WUBBY82's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WUBBY82 WUBBY82's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My Name is Shelby and I Eat Way Too Much http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5953439 I love food. There, I said it. I eat way too much and it happens way too often. <BR> <BR> Do you remember when I had gotten down to 170 pounds for my brother's wedding on October 13, 2013? I remember it. I felt so happy and healthy, vibrant and awesome. <BR> <BR> Since that date, I have slowly worked out less and started eating more. <BR> <BR> Today I weigh 205. <BR> <BR> Today, I don't feel so healthy, or vibrant, or awesome. I'm happy in so many aspects of my life: relationship, wo... Tue, 30 Jun 2015 16:28:51 EST When You Can't Tell Upside Down from Right Side Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5950335 My last blog was on March 15. That's no good. My apologies. Here's what has been going on in my crazy world: <BR> <BR> APRIL 2015: <BR> <BR> 4/3 - My grandpa passed away following his courageous battle with cancer. The Tuesday prior to his passing, I was able to hear him say he loved me one last time. <BR> <BR> 4/8-4/14 - Drove home to Sacramento for services. When I got to town on 4/8, my mom tells me there's more bad news. Grandma fell and broke her hip. Was on the kitchen floor fo... Wed, 24 Jun 2015 14:27:07 EST Random Catch Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893395 Life is hectic. Life is crazy. Life is great. <BR> <BR> I have still been walking at work; not as much now that it's reaching the 90s, but I'm still going, and adding flights of stairs in the mix. <BR> <BR> I went on a hike this morning with 'A's family, which was about 4.5 miles in 1hr20min - not too shabby. But my legs feel like dead weight. <BR> <BR> 'A' is doing great. He bought a bike and has been riding that in the mornings. That, along with his gym time has got him down about 12 pou... Sun, 15 Mar 2015 14:47:17 EST One Day Becomes Three Weeks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5872618 Oh my Lovelies! <BR> <BR> As soon as I say that it doesn't feel right to blog every day when I have nothing to say, three weeks goes by without a blog!! Goodness! <BR> <BR> I'm still plugging along. I've been walking 3-4 miles per day at my work, so I've (for the time being) stopped jogging in the mornings. Food intake could be better, but it could also be way worse. You know what I'm talking about! <BR> <BR> Nothing really new has been going on - just looking at houses and dealing with ... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 15:36:32 EST The Highs and the Lows http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5855370 Okay Lovelies, I have decided that the daily blogging (keeping track with a Day 1, Day 2 blog, etc.) isn't really working me for. It makes me feel pressured to write when I don't necessarily have anything blog-worthy to say. So don't think I'm disappearing, because I am very much on track. <BR> <BR> I was so proud of myself this morning and this afternoon. Not only did I turn down birthday cake, I turned down ice cream sandwiches. Go me!! Major HIGH! <BR> <BR> Also, FitBit send me this a... Thu, 15 Jan 2015 22:02:03 EST Day 9: The Chinese Food Won http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852808 And my tummy was the loser. <BR> <BR> 'A' wanted to celebrate an event by having Chinese food for dinner last night. Of course, I was all for it. Unfortunately, I ate more than I should have and paid for it this morning, both with an off weigh-in and with tummy troubles. <BR> <BR> I should have known better. None of those leftovers came with me to work for lunch, as scheduled. He can have 'em. <BR> <BR> It rained last night so the roads/sidewalks were drenched. I completed a little ove... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 15:33:11 EST Days 7 and 8: Taming the Supermarket http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5852191 Day 1 Starting Weight: 203 lbs <BR> Day 7 Starting Weight: 195.4 lbs <BR> Day 8 Starting Weight: 194.6 lbs <BR> <BR> The results are in. My total weight loss for the first full week back on the road to health is 8.4 pounds!! <BR> <BR> I know, my Lovelies. This doesn't sound healthy. It sounds like too much. Well, if someone else posted that, I would tend to agree. <BR> <BR> But knowing my body and what I HAD been putting into it, I know a lot was water weight and yucky crud that was ex... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 21:52:06 EST Day 6: Ready for the Weekend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850680 Day 1 Starting Weight: 203 lbs <BR> Day 6 Starting Weight: 196.4 lbs <BR> <BR> I'm ready for this weekend. Are you?? Being so active this week has my legs feeling exhausted today. Each morning, I've jogged a mile. At work each day, I've walked at least three miles. But it feels great knowing it's paying off. <BR> <BR> Today, one of my coworkers moved into another position. According to management, this was the perfect opportunity to have cupcakes and apple cider. Awesome. <BR> <BR> We... