WILDXANGELS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WILDXANGELS WILDXANGELS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ ANOTHER NEW DAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807091 Not going to eat over today, but I do want to curl up into a ball and stay in bed all day. Sometimes the emotional pain is all consuming enough that I dont feel hungry for once. I think weekly therapy would help. Been resistant until now because I just figured life was life and I should be able to suck it up. But after working on my OA steps and realizing my life truly is unmanageable, not on the outside, but inside... me...myself...my thoughts...my own self destructive behavior is unmangeabl... Wed, 29 Oct 2014 17:06:42 EST A NEW PROGRAM http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5806092 i have no trigger foods now but years ago i use to,food is not my problem now,my problem is me. Tue, 28 Oct 2014 02:40:44 EST GIVE IT AWAY TO KEEP IT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795052 Good morning everyone! I have no idea what i am going to post till i begin to write. I woke and am tired, have a long day ahead and won't finish work till 11pm. Motivation - what is it? It's what makes us go, gets us going, keeps us going. Some get it from faith, i know that is a huge boost for me! Some from family, friends, music. No matter what motivates you, use it to your full advantage. This post motivates me daily! How? There are several people that respond (and you know who you are) an... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 06:28:11 EST FIRST THINGS FIRST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794697 This october 2014 I celebrated 4 years clean and sober. I was diagnosed with diabetes in october of 2006. My weight at that time was 440 + . When I got to OA I weighed 440. Yesterday at the doctor's I weighed 304 with shoes and after lunch. My A1c has gone down from 14.5 in 2012 to 9.5 yesterday. I worked with a wonderful case manager for 1 year on the spiritual and emotional ends of the disease, thinking I could control the physical on my own with the diabetes /and aa people. A friend in OA ... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 13:34:11 EST BIG GIRL PANTIES http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793607 a tough day indeed. The quiet days are the hardest no distractions here. I'm miserably uncomfortable. Excited about the arrival of my daughters new baby coming while preparing to be devastated by the departure of my mom. What emotional torture. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Having a pity party tonight. I'll put my big girl panties back on in the morning. Mon, 6 Oct 2014 19:53:35 EST IF NOTHING CHANGES NOTHING CHANGES http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793598 Feeling much better after getting things in perspective and talking with a friend. Whew! I'm having to learn life lessons and take care of things on my own instead of with someone else. I've only truly been on my own without trying to depend on others to do things with me for this calendar year. I'm doing well overall, but it sometimes gets to me for a little while. I have always had the ability. I have just never exercised it. I'm going through some growing pains at the moment, but I am gett... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 19:28:27 EST WWJD??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5793564 Went to the store the other day and left without getting my usual candy bar, cookies or coke. How did I do it? I just imagined that there were two of us pushing the cart. Me and my HP. He just wouldn't stop by these items. Mon, 6 Oct 2014 18:00:55 EST WHY WEIGH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5791460 I've stated before that weight loss is important to me in this program. Let me restate that. Weight loss is a wonderful tool I use. I use it to gauge whether or not my abstinence is truly working for me or against me. While I love that the weight is coming off, I am finding that it's not the thing that is bringing me the most joy and confidence, which comes as such a surprise to me, because I always placed such great importance on "being thin." But as I head outside for a little walk (even in... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 02:46:45 EST step four http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5790663 Relearning that I don't have room in my life for resentment. Forgiveness is the path to peace. It's just hard to 'let someone get away with such and such a behavior' sometimes. Still, it's not worth giving up my peace. <BR> Fourth Step Prayer - God help me to show tolerance, pity and patience. This is a sick man. How can I be helpful to him? God save me from being angry. Thy will be done. Wed, 1 Oct 2014 20:12:03 EST THE MONSTER WHO LIVES HERE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787744 I just want to kill myself and end this severe unending pain.I am so out of hope and just about ready to completely lose my faith in God and everything I ever believed in .Is it possible for a humkan to walk on this earth but they are NOT really a human at all?? I have decided I live with someone who is not even Human.I live with a evil monster that walks in a human body.Yesterday this monster wanted to throw chairs and a big box of over 20 pounds flew by my head just missing me.He told me ho... Sat, 27 Sep 2014 07:00:26 EST A BRAND NEW DAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787714 morning friends,I have been up all night crying,surely I have lost 5 