WAYSOFGRACE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WAYSOFGRACE WAYSOFGRACE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Birthday Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185179 First I want to thank everyone for the lovely birthday wishes and goodies! They are lovely, and it's wonderful to feel so much love! <BR> <BR> This week I turned 50. I know plenty of women who freak out about the BIG 5 0. Honestly, it doesn't bother me in the slightest. I don't feel any different than I did the day before (well, actually I feel slightly better than the day before, but that's jut being nit picky). The best part of turning 50 though was actually because it was quiet. No ... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 12:38:11 EST A victory of sorts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6184511 Today I hit 100 days of consistently logging in to SP. Not too shabby. If anything, it speaks to my being a creature of habit <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> It's been quite a time of change for myself and my family. It's been interesting, sometimes stressful, but always in a forward motion. This is good in my book. My home is slowly being transformed. We have purchased a computer desk for Boo and one for Plex. They are now set up in the "office" at the front of the house. Plex cleaned ou... Fri, 17 Jun 2016 08:45:37 EST Recovering my peace of mind one step at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6163467 It's been a week since we moved the roommates out and into their own place. In the past week we have been recovering the space we had given up for them one step at a time. As we reorganize our home, I am regaining my inner peace. I desperately need my place to be organized in such a way that there is no conflict. When I have peace of mind, everyone else seems to gain theirs as well. <BR> <BR> First thing we did was clean the room that they had used as their bedroom. With that done, we... Sun, 15 May 2016 14:00:42 EST Busy busy busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6158052 I've been going like gangbusters lately. <BR> <BR> 1) Back and neck problems from last week are diagnosed as degenerative disc disease. What that means is that I get to go to physical therapy twice a week for the next 4 weeks to strengthen the back to help alleviate the neck pain. I get to work out!!!! Woot!! <BR> <BR> 2) I am back to my normal workload at work. I'm very far behind from spending 8 months on someone else's job, so I have a lot to keep me going! <BR> <BR> 3) I lost weig... Sat, 7 May 2016 07:47:12 EST Direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151062 Couple of things going on which I am excited about. <BR> <BR> 1) The Kickstart campaign for our game was successful! Now to finish up the contracts with the manufacturer and get the art from the artist to the graphic artist. <BR> <BR> 2) My friend and his wife have found a house to rent of their own. This means I will get my house back to normal soon! This is very important for my mental well being. It's been hard being with him 24/7 (we also work in the same department and office). ... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 22:21:32 EST Who do you think you are? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6146432 Warning....this is a rant of sorts. This is not directed at anyone here on Sparkpeople. <BR> <BR> I need to use the printer/scanner in the front of the office frequently. Everything I do has to be printed then scanned. I make multiple trips to the copier a day. I log over 4000 steps a day just making that walk back and forth. I have done it without complaint. Heck, I designed the office to make the printer access more convenient for YOU. <BR> <BR> What gives YOU the right to make a co... Wed, 20 Apr 2016 10:59:58 EST Keeping the demons at bay...or trying to http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6140518 I've been buried in work these last few months. Not only at my full time day job, but also with the game business my husband and I are not partners in. We are nearing the end of a Kickstart campaign to raise funds for our next product, and the stress of not know if we will make it to our goal or not is eating me up. If you are curious and want to lear more, this is the link to our Kickstart campaign. <link>kck.st/1RU5W5n </link> <BR> <BR> This is near and dear to me. My husband and ... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 08:25:19 EST Decisions Decisions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6098818 So, I've been taking a long hard look at my weight loss journey and have come to the conclusion that I need help. I am yo-yoing on the scale, even when I shouldn't be. I'm tired all the time. I get sick more than I should. I feel swollen, my toes hurt most of the time, and have trouble breathing walking across the parking lot to my office in the morning. It makes it difficult to exercise (I do it anyway), but progress such as I have made is lacking so to speak. <BR> <BR> For the record,... Thu, 18 Feb 2016 08:07:27 EST They said what??