VERSESTHATHURT's SparkPeople Blog VERSESTHATHURT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Info Dump I haven't written since the first of the month. I was super busy at work trying to learn to be the backup title clerk. It's a lot of detailed stuff to try and remember, and after two weeks of notes and working the desk with the title clerk I still don't know it all. But I worked the desk by myself for two days while she was gone and didn't screw anything up too horribly. <BR> <BR> Our dryer (it's only three years old and we just bought a new washer!) broke over the weekend. We bought a part ... Thu, 18 Dec 2014 11:42:05 EST New Month, Fresh Start Whoa, December! Where did this year go? So, I need to mail my Planet Fitness membership cancellation on Wednesday. My new gym is supposed to be opening soon. The other location they're building here might be open by this weekend, and I think mine is about a week behind theirs. I cannot wait! Which is kind of funny since I've had no motivation to go to the gym for about a month. But I think December is going to be a good month. <BR> <BR> I'm feeling a little wonky because my thyroid medicine ... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 11:26:12 EST Weekend & Phentermine Take 2 Despite my freakout over the blood work and referral on Friday I had a good weekend. I told my husband Friday and he took it pretty well. I was afraid about what it would do for his anxiety, but aside from being quiet he seemed fine. I was very, "we don't know what's going on, so let's not get all freaked out over nothing." I did tell him specifically that I didn't want to tell my parents. I tell my mom pretty much everything, but again, I don't want to her having any added stress over somet... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 09:13:51 EST Don't Panic I was poking around on the web portal for my doctor's office this morning because I had gotten the automated email that my lab results from my appointment Monday had been added. There was a referral to a doctor listed that we hadn't talked about at the appointment. <BR> <BR> If what's on the website is correct, they're referring me to a hematologist/oncologist for abnormal blood chemistry. The last few times I've been in my WBC stuff has been wonky. Not like crazy bad, but not right. <BR> <... Fri, 21 Nov 2014 11:03:43 EST Doctor Visit Of course by the time I get to the doctor my rash is looking much better. Isn't that how it always goes? He thinks it might be eczema or psoriasis so he's sending me back to another dermatologist. <BR> <BR> Despite the fact that I gained back half of what I lost on the phentermine and haven't lost much since then (mostly because I've been a massive slacker), he was still pleased. He said it's not unusual to gain some of it back, particularly since I lost so much on it. He wrote me another sc... Wed, 19 Nov 2014 09:35:52 EST Surprise Snow! When I turned my alarm off this morning I could see the window ledge and the a/c unit had a coating of ice. Which... did seem weird as it wasn't supposed to rain or anything last night, though it is unusually cold for Memphis right now. <BR> <BR> When I got out of the shower and turned the news on they were doing the traffic report and there were accidents everywhere, because it snowed last night! Not a lot, mostly just a dusting. But we weren't expecting any wintery precip so the sand truck... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 10:59:26 EST Weekend of Meh and SAD It's been TOM and I've been very meh for the last few days and have had very little motivation to do anything but sit on my butt and eat candy. I'm still fighting the mystery rash on my arm too. So, it was pretty much gone Friday, but then Saturday I had a new rash in the same area, though I suspect that might be a reaction to the tea tree oil I was using to dry up the first rash. Because I can't win when it comes to skin stuff. I'm now rotating between benedryl cream and cortisone cream. <BR... Mon, 10 Nov 2014 09:48:52 EST Swimming! So I went to the LA Fitness preview center after work and signed me and The Husband up. They waived the sign-on fee, but I had to pay first and last month fees for both of us, so $120. They don't have an official opening date set, but they're thinking beginning to mid December. They're not open quite as much as PF on the week days, but longer on the weekends. And as long as the gym is open, the pool is open. <BR> <BR> I'll probably cancel my PF membership the first week in December, since I ... Thu, 6 Nov 2014 10:20:06 EST On Washers and Rashes So we knew our washer was dying. It came with the house and was old. The knob broke the day we moved in and my dad "fixed it" so it was at least usable. A few years ago a hose broke, and water went everywhere but we weren't in a financial position to replace it, so my dad just replaced the hose for us. But, two weeks ago it started screaming during the spin cycle on larger loads. It wasn't out of balance, it was just... angry. So I started doing really small loads just trying to get us throug... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 10:13:24 EST Weekend (so much stairs, garden work, and attempted compost theft) I didn't go to the gym this weekend, but I did get plenty of physical activity. On Saturday I was the event photographer for an all day tech conference. My fitbit tracked 14 flights of stairs climbed, and about 4.6 miles walked. And let my tell you by the time I got home I felt every step. We left the house about 6:30 Saturday morning and got home about 7:30 that night. I went to bed about 8:30 and slept for like twelve hours. <BR> <BR> Sunday morning The Husband and I had brunch at Celtic ... