WATCHMEGO!'s SparkPeople Blog WATCHMEGO!'s Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community "Getting Away With It" So, I'm learning that I just really am not able to "get away with" off plan behavior anymore. I'm not talking about a bite of something, I'm talking about seriously off plan behavior, like too much alcohol, too much popcorn, too much ice cream, and too many poor food choices over a 24 -36 hour period. I plan to get right back on plan today and I'm hoping the 4.3 pound gain will respond quickly. <BR> <BR> The whole "getting away with it" concept is key for me, I think. I remember eating in s... Sat, 20 May 2017 10:34:19 EST The Struggle is Real! I am struggling to build momentum and ride the wave of being on plan. I do well for a few days, then decide to have a treat and end up going way off plan for a few days. Then I resolve to get back on track and repeat the same pattern a few days later. I was so rigid when I lost I didn't have maintenance skills of indulging then going back on plan. I know this is a skill I need for long-term success. I want to shift my thinking from seeing a taco or a cocktail or some other food or drink as a ... Sat, 11 Feb 2017 10:14:52 EST Happy New Year! Happy New Year to everyone! <BR> <em>179</em> <em>107</em> <em>411</em> <BR> <BR> I actually had ZERO alcohol last night which hasn't happened very much at all in my adult life. It was actually good, except I got really tired waiting for midnight! Our 14 year old daughter was outside watching the neighborhood fireworks so I really HAD to stay up, though. <BR> <BR> I am starting 2017 with a solid plan. I have my monthly goals set as well as the weekly goals that will help me reach... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 11:22:00 EST Back in the Saddle Again Yes, Steven Tyler is playing in my head! <BR> <BR> I see it's been a long time since I blogged. I've been on a steady increase in weight for the past couple of years. It really piled on last year and I found myself in the 250s again. Not quite where I started but closer than where I finished. It's not at all where I want to be. <BR> <BR> I tried a new plan on and off (mostly off) during the past 2 years. I don't believe it caused the gain, my behaviors caused the gain. Three behaviors in p... Tue, 27 Dec 2016 09:56:40 EST BLC In Between Plan The BLC is ending this week. I will miss my daily check ins, but since school starts for me tomorrow it's probably really good timing. <BR> <BR> My plan to stay on track during the in between time is to simply follow my plan, one day at a time, one decision at a time. This is the plan I posted at the beginning of the round: <BR> <BR> <em>292</em> <BR> <BR> Specific Aims: <BR> <BR> 1. Shoot for 100% compliance in following my food plan, keeping in mind that perfection is not the goal... Sun, 9 Aug 2015 10:03:14 EST What if I Didn't Quit? I've been at a standstill with my weight loss lately. I've been consistently on plan, yet still no loss or any decrease in inches. Oh, I'll lose a few pounds but then they'll come right back on, so the overall change this month is essentially zero. <BR> <BR> Historically, my body will sometimes stall and even gain for no apparent reason. The only time I committed to sticking with my program anyway was when I was following Nutrisystem. That's when I lost the weight and was able to take the a... Fri, 31 Jul 2015 09:14:50 EST Working on Consistency I was looking back on my goal tracking charts and I see a HUGE need for consistency. I am allowing way too many off plan days into my life. If this is to be a lifestyle change, and I really really want it to be that, I must work on making following my food plan, Trim Healthy Mama (don't care for the name, but I love the plan!) the rule, rather than the exception. I've had many "almost on plan" days, which is better than days sitting with an open bag of chips, definitely progress, but I want t... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 10:01:10 EST My Weightloss Motivation A friend asked me what my motivation is to lose weight this time around, I've been regaining for over a year and am having a hard time getting and staying on track. Since this friend could see that I clearly am not sufficiently motivated by the number on the scale climbing or the need to buy new, bigger clothes, she asked me what my motivation actually is. <BR> <BR> In order to successfully do anything we need to know why we're doing it. At least I do. I know it's not just so the "skinny cl... Sun, 3 May 2015 10:22:05 EST There's no "There" There... Someone on another board I participate in posted a link to this blog about the myth of AFTER: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>m/2015/04/13/the-after-myth/ </link> <BR> <BR> After reading her thoughts on being the "after" versus the "before" in weight loss I realize that what she has to say was/is true for me as well. When I lost to my lowest people started saying "you're a different person" and it bothered me, because I've been obese since I was 5. And I WAS the s... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 10:04:20 EST 100 Days of Eating With Dignity I have struggled with bingeing for as long as I can recall. The first time I remember bingeing I was about 8 years old. I was left alone for long hours while my mom, a single parent, worked. I was very, very lonely. I remember finding a crock of some sort of processed cheese powder/paste and taking a spoon of it. Then another. And another. Soon, the crock was empty. When my mom came home and discovered what I had done she was disappointed. At least that's the emotion my 8 year old self could ... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 20:07:36 EST Today, I Choose Change I woke up yesterday with a renewed sense of "I can do this!" I made a plan, and had high hopes and expectations. <BR> <BR> <em>521</em> <em>104</em> <BR> <BR> Then, I had wine. Then snacks. I decided I didn't care. Of course, I do care. <BR> <BR> <em>181</em> <em>33</em> <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I can either keep doing what I'm doing or make some changes. That is always the situation we are all in. If we like the results of our actions we can keep repeating those actions.... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 09:36:18 EST BLC SMART Goals I am happy to be on the Azure Destinations team this round of the BLC. Here are my goals for this challenge: <BR> <BR> I will lose 20 pounds by the end of the challenge. I will do this by: <BR> <BR> *tracking what I eat <BR> <BR> *keeping to my food plan, which at this moment is Weight Watchers, incorporating a fair amount of Nutrisystem food. I did Nutrisystem exclusively for a long time but I want more than 1 piece of fruit a day. I don't think fruit is evil. When I weighed around 300 po... Sun, 4 May 2014 10:01:19 EST Reflections on 2013 So, today is New Year's Eve. Wow, 2013 went fast! It's been a pretty good year for me overall. Family is happy and healthy, job is going well, and I've learned some things about myself. <BR> <BR> Weight.....ah, the weight I've battled since I was 5. That has been an adventure indeed. I just reviewed the calendar I use to keep track of my weight and exercise minutes. I weigh 16 pounds more than I did last New Year's Eve. Most of the year I've hovered around that Dec 31, 2012 weight, until ab... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 09:05:38 EST Thanksgiving Traditions Thanksgiving is speeding towards us! I have nothing ready but the menu is pretty much set in stone by my daughter so that will be easy! <BR> <BR> Turkey: simply cannot go without that! Simply roasted with garlic, lemon, and rosemary. <BR> <BR> Stuffing: I've made all types, mostly from scratch, but she likes Stovetop best. Seriously! To keep it simple I just may use Stovetop this year. In the past I've made polenta and flavored it so it tastes like cornbread stuffing, which is my favorite.... Sat, 16 Nov 2013 10:00:12 EST November Goals Yes, I know, the month is 1/3 over already, but that's the way things have been going lately! <BR> <BR> October was not a fabulous month for me as far as putting my healthy habits in the forefront. I ended up gaining 0.3 pounds which isn't bad considering it was the month of birthdays and our wedding anniversary. My exercise minutes weren't even at 1,000 total, which is way down from the past year. As far as food goes, I was only actually within range or on plan 12 of 31 days. It's a miracle... Sun, 10 Nov 2013 09:36:23 EST In Reverse I am going the wrong direction. I have been in a slump for most of September. I have gained to the point of being 200.5 yesterday morning. I really don't want to stay above that number! BUT, I know what to do and I'm not doing it. What's up with that? <BR> <BR> <BR> I haven't been exercising. <BR> <BR> I haven't been checking in with Spark in the mornings to get my head in the right place. <BR> <BR> I haven't been tracking my foods consistently. <BR> <BR> I haven't been making health... Sun, 29 Sep 2013 10:29:17 EST Getting Out of My Own Way For the past year or so I've been gaining and losing the same 5-10 pounds. I'll get serious, then get down to the low 180s and decide I "deserve" to try this or I want to eat that. As a result, I'm where I was a year ago. I look at it as practice for maintenance, which is good, except I'm not in a healthy weight range yet, which is not good. I did have several doctors tell me, as a 280-300 pound woman in my 20s, 30s and 40s that I would NEVER weigh less than 200 pounds since I'd been over tha... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 08:59:58 EST What I've Learned About Binges I've been struggling with staying on any food program lately and my weight and psyche both show it. I've been binging regularly, and not on cucumbers and celery sticks. I do know my spirit feels wounded. My relationship with food definitely needs attention. <BR> <BR> In the past, I've been able to use self talk to keep binging at bay. Lately any self-talk has been drowned out by the other voice, the WTF voice. I checked out "Women Food and God" by Geneen Roth at the library yesterday. I hav... Sat, 6 Jul 2013 10:15:55 EST July Goals I love new months! It means a completely blank page in the calendar that sits in front of the computer for me to make goals about exercise minutes, take measurements, and write down any other goals I may want to make for the month. Here are my goals for July: <BR> <BR> *Exercise goal: 1700 minutes of exercise <BR> *Food goal: 100% OP every day! <BR> <BR> Right now my 100% OP streak is at 2 days. I'm shooting for all month. This means no cocktails, wine, etc. Hardest for me, especially when... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 10:19:27 EST BLC Goals Okay, my goals for this round of the Biggest Loser Challenge here on Sparkpeople are: <BR> <BR> Nutrition: <BR> <BR> I will follow the Nutrisystem plan. That's pretty much it because I do know it works. When I am on vacation I will make every attempt to follow the days off plan and not go off the rails. When I am in a new city and faced with a local treat, I will not be so rigid that I won't try something that doesn't fit on plan. I want to be a "normal eater" and for me that means being ab... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 10:33:47 EST Wheat and Cravings Since February 9 I have been without wheat or other grains. (I remember the date because I had just come home from a girls' getaway!) I did South Beach phase 1 for 2 weeks. During those 2 weeks I felt so good I started reading and researching some other ways of eating. I read about Paleo, and read "Wheat Belly." I decided that in phase 2 I would add oatmeal, then maybe brown rice and see what happened. I also decided to give up wheat as long as I could. <BR> <BR> Sunday, we ate "whatever" l... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 10:10:29 EST How I made Myself My Own Valentine Last week I found myself at Kroger on the way home from work. Not an unusual occurrence at all, but I was prowling in addition to picking up forgotten items for dinner. Truthfully, I didn't "need" anything for dinner. I was there for a fix. Something sweet, carby, something I hoped would ease my stress. I ended up eating a kind of stale, cold apple fritter in my car in the parking lot so my daughter wouldn't see me eat it. Now, I've never had a drug habit, but I felt like an addict as I inhal... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 06:16:36 EST DECIDE to Just Do It! I’ve been struggling with what my DECIDE will be for the BLC Just Do It challenge. I feel like it has to be something huge but that’s my own interpretation. I’ve decided I’m going to call it my procrastination with signing up for walks. I walked the Komen 5K 8 years ago and since then I’ve been saying I’m “going to” sign up for this 5K, that race, etc., but I never actually do. Since about November I’ve been talking to some friends about the upcoming Colors in Motion 5K here in Houston next m... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 23:52:34 EST BLC Goals I do NOT set time-based weight loss goals. I know that my body will do what my body is going to do and I really can't control that. What I CAN control is what I eat, what goes on in my head, and how much I move, so my goals are based on those things. <BR> <BR> Food: <BR> <BR> I have a goal of a 100 day tracking streak. Yesterday was day 15. There are 84 days in 12 weeks so that means I will track my food every day. Even the 2 days in February I will be in Austin with the girls. That won't ... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 09:59:28 EST Happy New Year! I LOVE a clean slate!!! <BR> <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> My fitness goals for this coming year are: <BR> <BR> 1. Get to my goal weight! <BR> <BR> 2. Complete a set of 10 regular push ups. That means on my toes with my chest coming all the way down. There I wrote it! <BR> <BR> <em>320</em> <em>320</em> <em>320</em> <em>320</em> <em>320</em> <em>320</em> <em>320</em> <em>320</em> <em>320</em> <BR> <BR> How I will achieve my goals: <BR> <BR> 1. I will acc... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 10:30:09 EST Moderation? This is the ever-elusive key to lasting success for me in weight loss. I lost weight by beating "perfect" on Nutrisystem. Now, I'm trying to learn how to eat regular food in my calorie range. It's still just as hard now as it was 100+ pounds ago. I think the key might be to just to keep trying and not give up. I'm certainly not going to quit trying. I know where that will get me and I gave away all the clothes that are bigger than size 12. I will NOT buy bigger ones and thankfully I don't ne... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 06:04:05 EST One Year Ago Today..... One year ago today I weighed 266 pounds. I was desperate. I had joined NS in August 2010 because I had tried everything else and had failed to lose any significant weight. At 250+, you have significant weight to lose. I've weighed as much as 310 twice in my life and had gotten down to 250 or so on Weight Watchers, but never any lower. I joined Nutrisystem because I had never tried it. I lost 30 pounds from August 2010 to sometime in March when I gave up. I quit Nutrisystem. The food was good,... Wed, 11 Jul 2012 09:05:19 EST 90 Minutes of Exercise! Yesterday I logged 90 minutes of exercise! Now, I may have actually gotten more in a day at some point, but this is different. It's different because I've started to WANT to do it. <BR> <BR> DD swims on Tuesdays. I'm usually the one that takes her and waits around in the tiny parent area that is too small and crowded to even walk in place. They also expect parents to stay there and not leave (DUH!) so I can't even go walk the parking lot. Yesterday while I was on the way to pick up DD, DH t... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 05:55:06 EST Why Do I Do That? I am seriously thinking of switching my food plan to Weight Watchers instead of Nutrisystem. I've been thinking about this for a while. I have no idea why as I was NEVER this successful with WW before. I am losing so well with NS, having no problems following the program, know how to flex and eat my own foods instead of theirs (I haven't don'e it, but I know how to). I have at least 10 sets of WW program materials and never got below 222 and that was when the WW program was an exchange progra... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 08:34:29 EST Cyclical Gains At this point I've hit 199 but have popped back up to 203 as of this morning. I know in my head it's cyclical, I know I'm in deficit each day so the weight will eventually come off. This has happened every month and I know it goes away and takes a few more pounds with it. <BR> <BR> It's difficult to keep calm about it this month because it's back over 200. I was so excited to be under that number. I know I will be again, it's just difficult. I didn't have any chocolate or wine on Valentine's... Wed, 22 Feb 2012 05:51:16 EST 199 My weight today is 199! <BR> <BR> For some that might be an outrageously high number, a wake up call. For me, it is the best number I have seen yet! <BR> <BR> I don't remember exactly when I last weighed under 200 pounds, but I know I was in elementary school, 4th or 5th grade probably. I will dig out my old report cards at some point and see. They used to weigh us each grading period and it was written on the back of the card. I remember my mom had written fictitious, lower weights over th... Sun, 12 Feb 2012 09:36:55 EST Handling Stress Without Eating I had a stressful day at work Thursday. I wanted to eat, it didn't matter what, and I knew I would buy a bottle of wine on the way home if I hadn't committed to staying 100% on my plan. It's been 6 months since I was off plan in any way. Those 6 months have not been easy. My results are worth it to me. So, I wondered what I was going to do to relieve the stress. <BR> <BR> First I cried in the bathroom. That's not a new strategy. I'm a crier, always have been. Then I texted my husband and we... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 08:53:00 EST Happy New Year! I am filled with hope and brimming with confidence this January 1. I know I will achieve my weightloss goal in 2012. <BR> <BR> This time last year I weighed 259 pounds. I quit Nutrisystem around March and my weight climbed to 278. July 11 I decided to commit myself 100% to the Nutrisystem program, eating ALL the foods, including the add ins, and I quit drinking because that was an area I always kept in my weight loss efforts but I knew was hindering my progress. Yesterday I weighed 213, up ... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 09:08:02 EST A Milestone For Me This morning I weighed in at 212 pounds. It's a milestone of sorts for me. I've struggled with my weight since I was about 5. I remember walking in my tiny hometown one day with my mother. I had gotten on the scale that morning. As we walked we were evidently talking about my weight. I told her I weighed 212 that morning. Her face crumpled a little and she said, "Oh, Emily. You have got to do something about your weight!" I was 11 or 12 years old. <BR> <BR> I remember being overwhelmed and ... Wed, 21 Dec 2011 09:12:35 EST Actions Have Consequences So, ignoring the tracker, daily happy hours with friends, and eating what I want when I want produces a weight gain. I KNOW this, but from time to time I try it out. Somehow I'm always disappointed that the gain occurs. Why? I'm smart, I understand the concept of cause/effect. I guess the child in me is trying to "get away with" something. <BR> <BR> I will track everything for seven days. When I do this I will reward myself with something, maybe a new phone skin, I'm not sure yet. But I wil... Fri, 30 Jul 2010 21:53:12 EST Take Me Out to the Ball Game! We went to see the Houston Astros play a game this afternoon. We had great seats and a good friend came along. I decided to have the nachos around inning 4. They were G-O-O-D!!! They had beef brisket on them, guacamole, sour cream, the whole shebang. I enjoyed them. <BR> <BR> After I came home I entered them into the nutrition tracker as best as I could, overestimating amounts to try to be accurate. Over 1200 calories in those nachos! OMG!!! <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> I am full. I... Sun, 25 Jul 2010 19:59:38 EST A Tiny Seed Planted...... I was reading through a weight loss success story last night and the person featured had decided to get healthy by their 50th birthday. As I fell asleep I realized I will be 50 in a little over 2 years. I could likely reach my weight loss goal, once and for all, by that time if I committed. <BR> <BR> I've written about commitment before. I am happily married, successful at my job, a good friend, and a hands-on, present parent. I have ALWAYS had a difficult time committing to myself. Stems f... Tue, 20 Jul 2010 09:34:55 EST Just for today......... I am going to have to use this mantra like crazy right now. I seem to be in a place where I am consciously making poor choices with food. I want to gt back to a place where I feel powerful and in control. I know I can feel powerful and in control because I've been there before. That also means I can get there again. <BR> <BR> I deserve to feel powerful. I deserve to feel in control. I deserve to be healthy in mind, body, and in spirit. <BR> <BR> <em>306</em> <BR> <BR> (That's from me t... Thu, 18 Feb 2010 21:29:45 EST Girl Scout Cookies These are pure evil. They are, apparently, all a trigger food for me. I just an entire box of the shortbreads. Yes......a whole box! YUCK! I feel ill........ <BR> <BR> It's over. I tracked it. I need to try to not go to the self-blaming. What I need to do is to remember how gross I feel right now the next time I see those cookies. I also need to simply doante $3.50 next year to each Girl Scout that asks me to buy cookies and donate those cookies to the military. I wish I had done that this y... Wed, 17 Feb 2010 11:25:08 EST I Got an Award! Well, I'll be.....I checked my email today and found out I got a Consistency Award from Sparkpeople! This is big for me because consistency is something I struggle with. If I can't do something perfectly 100% of the time, I'm likely to stop trying. I'm working really, really hard on shifting that mindset. <BR> <BR> I had a 10 day streak in January of logging my food, either on paper or here on SP. I started logging again on February 1. I'd like to go the whole month (of course! to be perfec... Wed, 3 Feb 2010 21:15:44 EST Banana Bread My neighbor brought over a loaf of banana bread she had baked last night. I ate SEVERAL pieces over the course of the day. Apparently, no one else in my house likes banana bread (who ARE these people??!!!?!?) so I threw it in the trash!! Yes, I did! I am so proud of that decision. I was thinking maybe I'd freeze small slices "for later" but realized that if I was eating it standing over the sink there was a strong possibility that this food item should not be in my house at all! So that's an ... Sun, 3 Jan 2010 17:30:50 EST 2010.....When Did THAT Happen?!?! Wow, so it's 2010. I remember figuring out how old I'd be in the year 2000 and thinking how freakishly old 38 sounded. I'll be 48 this year. I FEEL about 28 still, so it's all just odd! <BR> <BR> So, I want to get myself back. Somewhere