VERSESTHATHURT's SparkPeople Blog VERSESTHATHURT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 3/1 Well, February was a complete wash. We went out of town at the beginning of the month and it really wasn't a great trip. My mom was sick, so I worried about her the whole time. And then, the day before we came home my husband's grandmother passed away. <BR> <BR> My husband is the only one who knows about this, because he was there, but on the way home the guy sitting next to me on the plane took a picture of me and posted it on his facebook. I guess he didn't think I had noticed, but I did a... Wed, 1 Mar 2017 11:14:10 EST 2/1 I haven't updated in a few days because I've been trying to get a ton of stuff done because we're going to Miami today until Monday. But I wanted to post a quick update with my first of the month measurements. <BR> <BR> I haven't really been feeling that great about everything, because I've seen very little change on the scale on my weigh ins on Fridays. Until today. I was 309 on January 1st, and 304 exactly this morning. My other measurements are all over the place, though. I'm down four in... Wed, 1 Feb 2017 09:10:22 EST 23 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So, I went to the march on Saturday. I have lots of feels about the whole things, but I'm just going to say I hope we keep the momentum going. <BR> <BR> <BR> My feet, you guys! I have worse blisters from the march than I did from the last 5k I walked and we didn't even go as far! So, I did almost nothing on Sunday because my feet hurt and I was nursing those blisters. And my hip was really... Mon, 23 Jan 2017 12:51:28 EST 19 Slow day today. It's been rainy and gross all day and my mom has a cold so I didn't go out to see her today. I got some art hung up in my office, ordered a new dry erase board and some more picture frames. I also finished the lettering for my signs for the march. <BR> <BR> I got some work in after lunch, and now I'm passing time until my yoga class by knitting some hats, also for the march on Saturday. My knee knees are bothering me today probably because of the drizzle and all the sitting o... Thu, 19 Jan 2017 20:14:15 EST 17 I was so busy yesterday I didn't even remember to spin the wheel on my phone. Streak broken! Boo. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I had a good day yesterday. My mom canceled on me, so I went to the gym and did an hour long pool workout. (So sore! But I still went to water aerobics today.) I ran some errands and then spent a few hours working on a sign for the women's march on Saturday. The husband and I stopped and got some Chinese takeout (chicken, veggies, and a wee bit of noodles) on the way to meeting... Wed, 18 Jan 2017 13:01:56 EST 16 I ate way too much junk Friday night. We had a game night and that's always a snacky-splurge night for all of us. And we stayed out too late so I was ridiculously tired Saturday. I got most of my exercise Saturday by walking Ikea with my Husband. Ours just opened last month, so it was insanely busy with people. <BR> <BR> I'm gearing up, and working out carpool/ caravan stuff for this weekend. Several of my friends and I are going to the sister march in Memphis on Saturday for the Washington ... Mon, 16 Jan 2017 12:55:27 EST 12 I got distracted from checking in yesterday by bed construction. We finally got all of the boxes for our mattress and between unpacking everything, letting the foam expand, and then putting it all together it took all afternoon. <BR> <BR> And like halfway through we were standing in the bedroom sweating bullets, because it was over 70 in the house. We had to turn the air conditioning on. Yep, it snowed last week and now it's nice and warm. And now I'm extra stuffy. <BR> <BR> My back didn't... Thu, 12 Jan 2017 09:15:35 EST 10 I feel like I didn't get anything done today. I was at my mom's until about 1:30. I came home and ate lunch, then ran to the grocery store to (hopefully) get cauliflower tots, since they were out when I did the rest of my shopping on Thursday. But, the power was out at the store and they were still out of cauliflower tots, and actually the entire frozen veggie section was practically empty. <BR> <BR> The power was out because it was super windy today, 25-30 mile an hour gusts. When I got bac... Tue, 10 Jan 2017 20:44:10 EST 9 So, the other day I posted a picture of my huge bottle of glucosamine/condroitin. Two-ish years ago, I was having a lot of knee and hip pain and found out I had acetabular impingement <link><BR>00571 </link> and as a result a