WESTCOASTGIRL2's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WESTCOASTGIRL2 WESTCOASTGIRL2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ People are AMAZING!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5521909 I realize a whole month has gone by since I blogged last, so my apologies to those of you wondering how I'm coping.... <BR> <BR> The good news is that I am coping better now, -- much better actually. <BR> <BR> Hubby (....read EX) moved out on Sep 29th, so it's been a little while now. Overall it's been better not having him around and has allowed me time to be just with my own thoughts a lot more. However, I have still seen him plenty, and there have been issues that have come up that h... Thu, 24 Oct 2013 02:03:24 EST tiniest bit of energy today -- finally! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494442 After these past 2 blurry weeks of emotional carnage, horrible self esteem, complete lack of appetite - coupled with everything tasting of straw, a huge lump in my heart that seems to be the source of all my grief...I finally had a day where I felt a little bit better. Still low energy - but I vacummed most of the house, dragged my self to the gym and did 30 minutes on the low end of my cardio range on the elliptical -- I still sweat, and and I was moving the whole time, but I did not push m... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 01:27:17 EST Trying to numb the pain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5491630 I don't know how to write what I'm about to write.... <BR> <BR> For those of you who have read my previous blog, you will know that my husband wants to separate, and that he is actively looking for another woman. He has not moved out yet. <BR> <BR> Today, his family, my parents and I got together for a family meeting to discuss how we will handle things together in the future. We planned this yesterday. My husband didn't come home in a timely fashion yesterday evening so I couldn't tell ... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 01:52:42 EST My Husband is from Mars. I am from Venus. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485341 I began my quest to figure out what could be the root cause of my husband's and my relationship problems/failures, and came to the conclusion that everything was based on communication failure. After gleaning a few insights after some serious soul-searching and journalling I decided it was time to start reading to learn more. But I'm not an avid reader, and don't hang out with readers. I only ever read for information if I have to -- never for pleasure or even self growth. So I didn't know... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 11:59:51 EST Full of Thoughts but Feeling Empty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5484214 Since Saturday's blow when my husband told me he wanted to separate, I have been so down. <BR> <BR> Today was the first day I was able to eat more than 800 calories or so -- the heartache was so unbearable I couldn't eat. Everything tastes of straw. Of course consequently my energy level is down in the dumps, and I am just numb. <BR> <BR> I am trying to process in my head that he's leaving, that he's actively looking for someone new, how and when to tell the kids, wanting to tell my siste... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 02:21:48 EST Heartbroken http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5478930 Today my husband of 19 years told me he wants to separate. <BR> <BR> I am totally devastated right now. I've asked him to give this one more try -- this time differently -- with counseling. He has not agreed. He wants to find someone new. <BR> <BR> There's much more that he said, but I can't bear it. My stomach is turning right now. <BR> <BR> Should be pretty easy to lose weight now as it's made my appetite go to h__. <BR> Sat, 7 Sep 2013 20:25:31 EST The beginning of healing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5476292 Since I last wrote it feels like an eternity has passed. <BR> <BR> I am starting to realize there is still some strength left in me somewhere....I will be ok when this is over. <BR> <BR> I have been prescribed some antidepressants/anti anxiety med which I will start tomorrow morning. I am not happy about that, but I have to if I want to get my confidence back. I have also scheduled my first ever appointment for counseling, so I am hoping that in combination, things will start to look up re... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 00:32:31 EST Good Weight Loss, Bad General Situation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5470464 I have been diligent with my intake and daily tracking thereof --except, oddly today. I have had the great proud feeling of dropping the first 15 lbs, only to go up 3 again due to that delightful (NOT!!!) time of month. But I perservered through it and today I'm down again, and have now crossed the 16 lb loss mark. <BR> <BR> So that's all going well. <BR> <BR> But. And this is a big but: I am having big problems in my life right now, that have slowly been manifesting them for a number of ... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 01:41:41 EST First Goal attained!