WAYSOFGRACE's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WAYSOFGRACE WAYSOFGRACE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Week 9 report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6469112 Weight loss was non-existent. That's ok. Just going to work harder at it. Water intake dropped off a little bit too, which could account for some of that. Will work to boost that again as well. But it's never too late to pick up the pace, and I am certainly not beating myself over it. But I am disappointed....not at myself, but at something I saw this morning in the Sparkpeople Facebook group. <BR> <BR> A woman posted that she was going to leave the group because she felt there was too... Mon, 5 Mar 2018 07:29:38 EST Week 8 report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6466476 The recovery from the flu has been amazing, After a week off from work, my body and mind are rested, my stomach no longer hates me, and I have energy! <BR> <BR> I did not step on the scale this morning. I'm swollen today from the lymphedema, so it wouldn't be accurate. I'm thinking of switching to weighing in once a month. We'll see. If I do, weigh in will be on the first of March, <BR> <BR> Daughter took me to her gym this week. Way better than my last experience with a gym! We work... Sun, 25 Feb 2018 09:27:48 EST Weeks 6 and 7 progess report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6464267 I've been feeling pretty unwell for the last week, so I haven't really been up to posting here until now. <BR> <BR> Plex and I went to the doctor for our physical/medication checks. Good news for me! My cholesterol is all back to normal! Yay! My A1C is back up to 6.7 though. He wanted me to go back on the Trulicity since I was doing well with it, but I told him about the change in insurance costs (my portion would be $1900 per month). His office is now trying to get my insurance to cha... Sun, 18 Feb 2018 09:43:20 EST Week 5 report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6459387 This week sees me losing one of the pounds from last week's gain. Woot! <BR> <BR> I am motivated. I have logged in every day for over a month. I am posting every day in teams. And then I went and volunteered to be a team leader for one of them. <BR> <BR> So yeah, I am now one of the leaders for Cross Stitchers on Spark. Why did I do this? Well, for one thing I am a cross stitcher. I know that while I can easily spend hours sitting on my hind end stitching, it's not going to help me g... Sun, 4 Feb 2018 09:00:21 EST Week 4 report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6456774 Well, I am up 2 pounds, which is not surprising since the body fluctuates by this much daily, but also because I did not take my pill for my lymphedema every single day this week. I had a training session I had to attend and walking out every hour for the bathroom is not in the cards for those. I also missed in yesterday, which was simply because I forgot after chasing my little ball of fur around the house all morning! All being said I am at 327.6 today, and Ginger is curled up in my arms... Sun, 28 Jan 2018 09:17:33 EST Week 3 report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6453726 Happy to say I am down a total of 10lbs this month! Woot! I am happy with my progress. I was worried I blew it when I had ice cream, but honestly, I am being very conscious of why I am eating this time. <BR> <BR> We had 2 days of extremely cold temperatures and even 6" of snow (in NC that is something). Needless to say I didn't get as much movement in as I would have liked. But today will be a bit different. <BR> <BR> Plex and I are spending the morning working on the house. We have s... Sat, 20 Jan 2018 08:07:44 EST Week 2 bonus edition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6450942 So I am currently sitting in the hotel room for the convention that my husband is currently providing demos of our card game at. The venue was changed this year, and it is MUCH smaller than previous years, which makes it CROWDED! And by crowded I mean almost impossible to move in. I don't do well mentally in those situations. I get overwhelmed due to being hyper vigilant, so we both agreed that a well deserved break in the hotel was in order. <BR> <BR> I am good with this. It's quiet. ... Sat, 13 Jan 2018 08:42:25 EST Week 2 progress report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6450532 Week 2 has been....interesting. I had a stomach bug, but honestly it didn't really affect my desire for food. I never really want to eat anyway, and it's the forcing of myself to eat on a schedule that I have always struggled with. Even with the bug, I maintained consistent meals, even if the meals were broths and toast. I am pleased to say I am down another 4 pounds to 319.7! <BR> <BR> I weighed in today from necessity. I will be gone this weekend to a gaming convention and will not be ... Fri, 12 Jan 2018 06:44:04 EST Week 1 of 2018 in the books http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6448519 I did pretty ok this first week of January. I lost 3 pounds, and got lectured by my daughter (I guess she decided to be my accountability buddy afterall!). She's not happy with the lack of variety in our meal choices during the week, and let me know in no uncertain terms this was no long acceptable. <BR> <BR> Since she doesn't do the cooking, and asking her what she wants usually results in a "I don't care" response followed by "I guess I am not eating because I don't want what you are coo... Sun, 7 Jan 2018 13:21:13 EST It's freaking freezing, Bigglesworth! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6447082 I moved to the Carolinas to get away from brutal cold and snow. I'm happy to say I have no snow, but boy is it cold! They are saying the wind chill is going to be about -5 farenheit in my area. When you are not used to that, it's not pleasant! Doesn't stop me from going to work though! Now if we could get the office temperature above 65 degrees it would be great! <BR> <BR> Anyway, I'm doing okay so far this year with this plan of mine. I haven't had soda since New Year's eve, and I am ... Thu, 4 Jan 2018 08:31:22 EST 2018, here we go! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6445437 I was a very naughty girl and didn't take my medication yesterday. Needless to say I am a little swollen today, but that's ok. It's a new year and I am making an effort to get in better health. Please note I did not say shape, as I do not believe my shape defines who I am. <BR> <BR> I weighed in this morning at 327lbs even. I got less than 7 hours of sleep last night, but I got more than the 3 hours from the night before, so I count this as a win. <BR> <BR> Goals for 2018: <BR> <BR> 1:... Mon, 1 Jan 2018 09:50:07 EST Life's Simple Joys http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6444926 I'd like to introduce you all to someone very special to our family. Say hello to Gingersnap, our kitty. She's keeping Boo's chair warm this early morning, as you can see. <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/4b902a95-8346-49ee-b905-ee1014a060ec.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Ginger came to us in August this year by appearing on our front porch sans mother cat or siblings. At approximately 3 weeks old, she was so tiny, and friendly. We just couldn't leave her out in the wilds of our busy s... Sun, 31 Dec 2017 06:56:08 EST Well this is not what I expected http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6439060 It's been a week, in the sense that I wish it hadn't gone the way that it did mostly. <BR> <BR> Thursday we had tickets to go see Trans Siberian Orchestra. I came home from work a little early so I could rest before the show. After an hour of resting, I got up to go to the ladies room, and managed to stub the little toe on my right foot. This is where you can insert the hopping up and down, various colorful words, etc. After finishing up in the ladies, I went back to bed to wait for the ... Sun, 10 Dec 2017 10:53:10 EST A Gift http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6437890 It's that gift giving time of year. I'm one who loves to give to people. For instance, when I stopped at Dunkin Donuts Saturday on my way home from Walmart (really wanted a coffee), I paid for a dozen donuts the woman behind me had ordered. Of course I will do random acts of kindness (RAK) all throughout the year. It's who I am. I believe in being the change I want to see in the world around me. If I can make one person's day brighter, then it's a good day. <BR> <BR> Well, I gave a gif... Wed, 6 Dec 2017 08:13:06 EST Day 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6436958 Friday I managed 4 hours out of 10, which is becoming my average. Yesterday, I only managed to hit 2 hours. I admit it, I was lazy yesterday morning...right up until 2pm. I just didn't feel like moving at all! I was tired and feeling run down. I forced myself to go out to the store, and got the Christmas tree fluffed, added lights and added garland. Plex and I even added a new decoration to the outside display. At 9:30pm I went to bed. This is WAY early for me, but I needed that recha... Sun, 3 Dec 2017 08:26:32 EST Challenge Day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6436371 I didn't get to write a blog for Day 3, as I hit the ground writing yesterday (I can't even say running). I'll explain later. <BR> <BR> When I checked to see how I did on day 2 of my personal challenge, I saw that I hit my goal 5 out of the 10 hours for steps. Yay me! Woot! Go Go Go!!! (Yeah, I am my own cheerleading section at times, what can I say) I didn't hit the overall goal of 5,000 steps, but I did add 30 more squats in so not too shabby. <BR> <BR> Checking on how I did on Day ... Fri, 1 Dec 2017 08:39:34 EST Challenge Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6435745 Yesterday I hit 250 steps only 3 hours out of the 10 hours I have it set up for on my Fitbit. For some reason I just don't feel the reminder vibrations to get up and move, and I had a bit hit me in the afternoon at work. I am, however, glad I made that effort anyway. I historically