VIXSTERLU's SparkPeople Blog VIXSTERLU's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community New is the word of my life lately... New job, new normal, new friendships, new family life. Trying to find a rhythm has been tough, but I am tougher! <BR> <BR> Third week at new job, but only the second week with students. Loving it so far. Scheduled my office hours so I can sneak in a walk here and there. I really need a watch, I thought I was going to be late to class, but was no where near close to class time. And really, who cares if I am late, class can't start without me, lol. Just kidding, I don't tolerate latene... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 16:40:38 EST First real physical activity in 6 weeks, that felt GOOD! I got to take my dog for a walk today, I don't know who was more excited, me or her??? <BR> <BR> I've said it before, I'll say it again, forced inactivity SUCKSASS!!! <BR> <BR> Yep, I've been sidelined...again <em>46</em> <BR> I had shoulder surgery 6 weeks ago to fix a separated AC joint. It was a shock to me that I even needed surgery, as there was NO pain, just some immobility and crepitice (spelling?). I injured it last September, rehabbed for months, was feeling really good, do... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 12:47:03 EST So much going on, so much to tell you! A glimpse... I have been MIA. I have been good...mostly. I have been busy. One of my new goals is to stay under 150 for my first year as a FULL TIME PROFESSOR! <BR> <BR> Yes, I finally got a full time position. More on that another day. <BR> <BR> So to get me on the right track for this goal, it means I am committed to being here and staying accountable. <BR> <BR> I look forward to catching up with you in the coming days and weeks! I hope you are all doing good. I MISS MY SPARKPEEPS!!!! Thu, 31 Jul 2014 14:52:15 EST WTH is she doing? I didn't want that birthday cake! There she is eating the left over cake from birthday party. She knows full well the rest of the day has been good food wise. She knows full well that we are trying hard to be good. Yet there she is, eating with a sinister smile on her face. I can't stop her, or at least I can't seem to stop her. I never know when she is going to show up. I call her the 'saboteur' and she is one of a few alter egos I have to contend with. <BR> <BR> How to deal with her?? I have NO clue. I don't like h... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 19:40:40 EST Back to work and birthday plans Wow, 10 years went by fast!!! My little one turns 10 Sunday, so we are celebrating all weekend. First up, Fondue for dessert tonight, let's hope I do well, lol. <BR> <BR> Back to work Monday. Looking forward to it actually. It helps me stay on track. That may sound weird, but it does. I am more motivated to plan my meals, which has always been the most challenging aspect of my fitness. Work will also help me keep my mind off the other drama in my life, I need that desperately!!! <BR> ... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 12:20:59 EST Today is a good day I have not fallen off the wagon, just flying low under the radar of maintenance. I did gain a few due to my stupid shoulder injury (that's gonna leave a mark!) But overall, I am doing good. <BR> <BR> I do know the following: <BR> When I track, even mentally, I do better. Today and yesterday I actually tracked on my app. <BR> <BR> I LOVE the weather lately (sorry easterners, I am in Cali) and while I do love it, we need the rain!!! At least I am still walking/running a few days a week. ... Wed, 8 Jan 2014 19:30:49 EST Big plans for 2014!!!! Hello sparkfriends!!! I am back! Not just because it's a new year, not because I need to get back on track, but because I miss you, I need accountability and I need your help. I know you are always there for me and for that I am forever grateful!!! <BR> <BR> This past month and a half has been tough, emotional, exciting, depressing, confusing and well...downright exhausting!!! I have finally found the nerve, or maybe I should call it courage, to ask to be happy again. I am not trying to... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 12:00:24 EST Things are changing... Been off the fitness trail, injury, depression, life drama. Gotta get this under control, but in order to do that, I have to step up! <BR> <BR> Baby steps, I will start there. So today, I will blog, a short one, but hey, I gotta start somewhere, right? <BR> <BR> I have logged my food, been walking/jogging a little this week and I am starting to feel better. This weekend, I am gonna dig in a little more to Spark, need to get re-connected! <BR> <BR> ~Vicki Fri, 22 Nov 2013 12:13:40 EST No more Spark Zombie The scale is going back down, funny how when you stick to the program that happens. <em>198</em> <BR> I try so hard to roll with life's punches and for the most part, I do well. I have this week off to get things ready and then my crazy schedule begins and at the end of the month, my crazy HECTIC schedule kicks in. <BR> <BR> If you were wondering, things are better on the home front. Benefits finally kicked in, hubby is adapting to new job, kiddo went back to school. Me...I am a wor... Tue, 13 Aug 2013 11:58:16 EST Inspired to swim Not exactly sure if I did anything to hurt my groin, but it hurts. So instead of going for a walk/run, I took to the local pool. I got a good 40 minutes in and my daughter swam with me for a little while. It's fun to see her under the water watching me and smiling. It warms my heart <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> I forgot how nice it was to swim! Wish the pool was open more hours, I'd be all over that! They are only open during the summer, so I better make the best of it. <BR> <BR> Went o... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 02:18:10 EST Really? I gotta do this again? You can't hear the sarcasm in my title, but it's there...with a little disdain too! Here I am, just shy of my starting weight of two years ago. Yes, I said it! That hurt to admit, but it must be done. I have to take responsibility for the past 2 months. <BR> <BR> So, the band wagon was ALMOST out of my sight, but here I am again to get back on. The great thing is, the band wagon let's everyone back on <em>211</em> <BR> <BR> I know what I need to do, now I just have to do it! Ha,... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 12:32:43 EST I am freeeeeeeeee! Feels good too! It's official, I am released from my doctors care for my knee. He spent all of 5 minutes with me and sent me on my way. I was expecting that, only because there's not much to say or do. I am ready to be done, physically and mentally. <BR> <BR> Played soccer tonight too, tired and salty, but feels good. <BR> <BR> Off to the beach tomorrow and Friday. My kiddo and I are staying the night as we are hanging with two different families the two days, so it makes sense to stay rather than drivi... Thu, 18 Jul 2013 02:27:23 EST Mission accomplished I have burned more calories this week than I have in a long time. Running and ST are good calorie burners, but I have to work harder for those and they feel like 'work' if you know what I mean. <BR> <BR> After a year of being patient, working hard at physical therapy and working hard on my own, I played soccer twice this week. It felt good. No, it felt AWESOME! Full sprinting and cutting, I can tentatively say I am back! Now I have to turn my priorities back to myself. I have not don... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 01:13:15 EST Trying to find the silver lining (with pic) Yes, I am alive and well...well. Hubby goes back to work next week, will get benefits in 90 days (maybe sooner with my work) and I am maintaining despite all the drama. So all in all, it's been a pretty good few weeks since my last blog. <BR> <BR> It is JULY!!!! If you have been following me at all, you should know what this means!! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> A pic of me and my good friend R, a picture from a tournament in 2007. Well, ... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 17:05:55 EST Fell on my butt today, literally! First day I have worked out in a while. I went to do this exercise as part of my knee rehab and fell. Picture this...I run fast for about 25-30 feet and then slow with a 3 step shuffle (suppose to strengthen the knee), well the grass was wet, so when I slowed I fell right on my butt! Knee felt okay though! So that is a good thing. <BR> <BR> If my hubby gets a job and we get our benefits back, I will play soccer in 42 days :) I am hopeful <BR> <em>41</em> <em>131</em> Fri, 31 May 2013 15:10:12 EST Is being miserable normal?? Well, the *#$& has hit the fan and I mean in a big way <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> Just when I was having a good day yesterday too. I put in my PEP work (felt good too), walked the dogs for an hour afterwards and did a little ST too. And husband came home and dropped a bomb...He lost his job. I have to admit, I wasn't surprised, but I am absolutely devastated and scared $&%^less. <BR> <BR> Will he get another job...he will. Will we be okay...eventually. But all this is not the ... Thu, 16 May 2013 12:16:41 EST A pick up party for me! Today I venture out to do the PEP program. This is the program my doctor suggested that I do to help get me back on track for soccer in 58 days (but who is counting?). It is a physical training program that focuses on strengthening the knee and injury prevention. <BR> <BR> It seems really simple, but having to do it on my own is boring. I will do what I gotta do :) <BR> <BR> I