WOMANWITHGRIT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WOMANWITHGRIT WOMANWITHGRIT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I'm missing a SparkFriend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744816 One of my dear Sparkfriends has deactivated her page. <BR> <BR> I miss her. She was so very active here in Spark and supported many people. She identified herself as vegan and recently changed her name, but not her picture. She was the author of the Caturday blogs. <BR> <BR> I want to wish her well, tell her I care about her and that I hope she is well. <BR> <BR> I hope she is able to return to Spark <BR> <BR> <em>220</em> Wed, 23 Jul 2014 09:36:42 EST Bananas and Almond Milk "Shake" -- A Mainstay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742862 Not sure what to call it -- but I have this healthy "treat" several times a week and I'm about to leave my work desk right now and go down and make one! <BR> <BR> I take two frozen bananas and one cup of non sweetened vanilla almond milk and place it in my Vita-Mix. I either ad some cinnamon or 1 T unsweetened cocoa and blend. <BR> <BR> The result? A thick, delicious shake. Clean and satisfying. About 270 calories. <BR> <BR> Sun, 20 Jul 2014 17:29:29 EST My Lunch Today - rather labor intensive but really good :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5737492 I went to the Farmers' Market this morning and came home with so many delicious vegetables - including zucchini and eggplant. I decided to oven roast diagonal slices of eggplant, z-squash, and sweet peppers (no added oil). Meanwhile I took some white beans (1.5 C) out of the freezer (I had cooked them several weeks ago and stored in zip lock bags) and decided to experiment with them as a "smear" for a sandwich (a la Mark Bittman, NYTimes food editor, who has increased plants in his diet). ... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 19:22:54 EST I'm ready to get fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736209 I don't know for certain what sparked the change in me. I have been more open to myself and to positive change and more ready and willing to take care of me. <BR> <BR> I walked 40 minutes today. I will water jog another 30 minutes yet today. Hooray! <BR> <BR> I've lost 30 and now I'm ready to lose the next 100. I'm ready to feel better in my body. I am signing up for a yoga class that will start next week - I'm a little scared of this, because my knees hurt and I feel so at odds with m... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 18:00:42 EST A deeper commitment to whole foods plant based http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5730914 After my babies were born, a long time ago, I remember a period of time where all I did, really, was the basics: drink water, eat, nurse the babies, go to the bathroom and change diapers, nurse the babies, bathe me and them, and take naps - because the hormones released in nursing puts everyone to sleep at first. <BR> <BR> I am back from this Engine2/Powered by Forks Over Knives retreat and it was really incredibly rich with information. I'll be talking about this for a while on these blog... Wed, 2 Jul 2014 22:13:40 EST I'm learning alot, and probably healthier, but no weight loss lately http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5723332 I remain at 259.2. Which is alot better than 260 -- or 288 where I started. <BR> I think its my magical thinking that I probably need to lose most. Won't this just melt off of me? Especially since I have now switched to a whole foods plant based way of eating? On the days I track, its anywhere from 1200 to 1600 calories - in my range. And I have lost some - but not in the last month. <BR> <BR> I need to move my body. And my challenge is to love myself (and lose my fear?!?!?) enough to do ... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 10:47:16 EST Forks Over Knives retreat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5713103 I decided to treat myself with a 2.5 day retreat at the end of June. Many of the Plant Based Whole Foods physicians, nutritionists, etc., will be presenting and the cost also includes 6 meals. I paused and then decided I would go for it. It will be a great support to meet other people from Illinois who are eating this way and I look forward to the cooking demonstration, the meals, opportunities for questions, and, well...everything. This is about 2 hours from me and staying at the DoubleTree ... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 22:43:43 EST Tired of Being Overwhelmed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5709200 At least today, I am tired of being overwhelmed -- of defaulting to this. I can manage these tasks a step at a time. <BR> First, see reality for what it is here -- believe it and take care of myself. I might have seen it at the "head level" before...but I think this is all sinking in....getting to know it in my limbic system, as it were. <BR> Second, get support I need for property management. - I am doing this. <BR> Third, develop a spreadsheet of my own significant costs for property man... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 20:02:47 EST I am overwhelmed. . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5701631 Fair warning: this entry is back to my divorce, and some of my feelings about it. My feelings today. Maybe (perhaps!?!) some self pity here. <BR> <BR> Its a beautiful day here - and a three day weekend. My ex-husband and I bought this house seven years ago when he had to have it - I thought it was too much on several counts. Its very big. Way too much for me -- and my dogs. The yard is huge - I've hired someone to mow it. We have a nice in-ground pool -- lots of work. I had someone come ... Fri, 23 May 2014 17:37:48 EST Hmmmm What I ate Today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699568 My food plan today made me happy. I am surprised, in fact. But I feel so very good, I am compelled to share!!! Since beginning the Whole Foods Plant Based plan about 6 weeks ago, I have landed on one cup of oatmeal for breakfast -- that's two servings and I put any of the following on it: currents, raisins, cinnamon, maple syrup, cut apricots, fresh raspberries. This holds me all morning. <BR> <BR> Today, I brought a rather large serving of a hearty soup I made last night -- roasted red pe... Tue, 20 May 2014 22:19:38 EST What Needs to Change in Us? (Sr. Joan Chittister) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5698401 The following is really very timely for me, appearing in my email inbox this morning, a meditation from S. Joan Chittister: <BR> <BR> What needs to change in us? <BR> <BR> Changing the way we go about life is not all that difficult. We all do it all the time. We change jobs, states, houses, relationships, lifestyles over and over again as the years go by. But those are, in the main, very superficial changes. Real change is far deeper than that. It is changing the way we look at life that is... Mon, 19 May 2014 11:47:28 EST Realistic Expectations of Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5697102 So the semester is over, but I am still the program director until June 30, when I move back into a full time teaching position. My house is on the market --but without much activity. I am getting used to living alone and I have been eating this whole foods plant based way for about 6 weeks now. I've lost a little and feel very good. Overall, my knees are feeling better -- but it is still variable. <BR> <BR> I am a stick in the mud about exercise. I don't want to do it. I know I need to -... Sat, 17 May 2014 14:56:29 EST Living and Learning the WFPB (whole food, plant based) plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5688482 I feel good, overall. Certainly less triggered since changing to this plan a month ago. I need to acknowledge two things in this brief post. First, it is more difficult to eat out. I ordered stir fried vegetables and asked them to add only soy -- skipping the sweet sauce --- and got a nice bowl of vegetables over (white) rice. However, I could taste the added oil and it was NOT GOOD. Wouldn't have bothered me before. Second, I will need to work in using nuts and nutbutters in small portions.... Mon, 5 May 2014 22:52:12 EST Three Weeks Whole Food/Plant Based http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681900 Okay, three weeks today in this way of eating now. These are some of the things I have learned. <BR> <BR> 1) I am getting enough protein in plants. I bought plant based protein powder at first to make smoothies. I don't really need it. <BR> <BR> 2) My body feels "cleaner." <BR> <BR> 3) My arthritis keeps getting better. <BR> <BR> 4) My eyes are more open (really, physically). <BR> <BR> 5) I am really happy with 1 cup of oatmeal and fruit in the morning - I make this in my new rice coo... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 20:57:13 EST Plant Based Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5673567 I've now been on a plant based food plan for 11 days and its not as difficult as I thought.... <BR> I have been anywhere from 1100 to about 1500 calories a day and I have not been at all hungry. I haven't had any trouble staying away from all these other foods and I am incorporating things I never ate before. I have much to learn but I am committed to this for now as I am feeling better. Of course, I do need to let go of the fantasy that I would be losing at least a pound a day on this! In f... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 12:14:12 EST The Easter Buddies and Kitty in a Bonnet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5672181 Whoa...I've spent way too much time on this! <BR> <BR> I finished the healthy Easter Baskets for my twenty something sons today. These are from the "Easter Buddies", pictured just below. Good boys they were this morning, actually posing together! <BR> Following is kitty in her bonnet. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1220798635.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1407493410.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Everest came to us 10 years ago; s... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 16:44:47 EST One year today... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670582 I didn't realize this, but I am at my one year anniversary on SP. (I know SP has me as a member since 2009, but that is when I only tracked my food for a while)...I started (again) and began to blog on 4.13.13. I weighed 288 then. Now, I weigh 264.3 -- as of this morning. Of course I would have liked to lose more - but I will take this 25 pounds or so and keep walking toward my goal. In the last year I have come to understand my family of origin differently and separated from them. I've als... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 15:43:32 EST Plant Based, no or low gluten.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669215 Just a quick note that I have been tracking and I'm really feeling very good since Sunday, when I made a shift to plant based (vegan, no to low gluten). I had been moving toward this in my thinking, reading and eating...and I just took off with it Sunday. I feel very well and I'm somewhat surprised. First, my knees and shoulders are so so so much better; I'd say they are about 75% better -- which I can hardly believe. I have been eating well and am not hungry at all - I feel very sated at ab... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 17:20:05 EST All over the place, but I'm here right now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662063 I am not consistent - but I am here today - and I am logging my food as much as I can and becoming more consistent again. I'm walking my dogs. I believe I am on the road to vegetarian and then maybe vegan. My tummy is feeling much better with soy yogurt than it is with Greek dairy yogurt...and I have cut out sugar and processed foods, for the most part. I know I need to be much cleaner in what I eat and I feel like I am now emotionally able to do this. <BR> <BR> I got my house ready for s... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 20:22:59 EST tired, tracking, tenuous. . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637809 Oh, I am not consistent...and I am so tired this weekend... <BR> I am not eating very well, but I am tracking and that's what I can do today... <BR> Now, for a nap. Sun, 2 Mar 2014 15:53:25 EST Legalizing what already is . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633007 So, today I went to court and the outcome was a judgement of divorce. So be it. Moving ahead now, in faith, that this move I am making to a new locality will all work out. I need to stick to basics --- once again. Mon, 24 Feb 2014 23:39:39 EST Drinking more water........... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631488 Nothing profound....just critically important! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1592062617.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1158857645.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l570139977.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1567270938.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Wishing everyone a very hydrated day! <BR> Sun, 23 Feb 2014 10:20:01 EST Claiming my seat today, after my absence. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631018 Over the last month I have not been on SP and I have not tracked food. I have been overwhelmed, frankly. And eating too much. And....well, I'll get on the scale tomorrow and update my weight. <BR> <BR> Starting today, I intend to change this. So, I'm tracking. And I'm going to try to blog every day. <BR> <BR> I am really at the basics: <BR> I've got a cold and am staying in today, trying to get over it. <BR> All the tasks I've had to accomplish in February have/are coming together. I ha... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 17:04:45 EST Over my range of 1200 - 1650 and then there's the rest of my life. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601650 and I'm ending up at about `1700 to 1800. Far from 1200 - 1300, where I'd like to land. I'm blogging this because I am pushing myself to be honest here. If I hadn't gone the machine and get M and M's and if I had planned ahead for a large salad or lots of vegetables at dinner, I'd be fine. It's a small binge -- nothing compared with my history. Its about the "younger parts of me" being scared and trying to numb. <BR> <BR> Everything is up in the air! I have a painter in and he painting... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 20:49:08 EST One foot . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5601163 . . . in front of the other. I wish I could be more witty and more positive and I wish that I wasn't so overwhelmed. But I did show up for SparkCoach, logged my breakfast, went to Morning Prayer, prepared for the painter today at my house, and got to work and am ordering my day. I have healthy lunch planned and I shopped for healthy food the other day and so I have that at home. I feel like I am in a maze, and I guess as long as I am in this maze, I'll just take a step at a time. I'm so u... Tue, 21 Jan 2014 11:23:12 EST Logged in, Finished Coaching, and Tracking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5600030 I have been inconsistent - not logging in or going through the Coaching session, and not tracking until yesterday. I was overwhelmed and depressed. I still am -- only now I am back, realizing that to pick myself up and get going is what I need to do. While it is true I am overextended, I need to act in my best interest now - to the best of my ability. I do not have time to join a gym, but I have to prepare a house for sale and can exercise to sort and clean. I can track every day again and st... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 11:54:15 EST Bringing Myself Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5589609 I began to track in my head yesterday and I wrote it down today. Tracking again. And, I listened to the SparkCoach session and how timely it was that the challenge today was to work out by cleaning house. I did that for 2.5 hours -- I just kept going. (Have I mentioned I hate to tackle housecleaning?) So, my calories were 1500 and I feel better for tracking and moving. <BR> <BR> I was so stressed last week, I just didn't log on or track. I *will* be on again tomorrow.....Really, SP is essen... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 20:59:54 EST I'm not going to wait to be motivated . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5574079 First, thank you to all who read and commented on the O antiphons blogposts. I love the focus that brings to the last week of Advent. <BR> <BR> Then there were the first days of Christmas. I celebrated, lapsed in tracking, and ate all manner of food that wasn't so good for me and left me feeling sluggish and even sick. I sustained my mother's company and my first Christmas without my husband as we proceed through this divorce. And I'm on my feet, perhaps recognizing my own humanity a little... Sat, 28 Dec 2013 20:32:41 EST O Emmanual (God with Us) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570704 O Emmanuel, our King and Lawgiver, the gatherer of our people and their Savior: come Thou to save us, O Lord our God. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l128379102.jpg"> <BR> Mon, 23 Dec 2013 20:49:23 EST O Rex Gentium http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570136 O King and the Desire of all nations, and Chief cornerstone, who makes two to become one: Come and save man, who you formed from clay. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l98510175.jpg"> <BR> Pantokrator <BR> Sun, 22 Dec 2013 22:29:48 EST O Oriens http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5569405 O Dayspring, Brightness of the Light Eternal and Sun of Righteousness: Come and enlighten those who sit in darkness and the shadow of Death. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/6/l364259411.jpg"> Sat, 21 Dec 2013 17:02:09 EST O Clavis David http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5568664 O Key of David, and Scepter of the House of Israel, you open and no one can shut, you shut and no one can open; Come and bring the captives out of the prison house, those who sit in darkness and the shadow of death. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1129325871.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Christ as the Key, opening the prison of Hell. King David is on the right, waiting his turn to be handed out by his descendant. <BR> <BR> Duccio di Buoninsegna. Descent into Hell, c 1308. Fri, 20 Dec 2013 11:41:12 EST O Radix Jesse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5568034 O Root of Jesse, you stand as an ensign to the peoples; before you kings shall shut their mouths, and the nations now in worship; Come and deliver us, and tarry not. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l246346456.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Thu, 19 Dec 2013 13:25:50 EST O Adonai http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5567207 O Adonai and Leader of the House of Israel, you appeared in the bush to Moses in a flame of fire, and gave him the law on Sinai: Come and redeem us with an outstretched arm. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/5/l259205208.jpg"> Wed, 18 Dec 2013 11:17:08 EST Nearing the end of Advent: The "O" Antiphons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566588 We're still in Advent -- the Season of Light, Repentance (best understood as "turning around") and Expectation. Beginning December 17th, in my church, Evening Prayer is added each evening and the O Antiphons are sung. There is one each day for seven days, sung just before the Magnificat. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1585571993.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The antiphons bring us closer to the Incarnation. Our journey to the birth of Christ comes closer and closer to... Tue, 17 Dec 2013 14:09:42 EST Spark Community, Spark Radio and finding my groove again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5566002 I honestly posted this morning that I was coming around again. I have tracked the last couple of weeks, but not perfectly -- and it has been the one discipline that I have kept. My range is to 1650 and I have been there and above - up to 2000 the last couple of days. No exercise. <BR> <BR> Reading your blogs and comments kept me where I needed to be. No one told me "not" to eat this or that, or do this or that ( of course!!!) but I heard love and acceptance, and honesty, and encouragement... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 20:45:10 EST Advent; Season of Expectation and Light http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5554646 Today is the first day in Advent. <BR> <BR> Turn yourself around. <BR> Be ready. <BR> God scatters the darkness. <BR> Jesus with us already, but not yet. <BR> <BR> For me - Be ready (remember the readings....the foolish maidens without enough oil, etc.) in large part means BE PRESENT. I need to: <BR> Take care of myself. <BR> Acknowledge my needs. <BR> Take responsibility for my health and well-being physically, emotionally, and spiritually. <BR> and <BR> Track my food. <BR> Mov... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 23:01:52 EST Coming out of a fog...at least for today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5538971 I'm heading out to Morning Prayer in a few minutes and then will have breakfast with a friend before I head out to work. It's a catch up and planning day -- I have a busy end of the week and am behind. Some of this is of my doing and much is not -- there is no end of people work and systems change to tend to and I've learned to take one thing at a time. I usually work at home on Mondays and did so yesterday -- only I didn't do much -- for which I'm going to forgive myself. I'm talking to myse... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 08:06:16 EST Status Check http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5532866 I just need to say where I am and note all this change in my life. I need to catch my breath. <BR> <BR> I was away at a conference all last week. *That* was a challenge! I tracked well, but had not so much control and after 5 days I was very glad to get home. Meanwhile, my older son returned from a trip, got home a day before I did, and prepared to leave for basic training -- which he did yesterday. I dropped him off. Of course it's good for him to go, but my heart breaks. He came home fro... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 11:18:42 EST Paying Attention after Eating Oatmeal for Breakfast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5524758 I had 1/2 cup of oatmeal this morning, with some flax seeds and one cup of skim milk in a non fat latte. The longer I log my food and participate in SP, the more I find that I am surely on the road of paying attention to my body. I have chosen oatmeal for breakfast more frequently lately and I recently found these quick and easy packets of rolled oats and flax seed -- no additives. They come in single serving packs and are microwavable for 2 minutes. Easy. Filling. Healthy. <BR> <BR> I wa... Sun, 27 Oct 2013 16:42:23 EST A Prayer for Guidance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5520200 I just returned from Morning Prayer, which is said every day at my little church at 7:30. This is a great way to start the day. The appointed lections, canticles, and prayers orient me to the day. One of my favorite prayers is the Prayer for Guidance, per below. <BR> <BR> Heavenly Father, in you we live and move and have our being; We humbly pray you so to guide and govern us by your Holy Spirit; that in all the cares and occupations of our life we may not forget you, but may remember that... Tue, 22 Oct 2013 10:07:47 EST In a Funk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5517928 I'm trying to write myself out of this one. <BR> <BR> I had big plans for today..... wash, walk the dogs, clean, organize. And instead, here I am on the couch, just up from a nap. And depressed. I did go to Morning Prayer, pay bills, clean the kitchen. But I have not tackled the larger things. <BR> <BR> My sons will be here tomorrow. One lives an hour away and the other -- who has been home for the last few months -- is on his way out this week and I *may* see him at Christmas. This is a g... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 17:44:26 EST Stepping into Self Care http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5505881 Good morning! <BR> It's a chilly and sunny morning in northern Illinois and I will be heading off to church soon, as soon as I feed the dogs and finish this blog and my latte. <BR> <BR> I have been wearing a little fitbit zip for the couple of months and have learned just how inactive I am! I've pushed up to 3000 steps on occasion, but not often. So, today, my Spark Coaching session addressed walking and I learned (again!) that the recommended number of steps ins 10,000 steps per day. ... Sun, 6 Oct 2013 10:34:15 EST Acceptance and Appreciation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5502567 I hardly have words for how I feel -- except to say how much I appreciate all of the support I receive here. I am ...rather....overcome. And I then have a little more courage to go forward. <BR> <BR> I am eating well. Behaving well. Walking. Praying. Trying to feel my feelings. And then let them go. (I even lost .8 pound earlier this week). <BR> <BR> I cannot do this alone and I am certainly not doing it alone as a member of this community. <BR> Wed, 2 Oct 2013 14:20:20 EST Updates http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5500648 I just returned from the attorney's office where I signed my divorce petition. I am overwhelmed with sadness. I did not seek this divorce. But at this point I need this divorce for my own well being and protection. <BR> <BR> These last two weekends my husband has been here over the weekend and he and I and our two adult sons (24 and 26)have tackled the storage room in the basement -- all the artifacts of our 28 years of family life together. Sorting boxes of books for the library sale, don... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 19:56:21 EST Moving Forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494733 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1519282589.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It's time. I just spoke with a health coach associated with health incentive plan through work. I talked about my involvement with SparkPeople since April and my weight loss since then. I identified my need to start moving. Starting today, my new goal is to walk a mile 5 days a week. Starting today. My dogs will love it and I will. too. For reasons I don't really fully understand, I just haven't wanted to do thi... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 10:41:27 EST Another Small Loss - 1/5 lb! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5491392 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1904994442.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That's *almost* a stick of butter. <BR> <BR> Ever forward. I don't have alot of punch, but it is my priority to track and stay in calorie range. Fri, 20 Sep 2013 18:33:48 EST Very Slowly, but Steadily http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5478811 I lost 4/10 of a pound in the last week and I am going to call that alright. I have not lost a great deal since starting. *But* I am consistently losing, and I haven't missed a day in tracking, and I am blogging and interacting. <BR> <BR> I looked back over time, when I have variably checked in with SP since October 2009. I weighed 270 then. I got down to 252 and then stopped. Over the next two years I gained 36 lbs, climbing up to 288 -- my highest. That was in April 2012. So, finally, w... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 17:01:38 EST Waiting, Weighing, Measuring, Moving; A Formula for Success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5471853 I just have to say thank you to everyone who responded to my last blog and also for everyone who shares their story on these pages. I received such great feedback on my last blog and I did begin to take note to measure and weigh -- rather than guess. And to drink more water. And also to step up to more exercise -- although I still have a lot more to do here. I was also encouraged to stay on the path - which I did WITH THIS SUPPORT. <BR> <BR> The scale is moving. I am losing again. <BR> ... Sat, 31 Aug 2013 17:05:33 EST The Scale Is Not Budging http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5464955 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/6/l266872151.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Well, I'm glad to be consistent in tracking and most days I am at `1300 calories. Sometimes somewhat less, sometimes a little more. But, my goodness, I should be losing something! I mean, I weigh 265.2, and have for some time now. My BMR is higher than my intake - so I wonder what is going on..... I am stressed. I am *not* sleeping well, sometimes my water is down a little, and my exercise could use a boost. But... Sat, 24 Aug 2013 14:16:11 EST