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 22:46:11 EST Day 5: Even Shadows Give Encouragement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849855 Day 1 Starting Weight: 203.0 lbs <BR> Day 5 Starting Weight: 197.0 lbs <BR> <BR> I got all of my jogs and walks in again today. The security guard hollered out, "Back at it again, huh?" My response: "You know it!!" Truth is, I've changed up my route so I don't see him as often, because I'm still uncomfortable about his first statement. I only see him twice a day as opposed to six. <BR> <BR> During lunch, I saw this: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l88130656.... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 22:22:16 EST Day 4: Can't Nobody Hold Me Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848786 Day 1 Starting Weight: 203.0 lbs <BR> Day 4 Starting Weight: 197.4 lbs <BR> <BR> Down another 0.6 pounds. Feeling peachy. <BR> <BR> Oh man, was today a hard one to get out of bed or what?? I knew I had to keep my momentum going, so there I was at 5:30am getting my booty geared up and out the door. <BR> <BR> Good news! I didn't imaginarily lock myself out of the house this morning...so I had that going for me!! LoL <BR> <BR> And I hear you all about the security guard. I know (and knew t... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 16:47:18 EST Day 3: He Said What? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848075 Day 1 Starting Weight: 203.0 lbs <BR> Day 2 Starting Weight: 200.0 lbs <BR> Day 3 Starting Weight: 198.0 lbs <BR> <BR> Today's morning started out with a one mile jog. I leave the doors unlocked so I don't have to carry my keys with me. Well, I arrived back at the house at 5:55am...and the door wouldn't open. About 20 minutes and 50 phone calls later, 'A' was finally out of the shower and picked up the phone. He opened the door, which wasn't locked. But for some reason, it was stuck, be... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 21:57:37 EST Day 2: Feeling Optimistic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847127 Day 1 Starting Weight: 203.0 lbs <BR> Day 2 Starting Weight: 200.0 lbs <BR> <BR> It's funny how a little bit of motivation, a little less eating and a little more jogging can make such a drastic difference in just 24 hours. <BR> <BR> I am down three pounds, right on the verge of my return to ONEderland. <BR> <BR> Today was good. I woke at 5:30am for a one mile jog. I was rushed this morning thanks to the kiddo, so I grabbed a package of belVita breakfast crackers to take to work. Enjoye... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 22:38:01 EST Day 1: Starting Over http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845614 I've seen a few of my Sparkle Lovelies blogs where they date their posts. I think this may be great way to hold myself accountable. So here we go! <BR> <BR> DAY 1 <BR> <BR> 'A' and I talked last night. A few times yesterday, he asked what was wrong, why I wasn't my spunky self. At first, I just said I was tired, that I felt I couldn't take a break. He knew I wasn't being totally open with him. Then I came clean. "I'm tired of gaining weight. I'm not happy. I know it's my fault, but ... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 12:33:59 EST Hitting a Brick Wall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845215 Slowly, it has crept back. The weight, I mean. <BR> <BR> I was so happy to have found myself down to 170 pounds before my brother's wedding in October 2013. <BR> <BR> Here I sit, January 2015, weighing 200 pounds once more. I've gained 30 lbs in 1.25 years. Not cool. So not cool. <BR> <BR> I need to find a way to become accountable to myself once again. I don't know where my mojo went. It may have something to do with the fact that 'A' and I have become so comfortable with each other (he h... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 23:07:03 EST Compliments Never Get Old http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787372 I believe, as a society, that we should be building each other up and not tearing each other down. That is why compliments are so important. And I don't even mean comments about a person's physical appearance. Granted, those are always nice to hear. <BR> <BR> When I got to work yesterday, I had a voicemail from my boss waiting for me. Now, my boss is just about as sweet as can be, so I never feel taken for granted when she asks me to take care of something. This voicemail was asking to che... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 12:10:42 EST All Systems are GO! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5770728 Happy Sunday, my Lovelies!! This is Shelby writing to you from the comfort of her own home, on her own computer, with her own internet connection!! It only took two years to make this happen again :) <BR> <BR> For those of you who have been following me on my journey, 'A' and I moved into our house on August 22nd. This actually involved three moves, which made for an exhausting weekend. Our house is almost fully unpacked and we are settling in nicely. We are definitely happy about this three... Sun, 31 Aug 2014 21:47:56 EST Still a Motivator? