95 Gone.. 40 to go. :)

Fri, 20 Jul 2012 06:12:57 EST

I finally got up the nerve to go through my moms digital photo albums, as I always destroyed any full body picture of me at my biggest. Being only 5 pounds away from 100 lost made me curious to see some full shots of how far I've come, and give myself an idea of how far I'd like to go. So, here it is, what 95 pounds gone looks like..

Can't wait to add on the 175 pound picture.. Healthy weight range, here I come!

YAY!! Gym!!

Tue, 17 Jul 2012 09:40:06 EST

I sat down yesterday and really thought hard about my goals, and where I am right now with my fitness. While I love Betty (my bike) dearly.. I have clearly outgrown our relationship, she was a wonderful companion while it lasted though!! I am also not satisfied with the amount of strength training I do at home, and feel unsure of if what I'm doing is enough. I finally decided it was time to re budget things, get rid of a few frills I don't even use anymore since becoming a "non" couch pota...

Baby loves to run, loves to run in the rain.

Mon, 16 Jul 2012 02:03:40 EST

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It's 1:52 in the morning, I just got back from a 5 mile jog in the rain with my brother. It started to sprinkle as we left my house and my brother says, are you sure you want to go? I replied "Yep!!" We turned on our mp3 players and were off. I've always been a night owl, and a huge fan of storms and rain.. it just could not have been better. Every step made me feel more and more exhilarated. Here I am at home still grinning about how amazing and proud I feel of ...

Dear voices in my head,

Thu, 12 Jul 2012 23:06:49 EST

By now I think you should be figuring out there has been some drastic restructuring. You have all been demoted, and that much louder voice, the one that talks over you every time you start your negative chirping and junk food demands, she's the new boss. Gone are the days of eating without thought and care of what is actually in the food, or for reasons other than hunger and nourishment. There will be no more excuses for being lazy, only reasons not to be. There are several words that are n...

NOT PLUS SIZED CLOTHES!!!!

Tue, 10 Jul 2012 04:13:04 EST

Today I was visiting my parents, and I still have some old dresses in my room there. Out of curiosity I pulled out my size 16 home coming dress from 10th grade, it is literally the smallest piece of clothing I can ever remember buying, as I was my smallest that year after having a severe case of mono. It went on pretty easily, but the million dollar question, would it zip? I remembered barely being able to breathe the night I wore it to the dance, sucking in my gut and feeling like I'd burs...

Easier said than done.

Sun, 1 Jul 2012 19:17:47 EST

I have had a bit more of a rough time making myself get back up and on my bike, and back to my hikes/jogs than I thought I would. I was so stressed about not being able to do anything for two weeks, and so pumped to get back to it. Yet here I am, feeling okay enough to do some light exercise, and what have I done? You guessed it, a whole lot of nothing!! UGHH, So here I am, logging in 45 minutes of bike time, then getting OFF the computer to JUST DO IT, it's logged now, no turning back!!! ...

Dashing through the pounds,Sparking all the way!

Mon, 25 Jun 2012 13:36:37 EST

It's been a dragging two weeks for me, not being able to use one of my legs/feet has brought my exercise to a halt. I've dropped quite a few pounds during that time, but I'm so antsy and READY to get back to my hikes!! Weeks just don't feel complete without them anymore. :)

I'm really proud of my parents and brothers. They have been eating healthy for the past month or two, going on walks, and my mom is here on sparkpeople with me. YAY :) I went shopping with her and helped pi...

Back to it

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 14:56:30 EST

Well the painful gout flare up is finally over, just left with a swollen and stiff foot now. Thankfully I can walk almost normally again. It's so easy to complain about the little things that go wrong in daily life, but times like these you really see that if you have your health, you have a lot more than some. I'm going to take it easy this week, stationary bike instead of hiking/jogging. Yoga on the Wii fit instead of Biggest loser challenge on Xbox. Take care of yourselves and indulge...

A sad farewell to caffeine. Die Gout.

