WHYMEACRES's SparkPeople Blog

got through day one!

Tue, 8 Jan 2013 11:58:18 EST

I am keeping my goals very simple this time around. As I stated yesterday, I will change one bad habit at a time. I am working on eating 5 or more veggies and fruit.
Well, I did it the first day! Am I am going to do it on the second day, etc. until it is ingrained in me! I have decided to focus on my eating habits not on losing the weight. I figure that changing my habits will ultimately mean weight loss!

Why?

Mon, 7 Jan 2013 12:13:11 EST

I really have to start understanding why I can't lose weight. I think about it, I dream about it, I will try for about 2 weeks if that and feel actually kind of good when I do lose. So, why do I go back so easily to the bad habits? That is the million dollar question! I feel like crap when I eat crap. Heartburn, acid reflux! I am not talking mild cases. I have to start putting my energy into other things other than food. I have to start breaking one bad habit at a time and call it suc...

Starting again?!

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 10:47:39 EST

Today is the day I hope to change my life for the better. I am so tired of acid reflux, heartburn, no energy, etc. It is time I hold myself accountable. OK, this is my spew of the day. Unfortunately I never follow through. You would think with all those problems on top of having a heart attack a year ago at the ripe old age of 44 would be incentive enough. Food is a drug to me. I found comfort, solace. I have to change me and find the reasons for this unhealthy relationship with food....

Well I exercised today!

Thu, 9 Aug 2012 18:18:57 EST

I find exercising very daunting. Well, I got off my butt and walked at a fast clip with my dog for 30 minutes. It actually felt pretty good. I plan on doing this everyday weather permitting!!! Small steps baby small steps!!

Tired of saying I am starting over!

Thu, 2 Aug 2012 08:29:34 EST

This weight lost journey is the hardest thing I have ever done. Giving birth, raising 2 boys to be great young men, considering leaving my marriage(for a healthier relationship) is nothing compared to trying to lose weight. Food to me is a drug. It is a fix. Very sad indeed. I have so many hurdles to overcome in order to have my weight loss a success!! Nights are the worse for me. I wish I can lock myself in a room with just water and have someone open it in the morning. It is a mind ...

your body is your temple

Fri, 30 Sep 2011 13:16:41 EST

I truly wish I took this stance years ago. Your body is your temple! I tried and failed so many times. You see, food is an addiction to me. It is like a drug. Pulls you in, gives you a small amount of satisfaction. Of course that never lasts but it feels good at the time.
Over Labor day weekend, I took myself to the emergency room. What I thought was an anxiety attack turned out to be a heart attack. I am 44 years old who would have thought a heart attack. Three days later and ...

emotional eater-day 3

Wed, 27 Jul 2011 20:37:41 EST

well, I am doing pretty good. If I am busy I can't think. Husband is on the road which has helped tremendously. It is like a relief. I actually slept throught the night. I can't remember the last time I did that!!! Felt good!! I haven't had any heartburn in 3 days. How awesome is that.
I wonder when the thinking about food will ever stop. Do you think it is the same thing as smokers, druggies, and alcoholics go through?
This is why this is so important to me. I have to...

making better choices

Tue, 26 Jul 2011 19:35:14 EST

Ok. I ate a great healthy breakfast. Took my kids to subway for lunch(had lots of errands, what is new). Now I had choices.
Choice one was getting chicken teriyaki. Healthy and low in fat. That was the best choice. After that it was down hill.
1) I got the footlong-what is up with that.
2) got the meal plan-good idea till i picked the cookies over everything else
Almost 1300 calories later. I did eat the other half of the sub for dinner. I didn't even go over...

emotional eater-day 2

Tue, 26 Jul 2011 09:49:21 EST

So, yesterday I didn't eat til 3 in the afternoon. I know I didn't eat breakfast and that is not good but I did it for a reason. I wanted to know what real hunger was. It has been so long since I had that feeling of real hunger. Now I know.
I have to keep my emotions in check. I want to eat only when hungry not when something is amiss in my life. I had two well balanced meals before bedtime. I won't starve that is for sure. Because I ate well I actually woke up hungry. Surpris...

