VERSESTHATHURT's SparkPeople Blog VERSESTHATHURT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community "Real Food" Update So here's how things are going. I weighed in this morning and lost a pound. Of course it looks like a I gained, but I actually gained last week, and I guess I didn't update it. So I went from 289, to 291 last week, to 290 this week. It's also that TOM, so I'm not sure how much of that is water weight. <BR> <BR> Is this "real food" thing working? Maybe. But I've been making an effort to go to the gym more too. <BR> <BR> I'm not completely free of processed foods. I had some vanilla ice cream... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 10:21:17 EST Emotional Rollercoaster Yesterday was an extremely emotional day for me. Tuesday night I started a GoFundMe fundraiser for my mom's medical care. I also put together a website for her where we can post updates about her health, the fundraising efforts and raise awareness about her medical conditions. <BR> <BR> When the donations started coming in yesterday, I didn't expect to feel the way I did. I'm not even going to try and lie, I cry every time I get an email saying someone has made a donation. It's a big deal to... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 10:22:34 EST Food Diary 3 Yesterday I did have my dried fruit and nut mix for a snack around 3. <BR> <BR> After I got home from work and the gym I made hamburger patties and garlic lime fries. I also had some of the colby cheese I've been eating on all week. And, some homemade pickle slices. <BR> <BR> For breakfast this morning I had one of the breakfast muffins I made this weekend and a banana. And because I accidentally opened two bananas trying to get one off the bunch, I'll be having another banana with lunch. <... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 11:39:05 EST Staying Accountable: Food Diary 2 Since, I'm not actively counting calories right now I though keeping a food diary here might help keep me accountable. <BR> <BR> Breakfast and lunch worked out really well yesterday. I wasn't ravenously hangry by the time lunch rolled around, which was good. I totally could have used an afternoon snack though, and ended up eating a handful of dried cranberries when I got home. <BR> <BR> We went out with friends last night so we had bar food for dinner. I had a burger and fries and we split ... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 10:24:12 EST "Real" Food So, I'm making an effort to step away from the packaged processed food. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I baked blueberry muffins, breakfast muffins, and a loaf of beer bread (used a locally brewed beer and local honey). <BR> <BR> For breakfast this morning I had one of the breakfast muffins and the first little end slice of the beer bread. And, I'm drinking a cup of caramel vanilla tea also. <BR> <BR> The breakfast muffins are a little slice of pillsbury crescent roll dough, one slice of bacon crum... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 10:12:24 EST Calories Vs. Quality I've been thinking for awhile now that I'm relying too much on processed prepackaged food to keep my calorie intake down. Particularly when it comes to breakfast. Lunch to a certain degree, but during the week my breakfast is almost always something that came from a box or a bottle. And I don't think that's a good thing for me. <BR> <BR> One of my sparkfriends just started doing The Whole 30, and while I don't think that's really for me right now, it really got me thinking about how I eat a... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 10:26:54 EST Coming Soon-ish So, they're building a 41,000 sqft LA Fitness practically across the street from my house. I was trying to find out what sort of stuff they'd have, like if there would be a pool, and when they're planning on opening. They're building two here from the ground up, so I'm sure it'll take a little while. There are three locations in Nashville, and none of them have a pool, so it's not looking promising. And there's a $99 sign-on fee. I guess the super cheapness of Planet Fitness has me a little s... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 10:31:46 EST When Other People Become Invested In Your Weight Loss So the cleaning lady at work is overly invested in my weight loss and it's getting on my nerves. <BR> <BR> I've never particularly liked this woman because she's one of those people that thinks because she's old she can say whatever the hell she wants and it bothers me. I actively avoided her for the longest time because I got tired of her asking me if she could have my jewelry or when was I going to buy her lunch. WTF. <BR> <BR> Now for the last three or four months she asked me one-two ti... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 10:44:25 EST Plank Fail & Mini Vacation So... I think the 30 day plank challenge is a little too intense for me as it is. I did well until I hit the two minute mark and then I started having to repeat days. Thursday morning I woke up with my right shoulder screaming at me. It felt better within two hours of being awake and be up and moving around. <BR> <BR> I didn't make the connection that it might be plank related until later that evening when I tried to do the 2.5 minutes and my shoulder and right elbow went NOPE. <BR> <BR> I... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 10:48:39 EST Skin Issues & The Week Ahead First, I am only working three days this week. And I cannot wait. I plan to spend a great majority of my four day weekend in my parent's pool. I need to do some other things, like get an oil change and some garden maintenance. But I can't wait to just have some chill time. <BR> <BR> Genetically, I don't know where it came from but I've always had pretty good skin. I never had acne as a teenager and rarely (even now) get pimples. I get compliments on my skin a lot. What the people that give t... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 09:59:44 EST Grump I've been working the reception desk in the morning all week because the regular day receptionist is on vacation. I have to work up here until 2 today. I HATE working the reception desk. Dealing with our sales staff is not the problem, they're pretty awesome for the most part. It's the customers, and answering the phones. I have very little patience for people who are rude on the phone. And I get defensive on behalf of our sales staff when people talk bad about them. So it pretty much ruins a... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 09:54:36 EST Mixed Results & The Related Feels This morning was my first weigh in since planning out my exercise last week. I went from 289 to 291. Yup, back in the 290s. <BR> <BR> Since this is a place where I'm supposed to talk honestly about my feelings and whatnot here it is: It sucks. It's frustrating to know that I kicked ass this week and the scale went up. <BR> <BR> But the other side to it, and the one that I hope will be more dominant in a few hours when the sting has worn off a bit is this: I kicked ass this week. I am doing ... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 10:24:35 EST So Far, So Good Last week I setup an exercise schedule for myself. I was probably a little overzealous in my planning, but I know I can do more than I was doing. But aside from one little hiccup I'm doing well. <BR> <BR> The hiccup was actually on the second day. I was supposed to go to the gym and do day 2 of the plank challenge. When I left work we were under a severe thunderstorm warning. I don't mind going to the gym if it's raining, but a severe thunderstorm? NOPE. Anyway once I got home my brain and ... Tue, 17 Jun 2014 10:10:22 EST Quilt, featuring Cats So, here's the quilt I made for my BFF's baby (with bonus cat). <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is Lu. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is Simi (my husband's needy, high strung cat). <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> And a bonus picture of Simi trying to get Lu to play with her. <BR> <img src=" Wed, 11 Jun 2014 22:25:23 EST Kicking It Up Since I made it in to the 280's I've stayed at 289. It's been like 3 or 4 weeks of 289. And that's okay, because 289 is better than 346. But, I'd *REALLY* like to reach 279, and not have it take me six months to get there. <BR> <BR> So yesterday I drew up a calendar in a google spreadsheet and planned out the next two months. I need to get out of this habit of going to the gym two days a week and slacking off the rest of the time. I don't always do that, but it happens more often than I'm co... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 10:29:25 EST Presents On the way to dinner the other night my husband told me he was tired of being fat. And it broke my heart because I know what it's like to be in that place and just feel like you're done, but you don't know what to do about it. <BR> <BR> Earlier in the day a friend of ours messaged me and asked me about Planet Fitness. He ended up joining that evening. <BR> <BR> Last night my husband told me they have a gym at his work and I was like WHAT? He's worked there for like two years and they've bee... Thu, 5 Jun 2014 10:25:56 EST Measuring Up So Wednesday is weigh in day, and I didn't lose any this week. But, I didn't gain either. But I've also eaten out twice in the last week and after last night's meal in particular I think I'm holding on to some water from all the sodium. <BR> <BR> I did take my measurements this morning as well. Despite the fact that I'm down a pants size from my last measurements I didn't see much change. However, I pulled up my reports to look at my progress over time, and wow. <BR> <BR> So my first measur... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 10:30:44 EST Little Things The finger is doing fine. It's a little sore because the super glue on my nail wore off and I caught it on like three different things (including my hair in the shower) before I could reglue it. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling very introspective today. And a little emotional. My coworker's (that goes to the gym with me sometimes) best friend's father just died. And it obviously hit a little close to home with me, the situation with my mom being what it is. <BR> <BR> I've come so very far in the last ... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 10:40:02 EST Quilting is Dangerous After work on Friday I ran by my BFF's house to take her my bathing suit top to see if would accommodate her giant baby belly. Seriously you guys it's only been a week since I've seen her and that baby is growing! <BR> <BR> Then I went to my favorite thrift store and even though it was pretty picked over from their Memorial Day sale, I found three shirts. Last weekend I pulled three shirts in a row out of my closet that were all too big to wear. <BR> <BR> I spent most of Saturday sewing th... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 10:05:46 EST Ought Oh: Sew All The Things So, I can't remember if my BFF or her sister told me they were thinking about having the baby shower on June 28. But that's what I was told so that's the deadline I've had in my head for having the baby quilt done. BFF doesn't know I'm making a quilt, but she does know I'm making something. I refer to it as the Super Secret Special Project. <BR> <BR> I got my invitation in the mail yesterday. Baby shower is on June 8th. That's a week from this Sunday. <BR> <BR> I still have 8 rows to sew to... Fri, 30 May 2014 10:39:22 EST Memorial Weekend So, the pool was still a bit too cold. I got used to it, but then I got on a float and anytime I moved whatever new part of me got wet was cold. So I only stayed in for about twenty minutes. <BR> <BR> My dad added some more air to my stability ball and the "helper ring" for me. He over inflated the ring and it has bulgy spots now. It's fine though, I only use the ring to keep the ball from rolling around my office when I'm not using it. The ball is much larger now and more solid and feel so ... Mon, 26 May 2014 09:48:12 EST Bad Kitty! The plan was to go to the gym tonight. I had my bag already packed. <BR> <BR> But while I was in the shower this morning one of the cats urped on the bed. I didn't have time to anything beyond basic damage control this morning. So, I have to go home and deal with that after work. <BR> <BR> My husband is out of town at a conference until Saturday and... his cat is high strung. <BR> <BR> I went to dinner with my BFF last night at Panera Bread. I had a cup of tomato soup and half a chicken ce... Thu, 22 May 2014 10:47:11 EST SV: So long, Farewell! No, I'm not leaving SP! <BR> <BR> Today I left the 290s! <BR> <BR> When I weigh in I have to move my scale from carpet to linoleum so it has to re-calibrate every time I weigh-in. Which means I never pay too much attention what the scale says the first time I step on. It's always wrong. <BR> <BR> When I stepped on this morning it said 286.5 and I went WTF?! <BR> <BR> I stepped off and stepped back on. And it said 289.6. And I stepped off and on again. And it said 289.0. <BR> <BR> And I w... Wed, 21 May 2014 10:01:08 EST Playing at Grown Up I've mentioned before that I'm not really happy with my job. I have a bachelor's of liberal studies, and... it's pretty useless. <BR> <BR> At the end of 2013 I did some online training in html and css. And, then I just kind of quit. <BR> <BR> The last few weeks I've been contemplating going back to school, either for my masters so I can teach at the community college level or for an associates in something tech related. I'd really like to do something along the lines of web design. In fact,... Fri, 16 May 2014 11:08:58 EST Stiff I did the boot camp cardio sculpt and some yoga last night. I couldn't finish the yoga dvd. Usually, I really enjoy it, but I was just so stiff and clumsy feeling. And, I really didn't feel that way until I started the dvd. The downward