Sun, 17 Jun 2012 12:56:50 EST

It's always seems to be right when everything is going great that my awesome friend Gout rears its thorn covered excruciating pain causing head. I can honestly only blame myself, after going soda free for months, I bought a case of cherry coke zero, then had 2 in one day, on top of my daily iced coffee, and haven't been able to walk for four days since. I'm apparently SO lucky, gout almost NEVER effects women, and when it does, they are elderly, yet I've had it since I was about 15. I don'...

Ugh Summer Munchies.

Sun, 10 Jun 2012 17:42:01 EST

Well I'm mad at myself, for two days now I've been "not logging" my food out of laziness, and notice my grabby hand going for the snacks much more often. NOT OKAY SELF! If it goes in my mouth I will log it! RAWR!! I also didn't hit my exercise goal for the week for the first time since Feb. It's getting so hot and there are so many ticks out it's getting easier to talk myself out of hiking, also NOT okay. In fact, instead of yelling at myself here, I'm off to make today different, time to ...

50 Pounds Gone!!! Whats different?

Tue, 29 May 2012 20:19:12 EST

After a few seemingly slow dragging scale weeks.. it finally happened!! The number on that little white scale that I love to hate, and hate to love edged down to 233!!! That's fifty gone since Febuary 16th, and about 80 down from my highest weight of 310 ish!! YAY!! Only 33.1 more pounds to go to be under 200.. for the first time since about 6th grade. Crazyness.

With that in mind, what's really changed? My cl...

This summer.. stuck in the middle with you.

Thu, 17 May 2012 14:23:24 EST

I have so many memories of being excited that spring is here, and summer is just around the corner. Daydreaming about the wonderful activities I would love to do "once it was warm enough again." I've wasted so many years hiding inside my house, feeling "too fat" to do this, too worried about what I look like while doing said activity, or just plain too lazy to put forth the effort to get off my lazy butt and just do it.

On May 7th, after a sluggish week I picked up my brot...

Woot, 6 mile hike.. goodbye 1660 calories.

Mon, 7 May 2012 12:13:30 EST

I'm proud of myself today, I have been a little bummed that I slacked off so bad last week. Today I picked my brother up at 7:30 AM to go do our usual 3ish mile walk, and instead drove to a nearby National Park.. and did a six mile hike, jogging all of the "flat terrain" parts. My legs are sore, my feet are screaming but I'm so happy. I am currently standing at the weight I always "give up" at.. that magic number that feels a bit more comfortable than when I'm larger, and I always fall bac...

Have to get back on the bike... TGIF

Fri, 4 May 2012 08:58:57 EST

Well, a giant case of the lazy has hit me this week, I usually take 2 days per week off from cardio.. and I've only put in one 90 minute day this week. I've still done good with my food, so I'm not hugely stressing out, maybe it's even good that I let my body rest for a while. However, it is time to get back on that bike!! Can't let this become a habit!! Here's to getting back to it. Happy Friday everyone!

Proud

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 00:24:10 EST

After a week of semi high stress and a very rough day where I wanted to binge eat so badly for the first time in over two months, I've come out fighting, and on top!! I didn't do it, I didn't indulge and eat everything in my kitchen, or go to get nasty greasy fast food like my brain kept screaming at me to. It's so strange to think of how intense those feelings and cravings are when they hit, because right now all those foods sound just plain nasty! I guess food really can be some peoples d...

21.5 Inches!!

Tue, 17 Apr 2012 20:48:45 EST

I've been doing a good job keeping my brave face on while watching the scale drop 5 lbs one week then seeing it go back up the next. I log every bit of food I eat, and all of my exercise, and I know it's most likely my 10% plateau, or muscles from my new strength training routine. However, I have to admit weigh in today produced a semi pouty face when my weight stayed the same again. Luckily I remembered a great article I read on here a while back suggesting to measure in inches, not just w...

Why?

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 18:57:32 EST

I find myself thinking of the version of me I was just a few months ago.. waking up each day, (afternoon) wondering "why me," "why try anymore," "why should I care," "why is everything so hard, all of the time" (Insert crying baby sounds here.) 269

I guess I've always known that perspective is everything, and when you paint your world black and white and refuse to open any windows it's really hard to see the vibrant colors of life all around you. So self.. here's some ...