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6097967 Over the last two days, I have heard things said (or been told what was said in the first case) that make me cock my head to one side and say "Aroo?". It dawned on me this morning that I seem to be doing this far more often than I care to. Maybe I should write a blog about it? <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Scenario 1: Boo is up north visiting with a friend. They had made plans to get their hair done at the salon that a childhood friend of mine owns. When they walked in, my ex husband (her ... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 08:24:33 EST This is what it's all about http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6091697 http://www.msn.com/en-us/health/weightloss<BR>/this-is-absolutely-the-worst-weight-l<BR>oss-mistake-you-can-make/ar-BBp1MOF?li<BR>=BBnb7Kx&ocid=iehp <BR> <BR> I read this article like I do so many other "news" type articles lately...with a grain of skepticism (because salt makes me retain water <em>20</em> ). But honestly, it's pretty spot on to what Spark tries to teach us here. <BR> <BR> I see so many people doing "cleanses", "carb restrictions", "sugar restrictions" and I wonder if t... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 10:12:19 EST Snow Day and other things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6078553 We had snow over the weekend here in NC. More accurately, we had rain, which then turned to sleet and freezing rain, which then turned to snow, then back to freezing rain. My lawn is completely covered still today with that white stuff, and I could ice skate in my driveway (it's a completely smooth sheet of ice). So where am I? I am at work, of course! They had predicted that Friday would be bad, and when I got up for work and looked out, I called out. Yeah, I'm from New England, but le... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 08:55:06 EST NSV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6063878 Couple of NSV's for me. <BR> <BR> 1) When the doctor gave me a cortisone shot in my shoulder (it's been bugging me for a month), I asked about weight training and resistance training. He said not for the next two weeks. My response to him was "Oh ok, I'll just do cardio and work out my legs and abs instead." I didn't even think to NOT exercise at all, which in the past would have been my whole attitude. <BR> <BR> 2) I've been standing up in my cubicle every hour and walking in place fo... Fri, 8 Jan 2016 09:03:52 EST Finding the good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062861 For about a month I've been having shoulder pain. It was annoying at first, and only if I moved a certain way. It has been getting steadily worse, and finally got to the point where it was disturbing my sleep, so off to the doctor I went. <BR> <BR> X rays showed the shoulder is perfect. No rotator cuff issues. Orthopedist says it could be a complication of my diabetes called Frozen Shoulder. He opted to give me a couple of cortisone shots in the shoulder. If your diabetes is not under ... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 07:53:15 EST Post holiday wrap up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6053889 This was a very nice holiday for us. Getting the cancer-free news made it the best by far. We relaxed, enjoyed family and friends company and really focused on what is important...the people in our lives. <BR> <BR> Yes, there were gifts involved, but by far a much smaller gift giving season for us. I did not feel guilty for the first time since becoming a parent, and I didn't worry that I would be disappointing the kids in any way. Everyone was just...HAPPY. <BR> <BR> My mother-in-law... Mon, 28 Dec 2015 09:42:01 EST Merriest Christmas News http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6052017 I came in to work this morning with one thing on my mind....I need to get as much done as possible. When my phone rang, I got the best news ever. The lump they found is benign. Hearing that there is no cancer is the best gift anyone could have given me. <BR> <BR> Now we know, and we can move forward without fear of the dreaded "What If" hanging over our heads! I was so excited about the news that I let out a shout in the office (after the required disclaimer that it was not intended to s... Thu, 24 Dec 2015 08:48:20 EST Interesting questions I was asked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6049417 Yesterday I was asked if I am scared of what might be found. That's difficult to answer. Overall, no I'm not scared. Concerned? You bet. That doesn't mean that I am not having moments when I want to scream. <BR> <BR> I was also asked if I had any pain. Well, only if I wear the wrong brassiere or lay on my stomach to fall asleep. Crushing hugs...yeah...those hurt...ALOT. <BR> <BR> How do I shut off my brain from doing the "what if" game? That's easier. Right now I am listening to Ch... Fri, 18 Dec 2015 15:07:45 EST Well shoot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6048278 