WATERMELLEN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=WATERMELLEN WATERMELLEN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ On the mend http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6319388 The antibiotics are kicking in: more slowly than hoped. And the standard cold meds plus lozenges are helping manage the symptoms, including a hacking cough which was making it hard to sleep. Last night, a solid 8 hours: and that has such a huge impact on general well-being. <BR> <BR> I would not choose pneumonia. But have to say -- if some sickness will happen in a lifetime, probably best for it to happen during a break with nothing pressing at work. And: the kindness and concern of DH ... Tue, 21 Feb 2017 14:08:10 EST Just a touch of http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6317959 . . . pneumonia!! Gahhhhhhhh!! <BR> <BR> Not what a person most wants while taking a break. <BR> <BR> But: got to an urgent medical care centre. Got some antibiotics. Hope to be much much better soon!! Sat, 18 Feb 2017 16:22:17 EST Sales Person Has No Cash http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6316735 That's what the sign said on the Lay's truck spotted by DH today. And quick as a flash he said, lots of people would be more likely to hold 'em up for the potato chips!! That would be me, that would be me!! Wed, 15 Feb 2017 22:40:02 EST Taking a Spark Break!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6315471 I will be back: and I will be lurking of course. Me and the mobile app aren't entirely simpatico!! Mon, 13 Feb 2017 13:15:29 EST Taking a Spark Break!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6315470 I will be back: and I will be lurking of course. Me and the mobile app aren't entirely simpatico!! Mon, 13 Feb 2017 13:15:28 EST Keeping On! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6313295 I'm really struck by how valuable I'm still finding that recent Beck trek reboot. <BR> <BR> And how the Beck "heart of darkness" -- the 9 thinking mistakes, the 7 questions -- which I resisted rebelliously for so long are becoming integrated into my approach: not only to weight maintenance but more generally. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I found myself mentioning that a person was possibly engaging in "negative fortune telling"!! And accepting "unhelpful rules". And inviting him to consider if th... Thu, 9 Feb 2017 08:23:31 EST Bzzy!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6312999 And I love it of course. <BR> <BR> But: early hours this morning spent in an "on-line" continuing education webinar. And then off to work and plunging right into the day's stuff . . . so no time to blog. <BR> <BR> Did not manage to get out for a recess walk either, sob sob. Missed it! <BR> <BR> And: meetings ran late plus spent about 45 minutes on the phone with a young student just "thinking about going to law school": always interesting too! <BR> <BR> Home to my minestrone soup and my... Wed, 8 Feb 2017 18:06:57 EST Increased Flavonoids Decreased Midsection Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6312176 <link>www.theglobeandmail.com/life/health-<BR>and-fitness/health/want-to-stay-slim-u<BR>p-your-flavonoid-intake/article33895368/ </link> <BR> <BR> An interesting British research study identifying the different types of flavonoids and indicating that stepping up the flavonoids -- especially the anthocyanins and the flavonols -- is strongly associated with packing on fewer pounds around the middle; specifically, a 9% lower central body mass. <BR> <BR> That's where I tend to carry extra ... Tue, 7 Feb 2017 08:11:32 EST Enjoy Every Bite! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6311627 <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=6311616 </link> <BR> <BR> Thanks BESSHAILE!! <BR> <BR> The Beck trek (and repeated reboots) is a huge "time suck" of effort and energy and yup, it's worth it. <BR> <BR> But for times when that sort of commitment isn't possible? The small tweaks (nutrition and fitness) are so helpful. <BR> <BR> Such as enjoying every bite. If I'm gonna eat it and track it, then for heaven's sake I've also gotta ENJOY it!! Y... Mon, 6 Feb 2017 08:17:00 EST 12,000 calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6311211 That's what it takes per day for 10 days to fuel one husky on a 14-dog sled team (each weighing 40-70 pounds), racing from Whitehorse to Fairbanks. <BR> <BR> <link>www.theglobeandmail.com/sports/yukon<BR>-quest-the-toughest-dog-sled-race-in-t<BR>he-world-arctic-winter-mushers/article<BR>33893904/ </link> <BR> <BR> Continuous motion, pretty much. <BR> <BR> Not sitting on the couch!! <BR> <BR> Just to put that 6,000 calories per Super Bowl watcher into perspective!! Sun, 5 Feb 2017 13:13:10 EST 6,000 calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6311141 That's the average number of extra calories purchased per American for Super Bowl snack. (In addition to meals). <BR> <BR> Super Bowl is the second biggest "eating day" per year for Americans. <BR> <BR> Really interesting. Pretty sure (judging from the stuff on offer at my grocery store yesterday) that Canadians aren't very different. <BR> <BR> I don't celebrate Super Bowl (believe it's football, don't know who's playing, won't be watching). <BR> <BR> But: I bought chicken wings yeste... Sun, 5 Feb 2017 10:23:18 EST Sparkly Day Coming Up!