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5462437 Well, I did it! I'm officially 15 lbs lighter than 5 weeks ago. <BR> <BR> Not only that-- my BMI has gone down into the overweight zone from obese. <BR> <BR> I've also lost about 1 inch off my waist, and most other measurements that you can track here on spark are down near about 0.5 inch. Apparently my hips haven't changed-- but my pants tell a different story. <BR> <BR> Now, it could be that my beloved 10 year old Naot sandals are finally wearing out, but my feet (left foot especiall... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 21:41:11 EST Progress is showing :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5460571 The pants I wore yesterday I haven't worn in years (so many I can't count -- maybe 13?) -- and they were always tight. Yesterday they fit perfectly. <BR> <BR> The pants I wore today fit me well just 1 month ago -- today I needed a belt to keep them up. <BR> <BR> The belt I used today I bought back in February. I wore it in the loosest hole, and it was just a bit too snug. Today, I wore it in the second loosest hole and I had room to spare. Actually could have worn it in the 3rd hole and ... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 01:06:09 EST Reflecting on my first month back at Sparking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5458914 After a bit of a crisis realizing my marriage is in trouble, it has now been 1 month I have been tracking daily (except during our 10 day vacation). I have excercised most days. I have lost 14 pounds. I do feel better, clothes are fitting better (some I couldn't get into are fitting now) and several are becoming a bit baggy. I have more endurance now -- still can't run 2.7 km straight, but can run 2/3 and walk 1/3 -- alternating of course. Some folks are starting to notice. <BR> <BR> So ... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 13:47:47 EST Calorie Torching day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5456785 Today I had my exercise...more than I usually manage to get in several days in just a couple of hours....My kids were in swim club camp, so I hit the gym there and did the elliptical. Then I did some yoga/stretching, before I entered the pool and swam lengths for 1/2 hour. All in all, the tracker tells me I burned --- sorry ---- torched (!) 724 calories <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I will probably repeat this tomorrow as the day will set up just about the same as today did. <BR> <BR> Tha... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 03:05:12 EST Can't help but feel dissapointed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5452718 The last 10 days we were away on vacation with our trailer. We drove to our friend's house on the lake, spent 1 night, and then headed up to the mountain to a cabin where we did a lot of hiking the next 3 days. One day was a 3 hour hike, the next was a 7 hour hike, and the last was a 9 hour hike. We are talking serious terrain here....not a walk in the park...with a pack on, and at 6200-8500 feet elevation. It was beautiful, but wow -- tough!!! I of course ate more than I would have if I ... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 10:54:47 EST First day back is a success! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5425978 Walked/Ran 25 minutes this morning, then did 40 minutes on the elliptical arc trainer this evening, torching a grand total of 498 calories today -- I am so happy I did that. I even stretched properly after! <BR> <BR> My food intake was in check also : right smack dab where it should be -- and that wasn't counting the calories until the end of the day -- so pretty good for a first day back, I'd say. <BR> <BR> I am actually feeling a half size smaller already -- funny how the mind works! an... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 01:37:01 EST 2010 vs 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5424878 January 2010: I found Sparkpeople and I knew it was going to help me loose the weight I've been wanting to rid myself of. I really was proud of the 17 lbs I lost that year. <BR> <BR> A cruise near Christmas time caused a stall and an eventual tailspin of my efforts, and I went back to battling weight. <BR> <BR> So I proved that I could do it. But it took a lot of time, time that was spent in the coming years on my kids, and on aging parents, and on life in general. So, having the "gist... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 02:32:23 EST PARKING vs. CALORIES! If you want a good laugh, read on..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199847 So about 2 months ago, the hospital nearby where I work has started undergoing some new construction, eliminating some 300 or 400 precious parking spaces. These were already a 7 min walk from my office, but they were available. <BR> <BR> Then one day, as I was selling my small car (husband got a new one and I started driving the SUV because we need it for towing) I drove to work in the SUV for the very first time since this construction began. Only day ever that my radio in the car didn'... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 03:44:22 EST Getting Uncomfortable in my Skin all over again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5127989 The past few months have been really busy, and first on the neglection table is, as usual, ME. <BR> <BR> I've put on about 12 pounds since Dec 2011. That's not good: I'm starting to buy larger sizes again - though I promised myself I wouldn't do that. <BR> <BR> Excuses are a dime-a-dozen, though they're all pretty legit. But fact is, I'm feeling like a blob again. And I need to do something about it. <BR> <BR> Starting by reaffirming my dislike for what I feel like, and hoping that by w... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 01:53:32 EST OMG its been a LOOOOOOONG time since I blogged!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4731723 Welllllllll,,,,,,, <BR> <BR> Holy Cramolies---------it's been MONTHs since I've been around!!! <BR> <BR> First of all, I'd like to say, I'm still down, though a bit up, on my weight. Since my last blog, Christmass and a cruise have passed, and I weighed 7 lbs more after than before. <BR> <BR> Now, I'm back to 174, so it's heading in the right direction again. I really can't believe I haven't SPARKED for ThAAT long, but the fact is the fact. <BR> <BR> I didn't bake this year except f... Fri, 10 Feb 2012 02:18:35 EST So many positive changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4520038 There's been an awful lot going on around here lately, and I've not had time to track or blog. That, and I'm having a h-ll off a time sleeping the last 3 weeks, so things seem much worse than they are because I'm just tired. <BR> <BR> But starting when the kids went back to school at the beginning of September, I've kicked it into high(er) gear. I've been exercising 3-6 days a week, doing cardio for a minimum of 30 min each time, plus weights on at least half of those days too. If I'd... Wed, 5 Oct 2011 00:56:01 EST Waaayyyy too tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4487495 So I went for a workout this morning - just about passed out/almost fell off the elliptical 3 times before I decided it was time to quit before I hurt myself. I've only had a few hours of sleep the last 4 nights, and I'm exhausted. Couldn't believe my lack of performance on that equipment, amazing actually. <BR> <BR> So I went to the doctor because I've had on/off trouble with sleeping the last few months, mostly a week or so before my period, and around the full moon. And when I have thi... Fri, 16 Sep 2011 00:14:21 EST I DID it!.....twice!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4483858 So my last blog was about my plan to exercise, and not only did I accomplish what I set out to do, I did MORE! and boy did that feel good. <BR> <BR> Then the weekend came and went, I made a very large cruise ship cake for my sister-in-law's birthday, and while I didn't pig out on that, I did have WAY too much greasy indian food ( oh man, was it delish!) on Saturday evening. And I sure paid for it. I only slept for 3.5 hours that night, mostly due to bloatedness and heartburn from all that... Wed, 14 Sep 2011 00:51:42 EST Going for a BIG workout tomorrow... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4474809 So I'm going to start putting exercise into the routine (again) starting tomorrow morning. I'm going to the gym, and i'm going to do a 45 min cardio workout, 30 min of which will be on the elliptical, and the rest on the treadmill. Then I'm going to do some weights until I can't anymore. Yes. I'm going to push it tomorrow, because that's what I need. <BR> <em>315</em> <em>319</em> <em>344</em> <BR> <BR> For me, inactivity fosters more inactivity. And if I step it up for tomorrow, I'... Fri, 9 Sep 2011 01:28:08 EST Kickstarting ME http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4450679 Sitting down with a bit of gin, I'm facing a blank computer screen wanting to blog for the first time in forever....Yes. Yes. I know. Gin? Yes. why? Well, I've had a really tough week, due almost entirely to my monthly cycle and I am making sure I'm going to get some sleep tonight, and gin helps me do that. No. I don't drink much, nor often. And truth be told, I drink for 2 reasons only. Number 1 is for medicine - on rare occasions such as today and yesterday. Number 2 is for taste -- ... Sat, 27 Aug 2011 01:07:33 EST Change is a certainty. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4289148 Sitting down, finally, to blog after nearly 2 months, I thought about what I wanted to write and what I should entitle my entry. <BR> <BR> So much has changed again since then, and then I realized it: Change is as certain as death and taxes. <BR> <BR> There have been good changes: <BR> <BR> The weather is not as grey now as it was still in April. <BR> I have started working outside the home again -- 2 days a week --the first time in 7 years since my daughter was born. <BR> I can see m... Fri, 10 Jun 2011 00:46:04 EST Chasing my tail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4159683 I've really made myself crazy. I was on the proverbial wagon last year at this time, and feeling so proud of my accomplishments in the weight loss department. Now, I'm in it half heartedly, thinking I can do this without putting in ALL the work. <BR> <BR> Well, I'm here to tell you, if you don't give it 100%, you're not going to get 100% back. <BR> <BR> It's that simple. <BR> <BR> I've been exercising as much or probably more than I did last year at this time, and I'm not losing weig... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 01:04:35 EST Back on Track, and having a Great Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4100013 OMG -- I can't believe I've not blogged since the 22nd of Feb! Yikes! <BR> <BR> So now that we've all recovered from Wedding mayhem (Indian Wedding, close relative, 6 functions in 1 week), all having the flu (again I was first to get it, sick while I took care of the rest of the family, and last to get rid of it), I'm finally on track again. <BR> <BR> I've been watching what I'm eating, and have had very minor weight loss (hey - weight loss nonetheless!). Exercise hasn't been on my rada... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 01:27:30 EST Styrofoam and Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4038402 Today my goal will once again be to record everything I eat. I did manage to do that yesterday, but alas I went over on my calories. <BR> <BR> I've already done some strength training (I'm gonna be sore tomorrow!). <BR> <BR> Beyond that I have to try to get rid of stray bits of styrofoam in the house -- I gave my daughter a job yesterday evening -- to package up all the styrofoam packaging from a desk we bought into garbage bags, so I can take it to the local styrofoam manufacturing pla... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 12:46:47 EST One day at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4033962 I just got back from a weekend with my hubby who had to work in Victoria, so we stayed the weekend. It was nice to have a break from the kids <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> I am starting to feel ready again to take the spark up a notch....So, for tomorrow, Monday February 21: <BR> <BR> My plan is to track EVERY BITE I put into my mouth. Just tomorrow. At the end of tomorrow, I get to feel good about myself if I did track, and upset with myself if I didn't. <BR> <BR> I'm my own worst criti... Sun, 20 Feb 2011 23:57:37 EST Great workout/VERY Bad food choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4026762 I had a fabulous walk this morning with one of the moms from my kid's school -- we did LOTS of hills, up and down, up and down, huffed and puffed, then settled back to something more comfortable and went up and down another hill, then another. I got home thinking we'd maybe been away 45 minutes. I was shocked to discover it had been 90 minutes -- double what it felt like. It was great and I was pleased. <BR> <BR> Then I came home and ate. I've eaten way worse in the past (pre-Spark), b... Thu, 17 Feb 2011 23:56:42 EST Nuttin' happennin' here... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4018289 I was thinking today that I'm not blogging enough...then I realized its mostly because there's nothing worth blogging about. I'm chugging along, exercising more than what ever was normal for me in the past, and that I'm tracking. Beyond that, I'm not tracking my food -- still-- (bad girl, I am) so the weight's not coming off much. Not reaching any "woo-hoo' moments, not having any epiphanies, not having too many frustrations either, mind you, so that's good -- but hardly worth blogging abo... Mon, 14 Feb 2011 22:34:42 EST the Perfect Beverage Replacement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3982771 Whether it be wine, pop, or juice you crave, if you're thirsty and you want flavour, it's hard to just substitute water sometimes. Okay, lemon water does the trick on occasion too, but when you just want to cleanse the palate or quench your thirst with something different, you'd do well to give soda water a try. <BR> <BR> I got hooked on the idea on a trip to Europe many moons ago. They call it by different names depending on where you are, but it's basically the same thing -- of course s... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 01:41:59 EST the Profound Insight of my Daughter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3969194 So yesterday my six year old daughter pipes up out of the blue, and says: <BR> <BR> " So Mama, some time, long long ago, there was the first person alive, right? And then one day, that person had a baby, right? And then that baby grew up, and had a baby, who grew up and had a baby, and then that person grew up and had another baby, and so that just kept going and going, right?" <BR> <BR> "Yes," I said, " that's about right." <BR> <BR> Then she added: <BR> <BR> "So really, Mama, when y... Fri, 28 Jan 2011 13:24:01 EST Goin' Down! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3965936 Yay! <BR> <BR> -- I checked the scale yesterday, and didn't trust that it was really down, so this morning I tried again, and it showed half a pound lower than yesterday even!! So yes, I think it's moving again!!! <BR> <BR> -------Oh yeah ! Goin' Down!!! <BR> <BR> Though I'm still having a hard time getting back into tracking, I'm really being careful about my portions, and definetly upping the Freggie intake... <BR> <BR> -- oh, and I actually said "NO" to an offer of Ferrero Rocher... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 12:26:32 EST Reflecting on my First Year of Spark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3959561 I am looking back at the last year of Spark -- I officially began my weight loss journey on Spark a year ago (give or take 1 week) and I wrote a my first blog in the middle of the night because I was too excited to sleep, because I had suddenly realized that THIS time I was going to be able to achieve my weight loss goals, and that I now had all the tools, all the support I would ever need to get there. I knew it might take longer than I'd like, but I knew that it would work this time. <BR> ... Tue, 25 Jan 2011 12:51:40 EST Rowing with cold feet! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3944254 Strangest thing.... I was on the rowing machine again today -- started off feeling chilly before I started, and despite the fact that I worked quite hard -- I was sweating all over, my feet remained cold throughout, and still haven't warmed up. My hands just got warm at the very end (30 min later!) I don't get it. How can the blood be pumping and the feet still be cold? I don't seem to have cold feet problems the rest of the time ( I used to, but not in the last 10 years or so).....Stran... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 13:28:37 EST Shocked at how badly I've lost sight... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3935784 So I actually tracked EVERYTHING I ate today (at the end of the day all at once), feeling quite smug because: <BR> <BR> a) I remembered everything I ate (because I didn't graze all day long), <BR> <BR> b) I thought I ate way within my calorie range (I was trying to assess whether I deserved a glass of wine this evening). <BR> <BR> Now, this is the FIRST day in months that I ACTUALLY entered EVERYTHING I ate, so I was feeling pretty proud. <BR> <BR> Well, I bombed!! I was o... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 00:33:41 EST so it's PMS time again..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3931962 Funny how it goes. Some months I get PMS a day or two before Aunt Flo's arrival. Other months it's a week (that's most common for me). This month I swear I've had PMS for 2 solid weeks already, and flowing earlier than expected by almost a week (what gives?). And I can't stop eating when I've got PMS. I am trying so hard to change that, but it's almost fruitless (ha-ha--- literally too!) At least my moodiness is not bad this time, but the eating, the bloating, the not-happy-with-myself ... Sun, 16 Jan 2011 23:39:42 EST mmm.......marzipan...! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3924762 New goals for today: exercise (strength train) and stretch, drink lots of water, eat healthier snacks than yesterday, and record what goes into my mouth. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I only recorded up till lunch. Then I got furiously snackish, and raided everything-salty and sweet, and couldn't muster the guts to record it all. <BR> <BR> The good thing is that today, there are WAY fewer tempting sweet snacks in the house than there were yesterday. Why? Yesterday I couldn't flippin' say no to... Fri, 14 Jan 2011 12:38:58 EST Today's Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3921243 As soon as I finish with this blog I am going to get on the rowing machine and blast 400 calories. <BR> <BR> Then I will stretch, <BR> <BR> and then I will drink lots of water. <BR> <BR> I am going to track everything I put into my mouth. <BR> <BR> .....here I go! Thu, 13 Jan 2011 12:09:59 EST Wet Snow and Daily Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3917790 The soggy west coast has turned white. <BR> <BR> BUT, it's already melting and getting rained on and getting really yucky out there. I am undecided whether I should clear the driveway or not...I have a very small snowblower, but the snow is deep and heavy and may already be too much for the little machine to handle....I went to the chiropractor yesterday, and I'm afraid that if I shovel by hand I'll have to go straight back again.....! <BR> <BR> Well, I'm slowly eating less of the leftov... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 12:50:46 EST All clocks should be THE SAME!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3910358 So here's a short rant about one of my pet peeves -- clocks that aren't set the same! <BR> <BR> This morning I decided I needed to go to see a doctor about my ankle that feels like it's sprained (woke up on boxing day with that feeling -- PAIN). It has gotten better, but no where near normal. I found out that my favorite doctor is working at the local walk-in clinic from 10-2 today, and I need to do a lot of errands so I decided to go there right after dropping the kids off at school to pu... Mon, 10 Jan 2011 13:38:56 EST So Glad January's here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3888604 Since I'm not proud of my December, -- I gained around 5 pounds, I'm just really glad that all the goodies and sweets etc are pretty much done. I finally went on a long powerwalk again today, so I'm feeling refreshed and pumped. <BR> <BR> Today's prioritys: Getting fresh fruit and veggies into the house, logging my nutrition and exercise, and tidying. <BR> <BR> I've got my sights set. Now I just gotta DO IT! Tue, 4 Jan 2011 13:15:33 EST No scale now, but there is good change here!