wasn't hitting those 250 steps more than once or twice a day, so I already have improvement! <BR> <BR> In addition to making the effort to up the steps, I did 50 squats during the course of the morning. Basica... Wed, 29 Nov 2017 07:52:28 EST Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6435433 Goodness knows I have enough emotional challenges in my life right now....hubby out of work and now my daughter's boyfriend (who lives with us) is struggling with the death of his grandma on top of his already challenging depression issues. What I need now is a physical challenge....something to get me moving more. <BR> <BR> I took a look at the current challenges here, and unfortunately nothing was appealing. Nothing made me say "Yeah! I can do that!". So I will have to invent a challen... Tue, 28 Nov 2017 08:24:29 EST The Ring of Fire http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6433727 I've been having a country music kind of day for the last couple of days. Right now I am listening to Home Free's version of Ring of Fire originally performed by Johnny Cash. I find myself tapping my foot, bouncing my head, and my mood to be generally happier when I am listening to this. How can it be wrong? <BR> <BR> Today is my husband's last day of work. He's being laid off again, but I am beginning to get used to this. Every fourth quarter they let the contractors go to make their n... Wed, 22 Nov 2017 09:37:04 EST Have I mentioned? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6429978 I have a piece of exercise equipment in my house. I honestly do! It's a Gazelle, and let me tell you, it looks way easy but holy moly is it a work out!! <BR> <BR> Boo received it from her boyfriend's mother who wasn't using it when Boo mentioned that it would be nice to have. I started using it when I was booting my computer, waiting for cut screens to load, had a few minutes where I needed to wait for something, etc. I can't do a 10 minute workout on it. What a wake up call that was!... Fri, 10 Nov 2017 06:57:16 EST Every little thing I do is magic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6429716 It's been a whirlwind few weeks. Aside from a viral asthma attack that is still lingering (got to love allergy induced asthma), I made my annual trek to Oregon for my cross stitch convention. I was not going to miss that for anything, so off I went even though breathing was an issue (pulled a muscle in my back from the coughing). It was a fantastic trip, and I moved ALOT. I tried to get as many steps as I could and tried to eat as healthy as possible. I was taking prednisone, so I retain... Thu, 9 Nov 2017 09:36:11 EST Progress is progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6424503 So last night I changed into comfy clothes so I could get down to the business of sewing. I had a project I needed to finish before my trip to Oregon (I leave tomorrow morning for a week), and I like being comfy when I am at the machine. My favorite choice of comfy clothes is yoga pants and a scrub top. Well, I had a NSV when I changed. <BR> <BR> My scrub top, which is normally tight around the hips, was loose. Noticeably loose. I mentioned it to my loving husband, who gave me a thumbs ... Tue, 24 Oct 2017 08:20:04 EST Learning as I go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6422666 For 23 years I have had an issue with my left ankle and foot swelling. It's not painful, but it does make shoes difficult to wear at times. I cannot wear my heels at all anymore, and nothing with straps. I have a closet full of shoes and boots I cannot wear! No one had been able to tell me what was going on. I went to many doctors and specialists. I had MRI's, CT scans, ultrasound veinous studies. Nothing to say why the ankle swelled, but they did find tumors that I didn't know I had (... Wed, 18 Oct 2017 10:24:36 EST Keep on moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6422106 So much has happened since May. <BR> <BR> My previous job stress is no more, simply because I was laid off in August. Don't worry about me. I landed my dream job 8 days later! Better hours, better pay, even get to work from home one day a week. I am so much more relaxed now, and it shows! <BR> <BR> My weight had ballooned up again while I was stressing out, but I am back down to where I was in December so I am good with this. We were given a Gazelle machine which I have been starting... Mon, 16 Oct 2017 15:28:39 EST Simple pleasures http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360965 Yesterday I took the day off from work to go to the foot doctor. Turns out I have plantar fasciitis, AND lymphedema. Took 24 years for the diagnosis on the latter. But I know what it is now. <BR> <BR> Boo is adjusting to her meds, which makes for some funny moments. Last night I decided that it was time to find the dining room table again and use it for its intended purpose. I cleaned it off, dusted it, put out placemats, fancy napkins, silverware and the smaller sized plates. Hubby an... Fri, 12 May 2017 09:38:35 EST I haven't blogged in so long, but there's