous, but it's true. Meal time is now a ritual, a sacred moment of nourishment (how hippie!). The benefits are numerous. But how to do it? To many people it might seem like too much of a commitment... Tue, 23 Feb 2016 16:25:46 EST The huge victory of not having popcorn at the movies http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6102055 Aaaaaah I feel GREAT. Like extraordinarily great. <BR> <BR> In fact, ever since I started tracking LH3 - Eating Just Enough last Monday, my mood has been going up and up daily. It reached a high this weekend. <BR> <BR> So I had a bit of trouble last Thursday with my hair appointment messing up my whole schedule. Usually that would make me feel down for a couple days, having chips for supper and all. But it didn't. Two days later I wasn't even thinking about it anymore. It just happened, I m... Mon, 22 Feb 2016 12:34:00 EST Your body is not a trash can http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6099990 I had a bit of an episode yesterday. <BR> <BR> I was getting a haircut. My appointment was at 6, in Yorkton; it's a 40 minutes drive from here. My plan was to leave from work at 5, drive there, get my haircut, eat supper at my favorite pita place, grocery shopping, and go back home. Normally I'd be home at 9 and could do my yoga and have my nightly tea in time for bed. <BR> <BR> Well you know how nothing ever goes according to plan? (This is something I've learned to deal with - I'm so glad... Fri, 19 Feb 2016 16:58:32 EST The before and after of Lean Habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6098241 Sorry, not a picture post, misleading title hahaha ;) <BR> <BR> As I was eating lunch today I was reflecting on my past behavior food-wise versus my new behaviors (and habits) that I got thanks to Lean Habits. <BR> <BR> I know I talk about LH a ton but it's kind of my whole world right now, LOL. I really appreciate it, it's an awesome life-changing challenge and so far I'm doing great. <BR> <BR> LEAN HABIT 1: EAT 3-4 MEALS WITHOUT SNACKING <BR> <BR> Before: <BR> I would eat breakfast, hav... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 14:14:50 EST Diving right in after an awesome weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6097294 So I just had one of the most awesome weekends of my life!!! <BR> <BR> Friday my boyfriend arrived around 6 at my place. I made pasta for dinner and we watched a movie. It was a nice evening. Saturday morning we got up early, got ready, had breakfast, and left for a four hours drive to Winnipeg. (Man, I go there often. Wish it was closer lol) <BR> <BR> After picking up our Festival passes and checking in at our (extremely crappy - but cheap) hotel, we headed to the park where the Festival d... Tue, 16 Feb 2016 11:48:25 EST February Focus: Lean Habits & balance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6093724 So it's almost been a week since I left Cuba, and it feels like months, lol. Crazy how we can get back into our routine quickly and easily. <BR> <BR> Let me start off with my huge victory of the week: I haven't had any treats at work. In January this had really become a problem. There's always something on the table that someone's made or brought, or there's the candy jar, and of course the freezer is still full of all the Holidays stuff we received from clients, including delicious (and hug... Thu, 11 Feb 2016 17:08:29 EST Back from Cuba: cervezas and extra pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6092629 Let me start off by saying: CUBA WAS AWESOME. <BR> <BR> It was a trip with my mom, sister, brother and I only, for a week. I left Thursday night on the 28th for a four-hours drive to Winnipeg. TRIED to sleep at the airport (failed) and was way too early for my flight. What I didn't know is that checking in and security only open up at 3 AM, so I was stuck there for over three hours doing nothing. I managed to sleep one hour on my flight to Toronto, where I met with my family (whom I hadn't s... Wed, 10 Feb 2016 10:59:21 EST PMS and stress bingeing... :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6081552 When I'm back from Cuba (LEAVING TOMORROW MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!!) I will start a food journal. Not to monitor what I'm eating (although I will note what my meal is in general - ie "oatmeal" but not every ingredient I used) but to monitor how I feel when food happens. <BR> <BR> I think it's really needed, especially for the week before I get my period. I know many women deal with that, and I can assure every doubter out there that it's a REAL THING. Three weeks out of the month I easily ignore t... Thu, 28 Jan 2016 14:07:28 EST Is "right now" always the best time? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6079782 I feel a bit overwhelmed right now. <BR> <BR> I guess my life was kind of cruising by normally and it was comfortable. I started tracking Lean Habit #2 (Hunger Mastery) again on December 28th, right before a long weekend at my boyfriend's where I started off right away with negative trackings. It took me a while to bring it back up to 80% success, but once I did it never went back under that, and Sunday marked my two consecutive weeks of 80% success rate, so I added Lean Habit 3. <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 26 Jan 2016 14:37:15 EST Gym adventures and the power of not giving a F http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6074532 I go to the gym three times a week - Monday, Wednesday and Friday mornings. I get up at 6, feed my complaining fat cat (if he hasn't woken me up before my alarm because he's "starving"), put my clothes on and some deodorant since I don't want people to hate me, and I leave usually at 6:15. <BR> <BR> I really love the gym. For the longest time, I wanted to be a runner. It's the exercise I started with back in June 2010, when I first started taking better care of myself. Man, I remember those ... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 12:22:14 EST Having a supportive relationship ROCKS! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6072758 What a messy weekend! But it was FUN! <BR> <BR> Friday I was glad to be home after a long, boring week at work. The boss is off to Mexico until Thursday so it's very slow. I dream of self-employment, lol. <BR> I had a delicious salad for supper - new recipe I tried and my roasted chickpeas were ON POINT! The dressing was hummus (homemade) with lemon juice and garlic, and water to thin it out - it was sooo good too! Then I kinda sat around waiting for my boyfriend to arrive. He got bad news -... Mon, 18 Jan 2016 13:36:51 EST The joy of letting go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6070170 I know I've been talking about simplicity and minimalism a lot lately, but like I said before, it's my focus for January, and it's changing my life so I feel like talking about it, lol. <BR> <BR> You know how on dating websites people always write that they are "simple" before listing a list of the very simple things they like (which are always the same)? It's like being simple is a generic quality that everyone looks for in everyone. Yet I find most people aren't simple. Human beings are co... Fri, 15 Jan 2016 12:02:10 EST Simplifying and food challenges http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6069271 To start off on a very positive note, I am doing wonderful with the first two habits of Lean Habits and I'm so proud of it. Proud, but also so happy with myself. Not only am I losing weight again (I lost all the weight gained from the holidays and am now back down to 157.4 pounds as of Monday morning), but I am learning a lot about myself, and I am learning to be patient (like most people, I have never really been). I love the experience, and I love the fact that when I started last July, I s... Thu, 14 Jan 2016 11:00:16 EST Balancing the many aspects of a healthy life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6066701 They say 70% of weight loss is due to food and 30% to exercise. Sometimes people will play with those numbers. I have no clue where they come from or what they're based on, but I think they're somewhat true. <BR> <BR> For me personally, I think it's harder to eat healthy than it is to exercise. I have a lot of free time, and I enjoy the workouts I choose to do (gym three times a week with a mix of cardio and strength training, yoga daily before bed + a group class weekly, and lots of walking... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 12:24:00 EST My revelation this morning: it's easier once you accept it's forever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6061041 This morning I got up with my alarm at 6, put some warm clothes on and went for a walk. I talked with my boyfriend the whole time and back at home I took a shower. Then I started thinking that I should wash my hair and I'd have to do it tonight since tomorrow morning I'm going to the gym. <BR> <BR> Then, I have absolutely no clue why, but it hit me. I'm going to the gym tomorrow morning... and then Friday... and then Monday... and then again and again and again. And I'm okay with that. Becau... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 11:42:11 EST Party's over, back at it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6060189 Looking back at the last two weeks I am very, very proud of how I cruised through the holidays without putting a complete break on my good health habits, like I've always done before. Generally for me Christmas time was way too much eating for 2-3 days, and then New Years way too much drinking. This time I did none of that. <BR> <BR> I had an awesome weekend to say the least. After a rough day at work Thursday (yup, I worked until 3 PM on the 31st! Bleh!), I went home, finished packing up fo... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 15:23:58 EST The impact of a social life on weightloss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6055391 Every day I log into SparkPeople and get as many points as I can, lol. This, to me, means of course spinning the wheel, tracking exercise, checking off daily goals, giving points to my teams, and, lastly, doing the trivia. <BR> <BR> I'm not that good at trivia. Sometimes I go too fast and don't read the questions properly so I get the answer wrong. Sometimes I have no clue what the question is or what it's talking about (mostly when it comes to fast food questions like "which burger is healt... Wed, 30 Dec 2015 13:34:14 EST Lean Habit 2, and goodbye 2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6054681 My Holidays break was delightful. Last Thursday on the 24th, I worked until noon, and then I was off of work until this very morning. Truthfully I needed this time off with absolutely zero plan, no one to see, and nothing to do. It was... magical. <BR> <BR> That doesn't mean I sat on my couch for four days doing nothing. I kept pretty active, even though I did a lot of solo lazy stuff at home like playing video games or reading for hours. I was dumb enough to put off grocery shopping until t... Tue, 29 Dec 2015 12:15:26 EST Am I unhappy? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6050723 Okay, the last month has been tough. And it's hard for me, even right now, to pinpoint exactly what the problem is. <BR> <BR> First of all, I'd like to start by saying how extremely grateful I am that I am NOT depressed. From age 14 to age 20 I was battling crippling depression and suicidal thoughts, and even though sometimes I still feeling little bouts of it, it's mostly gone, and I wouldn't wish that to happen to anyone, ever. <BR> <BR> But I feel myself dragging my feet a lot lately. It... Mon, 21 Dec 2015 13:02:30 EST