Vacation helped my plateau!

Tue, 10 Apr 2012 14:48:02 EST

Hope everyone had a very happy Easter! My hubby's bday fell on Easter this year, and I surprised him with two nights in Virginia Beach.. I have to admit I was a little worried what a mini vacation would do to the scale, as we ate out lunch and dinner both days. I am proud of myself though, I made good choices like.. half a sandwich and soup, or grilled entree's. I had fries, omg, I love fries, potatoes are total...

Root of the problem.

Thu, 5 Apr 2012 17:55:59 EST

My teeth hate me! I have to have a root canal, the tooth is infected and has given me a sinus infection, and the inability to sleep for the past 3 days. I powered through my workouts until yesterday. The vicodin and anti-biotics just knocked me on my behind, thankfully I went to sleep early and got some very needed rest.

I'm doing really well in regards to eating, no huge cravings, or binge eating habits have reared their nasty heads in the past month and a half, that is a recor...

At least 10 Miles, 5 times a week. CHECK!

Mon, 2 Apr 2012 05:56:23 EST

At the beginning of March I purchased a recumbent bike off of Craigslist. I challenged myself to do a minimum of 10 miles five days a week on it, and I DID it! I averaged between 11 and 15 miles every week. To welcome in April, and to up the ante so to speak, my new goal is a minimum of 15 miles, 5 days a week, and three days of weight training.

I am going on vacation at the end of June, and I reallllly hope to drop a few sizes up top by then, but if not, I'm still looking for...

Resistance Bands 1 - Me 0

Thu, 29 Mar 2012 22:09:50 EST

Yesterday I decided to buy resistance bands, as I've been doing great with my cardio, but my strength training has been sparse at best. I warmed up, found Coach Nicole's 20 minute resistance band workout, and finished up feeling super proud of myself. Today though my shoulders and neck are on fiiiiree, not burning muscles stiff soreness type pain, it's more if you turn your head or lift your arm be prepared to cry pain. Ugh!! I think I'll let my upper body rest a few days and stick to the ...

Spring into Healing.

Wed, 28 Mar 2012 18:00:06 EST

I have been putting a lot of thought into the things I am grateful for these days, after the late term loss of my pregnancy last year my friends, family, and husband saw me through the darkest days of my 30 years on this planet. In the months following I became the worst version of myself, lost in my own head and grief, letting my weight, and life spin out of control with no apparent clue where the brakes were.

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State of mind over matter.

Tue, 20 Mar 2012 04:29:57 EST

I know it is a commonly used statement, however this time "feels" different. Maybe I've grown up a little bit finally now that I've hit the big 30. Or perhaps I am just finally really ready to understand that this isn't a diet, it's how I need to live day to day to be healthy. The goals aren't as small and superficial as fitting into a smaller jean size or finally having that bikini body, it's about so much more. Here are a few things SparkPeople has helped drill into my thick skull.
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Good to be alive!

Mon, 12 Mar 2012 00:23:04 EST

It's been a good week to be alive, flowers are blooming, zucchini was on sale.. My hubby had one of those rare coveted weekends off and it was beautiful today, nearly 70 degrees, so we grilled veggies and had a nice dinner with my brothers. -=) I'm seeing changes in myself already, my house is clean daily, not .. when it looks so bad I can't stand it anymore and clean. I've also been very good about logging all my food, and wake up thinking "Wooo what healthy breakfast should I invent toda...

Craigslist, today you are my bff.

Mon, 5 Mar 2012 03:35:42 EST

Yay! I have been looking for a recumbent bike that I can afford for a few weeks on CL, it's difficult for me to use the standing bikes due to lower back problems.. and I finally found one, in almost brand new condition for 60$.. retails about 180. Go craigslist! :) I have named her Betty, and I think I shall ride her to the moon! Or at least until she falls apart. ;) *cross fingers she doesn't.*

Heart Gladware containers.

