WAY2GOCAT's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WAY2GOCAT WAY2GOCAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Short and Long Range Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752658 Starting week 3 of the 10 minute Daily Exercise Challenge today! <em>243</em> <BR> <BR> Thinking I'll do the arm & shoulder <em>85</em> video this week. Used to use 5 lb weights, but don't think I can manage that now. Going to WM today and will probably pick up a pair of 2 pounders! <em>34</em> <BR> <BR> Will have to see what I'd find fun! Not very fond of exercise. I do what I must! <BR> <BR> Looked over list of fun ideas and 3 stuck out to me! <BR> <BR> 1) Walk & talk. This ... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 06:12:00 EST This Is All New To Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751137 Walked 1+ mile Saturday and SCRUBBED the house from top to bottom! It took me 9 hours! <em>244</em> I also did a load of laundry, sheets and pillowcases, and hung on the line! I've been walking every morning this week (except Sunday and today) and keeping the house clean and picked up! I've kept moving! <em>243</em> And I sparked a lot, of course! <em>252</em> Boy is it hard taking care of a new big puppy! I'm POOPED!!! <BR> <BR> TIME FOR A REST DAY!!! <em>224</em> Or maybe ... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 14:08:21 EST Princess' New Family http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5746544 Better picture of Princess - @6 months old! And me <em>102</em> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1268124200.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Me when I weighed my lowest, 143 and Sarah, our Little Mama - 3 yrs old! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l1403744930.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Baby Chico - 4 years old <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1209148715.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> Sarah and Chico's 1st baby, Baby Amy - 9... Fri, 25 Jul 2014 18:53:39 EST Picture of Princess http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744332 We went out again looking for Princess' owner. We went to the park and found the ladies who'd been there when we took her and no one's come around asking about her! This is since last Wednesday! I, frankly can't believe it! There is no lost flyer there either. We went back to places that don't allow flyers and asked if anyone had come in searching for a lost dog. No one, not all week. We drove nearby neighborhoods where we found her and asked around, even if anyone had ever seen a big ... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 15:18:02 EST Princess http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743126 We checked the local paper Saturday and couldn't find a LOST DOG pst. We'll check Wednesday, too, the next time they come out. <BR> <BR> We've also checked every bulletin board in our small town. Still nothing. <BR> <BR> We've also gone to the town's only Animal Shelter and there's been no one searching for her or reported her lost. <BR> <BR> FINALLY, Friday we printed and posted Dog Found signs all over town with Princess's picture, description, and our 2 phone numbers attached to lots ... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 02:56:03 EST OH NO! NOT AGAIN! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742615 This time, it's my "awesome" blog! <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> The computer gremlins got it! <em>18</em> <BR> <BR> I NEED to REMEMBER to post early! <BR> <BR> I've learned! And relearned! <BR> <BR> Haven't I? <BR> <BR> I just forget! <em>28</em> <BR> <BR> Sun, 20 Jul 2014 09:56:14 EST My Fitbit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742204 Hummmm.... <BR> <BR> I forgot to wear my Fitbit again today!!! <BR> <BR> I NEED to put it where I 'll see it in the morning! I "used" to keep it on my nightstand, where I'd see it! <BR> <BR> But, somehow, I lost it! I have NO idea how! None! <BR> <BR> I later found it, actually, my husband, found it! <BR> <BR> 6 feet away, on my bed's railing!!!! <BR> <BR> How????? <BR> <BR> <em>38</em> <BR> Sat, 19 Jul 2014 16:30:46 EST Oh NO!!!!! MY COMMENT!