So I had the second look yesterday. Instead of another mammogram, they went straight to sonogram. I had brought the films of the first mammogram with me, and the doctor at the breast health place said this was the way to go. He's very nice, and once he knew I understood a lot more than the average person, he spoke to me on my level. I like that. <BR> <BR> Anyway, it's not a cyst like we had hoped it would be. It's a decent size, I can feel it now that I know exactly where it is, and it ... Wed, 16 Dec 2015 07:45:39 EST Family love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6047875 This past weekend I travelled back to my home state to celebrate my dad's 80th birthday. We purposely scheduled it for 2 weeks after his birthday to surprise him, and boy did we! He had no idea that Plex, Boo and I were even in town! Best part is that we were all together. <BR> <BR> Here's all of my dad's grandkids. They range in age from 3 years to 25 years! Of course two of them are mine (love my Boo and Panda!), and all my nieces and nephews own a piece of my heart! <BR> <img src="h... Tue, 15 Dec 2015 11:51:16 EST Taking the steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023585 So I'm doing this whole quit smoking thing under a doctor's guidance. Because of the medications I am on, I have to monitor several things daily...like blood sugar and blood pressure. This is not a bad thing in my book. And this guy is on top of his game, and the data from my experience will go into research. <BR> <BR> First step: Figure out exactly how many cigarettes I am smoking a day. I say about 10, but sometimes it's more and sometimes it's less. <BR> <BR> Second step: Figure ou... Fri, 30 Oct 2015 08:14:33 EST The price for years of bad living http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023036 Having spent so many years not taking care of myself properly have caught up to me. Every year around this time I get struck down by an asthma attack. It's allergy and temperature related (leaf mold and the first hard frost) is what I keep telling myself, but if I am honest with myself I have to admit that it's more than that. <BR> <BR> It's being 150 pounds overweight. It's 36 years of smoking. It's not caring enough about what I put into my body that got me here. I wasn't like this wh... Thu, 29 Oct 2015 08:06:38 EST Playing catch up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5999011 I'm going to be participating in the Fall 5% Challenge, and we are gearing up for the start. One thing I haven't done yet is the mini-challenge if you want to call it that. So I am going to be doing that over the next few days. <BR> <BR> Check list <BR> <BR> Do you know what diet you will follow? I'm going to be following my Diabetic Sparkpeople Diet and tracking my intake closely <BR> <BR> Found some recipes? I'm always looking for new recipes, and with Misterbaldy now handling most ... Thu, 17 Sep 2015 08:21:03 EST Positive Affirmations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5997800 So the month of August was a huge blur of STRESS!! If you don't think stress can lead to weight gain, let me just say that gaining 17 pounds over a 6 week period of time happened to me (I hit my all time highest weight of 331.6 lbs) and I wasn't over eating either. I was SWELLING! The positive side is that it's over with! Yay! <BR> <BR> Plex and I were able to prepare the house for the arrival of Misterbaldy and his lady on Labor Day weekend. We flew up to RI, got the rental truck and... Tue, 15 Sep 2015 09:26:00 EST The results are in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5988657 I got the results of the blood work this morning. <BR> <BR> A1C is down to 6.2 from 6.7 <BR> Iron is normal <BR> Cholesterol is normal <BR> Thyroid is normal <BR> Vitamin D is low <BR> <BR> My weight gain hasn't been explained, but damn I am happy about that A1C! Guess I need to start doing some yoga and meditation, and shake up the diet a bit. <BR> <BR> My mood went from a 6 to a 9! Tue, 1 Sep 2015 09:06:57 EST Taking charge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5987971 August was a busy month filled with much stress both at work and at home. The home stress though will be concluding this coming weekend. Our house is just about ready to accept our friends who will be moving from RI to NC. I have some more things to tidy up since we sorted and unpacked ALL of the boxes we still hadn't got to since we moved in, but it's coming along nicely. The stress has been making sure I am prepared for this. We are flying out Thursday morning and driving them back on ... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 09:55:08 EST Goal Setting - How you can help me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5980076 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/868853f7-6135-4cf3-b0e4-75556f6f6311.