am planning a 'Pick up Party' for my comeback. What does this mean??? No, it is not where you go to pick peo... Wed, 15 May 2013 11:59:54 EST Choices. It's a game really. Every day is an opportunity to make choices that allow us to be healthier. What choices are you making today? Here are a few suggestions (add yours in the comments). I say, make it a game! Count the choices (small and large) that contribute to a healthier, better, version of you! <BR> <BR> -Take the Stairs <em>206</em> <BR> -Eat a smaller portion <em>180</em> <BR> -Phone a friend (instead of grabbing for a snack) <em>220</em> <BR> -Choose water first! <em>194</em> <BR> -Tr... Wed, 8 May 2013 11:53:11 EST Still in the game I have been out of the loop but never out of the game! <BR> <BR> Grades are posted, I have the rest of May off from my day classes. One of my classes was kicking my butt, so glad it's over. <BR> <BR> I have been working out, running, doing some PT. I have been incorporating some better (cleaner) eating habits slowly :) But what I haven't been doing...checking in here. It makes a difference for me. I know what I need, but often don't reach out to really do it. So the rest of this wee... Tue, 7 May 2013 01:08:50 EST This girl SOoooo needs a break!! Pulling my hair out...ok, so it's falling out anyway <em>39</em> <BR> I have had a tough go this past week and I really need a pause button! No pause button, well then I will create a vent blog. I do this while I am waiting for 'ding' of students emails (they are freaking out). <BR> <BR> Had jury duty last week. I had to sit on a 3 day trial. It wasn't bad, kind of interesting actually. Met a new friend, had a few days of good lunch time walks. Surprised they picked me with the ... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 01:09:02 EST The scale is not my friend this week :( I am juror #6 <em>40</em> <BR> I have been able to get out of or excused from jury duty for the past 23 years. So apparently it's my time. It's all good, I don't mind it, but I am learning a lot! <BR> <BR> I am feeling incredibly guilty that I am not there for my students during the most difficult part of the semester for them <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> Not feeling warm and fuzzy about our court system. I hope that changes by the end of the trial (they say we'll be done Friday). <BR> ... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 00:33:55 EST No luck with PT I set out a few weeks back to find a personal trainer to help me prepare for soccer in a few months (yep Optimist, my knee and my doc will allow it, yahoo!). After calling places near and far, asking tons of questions about credentials, pricing and possible schedules, I have decided to go it alone. <BR> <BR> I did not want to join a gym just to be able to work with a trainer (too pricey, even after they gave discounts and such), did not want to join a boot camp style program as some of the ... Sat, 6 Apr 2013 13:38:11 EST The wonderful blue balls! Ok, enough of my friends (spark friends and otherwise), including myself, have issues with our backs so I thought I'd just blog about it here. <BR> <BR> Having thrown my back out several times in the past, I know the pain and inconvenience it causes. Usually I just go to the chiropractor and that helps a lot! Not a fan of chiropractic, that's okay, I totally get it. I have been unable to go for the last 6 months because of being cut back at work anyway. So I had to find another way to he... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 14:03:09 EST Trying to stay positive in a stressful situation: Help needed please I love my dogs, but they frustrate me and stress me out more than anything at times. Why? Because they sometimes argue and when I say argue, I mean fight. I hate using that word! Ninety eight percent of the time, they are best buds! <BR> <BR> I have been crying and stressed now since last night. My golden, for reasons I cannot figure out, jumped on my yellow lab. There was very little damage done this time, but the stress of this is trying. <BR> <BR> So, what to do??? My poor lab ... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 19:04:00 EST Eye strain and a beautiful walk Now that I have spent 25 hours in the past 3 days grading papers, my head is killing me. Can we say eye strain??? Motrin is my friend today and little to no reading too :) <BR> <BR> I decided to try a new recipe for dinner tonight. I needed a few ingredients, so I grabbed my green grocery bag and walked to my local Safeway. A nice day for a walk! Felt bad that my girls were giving me the sad eyes because I went alone. They'll get over it, lol. <BR> <BR> Have a great day where ever yo... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 14:24:09 EST Sensitivity training: Please Read Something happened last night that I can't let go of, so let's see if I can let it go here? <BR> <BR> While watching a video in class last night, a student in my class lost consciousness. It was scary. Here's my take on it. I was sitting in the back (I am the teacher of said class and we are talking college level here) watching and making sure no phones were out. A student a few feet in front of me raised her hand slowly (I am not sure she knew I was behind her?). I thought, that's weir... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 11:56:51 EST My take on quitting "As long as I'm having fun, I'm not quitting". Sue Johanson <BR> <BR> This is so true for me! This is why these past 8 months have been so hard. Without being able to play soccer, losing and or maintaining my weight loss is just plain HARD! But I have done pretty well considering and for that I am proud. I have Sparkpeople to thank for this too! And most of all my Spark Peeps!!! Without you, I doubt I would have been able to maintain my loss thru all of this. <BR> <BR> Today I talked... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 00:26:07 EST It's official...switching gears I just updated my goals to reflect maintenance mode. Now I get to play a little with my calories and exercise to see how this will work for me. <BR> <BR> Not sure what to expect, but this I know...I have a lot of resources here to help me in this part of my journey, I have incredible Spark Friends that will lift me up when I struggle and smile with me when I succeed. <BR> <BR> My plan: <BR> I will weigh in twice weekly <BR> I will continue to track my food (but in all honesty, I will n... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 13:12:34 EST What do you mean I have to do MORE exercise??? Freaking out here. I have been reading a lot about maintenance and I come across this, " Most likely, you will need to increase the intensity and/or duration of your exercise and other daily activity above what you did during the weight loss phase, so that your caloric expenditure stays a little higher than your maintenance level calorie intake (as determined above)." <BR> <BR> Did I really read that??? I must have since I cut and pasted. Yikes, but I am game. <BR> <BR> Thanks for the links in my last bl... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 15:40:50 EST Maintenance is imaginary? I am beginning to think that Maintenance is a figment of my imagination??? You know, like the tooth-fairy or the Easter bunny for kids (I saw him mommy, I know it was the tooth-fairy, I am sure of it). <BR> <BR> In my right mind I know that there will be fluctuations from week to week. But DANG, this is harder than I thought. I need to do some more reading up on this! And here I thought I would hover a few pounds above or below if I was good with my diet an exercise. But NOoOoOoO, it'... Wed, 27 Feb 2013 17:37:43 EST VD and being bad is not a good combo! Happy Valentines Day Sparkers! <em>26</em> <BR> <BR> I have been a bad girl, baaaaaaad girl. My punishment may just have to be stepping on the scale EVERY DAY for a week. Yes, that's a punishment in my book. <BR> <BR> I have come to the realization that I cannot stop tracking just yet, I am not ready. It's not one thing that I can put my finger on? I just know that the past 10 days without tracking, my eating has not been good. Over calories, not as nutritious and maybe a little... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 16:01:23 EST Wanna learn to like running??? I was curious to see where I was in my running attitude since last year. I remember writing a blog about running, so when I looked it up, funny enough it was exactly a year ago today that I wrote my "I hate running blog..." I included the link below. <BR> <BR><BR>_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4727996 <BR> <BR> I am glad to say that I really enjoy running today! Pretty good considering that I really did hate/loathe it a year ago. I ran 4 miles t... Thu, 7 Feb 2013 11:56:04 EST Tri-emotions-cheerleading Well, I got the green light! Woohoo, I am a happy girl. At least about being able to train for a sprint triathlon. <BR> <em>237</em> <em>332</em> <em>312</em> <BR> <BR> Doc says the knee is healing very well. Next check up in April. I can start doing some preliminary training, but to work up to it slowly. I am totally okay with this. In April I can bump up the training and I have his blessing to do a sprint in May. The event I was looking at was in July or August, so all i... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 00:58:20 EST I must remember this (pic) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> In my attempt to figure out my emotional eating, this picture rings true for me today! I feel pretty poopy today(due to poor food choices lately), but I will get out there and walk the pups. I cannot take their looks anymore, "Mommy, are you going to take us today?" <BR> <BR> On a positive note...I did do a 2.5 minute plank yesterday. Umm, that's a long time dude!!! I struggled and had to take a 2 second, bu... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 12:18:23 EST ARRRrrr...I think I'd rather walk the plank! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My friend talked me into this challenge and I am more than challenged. I will do what I can, but good lord, what was I thinking??? This is hard, and I thought I was in decent shape. Even at 120 seconds, I had to take several 5-8 second breaks. Today is 150 seconds...I am scared! <BR> <BR> Nevertheless, I am glad I am doing it. But, I tell'ya, at about 80 seconds, I definitely would rather be walking the pl... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 15:14:51 EST Changing gears God, grant me the serenity, to accept the things I cannot change, to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference! <BR> <BR> Love this prayer and it is so applicable in many situations. For me, right now, at this part of my journey, it boils down to this: I cannot change that I cannot play soccer until later in the year, I can work on my running, and the wisdom to know the difference...well, I am working on that one! <BR> <BR> I see the doctor at the end of the month... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 00:53:46 EST The Vixsterlu Victory Run: My first run back :) I knew today was going to be epic! Before even getting out of bed, I spun 25 pts on the Spark Wheel, get my bonus spin and then I also crossed 10,000 spark points. Woohoo! <BR> <BR> My run...well, it was friggin AWESOME with a capital A W E S O M E !!!! <BR> <BR> Thank you ALL for your support! I felt the love as my lungs were burning. My knee felt great, a little discomfort, but no more than when I walk 4 miles. I did my usual walking loop, a 5k, ran for a little more than half the ... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 23:47:12 EST A little help from our Spriends: Help needed Great now I have that dang song in my mind. <BR> <BR> "I get by with a little help from my friends, <BR> Mmm, get high with a little help from my friends, <BR> Mmm, gonna to try with a little help from my friends" <BR> <BR> And you're welcome, because now you do too! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Back to blogness. I am crazy busy today preparing for a sleep over with the little ones for my daughters 9th bday so I will blog now and then after my run tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I know a few of my ... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 12:10:01 EST Words to ponder... My guilty pleasure is watching the Biggest Loser. That said, I heard something that resonated with me and wanted to share. Dr. H was talking to one of the contestants about his weight issues. He pointed out how dangerous his weight is and that he needed to take the time to address it. In speaking to this contestant he said something along the lines of this, <BR> <BR> "If you had cancer, you would take the two hours a day to go thru treatment, right?" <BR> <BR> It was a light bulb mome... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 11:54:46 EST Scrambled Legs with RICE: An invitation to any and all Sparkers! So Saturday is the day! I get to run! Can you tell I am excited!? Well I am! <BR> <BR> I would love for you, Spark Peeps throughout the world, to be a part of this with me. My dear spriend, Doglady13, had a wonderful idea to celebrate this occasion together. Since it is with much support from my spriends that I am where I am today, I can think of no better way than to share and celebrate this with you all. <BR> <BR> The background, for those who don’t know. I have been sidelined fro... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 12:39:18 EST A lot of people are afraid of heights. Not me, I'm afraid of ... ..widths. ~Steven Wright (haha, thought that was funny, had to share) <BR> <BR> Rough start to the new year with everything except my eating and exercise. I am back on track, making good food choices and getting my exercise in. Nine more days and I can run! <BR> <BR> It's weird that I have been able to stay focused with all that is going on around me. I've had a headache now for 4 days, not sure what that's about and my Rosie girl has stitches in her chest and keeping my girls (dogs)... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 12:13:29 EST Out with the old, in the new! Happy New Year Spark Friends! I hope you rang in the new year with a bang. I rang it in with zzzz's and two dogs on our bed. *note: We don't let them sleep with us EVER, but the noise was getting to them. At 2am, when the noise settled down, I sent them back downstairs, not enough room on the bed, lol. <BR> <BR> Well, so much for the holiday POUND that research suggests we gain over the holidays. Just as I expected, it was more than that. So if you lost a few pounds, I have them, I wi... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 23:27:47 EST One holiday down, two to go... Whew, Thanksgiving was great! Yes, I ate too much, but still kept it reasonable. Way better than prior years! We ended up at a friends house instead of family, it was lovely and no stress at all. <BR> <BR> December is not my favorite time of the year, but I try hard to be festive for my daughter. There is a HUGE back story here that I won't get into (you're welcome, lol). Let's just say that I do love Christmas, spending time with family and the giving/sharing aspect of the season. I... Sun, 2 Dec 2012 23:47:26 EST My first Spark Holiday Season This will be my first Holiday Season after losing weight. The research suggests that most adults gain about 1 pound during the winter, it is that one pound this year that can turn into 3 pounds next year. And I am sorry, but the research seems wrong, it seems more like 5 pounds during the winter, but I won’t argue with the research. Either way, I don’t like what it suggests. That said, this will also be my first Spark Holiday Season. So, let’s plan shall we? Why not, right? We plan fo... Sun, 11 Nov 2012 01:25:13 EST Dove Evolution: A must watch for mom's of daughters! I went to a great workshop today on how the media tricks us as it relates to our body image. I have to share this link! It's only 1min 14sec, well worth your time. <BR> <BR><BR>6U <BR> <BR> Used the clip this evening to talk to my daughter about the women and girls we see in magazines and how the pics are not real. She was puzzled, so we watched and talked about self acceptance. I am trying to get a copy of the power point slides used in the work... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 23:32:52 EST Getting down and dirty (with pics) This is a good 'mom moment' blog. I just wished I'd have been able to participate with my girl! <BR> <BR> A little background daughter is not a girly girl, but doesn't like bugs or getting dirty. My good friend roped us into this mud run. It was a 1 mile mud run for kids. Asked my girl if she wanted to do it since her BFF was doing it, she said 'Sure'. I really thought the first mud splash in her face and she'd be done...She completely proved me wrong and I could not be more p... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 22:08:17 EST The cookie disappeared... and no I didn't eat it. But I would have had it been there. I think my daughter ate it. I am just glad they are gone, no more temptation. <BR> <BR> Busy weekend ahead, tomorrow the great glass pumpkin patch with the kiddo. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> These are amazing and so fun to browse. My daughter has a glass collection (started with my mom) so this is a big event for us. <BR> <BR> Sunday, the kiddo gets to participate in a 1 mile... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 01:31:22 EST Last cookie down the hatch Ok, I did GREAT today...until I sat down at the end of the day to unwind. I planned on having half a cookie, ended up eating 2 and there is one left. And these are not small cookies. Part of me says, screw it and enjoying it while I get them out of the house (the cookies that is), the other part of me says, I can't let that cookie control me, especially since the other two got the better of me. I will let you know how I do. <BR> <BR> I DID...get in 2.5 miles of walking with the dogs and S... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 23:15:20 EST Grocery list abandoned...grrrr. I know better to let my husband shop with me. We always stray from our list. Yesterday we bought cookies and too many of them at that. Since yesterday, I have gone through one whole box of them. I blame TOM (which is 3 days early, what’s that all about?) which showed up late today. I had a wicked headache today as well. I have not had a headache like that in a long time (at least a year). While I blame TOM and my hubby, they are really just excuses. I feel like a blob, well, like a bl... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 23:58:24 EST The Sharktank: Surfs up with Surfset. I don't normally watch the Sharktank, but my daughter and I were hanging out and there it was. The first item on was the Surfset. This is such an awesome idea, I want one. Can't play with it til next year, so it's officially on my wish list. They said on the show that they are looking to sell retail a lot cheaper than what is listed on the website. <BR> <BR> Just wanted to share! Enjoy! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> FYI, this is no... Sat, 22 Sep 2012 21:22:59 EST