Sat, 3 Mar 2012 21:38:08 EST

I've been on a roll this past few week, logging all my food and water, making up delicious new recipes. I hope the nostalgia of the honeymoon phase lasts a while, I like having fun with my healthy choices! In other news eating right has been good for everything around me, my house is clean, my wii fit has been dusted off and is in use again, and my mood overall is a million times better.

I think my Glad ware containers are among my favorite possessions these days, I like buying ...

Stares @ Stairs.

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 16:21:35 EST

I really miss my gym membership right now, something about climbing the stairs over and over for twenty minutes just isn't as enjoyable as a stationary machine and zoning out to my music! LOL Perhaps it's time to trust myself to keep making good choices with my food and myself and re-instate my membership, I really do miss that elated feeling after an amazing workout.

I made my first quiche last night after browsing recipe books and sites smashing a few recipes together and editin...

GHOST BUSTERS!!

Tue, 28 Feb 2012 01:23:41 EST

So, ya know those backpack style gas powered leaf blowers? I used one of those for the first time today, the first 30 minutes were made up of me giggling hysterically and singing the Ghost Busters theme song, then I continued on for another two and a half hours.. whew! The yard looks much better and my body is letting me know it can feel it! Win/Win!

I haven't been the best about logging my food thus far, I've done a few full days, then others I just get busy and forget. That make...

A new day..

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 15:19:15 EST

I've been MIA for about a year now, I lost a baby at 7 months along due to a random illness I caught last July. It was a slow climb back to the point where I was physically and emotionally ready to care about and for myself again, but this life is mine to live, and I've spent long enough locked inside using food to make myself feel better, and hiding from the world. I'm excited to pick up where I left off and start achieving my goals once again! It's a great feeling I've missed a lot!

Making time.

Wed, 8 Dec 2010 10:43:23 EST

I haven't logged my food in a few days, or been to the gym in 3!! I'm pretty disappointed with myself, cause I know I could have found time. Total home remodeling is exhausting, but my goal for today is to log all my food AND still go to the gym for at least 30 minutes when we're done working for the day.

I finally caved and had fast food yesterday, Grilled Chicken Sandwich from Wendy's.. oh and I totally got the fries with it.. small sized. I HAD to try them, all these ad's fo...

Turns out..

Fri, 3 Dec 2010 18:55:00 EST

I went to the doctor to see what was going on, (see my last blog) and got blood work done. However she seemed to feel that I haven't been getting enough fat in my diet.. (yay for being able to just print out what I eat every day!) Also that I should not drink the sugar free energy drink "spike" right before working out, and that I was "asking for a heart attack." Oh my! Wont be drinking those anymore.

I'm slowly developing a love/hate relationship with my wii fit.. the love ha...

Any idea why?

Wed, 1 Dec 2010 20:40:50 EST

This is myyy December, this is my time of the year.. I love December, and I love that song! (by Linkin Park)

I think I will take a break from the gym tonight, I'm unsure of what's going on with me. It usually takes between 10 and 20 minutes on the stationary bike to get my heart rate up to cardio level then it evens out and stays there till I'm done. Two nights ago when I hit the 50 minute mark my heart rate went up into the "danger" level, and I felt really sick and dizzy. La...

Today I let the world know..

Wed, 1 Dec 2010 04:14:03 EST

Or at least my small world of facebook.. I was very hesitant to let anyone but all of you here and the very closest people to me know about my life change, and where I am in my journey through it, but I thought my 6 week mark was a good a day as any! Since I'm exhausted my blog today is just a copy of my facebook post. :)

Six Weeks...

Doesn't sound like much time does it? Goes by in a flash, just blur of days in the rear-view mirror of life. 6 Weeks ago today, on Oc...

Dentist soooon.. noooo!

Mon, 29 Nov 2010 20:44:54 EST

I floss every day, I brush a minimum of twice a day.. yet I think I have a cavity. UGH! The positive side, pain in the mouth makes eating a little less fun.. (haha don't mind my weird humor, it's one of those days!) I guess that means I'll be going to the dentist this week. I'm not afraid to go, it's just always so awkward and uncomforable for me .. sitting there mouth wide open while my Dentist tries to make small talk, and my "unnngh wahhh" replies.. then the sound drills make.. EEEK! ...

