WAYSOFGRACE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WAYSOFGRACE WAYSOFGRACE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ The big move http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5788253 Know what's great about moving your home? You get to move your body! Downside to moving (aside from unpacking and trying to find everything)? You moved muscles you haven't moved in a while. Sore does not begin to describe how I feel right now. <BR> <BR> We unloaded the storage unit completely yesterday. In two trips. With 2 mini vans, a small pickup truck, a full sized pick up truck with a trailer, an SUV and a small car. I am talking about a 10 x 20 space that was stuffed to the ce... Sun, 28 Sep 2014 07:40:20 EST Sign of a good amount of exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787747 How do I know I got some good exercise in yesterday? I slept like the dead. I mean, I hit the pillow, slept 9 hours, and woke up in the same position I was in when I fell asleep. THAT is some good sleep! My body shut down, recovered what it needed to, and I get to do it all again today! <BR> <BR> We ran into some snafu's yesterday with the internet hookup (they didn't show up), but it will all be sorted out on Sunday, and I got a free month out of the deal! I'm not complaining! <BR> <B... Sat, 27 Sep 2014 07:13:01 EST Just Do It! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787183 I was reading a Sparkmail from Maryannquest this morning, and those three words struck me to the core. <BR> <BR> JUST DO IT <BR> <BR> I thought about this, and realized just how many times I tell myself this phrase. I will tell myself this every morning when I have to get up for work. I tell myself this when I have a task that I would rather put off, like vacuuming my car. All those times I'd rather put off doing something until tomorrow, I tell myself JUST DO IT and get it over with. ... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 07:10:41 EST Coming soon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5784560 This is the week of our move. We get the keys to the rental unit on Friday, and there is so much to do! <BR> <BR> The new washer and dryer are being delivered on Friday, and the internet connection is also going to be installed that day. Plex and I have discovered that we will need to take the day off from work to move bins out of the storage unit in order for the furniture to be moved on Saturday morning. We have a small window in which to get this done, as his brother is the one helping... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 07:48:21 EST I can http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780790 "When you catch yourself saying "I can't" what you believe will manifest, but fortunately the opposite is also true, when you believe in yourself and are determined positive goals will manifest for you as well. Take your energy and consciously direct it towards positive thoughts and actions at this time and you will get a lot accomplished! " - Christin <BR> <BR> I wholeheartedly believe in this. This journey with Sparkpeople that has me at a 70 pound loss right now has been amazing, and whe... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 07:25:49 EST Words of Wisdom - Temperance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777064 To me, temperance is finding balance, moderation, being on "an even keel" emotionally so that I learn to act and not merely react to my circumstances/emotions. Right now I need to find balance in my life. I don't want to do anything hasty at this time, or I may end up regretting it. Do I need to step back for a bit before taking action? Moderation, harmony, and balance are the keys to success. Why do I need this right now? <BR> <BR> The answer to that question is many layered. First off,... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 07:38:16 EST Celebrating the little things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5774777 I discovered an NSV today. I can put my jeans on without unbuttoning them and without unzipping them. I need a belt to hold them up! I am LOVING this feeling. I love it almost as much as realizing that I have lost 70 pounds. I am below 250 pounds, which I didn't think I would get to for quite some time. I did this. I made positive changes, and I made it work for me! <BR> <BR> It's been decades since I was this small, and I am on my way to being smaller, and healthier! If I can do thi... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 20:50:23 EST Top signs I should have stayed home today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5773149 After a restless night full of extremely bizarre dreams, I got up this morning feeling blah. Of course the only time I actually entertain the idea of staying home from work is when I am EXTREMELY ill, so the thought didn't enter my mind. <BR> <BR> While getting ready for work, I was pulling clothes out of the closet and placing it on the bed. Now Plex is still sleeping, so I try to do this as quietly as possible. He proceeded to kick my clothes off the bed and on to the floor. Thanks Ple... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 07:57:58 EST Words of Wisdom - Mind over Matter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771680 "The sun represents the ultimate power in its purest form. It is the sun's energy that gives life to all creation. You are also an energy source. The mind is a powerful creative force. Do you like what you've been creating? Never underestimate the power of your mind to shape your experiences - for better or worse. What you believe will become a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you believe you are "unlucky" or destined to fail or be hurt etc. that is the reality you will help to manifest. I... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 08:00:44 EST September is a Challenge Month for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5771129 I'm doing not one, but THREE challenges this month! <BR> <BR> I've joined the 5% Fall Challenge, as I enjoyed the summer challenge very much and it was definitely a motivator for me to not want to let my team down! I've also gotten back to using my Wii Fit Plus, so I have joined the September Challenge there. I'm also doing the water thing, so why not? <BR> <BR> I have renewed vigor, energy, whatever you want to call it. I also realized that the scale at the urgent care was WAY off! Whe... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 11:57:49 EST Words of Wisdom - Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769801 "Do your current goals truly serve your highest good? Are you pursuing paths in life that challenge you to grow and reach your potential? Have you been procrastinating or not pushing yourself hard enough? If so take some time to set some clear, concise (but reachable) positive goals for yourself and work on developing them as new habits. Remember the fine line between self-discipline and punishment. Discipline is positive and motivating, it inspires you to grow and reach further. Punishment i... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 08:34:10 EST Words of Wisdom - Positivity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769197 "When you catch yourself saying "I can't" what you believe will manifest, but fortunately the opposite is also true, when you believe in yourself and are determined positive goals will manifest for you as well. Take your energy and consciously direct it towards positive thoughts and actions at this time and you will get a lot accomplished!" Christin <BR> <BR> Oh yes...I completely believe this! I went from being a positive teenager, to a negative young adult, and now to a positive middle a... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 07:31:48 EST Words of Wisdom - Transformations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767879 "Rather than doom and gloom, think endings and transformation. Open yourself up to new opportunities for growth in new directions that could not have happened otherwise. When a caterpillar "dies" it transforms into a butterfly. This process involves some struggle - but it's struggle with a purpose. Without this "fight" to break free from the confines of the cocoon, the newly formed butterfly can't strengthen its wings. Now is a time to look at ways you may need so that you can find new purpos... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 07:44:45 EST Words of Wisdom - Discipline http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5767154 "We need to be responsible for our actions and to use discipline and positive reinforcement to reach our higher goals. You should put yourself on notice to be more pro-active. Do your current goals truly serve your highest good? Are you pursuing paths in life that challenge you to grow and reach your potential? Have you been procrastinating or not pushing yourself hard enough? If so take some time to set some clear, concise (but reachable) positive goals for yourself and work on developing th... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 07:32:28 EST Words of Wisdom - Justice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765392 "This is a reminder of fairness, objectivity, weighing all sides of a story before taking action or jumping to conclusions. It's balance and compromise. We need to take action in positive ways that benefit all involved - not just yourself. <BR> <BR> Justice also means learning to be disciplined (positive and uplifting) as opposed to punishing yourself (demoralizing and demeaning). Many do not recognize when they cross this fine line. If you are disciplined you will feel inspired and mot... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 09:21:13 EST Words of Wisdom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764802 Remember your personal power. We can't always control external circumstances - but we are always in control of the thoughts, attitudes, beliefs, and behaviors we choose to engage in. We have the choice to remain calm in the face of uncertainty. When we worry or stress, trying to force solutions or control others/circumstances etc., it only serves to heighten anxiety and frustration. It can be easy when circumstances are challenging to throw in the towel or use them as an excuse, but that ... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 09:24:11 EST It may seem http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764752 I have a ton of luck...most of it not the kind people want, and that's ok. If' I'm getting it, then people I love and care about aren't, right? :-) <BR> <BR> The medication is working. HUZZAH!! <em>244</em> <em>236</em> I will weigh tomorrow and find out just how much of this fluid is already gone! Last night I only had to get up once, which is a good thing! <BR> <BR> Plex's van that he uses for his work broke down last night, so Boo and I went to rescue him. Timing belt or tr... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 08:03:36 EST Didn't see THAT coming http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5764072 Monday was the day from heck. First we find out we didn't get the house we applied for. Heartbreaking, but the least of my worries. Next, Plex got a flat tire on the highway. Luckily we had road hazard warranties on it, so it didn't cost much. Then my daughter gets sideswiped when coming home from her friend's house. It's only a scratch on the side of her car, but it made her nervous. Then someone stole 2 hubcaps off her car. I'm telling you, I can't make this stuff up. Then it was ... Thu, 21 Aug 2014 07:50:36 EST You've got to move it to lose it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759426 I was travelling towards the end of last week and the beginning of this one. I enjoyed myself immensely at the stitchy weekend with the ladies. I ate well, didn't over do it, but I can't seem to shake the feeling of tiredness that accompanies travelling. I've been home 3 days and I STILL am exhausted come morning. I suppose sitting in an audit for my first two days back didn't help. I couldn't just get up and move like I wanted to. This audit literally left me feeling mentally exhausted... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 07:51:47 EST Go with it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5758734 I have been very quiet in my blogging recently. I've been house hunting, and I took a 5 day trip back north to have a weekend with my lady friends doing nothing but relaxing, cross stitching (we're all stitchers) and just generally trying to get back to a sense of normalcy. It was what I needed. <BR> <BR> I've been home going on two days now, and I am STILL exhausted from the trip. I slept well while I was there, I ate healthier than ever, I drank plenty of water, so why am I so darned ti... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 07:40:06 EST And life moves on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746178 I've been getting work early all week, which isn't a bad thing. I've been able to try to focus on the harder to answer problems during the hour it's quiet in my office. I love it when it's quiet! I made some important discoveries in these quiet moments, and I am looking at things from a whole new perspective. <BR> <BR> Home life is slightly improved at the moment, but I haven't changed my mind on moving. It's time, and that's that. Worked on a couple of interesting projects sewing last ... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 07:39:14 EST Why it's ok to not be perfect http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744726 Perfection is a very subjective state. My idea of perfect is not the same as yours, or your neighbor, or your family members. So why to we keep striving for perfection when it cannot be defined? <BR> <BR> I will be the first person to tell you I am NOT perfect. I am not even close to my own idea of perfection, and that's ok. I am a person, which means I am a work in progress. I am changing, every day, for better or even for worse. It's still ok. So long as I am learning something alon... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 07:44:59 EST I am not what she says I am http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743998 Long story short, Plex and I are looking for a home of our own that can be rented with a move in date of August 1. <BR> <BR> My MIL called me a "lazy, unappreciative pig" who's cooking "isn't fit for the dog". This is because we bought televisions for the bedrooms that my daughter and us have been using, at my MIL's suggestion. We didn't stop in the family room to say "Look what we bought", so now we are taking over her entire house according to her and she will not tolerate it. <BR> <BR>... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 08:08:55 EST Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5736525 In these early morning hours, I like to have a quite cup of coffee (yes, I still drink it and yes I still love it), and think. I don't think of anything in particular. I just go with whatever pops into my head. It's my time to evaluate, plan, dream. No one disturbs me. There's no one urgently calling me away from my tasks to deal with the latest crisis. It's me time, and I take it every day with pleasure. <BR> <BR> Just as important as a healthy body is a healthy mind. To be at peace ... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 08:00:28 EST I'm in a mood....and it's not what you think http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735139 You've seen it before...I say I'm ina mood and it's usually not a good one. Not today! Yes, I'm in a mood, but it's the mood to be HEALTHIER! Yeah baby!! <BR> <BR> I love waking up with energy! This means I got a minimum of 7 hours of sleep. Last night was the first night in a long time it was uninterrupted by bathroom breaks, LOL. All the increased water has to be processed, and it's been in the middle of the night it seems. The fact that I slept all night tells me that I'm on track... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 08:08:25 EST As it comes together http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734358 Anytime I've started a diet, I've been gungho at the beginning, and steadily lost steam until I forget I'm supposed to be doing something about my weight. I would never really see any true loss, sometimes I'd gain, but I never felt good or healthy. This is different. <BR> <BR> I've taken off 52 pounds, and for the most part have kept it off. It came off the same way it got on me....a little at a time. It's taken me 18 months to lose it. That's ok. I did lose steam with this program, li... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 08:16:17 EST Sometimes they mean well http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728247 We all have them in our lives. You know them. They are the people who TELL you that you need to lose weight, Encourage you to exercise, then FEED you all the wrong kinds of things. Ugh! <BR> <BR> It would be easy to sit here and tell you to just say no and stick to your guns. Actually DOING that is an entirely different animal though. I know first hand how hard that is! <BR> <BR> I live with someone who has successfully lost and kept off weight. She's the kind of person who believes i... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 09:48:57 EST Don't let the world knock you down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5726924 There are so many different diet programs out there, and even more people who will tell you what you are doing wrong without offering solid support to what you should be doing. So how do you debunk all the myth and get to the truth? <BR> <BR> I'm not a fad diet person, and never was. I remember growing up with the grapefruit diet, the chicken diet, the nothing but veggies diet all going on around me. None of it interested me in the slightest. As a teenager I didn't see myself as overweig... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 08:15:41 EST Rockin and Rollin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724272 I love having fun! Good old fashioned fun...the kind that makes you laugh and say "I haven't done THAT in years!", and the kind that brings back memories of good times. Yeah, that's the kind of fun I like to have. I'm 48 years old now, and my childhood fun days are over......or are they? <BR> <BR> As a kid, you couldn't keep me in the house on a nice day unless I was sick...and I'm talking feverish kind of sick. I'd be out there playing cops and robbers, cowboys and indians, football, ta... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 16:04:58 EST And now I'm even older http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5720424 This past weekend Plex and I did the whirlwind tour of RI, CT and MA! Depsite the fact that we were not there for very long, we in fact did ALOT! <BR> <BR> We visited with our son in CT. He's an inch shorther than Plex who is 6'3", and he's only 15! He'll be turning 16 next month, and I have to say I am so impressed with the man he is becoming. He is autistic, and brilliant in my eyes! He loves to build things, and I know he can be a brilliant designer! He conversational skills are com... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 08:16:14 EST What a week so far! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5715514 It's been busy busy busy at work, and I am loving every second of it! I love having things that keep my mind occupied while I am learning new things! This job is still wonderful to me! Yeah! <BR> <BR> Loving my job makes it that much easier to be motivated to take care of myself too. I am not dead exhausted when I get home most days, and since we are dog sitting this week for my BIL, it's a good thing! Max is a wonderful dog....black lab who thinks he's a puppy, not to mention a lap dog... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 08:00:56 EST Keep on keeping on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5712734 This week was a bit off. That's the best way I can describe it. I was OFF. I didn't feel sick, but I didn't feel energized either. No other way to put it. So how does a person deal with just feeling blah? <BR> <BR> I did what I always do. I got up every morning and I went to work. I did my job to the best of my ability, and made great progress on my project. I ate healthy meals, and tried my hardest to not just crawl into bed when I got home. <BR> <BR> I ate healthy meals. I made a... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 12:09:28 EST Weekend update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5702068 What a week! <BR> <BR> I have so much energy! I am loving my job! Yesterday during a manager's meeting within our group my immediate boss told the director I was the best thing to happen to them! I've done more work in the last two week than the previous compliance specialist did in six months! And here I am thinking I could be doing more! Holy moly! I apparently did so well this week, and yesterday in particular, that my boss let me leave a half hour early for the long weekend! <BR> ... Sat, 24 May 2014 11:05:44 EST Music makes it fun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700540 Music is a huge part of my life and always has been. I don't have a particular genre that I absolutely love either. All genres have something to offer me. I like to joke and say you can tell how I am feeling by what I am listening to, but honestly it's the truth. <BR> <BR> For me, I find exercise is more fun and I am far more energetic if I am listening to upbeat music. I also find that when I am tired, if I listen to something upbeat I gain more energy. It's a formula that works for me... Thu, 22 May 2014 08:00:30 EST Stepping it up a notch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5699771 So I have returned to wearing my pedometer during the day, and boy I have I stepped it up....literally! <BR> <BR> I used to take between 4000 and 5000 steps a day, and felt like 10000 steps in a day was just impossible. Right now, I don't see it as impossible anymore. Just this week alone I have logged over 7000 steps on Monday, and 8604 yesterday. Today I am shooting to hit that 9000 mark. I know I can do it! <BR> <BR> It has a price though. My knees have been killing me. I'm not sur... Wed, 21 May 2014 08:00:13 EST Routine is good for this soul http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5694645 All those months out of work really took it's toll on me. I am a creature of habit, to be sure. I WANT and NEED to get up and go to work! Sounds weird, doesn't it? Here's why routine is good for this soul. <BR> <BR> 1) I had never been out of work as long as I was in my adult life. I got into the routine of getting up, eating breakfast, checking in on SP, heading to work and making a conscious effort to get in as may steps as I possibly could. When I was out of work, I did SOME of tho... Wed, 14 May 2014 06:48:53 EST Happy Mother's Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5692729 To all the ladies out there, and the men who have taken on the role, Happiest of Mother's Day to you all! <BR> <BR> I had a discussion with a friend this morning about mother's day. She recently had a hysterectomy, and has never had children. Today she was being a Debby Downer (my goodness there are lot of these people in my life!) and saying how this was a hateful holiday to be reminding those who can't have kids of what they are missing out on. <BR> <BR> Needless to say, I nipped THAT ... Sun, 11 May 2014 16:50:03 EST Mom always said.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5691826 "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all." It's a very simple concept, but one that seems to have disappeared from this world. <BR> <BR> With my starting to work on Monday morning, my daughter needed a car of her own immediately. She hadn't saved any money for it yet, as she just started working herself. So her grandmother and great grandmother decided to help her out. Instead of a bank loan, they loaned her the money. A repayment plan has been established, and all ar... Sat, 10 May 2014 10:05:24 EST Couldn't be happier http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5689724 This week is going to be a good week, I just know it! <BR> <BR> I found out yesterday that the job I interviewed for last week is mine! Huzzah! 5 months out of work is long enough for this extremely hard working lady, let me tell you! I start Monday morning, and while the money is not what I was making up north, to be honest it's in my wheelhouse of livable wage. <BR> <BR> My daughter, Boo, is also working again. She's working for a fast food place, but luckily it's not a food she's ter... Wed, 7 May 2014 11:21:16 EST Really? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671805 I use my mother-in-law's scale this morning, since mine is somewhere in the storage unit. According to her scale, I have lost 12 pound since March 30th. Really? Is this true? <BR> <BR> I know my clothes are fitting better. I have had more energy. I've walked...ALOT. I've watched my diet carefully because of my blood sugars. Is it possible that I actually lost that much, or is her scale just that wacky? <BR> <BR> I'll take the measurement as true since I have no other means of verifyi... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 08:37:32 EST The Measure of Success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669759 How do you measure success? For every person, it's different, and comparing your results to someone else's can actually do more harm than good in my non-professional opinion. Our bodies are not the same, so why should we expect to have the same results as the person next to us when it comes to losing weight? <BR> <BR> Some people use the scale to measure their success. Not a bad choice, but not the only choice. The scale will tell you how much you weigh at that exact moment. That's it. ... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 11:03:29 EST Day 3 exercise challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663441 Boo and I didn't get to do the exercise challenge until the end of the day, but we still did it. I am proud of us! Today we are upping the reps to 9. The fun part of last night's exercise extravaganza was when the dog, Cookie, decided I needed kisses more than I needed crunches! I'm lying on the floor and she is licking my face while I am giggling like a mad woman! Plex ended up having to distract her so I could get my crunches done. <BR> <BR> Still no word on the job front. I will keep... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 11:50:45 EST Day 2 of my exercise challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662501 Yesterday was a pretty good day! I did my exercises with my daughter, Boo. I ate well, even adding a salad to my dinner meal and making my main meal portion smaller to accommodate the calories. I drank 6 glasses of water, and I had a lot of energy. I even managed to quiet the negative Nancy in my life to an extent. <BR> <BR> I was asked what was new and exciting with my day. I said that Boo and I had started this exercise challenge. The woman who says to me on a regular basis that Plex... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 10:11:19 EST A different perspective http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5661657 I took a look back at my progress to date. I have lost nearly 15% of my weight since I started. Not too shabby. I'm taking way longer than I should though, and motivation can be lost when results aren't instant. Not that I am losing motivation. I do from time to time lose interest though. I'm responsible enough to admit that. It's not the diet that fails, it's me failing the diet! <BR> <BR> I see so many people on my Facebook feed that are doing these crazy diets, posting incredible w... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 10:51:55 EST Energy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660749 Good morning! <BR> <BR> I woke this morning after 8 hours of sleep feeling fantastic! I'm back to monitoring my blood sugar consistently as of today, which means testing before and after meals. It was higher than I like when I woke this morning, but honestly it wasn't that bad. I need to keep track of this, because I will run out of my medication on Wednesday and I do not have any refills left, nor do I have a doctor to go see. Not having health insurance stinks, but the Healthcare Marke... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 10:40:40 EST Still hanging on! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660047 I weighed in earlier this week, and noticed an 8lb loss from my last weigh in. I'm amused by that, because I was feeling quite chunky that morning! I'll take the loss though. <BR> <BR> I had an interview last week, and I am waiting to hear on it this week. I'm feeling pretty good about it, but it's up to the owner to make the decision. It won't be in the QA field that I have spent the last 24 years, but that's ok. I'm all for a change! <BR> <BR> Last night Boo, Plex and I went out to s... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 13:24:29 EST Why do I do this? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651627 I've been feeling rather down and frustrated lately, and it's not because of my weight loss/get healthy progress or lack of. <BR> <BR> I am still not working. I have never been out of work this long. I've had interviews that went nowhere. I've sent out more resume and cover letters than I can count. 90% of the time I don't hear back at all. The rest is usually the form letter email saying thanks, but no thanks. I know the economy is bad, and that the jobs just aren't out there for what... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 14:00:41 EST Inspiration close to home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610877 I fully admit that the last couple of weeks I have been completely unmotivated. I've been so focused on finding a job that I have neglected to log in and log my food. As the depression that comes with long searches set in, my urge to emotional eat returned. While I did my best to fight it off, I was not 100% successful, and that's ok. The fact that I even realized I was doing it was a huge step forward, an NSV (Non Scale Victory) of sorts if you will. Breaking the cycle will be easier, o... Fri, 31 Jan 2014 08:06:14 EST Getting rid of the toxic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5591172 My mood this weekend can be best described as irritable. Yes, I blog, but for the most part I am an intensely private person. I do not like being watched or questioned at every turn, and I feel like this has been happening all weekend. <BR> <BR> Friday morning I set out to finish a sewing project for my BIL. I had one of the items nearly complete, and the second one cut when I left the house to take the younger daughter to pick up her last paycheck from her seasonal job. While we were ou... Sun, 12 Jan 2014 12:11:39 EST January 4 - Beginning again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5581674 Staying positive in an uncertain time is so hard. Yesterday my work contract was cancelled suddenly. I was told that I was not a fit for the job, as I was more geared to a management position than the position I had. Not the way I wanted to start the year. That being said, I found some positive in this event. <BR> <BR> The job really wasn't a good fit with my experience and goals, even though I haven't been a manager in 7 years. The company wasn't ready to really get to the next level re... Sat, 4 Jan 2014 09:21:43 EST