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6310607 Laundry's well under way. <BR> <BR> Quick trip to the gym next. <BR> <BR> And then: a drive north (it's sunny) to a small town where a former student is holding an art exhibition. I have a piece of her work hanging in my house and it will be fun to see what she's doing now!! <BR> <BR> Groceries and soup making can wait till tomorrow. Sat, 4 Feb 2017 09:37:26 EST Trivia A Student http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6310073 Oh yeah oh yeah: it doesn't happen very often but I DID score Trivia A student for January 2017. <BR> <BR> And am I rejoicing?? <BR> <BR> Not so much. <BR> <BR> Because: up until January 31st I was scoring 100%. ONE HUNDRED PERCENT!!!! UNPRECEDENTED!!! <BR> <BR> And then on January 31st I got 2 wrong. TWO!! <BR> <BR> Sob sob sob sob sob. <BR> <BR> And a few wahhhhhhhs also!! <BR> <BR> (Just a little justification? Stooooopid American questions that don't even apply to me up here i... Fri, 3 Feb 2017 08:25:55 EST Moving and Happiness: Bonus Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6309492 <link>www.theglobeandmail.com/life/health-<BR>and-fitness/health/even-a-little-movem<BR>ent-can-boost-your-mood-study-finds/ar<BR>ticle33849050/ </link> <BR> <BR> I've renamed "exercise" as "sanity breaks" or "recess": thanks SWEDE_SUE and ONEKIDSMOM!! <BR> <BR> And it makes me happy to see and hear a flock of mourning doves at recess. <BR> <BR> Now there's a study: 10,000 people who tracked their (mild) movement/exercise and correlated with their moods. <BR> <BR> Do we move more when ... Thu, 2 Feb 2017 08:01:44 EST A Flock of Mourning Doves http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6309461 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/a198fdf4-0095-469f-ba4f-4246fd33df1f.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Yesterday at "recess": more mourning doves (maybe 30?) than I've ever seen together before. <BR> <BR> I generally have a few mourning doves all winter at my bird feeders. <BR> <BR> But: Wikipedia tells me that mourning doves do migrate in flocks, beginning generally in March!! <BR> <BR> What a subtle array of greyish pink feathers. <BR> <BR> What a lovely chorus of cooing sounds; you ... Thu, 2 Feb 2017 06:50:36 EST Blog Break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6308942 Oh my this last Beck Trek resulted in some LONG LONG blogs . . . <BR> <BR> And many thanks to Sparkies who read 'em and commented and contributed to my learning process. <BR> <BR> Now I'm going to continue working the Beckniques rigorously: and focusing on other more lighthearted stuff I'm thinking in my blogs . . . <BR> <BR> Such as the pleasure of hyacinths blooming on my kitchen table AND on my third floor window sill: the whole house smells of hyacinths. And the pleasure of heari... Wed, 1 Feb 2017 08:35:35 EST BDS Chapter 12: How To Stay At My New Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6308303 What we all want to know. <BR> <BR> Once I've compromised as realistic and accepted my lowest maintainable weight . . . how do I stay there? <BR> <BR> So this last chapter is a pretty important chapter, and one which I've also sluffed off in the past. <BR> <BR> But Beck has some very very important advice. If I want to get realistic about maintaining I need to listen and learn. Here's what she says will help: <BR> <BR> 1. Continue to weigh myself (in my case) daily. Already at the... Tue, 31 Jan 2017 07:58:07 EST BDS Chapter 11: Reprise It's Realistic To Expect http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6307652 This "lowest achievable weight" versus "lowest maintainable" weight analysis is truly one of the most significant concepts for me in Dr. Beck's program. Thanks for your great comments yesterday. <BR> <BR> But: It's absolutely (as many comments indicate you would like me to understand) something that eludes me. So: I'm spending an extra day here at Chapter 11. <BR> <BR> And Beck realizes that my response is a likely response. Because, like many of her readers/patients, "I want to be thi... Mon, 30 Jan 2017 06:28:57 EST BDS Chapter 11: When to Stop Losing and Start Maintaining http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6307113 I think that this is the question which many people have, and which most diet plans or programs fail to address at all. And that because no realistic maintenance goal weight is ever