dogs were almost unbearable. <BR> <BR> I'm going to blame it on the general dampness and yuck from two days of rain and a cold front. <BR> <BR> Aside from that I'm doing well. I gained almost a pound this week, but we ate out three times since me last weigh ... Thu, 15 May 2014 10:08:11 EST Crazy Week I have had a crazy week. Since our software update on Tuesday we've only been able to scan about 5% of what we would normally do in a day. I've called tech support multiple times every day. This morning I badgered the crap out of them until I got a supervisor. So we *might* be getting a temporary fix until the programmers can do their thing. <BR> <BR> Monday night I worked out at home with boot camp (I absolutely refuse to do any more cardio bursts) and the stability ball. <BR> <BR> Tuesday... Fri, 9 May 2014 10:52:49 EST Feels I wasn't sure if I was going to write today. Or how often I'm going to write now, even. I felt like I HAD TO write most days this first year just to keep me going and to keep me accountable. So I may not write every day now, but I'll still write. <BR> <BR> I had a rough day yesterday. When my mom told me on Friday what the doctor said, I was numb mostly. When it's always bad news, it's exhausting and after a certain point you don't feel it as much. Or at least you want to pretend you don't f... Tue, 6 May 2014 10:48:17 EST ONE YEAR of SP Haha, I don't quite know how the days worked out because my first post was on April 26 of last year, so happy belated sparkiversary to me. <BR> <BR> When I started here a year ago, I weight 346 pounds (having weighed about ten pounds more than that a month before) and I had recently given up fast food. <BR> <BR> I had to admit some brutally honest things. Things that hurt me to say. <BR> <BR> But, I think somewhere along the way I started to find myself. To feel a little more confident, a... Mon, 5 May 2014 10:06:40 EST 362 Days: No One Wants Fitness Advice from the FAT Girl So... my coworker that's been going to the gym with my sometimes? The one that only makes it about once a week? <BR> <BR> She thinks she's only loosing weight/getting fit if she sweats a lot. <BR> <BR> She mentioned a few weeks ago that she wasn't "sweating enough" while we were using the weight machines. And I was like, "Well...we're lifting weights. We're not really going to sweat the same way we would if we were still on the elliptical." <BR> <BR> A few days later she said she was kind... Fri, 2 May 2014 10:20:05 EST 361 Days I was so ridiculously sore yesterday that I decided to take a rest day. I even ended up falling asleep while I was trying to watch tv! <BR> <BR> The plan for today is to go to the gym and do arm and back. <BR> <BR> I don't have much else to report on. I've finished my antibiotics, but I'm still a little stuffy. Thu, 1 May 2014 10:23:16 EST 360 Days: First Burpees and Whatnot According to the weather forecast, we were supposed to get some scattered showers after work yesterday. And, being not quite over my sinus funk I did not want to get caught in a down pour halfway around the lake. I decided to go home and do day 2 of bootcamp and the beginner workout with the stability ball. <BR> <BR> Day 2 is the cardio sculpt which cardio with some strength training thrown in there. And burpees. I had never done burpees before. It didn't seem as difficult as I expected it t... Wed, 30 Apr 2014 10:02:01 EST 359 Days The weather cooperated yesterday and my coworker and I went to the gym. I swear she tried to kill me! She wanted to be adventurous and try out some new ab machines. Including the abcoaster. The one at my gym looks like this:<BR>images/products/5610.jpg and is a thing of evil. <BR> <BR> I was struggling a little yesterday because of the sinus infection. I broke out in a sweat just changing my clothes! And I had a headache. But I soldiered on and am ... Tue, 29 Apr 2014 10:59:13 EST 358 Days Well, I didn't have an ear infection. I did have s sinus infection, boo! I got a z-pack and started that as soon as I got home which was right around lunch time. I ate something and then the cats and I napped for about three hours. Actually, one of the cats napped for about five hours. Then I laid on the couch with the cat that was not napping and starting binge watching Orange is the New Black. <BR> <BR> My danksin shorts came Friday and they're almost perfect. I ordered up a size from what... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 10:11:06 EST 355 Days Do you ever times where it seems like one thing goes wrong with your body then everything else just follows? <BR> <BR> I've been battling the sinus allergy funk all week, which is pretty typical for me this time of year. But then the night before last (this may be TMI... sorry!) I knew I was starting to get a yeast infection. Luckily I had a refill on diflucan from the end of last year when this happened. So I got that filled yesterday during lunch and can already tell it's working. But, yes... Fri, 25 Apr 2014 10:30:57 EST 354 Days Despite my post yesterday I was actually having a good day until my boss came in my office and threw a hissy fit about something that's not even a big deal. So instead of listening to me, she's trying to micromanage my work and give me "help." Which just has me super pissed off and feeling resentful. Which triggers a lot of what am I doing with my life feelings? This is a job and it sort of pays a few bills, but I always have this lingering sense that I should be doing something more...fulf... Thu, 24 Apr 2014 10:28:32 EST 353 Days: Stagnant I haven't, by any means, given up. And I'm not surprised by my two pound weight gain this week (hello casino buffet food and Easter cheesecake). <BR> <BR> I guess this is my first real plateau. I feel like I've been gaining and losing the same five pounds since the beginning on the year. <BR> <BR> Part of it I think it that complacency I've talked about. And becoming a little too comfortable and settled in my routine. <BR> <BR> And for the last month I've come up with excuses to not go t... Wed, 23 Apr 2014 10:16:20 EST 352 Days I didn't go to the gym last night. My throat started hurting yesterday afternoon, and by the time I got off work my nose was all stopped up. <BR> <BR> So I went home took some zyrtec-d and watched a movie with one of the cats. We went to bed early too. My throat is better this morning, but my sinuses are so clogged up. <BR> <BR> I didn't go to the gym at all last week, and I don't want to miss another week. But, I don't want to feel like crap either. <BR> <BR> <BR> Uhhg. Tue, 22 Apr 2014 10:18:44 EST 351 Days My mini vacation was not as nice and relaxing as I was hoping it would be. The hotel, restaurant, and casino seemed in general to be a little run down. I went to the pool for a little while on Friday, but there were several early 20s couples with their extremely young children. And apparently the entire pool area belonged to them. We saw a lot of kids around while we were there and that just baffles me. Who takes kids to a casino for vacation? There is absolutely nothing for them to do there,... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 10:24:56 EST 346 Days I went for a walk after work last night. It was windy and about 50, and by the time I made it back to the car I was snotting all over myself. When I did this walk a few weeks ago, I was sore for days after and I feel fine this morning. I was pretty sore last night though. I used my special foot rub after I got out of the shower: vicks vapor rub, zims crack cream, and arnica gel. I also had some intense moisture baby lotion that I mixed in. I usually only use it after races, but my feet were p... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 10:25:56 EST 345 Days: Lab Results I got one of those automated "we have your lab results" calls from the doctor's office yesterday basically saying my TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone) was low and to come back in six weeks for a recheck. They have a new system so you can log in and look at your own bloodwork/test results now. So, I just did that,'s really low. The low end of the test range is .35 and mine tested 0.01. My t-uptake is low and my total t4 is high. Also, my white blood count stuff is high, not crazy high... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 10:50:33 EST 344 Days: Weekend Clothing NSV So, I didn't get any exercise in this weekend, but I had plenty of activity! <BR> <BR> Friday night I put together the rast chest that I ordered from Ikea. The next morning I sat on the floor in the garage (on an old chair cushion) and stained everything but the drawer fronts. I put the last coat of sealer on at 7:30 that night. <BR> <BR> Sunday morning I painted the drawer fronts white. That afternoon I put the drawer pulls on and drug everything in to my office. The husband anchored it to... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 09:44:57 EST 341 Days Ok, so you remember how I was so apprehensive about going to the gym with someone, because I was so used to going alone? My coworker couldn't go last night unless we went later, which did work for me. So I went by myself was kind of lonely. It seemed like my ten minutes on the elliptical took twenty minutes! <BR> <BR> The workout itself was fine, but I think I actually like having someone to go with. <BR> <BR> I have another busy weekend ahead, but I'm going to try really hard to ... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 09:53:32 EST 340 Days: Doctor Visit I had my doctor's appointment yesterday and it took forever, because he was trying to work in a very sick patient that didn't have an appointment. And I don't mind the wait, because that's the kind of doctor he is. <BR> <BR> He had a student doctor with him and the first thing he said to her when they came is, "This is one of my success stories; I'm so proud of her!" Seriously my doctor is awesome. In general he said I'm doing awesome and to keep it up. I told him about the dizzy spell, and ... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 10:09:47 EST 339 Days Went to the gym last night and did arms and back. And, then I used the massage chair. I only got to use it for a few minutes, but it was awesome. I was a little worried when I walked in that my leg wouldn't fit in the slots for your calves. But, I fit just fine, though I did turn the leg part down to the lowest setting because it was little snug once the air filled in. <BR> <BR> I think I finally found a 5k I'm interested in. It's for Earth Day at the big park I walk at sometimes (but a diff... Wed, 9 Apr 2014 10:19:21 EST 338 Days So operation "afternoon snack" is going well. Who knew gummi bears and cashews complimented each other so well. I never thought of myself as a salty & sweet together kind of person, but apparently I am. Also, gummi bears are way too sugary by themselves for me now. And the saltyness of the cashews made me drink more water. <BR> <BR> My coworker's husband volunteered her for something last minute yesterday without consulting her first, so our gym day is supposed to be today instead. Which en... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 09:56:25 EST 337 Days Still hanging on! I'm participating in a fitness minutes challenge for April on one of my teams. For my first week I got 192 minutes out of 200. <BR> <BR> I broke down Friday evening an ordered a fancy new sewing machine, after talking to Mom and determining that mine is just a POS. I thought I had mine fixed, and got new two squares sewn together on Saturday and then it threw another tantrum. So, the new machine should be here this week sometime. <BR> <BR> I decided after my dizzy fit last... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 10:42:04 EST 334 Days The weather was a bit windy, but otherwise perfect yesterday afternoon and I really wanted to go for a walk. But, the forecast was saying we were going to have severe thunderstorms with chances for tornadoes starting around 6, and I really didn't want to get caught out in a down pour (or, you know, a tornado). I don't think it ever even rained until after midnight. So annoying! <BR> <BR> I made an old beef & broccoli recipe I got from sparkrecipes years ago. It's really good and we eat it a ... Fri, 4 Apr 2014 10:30:23 EST 333 Days I upgraded my Planet Fitness membership on Monday for two reasons: I wanted to try out the location that's closer to work, and I want to use the massage stuff. <BR> <BR> So, last night my coworker and I went to the other location. It has pretty much all the same stuff, but the space is a lot smaller. I still haven't used the hydomassage bed, or the chairs yet though. <BR> <BR> We had a really good workout. I was completely fine, no lightheadedness or dizzy spells. <BR> <BR> Oh! I almost fo... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 10:52:32 EST Day 332: Frustrated I'm frustrated and a little annoyed with myself. I gained again this week. I gained last week, and I knew exactly why, but I didn't do anything to fix it. So, I gained again. <BR> <BR> When your weight loss is going well, it's really easy to become comfortable and complacent with your eating and exercise. And that's what happened to me. <BR> <BR> I joined a fitness minutes challenge for April, so maybe that'll help me get back in gear. <BR> <BR> This is me officially kicking myself in the ... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 10:37:56 EST 331 Days: Lightheaded My coworker finally joins me at the gym last night, and it was going really well until I sat down to do my last set on the seated rower. As soon as I sat down I got really light headed, and then really dizzy. I sat for a minute, then grabbed my water and sat on the bench in the locker room with my head between my knees while she did her last set. <BR> <BR> And then I felt better. I had a serious case of brain fog after the dizziness, but I think it just disoriented me, because as soon as the... Tue, 1 Apr 2014 09:58:05 EST