a reason http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6360342 Last summer was hell. The grieving process was far more difficult than any I had previously encountered, mostly because it's my child who was grieving in addition to myself. Grief counseling was helpful, but other things got triggered along the way. <BR> <BR> Work has not gotten any better. I am not on my 4th boss since last summer, and she's a consultant. I'm seeking other employment opportunities, as I am feeling that my current employment is toxic for me. My dear Plex was laid off in... Wed, 10 May 2017 21:30:25 EST Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6217181 The physical manifestation of stress is painful. Very, very painful. I know, because mine came to a head this week and I am still trying to recover from it. <BR> <BR> Between the death of Craig, the bill for the IRS, trying to be the interim QA Manager and interim QA site director on top of doing my normal stressful job, I've been completely stressed out. I haven't been sleeping well, I'm not eating well, I'm not exercising like I should be and I am not happy. After being at work I don't... Sat, 13 Aug 2016 09:40:24 EST Life goes on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6204190 Last week my daughter and I travelled north for the funeral of her boyfriend. It was an emotionally trying trip, to be sure. I got to see my father, sister and one of my nieces. I stayed with my best friend who accompanied us to the service. My husband's best friend met us at the service, and stood in for Plex who couldn't get the time from work. My oldest daughter spent the weekend with me. We were surrounded by so much love, and we needed it. <BR> <BR> Now it's back home and back to ... Thu, 21 Jul 2016 07:57:15 EST Strength http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6197976 Thank you, everyone, for reaching out to me in the past week to comfort my family and I, for the useful information, the support. All of it. It has helped very much. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was the Celebration of Remembrance for him. I spoke with his mother shortly before, and she didn't want to go through with it. I can't say I wouldn't have felt the same had our roles been reversed. We could not attend as it was held in FL. This week is when it will be hardest for us. In 6 days we will ... Sun, 10 Jul 2016 09:52:03 EST Grief beyond measure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6194124 Last night I had to tell my youngest daughter that the young man she loved beyond his measure had died. That was not what made it hard. I am a mother, and I know how to handle the hard times. What made it hard was everything leading up to his death at the age of 27. <BR> <BR> He was an addict. She had been dating him on and off for 7 years. When he was clean and sober, he was with her and happy. When he relapsed, he would push her away, not wanting her to see him like that. He'd go to... Sun, 3 Jul 2016 13:37:36 EST Birthday Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185179 First I want to thank everyone for the lovely birthday wishes and goodies! They are lovely, and it's wonderful to feel so much love! <BR> <BR> This week I turned 50. I know plenty of women who freak out about the BIG 5 0. Honestly, it doesn't bother me in the slightest. I don't feel any different than I did the day before (well, actually I feel slightly better than the day before, but that's jut being nit picky). The best part of turning 50 though was actually because it was quiet. No ... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 12:38:11 EST A victory of sorts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6184511 Today I hit 100 days of consistently logging in to SP. Not too shabby. If anything, it speaks to my being a creature of habit <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> It's been quite a time of change for myself and my family. It's been interesting, sometimes stressful, but always in a forward motion. This is good in my book. My home is slowly being transformed. We have purchased a computer desk for Boo and one for Plex. They are now set up in the "office" at the front of the house. Plex cleaned ou... Fri, 17 Jun 2016 08:45:37 EST Recovering my peace of mind one step at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6163467 It's been a week since we moved the roommates out and into their own place. In the past week we have been recovering the space we had given up for them one step at a time. As we reorganize our home, I am regaining my inner peace. I desperately need my place to be organized in such a way that there is no conflict. When I have peace of mind, everyone else seems to gain theirs as well. <BR> <BR> First thing we did was clean the room that they had used as their bedroom. With that done, we... Sun, 15 May 2016 14:00:42 EST Busy busy busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6158052 I've been going like gangbusters lately. <BR> <BR> 1) Back and neck problems from last week are diagnosed as degenerative disc