inside me there's an athlete trying to get out there and run!I know it's going to be a struggle for a while, and I'm just going to have to do the exercise, the tracking, the conscious choices simply because it's the right thing to do. Hopefully, after enough ... Sun, 3 Jan 2010 17:16:05 EST Vacation Mode For the past couple of days I have not been listening to my body. I have been eating too many calories, and they are empty calories, from wine, pretzels, etc. I have not excerised once this spring break. Not once. I need to learn from this and have a plan for the summer! I do NOT do well when left with too much unstructured time. I know I have trainings off and on scheduled for most of the summer so that will help. <BR> <BR> I will not berate and bemoan my choices of this past week. That wo... Sat, 21 Mar 2009 13:20:32 EST Well, I'll Be! I'm stunned! I did Weight Watchers for years and stayed roughly the same weight. I think I'm the type of person who wants to "cheat" or try to "get away with something" when I follow someone else's program. So, I've been following my own program for the past 4 weeks or so. In that time I've lost 6 pounds, so I think I'm on to something! <BR> <BR> I gave up sodas (even diet ones!) in early January. I eat mostly "real food" as close to how it comes in nature as I can. I eat when I'm hungry a... Wed, 18 Mar 2009 11:27:30 EST Long Time No Post.......... You know, the more things change, the more they stay the same. <BR> <BR> I know I will always be interested in living a healthy lifestyle. I know I will always enjoy good food and wine. I know I will always feel better after I exercise. I've been in love with this food plan or that food plan for years, then hated the same plans later. I've finally had a realization..... <BR> <BR> It's not about any plan. It's just me and my decisions every day. That's all. No magic. No cheating. No getting... Mon, 2 Mar 2009 18:34:38 EST "Mommy's belly is SOOOOO big!" That's what my 5 year old daughter said earlier today. Wow. I was stung, of course. I told her that my feelings were hurt and that it's not polite to comment on how others look. Then I went into the bathroom and cried. <BR> <BR> I cried because she's right. My belly is big. I remember deciding to do something about my weight when she was born so she would never know that I was fat. I was ashamed of it and didn't want her to be teased because she had a fat mom. I cried because I only want to... Sun, 17 Aug 2008 20:47:23 EST Interested or Committed? This was on a Weight Watchers message board. I've seen it other places, too, likely here on Spaerkpeople! I like it so I'm posting it! <BR> <BR> "If you're "interested" in losing weight... <BR> --You stick with it only until something better comes along (such as doughnuts) <BR> --How you feel determines your outcome. If you don't 'feel like it,' you stop your efforts. <BR> --You need to see results. When the scale doesn't move, you lose your motivation. <BR> --You blame everything else (peop... Sun, 29 Jun 2008 21:23:40 EST I Think I'm ADD................. Okay, so I've decided to follow the Weight Watchers Core plan now. I seriously am having committment issues here! I really did well on phase 1 of South Beach, but then when I added 1 grain and 1 fruit all heck broke loose! I know any program works as long as you actually work a program. <BR> <BR> I'm amazed I've been married fr nearly 11 years. Evidently I can commit to people, just not food plans! I wonder what that says about me?! Wait, I probably don't want to know! <BR> <BR> <em>20</e... Fri, 27 Jun 2008 23:50:03 EST You Can't Always Get What You Want I am so tired of feeling like I *can't* have something. Makes me want it more. I know that the food plan that allows me to eat and drink whatever I want in whatever amounts I want is NOT a weight LOSS plan, though! That's the plan that had me at 310 at one point, so unless I want to go back there again - which I don't - I need to be a grown up and just say no sometimes. Or acknowledge that I want something but that I CHOOSE not to eat it. I don't expect to get everything I want in any other ... Wed, 25 Jun 2008 18:04:52 EST Motivation I wonder why sometimes a person can be so into the positive changes they're making in their health and other times it can seem too daunting, too hard. The shift can come so quickly, too. Maybe it's hormones, maybe the weather, maybe it's planetary alignment, who knows?! In the end I guess it really doesn't matter WHY the shift has occured. I guess the question becomes what are you going to do about it? It doesn't really matter if you FEEL like exercising, you still get the benefits if you do... Wed, 25 Jun 2008 11:00:02 EST