WONKYSOX's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WONKYSOX WONKYSOX's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Finding Peace http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5144252 I wish I could truly convey the feeling of peace that has come over me in the past few days. Both hubby and I are still very sad with the passing of our baby girl but with it has come such wonderful feelings that we know in our hearts is her. She is such an old soul, much older than either hubby or I, and the body of an infant must have felt so confining for her. <BR> <BR> We still cry, and very much wish we had physically been able to bring her home from the hospital with us, but she has ce... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 12:56:42 EST Unnecessary Added Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5143444 Considering everything that has happened over the past week I would say that hubby and I are managing to get through as good as anybody can be expected to. There are some tough times but we are still on our feet and still moving forward. <BR> <BR> Now if only my mother-in-law could see this as a good thing and not a bad one. <BR> <BR> Because we are not expressing our grief the way she believes she would if it were her in our shoes we are not doing it properly. She is overbearing and smothe... Thu, 22 Nov 2012 12:02:20 EST Life Does Go On, Even When It Feels Like It Shouldn't http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5142606 Over the past few days I can't even begin to describe the various emotions I have been going through. Things have certainly not been what I would have expected them to be at this point. My life is definitely different, I am changed, and I don't even realize yet how changed. I will probably still be noticing changes 20 years down the road. <BR> <BR> Ok...I will backpedal a couple of days to last Wednesday, because in some way that is really when things changed for us. <BR> <BR> I was getting... Wed, 21 Nov 2012 13:10:49 EST Day 08 - A picture of your favorite colour http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5112250 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1765323921.jpg"> <BR> <BR> GREEN!!!!! Thu, 25 Oct 2012 09:58:54 EST Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5112247 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l389067986.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Nothing is more treasured in my life than my son! Thu, 25 Oct 2012 09:57:28 EST Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109752 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1139193006.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I don't even know who she is but she has mastered the skill and technique of belly dancing! It is a dream of mine to be a dancer, to perform, and to express myself through every movement! Belly dancing is a powerful, beautiful dance and I love it! Tue, 23 Oct 2012 10:36:30 EST Day 05 - A picture of your favorite animal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5108459 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l111686879.jpg"> <BR> <BR> My spirit guide is a bear and I have felt connected to them as an animal for years! I believe the bear represents the mother side of my nature, the part of me that will do anything to protect her babies! They are such beautiful creatures! Mon, 22 Oct 2012 12:53:31 EST Need to be Less Impatient with Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5107513 I have been feeling rather emotional lately and I'm not completely sure why. I suppose it could be chaulked up to the fact that I am almost 34 weeks pregnant and hormones are simply running amuck with me! Still, it's not something I am generally comfortable with. I don't like feeling like I am not in control of my emotions. <BR> <BR> I have been spending a lot of time thinking lately. Thinking about the future I want to start building and what steps I need to take in order to see it happen. ... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 20:03:21 EST Day 04 - A picture of the cast from your favourite show http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5107245 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1424045217.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Back around the beginning of the year I was introduced to Supernatural and became hooked instantly! I greedily went through all seven seasons and am now impatiently waiting for the eighth season to come out on DVD so I can watch that too! Sun, 21 Oct 2012 15:58:00 EST Day 03 - A picture of your night http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5107242 I didn't have my camera along last night to take pictures of my evening so I googled some images that will have to do! <BR> <BR> First, we had a family dinner at my mother-in-laws: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2105881729.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Then when we got home hubby and I settled in for some tele (I have the first couple seasons of X-Files on DVD!!) and snacking: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1389900963.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos... Sun, 21 Oct 2012 15:56:23 EST Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5105350 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1232647338.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This is a picture of my parents and me on my wedding day back in June, 2011. Even though my parents have been divorced since before I was two years old I am very close with both of them. Fri, 19 Oct 2012 20:09:50 EST Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5104179 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1808610447.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 1. I love rainbows <BR> 2. I still try to catch frogs when I find them <BR> 3. I love jumping in puddles <BR> 4. My friends are more like family than just friends <BR> 5. I have two cats and a dog <BR> 6. I have two tattoos, one on my left foot and one on my right foot <BR> 7. I was married on the Summer Solstice <BR> 8. I drive a 2000 Ford Taurus <BR> 9. Nothing makes me smile as much as my son <BR> 10. I want to... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 20:04:30 EST 30 Days of Pictures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5104159 Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts <BR> Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest <BR> Day 03 - A picture of your night <BR> Day 04 - A picture of the cast from your favourite show <BR> Day 05 - A picture of your favorite animal. <BR> Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day <BR> Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item <BR> Day 08 - A picture of your favorite colour <BR> Day 09 – A picture of the meani... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 19:49:31 EST Simple Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5104158 Well, it's been a few days since I have written a blog and this is something I want to try and do daily to help me have a better record of what I am doing. I can stay more accountable when I have something to look at to show how things have been going for me. <BR> <BR> Still plugging away at school work. Wrote my first test today and now that I have that out of the way I feel better. Tests always come with a bit extra stress that makes other things not so enjoyable. Once I was finished writi... Thu, 18 Oct 2012 19:48:09 EST Needing Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5101654 I am sitting at a point in life where it is so easy to want to lose focus on my main goal. It's not just about it being easier to lose focus, it's an actual want to not really care all that much. <BR> <BR> Full-time student, though I am completing my studies for this year online there is still a massive work load that comes with being a student. I am a full-time stay-at-home mom of a little man who is almost three! The energy he contains would do wonders for me if only I could bottle it and ... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 18:19:00 EST What a Cure Means to Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5097785 I just wrote a very brief paragraph online about what a cure for diabetes would mean to me. I don't even know how to really describe what a cure would mean for me. I am sure anyone with diabetes or anyone who knows someone with diabetes can understand what I mean when I say it's so hard to truly describe what a cure would mean. <BR> <BR> Here's what I wrote: <BR> <BR> "What a cure means to me <BR> <BR> A cure for me would mean freedom and peace of mind. It would mean no more needles severa... Sat, 13 Oct 2012 17:24:52 EST Starting Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5097089 So I realized the other day that 25 is almost here for me! Only three weeks away! Where did 25 years go? <BR> <BR> The biggest thing about this for me is that my life has gone in a direction completely off what I had thought my life would be. That's not a bad thing, just a thing that I didn't have planned out so I am still trying to put some pieces together and sort out which step to take next. Wouldn't it be nice if life had a bit more of a manual? <BR> <BR> I suppose, if there was a manua... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 23:46:23 EST