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Being specific is not something I'm very good at when it comes to setting goals. If I had to try to define why, it might be because my career path has always been filled with goals that aren't all that specific. For instance, a goal at work could be finish the annual product reviews. It doesn't tell me when it needs to be done by, nor if there is a specific order they need to be done in. ... Tue, 18 Aug 2015 08:36:38 EST Shaking my fist http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5979381 So the scale went up AGAIN this week. So NOT the direction I was aiming for. However, it is my own fault. This is me owning up to it. Before anyone says blame won't get me anywhere, let me explain why I say it. <BR> <BR> BACON <BR> <BR> It's my nemesis. It has been for 25 years. When pregnant with my oldest daughter, there was a single month when I ate 2 slices of bacon on back to back Sunday mornings. I was still in my first year of marriage. I was trying to make a nice relaxed S... Mon, 17 Aug 2015 07:58:58 EST Changing tactics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5976487 I've been in a slump. I admit it freely. I have been like this since I had the sinus infection. I'm chronically tired. I am STILL coughing sporadically (I think that's more allergies than anything). I've been working longer hours, and prepping the house on the weekend for my friends to move in (Labor Day weekend is coming up fast). I have not invested the time in ME, and I am feeling it. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/71e2e308-30a0-4da0-9223-a46e0c2227b9.jpg... Wed, 12 Aug 2015 09:10:25 EST Self Worth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5973559 I'm just going to put these here. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9b64bc44-8df2-4014-a243-edcadcb1279b.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/64e302a6-06ea-4f42-a047-0201069ae54f.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/190fa524-eb2c-495e-bd24-f6b056bf5b95.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/13305733-28e5-445d-8b3b-c492dab47d4b.jpg"> Fri, 7 Aug 2015 08:08:54 EST Gone too soon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5968028 I'm a mixed bag of emotion right now. On the one hand, I am sad at the loss of my friend Paul at the age of 37. On the other hand, I am angry with him for allowing this to happen in the first place. If I had another hand, I'd be grateful for the lesson he left behind. <BR> <BR> Paul had many issues with depression and anxiety. It took a very long time for him to become comfortable being around me. I knew him for years before he ever spoke to me. His first words to me made me laugh, and... Tue, 28 Jul 2015 13:05:52 EST Emotional Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5961593 How do I know that I am learning anything on this journey to healthier living? When I recognize a bad habit I had and actively try to correct it, that's how. <BR> <BR> It's a stressful time at home (when isn't it?). My husband was laid off on Friday. We were away for the weekend when the call came in, so while I was worried, emotional eating was not on the menu. Win number 1! <BR> <BR> Monday I received news at work that added a little more stress. I can't go into details, but needless... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 07:57:43 EST Habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935657 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5d938d2c-ffa0-4fb7-a866-f75743c248a4.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We live in an age where instant gratification is expected. How many times have we tried a "diet", only to give up at the end of the first week because nothing changed? Habits don't disappear overnight, because they didn't appear overnight in the first place. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/833cfd6c-e90a-4e54-a2f0-5e9a28fdb4ce.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I personally find t... Thu, 28 May 2015 10:47:59 EST Steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5935006 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/49760eda-1e5e-4309-aca7-8f06ade42b28.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Isn't that the truth? No matter what you want to do in life, you must always take that first step! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/5f5c9066-d3cd-4524-8ded-71bcdd1679d8.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I had been feeling as if I had taken many steps backward lately. I've gained back weight I had lost. I've been feeling big and bloated. I actually agreed to let people take my p... Wed, 27 May 2015 08:03:02 EST Today is a Double Down Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934667 Here are some of the pictures from our trip. As you can see, we had a lot of fun at the wax museum, and the outdoor pics are from the walk on Sunday. Yes, that's me with the tree near the end of the walk. My legs were so swollen, but totally worth it! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/3a1dceb9-6ace-4183-82cb-6ec89d3daf6a.