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742191 The following is a comment I had written on someone's blog today! <BR> <BR> <BR> Boy! I had an <em>345</em> comment, if I do say so myself! <em>246</em> But alas..... <BR> <BR> ....the "computer gremlins" got it! Aw man! Really!.....it was <em>345</em> But, alas....... it is all gone now! <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> So <em>345</em> , I was gonna copy it and paste it into a blog of it's own! <BR> <BR> Why, oh why, didn't I post it early??? And then, go back and edit it? And then, ... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 16:12:42 EST Princess - Our New Addition to the Family! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5742130 I'm not great on being consistent walking in the park MWF. I'm really happy I went Wednesday though! We found a beautiful dog in the park that morning when I went for my scheduled walk at 0700 am! I saw her and first noticed how absolutely beautiful she was! She's a cocoa brown and white, with a white face and white socks! Oh my! She's big, about 35 lbs and young, still a pup about 6 months old. I don't really know what breed she is but she looks similar to a brown Canadian Eskimo Dog,... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 13:34:25 EST Expecting too much, too soon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5739477 To my husband,. <BR> <BR> I only came back to SP 21 days ago and watching what I eat for 16. I've expected too much out of myself, and you have too,, too soon. I haven't even given myself or the SP program a fighting chance and neither have you. I shouldn't be so hard on myself and you either. Afterall, I am trying my best! That should count for something! <BR> <BR> Why are you always so hard on me, only recognizing what I don't or can't do and always ignoring what I do do? Especially... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 15:33:07 EST Can You Undersand? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5738311 UNFATHOMABLE. I'm totally speechless. The absolute,"loving", dear husband of mine, Tito, whom I do nothing but lift up and sing praises about on FB,and SparkPeople,wakes me up from a sound sleep at midnight tonight, shoving a plate full of greasy food in my face, asking me to eat! It had 4 fried eggs smothered in cheddar cheese, 2 greasy flour tortilla cheddar cheese quesadillas with cheese oozing out of them, and 2 more flour tortillas pan fried in oil on the side! I could't believe it! Afte... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 03:18:38 EST I Vow to Make it a Better Nutrition Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5735120 <em>437</em> <em>437</em> <em>437</em> <em>437</em> <em>437</em> <em>437</em> <em>437</em> <em>437</em> <em>437</em> <em>437</em> <BR> <BR> I 'm turning the week around today having had 2 "less than ideal" nutrition days Monday and Tuesday! That's putting it lightly! <em>246</em> For a look-see, it's all logged into my nutrition tracker which I've made public for you, complete with notes! My fitness tracker is also public. <BR> <BR> Today is my DH's cleani... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 07:33:04 EST LabTest Results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5734009 I had some lab tests done last week and went to the doctor today to get the results. <BR> <BR> NOT THAT IDEAL. <BR> <BR> I continue to struggle with hypertension. I take 1 BP med already and my Doc added another. She also told me I needed to exercise more, but what I'm doing is a good start. <BR> <BR> Cholesterol is high. I had once gotten it under control with diet and exercise and I need to work on that again. Well meaning, my DH likes to feed me a hot b'fast in the mornings, the way h... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 18:17:37 EST My Dear Hubby and My Nutritional Progress Since June 25th http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5732433 <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Dear hubby is helping me out in the kitchen this morning chopping tomato, jalapeno peppers, serrano peppers onions, and fresh cilantro to go with the lengua (beef tongue? that we have cooking in the crock pot for today's lunch or dinner depending on how fast it cooks set on high. We planned on having lengua tacos for breakfast this breakfast this morning, but I accidently set the crockpot on "warm" at bedtime last night. Although, I'd preplanned and logged in toda... Sat, 5 Jul 2014 10:21:52 EST July 1 - Bill Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729866 Today is payday and bill day. I usually dread it, avoid it, and sometimes don't get it done until 5th of the month, even 10th of the month. <BR> <BR> it's noon payday and it's been done with only cell phone left to pay whenever bill is figured by ATT. It was easy. <em>334</em> <BR> <em>345</em> <BR> <BR> REMEMBER THIS CATHY! <BR> Tue, 1 Jul 2014 13:00:45 EST I Sure Feel Good! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5729072 <em>126</em> <em>126</em> <em>126</em> <em>126</em> <em>126</em> <em>126</em> <em>126</em> <em>126</em> <em>126</em> <BR> <BR> Rather than go back to bed at 0400 when I awoke for a bathroom trip, I decided to stay up and follow through with my commitment to go to the park and walk on Monday mornings. It didn't take much coaxing as I remembered how good it felt to follow through with my plans last week to begin exercising again! ! sure didn't want to let myself do... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 12:33:14 EST A New SparkFriend! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5728412 <em>375</em> <em>437</em> <em>375</em> <em>437</em> <em>375</em> <em>437</em> <em>375</em> <em>437</em> <em>375</em> <em>437</em> <BR> I just helped my sister-in-law log onto Spark after she expressed some interest in it. She's been encouraging me and supporting me my whole 2 year journey. I hope she finds some fun and productive things to do here. I sure have, and it's resulted in a lot of weight loss and good times and better health! It's a place to come wh... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 15:04:31 EST I'm Back! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5725650 Yesterday I came back to SP after a nine month hiatus! I began walking again today! I walked 10 minutes in the park this morning! It sure feels great to be back! Wed, 25 Jun 2014 13:22:50 EST New Ideal Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5724864 I reached my then ideal of 143 pounds September 15, 2013. I had trouble of maintaining my weight there as my optimal calorie goal remained 1200 calories, the same as it had been when I dieted to lose 55 pounds! I grew so tired of such a low-calorie goal. I had not eatem with my husband for 2 years and longed TO SHARE MEALS TOGETHER AGAIN and BREAK BREAD with him! I cooked for me and he had to cook for himself for over 2 years since I started Spark.! So sad! We really grew apart since I'... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 12:23:33 EST ALL ALONE AND HAVE NO FRIENDS OR FAMILY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683719 Just you. <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Cathleen Wed, 30 Apr 2014 06:53:19 EST NEED SUPPORT ASAP! PLEASE HELP! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683713 Is it just my DH or is it all men? Is it just my DH or does it sound like yours too? <BR> <BR> My DH (?) doesn't listen to my wants and needs and chooses to do the same old thing to me again and again. <BR> <BR> My DH (?) never supports, encourages, or offers me praise for a job well done even though that's what he always gets from me. He says I should be proud of myself and let that be enough. <BR> <BR> My DH (?) doesn't stand at the finish line of a race I've walked, hands in the air a... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 06:37:25 EST Break from HOT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683379 It's not quite so hot <em>259</em> today! Only 97 F at 4:30 pm. Actually, feels a lot cooler! It's been @ 106 for a few days and we've barricated ourselves in the office with the A/C. Got out to physical therapy at 1 pm and then the grocery store and Dollar General. Do y'all have those where you live? I pick up a lot of groceries there, much less expensive than the grocery. Oh, and a bag of candy too! <em>246</em> I can do that now, once in a while on maintenance!! <em>244</em> Cu... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 17:48:48 EST Happy Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5683130 Mmmmm...hot <em>106</em> <BR> <BR> Be blessed <em>437</em> <BR> <BR> Cathleen Tue, 29 Apr 2014 11:50:15 EST Be Blessed! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5681733 I copied this blog and am sharing it with you. I hope it blesses you as much as it did me! <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> This was sent to me today and I thought to share it with you. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. <BR> <BR> ~There was a blind girl who hates herself because she was blind. She hated everyone except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, " If I could see the world, I'd marry you". One day someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the b... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 16:21:28 EST SparkPeople Motivator http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671734 This morning I learned I've been awarded the SparkPeople Motivator award! It's a dream come true and I have God and you my SparkFriends to thank! Thank you so much for your confidence in me! It's quite an honor and I pray I can continue live up to it. Having met my goal weight and achieving i year sobriety, my focus has gone from me to you. I want to give away what has been so freely given to me and encourage you that if I can do it, so can you! Mon, 14 Apr 2014 06:30:22 EST Time to Celebrate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671344 Join me as I celebrate 1 year sober today! All by the grace of God Thank you Jesus! <em>409</em> <em>410</em> Thanks to all my sparkfriends who were with me and supported me from the beginning! Sun, 13 Apr 2014 17:51:40 EST Back on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5671264 After reaching my final goal, I went nuts. The pounds were creeping up. I regained 13 lbs. Of course not happy with myself for allowing this to happen, I put on the brakes. Although I didn't go into diet mode again, I made a consorted effort to put all I had learned about nutrition into practice In short, I watched what I ate very carefully. I accepted the idea that I couldn't continue to eat a bag full of gummies in one shot. Since I love them so much, and couldn't eat them in moderat... Sun, 13 Apr 2014 15:44:57 EST Computer Problems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5655525 Sparkfriends, I think my computer is crashing. Having a lot of issues. Please bear with me as I try to to get it resolved. There are a lot of you that have responded to my blogs as well as visited my page and sent me sparkgoodies. I want to get back with all of you personally. At this moment, all seems to be ok. If you don't see me, know that I'll be getting back with you as possible. Love you all. Thanks for understanding! <BR> <BR> Mon, 24 Mar 2014 16:02:05 EST My Concession http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5654764 After 9 months of frustration, I, conceded that I had reached my set point of 143 and that the 125 of my youth was truly unrealistic for me. I also saw how I was unwilling to do what might be necessary to maintain such a low weight. Once I conceded and changed my tracker, I became comfortable in my skin and actually began to like where I was. My clothes that I had hung onto, fit and I didn't desire a thinner neck and face. I thought I might look like I was malnourished should I lose more. Act... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 18:11:59 EST Good Morning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653010 <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> Good morning everyone! Up since 4 am when my 5 month old puppy, Amy, woke me to go outside. Looking to tell everyone "Make today great." Fri, 21 Mar 2014 08:38:21 EST Spring is Here http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650670 <em>125</em> <em>87</em> <em>125</em> <em>125</em> <em>87</em> <em>125</em> <em>87</em> <em>125</em> <em>87</em> <em>125</em> <em>87</em> <em>125</em> <BR> As soon as I feel better from my recent hospitalization, I'll be out there again walking gaining strength, Has been a rough winter healthwise. Broke my arm and fractured my knee. Was in a wheelchair for awhile, but am using a beautiful cane now. Do you think I have what it takes? Tue, 18 Mar 2014 10:46:47 EST Make Your Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650097 Going to make this a super day because it's in my control to. Putting on my new shorts set and spending some time outside on this beautiful Spring day! Have a great day wherever you are and God bless you! Mon, 17 Mar 2014 15:49:16 EST BLC25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5650096 Can anyone tell me when the new BLC starts? BLC23 was my last and I'd like to join again. Miss the focus and need to get back on track after reaching goal. Feel lost. <em>39</em> Mon, 17 Mar 2014 15:45:21 EST A New Healthy Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5521514 <em>67</em> <em>375</em> <em>67</em> <em>375</em> <em>67</em> <em>375</em> <em>67</em> <em>375</em> <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> Hi Friends, <BR> <BR> Just wanted to let you all