disease. What that means is that I get to go to physical therapy twice a week for the next 4 weeks to strengthen the back to help alleviate the neck pain. I get to work out!!!! Woot!! <BR> <BR> 2) I am back to my normal workload at work. I'm very far behind from spending 8 months on someone else's job, so I have a lot to keep me going! <BR> <BR> 3) I lost weig... Sat, 7 May 2016 07:47:12 EST Direction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6151062 Couple of things going on which I am excited about. <BR> <BR> 1) The Kickstart campaign for our game was successful! Now to finish up the contracts with the manufacturer and get the art from the artist to the graphic artist. <BR> <BR> 2) My friend and his wife have found a house to rent of their own. This means I will get my house back to normal soon! This is very important for my mental well being. It's been hard being with him 24/7 (we also work in the same department and office). ... Tue, 26 Apr 2016 22:21:32 EST Who do you think you are? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6146432 Warning....this is a rant of sorts. This is not directed at anyone here on Sparkpeople. <BR> <BR> I need to use the printer/scanner in the front of the office frequently. Everything I do has to be printed then scanned. I make multiple trips to the copier a day. I log over 4000 steps a day just making that walk back and forth. I have done it without complaint. Heck, I designed the office to make the printer access more convenient for YOU. <BR> <BR> What gives YOU the right to make a co... Wed, 20 Apr 2016 10:59:58 EST Keeping the demons at bay...or trying to http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6140518 I've been buried in work these last few months. Not only at my full time day job, but also with the game business my husband and I are not partners in. We are nearing the end of a Kickstart campaign to raise funds for our next product, and the stress of not know if we will make it to our goal or not is eating me up. If you are curious and want to lear more, this is the link to our Kickstart campaign. <link>kck.st/1RU5W5n </link> <BR> <BR> This is near and dear to me. My husband and ... Tue, 12 Apr 2016 08:25:19 EST Decisions Decisions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6098818 So, I've been taking a long hard look at my weight loss journey and have come to the conclusion that I need help. I am yo-yoing on the scale, even when I shouldn't be. I'm tired all the time. I get sick more than I should. I feel swollen, my toes hurt most of the time, and have trouble breathing walking across the parking lot to my office in the morning. It makes it difficult to exercise (I do it anyway), but progress such as I have made is lacking so to speak. <BR> <BR> For the record,... Thu, 18 Feb 2016 08:07:27 EST They said what??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6097967 Over the last two days, I have heard things said (or been told what was said in the first case) that make me cock my head to one side and say "Aroo?". It dawned on me this morning that I seem to be doing this far more often than I care to. Maybe I should write a blog about it? <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> Scenario 1: Boo is up north visiting with a friend. They had made plans to get their hair done at the salon that a childhood friend of mine owns. When they walked in, my ex husband (her ... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 08:24:33 EST This is what it's all about http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6091697 http://www.msn.com/en-us/health/weightloss<BR>/this-is-absolutely-the-worst-weight-l<BR>oss-mistake-you-can-make/ar-BBp1MOF?li<BR>=BBnb7Kx&ocid=iehp <BR> <BR> I read this article like I do so many other "news" type articles lately...with a grain of skepticism (because salt makes me retain water <em>20</em> ). But honestly, it's pretty spot on to what Spark tries to teach us here. <BR> <BR> I see so many people doing "cleanses", "carb restrictions", "sugar restrictions" and I wonder if t... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 10:12:19 EST Snow Day and other things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6078553 We had snow over the weekend here in NC. More accurately, we had rain, which then turned to sleet and freezing rain, which then turned to snow, then back to freezing rain. My lawn is completely covered still today with that white stuff, and I could ice skate in my driveway (it's a completely smooth sheet of ice). So where am I? I am at work, of course! They had predicted that Friday would be bad, and when I got up for work and looked out, I called out. Yeah, I'm from New England, but le... Mon, 25 Jan 2016 08:55:06 EST NSV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6063878 Couple of NSV's for me. <BR> <BR> 1) When the doctor gave me a cortisone shot in my shoulder (it's been bugging me for a month), I asked about weight training and resistance training. He said not for the next two weeks. My response to him was "Oh ok, I'll just do cardio and work