emotional eater-day 1

Mon, 25 Jul 2011 08:37:35 EST

Well, it is the start of a new day. I will journal everything I eat and what I feel before I eat. I can't eat because I am bored, lonely, stressed, I have to eat because I am hungry and I have to nourish my body. I can't look at food for solice anymore. I will do other things to keep those cravings in check. Walk my dog, houseclean(because I love to, ok a little far fetched but an idea), my crafts, work on details to get my business off and running, etc. Wish me luck. Will check back i...

emotional eater

Mon, 25 Jul 2011 00:47:48 EST

I can't stay on track or I won't. Which one is it? I know I have to lose weight. I have high blood pressure, constant heartburn and acid reflux. I know it would be good for me. I gain and lose the same 10 pounds over and over. I feel great and empowerment when I lose the weight. Then it wears off and I eat to no end. I know my life is rather difficult now and has been for some time. That really isn't any excuse especially when your health is at stake. I find comfort in eating. The ...

exercise?

Tue, 7 Jun 2011 12:32:50 EST

OK. I know that exercise is important in everyday life. Helps you lose weight and gets you fit. I get that. My problem is stressing out because everything says you can't lose weight without exercising. I am though. Don't get me wrong, I love to exercise. I love hikes, walking, biking, and even horseback riding. My issue is time. I get up at 6 everyday. I prepare my food for the day then I am off to start work at 8. Has anyone worked in a greenhouse? I work 6 to 8 hours 5 to 6 days...

Same old story?

Wed, 1 Jun 2011 20:05:52 EST

I am back after being away for a very long time. I have maintained my weight this whole time so that is a plus I guess.

Dieting is hard, plain and simple. It is definitely a life style change. I know I can do it, it is just putting my mind to it. The only goal I kept is getting a huge heirloom vegetable garden in. That is a plus for me because I can't say there aren't any vegies around to eat.

My reasons for losing weight is for my health. I have constant heart...

computer was down

Tue, 13 Jul 2010 14:48:29 EST

I did awesome on my first week here at spark people. I didn't realize just how much I relied on all the things they have to offer here.
My computer was down the whole second week. I couldn't keep track of my food intake or my exercising. I couldn't see my progress day by day, see my calorie intake, or even the calories I lost when I exercised. It also keeps you honest with yourself. I did measure my food and wrote it down in a notebook but I didn't tally my calories. Big mistake....

first weigh in

Tue, 6 Jul 2010 08:04:42 EST

OK. I admit I was a little scared of what I was going to see on that scale. I hate that sometimes the scale rules me. From now on I will focus on how I feel when I get up, how I feel throughout the day and how I feel before I go to bed. I have more energy during the day, I sleep better at night, I feel good about myself, my body likes the fact I am eating healthy foods, and I have no heartburn any more. Love the last one the best. Living with chronic heartburn and acid reflux is awful. ...

My first week

Mon, 5 Jul 2010 14:18:37 EST

Well, I tried to stay true to myself and I did great. I did cardio every day but Sunday and I ate very healthy wholesome foods. Lots of whole grains and fruit and vegetables. My kids aren't kicking and screaming anymore either. They decided the food I have been serving isn't half bad.

I feel great, I am not tired and I have eliminated all heartburn and acid reflux problems. I can actually go to bed lying down and half sitting all night long.

Then the fourth of July ...

coming back from a 1 year vacation

Sat, 3 Jul 2010 08:56:22 EST

Well, it has been over a year since I joined Spark People but haven't done anything about it.
I am at my highest weight ever. I am not comfortable with myself! You see I am an emotional eater. I take comfort in food. I always feel miserable after the fact but the high I get eating trumped everything else.
I have a unhappy marriage, filed bankruptcy, almost lost a place to live, have trouble getting a decent job and my husband is out of work. I know everyone is going through ...