determined, maintenance simply does not happen. Most of us have had repeated experiences of losing weight and then regaining it all again. <BR> <BR> And most of us want to MAINtain: it's our MAIN reason for dieting in the first place. <BR> <BR> One of the reasons The Beck Diet Solution is such a useful appro... Sun, 29 Jan 2017 08:42:46 EST BDS Day 42 Practice, Practice, Practice http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306571 OK Beck tells us: I've taught you the skills. <BR> <BR> But: now it's about practising them. It's practising the skills that can change my brain to think like a thin person. That's why it makes sense to have that new To Do list. <BR> <BR> Does reading about bicep curls or watching exercise videos have a big effect on the body? Nope, not so much. And: neither does learning cognitive skills to lose weight if I don't exercise 'em. <BR> <BR> So: I should exercise 'em? Is Beck shouldi... Sat, 28 Jan 2017 06:25:57 EST BDS Day 41: Make a New To Do List http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6306363 This Beck trek has been so instructive for me. <BR> <BR> I've focused on aspects of Beck that I'd kind slid over the first three (or four, or was it five?) times! <BR> <BR> I've become more compliant, a little less rebellious (yes, took a recess sanity break today too!!) <BR> <BR> And Beck advises: make a new to-do list. So I've done that. Of course I'm going to keep on eating sitting down, telling myself "NO CHOICE", preplanning my eating (and sticking with the food I know works for me,... Fri, 27 Jan 2017 18:17:21 EST Beck Day 40: Enrich My Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6305440 What a lot of wonderfully helpful and supportive comments on yesterday's "exercise" blog. <BR> <BR> And yes: I did get out for my recess walk. Twenty brisk minutes. It was grey and cold but I saw some goldfinches in winter plumage scalloping through the sky. I cleared my head. <BR> <BR> Actually I enriched my life. And grabbed back a bit of sanity from the morning's stresses. <BR> <BR> Again, Beck's sequencing is brilliant and that's what I'm learning most from this particular reboot:... Thu, 26 Jan 2017 06:17:21 EST BDS Day 39: Keep Up With Exercise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6304828 Sequencing. <BR> <BR> Yesterday Beck told me that if I hit a plateau, one of the things I can do is step up the exercise by 15 minutes or so. <BR> <BR> And today she tells me: keep up with the exercise. <BR> <BR> Am I keeping up with exercise? <BR> <BR> Not so much. <BR> <BR> I have some "sabotaging thoughts" about exercise. Such as, exercise doesn't really make a difference with my weight. Such as, I can't really burn many calories exercising. Such as, the number of calories I bu... Wed, 25 Jan 2017 06:01:14 EST BDS Day 38: Dealing with a Plateau http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6304225 My weight doesn't move downwards on a continuously incremental decline. <BR> <BR> Oh no. <BR> <BR> At least I know from past tracking that I can expect 9 or 20 or more days at the same weight: and then a lurch downwards of a pound or more: like yesterday's 1.5. I can expect it. It is realistic to expect that . . . . my weight will plateau. <BR> <BR> And the reverse is true too: so that my weight can stay steady for weeks and then lurch upwards with alarming rapidity. Especially after a r... Tue, 24 Jan 2017 06:30:23 EST BDS Day 37: Reduce Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6303551 This Dr. Beck is psychic. A psychic sequencer. <BR> <BR> There I was yesterday all stressed out about no weight loss (yes yes yes, I am down 1.5 pounds today!!!) and needing help with believing. <BR> <BR> I did believe, I stuck with the program. <BR> <BR> And today she's all about reducing stress. <BR> <BR> How do I reduce stress? Yup, by fine-tuning the skills she's already introduced. <BR> <BR> First, I can try to solve the problem. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I actually solved the probl... Mon, 23 Jan 2017 06:32:14 EST BDS Day 36: Believe It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6302915 It's Chapter 10, all about "fine-tuning skills". <BR> <BR> And once again I'm struck by Beck's careful sequencing. Because Day 36 is all about believing that these skills work. I am supposed to stop doubting myself. <BR> <BR> It's difficult to believe when at weigh-in this morning the scales had NOT moved downwards. <BR> <BR> I know I know. I know. There will be weeks of no decrease, like this one. There will even be weeks of blip upwards (thank goodness not THIS week). But if I keep... Sun, 22 Jan 2017 06:12:05 EST BDS Day 35: Get Ready to Weigh In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6302468 Gahhh. <BR> <BR> I'm jealous: other current Beck trekkers report significant weight loss already. <BR> <BR> Me? I weighed this morning: 8th day in a row without scales budging downwards. And truly, there has been perfect compliance. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling upset. But that's OK. It doesn't mean I have to engage in emotional eating. <BR> <BR> Negative thoughts? Yup, a few. That "this time" Beck won't work for me: negative fortune telling. So I should just give up. All or nothing thi... Sat, 21 Jan 2017 10:53:49 EST Beck Day 34: Solve Problems http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6301819 Well! I truly believe that I am solving one problem with this Beck reboot: the unconscious emotional eating which had led to some "weight creep". <BR> <BR> Love the sequencing of the Beck program: because next she's looking at solving problems more generally. And yes, reviving the 7Q process to do so -- first identifying the "thinking error" and then applying the logical process-- what evidence that the thinking error is not true; what alternative explanation might be true; what's the most... Fri, 20 Jan 2017 08:31:30 EST BDS Day 33: Eliminate Emotional Eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6301502 Reflecting on this Beck reboot has helped me realize: I was really falling down in this category of emotional eating. <BR> <BR> Mostly because at the time (about August through early January) I simply did not realize the extent of the stress that I was under. Both personal and professional. <BR> <BR> I truly believe now that I had unconsciously reverted to emotional eating for "self-medication" purposes. Although I was tracking my meals and exercising, I wasn't accurately tracking all of... Thu, 19 Jan 2017 18:18:38 EST BDS Day 32: Prepare for Travel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6300449 Again, I'm so grateful to Beck for "teaching" me this lesson --one which appears to have stuck pretty effectively. (I wish I had complied better when I'm NOT travelling!!) <BR> <BR> Our holidays are typically MORE active than our regular lives: lots of outdoor activity (birding, golfing, swimming, walking and hiking). In fact, staying fit makes the kind of holidays we like possible. <BR> <BR> We typically rent a condo where we can prepare our own food, and very rarely eat in restaurants w... Wed, 18 Jan 2017 06:29:15 EST BDS Day 31: Decide About Drinking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6299778 Alcohol has a lot of calories: 7 per gram. <BR> <BR> Alcohol doesn't contribute nutrients. (Yeah, I know about red wine and reservatrol . . . and I'm reserving my views on that!!) <BR> <BR> Alcohol lowers inhibition: after even 1 glass of wine, I'm more inclined to forget my plan and my discipline and reach for too many nibblies! <BR> <BR> All good reasons I don't drink much: maybe a 3.5 ounce glass of wine a week on a Friday night. Or a Saturday night. <BR> <BR> Having said that -- I d... Tue, 17 Jan 2017 07:32:46 EST BDS Day 30: Stay in Control When Eating Out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6299055 I expect to be eating out with a friend on Friday January 20: we had tentatively scheduled this (subject to work emergencies, she's a lawyer too) well before Christmas. <BR> <BR> I most definitely will plan in advance what I'm going to eat. This restaurant is "the one" I most often go to, they know me there, they know I drink lots of black coffee and am most likely to order an appetizer for my main -- most often, the current iteration of mussels which I love and seldom prepare at home -- ... Mon, 16 Jan 2017 06:57:17 EST BONUS BLOG: People Magazine Jan 23 edition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6298712 You might want to check it out!! It's the annual "they lost half their size" edition: only time I buy it. Eleven people featured. There's Oprah on the cover, having lost 42 pounds since she bought into Weight Watchers: I wish her well, but when she says she can work her points to make dinner 3 glasses of wine and 1 shrimp: worry about the health implications. There's a section about chefs who've lost weight with a piece about Sparkie Russ Lane. And a short section about overweight pets ... Sun, 15 Jan 2017 17:17:23 EST BDS Day 29: Resist Food Pushers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6298405 It's Chapter 9, it's week 5 and Beck will be riffing on expected and unexpected challenges. <BR> <BR> But first: weigh in (as prepared for, yesterday). And yes, scale is down 2 pounds this past week, total of 4.5 pounds since week one: I'll take it. And graphed it for a little visual boost! The scales at the gym yesterday (balance beam type) had a different better number: but the trend is what counts. <BR> <BR> And the way my clothes are fitting. My goodness, a lady at the post office... Sun, 15 Jan 2017 07:55:50 EST Beck Day 28: Get Ready to Weigh In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6297920 Well, I'm weighing in EVERY day (as a MAINtainer) and I weighed myself this morning and: scales haven't