bone spur in my hip. It mostly just hurt when it was really cold outside and since I live in The South, it wasn't a huge deal. But, the past few months it's bothered me more and more often but I wasn't terribly keen on the idea of go... Mon, 9 Jan 2017 13:34:35 EST 9 So, the other day I posted a picture of my huge bottle of glucosamine/condroitin. Two-ish years ago, I was having a lot of knee and hip pain and found out I had acetabular impingement <link><BR>00571 </link> and as a result a bone spur in my hip. It mostly just hurt when it was really cold outside and since I live in The South, it wasn't a huge deal. But, the past few months it's bothered me more and more often but I wasn't terribly keen on the idea of go... Mon, 9 Jan 2017 13:34:35 EST 6 Friday is my official weigh-in day. I gained a pound this week. Really?! <BR> <BR> It's cold and we got about two inches of snow this morning. <BR> <BR> I didn't go to water aerobics this morning because, snow. So I'll probably so some yoga at home. <BR> <BR> Did I mention it's cold? Do not like. Fri, 6 Jan 2017 11:35:16 EST 5 Not a lot going on again today. I had some work this morning but it was just a short 30 minute job. <BR> <BR> After dinner last night I had a craving for something sweet, so I made a single serving apple crisp. It was a little higher in calories than I would have liked, but I still came in under my goal for the day. And, I think I can cut the calories down some more if I make it again. <BR> <BR> I'm going to the grocery store a day early because we're supposed to get a "dusting" of snow wh... Thu, 5 Jan 2017 11:46:00 EST 4 Yeah, my arms are so sore today, in the "bat wing" area. And my legs on the inside of my thighs almost in the crotch. And my abs, just slightly. But, I went to water aerobics this morning anyway. Even though it's cold here and I didn't want to get out of bed much less leave the house. <BR> <BR> I don't have any work to do today, but I have a few things to do around the house. And I ton of organizational and cleaning stuff to do in my office. It's a hot mess. <BR> <BR> Not a lot going on. I... Wed, 4 Jan 2017 12:59:31 EST 3 Yesterday was pretty good. I finally finished my to-do list, which included work and everything I needed to do around the house, about 7. <BR> <BR> I don't have quite as much in my list today because I usually go see my Mom on Tuesday and Thursday mornings. She's having trouble with her oxygen saturation right now so she's not feeling so hot and told me not to come. We originally planned to do some organizing in her office and spare room this week, but if her saturation is down, she can't g... Tue, 3 Jan 2017 09:43:21 EST 2 I've had a super productive day already! I got up about 7:15 and started working. The first business day of the month is pretty busy for me now that I work for myself. That's when I send out invoices to my monthly billed clients, and do the bookkeeping for my Etsy shop. So I got all that done and then ate breakfast (overnight oats). <BR> <BR> I would normally have gone to water aerobics at 9, but we're having some crappy weather this morning and the local news was saying a nasty storm was go... Mon, 2 Jan 2017 13:38:46 EST 1 Despite multiple attempts to refocus in 2016, nothing really quite worked. In fact, nothing has really worked well since that first year of loss, where I wrote here almost every day, tracked all my food, and worked out a lot. I've still been working out a lot, but it's just one piece of the puzzle. <BR> <BR> <BR> So here I go again. Things are going to be vastly different this time, as my diet is already different. The husband was diagnosed with diabetes a few months ago and so our house is... Sun, 1 Jan 2017 12:41:41 EST Refocusing I'm not going to call this starting over, because I never really quit. I just sort of veered off the trail a little bit and lost sight of the finish line. <BR> <BR> It's been two months since I quit my 9-5 job and I've spent a lot more time doing self-care type things. <BR> <BR> We also went on a conference/vacation cruise and it was amazing. We had a wonderful time, but we ate tons of food and drank even more. We've back a little over a week and I think I'm still shedding water weight from... Wed, 3 Aug 2016 09:14:34 EST Frustrated So, as usual it's been awhile since I've been on here. Lots of things have happened. My husband got a great new job. I quit my day job less than a month ago and started freelancing full time. It also lets me spend more time with my mom. <BR> <BR> I'm still working on getting a schedule