VILEPARTS's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=VILEPARTS VILEPARTS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ EIGHTEEN-flustered http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2182536 so i believe i've hit a plateau. i'm working REALLY hard & only losing a pound or nothing at all. so i moved around my fitness schedule, that in turn upped my calories, which is really going to bother me. i had a hard enough time meeting 1300, how can i meet my minimum 1600? <BR> <BR> i'm way behind on my track. i'm "suppose" to be under 250, but here i am stuck in the low 250's. <BR> <BR> we'll see how it goes this next week with the change. something better change. <BR> <BR> <em>39</em>... Fri, 26 Jun 2009 10:42:34 EST SEVENTEEN-wrong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2174498 over the weekend, i kind of HAD to eat whatever was available. our frig was barren & there was nothing but carb filled foods. but yet i still had a hard time meeting the calorie requirements but i was always over on my carbs, not good. so everyday this week, it means cardio. also, my sodium was hiiigh for a few days. not good for my blood pressure. <BR> <BR> but, we went to the grocery, so now i have plenty of variety. i'm eating so much, it feels wrong. but i'm still barely meeting the calo... Tue, 23 Jun 2009 13:36:36 EST SIXTEEN-sadface http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2163603 the scale didn't budge. <BR> <BR> but i did all that work! i don't get it. i really wanted to see it at 250. <BR> <BR> maybe it's too many carbs. Fri, 19 Jun 2009 08:05:54 EST FIFTEEN-rotten http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2162722 i gave myself a day off on exercise today, god that was heavenly. i read, spent time on my makeup, poked around on the internet, went out with my mom. really, just a lazy, lazy day. it was wonderful. <BR> <BR> tomorrow is weigh-in day. can't wait to see the number. i've been drinking a load of water. i always meet my 8 glass minimum, but lately i've been doing 10-12. i is cleansed! <BR> <BR> today, i got myself some things. i haven't been to cosmo is quite a while. i gave my mother 3 nail p... Thu, 18 Jun 2009 19:57:25 EST FOURTEEN-click http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2145142 i remember my teachers in the past always saying to set mini-goals, something tangible so that you are more motivated to go after the real task in mind. i always thought it was such a crock. in the back of your mind, the big picture will always be there & seems to get further away. but through this, i can see why the mentors always insist on it. <BR> <BR> it. all. makes. sense. now. <BR> <BR> i set to lose 3 pounds this week. i did it. i feel phenomenal. i'm still a little behind of the tra... Fri, 12 Jun 2009 11:04:07 EST THIRTEEN-notices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2140346 i think i'm noticing a difference in my hands. i tend to lose weight on the perimeter. like, face, hands, feet first. it could be because my nails are growing longer than i normally let them & it's elongating my fingers. plus they aren't there usual dark polish. i also notice the tendons more. it's been a while since i've seen them. <BR> <BR> i'd like to think that my bras are starting to fit a little looser in the cup & band. which is great, i hate these bags! haha. <BR> <BR> anyway, i nee... Wed, 10 Jun 2009 16:16:36 EST TWELVE-yay http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2126125 well, i lost those 2 pounds i gained. i feel much better today. i'm a little off track, but hopefully will be solved by next week's weigh in. need to see it at 255. <BR> <BR> i went into ryan's work last night, apparently a lot of the guys were talking. one guy said the photos ryan has up in his box don't do me any justice. i'm referred as milky white around the shop instead of "mole lady" (my old lady). it's good to know i'm not labeled as a typical wife-that's-on-my-back-and-wallet. i have... Fri, 5 Jun 2009 14:07:08 EST ELEVEN- not hungry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2116512 i have exercised friday-monday straight. 30 minutes minimum cardio. i'm spent but hopefully that'll make up for my birthday. if i've gained more weight, i'm going to be really upset. i've been doing the minimum calories. i don't get hungry anymore. it's become a burden the try & get to 1200 calories. i know that's horrible, but i'm just not hungry. <BR> <BR> hopefully there will be a shift on the scale come friday. if not, i'm going to have to do something different. i just feel really bloat... Tue, 2 Jun 2009 14:24:13 EST TEN-BUMMER http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2103753 i wanted to lose 2 pounds before my birthday, instead i gained them. that's a damper on my day. it could be the lack of calories, my body is trying to store them, but honestly, i'm not hungry. i don't know what it is. or, it could be i've gone over my salt, a lot, this week. <BR> <BR> so i'll do my cardio today & tomorrow morning, probably sunday