budged. <BR> <BR> Gahhhhh. <BR> <BR> But: they're GONNA budge. My home digital scales does this "fluttery thing" and only moves downward typically when I've lost two pounds (it's really thinking in kilograms although I don't). <BR> <BR> OK then, Beck reminds me to anticipate and to be ready to combat sabotaging thoughts if tomorrow at "official" weigh in for graphing purposes I sti... Sat, 14 Jan 2017 11:02:20 EST BDS Day 27: Master the Seven Questions Technique http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6297145 OK then: having identified sabotaging thoughts and recognized thinking mistakes: what's to be done? <BR> <BR> Beck says I must master the seven question technique. <BR> <BR> Master it? I haven't (on previous Beck treks) really even considered it seriously. <BR> <BR> My sabotaging thought about the seven question technique? OMG, it's way too complicated and way too difficult and: yup, that's me, MIGHTY BRAIN, bailing without even trying it. <BR> <BR> And the thinking mistake about t... Fri, 13 Jan 2017 06:28:42 EST BDS Day 26: Recognize Thinking Mistakes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6296511 Thinking mistakes? Me? That person who prides herself on logic and analysis and . . . yeah. That one. Me indeed. <BR> <BR> I make 'em all. <BR> <BR> 1. All of nothing thinking -- typical Type A, I'm either perfect or I might as well forget it. <BR> <BR> 2. Negative fortune telling -- I'm not losing weight right now, AND weight has crept back on, so I'll never be able to get back to low 140s. <BR> <BR> 3. Overly positive fortune telling -- I can have just this little bit and sto... Thu, 12 Jan 2017 07:34:46 EST BDS Day 25: Identify Sabotaging Thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6296164 Thanks for all the kindly support on yesterday's blog on dealing with discouragement . . . so much appreciated!! We are all in this together. <BR> <BR> As I work through Beck's Chapter 8 yet again -- the "heart of darkness" for me -- it occurs to me (duh) that my fairly intense resistance to identifying sabotaging thoughts is quite probably a part of my recurrent struggle: and my repeated need to reboot. <BR> <BR> I'm not so bad at the "behavioural techniques": the eating sitting down, t... Wed, 11 Jan 2017 17:30:07 EST BDS Day 24: Deal With Discouragement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6295120 Yikes this is discouraging. <BR> <BR> It was 2011 when I first trudged through Beck. <BR> <BR> And I think this is my fourth (or maybe even fifth) reboot. <BR> <BR> I was looking at old records of weight MAINtenance. My records are far from perfect. But: I see a scream weight of 158.5 October 13, 2014: down to 148.0 November 21, 2014; and then sustained mid 4 (140s, mostly low 140s) from November 2014 right through November 2015. And more sporadic records show mid 4 into May 2015. <... Tue, 10 Jan 2017 07:06:17 EST BDS Day 23: It's Not Fair http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6294366 It's not fair that dieting is so hard for me. (Wah wah wah.) <BR> <BR> it's not fair that I can't eat as much as other people can eat. (Wah wah wah.) <BR> <BR> Everybody else at my house sat around watching TV and eating potato chips yesterday afternoon. (Wah wah wah.) <BR> <BR> It's not fair that I didn't have ONE PIECE of cherry pie OR shortbread over the holidays and I still have some pounds to peel off. (As before, maybe a bit louder.) <BR> <BR> It's not fair that . . . it's not F... Mon, 9 Jan 2017 06:38:58 EST Say "Oh Well" to Disappointment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6293663 It's day 22. It's the beginning of Beck Diet Solution (BDS) Chapter 8. And this is the chapter I always think of as Beck's "Heart of Darkness" where she tackles, with progressive complexity, the problem of "sabotaging thoughts". <BR> <BR> She starts slow with the "Oh well" technique. <BR> <BR> Disappointed? Really wish that I could eat potato chips? But I can't. Tell myself, "Oh well." All of this is just too hard? Wish it were easier??? And right now it's not easy. Tell myself ... Sun, 8 Jan 2017 07:34:07 EST BDS Day 21: Prepare for Weigh-in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6293120 As a MAINtainer, I weigh every day. Theoretically. But when I STOP weighing every day, then I can be pretty sure it's because I already know I'm not going to like the number. <BR> <BR> Started weighing every day again January 1. And today was the first day I saw any movement in the scales. In the right direction. <BR> <BR> It certainly bugs me that the number matters so much. Yeah, I know I know: it's not supposed to be a measure of my moral worth, just a point of information. Infor... Sat, 7 Jan 2017 10:03:02 EST Dealing with Derailment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6292426 BDS Day 20 is all about getting right back on track. When (not if) I slip up. Eat something NOT on my