out my legs and abs instead." I didn't even think to NOT exercise at all, which in the past would have been my whole attitude. <BR> <BR> 2) I've been standing up in my cubicle every hour and walking in place fo... Fri, 8 Jan 2016 09:03:52 EST Finding the good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6062861 For about a month I've been having shoulder pain. It was annoying at first, and only if I moved a certain way. It has been getting steadily worse, and finally got to the point where it was disturbing my sleep, so off to the doctor I went. <BR> <BR> X rays showed the shoulder is perfect. No rotator cuff issues. Orthopedist says it could be a complication of my diabetes called Frozen Shoulder. He opted to give me a couple of cortisone shots in the shoulder. If your diabetes is not under ... Thu, 7 Jan 2016 07:53:15 EST Post holiday wrap up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6053889 This was a very nice holiday for us. Getting the cancer-free news made it the best by far. We relaxed, enjoyed family and friends company and really focused on what is important...the people in our lives. <BR> <BR> Yes, there were gifts involved, but by far a much smaller gift giving season for us. I did not feel guilty for the first time since becoming a parent, and I didn't worry that I would be disappointing the kids in any way. Everyone was just...HAPPY. <BR> <BR> My mother-in-law... Mon, 28 Dec 2015 09:42:01 EST Merriest Christmas News http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6052017 I came in to work this morning with one thing on my mind....I need to get as much done as possible. When my phone rang, I got the best news ever. The lump they found is benign. Hearing that there is no cancer is the best gift anyone could have given me. <BR> <BR> Now we know, and we can move forward without fear of the dreaded "What If" hanging over our heads! I was so excited about the news that I let out a shout in the office (after the required disclaimer that it was not intended to s... Thu, 24 Dec 2015 08:48:20 EST Interesting questions I was asked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6049417 Yesterday I was asked if I am scared of what might be found. That's difficult to answer. Overall, no I'm not scared. Concerned? You bet. That doesn't mean that I am not having moments when I want to scream. <BR> <BR> I was also asked if I had any pain. Well, only if I wear the wrong brassiere or lay on my stomach to fall asleep. Crushing hugs...yeah...those hurt...ALOT. <BR> <BR> How do I shut off my brain from doing the "what if" game? That's easier. Right now I am listening to Ch... Fri, 18 Dec 2015 15:07:45 EST Well shoot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6048278 So I had the second look yesterday. Instead of another mammogram, they went straight to sonogram. I had brought the films of the first mammogram with me, and the doctor at the breast health place said this was the way to go. He's very nice, and once he knew I understood a lot more than the average person, he spoke to me on my level. I like that. <BR> <BR> Anyway, it's not a cyst like we had hoped it would be. It's a decent size, I can feel it now that I know exactly where it is, and it ... Wed, 16 Dec 2015 07:45:39 EST Family love http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6047875 This past weekend I travelled back to my home state to celebrate my dad's 80th birthday. We purposely scheduled it for 2 weeks after his birthday to surprise him, and boy did we! He had no idea that Plex, Boo and I were even in town! Best part is that we were all together. <BR> <BR> Here's all of my dad's grandkids. They range in age from 3 years to 25 years! Of course two of them are mine (love my Boo and Panda!), and all my nieces and nephews own a piece of my heart! <BR> <img src="h... Tue, 15 Dec 2015 11:51:16 EST Taking the steps http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023585 So I'm doing this whole quit smoking thing under a doctor's guidance. Because of the medications I am on, I have to monitor several things daily...like blood sugar and blood pressure. This is not a bad thing in my book. And this guy is on top of his game, and the data from my experience will go into research. <BR> <BR> First step: Figure out exactly how many cigarettes I am smoking a day. I say about 10, but sometimes it's more and sometimes it's less. <BR> <BR> Second step: Figure ou... Fri, 30 Oct 2015 08:14:33 EST The price for years of bad living http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6023036 Having spent so many years not taking care of myself properly have caught up to me. Every year around this time I get struck down by an asthma attack. It's allergy and temperature related (leaf mold and the first hard frost) is what I keep telling myself, but if I am honest with myself I have to admit that it's more than that. <BR> <BR> It's being 150 pounds overweight. It's 36 years of smoking. It's not caring enough about what I put into my body that got me here. I wasn't like this wh... Thu, 29 Oct 2015 08:06:38 EST