A slice of happy.

Sun, 28 Nov 2010 15:53:34 EST

A week ago I posted the blog entry "Gobble less, do more?" which told how my brother and I surprised my parents by cleaning and decorating their house for Christmas. It has been an eventful week since, turns out they were so pleased with how nice the house looks they ordered hard wood flooring to replace all of their 20+ year old carpets! Also awesome - they ordered extra for my house, the bedroom and living room! (Yay! I love living next door to them and getting spoiled!) Hehe! The past t...

Coyote Hungry.

Sat, 27 Nov 2010 02:37:29 EST

So I woke up today wanting to gnaw my own hands off out of Thanksgiving guilt. I had 2 rolls.. sweet AND mashed potatoes.. nothing had butter, and I only had small portions other than the rolls, I also passed on the pie and made light apple tarts instead... but they're only light if you don't eat 5 of them!! (yeah, i did! :( ) /sigh
On a better note I did force myself to hit the gym and burn 700 calories.. yes, after my turkey induced coma.. I guess all in all I didn't do too bad,...

Gobble less, Do more?

Mon, 22 Nov 2010 16:00:07 EST

Yesterday was fun! I live next door to my parents and they had gone out of town for the weekend. I convinced my brother to spend the day deep cleaning their house including steam cleaning the carpets and putting up all their holiday decorations. My parents absolutely adore the holidays, there is garland for every room, lacey and glittery table cloths for every table, and so many little trinkets and keepsakes from through the years. Since my mom started working full time outside of the ho...

Portabella's are awesome, so is losing 10%!

Thu, 18 Nov 2010 15:19:21 EST

Mmm I just had a tasty portabella and cheese egg white omelet! I love portabella mushrooms, so tasty and filling and not bad for you! :) Yesterday was crazy, my hubby got his Christmas bonus, and we have been waiting years to get our first HDTV, just not willing to spend > 1,000 on one the size we prefer. We found a 46" on sale at best buy with great ratings, so I went to pick it up. Two hours later the employees found the 4 they had in stock and I paid. Well long story short it wouldn't ...

:(

Sun, 14 Nov 2010 00:07:36 EST

Oh my, what a strange night..

I am a private caregiver for elderly patients, as is my mother. Her patient for the past 3 years was very ill and in need of round the clock care. Being between jobs I was taking the overnight shift starting tonight. I walked in to meet the family and start work, to find out he had literally just passed away 30 seconds before I walked in the door. I'm so sad for his family and my mom. I know he was a very loved man and hearts are aching tonight.

2 days, 11 miles, 21 pounds.

Thu, 11 Nov 2010 16:59:11 EST

So much for waiting till Saturday to go hiking, I went yesterday with my brother, we did the 5.5 mile trail. I loved it so much I went back today with my hubby and did it again! Oh boy are my thighs sore! I got the thought somewhere along the walk though.. A month ago I was wishing I were the type of person who just gets up and goes on a day hike.. and now, I am that person! Funny what a little determination can do! ...

Weigh in tomorrow, pix tonight, hiking this Saturday!

Wed, 10 Nov 2010 00:12:12 EST

I'm still here and kicking, today has been slow, I made some yummy spring roll wraps with a stir-fry twist.. They're all packed up for lunches this week. I'm noticing the good food habits are coming easily, and it's fun to cook with so many fresh veggies all the time.. My inner foodie is pleased! Hopefully the scale is pleased tomorrow as well, as it is time for the week 3 weigh in.

WENNII's SparkPeople Blog

I QUIT!!! (;Smoking that is;)

Happy Spring!!

5 pounds, 8 days, Beach Bound CRUNCH!! AHHH!

To gain, or not to gain.. that is the question.

Gym's aren't for crying.. or are they?

6 months!!

HEY YOU, YEAH YOU, (ME)

My oh mile.