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/d9940823-f17c-4dd4-a88d-445595c4f551.jpg"> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/... Tue, 26 May 2015 16:48:39 EST Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5934658 I got a lot of walking in during this mini vacation....like 10 miles of walking in 3.5 days. It wasn't easy. I didn't just dance out the door and start powerwalking up the street. I paced myself. I knew I would not be able to stop walking until I reached my room at night. I pushed myself farther than I thought I could. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/88cd22ca-1334-4734-82cb-72254c5f6f8c.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That picture above. That was me on Sunday. I walked nea... Tue, 26 May 2015 16:31:07 EST Playing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931875 Tonight we are leaving for a short vacation/long holiday weekend, One thing about me to remember is that I like to see new places and experience new things while simultaneously being a history buff. This means that my mini-vacations are usually very physical while still be relaxing. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/c17a27fe-b911-4448-8d69-f007a530f123.jpg"> <BR> <BR> When I can't afford to travel, I'll find ways to explore and play. I've been this way my whole l... Thu, 21 May 2015 08:58:17 EST Body image http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5931288 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/23650914-1eab-4b4a-b95e-831655feed33.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I grew up with a lot of negative words said to me about how I looked, specifically about my weight. I was a very finicky eater, and stubborn on top of it. I distinctly remember being told that I would never get myself a husband looking the way I did...all fat and out of shape. The worst part is that is was my own mother and aunts who told me this. As my sister got older, she too would ha... Wed, 20 May 2015 09:33:52 EST Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930892 Today is about goals. <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0e8c6670-47a6-412e-ba09-69b2c7f0766d.jpg"> <BR> <BR> We all have dreams. It's turning those dreams into reality is another story. It's the hard part of the journey. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9f6f7adf-bc3e-4da1-8341-dc2e1c20b4a0.jpg"> <BR> <BR> And last, but not least (pardon the language in this one) <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/992417fc-4fd2-44d5-b8... Tue, 19 May 2015 14:57:03 EST Potential http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5930057 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9ab4cb8e-57ab-4d93-82ec-f5121357b41e.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Potential is possibly the single most powerful word anyone has ever said to me. When I am told that I have potential, I feel empowered. I stand taller, carry my head higher. I think it's power comes because it is so rarely said, but it really shouldn't be hidden away from people. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/9b255414-92f9-4ca3-a4c3-c510449af35d.jpg"> <BR> <... Mon, 18 May 2015 09:39:22 EST Challenge yourself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5929034 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/0589acfc-0b9a-4f63-b0b2-e239f6c50ab6.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This week I have been finding motivation in places I didn't think to look before. One thing that rings true throughout is that I have to accept myself, flaws and all, before I begin to change myself. Knowing myself is a good first step, wouldn't you say? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/ce1048af-3632-4f05-8602-af33c7b4e0e8.jpg"> <BR> <BR> This quote is oh so tru... Sat, 16 May 2015 09:31:40 EST Limits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5928524 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/84269608-f976-4fbf-bd89-e217d3e474ff.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Do I believe in limits? Yes, but not in the say your thinking. I believe in speed limits, maximum weight limits on step ladders, upper and lower manufacturing limits. I don't believe in limits on human nature though. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/dd85107c-e7fb-4ea9-8b98-153a3ba98d5d.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have a very dear friend who shows me each and every day th... Fri, 15 May 2015 09:03:44 EST It's the little things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927935 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/71c2c38c-28c5-4a65-bb9f-5f9023ccaf9f.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I saw this quote and thought to myself that it needed to be shared. It's very very true, and something that I believe shouts in it's quiet way why Sparkpeople works for so many. Forgiving ourselves is one of the hardest habits to break. I'm still working on that. I've come a very long way, and forgiven myself for many things, but as we all know old habits are difficult to stuff into the ... Thu, 14 May 2015 08:24:34 EST Need I say more? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5927468 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/8f9a459a-57a4-4e83-b1d1-84aea7ddffa5.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Wed, 13 May 2015 10:59:57 EST Body image http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5926215 I have a healthy perspective on body image for the most part, but bad habits have recently started to creep in again. The good news is I recognize that they are not healthy, so I can DO something about it. <BR> <BR> I avoid mirrors for the most part. I use them to brush my teeth, comb my hair, but that's about it. You won't find a full length mirror in my bathroom or bedroom. The reason being that I don't like how I look. I am extremely self conscious of my body image, and if I don't ke... Mon, 11 May 2015 08:30:18 EST Big wheel keeps on turning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5919546 I have been unfocused the past month. Not just on my health, but on everything. It's like that tax business shut off my ability to think. I've been going through the motions, but not really getting anywhere. The good news is that I am recognizing it now. <BR> <BR> I need to wake up from this fog and get my butt in gear! I can do this. I just need to focus on one thing and go! <BR> <BR> Now to choose which thing to start with.... Wed, 29 Apr 2015 08:31:10 EST Being a mom never stops http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5916310 I have two daughters. They are 24yrs old and 21 yrs old. The youngest lives with me, the oldest with her father up north. They are the light of my life, and sometimes they give me the biggest fears. <BR> <BR> My 21 yr old is dating a young man who has issues with PTSD from his time in the military. He's finally getting therapy and help for it, but I can't say he's the most pleasant person to be around, and I really don't like when his bad day is taken out on my daughter in a verbally abu... Thu, 23 Apr 2015 09:44:02 EST Stress handling....making it work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5913349 Everyone has stress. How we react to it is different for everyone. But there is a way to control our reactions to it. <BR> <BR> Right now Plex and I have hit a very stressful time. Car repairs twice in a week. But the big one was Taxes. For this first time, we have to pay. And it's no small potatoes (it's about 1/5th of my salary). We knew it was going to happen. We tried to plan for it. We didn't even come close. No matter how we slice it up, it's still a big hurdle to overcome, b... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 09:17:09 EST New season, new challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904672 Hello there! I'm baaacckkk!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Whatever it was keeping me down on Tuesday seems to have worked its way out of my system, so I am feeling better. I've just been feeling very quiet of late. Happens every once in a while LOL <BR> <BR> So tomorrow I begin the 5% spring challenge. Yup, I'm at it again. Nope, I haven't hit 5% in any of the challenges, but I am not giving up. I will get there. I know ahead of time now what my travel schedule is like through July, I... Fri, 3 Apr 2015 09:01:56 EST Making adjustments http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902792 My body is making adjustments to the new medications. Actually, I should be clear that it's one new medication for my HDL and back on an old medication for my blood sugar. After a month long stand still I am losing weight again, which is happy making for me. <BR> <BR> Sugar wise I've been adjusting to the lower blood sugars, though I am now home with a sick stomach that is not the medicine. There's been a virus going through the office that's been giving everyone bronchitis that I have be... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 08:22:11 EST Weekend update - Health http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5893807 Health isn't just about our bodies, it's also about our mental and financial well being. I'll be the first to admit it. When I'm stressing out over money or the state of my home, I make bad choices for my body. I know it, and that's half the battle. I took the other half of the battle by the horns, so to speak, this weekend. <BR> <BR> Plex and I finally spent a weekend at home. We are travelling so much with our "jobby" (a hobby that turns into a part time job) that we hardly ever get m... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 08:55:17 EST Ups and Downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5892701 It's been a difficult week. My daughter had a lot of emotional ups and downs, but thankfully it ended on an up. Her car has been repaired after a month of being "worked on", and even has 4 new hubcaps on it. When she got it back on Thursday, she cleaned it out and I helped her vacuum it. It's looking like her car again now. Monday she will go to the doctor and see if she can't get some help for the emotional stuff. She needs help, and this is something I can't fix. I'm proud that she r... Sat, 14 Mar 2015 09:24:02 EST