http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WHOAITSALBY WHOAITSALBY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5105599 I'm at a point in my life where I should actually be accomplishing something. It sucks. I feel like I can't even try to achieve anything because of my weight. I feel gross and un-adult and unprofessional. I know I'm just using my weight as an excuse but with my mood I can't feel rational. I would eventually like to get married but I don't even want to date while I look like this. I can't even dream about it. I'm going to end up a cat lady. I'm also unmotivated to finish college becaus... Sat, 20 Oct 2012 01:09:12 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5101983 So, I went to my first Zumba class yesterday. Needless to say, it kicked my butt. I feel like a freight train hit me. I thought it wouldn't be so bad after some stretching. Then I went to the gym today. Reluctantly. I did about 50 minutes on the elliptical and worked out my abs and upper body. I pretty much can't move. It's like an explosion of fire and cement all over my body. Any pointers or suggestions here? The pain is something I know will go away eventually. Or at least lessen.... Tue, 16 Oct 2012 23:37:20 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5084104 Have you ever been in a slump where you just don't want to lose weight and be healthy because you're still going to be fat for a really long time anyway? Yes, yes I know that eventually if I continue on the right path I won't be fat but still. I can't make myself be rational right now. What if I'm ugly when I'm skinny too? What if I still can't find a husband as a skinny and healthy human being? I know it sounds selfish but I don't really want to look skinny and healthy for my future hoar... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 17:10:00 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063690 I'm a blogging machine today. I thought I would post my Phase 1 goals. I won't move on to Phase 2 until I can get this phase into a routine. <BR> <BR> *No soda. <BR> *8 hours of sleep. <BR> *No eating 3 hours before bed <BR> *Some form of cardio for at least 10 minutes everyday <BR> *I need to write in one of my blogs at least once a week. <BR> *I need to eat a vegetable everyday. <BR> *Track calories <BR> *Cut down on fast food Mon, 17 Sep 2012 18:12:29 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063686 My friend told me that I should come up with a list of goals and reasons why I want to lose weight. It’s not as big as hers but I gave it my best shot. Here we go! <BR> <BR> 1. I want to have 400 babies. – Not actually, but I’m desperate to be a mom someday. With my size right now, I’d have a difficult time getting pregnant. As if I had a way to get pregnant. Leads me to point 2 <BR> 2. Get a husband – I know, I know. I’m not supposed to want to lose weight so I can get a man but I reall... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 18:08:35 EST http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061330 I don't even know where to begin. I'm so overwhelmed. I have so much to lose. Sun, 16 Sep 2012 09:29:45 EST