WOMANWITHGRIT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WOMANWITHGRIT WOMANWITHGRIT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Just For Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5959116 Quietly from my corner, here, let me say that I am very grateful. <BR> <BR> Since June 8, I have been taking it one day at a time with food - and on a three moderate meals a day, maybe a snack, and nothing in between plan. I do track what I eat on Sparkpeople - and usually it is between 1300 and 1400 calories. I've gone up to 1800 a few days. I haven't put any food on my Verboten List - although I cannot -- just for today -- imagine eating processed food, sugar or white flour. Not to say ... Sat, 11 Jul 2015 14:28:16 EST A Message to MONTANAWALKER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932990 I know you're taking a spark break, so I hope you see this! Thank you for your response to my last blog - for sharing your experience. I would not have guessed you had knee problems and now I understand your commitment to walking in this context. And I have received your white light and good wishes. <BR> <BR> Your comments, along with Morticia's, Don's, and ONEKIDSMOM lifted me up and pointed me in a healthier direction. The compassion was palpable and then I also realized I was feeling... Sat, 23 May 2015 11:30:32 EST Making an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931920 Yesterday I had a second appointment with a physical therapist. I have been significantly debilitated by my bad knees and I really haven't wanted to even admit that. But, truth be told -- I avoid stairs - and when I cannot, I am doing the one step at a time both up and down. I cannot stand in one place long, I cannot move fast, I am scared of uneven ground, I don't like walking because I face all of this. My knees have been an issue for a long time -- but in the last 6 months or so, I have... Thu, 21 May 2015 10:18:28 EST Life since the pizza mistake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5925234 I have not had an easy time of it since I at the pizza. Up and down with food planning, making good choices, and drinking water. And! I did not log in for 5 days. It all goes together. <BR> It was the last week of the semester, managing a major conference, and I was very busy - however.... <BR> <BR> Today I will: <BR> Drink 12 glasses of water <BR> Track every morsel that goes into my mouth <BR> Live my boundary around sugar, salt, fat. <BR> <BR> Stop to breathe - I'm kind of overwhelm... Sat, 9 May 2015 09:15:23 EST Recognizing and Implementing Food Boundaries http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920980 Yesterday I planned for 2 slices of pizza for dinner. I was teaching the last class my students would have before graduation and so this was a seminar and we were celebrating. Easy dinner, and I planned for it. <BR> <BR> But my experience taught me (again?) that while planning to eat this food within portion was necessary, it did not make for a good food plan. <BR> <BR> I ate one piece. I became more focused on the pizza than student discussion. I began to obsess around when I could get ... Fri, 1 May 2015 20:07:43 EST My eyes are more open -- literally http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5915080 Since returning, tracking my food and therefore making better choices, and drinking more water, my eyes are more open. I'm not puffy; not retaining water. How great is that? Just the beginning. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/3/l437495119.jpg"> Tue, 21 Apr 2015 09:46:37 EST A Very Satisfying Dinner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914894 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/6/l967158071.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I started with some leftover black beans and brown rice - 1/2 C of each, and then added 2 medium dry sauteed zuchinni, 1/2 package of MoriNu tofu, some Braggs Liquid Aminos, garlic, chili powder, and heirloom tomatoes (small) cut in half. Oh, also a big bunch of chopped cilantro. I placed them in three 50 calorie each bran tortillas and topped with Frontera tomatillo salsa. So good. <BR> <BR> For a while (when I ... Tue, 21 Apr 2015 00:00:35 EST Sunday Status and Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913854 I came back to SP yesterday. I tracked my food and took a walk - just 10 minutes. I also picked up and cleaned my house and did some yard work. Today I weighed. Sometime this afternoon, I'll walk again and I'll be tracking my food. Sun, 19 Apr 2015 09:55:39 EST Banana smoothie with cashew milk (unsweetened) and cocoa http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913528 I am tracking again - I will try to remember and put into action my clear knowledge that this is an essential self care practice in my life. The smoothie is a regular treat for me - two bananas, unsweetened cashew milk, a teaspoon of unsweetened cocoa, a little vanilla and cinnamon. I will plan a good supper, track it all. Tomorrow, I'll weigh in and enter that. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l127175774.jpg"> Sat, 18 Apr 2015 16:07:57 EST Cauliflower Soup for Healthy Comfort Food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875723 I adapted a recipe from Angela Liddon, author of the famous blog: Oh She Glows. Her recipe was for a Fettuccine "Alfredo" made with cauliflower and Braggs Nutritional Yeast, with maybe some peas and parsely added, to be served with whole wheat pasta. <BR> <BR> I didn't have the pasta, so I made a thick soup, instead, which is a grand comfort food and is doing wonders for my sore throat. <BR> <BR> Here's the recipe: <BR> <BR> Small head of cauliflower, cooked <BR> 1/4 C Braggs nutrition... Sat, 14 Feb 2015 16:09:57 EST Tracking, Yoga, and More Sleep! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868883 I am feeling better. Why? I am tracking what I eat, which always brings me into line within a few days. Healthier food choices. Fewer Calories. <BR> <BR> I'm continuing Yoga - three times this week. Amazing. <BR> <BR> And, I am making sure I am getting more sleep. <BR> Tue, 3 Feb 2015 19:06:22 EST An Honest Assessment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867308 I weighed in at 263 today. First time on my new scale - my previous one was old and new batteries didn't seem to work. Worse yet, my former husband bought it and had stepped on it and I just wanted it out of the house. So, this one is mine -- and I have gained 9 pounds. So be it. <BR> <BR> I'm very sad, lately. I'm seeing and understanding more what my marriage was about and I would be healthier if I could muster some sustained anger instead of sadness and absolute (continued) disbelief - ... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 17:18:36 EST Mid January -- three months later http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5856122 I never intended this break, but I have not been on these pages. I'm not sure why, really, except that I had so much going on - more work than normal, a busy church schedule, the Monterey vacation, and then Christmas, with my adult sons and other company. <BR> <BR> Some highlights <BR> *I have started yoga - this is a big step, as I had been really fearful of "being in" my body. <BR> I started with individual sessions, and then a beginners class, and now I am in class 2 days a week. <BR>... Fri, 16 Jan 2015 23:34:10 EST I have this moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5801733 I'm trying to show up here again. I'm easily overwhelmed these days. So, I know I must set goals in the midst of this. Tonight, I have some personal and professional computer work to do. All this week, I need to work hard to get a project PPT done by next Monday, and I have a busy teaching schedule with some extra events. <BR> <BR> In the old days, my silent message-to-self would be: "well, what to do but, eat! I'll start a DIET next week!" <BR> <BR> Not the way to go! Today, now, I can... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 20:23:14 EST Mindless Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5799255 I've been practicing this, and its not how I want to live. <BR> <BR> Today, I will be present and intentional. Tracking. <BR> <BR> Good to be back! Thu, 16 Oct 2014 11:16:01 EST Monterey for Thanksgiving . . . and more http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775966 I'm looking forward to a holiday at Thanksgiving....my younger son and I are headed to Monterey, CA to spend time with my older son, who is studying at the Defense Language Institute, as an Arabic Linguist. <BR> <BR> I found a great little rental home, not far from the Presidio and walking distance to the Bay. Below, a pic from the Monterey Aquarium. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l697725635.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have been rather stuck in self pity and grievin... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 15:35:59 EST The Scale Moveth Not http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772560 Just an acknowledgement here. I haven't had a scale victory -- I've had many other victories -- but no weight loss. I am at 254. So, I'm glad for the 34 pounds and all of the healthy changes I've made. I'll have to change it up, exercise consistently -- I fall back on this - and its probably the key. . .I*know* its the key. Wed, 3 Sep 2014 10:43:01 EST A Place at the Table for Everyone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5762309 It's a round table. Beautifully set, with lovely linen napkins and shining silverware. I'm mostly aware of the napkins and silver -- but the rest of the picture includes beautiful china, on chargers, a tablecloth, and fresh flowers in shades of white and light green -- including lilies, hydrangea, and roses. Perhaps the roses would be a deep burgundy. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l2144668159.jpg"> <BR> The food is not on the table. Its the place setting and ... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 17:53:59 EST Accountability update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756380 I am at the end of this summer cold -- I hope. I still have an unpredictable cough and wheeze, but I am definitely getting better. So much for my plans for training this week!!! <BR> <BR> This next week, I will be more actively getting ready for the semester with meetings, etc. Time to be more structured! <BR> <BR> Nonetheless, here's my plan update for this next week: <BR> Today - water jogging - 15 minutes minimum (I did this yesterday, too). <BR> Sunday - water jogging - 15 minutes <BR... Sat, 9 Aug 2014 14:05:23 EST Fed Up, The Movie, available on DVD in Early September http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5755751 I was reminded, when I read Mark Bittman this morning (NYTimes food editor), of the forthcoming movie, FED UP, to be released on DVD in early September. Katie Couric is one of the Executive Producers and the film has received good reviews in exposing the incredible amount of sugar in our food supply. This sugar is addictive and it also makes us very sick. <BR> <BR> Fed Up asserts that "everything we have been told about food and exercise for the last 30 years is dead wrong" (http://fedu... Fri, 8 Aug 2014 12:25:30 EST I planned a plan , but . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5753144 I didn't walk today, as planned. Or work out. <BR> <BR> Not the best start, but I didn't wish this sore throat and cough on myself. This was Day II and my throat was less raw than yesterday -- but really! I walked 3 miles Saturday, felt good (and tired) and then got sick. Is this a coincidence? <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I am up at 400 am and on the road for a long day of training. Maybe I'll swim in the hotel pool at the end of the day. Wednesday is more conference and I'm booked in the evening ... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 20:05:07 EST Plan for the week (accountability for me) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752319 I'm posting this to be accountable - I have a somewhat complicated week as I am travelling and also have some deadlines: <BR> <BR> This is my fitness plan, modified to meet the reality of the week: <BR> Today (Sunday) - water exercise, at home <BR> Monday - walking three miles; strength training <BR> Tuesday - water exercises in hotel pool in evening - maybe <BR> Wednesday - still at conference, traveling, and evening engagement - no time <BR> Thursday - walking 3 miles; strength training, w... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 15:03:23 EST Walking --- I'm going to have to do this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751890 Today I felt so good when I stopped -- I walked 1.5 miles to Evening Prayer and then walked back - about 30 minutes each way. I was really tired. I hurt. I felt fat. I am out of shape. I think I'm kind of lazy, actually. Better put -- I am so used to not exercising and have thought negatively about myself. <BR> <BR> At this point, I don't look forward to walking. <BR> <BR> I need a new spirit here -- an "I can do it" spirit. A better attitude. <BR> <BR> I have a goal -- I am going to M... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 21:11:23 EST A Cardio start and strength training! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748562 This is my second week of working out at a local gym. I've decided not to hire a trainer and I am not fit enough yet to join the classes (I've watched!), but I have gone 3 x /week now. I start with treadmill, cycle, or elliptical for 10 - 20 minutes and then go through the weight circuit that a trainer designed for me a couple of years ago. <BR> <BR> I feel good. And tired. I'm proud of myself frankly! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I am also taking about 4 1:1 yoga classes, to get ready for t... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 22:14:16 EST Walloped by my feelings and trying to behave well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746630 I've blogged about so many things here; coming to terms with the reality, really, and facing changes in my life. It has been a year since my ex husband said he wanted a divorce, and I am now divorced, legally, since the end of February. I filed, because I needed to protect myself as he continued on in the chains of fantasy that is his life. Translate: he was leaving his job and would have no income and I certainly wanted to get divorced before he was unemployed. I'm in the house he had to h... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 21:40:23 EST I'm missing a SparkFriend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744816 One of my dear Sparkfriends has deactivated her page. <BR> <BR> I miss her. She was so very active here in Spark and supported many people. She identified herself as vegan and recently changed her name, but not her picture. She was the author of the Caturday blogs. <BR> <BR> I want to wish her well, tell her I care about her and that I hope she is well. <BR> <BR> I hope she is able to return to Spark <BR> <BR> <em>220</em> Wed, 23 Jul 2014 09:36:42 EST Bananas and Almond Milk "Shake" -- A Mainstay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742862 Not sure what to call it -- but I have this healthy "treat" several times a week and I'm about to leave my work desk right now and go down and make one! <BR> <BR> I take two frozen bananas and one cup of non sweetened vanilla almond milk and place it in my Vita-Mix. I either ad some cinnamon or 1 T unsweetened cocoa and blend. <BR> <BR> The result? A thick, delicious shake. Clean and satisfying. About 270 calories. <BR> <BR> Sun, 20 Jul 2014 17:29:29 EST My Lunch Today - rather labor intensive but really good :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737492 I went to the Farmers' Market this morning and came home with so many delicious vegetables - including zucchini and eggplant. I decided to oven roast diagonal slices of eggplant, z-squash, and sweet peppers (no added oil). Meanwhile I took some white beans (1.5 C) out of the freezer (I had cooked them several weeks ago and stored in zip lock bags) and decided to experiment with them as a "smear" for a sandwich (a la Mark Bittman, NYTimes food editor, who has increased plants in his diet). ... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 19:22:54 EST I'm ready to get fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736209 I don't know for certain what sparked the change in me. I have been more open to myself and to positive change and more ready and willing to take care of me. <BR> <BR> I walked 40 minutes today. I will water jog another 30 minutes yet today. Hooray! <BR> <BR> I've lost 30 and now I'm ready to lose the next 100. I'm ready to feel better in my body. I am signing up for a yoga class that will start next week - I'm a little scared of this, because my knees hurt and I feel so at odds with m... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 18:00:42 EST A deeper commitment to whole foods plant based http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730914 After my babies were born, a long time ago, I remember a period of time where all I did, really, was the basics: drink water, eat, nurse the babies, go to the bathroom and change diapers, nurse the babies, bathe me and them, and take naps - because the hormones released in nursing puts everyone to sleep at first. <BR> <BR> I am back from this Engine2/Powered by Forks Over Knives retreat and it was really incredibly rich with information. I'll be talking about this for a while on these blog... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 22:13:40 EST I'm learning alot, and probably healthier, but no weight loss lately http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723332 I remain at 259.2. Which is alot better than 260 -- or 288 where I started. <BR> I think its my magical thinking that I probably need to lose most. Won't this just melt off of me? Especially since I have now switched to a whole foods plant based way of eating? On the days I track, its anywhere from 1200 to 1600 calories - in my range. And I have lost some - but not in the last month. <BR> <BR> I need to move my body. And my challenge is to love myself (and lose my fear?!?!?) enough to do ... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 10:47:16 EST Forks Over Knives retreat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713103 I decided to treat myself with a 2.5 day retreat at the end of June. Many of the Plant Based Whole Foods physicians, nutritionists, etc., will be presenting and the cost also includes 6 meals. I paused and then decided I would go for it. It will be a great support to meet other people from Illinois who are eating this way and I look forward to the cooking demonstration, the meals, opportunities for questions, and, well...everything. This is about 2 hours from me and staying at the DoubleTree ... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 22:43:43 EST Tired of Being Overwhelmed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709200 At least today, I am tired of being overwhelmed -- of defaulting to this. I can manage these tasks a step at a time. <BR> First, see reality for what it is here -- believe it and take care of myself. I might have seen it at the "head level" before...but I think this is all sinking in....getting to know it in my limbic system, as it were. <BR> Second, get support I need for property management. - I am doing this. <BR> Third, develop a spreadsheet of my own significant costs for property man... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 20:02:47 EST I am overwhelmed. . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5701631 Fair warning: this entry is back to my divorce, and some of my feelings about it. My feelings today. Maybe (perhaps!?!) some self pity here. <BR> <BR> Its a beautiful day here - and a three day weekend. My ex-husband and I bought this house seven years ago when he had to have it - I thought it was too much on several counts. Its very big. Way too much for me -- and my dogs. The yard is huge - I've hired someone to mow it. We have a nice in-ground pool -- lots of work. I had someone come ... Fri, 23 May 2014 17:37:48 EST Hmmmm What I ate Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699568 My food plan today made me happy. I am surprised, in fact. But I feel so very good, I am compelled to share!!! Since beginning the Whole Foods Plant Based plan about 6 weeks ago, I have landed on one cup of oatmeal for breakfast -- that's two servings and I put any of the following on it: currents, raisins, cinnamon, maple syrup, cut apricots, fresh raspberries. This holds me all morning. <BR> <BR> Today, I brought a rather large serving of a hearty soup I made last night -- roasted red pe... Tue, 20 May 2014 22:19:38 EST What Needs to Change in Us? (Sr. Joan Chittister) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698401 The following is really very timely for me, appearing in my email inbox this morning, a meditation from S. Joan Chittister: <BR> <BR> What needs to change in us? <BR> <BR> Changing the way we go about life is not all that difficult. We all do it all the time. We change jobs, states, houses, relationships, lifestyles over and over again as the years go by. But those are, in the main, very superficial changes. Real change is far deeper than that. It is changing the way we look at life that is... Mon, 19 May 2014 11:47:28 EST Realistic Expectations of Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697102 So the semester is over, but I am still the program director until June 30, when I move back into a full time teaching position. My house is on the market --but without much activity. I am getting used to living alone and I have been eating this whole foods plant based way for about 6 weeks now. I've lost a little and feel very good. Overall, my knees are feeling better -- but it is still variable. <BR> <BR> I am a stick in the mud about exercise. I don't want to do it. I know I need to -... Sat, 17 May 2014 14:56:29 EST Living and Learning the WFPB (whole food, plant based) plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5688482 I feel good, overall. Certainly less triggered since changing to this plan a month ago. I need to acknowledge two things in this brief post. First, it is more difficult to eat out. I ordered stir fried vegetables and asked them to add only soy -- skipping the sweet sauce --- and got a nice bowl of vegetables over (white) rice. However, I could taste the added oil and it was NOT GOOD. Wouldn't have bothered me before. Second, I will need to work in using nuts and nutbutters in small portions.... Mon, 5 May 2014 22:52:12 EST Three Weeks Whole Food/Plant Based http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681900 Okay, three weeks today in this way of eating now. These are some of the things I have learned. <BR> <BR> 1) I am getting enough protein in plants. I bought plant based protein powder at first to make smoothies. I don't really need it. <BR> <BR> 2) My body feels "cleaner." <BR> <BR> 3) My arthritis keeps getting better. <BR> <BR> 4) My eyes are more open (really, physically). <BR> <BR> 5) I am really happy with 1 cup of oatmeal and fruit in the morning - I make this in my new rice coo... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 20:57:13 EST Plant Based Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673567 I've now been on a plant based food plan for 11 days and its not as difficult as I thought.... <BR> I have been anywhere from 1100 to about 1500 calories a day and I have not been at all hungry. I haven't had any trouble staying away from all these other foods and I am incorporating things I never ate before. I have much to learn but I am committed to this for now as I am feeling better. Of course, I do need to let go of the fantasy that I would be losing at least a pound a day on this! In f... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 12:14:12 EST The Easter Buddies and Kitty in a Bonnet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672181 Whoa...I've spent way too much time on this! <BR> <BR> I finished the healthy Easter Baskets for my twenty something sons today. These are from the "Easter Buddies", pictured just below. Good boys they were this morning, actually posing together! <BR> Following is kitty in her bonnet. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1220798635.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1407493410.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Everest came to us 10 years ago; s... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 16:44:47 EST One year today... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670582 I didn't realize this, but I am at my one year anniversary on SP. (I know SP has me as a member since 2009, but that is when I only tracked my food for a while)...I started (again) and began to blog on 4.13.13. I weighed 288 then. Now, I weigh 264.3 -- as of this morning. Of course I would have liked to lose more - but I will take this 25 pounds or so and keep walking toward my goal. In the last year I have come to understand my family of origin differently and separated from them. I've als... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 15:43:32 EST Plant Based, no or low gluten.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669215 Just a quick note that I have been tracking and I'm really feeling very good since Sunday, when I made a shift to plant based (vegan, no to low gluten). I had been moving toward this in my thinking, reading and eating...and I just took off with it Sunday. I feel very well and I'm somewhat surprised. First, my knees and shoulders are so so so much better; I'd say they are about 75% better -- which I can hardly believe. I have been eating well and am not hungry at all - I feel very sated at ab... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 17:20:05 EST All over the place, but I'm here right now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662063 I am not consistent - but I am here today - and I am logging my food as much as I can and becoming more consistent again. I'm walking my dogs. I believe I am on the road to vegetarian and then maybe vegan. My tummy is feeling much better with soy yogurt than it is with Greek dairy yogurt...and I have cut out sugar and processed foods, for the most part. I know I need to be much cleaner in what I eat and I feel like I am now emotionally able to do this. <BR> <BR> I got my house ready for s... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 20:22:59 EST tired, tracking, tenuous. . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637809 Oh, I am not consistent...and I am so tired this weekend... <BR> I am not eating very well, but I am tracking and that's what I can do today... <BR> Now, for a nap. Sun, 2 Mar 2014 15:53:25 EST Legalizing what already is . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633007 So, today I went to court and the outcome was a judgement of divorce. So be it. Moving ahead now, in faith, that this move I am making to a new locality will all work out. I need to stick to basics --- once again. Mon, 24 Feb 2014 23:39:39 EST Drinking more water........... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631488 Nothing profound....just critically important! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1592062617.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1158857645.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l570139977.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1567270938.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Wishing everyone a very hydrated day! <BR> Sun, 23 Feb 2014 10:20:01 EST Claiming my seat today, after my absence. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631018 Over the last month I have not been on SP and I have not tracked food. I have been overwhelmed, frankly. And eating too much. And....well, I'll get on the scale tomorrow and update my weight. <BR> <BR> Starting today, I intend to change this. So, I'm tracking. And I'm going to try to blog every day. <BR> <BR> I am really at the basics: <BR> I've got a cold and am staying in today, trying to get over it. <BR> All the tasks I've had to accomplish in February have/are coming together. I ha... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 17:04:45 EST Over my range of 1200 - 1650 and then there's the rest of my life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601650 and I'm ending up at about `1700 to 1800. Far from 1200 - 1300, where I'd like to land. I'm blogging this because I am pushing myself to be honest here. If I hadn't gone the machine and get M and M's and if I had planned ahead for a large salad or lots of vegetables at dinner, I'd be fine. It's a small binge -- nothing compared with my history. Its about the "younger parts of me" being scared and trying to numb. <BR> <BR> Everything is up in the air! I have a painter in and he painting... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 20:49:08 EST One foot . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601163 . . . in front of the other. I wish I could be more witty and more positive and I wish that I wasn't so overwhelmed. But I did show up for SparkCoach, logged my breakfast, went to Morning Prayer, prepared for the painter today at my house, and got to work and am ordering my day. I have healthy lunch planned and I shopped for healthy food the other day and so I have that at home. I feel like I am in a maze, and I guess as long as I am in this maze, I'll just take a step at a time. I'm so u... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 11:23:12 EST