VINTAGE2FAIRY's SparkPeople Blog VINTAGE2FAIRY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Wanting fast results but dealing with the reality of slow steady progress I'm not sure if others have been in my shoes.. I really want fast results - it doesn't happen I get frustrated - start settling back into old habits - then check the scale and SURPRISE 2-5 pound gain! <em>198</em> . Then it's back to the drawing board. THIS time I'm going to stick to it. Follow calories closely, exercise, exercise, exercise! I'm going to do this!! Things are going well, check the scale, 1/2 a pound, check the next week, 1 lb, check then following week no change.. W... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 20:59:19 EST Patience.. Not one of my better assets! Its been a couple of weeks since I' ge weighed myself. And of coarse I thought I would be down more then I was! Then I go through this crazy thought cycle of sadness, anger, frustration, disappointment and then I think why didn't I do better? Why didn't I do more? <BR> Today, after calming down, I was thinking about things I've told patients I care for that have had a stroke, or new diagnosis of seizure disorder, or back surgery etc.. I usually tell them the hard... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 14:03:52 EST A month has gone by.. Well, I just past a month. Ten or so days of it sick - so nothing lost and nothing gained guess I'm happy about the latter. My motivation is lacking some. <BR> I was watching the biggest loser with my daughter, not a show I generally watch, and I was amazed at the amount of weight they can lose. Some were disappointed with 5 pounds! In a week? Man I'd be jumping up and down for joy if I did that! I wonder how it is that they loose so much weight in a short period of time. Some of them lost 1... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 17:52:23 EST Struggles?! I've been sick. No exersize not totally watching my intake. Really really worn out. I feel weak kind of like a wet noodle. I've been laying and resting for the last 8 days. I was once told by a physical therapist that for every day a person is down it takes 3 days to recover. That's practically amonth just to get back to where I was before I got sick! Doesn't seem fair.. But I will try and get back with it. Although I don't quite feel like expending a lot of energy and right now exersize see... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 05:02:08 EST Challenges.. So last evening at work I realized what a challenge it is to not snack. Working with patients and their families we get a lot of treats - appreciation for the care they've received, cookies, candy, donuts, muffins, bagels and cream cheese. It nice but it can add up to a lot of mindless munching. The funny thing is a few of those treats I don't crave or miss but they're just there infront of you so you just grab something. Plus I have coworkers that take something for themselves and bring me s... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 04:17:50 EST FRUSTRATION!!! Istarted out they day feeling pretty good about myself because I've stayed within my calories - making better choices - exersizing - bloging.. then I got ready for work. Dressing was not fun - it wasn't quite stuffed sausage but ill fitting - clothes a bit more snug then I was expecting. I know change takes time and I have to temper expectations but this really popped my "I'm feeling good balloon". I felt uncomfortable and self.conscience all evening. So frustrating <em>15</em> My mind aut... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 03:51:21 EST Blue Monday I had the day off today and I thought it was going to be a great day when I went to bed. Apparently it wasn't meant to be.. I had a horrible headache when I woke up, everything was frustrating me. I was really cranky in the face! I was looking for sheet music in the piano bench and came across some music my sisters and I sang/played for my parents 50th anniversary. It made me so sad.. my Dad died in 08 and it made me miss him so much!! He was such a great Dad and I miss him so so much. <em>... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 02:35:15 EST Can't believe a week went by already!! <em>134</em> It was a busy trying weekend at work for myself and co-workers. There was a group that was going out to LT (short for The Leaning Tower of Pizza) for beer and cheese bread and pizza yum! I wanted to go because I really wanted a beer! But didn't think it was wise since I'm just starting out - so I bowed out and went home. Hope I continue to stay strong. People were REALLY REALLY encouraging me to go. But I just didn't think I could make it through the pressure of my co-workers... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 04:56:18 EST Low energy day Wow.. I was super low on energy yesterday.. I dreaded having to work but got through the night ok. Thought I would be so tired I would just drop into bed and fall right to sleep. Nope! Lied there, rolling around, for an hour and 45 minutes. Any good ideas out there for falling asleep? I need to work all weekend and don't like taking sleep aids. Well going to try again. Sat, 16 Feb 2013 04:27:01 EST Visit from my son! <em>334</em> So happy to see my son yesterday evening! We had a healthy supper together and I made a healthier dessert that even he REALLY liked. My son has a weight problem too and after showing him this site and the devices you can utilize.. I believe I got him interested in trying it out!! Yea! Its Avery sensative subject for him so I was happy to see how interested he was. We had a nice visit and we watched a movie (Flight) we had fun. overall the day went pretty well. Still plugging a... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 02:40:57 EST Day three.. Well its very late. I just can't sleep. I've been outside with my German Shepherd Gretchen it's been snowing and she loves to run around in the fresh snow. I wish I had her energy! Anyway so far every thing is going well. Eating within my calories exersizing, no major temptations - yet anyway. I think its always easiest at the beginning once I get 3-4 weeks into it I'm afraid things may fizzle for me bat's my pattern. On the plus side this is the first time that I've joined an on-line group. ... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 04:44:26 EST Day two.. <em>335</em> Tonight I had a 91 yr old patient ask me to dance. He's a very sweet pleasantly confused (somewhat confused) sasssy gentleman. Glad to be in the hospital receiving what he said "fabulous care". I was thinking on my drive home about how I view my life/ self in general. It made me a little sad because of all the self loathing I have for my appearance and the ill fitting clothes - the lack of motivation - the lack of caring for myself.. I care greatly for my patient and try and g... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 03:34:53 EST Day one almost over.. Well I've made it through my first day. Pretty successful so far. I'm going to try to go to bed a half hour earlier then I normally do. I want to try and have better sleep habits. Hopefully I'm not trying to do to much too soon.. I've already gotten some negative comments about that. But I feel I need to take the bull by the horns and dive in ~ make the the changes I need to. Well anyway overall day one went well. Thanks for all the support!! <em>334</em> Tue, 12 Feb 2013 02:38:22 EST Still the beginning just later in the day.. So far things are going ok. I didn't get up as early as I wanted but hopefully tomorrow. I'll try comic to bed earlier tonight. I hope I fall asleep. Well I need to finish getting ready for work. <BR> Mon, 11 Feb 2013 14:58:08 EST The beginning Well here I go - the start of my journey wish me luck!! I will keep you updated! <em>213</em> Mon, 11 Feb 2013 04:18:29 EST The beginning Well here I go - the start of my journey wish me luck!! I will keep you updated! <em>213</em> Mon, 11 Feb 2013 04:18:15 EST