WAYSOFGRACE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WAYSOFGRACE WAYSOFGRACE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Gone too soon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5968028 I'm a mixed bag of emotion right now. On the one hand, I am sad at the loss of my friend Paul at the age of 37. On the other hand, I am angry with him for allowing this to happen in the first place. If I had another hand, I'd be grateful for the lesson he left behind. <BR> <BR> Paul had many issues with depression and anxiety. It took a very long time for him to become comfortable being around me. I knew him for years before he ever spoke to me. His first words to me made me laugh, and... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 13:05:52 EST Emotional Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5961593 How do I know that I am learning anything on this journey to healthier living? When I recognize a bad habit I had and actively try to correct it, that's how. <BR> <BR> It's a stressful time at home (when isn't it?). My husband was laid off on Friday. We were away for the weekend when the call came in, so while I was worried, emotional eating was not on the menu. Win number 1! <BR> <BR> Monday I received news at work that added a little more stress. I can't go into details, but needless... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 07:57:43 EST Habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935657 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5d938d2c-ffa0-4fb7-a866-f75743c248a4.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We live in an age where instant gratification is expected. How many times have we tried a "diet", only to give up at the end of the first week because nothing changed? Habits don't disappear overnight, because they didn't appear overnight in the first place. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/833cfd6c-e90a-4e54-a2f0-5e9a28fdb4ce.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I personally find t... Thu, 28 May 2015 10:47:59 EST Steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935006 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/49760eda-1e5e-4309-aca7-8f06ade42b28.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Isn't that the truth? No matter what you want to do in life, you must always take that first step! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5f5c9066-d3cd-4524-8ded-71bcdd1679d8.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I had been feeling as if I had taken many steps backward lately. I've gained back weight I had lost. I've been feeling big and bloated. I actually agreed to let people take my p... Wed, 27 May 2015 08:03:02 EST Today is a Double Down Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934667 Here are some of the pictures from our trip. As you can see, we had a lot of fun at the wax museum, and the outdoor pics are from the walk on Sunday. Yes, that's me with the tree near the end of the walk. My legs were so swollen, but totally worth it! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3a1dceb9-6ace-4183-82cb-6ec89d3daf6a.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d9940823-f17c-4dd4-a88d-445595c4f551.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/... Tue, 26 May 2015 16:48:39 EST Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934658 I got a lot of walking in during this mini vacation....like 10 miles of walking in 3.5 days. It wasn't easy. I didn't just dance out the door and start powerwalking up the street. I paced myself. I knew I would not be able to stop walking until I reached my room at night. I pushed myself farther than I thought I could. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/88cd22ca-1334-4734-82cb-72254c5f6f8c.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That picture above. That was me on Sunday. I walked nea... Tue, 26 May 2015 16:31:07 EST Playing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931875 Tonight we are leaving for a short vacation/long holiday weekend, One thing about me to remember is that I like to see new places and experience new things while simultaneously being a history buff. This means that my mini-vacations are usually very physical while still be relaxing. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c17a27fe-b911-4448-8d69-f007a530f123.jpg"> <BR> <BR> When I can't afford to travel, I'll find ways to explore and play. I've been this way my whole l... Thu, 21 May 2015 08:58:17 EST Body image http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931288 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/23650914-1eab-4b4a-b95e-831655feed33.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I grew up with a lot of negative words said to me about how I looked, specifically about my weight. I was a very finicky eater, and stubborn on top of it. I distinctly remember being told that I would never get myself a husband looking the way I did...all fat and out of shape. The worst part is that is was my own mother and aunts who told me this. As my sister got older, she too would ha... Wed, 20 May 2015 09:33:52 EST Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930892 Today is about goals. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0e8c6670-47a6-412e-ba09-69b2c7f0766d.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We all have dreams. It's turning those dreams into reality is another story. It's the hard part of the journey. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9f6f7adf-bc3e-4da1-8341-dc2e1c20b4a0.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And last, but not least (pardon the language in this one) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/992417fc-4fd2-44d5-b8... Tue, 19 May 2015 14:57:03 EST Potential http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930057 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9ab4cb8e-57ab-4d93-82ec-f5121357b41e.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Potential is possibly the single most powerful word anyone has ever said to me. When I am told that I have potential, I feel empowered. I stand taller, carry my head higher. I think it's power comes because it is so rarely said, but it really shouldn't be hidden away from people. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9b255414-92f9-4ca3-a4c3-c510449af35d.jpg"> <BR> <... Mon, 18 May 2015 09:39:22 EST Challenge yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5929034 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0589acfc-0b9a-4f63-b0b2-e239f6c50ab6.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This week I have been finding motivation in places I didn't think to look before. One thing that rings true throughout is that I have to accept myself, flaws and all, before I begin to change myself. Knowing myself is a good first step, wouldn't you say? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ce1048af-3632-4f05-8602-af33c7b4e0e8.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This quote is oh so tru... Sat, 16 May 2015 09:31:40 EST Limits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928524 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/84269608-f976-4fbf-bd89-e217d3e474ff.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Do I believe in limits? Yes, but not in the say your thinking. I believe in speed limits, maximum weight limits on step ladders, upper and lower manufacturing limits. I don't believe in limits on human nature though. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/dd85107c-e7fb-4ea9-8b98-153a3ba98d5d.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have a very dear friend who shows me each and every day th... Fri, 15 May 2015 09:03:44 EST It's the little things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927935 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/71c2c38c-28c5-4a65-bb9f-5f9023ccaf9f.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I saw this quote and thought to myself that it needed to be shared. It's very very true, and something that I believe shouts in it's quiet way why Sparkpeople works for so many. Forgiving ourselves is one of the hardest habits to break. I'm still working on that. I've come a very long way, and forgiven myself for many things, but as we all know old habits are difficult to stuff into the ... Thu, 14 May 2015 08:24:34 EST Need I say more? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927468 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/8f9a459a-57a4-4e83-b1d1-84aea7ddffa5.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Wed, 13 May 2015 10:59:57 EST Body image http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926215 I have a healthy perspective on body image for the most part, but bad habits have recently started to creep in again. The good news is I recognize that they are not healthy, so I can DO something about it. <BR> <BR> I avoid mirrors for the most part. I use them to brush my teeth, comb my hair, but that's about it. You won't find a full length mirror in my bathroom or bedroom. The reason being that I don't like how I look. I am extremely self conscious of my body image, and if I don't ke... Mon, 11 May 2015 08:30:18 EST Big wheel keeps on turning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919546 I have been unfocused the past month. Not just on my health, but on everything. It's like that tax business shut off my ability to think. I've been going through the motions, but not really getting anywhere. The good news is that I am recognizing it now. <BR> <BR> I need to wake up from this fog and get my butt in gear! I can do this. I just need to focus on one thing and go! <BR> <BR> Now to choose which thing to start with.... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 08:31:10 EST Being a mom never stops http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916310 I have two daughters. They are 24yrs old and 21 yrs old. The youngest lives with me, the oldest with her father up north. They are the light of my life, and sometimes they give me the biggest fears. <BR> <BR> My 21 yr old is dating a young man who has issues with PTSD from his time in the military. He's finally getting therapy and help for it, but I can't say he's the most pleasant person to be around, and I really don't like when his bad day is taken out on my daughter in a verbally abu... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 09:44:02 EST Stress handling....making it work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913349 Everyone has stress. How we react to it is different for everyone. But there is a way to control our reactions to it. <BR> <BR> Right now Plex and I have hit a very stressful time. Car repairs twice in a week. But the big one was Taxes. For this first time, we have to pay. And it's no small potatoes (it's about 1/5th of my salary). We knew it was going to happen. We tried to plan for it. We didn't even come close. No matter how we slice it up, it's still a big hurdle to overcome, b... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 09:17:09 EST New season, new challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904672 Hello there! I'm baaacckkk!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Whatever it was keeping me down on Tuesday seems to have worked its way out of my system, so I am feeling better. I've just been feeling very quiet of late. Happens every once in a while LOL <BR> <BR> So tomorrow I begin the 5% spring challenge. Yup, I'm at it again. Nope, I haven't hit 5% in any of the challenges, but I am not giving up. I will get there. I know ahead of time now what my travel schedule is like through July, I... Fri, 3 Apr 2015 09:01:56 EST Making adjustments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902792 My body is making adjustments to the new medications. Actually, I should be clear that it's one new medication for my HDL and back on an old medication for my blood sugar. After a month long stand still I am losing weight again, which is happy making for me. <BR> <BR> Sugar wise I've been adjusting to the lower blood sugars, though I am now home with a sick stomach that is not the medicine. There's been a virus going through the office that's been giving everyone bronchitis that I have be... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 08:22:11 EST Weekend update - Health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893807 Health isn't just about our bodies, it's also about our mental and financial well being. I'll be the first to admit it. When I'm stressing out over money or the state of my home, I make bad choices for my body. I know it, and that's half the battle. I took the other half of the battle by the horns, so to speak, this weekend. <BR> <BR> Plex and I finally spent a weekend at home. We are travelling so much with our "jobby" (a hobby that turns into a part time job) that we hardly ever get m... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 08:55:17 EST Ups and Downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892701 It's been a difficult week. My daughter had a lot of emotional ups and downs, but thankfully it ended on an up. Her car has been repaired after a month of being "worked on", and even has 4 new hubcaps on it. When she got it back on Thursday, she cleaned it out and I helped her vacuum it. It's looking like her car again now. Monday she will go to the doctor and see if she can't get some help for the emotional stuff. She needs help, and this is something I can't fix. I'm proud that she r... Sat, 14 Mar 2015 09:24:02 EST And the results are in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5889718 I called this morning to get the results of my blood tests from last week's physical. I'm not surprised by some of it, shocked at some of it, and disappointed in the rest of it. <BR> <BR> Cholesterol has never been a problem for me. I have always been told my good cholesterol was borderline low, and the my bad cholesterol was fine. Not this time. My overall cholesterol is good, but my HDL is too high, as is my LDL. So I get to take medication for the next 4-6 weeks and switch to a low f... Mon, 9 Mar 2015 09:10:24 EST Sometimes it takes a village http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887393 Yesterday I was talking about my diabetes with a dear coworker. She asked me when the last time I tested was, and I admit it was way too long. So I broke out the meter and took it. It was two hours after breakfast, and I was at 156. Not bad. She took hers 3 hours after she had eaten breakfast. She was at 245. She knew it was high, but hadn't realized just how how it really was. <BR> <BR> So we have begun to encourage each other to healthier choices. Today she is drinking her water he... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 09:16:09 EST Things that make me go UGH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5887357 I've been naughty the last two weeks. I haven't gone to the gym. For one thing, I was travelling and staying at a friend's house. Not an excuse. The second thing is that when I wasn't travelling, it was snowing and the gym closed early. Can't get in if it's closed. Still not an excuse. Then my neck started acting up. Nope, not an excuse. All this is reality. <BR> <BR> But I really started slamming myself hard for not going when I saw a video of myself. One of my coworkers has to ma... Thu, 5 Mar 2015 08:07:15 EST Learning all the benefits of exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5868456 Of course exercise is good for us. When your journey to healthier living includes weight loss, exercise is a good part of that. It helps us burn calories we've taken in during the day. It helps us take off the inches as well as the pounds. But what else does it do for us? <BR> <BR> Well, it's great for our skin. When we are sweating, it's getting all the pores to open up and...well...sweat. When we're sweating, we are actually helping our skin to get all the dirt and junk out of our po... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 08:15:32 EST Things that make you go OW! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867158 I slept in a terrible position last night apparently, because this morning my neck and shoulder don't like me very much. It's not going to stop me though. It's just going to slow me down a little is all. <BR> <BR> So very pleased with the 4 pound loss last week. Pretty soon I will no longer be in the 300's, and will be back in the 200's where I was 6 months ago. This whole exercise plan has me completely jazzed up! I am super excited about it every day. <BR> <BR> My daughter, Boo, as... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 13:08:21 EST First Zumba Class http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865531 The first class was 45 minutes long. At 30 minutes in I was beginning to wonder if this was such a good idea. At 45 minutes, I was glad I went. <BR> <BR> I don't know all steps, because, hey, it was my first time! The instructor was super nice. I did the best I could concentrating on my footwork like she said to. I am way more out of shape than I thought I was, and I'm not even going to joke about round being a shape. <BR> <BR> I'm going to be going back next week. I've decided that I... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 22:05:29 EST Setting the schedule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865327 Plex and I decided that workout days will be Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. We do travel a bit on weekends, so those days are always iffy at best. That being said, we left Wednesday open as an optional day in case we start travelling on a Friday, then we can move to Wednesday night, and we have the option of just walking on Wednesday in addition. <BR> <BR> Yesterday being Wednesday, we didn't work out, but we did walk at the mall. The ring he had given me for Christmas came in from... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 15:16:16 EST Know what helps a stressful day? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864329 EXERCISE!!! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was stressful at home due to issues I won't get into, but after my workout last night I felt in better control both physically and emotionally. What a wonderful feeling! <BR> <BR> Today started out high on the stress level, and while the thing stressing me is resolved the residual feelings are still there, so tonight I plan on hitting the Y again for a walk. That is once I head over to the jeweler and pick up the ring that was being sized. <em>30</em> ... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 08:56:43 EST First night back at the gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863261 I decided that I would wait until Thursday to begin the Zumba class. Thursday night classes are 45 minutes, and Monday nights is an hour. I wanted to go in and do something else instead, so tonight we walked. <BR> <BR> We explored a little bit, finding where things are, and then managed to get to the indoor track. The track is elevated, so we get a flight of stairs in as a warm up before hitting the path! <BR> <BR> We had decided on a 30 minute walk, or one mile. Well, we did the mile i... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 20:21:44 EST New adventures are exciting! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862866 I can't begin to tell you how excited I am about having joined the Y. I am really and truly excited! So much so, in fact, that I told Plex I want to go tonight to walk the track, even if it's just for 30 minutes. He's on board, and this to me is awesome! I just feel like everything is FINALLY clicking into place. <BR> <BR> On another front, I saw a FB post yesterday from an acquaintance of mine back North. She had joined Weight Watchers in 2011. She wanted to lose weight, and she wante... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 10:28:40 EST Welp, I did it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862440 Two blogs in a single day! Holy moly! <BR> <BR> I did what I said I was going to do. I went to the local Y and checked it out today with Plex. We are now officially members! Go us! <BR> <BR> Not only that, but we have a scheduled appointment Tuesday night for our orientation with a personal trainer who will show us the equipment and how to use it properly. I'm excited! <BR> <BR> It seemed like a really good fit. The people were super nice, and not once did a single person walking in... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 19:37:56 EST Week 2 complete http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862084 Week 2 of the 5% Winter Challenge has come to and end. How'd I do? <BR> <BR> I lost .8 pounds. I'll take that thank you very much. So far that is 3.2 pounds gone. I'm a little behind schedule but not by much. I expect that to be picking up again soon. <BR> <BR> It's been a week. I had, and still have, a slight medical issue that is leaving me uncomfortable, but not bed ridden so it's a start. I've also been on the go for the last weekends in a row at a convention and then a game da... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 09:27:55 EST Am I ready for this? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5860852 So yesterday I did some research into area gyms. Let me amend that. I did some research into a specific type of exercise class available in my area. Zumba. It's always intrigued me since I first heard of it, and I have a friend who has done it and loved it. I found out that the YMCA in town offers 2 classes a week. The times are times I could make, and the days would not interfere with other things going on. So why am I hesitant? <BR> <BR> I am not comfortable in my own skin when it c... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 09:07:09 EST Week 1 complete http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858516 Sorry I am late getting this posted, but I was travelling this past weekend and didn't have my laptop with me. <BR> <BR> Week one of the 5% challenge saw a 2.4 pound reduction in my weight. Yay!!! Weight going downwards is the goal after all. I did not make it to 120 fitness minutes a single time during the week. Boo!!! Body said no, and I listen to the body. <BR> <BR> This week I am tracking not only water, but all meals. As you know, I struggle with this BIG TIME! So I am doing my ... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 08:19:30 EST Today it begins http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850888 I am beginning the 5% Winter Challenge today. My team is the Champions in the Kitchen, which I have been with for the last 2 challenges. I have yet to actually meet the 5% goal in any of them, but I am not giving up. No siree. I WILL do this! <BR> <BR> So, my goal is to lose 15.39 pounds over the course of this challenge. How am I going to do this? Let me list the ways! <BR> <BR> 1) No soda! It's part of the Living The Good Life portion of the challenge. This one is not going to be... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 08:55:59 EST Hello 2015! What will I bring to you this year? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847408 So far the year has started out with a surprise for me! I ended up losing about 8 pounds over the holiday season, which believe me I am not going to be looking for anytime soon. Sorry, but there will be no missing weight reports filed for those guys! <BR> <BR> I'm working on my measuring and tracking again. Dinner is really my downfall. I eat well, but I forget to log it! Doh! I'm a work in progress, what can I say? <BR> <BR> One thing I have noticed is that I am terribly hungry in th... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 08:19:32 EST There's an app for that http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834298 When I get back to basics, I start out with lots of energy and enthusiasm, which usually drops off after the first month. I'm full of good intentions, strong starts, but not so good on the follow through. This is changing. <BR> <BR> You see, when I started this journey on Sparkpeople, I fell into the same routine I had with every other diet. I started strong, then slacked off, then stopped coming altogether. When I was diagnosed with diabetes I came back. I've been back ever since. <BR>... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 08:14:49 EST Ooops I did it again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830704 Falling off the wagon is such a strange phrase, or at least I think so. Needless to say, I was a stress eater last night, and I know it. The worst part is that I made the conscious decision to do it. <BR> <BR> Long story short, my bank account appears to have been hacked. It's never happy making to have this happen, but it seems even worse at this time of year. I reported it immediately and they opened the investigation. I have a new debit card coming in the mail. I've done everything ... Wed, 10 Dec 2014 08:05:43 EST Are you worth fighting for? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5827389 It's a simple question, but the answer is quite elusive to so many of us. I'm a mom, and there isn't anything I wouldn't do to protect my kids. So why don't I feel the same way about myself? <BR> <BR> "Mom's are supposed to sacrifice for their kids." To a certain extent, I can agree with that statement. There have been more times than I can count that I decided to patch up that pair of jeans just one more time so that the kids could go to the amusement park with their friends. There hav... Thu, 4 Dec 2014 08:04:06 EST Head up, shoulders down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819951 Posture says a lot about a person, or so my mother used to tell me. A person who stands straight and tall is a person who is confident in themselves is what she would tell me. Remember trying to walk with a book balanced on your head? I couldn't do it, no matter how hard I tried. I was that kid who slouched in the back of the pictures, trying not to be seen. Did I lack confidence in myself? Heck no...I was horrendously shy! Years of slouching have left me with back pain. That doesn't ... Thu, 20 Nov 2014 08:01:07 EST Life goes on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5819361 There was a time when a stressful situation would have me diving for the food cupboard and eating everything in sight. After the events of yesterday, it would have been one of those times. Only it kind of wasn't. <BR> <BR> Did I eat yesterday from stress? Yes. I ate Wheat Thins, and probably more than I should have. What I didn't reach for was the Raspberry Danish in my fridge. Or the chips in the pantry. Not perfect, but better. <BR> <BR> I have made good changes in my life. I made... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 08:14:15 EST In total shock http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818769 I woke this morning to a text from my sister-in-law that my step-brother's ex wife had died. She wasn't very old, and she certainly wasn't in bad health that I was aware of. No one expected this, and we still don't know why. <BR> <BR> I was not especially close to her. I have a love-hate relationship with my step siblings. I love them all...they seem to hate me. It doesn't bother me, really. I have a huge network of nieces and nephews that I adore. And this is why I am in total shock.... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 08:00:52 EST Breaking down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818378 Yesterday I couldn't stand my sciatic anymore, so I took a muscle relaxer. I hate taking them, but sometimes you need to just suck it up and deal, which is what I did. The downside to having done that is that I felt so much better I did things I probably shouldn't have done. I am becoming the definition of insanity, I swear. <BR> <BR> All that aside, Plex and I made great progress in the house over the weekend. It's amazing what you can do when you are actually home. It was nice to sit ... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 14:08:20 EST This is starting to get on my nerve http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816011 Or more accurately, it's already on my sciatic nerve. I've been fighting with sciatic nerve pain on my right side for 3 weeks now. It comes and goes, and lately it's mostly coming to stay. It gets so bad I can barely walk sometimes. <BR> <BR> I'd go to the chiropractor, except I don't have any insurance and can't afford it. So I am dealing on my own. The biggest problem is, well to be honest, ME. <BR> <BR> I start feeling well, and I go out and jump right back into my routine. Except ... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 08:12:23 EST Water Water everywhere http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814180 Now all I have to do is drink it! <BR> <BR> This is a constant struggle for me. It's not like I am not willing to give up drinks like soda, cause honestly I already have. I don't reach for a soda nearly as much as I used to. In fact, unless I am out to eat I don't even look for it. So what am I drinking then? <BR> <BR> NOTHING. How bad is that??? I have a cup of coffee in the morning before work (hey, I'm not human without a cup every day, trust me) and a glass of Orange Juice if it's... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 11:13:07 EST The luckiest person I know http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5805250 So I am sitting here nursing an aggravated sciatic nerve (too many squats yesterday), and I commented to my husband that I am still completely amazed by all the encouraging comments from my blog the other day. He was typing something on his laptop and just said "Now you know why I believe I am the luckiest person in the world". I gave him an odd look, not sure where he was going. So he looked at me with this "are you seriously not getting this?" and said, "I'm the luckiest person I know be... Sun, 26 Oct 2014 20:56:28 EST Completely blown away! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5803843 I wasn't having a great morning until I opened my email. I made 2 cups of coffee instead of 1 (I was supposed to be putting by sugar substitute in my already existing coffee, not starting another cup in the Keurig), I was trying figure out why it was 75 degrees in my house at 2am, and 67 degrees at 6:30am, and I was making my lunch and not happy that someone drank my water bottles that I have for work (I can't stand room temperature water). Then I opened my email. <BR> <BR> You can imagine... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 09:02:43 EST Inspiration in all the right places http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5803239 So no kidding, there I was reading a blog written by a Sparker, when I was reminded of a song my father used to sing when I was a kid. That's when I was hit with inspiration. I'm not saying that the blog I was reading wasn't inspiring, because believe me it was, it just was the first trigger in this line of triggers. Let me explain. <BR> <BR> So the Sparker had written that she eats when she is hungry, not because the clock tells her she has to. I started thinking on that statement. My ... Thu, 23 Oct 2014 08:44:52 EST