pounds but I will get weighed and let you know later,looking forward to october coming,but until then first on my list is to ask for Help and getting out of dodge city here,# 1:first i will find a friend to stay with for a few days ASAP til I unwind and stop crying and then #2:I will find a friend and or place to stay just til i get my check back and my own room somewhere,staying here no matter how much i want to is no longe... Sat, 27 Sep 2014 04:09:06 EST LORD HELP ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787168 Thank you Lord for given me the strength when I am my weakest. Thank you for your encouragement to believe in myself. Thank you for every blessing you have over filled my cup with. Thank for your words and direction to be the best me I can be. With you I am an overcomer. Amen. Fri, 26 Sep 2014 06:13:00 EST the end of this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787166 woke up with a migraine and the gut feeling i need to find a new place to live asap,like yesterday,feeling sick and upset on my birthday and wishing i was not here is not going to cut it any longer for my progress,I just wish i knew what the hell to do next as oct being on protocol /food plan has to come first before all else,free room and board is worth none of this!!!!!!!!! Fri, 26 Sep 2014 06:06:52 EST NEVER STOP PRAYING:GOD IS GOOD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786719 Dear Heavenly Father, I come to you right now in the name of Jesus Christ ... asking that you save me from my sins ... so I can get to know you - so I can be friends with you. <BR> God, I admit and confess that You paid the price for me to be able to be made right (be reconciled in good standing) with You . . . by dying that painful death on the cross and shedding Your innocent blood for me. When You were hanging there dying, You had me in mind. You died for me! So now, Lord Jesus, I accept Y... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 10:35:05 EST FEELING BLAH,THIS TOO SHALL PASS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786518 i feel like all i am is just a burden or a hassle. I secretly wish i would die in my sleep tonight. Im tired of being in pain every waking moment of my life. Idk whats worse, physical pain or the emotional pain it brings. Im just tired of suffering. Thu, 25 Sep 2014 02:57:51 EST prayers for my mom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5786009 please continue to pray for my mom,she had severe seizers and was taken by ambelence with blood pressure of only 30 to icu then a regular room,then moved to a nursing home,today she returns to my daughters by ambulence to her home again,she is not really knowing us now and in alot of pain on hospice,ty so much if you could pray for my mom to have comfort,amen Wed, 24 Sep 2014 09:14:40 EST recommitting step one oa http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5781870 Recommitting. Yes I go to meetings, but I realized today I haven't been working my program hard enough. My abstinence is...okay. Could be better. I need to live the steps! I've been too passive, not even thinking about it, the steps, the whole things. <BR> So without further ado: hi I'm Katleen, compulsive eater. I'm at step one fully: I admit I'm powerless over food and my eating behaviors, that my life is unmanageable. <BR> God grant me the serenity to accept what I cannot change, change th... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 20:09:07 EST HOSPICE AND MY MOM http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768570 Friends I am home...and I am pathetically sad. I mean I have always felt heartache when I came home from a wonderful vacation, but with me being overwhelming un satisfied in my life/weight /health... and surrounding here anyway, it is much worth coming back. I feel sad, I feel lonely...the only thing I missed where you (thanks to a bad connection), my family and friends...I really do need to change a lot. I hope after the first days of sulking I will find the energy I felt during this trip to... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 08:19:44 EST A FRESH NEW DAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768562 I've been struggling the last few days. But something happened yesterday that brought me back to reality, Life in general. As someone was talking about their life & how bad things were, then about that time my program kicked in. <BR> ***I am the only one responsible for me. With the help of my HP - GOD, I can do this. It's up to me to pick up the material, work the Steps, go to meetings, use the tools, communication with a Sponsor & pray/meditate daily. One foot in front of the other, one da... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 08:03:33 EST NEVER TOO LATE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752688 It’s never too late to live a life that makes you proud. If you don’t learn anything else from this post, learn that. We get one shot at this. There’s no age limit on changing your course, and to settle in and be stuck in a life that isn’t authentic is a tragic waste. Honestly, it’s never too late or too early to be who you are capable of being. There’s no time limit – you can simply start and stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same. You can make the best or the worst of it. I... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 07:17:23 EST MY MOM http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751642 I moved away but i keep looking back,I need to re-learn and make new habits here and now,yes,self preservation.I need to put it first and formost,I love my mom so much but she is dying and I can't prevent that from happening,so I must let it and her go to save myself.It breaks my heart. Sat, 2 Aug 2014 11:49:24 EST FOOT WORK http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5745771 ~ GoOoOoOOoOoOood Thursday Morning, EVERYONE!!!!.....Finally not so lethargic.....I have been under the weather all week; however, I am more than grateful it is very temporary.....I have nothing to complain about because my life on a daily basis is more than good and I am very blessed to have exactly what I do.....As of late, I have been staying in the positive no matter what and focusing on a stronger relationship with my higher power and the footwork I must do to continue growing.....I am p... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 14:06:31 EST A NEW ADVENTURE WITH OMNI http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5696560 On this journey of mine, I am discovering all kinds of things. New emotions, new opportunities, new desires. I am learning to see myself & to identify the things that lift me up, and letting go of the things that hold me down. I am becoming brave enough to confront my demons, and make friends with them. As amazing as all this can be, becoming a better me is tiring. So today, I am focusing on self care & resting. And today I see that taking time to be sweet to my own self is not avoidance or d... Fri, 16 May 2014 17:27:16 EST Omni rocks!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5682367 I am also a survivor of sexual abuse. I overate to not feel the pain. I went to a counselor a for many years and I told her. I could no longer keep it a secret After I told her, the thoughts never consumed me again. Please find a counselor that specializes on this topic. The 12 steps and a sponsor will help you also. Come to find out I have other reasons I overate also! I was addicted to food that is why I am here. Now I feel my feelings instead of eating.I love you and hugs! I go to weight ... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 12:05:50 EST LET IT GO OR NOT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5670453 so happy we have this page,as some of you know me n the mr had lots of problems last year and i had a order for him to stay away,he broke it and now its on his record.he told me a couple weeks ago he was gonna ask the judge to seal it so it does not show when he applys for a job,i told him the court would ask me and i would say no so not to bother. he did not believe me and asked for a court date!!!i am beyond mad!!!!!! they are going to ask me and i will say no just like i told him!!!!!!yes,... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 11:38:39 EST ONE STEP AHEAD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667405 I know it isn't about weight. This is embarrassing but also an accomplishment. I wasn't going to share, but I thought I should. In 2007, I stopped overeating and started my recovery. In 2010, I stopped cutting myself. 7 year recovery with overeating and 4 for cutting. In 2011-2012, I weighed 435 pounds. I could barely walk upstairs and refused to take my medications. I was diagnosed as a diabetic and other problems. I started doing one thing at a time. Taking one step at a time. One day at a ... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 13:10:46 EST OA AND ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666393 OA works as these pictures of my physical recovery illustrate. However, the true gift of recovery is not losing over 150 plus lbs, but silencing that incessant, abusive noise of "what am I going to eat, when, how, and where am I going to eat it, how am I going to lose weight, when will I join Weight Watchers...AGAIN...wait until after Easter, how much do I weigh, what size am I, why am I so weak, pathetic, FAT? It is not fair, look at that skinny girl she must be so happy, it is too hard. BLA... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 10:31:19 EST BACK TO BASICS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666205 I'm slowly killing myself... avoiding everything. Especially Me... I've managed to set some goals to take care of me. Yous know the basic everyday living that I have purposely stopped doing. Like pray... brush my teeth...eat... take a shower...get sleep...look in the mirror and say: I am worth it. Be happy...do something positive for myself... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 06:29:57 EST PRAYING 4 ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661391 Feel so so like I can't get anything accomplished . I know that with the overeaters anonymous program that they say you first have to admit your powerless over the food and that your life has become unmanageable which is also true for me but in addition to eating , even the things in my whole life are so much out of control. I seem so tired usually and also can't seem to concentrate enough to get these done that are things I should and want to work on like improving my diet , reading the Bibl... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 04:38:44 EST PROGRESS NOT PERFECTION http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660931 Still in major mouth pain n infection,must go back and go thru bones ground down and or removed and I have been trying to put it off but my blood sugars are rising but I am feeling a bit better ,not sure if its the new meds or I just feel better!!!!I can not wait for tomorrow to come!!!!It is 45 here and I am so glad I made it from oct. to now,I was so sick I just wanted to die and now I am feeling a glimmer of hope regardless of the bad days and moments.I have my food on track,I have not gai... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 14:09:07 EST I AM ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5657143 Once again I have reached the point where standing up for myself in my wants, wishes, beliefs, is where I am at. I won't back down anymore to anyone. Don't like my decisions, unfriend me, don't talk to me. For along time i've been backing down to what makes others happy NOT myself NO more. I have my faults, I'm more than willing to accept my blame, my consequences. I'm still o.k. with that I am who I am Wed, 26 Mar 2014 15:29:49 EST ONE DAY AT A TIME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656764 I'm just starting out on my journey. For years, I've chosen food as my drug to numb pain & fear. I literally built a wall around me to protect myself from being hurt. <BR> My rock bottom came when my doctor prescribed medication for elevated blood sugar, high blood pressure & thyroid. Everything I told myself that I would never be, I've become. <BR> I have a long road ahead as I regain my health. I'm glad to be here as part of it. Wed, 26 Mar 2014 07:31:43 EST NEVER GIVE UP http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655610 I feel like such a failure. If I had the gas money I'd go to a meeting. If my laptop didn't shut down on me automatically I'd browse the oa site. I have no real life friends. I'm on the outs with most of my family. Either that or they are busy with their own lives. I don't want to burden my adult kids. I wish God would just take me already. No I will not make any attempts on my life so please; no non-suicide pleas. I just feel so alone... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 18:27:08 EST TRY AGAIN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655175 Am laying here awake and wanting to be honest about myself and ask for your opinion about why I don't take care of me any better daily. I know I've been thru a lot but just am lost on the reason why I neglect myself in ways . Please try not to think bad of me ok . I started gaining the weight at age 5 when the abuse started. *i was then always starting to want to lose the weight but never finished anything or stuck to any diet long enough. It was like I ran from one place to another always tr... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 09:15:53 EST I AM NOT MY DISEASE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653645 Am laying here in bed feeling grateful for all the wonderful friends I've met lately and also for the wonderful people in my daily life that bless me more than I could ever say. I know this food addiction weight problem started when I started being abused around 4 years old but now as I lay here at 56 years old now , I can say that I'm just starting to learn to know me and to try and not let food be my whole world. I feel I've used food to stuff down feelings and also used food to cope but re... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 01:23:24 EST JUST DO IT TODAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645360 I have been on way too many eating disorder pages where all I see is people posting about the problem & nothing about the solution. Post after post after post of people complaining they can’t stop eating… Most folks responding, “It’s OK, tomorrow’s another day”. Yet when I offered the OA solution: Meetings, Sponsor, Steps, Tools & Service, all I’d get was “It’s too hard, back off”. THERE IS NO EASY WAY OUT OF THIS DISEASE—IT TAKES HARD WORK! But certainly beats the alternative… I wanted to st... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 12:44:03 EST NOT TODAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645048 Did you ever have a awakening where a light came on in your head and your heart and you just new you were not being true to yourself and certain issues were all wrong in your life? This morning was my day and the world stood still,and I feel frozen in time but cant be when I need to do the next right thing...help me Lord. Tue, 11 Mar 2014 05:33:28 EST one bad week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635077 So, sharing my most honest feelings! I had an incredibly rough week with some personal issues and unfortunately I turned to food instead of resorting to other outlets. I knew I had gained and I, one, didn't want I go to the meeting because I knew this would put me back under my 100 pound weight loss, and two, it made me feel like I would let all of you down. Then through the words and support of some awesome people I realized this is what I used to do...when I had a setback I would give up an... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 09:18:06 EST just for today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633488 I felt really overwhelmed yesterday after the discussion my OA sponsor and I had about behaviors and food abstinence. Then I talked to my NA sponsor about my some stuff and I really felt overwhelmed. I didn't want to do this anymore. It seemed to hard. It seemed forever. But, I'm trying to just do today. 3 meals and 2 snacks. Just for today. Tue, 25 Feb 2014 13:33:45 EST GOOD BYE FAT GIRL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625362 "Dear fat girl in the mirror.I haven't been seeing you as much staring back at me in the mirror lately.I have the feeling that you soon will be leaving forever and so before you go I just wanted to say a few things to you.I have to tell you I have hated you a lot over the years,you have disapointed me,disgusted me,made me sad and made me cry.Please don't be upset by that,you have done good things for me too,you taught me to be compassionate to others because I have known the pain and hurt of ... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 09:00:30 EST SPRING FORWARD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5619982 woke up in extreme pain,sitting here thinking,this has gone on for 4 months now of unbearable pain,I look back and do not know how I have made it thru,Some days are alot better,but most days are alot worse than ever.I am wondering if spring will bring a end to it all,or if I will even make it to see spring at all.Also wondering if it is something fatal or something just mind over matter.Dear Lord you know,please solve it soon,amen. Mon, 10 Feb 2014 02:23:44 EST KEEP ON TRUDGING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5616987 Maintained for 2 weeks and now up 1/2 pound. Ok, time to move on from the hibernation mindset. The snow is temporary and will melt. The cold will ease into warmer weather soon. The days will become longer and lighter day by day. This winter WILL NOT win!! I'm grateful I've been able to keep walking and yoga in check, but I've been treating food as if I'm Yogi Bear for the past few weeks. Lucky it's just 1/2 pound. Just needed to put my intention to turn this around out to the group.I love wei... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 14:23:36 EST ONE GOOD HUSBAND http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5598603 My Husband deserves a pat on the back for all he's done for me over the weekend because there are some jobs I can't do due to health issues, he's cleaned the carpets & washed the floors through-out the whole house & today he has spent time working in the front yard, which was a mess from snow and ice, coming off the trees to pulling out snow, that needed removing, bless him, I get frustrated and depressed when I can't do things I want to, but there's no point getting upset, I can't change my ... Sun, 19 Jan 2014 04:41:36 EST LETTING GO http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5597615 I have always craved comfort and relief and for me I found it in food. My body tells what I do in secret, publicly. It shows publicly the over abundance of food I crave and eat and it lingers. My body is overfilled with the thing I give most of my attention, the fruit I crave so to speak. I am looking at my life, my bank account, my priorities and it all leads to one priority...my craving for food. I am consumed by the comfort I find in food. To deal with childhood hurts...I used food. To pro... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 03:26:36 EST TODAY'S PRAYER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5596945 God direct my thinking today so that it be divorced of self pity, dishonesty, self-will, self-seeking and fear. God inspire my thinking, decisions and intuitions. Help me to relax and take it easy. Free me from doubt and indecision. Guide me through this day and show me my next step. God give me what I need to take care of any problems. I ask all these things that I may be of maximum service to you and my fellow man. AMEN <BR> <BR> Fri, 17 Jan 2014 11:53:05 EST TODAY'S PRAYER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5596944 God direct my thinking today so that it be divorced of self pity, dishonesty, self-will, self-seeking and fear. God inspire my thinking, decisions and intuitions. Help me to relax and take it easy. Free me from doubt and indecision. Guide me through this day and show me my next step. God give me what I need to take care of any problems. I ask all these things that I may be of maximum service to you and my fellow man. AMEN <BR> <BR> Fri, 17 Jan 2014 11:53:04 EST STEP ONE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5595548 I am powerless over food and my life has become unmanageable ... For today.., thy will be done. No amount of physical food will ever satisfy my emotional and spiritual hunger...I believe a power greater than myself can restore me to sanity Thu, 16 Jan 2014 07:26:04 EST DON'T LOOK BACK ,YOU'RE NOT GOING THAT WAY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593082 Forgive yourself first. Release the need to replay a negative situation over and over again in your mind. Don't become a hostage to your past by always reviewing and reliving your mistakes. Don't remind yourself of what should have, could have or would have been. Release it and let it go. Move on. <BR> <BR> You can't change the past, but you can determine that your past will not define your present, or dictate your future. Forgive your former self...for the way that it may have sabotaged you... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 00:31:12 EST EXERSIZE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5592349 Since my surgery in october I have not been able to do much and have lost a bunch of strength.Thought I could just pick up where I left off and found myself sucking wind for sure.I will have to exersize 5-10 minutes every hour at a time til I get my strength up again.I can do this and not feel bad because of my surgery that I am weaker than I was. Mon, 13 Jan 2014 12:23:41 EST JUST DO IT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5587911 Slept in a bit this morning and having a hard time getting going. It's still really cold outside, but that is still not going to stop me! Be sure to make healthy choices today and get that workout in! Even if it is just 10 or 15 minutes, something is way better than nothing! Thu, 9 Jan 2014 10:11:51 EST