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752971 I'll be the first to admit I was blown away when I received an email from SparkPeople last night informing me that I was selected as today's Featured Motivator. <BR> <BR> I do my best to try to make others feel that they're not alone, because they're not. <BR> <BR> As you have seen lately, I've been slipping. I've gotten comfortable, which I think is a horrible word, because I don't feel comfortable. I feel fat again. My pants are tight, my shirts are tight, I won't wear my bikini withou... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 14:00:07 EST My Banana is Your Apple http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738787 Bizarre blog title? Maybe so, but bear with me. <BR> <BR> I was thinking about my progress the other day, which led me to think about prior times I had attempted to lose weight. This led me to the poignant conclusion that we are not cookie cutter. <BR> <BR> And thank God for that, right? How boring life would be! However, it also means that the answer for me is not necessarily the answer for you. <BR> <BR> My banana is your apple. <BR> <BR> And this is where life becomes tricky. I can tel... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 17:02:34 EST Time Flies... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5727176 Was my last blog seriously written in April?!?!? Man oh man... <BR> <BR> Well, life + lack of computer with internet access leads to long posts that are few and far between. <BR> <BR> Update: <BR> <BR> I have slacked a little. I've gained a little weight. Nothing too dramatic, but enough for the pants to feel a little tight. I will not be ashamed of this, or embarrassed by it. It is what it is and I can't go back and change my poor choices. I even updated my stats on my weight ticker. Howe... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 14:18:44 EST Four Months - 20 Pounds? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672901 So here I am, trying to make a goal. Trying to pick a meaningful, realistic goal weight. Trying to pick a meaningful date for 'completion'. <BR> <BR> Completion. What a silly word to use. I reckon it's the day where I say, "Look at me!! I did it!!" <BR> <BR> What have I done? Am I going to stop? Does that date mean that I won't work out or eat healthy ever again. Of course not. Silly word. <BR> <BR> Completion. Just a little date that means nothing. And yet it still means everything. <BR> ... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 15:01:57 EST WARNING: Excitement Enclosed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657922 This blog really doesn't have anything to do with my journey in weight loss, but a large amount to do with my personal journey. I'm basically bursting at the seams, trying to maintain some sort of composure. <BR> <BR> It's not working out that well, and the thing won't be happening for about 6 more months, but still...When something changes, I get all giddy :) <BR> <BR> Drumroll, please!! <BR> <BR> 'A' and I will be moving in together (along with his son) when my lease is up at the end of ... Thu, 27 Mar 2014 15:06:49 EST Undefeated! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653284 That's what we all are, you know. If you're reading this, you're trying. You're working your butt off to achieve something great. You have not been defeated. <BR> <BR> Face it. We all have those days where all we want to do is sit on the couch and eat whatever delicious garbage we can find. I've done it. More times than I should probably admit to. But hey, I'm human. <BR> <BR> I had a strong comeback the other week, losing about four of the pounds I had gained. But, things happen an... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 14:04:58 EST Relaunch Success! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644711 Just a quick blog as I noticed I haven't posted in over a month. <BR> <BR> This past week, I have been kicking butts and taking names all over South Phoenix. Here is a snap shot of my work: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l159883612.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The result of my back on track-ness is a four pound weight loss last week. Please don't think that's too much for a one week loss. I'm still working on losing my winter re-gain, so the junk I've been putting in my bo... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 18:15:43 EST 28 Day Boot Camp with Coach Nicole - DVD Review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610081 Hey SparkleLovelies!! <BR> <BR> I want to take this quick blog to let you know about the DVD SparkPeople sent me to try out and review for the SparkNation!! :) <BR> <BR> I was so excited when I was chosen to receive this DVD. I adore Coach Nicole and she always makes me feel great about myself, even when I can’t do a workout initially. I never beat myself up when she’s there motivating me. <BR> <BR> The DVD is called 28 Day Boot Camp with Coach Nicole. I know, I know. ‘Shelby, a Boot Camp ... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 10:25:58 EST 1,159 Reasons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5595355 1,159. <BR> <BR> The number of SparkleLovelies who have joined me on this journey (as of this post). <BR> <BR> 1,159. <BR> <BR> The number of reasons I share what I share. <BR> <BR> 1,159. <BR> <BR> The number of friends who know exactly what I've gone through. Exactly what I am currently going through. And exactly what I will eventually go through. <BR> <BR> 1,159. <BR> <BR> The number that shows me that I am not alone. <BR> <BR> 1,159. <BR> <BR> This number on my Friends page is mi... Wed, 15 Jan 2014 23:44:40 EST New Years' Commitments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5576818 January 1st. The day millions of people resolve to go to the gym; to eat better; to be more active. How many times has this been you? <BR> <BR> I know it's been me MANY a time. New Years' Resolutions seem to build up so much hope that one slip brings you down. And brings you down quickly. <BR> <BR> No more New Years' resolutions for this gal. Mine is a New Years' Commitment...or Re-commitment, if you will... <BR> <BR> I know I can do this. I've already done it. I've already won. What I nee... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 14:49:48 EST When Enough Is Enough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5533993 Sometimes we crash and burn. It sucks, but is usually inevitable. <BR> <BR> I stressed so hard about fitting into that bridesmaid dress that, after the wedding, I let it all go. I didn't exercise for two weeks. I ate whatever I wanted. <BR> <BR> How did that go for me, you ask? Well, I gained about 8 pounds. <BR> <BR> NOT. COOL. <BR> <BR> 'A' and I need to get our derrieres in gear for the Rugged Maniac 5k Obstacle Race in two weeks, but we haven't even really started. We've been eating o... Wed, 6 Nov 2013 13:53:26 EST Step It Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5526624 Routine can be boring. The same workouts, the same foods, the same la-di-da day in and day out can burn a gal out. <BR> <BR> I have my normal foods - cereal for brekkie, sandwich for lunch, meat and veggies for dinner. And I have my normal workouts - usually morning jogs and after work DVD workouts. <BR> <BR> But I noticed that these things have become boring. So boring that I hadn't been doing them like I should. First thought in the morning: "Jogging again? Blah..." <BR> <BR> Then, with ... Tue, 29 Oct 2013 15:11:40 EST The Wedding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5525716 Hey all, this is just a quick, mini blog (a bloggle if you will) so I can show you a couple pics from my older brother's wedding earlier this month. <BR> <BR> This is me after having two extra sets of hands zipping me into my bridesmaid dress, lol!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l281634391.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Me with my older brother after I pinned his boutonierre on :) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1904124170.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <B... Mon, 28 Oct 2013 15:49:19 EST Minor Hurdles = Major Victories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5501545 When you set your goal wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy far in the future, sometimes you realize that you can't see the forest through the trees. <BR> <BR> When you have a major goal, you set out thinking, "This is it. This is the time. I will be victorious. I shall not stumble." <BR> <BR> Then you come across that first road block. It's this first road block that really gets to you. You're cruising along and then BAMM!! Hopefully, you gave yourself enough following distance to decide how to react. <BR> ... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 15:19:41 EST When that Zipper Won't Budge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5496021 Do you ever come to the realization (after the fact) that if you had stuck with the program, you would be at your goal already?? <BR> <BR> I LOATHE this mentality. And I seem to be there a lot. Fact of the matter is that it's all my fault. Sure, there are factors that alter my plans, that change my routine. However, I know that above all else, I am responsible for my successes and lack thereof. <BR> <BR> I have two weeks to fit into my bridemaid dress. Guess what? Yep, it still doesn't fit.... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 15:14:43 EST Working and Working Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475889 Hello, my Lovelies!! I am FINALLY writing to you from an ACTUAL computer!! LoL <BR> <BR> Started my new job yesterday and it's going well. I have to try to fill up my hourlong lunch now. What better way to spend it than writing a blog!! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was the longest day in the history of days. I had to go to my new employee orientation at 8am, then drive to my job site around 10:30. After getting off at 5:00, I had to get my car looked at - oil leak. Took it to the dealership who told... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 15:52:20 EST Let's Be Friends! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5470109 Good afternoon, my Lovelies!!! Seeing as how this site is all about support and motivation, I'd like to introduce you to one of SparkPeople's newest members. My girl, Mandy, has joined us on this beautiful journey. Her username is MANDYKS0475. <BR> <BR> She is a rep I worked with through my last job. We got to know each other and I can tell you for a fact that this woman is fantastic! <BR> <BR> Mandy is a big sweetheart with the most awesome accent (she's in Tennessee). I adore her and can ... Thu, 29 Aug 2013 17:09:40 EST Well, hello there, Life's Little Curveballs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467885 Hello, my Lovelies! Long time, no chat. Or at least it feels that way. I can only access SP from my phone, so this blog may contain spelling/grammatical errors that I'll be too lazy to fix :) <BR> <BR> I told you a couple weeks back that I was offered a job with the county I reside in. Well, I gave my notice at my job on August 15th. Four days later, I was offered a state job. Less pay than county, but more security and room for advancement. I accepted this position. My first day will be Sep... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 12:45:15 EST It's Been Awhile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5437655 Thought I would just check in with my Lovelies because I haven't been able to blog for awhile. I switched my hours at work, and because of that, I can't get to work early and surf the 'net. Boo. Hiss. <BR> <BR> All is well around these parts. Here's the latest... <BR> <BR> My dad is awesome. His cancer, for the time being anyway, has been obliterated. He ended up losing 70+ pounds throughout the ordeal. Luckily, he had it to lose. The losing has since stopped. He's been eating better and is... Mon, 29 Jul 2013 17:33:47 EST My Lazy vs. My Warrior http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5400078 "But I Don't Wanna!!!" <BR> <BR> Does your body ever tell you this? Say, when your alarm goes off in the morning and you're just so comfy cozy in your bed? I know mine does. <BR> <BR> They say you're supposed to listen to your body. (Well, at least that's the excuse I use when I don't wanna). <BR> <BR> Then I realize, 'Hey, that's not my body. That's my Lazy kicking in.' <BR> <BR> My Lazy. That little voice that makes things sound so good. That thing that makes the bad decisions sound a l... Mon, 24 Jun 2013 10:50:57 EST Mirror, Mirror... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5393744 When I was obese, I despised anything that showed me ME. Mirrors, photos, windows, reflections in shiny objects. One mirror would show me a decent version so I'd go about my day, but the mirror at my next destination made me feel inferior. What happened to the girl in the first mirror? The girl wearing the cute outfit and nice makeup? All I saw in the next mirror were blemishes and tent-like clothing. Where did she come from? <BR> <BR> What a rough feeling to have. That an inanimate object c... Tue, 18 Jun 2013 19:03:26 EST You Don't Define Me Anymore http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5380589 My 'jogging in the morning' streak ended at two days. Not for lack of want. I woke up this morning, ready to go outside and find my bliss. When I stepped on the scale, my eyes focused themselves on a new low. 172.8 lbs. I was overjoyed and ecstatically pumped my fists. <BR> <BR> Then I decided to stay indoors. <BR> <BR> Let me explain. I love cardio. I love seeing my weight get lower and lower. I will freaking throw a huge party if I can get to my current goal weight. However, I'm not overl... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 17:29:26 EST Grabbing the Bull by Its Horns http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5370650 I sank $50+ to sign up for the Rugged Maniac 5k Obstacle Race in November. <BR> <BR> Time to get serious. <BR> <BR> Sunday was my last day to be a slouch. 'A' and I set Monday as the starting off point. So what did I do? I made peanut butter fudge and this fantastic Pizza Balls recipe that I saw floating around on Facebook to share with his family. <BR> <BR> He indulged much more than I did. I pretty much behaved. Plus, we spent about an hour and a half in the pool playing water volleyball... Tue, 28 May 2013 17:33:50 EST I'm going to be a Rugged Maniac http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5365988 'A' asked me if I want to do the Rugged Maniac 5k obstacle course that will be coming to Phoenix in November. He showed me a video from it. And. It. Looks. Awesome!! I signed up today and am so excited to have something to motivate me to kick some butt in 6 months!! <BR> <BR> I'll admit, it's a little scary. There are events that make me nervous. Some obstacles are underground. Some are 12 feet above ground. I'm nervous I won't successfully traverse all of the obstacles on my own. Luckily, '... Thu, 23 May 2013 18:58:41 EST Sensitivity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5358468 I enjoy knowing that you appreciate my honesty and writing style. My blogs sometimes are deemed "Featured Blog Post" because of your votes and comments. Many people then read these blogs and most are genuinely supportive. However, there are some comments and messages that are actually hurtful. Those cause real tears. <BR> <BR> I don't post these blogs to rack up the 'likes' or 'be popular'. I write them for me. Sometimes I think, "Wow, the words just came spilling out. I hope it resonates wi... Thu, 16 May 2013 11:00:51 EST Finding Your Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5357301 I wonder if sometimes we see others, possibly more successful, here on SparkPeople and desire to have their motivation. That it's something they're born with. That their drive is constant and they never fail. <BR> <BR> TRUTH. <BR> <BR> You