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3855157 So. <BR> <BR> The change: <BR> <BR> I am actually THINKING about what and how much I am eating right now (not actually making better choices all the time though) -- ie. over the Christmas time -- which seems to be all of December around here - but I'm not counting calories, nor am I going to weigh myself until this is over. I am also exercising at least 3 times a week (maybe not at max intensity, but doing something for 1/2 hour to 1 hour -- which beats what I was doing last year at th... Tue, 21 Dec 2010 02:46:15 EST I want OUT. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3800754 More than all the other "I want out's" I've got, today, I want out of my mood. <BR> <BR> I've spiraled into the WORST PMS mood today, and I hate myself for it. I started off okay this morning, and I really don't know what happened (other than hormones) -- I was home on my own most of the day, and didn't have any aggravators to speak of. <BR> <BR> Right now I'm just trying to kill time without pigging out, or letting any more of my bad mood out on my kids than I already have. <BR> <... Mon, 22 Nov 2010 22:38:42 EST Pantry Sign http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3789041 I came home from bringing my parents to the airport, followed by some shopping (that included a coffee <em>106</em> .... (and a donut <em>473</em> )..... <em>29</em> . <BR> <BR> I opened the fridge (it was lunchtime) and took out some homemade hummus (mmmmm!). Then I went to the pantry and took out some pita crisps to go along with it. <BR> <BR> Then back to the fridge for a few carrot sticks. Then back to the pantry for some pecans. Then back to the pantry for some cookies (healthy o... Tue, 16 Nov 2010 23:19:52 EST Sweating just feels good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3761853 I really worked up a good sweat on my walk today (all hills, at top speed --just short of jogging), came home and did a bunch of lower body strength training and I decided that it just really feels good to sweat! I feel so alive, really involved with ME and my body and just so tingly and energized -- despite being so pooped I couldn't do another rep. <BR> <BR> Its really a shame it's so easy to forget that great feeling if something like being sick or being exceptionally busy gets in the... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 12:47:10 EST WHY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3759435 I need a new way to inspire my kids. I need a new way to inspire me. <BR> <BR> Listening to the TED talk someone emailed me the link for, was really inspiring. What makes the difference between a good leader and someone who leads? <BR> <BR> The video is around 18 minutes long, so make sure you have time. I'm sure you'll agree it's well worth watching, as a mom, as a businessperson, and as a consumer; as yourself. <BR> <BR> http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/simon_<BR>sinek_how_great_le... Wed, 3 Nov 2010 12:48:39 EST the Spark to Willpower? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3757040 I think I just might feel that SPARK coming back on! <BR> <BR> I finally went for a 1 hour power walk today, complete with stretches afterwards, and feel soo much better than yesterday and the day before that and the day before that....(you get the picture) when I was being a 'bump on a log'. <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> And I think its because of halloween candy! I had way too much junk food on Friday, Saturday I had way too much food period, Sunday I had 2 leftover Krispy Kreme doughnuts, pl... Tue, 2 Nov 2010 13:34:51 EST All Hallow's Eve http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3752753 .....and here I am, sitting at home, waiting for the doorbell to ring to hand out candy. I was so skimpy at first -- there were SOOOOO many kids so I gave 1 piece each. Now I'm afraid I'm going to have a ton of leftovers. NOT GOOD. <BR> <BR> I only ate 2 pieces (so far?)-- [ah, where's that willpower gone???] ..... and a Krispy Kreme donut my MIL brought yesterday....and a half a glass of red wine......meanwhile my hubby is out getting fresh air and (slow) exercise taking the kids around.... Sun, 31 Oct 2010 22:10:01 EST So not happy with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3742953 What am I doing to me? This is b----s---. So I go on Vacation in summer and actually lose weight. That must've got me cocky. Then I got very, very sick with walking pneumonia so I excused the 3-4 pounds I've gained. I've been feeling better since the 1st week of October, and what have I done? NOTHING. The amount of exercise i'm talking myself into doing is a laugh. Tracking food in the tracker: good intentions, but not happening more than 3 times this month. OBVIOUSLY NOT ENOUGH!!!!!... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 00:26:14 EST