for myself in place, but I've done pretty well. I'm not sitting at a desk all day anymore, so I'm more active than ever. I'm also going to the gym a lot more than I have all year. I haven't really been exerc... Fri, 24 Jun 2016 08:58:01 EST March Measurements and Other Updates February was both good and bad. I did okay with exercise and eating. Just okay, not great. I did start some new habits, doing yoga Monday, Wednesday, and Friday when I wake up. Nothing crazy, just a 15ish minute stretch. On Tuesdays and Thursday mornings I'm going some kettlebell swings and some pilates rollups with a pilates ring. I went to Miami with The Husband at the beginning of the month for a conference he was speaking at. Met some awesome people (and some not so awesome people) and as... Tue, 1 Mar 2016 10:14:02 EST One Month So, I decided that every month I was going to do an official and measurements thing. <BR> <BR> Since January 1st, I’ve lost 2.4 pounds. Not great, but not terrible either. <BR> <BR> I’ve lost 1.5” around my waist! <BR> <BR> I’ve lost 1” around my hips! <BR> <BR> Thighs stayed the same. <BR> <BR> Upper arms stayed the same. <BR> <BR> I lost .5” from my calf. I’ve always had massive calfs (calves?) even when I was a significantly thinner teenager, so .5” is pretty good! <BR> <BR> And, I ... Tue, 2 Feb 2016 10:27:58 EST Gone, But not Forgotten I've missed you guys! I'm not going to into large amounts of detail about the last few months but I'll say this: <BR> I was sick a lot after I got my IUD, and between work stress and mom stress I've fallen off the wagon with my eating. Work is sort of getting back to normal now, but my mom's pulmonary fibrosis is entering the end stages and it's hard. She's on oxygen 24/7 and is basically couch bound. I thought I had built the skills up I needed to deal with all this, but I didn't use them. <... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 10:24:30 EST Things Life has been crazy. I'm still doing my class, but I only have a month left. Last weekend I relaunched my website (wrote all the code myself) and I'm hoping to start picking up some freelance work. <BR> <BR> I've gone off the wagon with my exercise for a few weeks because we were on vacation. The when we got back my mom was admitted to the hospital and stayed for a week. And I got sick again during all of this. <BR> <BR> So the situation with my mom is that her pulmonary fibrosis is progres... Thu, 10 Sep 2015 15:03:44 EST Still Here, Still Busy Sorry for the radio silence. I have been super ridiculously busy since starting the web design class. I've also been working on another baby quilt for a friend and that's another major time suck. <BR> <BR> And, I haven't been feeling 100% since I got the IUD. I'm getting better and I finally feel like my hormones are leveling out, but I gained eight pounds in the first month. I feel like a lot of it must have been water weight because I somehow magically lost four pounds between today and la... Thu, 30 Jul 2015 10:55:37 EST Long Time, No See Wow, I can't believe it's been over a month since I posted. <BR> <BR> So, what's been going on? I'm still on my six days a week at the gym workout plan, but it seems like at least once a week something has come up and I've missed a workout. I finally gave up completely on that one water aerobics instructor that I didn't like, and started going to yoga on those days, BUT, now she has some kind of injury and will be out indefinitely and that lady filling in on Saturday is great! So it's kind o... Thu, 16 Jul 2015 12:24:11 EST Focus I had a rough yoga class last night. I had a bad case of "nervous park squirrel" brain and just could not focus on what we were doing. It was so bad I had to stiffle a laugh when the teacher told us to do calf presses in dolphin. It was a "Are you kidding me?" laugh. <BR> <BR> Anyway after class she came up to me and hugged me and told me I looked great. It really meant a lot. She asked me how my week was and I told her it had been kind of crazy and that I had been slipping this week with my... Fri, 5 Jun 2015 10:16:25 EST Not Dead, Still Going I haven't posted a blog in awhile mostly because I just didn't feel like I had much to say. <BR> <BR> In general I feel good about how things are going. I'm losing weight again, roughly a pound a week. And after a really long time of losing two pound gaining two, I feel good about seeing the scale moving. <BR> <BR> Most weeks I'm working out six days a week, but for the most part I like what I'm doing and that makes it infinitely easier. <BR> <BR> Monday- a little cardio and strength train... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 10:00:10 EST PSA: Keep "the girls" under control! There's this lady that recently started coming to our water aerobics class and pretty much everyone is convinced she's either heavily medicated or not medicated enough. Like, I don't even know how to properly describe it. She's over enthusiastic to the point of being a distraction in class. She screams when she gets in the water when it's cold. She makes up her own moves when we're doing specific things the instructor is doing. <BR> <BR> She's also probably the most generously endowed woman... Wed, 13 May 2015 10:19:47 EST Losing My Favorite Instructor On Tuesday I found out that my favorite water aerobics instructor is leaving at the end of the month. She said it was never supposed to be a permanent gig that she was just there to help the gym get started. <BR> <BR> I can't handle three days a week with the instructor at the other location. First of all, major personality conflict, second she's not a real instructor and her classes are not as intense as I need, and third our city is in the middle of a major road construction project that m... Thu, 7 May 2015 12:26:04 EST Measure It All My measuring spoons and cups, and food scale came yesterday. It's been... interesting. I wanted to get all these things because I've been really concerned that I was eating more than I thought I was. So far, it looks like I was actually under estimating more often than over estimating. <BR> <BR> We had steaks for dinner last night, and I know I would have logged it as a 6 oz steak. It was 4.84 oz. When I measured out my cereal this morning, I noticed I've been pretty spot on with my almond m... Mon, 4 May 2015 09:56:17 EST Portion Control & Calorie Count Confession I've been back on track with food logging for awhile now. But I have a confession to make. I'm an estimator. When I cook and when I portion my food out I estimate the sizes. <BR> <BR> And I think that was fine when I first started losing weight, because it worked. But I think it might also be part of the reason my weight loss has slowed now. <BR> <BR> I need to be more precise. <BR> <BR> Part of the reason I've been an estimator was that I didn't have all the proper tools I needed to meas... Thu, 30 Apr 2015 10:47:39 EST Weekend in St.Louis The Husband and I drove up to St.Louis Friday and it rained almost the entire way. And it was unexpectedly colder there than in Memphis. We got to our hotel about 6 and decided to go to the Schlafly Bottleworks for dinner. We both got burgers with their house made beer cheese. The husband got a flight (beer sampler) and I had a Radler (their kolsch beer mixed with blood orange san pellegrino). <BR> <BR> We made it through the St. Louis zoo Saturday morning before it started raining. We walke... Tue, 28 Apr 2015 11:02:13 EST Self Care Next weekend The Husband and I are going to St.Louis for a long weekend. Between now and then I'm going to do some nice and much needed things for myself. <BR> <BR> Saturday after water aerobics I'm going to get my eyes checked and get new glasses and sun glasses. Then, I'm getting a pedicure. Being barefoot in front of people other than my husband and cats at yoga Sunday made me realize it was time for some warm weather foot care! Then, on Wednesday my aunt is cutting my hair again for me. ... Thu, 16 Apr 2015 13:51:52 EST Weekend Workouts I've been trying to go to the Saturday morning water aerobics class even though I'm not crazy about the instructor at the location near my house. At class Thursday night (at the other location where the instructor is awesome) we had a new zumba instructor observing class and getting tips. So Saturday the lady that was observing subbed for the Saturday morning class and she was great! It was her first time doing a water aerobics class but she was infinitely better than the regular lady at that... Mon, 13 Apr 2015 09:25:22 EST PT and The Side Effect of Weight Loss I called my insurance yesterday to check on what they'll pay on PT just so I wouldn't have any surprises when I got there for the appointment. Insurance will pay 100% after my deductible has been met. As of the phone call I was $136 away from meeting my $2500 deductible. Most of which is for all the tests the hematologist ran, that I still haven't seen bills for. <BR> <BR> They set me up for appointments twice a week for the next three weeks. We'll decide after that if I need to do the other... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 10:45:50 EST The Plan, Hopefully My first physical therapy appointment is this afternoon. Provided that my insurance is actually going to pay for a few visits I'm going to propose going to actual PT once a week and doing two days on my own at my gym. <BR> <BR> If my insurance won't pay for any I can't really afford more than one or two visits out of pocket. And even if my insurance will pay, that's time off work not making any money, but paying money out. And I'm trying to pay off debt, not make more. <BR> <BR> I've had tw... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 09:39:01 EST Busy Active Weekend Friday night I went over to my BFF's house to play games with some friends. We played Betrayal at House on the Hill twice. And I didn't get to bed until 1 am. <BR> <BR> But, I still got up for water aerobics at 9 Saturday morning. And... the instructor never showed up. The Saturday morning class is with the instructor I'm really not crazy about. There were a handful of other people there so we just decided to do class without the instructor. Apparently, we were supposed to know class was can... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 10:29:09 EST Femoroacetabular Impingement (FAI) That's what I have, the cam type. Basically for whatever reason the ball of my femur doesn't fit right in the joint and over time the friction has caused a bone spur. <BR> <BR> Treatment options: Lose weight. <BR> <BR> I got a little frustrated because the first thing the doctor offered me was a referral to a nutritionist. I pretty much said thank, but no thanks. I told him I was working on weight loss with the referring doctor and that I had already lost about 70 pounds in two years. <BR> ... Fri, 27 Mar 2015 13:46:23 EST Just What I Needed To Hear I didn't want to get up this morning at 5am when my alarm went off. I mean, who really ever wants to get up at 5am, right? I stayed there for a few minutes contemplating how much another 45 minutes of sleep would really help, and then got up. <BR> <BR> I was aiming for twelve laps in the pool this morning and was a little over halfway through when I stopped between laps to catch my breath. The guy in the lane next to me said something, but I couldn't hear him because I wear headphones and li... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 09:38:30 EST Con Review and Doctor Updates So, I went to the convention Friday and Saturday and had a great time! Most of these people last saw me 70+ pounds ago so I kept getting stopped in the hallways by people telling me how great I looked. And that was nice until... <BR> <BR> This catty mean wench that I really try to avoid stopped me Saturday and asked about my weight loss in a not so nice way. It was that "I'm going to compliment you, but not" kind of thing. So she said I looked great and asked what I was doing. We're not frie... Tue, 24 Mar 2015 11:25:06 EST To Yoga or Not to Yoga (and a swim update) So, I've really been wanting to try a yoga class at the gym. I'm pretty apprehensive about it because I know doing a dvd a home isn't the same as going to a class. Also, the idea that the yoga instructor might be as untrained as one of the water aerobics instructors is... worries me. <BR> <BR> I was thinking about going to the Sunday morning class yesterday, but that got derailed by stuff that happened on Saturday. Nothing bad. My mom was helping me with my costume and we had an unexpected ... Mon, 16 Mar 2015 11:00:15 EST Fat Fan I've never talked much about this here, but I'm kind of a geek. I love things like Firefly and Doctor Who. I even spent several years running different departments for our local big scifi/fantasy convention until I got burned out and tired of the politics and the push back every time I tried to update things and make stuff better. <BR> <BR> I've always wanted to try my hand at costuming...but when you're obese it's hard enough to find nice looking regular clothes much less incredibly specifi... Thu, 12 Mar 2015 09:57:38 EST Challenge Day 1, and weekend whatnot A few days ago I challenged myself to track my food and spin the wheel every day in March. Yesterday was March 1st and we (me, my mom, aunts, and my cousins) got together for a girls lunch and to belatedly celebrate my grandmother's 77th birthday. We had finger food and, chocolate fondue, and lemon cake, and champagne. So... it was difficult to accurately track everything, but I got it all listed even if the counts are a little questionable. <BR> <BR> Saturday morning I got up about eight an... Mon, 2 Mar 2015 