WHITNEYLD's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WHITNEYLD WHITNEYLD's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Insatiable Hunger. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6207694 I feel this animal inside today. I haven't been able to stop eating and have eaten almost all of my allotted food and calories for the day already. My problem the past few days is that I purchased some powdered sugar doughnuts for my hubby and Bella. I don't buy a lot of treats very often and I don't want to give any food issues to Bella. I have been salivating over the doughnuts now for days. I can't even eat them as I have celiac disease and can't have wheat. Is ridiculous. I have just re... Wed, 27 Jul 2016 14:38:34 EST Comedy and hypnosis. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6207337 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5d4c7f70-80ea-49ff-86b4-84ea10486fbb.jpg"> Tonight I saw a hilarious comedy act where the comedian hypnotized some of the audience and made them do stuff. I never believed it could work so well, but a friends husband was totally hypnotized and I am one hundred percent sure it was real. I always feel a lot of anxiety when I think about hypnosis. It would be nice to feel so free as to relax in front of strangers. At any rate, I had two drinks... Tue, 26 Jul 2016 23:43:48 EST Scale Standstill. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6206111 So I had lost five lbs within a week on my cleaner eating and counting calories. Now i have also been been exercising for the last five days AND continuing to track. So the day after I worked out I was up a pound. Then half pound. Then I haven't changed for 3-4 days. It feels frustrating. So yesterday I had 1700 some calories in defiance of the scale. I didn't need all of that. However, I went for two walks and burned some extra calories so I was still within range. I have been pretty spot ... Sun, 24 Jul 2016 23:46:31 EST Red Curry & Calories. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6205543 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/7f1d1314-57f8-437e-8de7-fea710108430.jpg"> I went to Columbus today to see a dear friend and my former college roommate. We had lunch at an Indian place. I ordered grilled scallops and lots of crisp steamed veg with 3/4-2/3 c brown rice. It was in a serving bowl that appeared to be one cup leveled off, and I didn't eat all of the rice. Four delicious scallops and about two cup veg. There was a thin watery sauce on it as I ordered it gluten free... Sat, 23 Jul 2016 20:25:19 EST Obese No Longer! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204949 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f64dcbaf-539b-4076-bd62-2e6d7623618b.jpg"> I don't try to dwell on certain thoughts, but to be honest, I was medically considered obese at 173 lbs just last week. I put my weight into the tracker and my BMI came down to the overweight range yesterday! Wow. It feels good. The contrast of this is that at 141 lbs, I will STILL be considered overweight for my height of 5'3. I choose to look at the positive today! I am no longer obese! I hope th... Fri, 22 Jul 2016 15:24:10 EST 7 for 7. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204571 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/32773182-2cba-4f4a-ab60-1d32adf9e880.jpg"> I visited my sister and saw my baby nephew today. He is so cute. I held him for like two hours. And played with him. Ahhh. He fell asleep in my arms. Two months old! Miss that age. In other news, I feel like I am on a cloud today. I made it through a week of cleaner eating and keeping within my ranges. Also, I have lost FIVE pounds! The past two days I have also incorporated exercise into my day. A... Thu, 21 Jul 2016 22:20:07 EST 1200 Calories. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204046 I was going to eat more today but work prevented that. I feel hungry at the moment, and no wonder! I pre-track everything the night before or morning of and change entries as needed, so when I got home from work I removed the foods I didn't eat. What a difference a couple fruits make. I feel really strong. Visiting my sister tomorrow, so hopefully I can keep things together away from home. Wed, 20 Jul 2016 22:42:41 EST What do your macro ratios look like? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6203397 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/2033e86b-38cc-4fca-aa8d-bc6d9fd78f6f.jpg"> Mine look like this lately. Sometimes Protein or fat will be over 35-40% and carbs around 30%. What do your ratios look like? Do you think they affect your satiety and success day to day? Tue, 19 Jul 2016 21:23:14 EST Five Days. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6202830 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/8d1ae6ee-d5d1-44cd-b70d-9acfa5f3e882.jpg"> I have been successfully sticking to the plan for five days now. I feel pretty good. I haven't stuck with these changes for five days in a row in a long time, which is a pretty sad fact but definitely true. I haven't been exercising much aside from work related exercise and some little bits of walking and playing with Bella, but one thing at a time. I am still off the cigarettes and not craving them ... Mon, 18 Jul 2016 21:41:24 EST Insomnia and Dieting? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201786 Does anyone else have a hard time sleeping when they are really on track? I haven't eaten this well in ages, and it's only been three days. Today is officially day four, and the insomnia has started. I often find this happens to me. Unfortunately, I always blow it soon after due to eating from tiredness. Being tired makes me snack and eat more. I am afraid to screw up again and fall off into oblivion. Ideas? Sun, 17 Jul 2016 02:29:51 EST Summer Goals. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201379 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/58ca5650-0614-4eb6-873c-d928e3fa2a31.jpg"> I have been MIA for a while now. I have checked back on my weight and it has been pretty much the same for a year now, aside from a brief loss of five lbs that I found again. First, good changes. I quit smoking two weeks ago. Seems to be a lot easier than ever before! I am happy about that. I have quit a lot, but I always started back. Now it feels like I am really done. In other news, I have over... Sat, 16 Jul 2016 09:43:33 EST New Year. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6066762 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0c2825b6-12a1-4aef-abd3-e1b93e1ff457.jpg"> Same old me. I didn't gain anything really over the holidays, but I have been holding around 168-169. I haven't exercised, but I have been working a lot and sort of eating less. I haven't lost anything though. I think I am not eating while I'm at work and then I overcompensate by eating large amounts due to feeling ravenous. I plan to go to the gym Wednesday. Hope everyone had good holidays and is ... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 13:32:46 EST NSV! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6030272 Happy Veterans Day to the veterans out there. In other news, today is the start of day four with no wine. Hasn't been done for a while now! I am waking up earlier and more refreshed. Also going to bed earlier. The past two days I have also eaten really well. I don't regret anything I've eaten this week, which is a good feeling! I went to the gym yesterday and competed the morning strength class. It was a circuit of four exercises done four times. First, I put my feet on a paper plate and g... Wed, 11 Nov 2015 07:00:57 EST Starting to find my way. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6029077 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/f5248162-f36f-422f-95a2-d1fa2a701225.jpg"> Mentally, at least. I am getting to the point where I was just asked last night when I was due. By someone at work who I haven't seen for a couple months. But I don't feel I have gained weight really in that time. I've been like 172 for a while, although I am up from the 167 I was hovering at for a long time. Five pound difference and I have been in the mid high 160s for a year. If I am honest, I hav... Mon, 9 Nov 2015 06:25:32 EST Halloween, Gaining weight and lost momentum. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023616 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d409b12d-18d0-411d-80c6-951cb15e95e1.jpg"> I missed two weeks at the gym while my husband was gone (first week missed) and then another just because. Then I only went one day for a week. Then one day again and then no days again. Now this week is gone and no days exercised. I have been eating horribly as well and have regained the six lbs I lost. I am sure. I was up to 170.5. From 167. I hadn't been in the 160s for months. I just don't know w... Fri, 30 Oct 2015 09:07:27 EST Back to the Gym. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6012209 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/8556b678-bd32-44f6-9948-9faaa31b59b4.jpg"> I was so sore after Monday's workout. I never went back to the gym this week. I didn't even feel like I could carry my own child or walk down the stairs without pain until yesterday. I still didn't workout. Also my calories have increased a lot on the tracker. It must be from the days I work out! I went back to the gym today and did 25 min of weight lifting and stuff. Triceps dips, machines, Dumbbell... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 14:25:57 EST Replacing Fattitude with a Winning Attitude! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6009688 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/7df13684-0578-4603-bf76-605d2a00d941.jpg"> I went to the gym today and caught the end of a weight lifting boot camp type class, maybe the last 20 minutes, and then decided to take a spinning class that had just started. Beginner's cycling was a misnomer for me! There were geriatric cyclists doing a much better job than me. It was so much more difficult than j thought. I wanted to walk out - and did for a minute. I got a drink out of the fountai... Mon, 5 Oct 2015 11:12:04 EST New leaf. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6005550 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/e704425f-0656-4876-9384-934086d2691c.jpg"> I weighed in today and I was 169. That is two lbs up from week before last. Last week did not go well. The county fair led to me eating some gluten and just more calories than I needed. Also it is that time of the month, so who knows what I actually weigh. I will re weigh next Monday. Today I went to the gym again and did the elliptical for 30 minutes. That doesn't sound like a lot, but I went reall... Mon, 28 Sep 2015 12:32:08 EST County Fair. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6002707 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/42a161ad-6149-4048-a25e-55304295a1d8.jpg"> We went to the fair yesterday. Bella had so much fun! She rode the carrousel twice and another ride as well. She ate a foot long hot dog in two minutes! I had a gyro and I usually go nuts for fried Swiss cheese on a stick. I got one and took two bites and gave a bit to Bella and my hubby ate the rest. Not worth it anymore with being gluten free as well as the calories. It didn't taste as good as I rem... Wed, 23 Sep 2015 11:43:01 EST Monday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6001398 This week the county fair is going on. I also work longer hours depending on how the person I help care for is doing. We will be going to the fair tomorrow and possibly another day. It will be fun for Isabella to see the sights and perhaps ride a few kiddie rides. I met my sister for lunch Saturday and she had news! She is pregnant. She is 33 and had started trying in July unbeknownst to us. I am the second person to know, the first being her hubby of course. I am excited to be an aunt! So ... Mon, 21 Sep 2015 11:31:54 EST Zoo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5998145 it was fun and exhausting! The zoo was great. Walked for about 4.5 hours. Up hills. Briskly at times and pushing a stroller! Lots of pics but I don't have any. My sister in law came with me and brought her three year old. She had the camera. Will post soon! Came home and hadn't eaten since seven am so at seven in evening I had the most delicious dinner. Ate too much but still in range. 1500 for the day and burned almost 700 with only tracking a few hours of walking instead of the whole amou... Tue, 15 Sep 2015 20:43:42 EST New week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5997520 It's a new week. Yesterday I worked at both jobs. Seven to nine am at private health job and then nine til six at the cleaning job. About five hours of actual cleaning I'd say. I tracked two hrs as exercise. Today I worked home health from four to eight. So tired. I am taking Bella to the zoo tomorrow. It will be a full day of walking. Not sure what I'll do for food but tracked my dinner I planned tomorrow. I have been eating 1200-1400 pretty much daily for a while now. At least a couple week... Mon, 14 Sep 2015 21:04:32 EST Friday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5995429 I woke up very early today. Up and out of bed by six, read for an hour in bed before that. Cleaned the house and did some laundry that I've been putting off. I feel good going to work tonight because all of this is done, even if the house is trashed by Isabella by the time I return. I made a seven layer salad last night to accompany dinner. I didn't have time for lunch or anything all day so after an early breakfast, ten hours later I was starving and ate tons of this salad. It consists of ... Fri, 11 Sep 2015 11:53:06 EST Tired. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5992649 Yesterday I cleaned for my stepdads mom from about ten until three nonstop. I was sweating so much! It's an older farmhouse and its huge. It hadn't been cleaned much at all for years when I started. I have been doing it every other weekend on Sunday. This was my third time. It is heavy duty cleaning as they have a working small farm and track in all sorts of dirty. There is so much stuff in the house too so it's a lot of moving stuff to clean under. Also they have two huge dogs. Like one is a... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 11:14:57 EST Hello, September! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5988880 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/17215194-eda2-46ba-bf8e-8e84cbc7661e.jpg"> I have had a productive day. I organized my pantry somewhat, which was a total messy disaster dumping ground of stuff. I vacuumed the house and cleaned some kitchen. Put away several loads of laundry and washed two others (don't judge me! I have been working a lot :) ). About to do some carpet shampooing on some Bella created stains. I was feeling excited about the coming fall and felt justified in c... Tue, 1 Sep 2015 14:14:02 EST New Month - September. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5988383 Tomorrow is the first day of a brand new month. Looking forward to a fresh start. I feel like I have been eating a bit less and more healthy as well. Just started a new job last Monday. I work 4-8PM Monday Wednesday and Friday. And I also worked this last Sunday and next Saturday and Sunday. So busy week this week. I am trying to earn some extra money because we have a lot of bills due this month including homeowners insurance car insurance etc for the year. Isabella turned 2 officially last ... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 21:52:27 EST August Goals & Updates. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5980813 Well, the summer is slipping away and I am still in the same spot. I am 171.5 lbs. my mom went alcohol free and has been eating much smaller portions. She hasn't weighed herself in a month and went to the doctor to check up on that. She lost 15 pounds this last month! She has never had this much success. I hope to take a page from her book. I have sort of been trying to eat a little less and I haven't continued to GAIN weight as I had been. So there's that. I did walk this morning with my mom... Wed, 19 Aug 2015 10:46:22 EST Broken Scale & Exercise! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5967235 Well, I was feeling pretty low the past couple of weeks. My scale continued to rise and I was looking at 176 last week! WOW. Mind you, I delivered my 8.3 pound baby at 186, lose 45 pounds in 3 weeks (it was almost all fluid and baby), was down to 142 or so and then gained a lot back. I recently have gained 10 pounds after hovering around 160-163 for almost a year. I was up to `171.5 or 172 when the summer challenge started. Anyway, then my scale told me about five different weights. I realiz... Mon, 27 Jul 2015 06:51:48 EST In the Clear! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5943437 I have waited the week in between lice shampooing with Bella, and we combed her hair thoroughly last night, and I have done this most every day since I found it, removed them, and shampooed and gelled her hair and combed and combed. She didn't have any still, and still no eggs, no more scratching for her, so I think we nipped it in the bud. I never had any, and neither did my husband, but the whole family treated as a precaution. UGH! So glad it seems to be over. I have sequestered us away... Thu, 11 Jun 2015 11:00:26 EST Birthday & Lice! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5941766 I had a really nice birthday. My husband and I had a lovely dinner out at a fancy restaurant for my birthday. We also did some work on our house. We painted our deck with deck over, and it looks so much nicer. Pics to come! Bella had a good weekend. Last week was somewhat horrible. I took Isabella to the play time bounce house day and when we got home, I found she had LICE! Ugh. So she isn't even two and had a horde of critters a crawling. I had my husband check me and himself and we didn'... Mon, 8 Jun 2015 12:25:25 EST Day 4 Down! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5932273 I am still on track and I am about to end day 4. I haven't stuck to healthy eating for this long in what feels like forever...it is a good feeling! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I am already down a few pounds! 21 Day Fix is working, eating wise, and I did T25 twice this week and the elliptical today. Tomorrow is a double day, so we will see how that goes! I am pledging to do at least one video of T25 and then maybe the elliptical as well. <BR> <BR> I do feel pretty hungry at times, but mostly... Thu, 21 May 2015 23:48:44 EST Day 3 & Motivated! Eating Right and Working out. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931462 I am on day 3 of my 21 day fix diet and I did t25 the past two days. I am quite sore today and intend on doing 30 min on the elliptical today in place of the workout video. I have done extra well and healthy choices for the meals the past few days. <BR> I took my measurements Monday so I will post my results from that on day 21! <BR> <BR> My mom is also doing this and ordered her set of containers and the 21 day fix videos, which should arrive tomorrow or the next day... we are going to do... Wed, 20 May 2015 14:35:27 EST 21 Day Fix. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930334 I received my 21 Day Fix by Beachbody measuring containers today and ate according to them. I also did T25 cardio today. Feeling on track! Mon, 18 May 2015 17:50:59 EST One More Week! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920998 Yesterday I went shopping for my early birthday gift from my mom, and I purchased several tops and two pairs of capris for my summer wardrobe and our mother-daughter trip next week! It is hard to believe that we leave in merely one week from today. <BR> <BR> I have been floundering a lot in regards to my eating. I need to get back on track... hoping to regain control... summer is practically here. Fri, 1 May 2015 21:06:40 EST Easter Fun! (w/ Pics!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5906281 We went to my home town for Easter, as usual. Isabella had a wonderful time. We went to my dad's house first for brunch and Isabella received an Easter basket from them. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l157072861.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/1/l516734412.jpg"> <BR> <BR> After we left my dad's, we went to the farm and house of Isabella's great-grandma... She really had fun hunting eggs, and then looking warily at the goats and chickens. ... Mon, 6 Apr 2015 09:20:24 EST Day 3 100% on Track! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904764 This is my third day with everything on track, eating healthier foods, tracking every bite, and doing at least 30 minutes on the elliptical, as well as no alcohol. I am feeling good and even though the scale hasn't moved, I know I am not gaining and it will show eventually. <BR> <BR> Ready to start the challenge and meet my 5% goal! Fri, 3 Apr 2015 11:19:25 EST April 1. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903427 I went to the grocery store yesterday and purchased some healthier foods... veggies, fruit, and some frozen smart ones meals. I also bought a case of equate ultra weight loss shakes (slimfast). I am going to try and drink one for a meal per day and eat a smart one for the other meal, and then cook for my family for dinner and try to make those healthier as well. i roasted asparagus last night and baked potatoes to accompany a grilled rib eye (thin and small, so it fit into my day). My husband... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 09:16:14 EST Spring 5% Challenge. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898844 I signed up for the challenge this spring. I think I am totally in the right mindset for it now. I haven't done a challenge since last spring. I did thirty min on the elliptical yesterday and I am about to hop on right now. I am making it a requirement for every day, and I know this will help motivate me to make healthier choices and hopefully reduce stress so I don't feel the need for the glass of wine to relax! Tue, 24 Mar 2015 13:06:27 EST Birthday Trip. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5898071 My birthday is coming up in early June, and this May is the anniversary of the trip to Geneva on the Lake with my mom last year. This year we are going to stay at the same place in the same condo and it will be just us two - bella is sitting this trip out and getting some quality time with her daddy! I am super excited - this means my first break ever for more than a few hours from Bella. I love her dearly, but toddlers are a lot of work and I am excited to be able to go to wineries and stuff... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 10:33:11 EST Gluten Free. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868142 I have been vomiting, nauseous most days, and diarrhea almost every day all day for 3 weeks now. I went to the doctor last week and had some tests done. I got my results today and I had an abnormal blood result for Celiac disease, which my dad has. <BR> <BR> They are sending me to a gastroenterologist in a few weeks to do an endoscopy and confirm the Celiac disease. I tried the gluten free pizza from Pizza Hut tonight. It wasn't bad. I don't eat much bread or pasta anyway, so i think my symp... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 19:26:33 EST Ahh, Finally Feeling 100%! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850613 I am finally totally better, felt good last night as well. I am feeling good about my choices the past two days, as well. I have eaten pretty well, tried to eat less and make better choices. Today I had Greek yogurt nonfat with blueberries, a couple strawberries, and about 10 almonds for breakfast. For lunch, I had the other "buffalito" from Buffalo Wild Wings. Essentially, a grilled chicken taco with extra lettuce and pico de gallo. I had a small portion of dinner, which was a slice of turke... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 20:55:29 EST Another Wonderful Trip to S.C. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849432 So, some of you may remember I have in-laws who live down in South Carolina, and every time we go it is horrible. My husband involuntarily committed me and Isabella to go with him down there for New Year's. We left on NYE after my hubby got off work and drove until a few before midnight. We got there around 11:30 AM the next morning after we had stopped for the night and drove a few hrs on New Year's day. The next day, however, Bella got a GI flu and puked in her sleep all night, so that was ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 11:18:36 EST Prayers Please. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836030 I have a new-found empathy for those with COPD or those on daily breathing treatments. I developed bronchitis bad almost pneumonia from the flu this week, had to go to urgent care today and got a bunch of antibiotics and steroids to take all day long. Also on breathing treatments via nebulizer 4 times a day minimum. I feel so terrible, from flu symptoms ALL OF THEM, and now this. Isabella got the flu now, and has fever of 102; I am afraid I am going to die. <BR> <BR> I am never smoking anoth... Sat, 20 Dec 2014 20:22:18 EST Isabella & Santa! (Pic) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5832356 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/6/l264931928.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It took a lot of work to get that little smile! I figured she would cry, but she was great! Sat, 13 Dec 2014 11:05:29 EST Starting Over. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831906 I am starting over, turning over a new leaf. I had a therapy session last night, which was my 5th or so. It was terrible. My therapist, if she still is, was unpleasant and said I am not committing to anything and she doesn't see me being in therapy long. WHAT?! I have been trying to get her to give me ideas on what to focus on, etc. I thought that was her job, to guide me and help me figure out what to do to manage my stress, anxiety. So that was a mess. I cried and left early. She really hur... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 11:35:40 EST I'm Here. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5820913 I just wrote a long, long blog entry and the my computer restarted! GAH! I am not going to rehash it all. The gist? I am still overweight bordering on obese, at 166. I keep seeing myself as getting bigger but the scale says the same weight. I think my muscles are gone and replaced with fat. <BR> <BR> Isabella is getting so big! She is very much a toddler. <BR> <BR> I will elaborate more later. Sat, 22 Nov 2014 00:42:20 EST Fall Photo Shoot! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5798536 We finally have Bella's one year photos and some fall family photos. So far I really like them. A friend did them, as the photographer I had tried to set things up with had some issues and couldn't do it after a couple weeks of waiting. She did a great job! We had a perfect day for it. They are taken at the golf course next to my house and some in my front yard. <BR> <BR> I guess they are too large to put on here. <BR> <BR> I haven't weighed myself in almost a month, probably. I am 166 or ... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 07:57:31 EST Waddling Through. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5789662 I am still around somewhat, just have been meandering through the doldrums at the moment. I haven't been weighing myself, but even after a lot of bad eating, I have somewhat remained the same weight. I consider that great, but I feel less and less attractive each day. I have so many chins it is ridiculous. I look at myself and don't see multiple chins sometimes, then I look again another time and I see them, or see a photo where they are always present. <BR> <BR> Bella is doing well. We are ... Tue, 30 Sep 2014 10:28:28 EST Fall has Arrived! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780245 My favorite season has commenced. It has been VERY fall-like weather. We went to the fair for a little bit yesterday, which was nice. Sunny and cool! Bella had a fit while we were there so we left after a little over an hour. She was so tired. Then, we get home and she is put for her nap and starts chatting happily up there. I bring her down, feed her a snack, and then she is ready to rock and roll for hours until bedtime! What a peculiar little angel. She must not have liked the smells and s... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 10:46:35 EST Moved in. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774807 Moved into new house. Not all unpacked. Lots to do yet. Haven't weighed in for weeks. Probably not good indication of my progress. <BR> <BR> Updates later. Sat, 6 Sep 2014 21:24:34 EST