plan. <BR> <BR> There's no value in making a big deal about inevitable transgressions. <BR> <BR> I don't need to call in the big cranes to lift the locomotive back onto the rails -- next Monday, maybe. <BR> <BR> No no no. It's more like cross-country skiing when I'm whooshing down a steepish hill, maybe around a corner, and my skis (no edges on XC skis to speak of) slip off the pr... Fri, 6 Jan 2017 08:12:50 EST What Kind of Fool Am I? Day 19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6291734 <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Jg7wFHWXT4 </link> <BR> <BR> Oh yeah, Sammy: sing it!! <BR> <BR> And as for me? I've gotta stop fooling myself. <BR> <BR> It's NEVER OK to tell myself I can eat x (x being anything not on my plan) just this once because . . . I deserve it, or I really want it, or it will go to waste if I don't, or it's free, or it's a special occasion, or . . . . worst of all . . . because I just don't care. <BR> <BR> I may not care right now. But I WILL care, in ju... Thu, 5 Jan 2017 07:55:09 EST Day 18: Change My Definition of Feeling Full http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6290962 I was able to stop eating part of my lunch time soup (yes, sometimes I take supper soup to work for lunch! had an omelette for dinner!!) about 3/4 of the way through the bowlful. And in fact I was full enough (it was the white bean puree chicken soup) that I really didn't want my lunch-planned sliced apple with peanut butter until quite a bit later in the afternoon. <BR> <BR> I used to eat so much at every meal (and particularly at supper time) that I was uncomfortably full. Stuffed full. ... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 07:32:54 EST End Overeating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6290145 Turned out yesterday was also excellent for XC skiing and so I chose that in lieu of the gym: and persuaded DH to join me for his first time out. Again: sparkly and blue sky: have to grab those days when they happen! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I caught myself with an unplanned cracker in my mouth, standing in front of the cupboard: gahhhhh! Spit it out, flushed it down the garbage disposal. <BR> <BR> Today's Becknique is to practice not "cleaning my plate". If I'm served too much food: or (an... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 07:43:39 EST Sparkly New Year!: NO CHOICE!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6289372 Sunny sunny XC ski yesterday: deep blue shadows, morning-glory blue sky. I was out again with DS and we took the longer loop, in reverse sequence: once again meeting the groomer about two-thirds of the way around. It was a bit warmer (a red wax day) and my ski clothes were (if possible) a bit damper at the end of the run! <BR> <BR> Oh my, I am so feeling it today: probably need to hit the gym rather than skiing again: although the gym will be filled with NY resolutioners . . . and will ... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 09:32:20 EST Evening Grosbeak and Day 15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6288478 This is what I heard when I stepped out onto the back deck this morning (just scroll down to the voice: like tiny sleigh bells). <BR> <BR> <link>www.allaboutbirds.org/guide/evening_<BR>grosbeak/id </link> <BR> <BR> But: although I've seen distant flocks in the trees of these "stout finches" (much brighter and much larger than the little yellow goldfinches, now in olive winter plumage, which also hang around all winter) I've only seen one "possible" and that briefly on the back yard bird... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 09:14:03 EST XC Ski! And Plan for Tomorrow . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6287879 Yesterday was my first cross-country ski of the winter. <BR> <BR> It was glorious. Of course I do remember from winter to winter that I like it: but I cannot possibly remember how MUCH I like it! It feels good, it smells cedar-piney good, it sounds good: and it surrounds me with beauty, restoring my soul in a rigorous but meditative rhythm. <BR> <BR> We were given a silent grey day with an occasional glimmer of lemon sun: large snow flakes drifting down. Billowy pillows of soft soft ... Sat, 31 Dec 2016 09:10:37 EST Prediabetes and Beckniques to Overcome Cravings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6287357 This morning's Globe and Mail had an article (from the New York Times) on prediabetes testing. Apparently the numbers of those at risk are so high as to be almost meaningless: many researchers consider that telling just about everyone they're at risk for diabetes is not "helpful". <BR> <BR> <link>www.theglobeandmail.com/life/health-<BR>and-fitness/health/is-a-prediabetes-sc<BR>reening-actually-that-helpful/article3<BR>3448101/ </link> <BR> <BR> I did take the prediabetes test: <BR> ... Fri, 30 Dec 2016 08:05:47 EST