10:07:51 EST Better I can't say I'm 100% today, but overall... I'm feeling better. It occurred to me this morning that I'd been off my vitamin D for a few days too and I'm sure that didn't help anything. <BR> <BR> So yesterday I flip flopped all day about whether or not I was going to go to the aquafit class by the house. Ultimately I decided ex-friend could screw herself and I wasn't going to let her stand in my way. It ended up being moot though because traffic was horrid and by the time I got to the house I ... Fri, 27 Feb 2015 10:36:56 EST Pity Party I know part of this is just hormonal and in a few days all I'll be over it, but right now I'm cranky and tired and frustrated. <BR> <BR> I'm cranky and tired. I haven't been sleeping well this past week or so and part of that is because I still have way more sinus drainage than I really should. And the husband's cat has been waking me up the past few night by climbing/walking all over me. And, locking her out of the bedroom isn't an option. <BR> <BR> I'm frustrated because I'm not happy at ... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 10:02:41 EST A Wash This week has been a complete wash. Late Sunday night through most of Monday we got about an inch of ice. Luckily it was sleet so it didn't really stick to the power lines and very few people lost power. But, I was pretty much iced in until yesterday. It's one thing to be home from work, but it's something completely different to be stuck in the house! <BR> <BR> So, I missed my Monday morning swim. I missed aquafit on Tuesday, and it was about ten degrees this morning so I didn't get up to g... Thu, 19 Feb 2015 09:56:14 EST Ghost of Friendships Past There was a girl in middle school and through most of high school that I was really close to. Not my BFF, but we were very close and spent a lot of time together. And the relationship was...very toxic. It took me a really long time to see it and long story short I went no contact during the beginning of our senior year. It was hard and painful and it shaped all of my relationships for years afterwards. It's been almost fifteen years and as I found out tonight it still hurts. <BR> <BR> Tonigh... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 22:16:46 EST Cranky Headache Day I did twelve laps Saturday and was kind of annoyed because the water was a little cloudy. I think it's because they've never really cleaned the floor around the pool since they opened so it looks kind of muddy. Like they tracked junk in during construction and just never cleaned it. Also, the pool cleaners have been really hit or miss for the last week and some of the other swimmers are starting to complain. <BR> <BR> This morning the water was even more cloudy and it was a strong sweet smel... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 10:25:07 EST Aquafit in Review I went to the other new location of my gym last night and took the aquafit class. I was super apprehensive about going because: scary new thing, people, bathing suit in front of people, and mostly dumb introvert reasons. <BR> <BR> But, I put my big girl panties on (or I guess my big girl bathing suit) and went. And I'm so glad I did. Aside from the fact that it was an great workout and I was sore before I even left the building, I had a great time. <BR> <BR> The other people in the class we... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 09:59:43 EST Status Quo It's weird how the more you change about yourself, the more you become unsatisfied with other areas of your life. <BR> <BR> I've been talking about it for awhile, I 'm sure I mentioned it here around this time last year, that I was considering a career change, but it would require learning some new skills. It came to head last week when my current job (I've been here almost seven years) cut my sick time down from 40 hours to 24. Everyone here is pissed about it. <BR> <BR> And I decided I c... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 10:06:03 EST Time Off I decided to take a few days off from the gym because my sinus funk wasn't getting any better, but it was definitely getting worse. I still didn't feel all that bad, but was starting to get nose bleeds. I went to clinic in our grocery store (it's like a minor med, but faster, and with just nurse practitioners) on New Year's Day. Anyway, she said I was lucky that it hadn't moved into my chest as bad as it was. So, I've been on some pretty hefty antibiotics and that combined with TMI have had m... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 10:38:55 EST