too, to help the process of what i'm going to be eating on my birthday. eff the diet on my day of birth. i'm eating what i want! Fri, 29 May 2009 08:45:59 EST NINE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2098491 so my birthday is coming up saturday. i'm soo looking forward to it, because i am eating whatever i want! it's my day, damn it, i'm going to enjoy it. is it sad that i am making a menu for myself of what i want? i'm going to feel like a WHALE! <BR> <BR> things have been going good. i met up with megan & tasha last saturday, they kept saying how good i looked. i never get tired of hearing that. tasha kept complimenting me on the littlest things which made me feel great since i pay attention t... Wed, 27 May 2009 15:30:11 EST EIGHT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2073292 i kind of got out of hand at the end of the day. i had so much i was doing, i didn't snack when i was suppose to, so in crunch time (minutes before my sugar dropped) i took it a upon myself to get my sugar up. hence the cookie & wafers. <BR> <BR> after tallying it up, i still managed to not go over my on my calories, so that's good. <BR> <BR> again, i had another day where i wasn't very hungry, but damn i have a headache. could be for the coloring process & messing with my hair a whole bun... Mon, 18 May 2009 19:44:42 EST SEVEN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2069990 i just really wasn't that hungry today. i couldn't get to my calorie point. did a lot of cleaning, so i was sweating. when i sweat, i just don't eat or i feel full. i don't know what it is. <BR> <BR> got a lot of things i have to do this week. going to have my mom relighten my regrowth, god help me. then i have to gather everyone for saturday. Sun, 17 May 2009 18:50:51 EST SIX http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2064065 weight in day. <BR> <BR> i had the scale setup, before i stepped up on it, i gave myself a pep talk. "you're on your period. you know you retain water like a camel, so don't be disappointed if it's not at what you wanted. next week will be better." let out a sigh. step up. <BR> <BR> 3 pounds. lost. i've met my first 10 pound loss!! <BR> <BR> i triple checked to make sure it really was on 260. i'm thinking there is no way. no way in hell i've lost 3 pounds. but there it was, the truth. <BR>... Fri, 15 May 2009 08:55:08 EST FIVE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2053319 it's irritating being with someone that can eat whatever the hell pleases him. here i am; measuring & counting. while he can down a box of donuts in one sitting, eat cheesecake out the ass, eat cheese like there is no tomorrow; and he's still a post. it sucks, but i understand all at the same time. i've been dealt a slow process, probably my own damn fault due to the eating disorder. i have to work, hard, to be where i want to be. <BR> <BR> i'm partially doing this for him. don't get it wron... Mon, 11 May 2009 16:49:24 EST FOUR http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2036552 Ugh, I just ate way too much sugar & my stomach hurts. I told myself to stop, but I didn't. I didn't go over my calorie intake too much from the cost of that actually. <BR> <BR> Bleck, this is gonna hurt. Tue, 5 May 2009 19:06:25 EST THREE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2031052 Well, I stepped on the scale Sunday, it didn't budge. That's okay. I've been keeping within my calorie intake, I did workout 3 days last week, my stomach has quit hurting due to the limited calories which feels much better. <BR> <BR> I should probably start measuring because it LOOKS like something was lost. <BR> <BR> Yesterday at dinner, my mother was watching me measure out my food. She was looking at me like I was nuts. God, I made steamed broccoli, I forgot how much I liked broccoli. I'... Mon, 4 May 2009 09:49:34 EST TWO http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2020984 Everything has been going good. I went to dinner with my mom tonight. Thursday's are our ritual hangout night. I did so good. Mom took notice in me picking out the croutons, cheese, & cutting out the breads. She kind of mockingly asked if I had been dieting. I said yes. "Well, have you lost weight?" in another cutting tone. I said yes. "Oh...how much?" now in a different, questioning but interested/excited mark. Six pounds when I last weighed myself. "Really?! That much? What have you been do... Thu, 30 Apr 2009 20:01:03 EST ONE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2017751 With me being sick, I just don't want to deal with measuring & counting. I just want to sleep, but I keep counting & measuring. It's just making me depressed because I just want to lay & not think about those things. I even worked out, hard, this morning. Typically I would have bypassed it because I'm ill. That SHOWS things have been changing. <BR> <BR> I keep going over my sodium intake. I've got everything else under way; I actually had some calories to spare today, celebrated with dark c... Wed, 29 Apr 2009 18:14:56 EST