VINTAGE2FAIRY's SparkPeople Blog VINTAGE2FAIRY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Patience.. Not one of my better assets! Its been a couple of weeks since I' ge weighed myself. And of coarse I thought I would be down more then I was! Then I go through this crazy thought cycle of sadness, anger, frustration, disappointment and then I think why didn't I do better? Why didn't I do more? <BR> Today, after calming down, I was thinking about things I've told patients I care for that have had a stroke, or new diagnosis of seizure disorder, or back surgery etc.. I usually tell them the hard... Fri, 22 Mar 2013 14:03:52 EST A month has gone by.. Well, I just past a month. Ten or so days of it sick - so nothing lost and nothing gained guess I'm happy about the latter. My motivation is lacking some. <BR> I was watching the biggest loser with my daughter, not a show I generally watch, and I was amazed at the amount of weight they can lose. Some were disappointed with 5 pounds! In a week? Man I'd be jumping up and down for joy if I did that! I wonder how it is that they loose so much weight in a short period of time. Some of them lost 1... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 17:52:23 EST Struggles?! I've been sick. No exersize not totally watching my intake. Really really worn out. I feel weak kind of like a wet noodle. I've been laying and resting for the last 8 days. I was once told by a physical therapist that for every day a person is down it takes 3 days to recover. That's practically amonth just to get back to where I was before I got sick! Doesn't seem fair.. But I will try and get back with it. Although I don't quite feel like expending a lot of energy and right now exersize see... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 05:02:08 EST Challenges.. So last evening at work I realized what a challenge it is to not snack. Working with patients and their families we get a lot of treats - appreciation for the care they've received, cookies, candy, donuts, muffins, bagels and cream cheese. It nice but it can add up to a lot of mindless munching. The funny thing is a few of those treats I don't crave or miss but they're just there infront of you so you just grab something. Plus I have coworkers that take something for themselves and bring me s... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 04:17:50 EST FRUSTRATION!!! Istarted out they day feeling pretty good about myself because I've stayed within my calories - making better choices - exersizing - bloging.. then I got ready for work. Dressing was not fun - it wasn't quite stuffed sausage but ill fitting - clothes a bit more snug then I was expecting. I know change takes time and I have to temper expectations but this really popped my "I'm feeling good balloon". I felt uncomfortable and self.conscience all evening. So frustrating <em>15</em> My mind aut... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 03:51:21 EST Blue Monday I had the day off today and I thought it was going to be a great day when I went to bed. Apparently it wasn't meant to be.. I had a horrible headache when I woke up, everything was frustrating me. I was really cranky in the face! I was looking for sheet music in the piano bench and came across some music my sisters and I sang/played for my parents 50th anniversary. It made me so sad.. my Dad died in 08 and it made me miss him so much!! He was such a great Dad and I miss him so so much. <em>... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 02:35:15 EST Can't believe a week went by already!! <em>134</em> It was a busy trying weekend at work for myself and co-workers. There was a group that was going out to LT (short for The Leaning Tower of Pizza) for beer and cheese bread and pizza yum! I wanted to go because I really wanted a beer! But didn't think it was wise since I'm just starting out - so I bowed out and went home. Hope I continue to stay strong. People were REALLY REALLY encouraging me to go. But I just didn't think I could make it through the pressure of my co-workers... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 04:56:18 EST Low energy day Wow.. I was super low on energy yesterday.. I dreaded having to work but got through the night ok. Thought I would be so tired I would just drop into bed and fall right to sleep. Nope! Lied there, rolling around, for an hour and 45 minutes. Any good ideas out there for falling asleep? I need to work all weekend and don't like taking sleep aids. Well going to try again. Sat, 16 Feb 2013 04:27:01 EST Visit from my son! <em>334</em> So happy to see my son yesterday evening! We had a healthy supper together and I made a healthier dessert that even he REALLY liked. My son has a weight problem too and after showing him this site and the devices you can utilize.. I believe I got him interested in trying it out!! Yea! Its Avery sensative subject for him so I was happy to see how interested he was. We had a nice visit and we watched a movie (Flight) we had fun. overall the day went pretty well. Still plugging a... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 02:40:57 EST Day three.. Well its very late. I just can't sleep. I've been outside with my German Shepherd Gretchen it's been snowing and she loves to run around in the fresh snow. I wish I had her energy! Anyway so far every thing is going well. Eating within my calories exersizing, no major temptations - yet anyway. I think its always easiest at the beginning once I get 3-4 weeks into it I'm afraid things may fizzle for me bat's my pattern. On the plus side this is the first time that I've joined an on-line group. ... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 04:44:26 EST Day two.. <em>335</em> Tonight I had a 91 yr old patient ask me to dance. He's a very sweet pleasantly confused (somewhat confused) sasssy gentleman. Glad to be in the hospital receiving what he said "fabulous care". I was thinking on my drive home about how I view my life/ self in general. It made me a little sad because of all the self loathing I have for my appearance and the ill fitting clothes - the lack of motivation - the lack of caring for myself.. I care greatly for my patient and try and g... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 03:34:53 EST Day one almost over.. Well I've made it through my first day. Pretty successful so far. I'm going to try to go to bed a half hour earlier then I normally do. I want to try and have better sleep habits. Hopefully I'm not trying to do to much too soon.. I've already gotten some negative comments about that. But I feel I need to take the bull by the horns and dive in ~ make the the changes I need to. Well anyway overall day one went well. Thanks for all the support!! <em>334</em> Tue, 12 Feb 2013 02:38:22 EST Still the beginning just later in the day.. So far things are going ok. I didn't get up as early as I wanted but hopefully tomorrow. I'll try comic to bed earlier tonight. I hope I fall asleep. Well I need to finish getting ready for work. <BR> Mon, 11 Feb 2013 14:58:08 EST The beginning Well here I go - the start of my journey wish me luck!! I will keep you updated! <em>213</em> Mon, 11 Feb 2013 04:18:29 EST The beginning Well here I go - the start of my journey wish me luck!! I will keep you updated! <em>213</em> Mon, 11 Feb 2013 04:18:15 EST