know that I hit goal weight today! I thought my journey was over, but I have realized it has just begun. My new goals are to maintain my new, healthy weight and spread the gospel of Jesus Christ. <BR> <BR> Thanks for all your support on this weight-loss journey. You each mean the world to me. ... Wed, 23 Oct 2013 17:02:41 EST BLC23 Workout Schedule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5496316 Wednesday -rest <BR> <BR> Thursday -ST 50 minutes (or TNT) <BR> <BR> Friday - Walk It Out 10 minutes, 80's Aerobics 10 Minutes <BR> <BR> Saturday - Walk It Out, 80's Aerobics <BR> <BR> Sunday - yoga <BR> <BR> Monday - ST 50 minutes <BR> <BR> Tuesday - Walk It Out 20 minutes, 80's Aerobics 20 minutes (LCW) <BR> <BR> Wed, 25 Sep 2013 21:45:28 EST My Workout plans Wed 9/25/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5495512 Didn't do the 5K as planned yesterday. Thought better than to overdo my walk 1st day out. I haven't walked since last spring. When most people head outdoors in the spring and summer, I stay indoors and head out again in the fall and winter when it cools off. <BR> <BR> Wednesday is supposed to be my rest day, but other than the mile fitness test, I took my rest day Tuesday, This morning, I'm back indoors for 10 Minutes Cardio Blast Walk It Out workout and 10 minutes Cardio Blast 80's Ae... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 03:20:21 EST Change of Plans http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5494598 Rather than do my Cardio Blast DVD today, I'll be walking a virtual 5K race and timing a 1 mile fitness test. I also have to do 1 minute crunch, pushup, and squat fitness tests. Tue, 24 Sep 2013 08:38:11 EST Sunday 9/22/13 Workout http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5493081 Sunday 9/22 Day 5 28-Day Bootcamp Workout Challenge (x2) 20 minutes; Cardio Blast Walk It Out 10 minutes, 80's Aerobics 10 minutes <BR> Sun, 22 Sep 2013 19:32:22 EST Workout Schedule 9/18 - 9/24 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5488303 Increase dumbbell weight to 10 lbs. <em>34</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Wednesday 9/18 Rest Day <BR> <BR> Thursday 9/19 Day 2 28-Day Bootcamp Workout Challenge x2 20 minutes; Cardio Blast Walk It Out 10 minutes, 80's Aerobics 10 minutes <BR> <BR> Friday 9/20 Day 3 28-Day Bootcamp Workout Challenge x2 @ 20 mintues; Cardio Blast Walk It Out 10 minutes, 80's Aerobics 10 minutes <BR> <BR> Saturday 9/21 Day 4 28-Day Bootcamp Workout Challenge x2@ 20 minutes; Cardio Blast Walk It Out 10 minutes, 80'... Tue, 17 Sep 2013 13:08:56 EST Paranoia http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5485530 The day was going so well. Woke up at 0130 am and started my workout at 0500. At 0600, took a break and watched my favorite old show: "Rifleman" at 0600. At 0700, continued my workout and worked out an additional 20 minutes to give me half a day's workouts. Planned on a second workout at 1200. Worked on curtains for the kitchen and got them hung. Beautiful! I was proud of myself and hubby agreed. He said I'd done a great job! <em>334</em> We took the board off the window and DH co... Sat, 14 Sep 2013 16:54:51 EST Revised Workout Schedule http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5483309 Wednesday Rest Yoga 20 Minutes <BR> <BR> Thursday Day 2, x2; 10 Minute Bootcamp Cardio Workout x2 <BR> <BR> Friday Day 3, x2; Cardio Blast Walk It Out, 80's Aerobics <BR> <BR> Saturday Day 7 x2; Cardio Blast Walk It Out, 80's Aerobics <BR> <BR> Sunday Day 5 x2; Cardio Blast Walk It Out; 80's Aerobics <BR> <BR> Monday Day 6 x2; Cardio Blast Walk It Out; 80's Aerobics (x2 workouts) <BR> <BR> Tuesday Day 4; 80's Aeorobics <BR> Thu, 12 Sep 2013 03:43:06 EST Putting Off Working Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5478849 The more opportunity I have to exercise, the more I put it off. Worked out at 0400 am this morning for 36 minutes, but didn't finish because I got nauseous. I have hypoglycemia and didn't eat my pre-planned snack and got sick as a result. <em>24</em> Now, I want to finish, but I just don't feel like it. I know once I get started, I'll love it as I always do these days having found something I enjoy. The getting started part is the hardest. I don't understand myself. I know I'll enjoy ... Sat, 7 Sep 2013 18:03:34 EST Annual Flu Shot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477743 Got mine Wednesday. Are you getting yours this year? Fri, 6 Sep 2013 11:50:33 EST More Water http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477306 Today's SparkCoach challenged me to take my water with me wherever i go. I'm already in the habit of doing this and took my water to the store before I went to SparkCoach. It really does encourage me to drink more water throughout the day. I used to be addicted to coffee but have gotten out of the habit. It was a goal of mine to drink more water than coffee and now I am. Had to put in a conscious effort to do it at first and struggled a lot, but now it's a new habit I've developed. <em>... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 23:53:20 EST Paranoia http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477071 Doctor says I'm gonna have to live with it. Liver enzymes are up and he won't prescribe any medication. Heard on a praise and worship CD Tuesday if you have a problem, just take it to Jesus. So, Jesus, here I am Lord, paranoia and all. Please forgive me for seeking help somewhere else 1st. Help me always bring my problems to You first because You can do all things and have all power. I've turned my life over to you, so it's your problem to deal with, You've used the paranoia to bring me... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 19:25:58 EST Mild paranoia - ALL Day 9/3/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5475122 Been mildly to moderately paranoid all day. Affecting speech, typing, eyesight, cooking. Jesus is keeping it under control with Scriptures coming to my remembrance and Tito telling me some, Listened to 20-30 min of Bible and a different Christian P & W Cd from Trinity. Even did low-impact aerobics to it and want to to come up with a cardio workout routine. Woke up at 6 am w/it. Now, it's 3:30 pm and doing Spiritual Warfare (SW). quoting, reading, believing Scripture. <BR> <BR> Been listeni... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 22:24:23 EST Scriptures for Spritual Warfare - 9/3/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474839 <BR> <BR> Ephesians 6:10-18 We battle not against flesh and blood but against principalities powers, rulers of the darkness of this world... <BR> <BR> No weapon formed against me shall prosper. Is 54:17 <BR> <BR> I can do all things through Chrisi who strenghens me. Phil 4:13 <BR> <BR> Be sober. be vigilent, because your adversary, the devil, walks about as a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. 1 Peter 5:8 <BR> <BR> ...if you abide in My word, you are My disciples indeed. A... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 16:47:10 EST Severe Paranoia X2 & Mod X1 - 8/25/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474819 Severe paranoia x2 that only sleep cured, x1 that a movie took care of. Evil movie with demons. Christian music no effect anymore; makes it worse. Even more worried about my spiritual life now. I knew I was not living a righteous life, far from Christ. When I was close to Jesus between 2005-2008, evil movies used to upset me (on FIRE for Jesus); then in 2009 -2012 was immune to them, not caring it I watched or not; (Lukewarm). smoked, smoked, and drank and now evil movies are helping ... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 16:19:40 EST Sep 3, 2013 - Thoughts on paranoia (0530 am) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474303 What if i get psychotic & can't get back? What if i go insane? <BR> <BR> tito says: you do it to yourself! not willing. I will not. I can do all things... <BR> <BR> Not true. Why choose this? Just happens. Can't stop (prevent or cure). <BR> <BR> I take Risperidone/risperidol) 3 mg/2 X day. Need heavier dose or something else/something emergency. Now lasts 16 hours+ or more. Can go into days. <BR> <BR> Worse over years. <BR> <BR> 1999 - Started w/music <BR> 2000 - Watching eyes everywh... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 08:16:56 EST Sep 2, 2013 Severe Paranoia X3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5474302 My paranoia (Psychosis) is getting worse and worse. Only sleep cures, even just a little nap, The delusions are so real - can't tell real from unreal, truth from lie. Don't know what to do. <BR> <BR> - Put on belt of truth. Ephesians 6:14 <BR> <BR> It usually starts with 1 thought like....someone/see/look/think about me.. no basis in truth but who cares, doesn't make sense.... <BR> Then other thoughts come and I can't tell reality from delusion like...tito/death, ambulance/tito, irma/he... Tue, 3 Sep 2013 08:15:01 EST