have to work just as hard on your motivation as you do on working out. It's not something I was born with. It's not something that comes easy for me. It's something I have to fight for. Many times I lose the fight. <BR> <BR> CONFESSION. <BR> <BR> Aside ... Wed, 15 May 2013 10:45:00 EST Behaving at a Wedding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5355514 The wedding for 'A's cousin was beautiful. <BR> <BR> I behaved food-wise (because for some reason, I still dislike eating in front of others). Dinner was a buffet, so I had a small piece of lemon pepper chicken, a small serving of roast beef, a dinner roll, a spoonful of mashed potatoes and salad. No wedding cake for this girl. I had one glass of champagne for the toasts and probably 5 glasses of water. <BR> <BR> I'm a girl, so I cried at the ceremony. 'A's dad made fun of me. Our group da... Mon, 13 May 2013 18:55:23 EST Dear Muffin Top... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5352007 My Dearest Muffin Top, <BR> <BR> I dislike you. The only thing you provide me with is mounting insecurity. <BR> <BR> You make my jeans not fit - you like to runneth over my belt. You make dresses hug my curves in all the wrong places. When I laugh, it feels like you're mocking me when you jostle around. <BR> <BR> I wish you would go away, failing to come back again another day. <BR> <BR> You're just there - not paying rent, not helping with chores, not providing me with entertainment valu... Fri, 10 May 2013 10:48:28 EST Even the Mighty Struggle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350882 Even though I always preach it, sometimes I have to remind even myself that I'm allowed to struggle. That I'm allowed to stumble. That I'm allowed to wallow in whatever depths of despair. I can eat what I want without beating myself up. I can choose to not exercise and not have to feel like I'm going to gain every pound back in one day. <BR> <BR> I am an emotional eater. There, I said it. Give me an emotion to feel and I'll tell you exactly what meal would go great with it. If I have a long ... Thu, 9 May 2013 11:00:22 EST My Daddy's Little Girl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350101 Whew, I haven't been on here for a little while. Yep, I'm still here. Trying to figure things out. I'll spell them out in detail later, but for now, the biggies... <BR> <BR> My heart broke when I saw my dad last month. I knew he'd be smaller, but I didn't realize he'd be 60+ pounds lighter. The guy I saw wasn't my dad. Until his eyes and smile lit up when he saw me. That there, that was my dad. I don't want to get into too much detail about him in this blog, but just know that since his last... Wed, 8 May 2013 17:34:19 EST Non Scale Victories? Bring 'Em On!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5342245 I thought it would be cool to write a blog listing the different types of non scale victories I have seen or look forward to seeing. I figured that, by writing it, it would help me remember what all this is for, what I have waiting for me over that horizon. I thought it may help you, too. Possibly amp you up a little bit and realize that you'll reach these victories as well. <BR> <BR> Are you ready? I am!! <BR> <BR> Baggier clothes (which leads to a new wardrobe, piece by piece) <BR> <BR> ... Wed, 1 May 2013 16:36:15 EST Let's Talk!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5334425 I'm just a girl who has had some success. I'm not a doctor. I'm not lucky. I've earned every lost pound. Any answers I can give you will be based on my personal experiences. I think that's what others want to hear. I know that's what I want to hear. I enjoy hearing the success stories of others and being able to tweak and incorporate some of their ideas into my own lifestyle. <BR> <BR> There's no set formula. Eat only this + exercise like this = success. NO WAY, JOSE! It doesn't work like th... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 17:34:22 EST The Latest on My Pops http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327706 As many of you know, my dad was diagnosed with cancer in January. He had surgery in February. He is now on his third week (of five) of radiation. I was hoping this sorta meant he was in the clear, surgery-complication-wise. However, this has not been so. <BR> <BR> I'm not sure if I mentioned this, but shortly after coming home at the end of February, my mom had to call 911 for an ambulance to take my dad to the hospital. This turned out to be low low low blood sugar, trying to deal with his ... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 14:29:05 EST Changing Your Attitude Will Change Your Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5326718 When I was heavier, I remember always telling myself that I was destined to be fat. Practically every adult in my family is fat, and I just have to live with it. Many have diabetes, and eventually I will, too. It seemed pointless to really attempt any significant weight loss program. Why change my path? Why go into uncharted territory? <BR> <BR> I realized in very late 2011 that that thought process would get me nowhere. Why should I accept that? I can only blame so much of who I am and what... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 17:32:25 EST