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 09:43:50 EST Moving Along I didn't make it to the gym or do anything intentionally exercise like this weekend. BUT, I did spend a little over an hour gardening! I cleared all the weeds out of the front flower bed, trimmed my smoke bush, and my wisteria which is looking a little scraggly this year. I continued the on-going epic battle with an oak sapling the took hold inbetween the house and the air conditioner. I think what I tried this time might actually kill it. I also started cleaning up the back raised bed that I... Tue, 28 Oct 2014 10:05:37 EST Squirrel! Something I read this morning on a sparkfriend's blog struck a major chord with me. STEPH-KNEE mentioned often talking about diet and exercise plans but not usually following through with them. I have this problem, and not just in relation to weightloss. <BR> <BR> It's why it took me over a year to finish re-doing my office at home, why I have one mostly knitted sock, a foot stool in my garage that is completely disassembled and conveniently sitting on top of another unfinished project (an ... Fri, 24 Oct 2014 10:08:34 EST I Like Dirt I'm terrible with houseplants (except for my office a work which looks vaguely jungle like) but I love our door gardening. Unfortunately I don't do it very often. <BR> We bough our house seven-ish years ago and I had grand plans. My dad and I even spend like two weekends digging up bushes and planting stuff in the front yard. Then I hurt my back. I had two herniated discs and life sucked for a long time health wise. <BR> <BR> Then about four years ago I convinced the husband to help me build... Thu, 23 Oct 2014 11:36:15 EST All the Things The last two weeks have been a complicated. <BR> <BR> My husband was offered a job with a start-up that would have been a huge pay bump. He had more or less decided to take the job, but then found out the company only had for sure funding until March. All this was happening right around when it was time for his yearly review at work. He decided to stay, and they gave him a 10% raise and a yet-to-be-determined title change. So it's not what he would have gotten at the start-up, but it's somet... Tue, 21 Oct 2014 10:39:48 EST Being Honest. So I felt kind of yuck late Sunday through Monday. Nothing specific I could really put my finger on, just not myself. I figured it was the weather changing and the rain. But I woke up Tuesday with an ear ache. I left work about two hours in and went to the CVS Minute Clinic and found out I had an ear infection in both ears. That'll do it. My left side was actually worse, but my right side was the one that hurt. <BR> <BR> I decided to stay home yesterday also, because I had the sick time and ... Thu, 16 Oct 2014 10:35:04 EST KT Taping Results and Other Stuff The kinesio taping worked really well! I was very impressed. I did have some problems with it staying stuck, but that was mostly related to my footwear. I think if I had been wearing socks and sneakers it would have been fine. I wore it Thursday night through yesterday morning, though I did replace it Friday evening because the flats I wore Friday rubbed the edges and made them curl up. <BR> <BR> During that time I went grocery shopping, did a lot of standing/laying on the kitchen floor/gett... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 09:52:35 EST Kinesio Taping So, I did some reading yesterday and decided to try out taping for pain relief. I picked the kinesio taping because you use a special tape for it and it's intended to be left on for longer than the standard athletic tape. It's also more breathable and is supposed to be better for sensitive skin. <BR> <BR> There are a few different ways you can tape for heel pain. The first one I tried at lunch yesterday wasn't particularly effective, but I think that was more me not having a good grasp on wh... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 09:48:45 EST In Need of Quiet Time After last week, I really wanted to just be a lump on the couch this weekend. Being busy and having to be social zap me. I really only got to chill out on Saturday though. <BR> <BR> Friday night I went to visit my BFF and baby Callie. I got an epic selfie of me holding her and both of us sticking our tongues out. She's holding her head up on her own now, making some good noises, and starting to get the hang of smiling. She really liked me holding her up by her armpits to she could push her f... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 10:26:55 EST So tired! I don't know if I talked about this or not, but The Husband runs a tech conference. He's really involved in the tech community here and after going to a similar conference in another city, decided we should have one here. They did the first one last year. The second one was this weekend. <BR> <BR> Last year I helped out with registration, serving food, and took pictures. This year my primary responsibility was pictures but I helped with food too (we have meals catered from dinner Friday til... Mon, 22 Sep 2014 09:52:44 EST GOAL! Not my ultimate goal weight, but the next big goal milestone I was supposed to hit was 280. I went from 283.3 last week, to 283.6 yesterday. I wasn't that upset about it, it's just one of those things. It happens. I'm not going to lose a pound every week, much less three or four. Those are not realistic expectations, and I know that. <BR> <BR> But, there were a lot of factor at play yesterday. I was just coming off TOM, and as I've mentioned before since I've been on phentermine my digestive... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 10:02:10 EST Another Rough Day Late yesterday afternoon I found out my "cousin" was in the hospital. I put the cousin in quotes, because we're not technically related, but that's what we usually tell people we are. Her parents and my parents are best friends, so her, me, and my brother were more or less raised together. She's really more like a sister from another mother. There's no real blood relation, but she's family nonetheless. Her mom even told the nurse yesterday that I was her half-sister. <BR> <BR> The funeral I... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 10:46:31 EST Yesterday & Today Yesterday was just one of those days. <BR> <BR> The day before I wore a pair of underwear that while they technically fit, were not a cut I liked. They were very narrow in the front and back and the leg hole were very angular. They weren't terribly uncomfortable, but were definitely rubbing in places they shouldn't be. <BR> <BR> (the next part may be tmi, so feel free to jump ahead) <BR> <BR> So I wake up yesterday and... it feels like I have a blister in one of those said spots. It's not ... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 10:36:48 EST Third Phentermine Weigh-In So no huge loss this week. I'm down three ounces from my last weight in. I'm not terribly surprised; I had a day this week where I ate like I was pre phentermine, and there was also an unplanned piece of key lime pie. And I've been battling a sinus allergy flare up for the last week too. <BR> <BR> After two weeks of above average losses for me, I wasn't really expecting another big drop this week. It would have been nice, but I'm not going to worry over it. <BR> <BR> My knee got really ach... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 09:50:19 EST Safety Memphis isn't exactly a safe city. Once a year a list of the 10 most dangerous cities in the U.S. comes out, and we're always on it. But, I've lived here my entire life and aside from a few isolated incidences, and despite having family member who've been victims of violent crime, I've never really felt unsafe. Until I was in my late teens we lived in several of the less desirable neighborhoods, and as an adult I've worked in many of them. And even when I was a second-shifter and leaving work... Mon, 8 Sep 2014 10:10:48 EST Mixed Feelings Another three pounds off thanks to the phentermine! I'm happy that things are moving along again, but I feel like I need to manage my expectations. <BR> <BR> It's not without side effects, though those are significantly improved. For the last few days my digestive system has been a bit off. Nothing horrible. I'm trying to make a point drink more water than usual, and I've added in some fiber powder to one drink every day for the last few days. And that kicked in this morning. <BR> <BR> (War... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 10:34:48 EST Meditation My life is...stressful. 90% of the stress in my life is related to my mother's illness, so it's not really one of those situations where I can just remove myself from the stressful thing. <BR> <BR> Several months back I tried to learn meditation as a means of dealing with it, and it didn't go well. I have a noisy brain, and it wouldn't shut up enough for me to relax. <BR> <BR> A few days ago I heard about metta meditation. It's sort of like using affirmations to gain peacefulness. Feel free... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 09:54:31 EST Sleeping with Cats I've always thought this comic was pretty accurate, it just only happens on my side of the bed. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Source: <link><BR>/ </link> <BR> <BR> One of our cats is...high strung. We got her as a kitten, but she lived with someone else first and we don't really know what happened to her. At the very least she was neglected, and we have our suspicions about abuse. <BR> <BR> Last night a... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 10:12:56 EST ThredUp I'm not sure where I originally heard about ThredUp. It was either here or on Reddit. It's an online consignment shop. You request a bag, fill it up, and send it back. Then they sell your stuff and you get a percentage of the proceeds. <BR> <BR> I signed up about a month ago and requested a bag. Then life happened and my bag just sat on the coffee table forever. I already had a box of stuff I had pulled out of my closet that I had intended to donate. While I was on vacation I sorted through ... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 10:09:02 EST First Weigh In on Phentermine So, a lot of the issues I've been having the last week have settled down. My interest in food is coming back. And today for the first time I seem to be free of the queasy feeling. <BR> <BR> And I've even managed to get sleep the last two nights without back pain, which has really helped my overall wellness. <BR> <BR> So the two side effects I'm dealing with currently are: nasty taste in my mouth (very common on phentermine), and burping. <BR> <BR> I couldn't find burping listed as an offic... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 09:59:34 EST Hot Hot Hot So, I'm much more inclined now to think not feeling good the other day was weather related. That's not to say I feel completely 100% on the phentermine, but nothing like that second day. <BR> <BR> I have pretty much no appetite, and nothing food related even looks appealing. And, when I do eat I feel full very quickly. I know the first two days I ate way under what I needed to function. 1000-1100 calories is just not enough. So I've been making a point to grab a cookie, or some grapes, nothi... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 12:01:44 EST First Thoughts on Phentermine I took the first pill yesterday morning and within an hour I felt like I'd had about twenty cups of coffee. <BR> <BR> I wasn't hungry all day, until dinner. To the point that I had to make myself eat breakfast and lunch. I had less than 1000 calories yesterday. <BR> <BR> It's also dangerously hot here right now and I did a lot of running around yesterday: picking up my car from the body shop, grocery shopping, and then to my BFF's house so I could play with the baby. <BR> <BR> I went to be... Fri, 22 Aug 2014 16:16:46 EST Almost Vacation Time We're leaving Sunday morning to go to Biloxi for a few days. My car is still not ready. It's at the paint shop so it'll be ready by the time we get back from our trip. <BR> <BR> During lunch I went and traded my Honda Civic rental for a Chevy Captiva. And I think I'm in love. I could totally keep this car. I don't really consider myself a car person, but I've always driven GM cars (The Husband is a Ford guy). The only Chevy I've ever driven that I didn't like was a Cobalt years ago when they... Fri, 15 Aug 2014 14:24:56 EST Doctor Visits I went to the doctor yesterday for my regular check in, bloodwork, and refills. Their scale said 292, but I was fully dressed and had my shoes on. My scale said 287.8 this morning! <BR> <BR> Aside from my temperature being in the low-grade fever category, I had a great check in. Doctor wasn't concerned seeing as I felt fine and didn't feel feverish. It could be leftover from my bought of food poisoning, or it could be from the super high dose of my thyroid medicine I've been on since the fir... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 10:17:46 EST Weekend I had a busy weekend planned, but it didn't quite work out. I went grocery shopping after work Friday and bought some desserts for a cookout I was going to. And, of course I left the desserts at the house. The cookout was nice; I got to talk to some people I haven't seen in awhile. When I got home I had one of the things I bought to take to the cookout: a french twist with cream. It reminded me of a cannoli, but more like puff pastry. <BR> <BR> And then I woke up at 4am with food poisoning. ... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 10:09:16 EST Rental Car & Nature Box So after some drama with the insurance company of the girl that hit me Saturday, I decided to let my insurance company handle the claim and things have gone a lot more smoothly and I'm feeling a little bit less stressed about it. The adjuster came out to my work yesterday and wrote up an estimate for just over $2900. During my lunch I dropped my car off at the body shop, and the owner drove me over to the rental car place (because the weren't answering the phone). I'm driving a 2013 honda civ... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 10:05:42 EST Ahhhrg My BFF said my car must be cursed. You might remember last summer I was in a three car accident on the interstate near my house. Well, on Saturday almost a year and month later I was in another accident. A car in the left lane next to me was, I guess, impatient with her lane being backed up and right as I was about to pass her in my lane she tried to jump in my lane. I went, "OH CRAP SHE'S GOING TO HIT ME!" And tried to swerve on to the shoulder, but she got me anyway. Needless to say, she go... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 10:02:20 EST FOOD & BABIES As you might have seen on my status update Sunday, my best friend had her baby super early Sunday morning! Callie was born at 1:21am on July 27th. She was 8lbs and 14 ounces and 20 inches long. Mom and baby are doing great! <BR> <BR> I weighed in this morning with the same weight as last week. Which isn't horrible, but I would have liked to have seen a loss. <BR> <BR> After taking a food tracking hiatus while I started cutting out processed foods, I'm back to tracking as of this morning. I... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 10:46:18 EST Fruit Recall Late yesterday afternoon I had some serious stomach issues, so I went home after work instead of going to the gym. I've been in a constant state of queasiness since then. <BR> <BR> I really love plums, but I also really love them when they're really soft. So I buy them and let them chill in the fridge for several days before I eat them. I ate four plums last week, and I'm 99.9% certain they were part of the fruit recall for listeria. I bought them at Kroger on July 11, so it's highly likely... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 09:44:08 EST "Real Food" Update So here's how things are going. I weighed in this morning and lost a pound. Of course it looks like a I gained, but I actually gained last week, and I guess I didn't update it. So I went from 289, to 291 last week, to 290 this week. It's also that TOM, so I'm not sure how much of that is water weight. <BR> <BR> Is this "real food" thing working? Maybe. But I've been making an effort to go to the gym more too. <BR> <BR> I'm not completely free of processed foods. I had some vanilla ice cream... Wed, 23 Jul 2014 10:21:17 EST Emotional Rollercoaster Yesterday was an extremely emotional day for me. Tuesday night I started a GoFundMe fundraiser for my mom's medical care. I also put together a website for her where we can post updates about her health, the fundraising efforts and raise awareness about her medical conditions. <BR> <BR> When the donations started coming in yesterday, I didn't expect to feel the way I did. I'm not even going to try and lie, I cry every time I get an email saying someone has made a donation. It's a big deal to... Thu, 17 Jul 2014 10:22:34 EST Food Diary 3 Yesterday I did have my dried fruit and nut mix for a snack around 3. <BR> <BR> After I got home from work and the gym I made hamburger patties and garlic lime fries. I also had some of the colby cheese I've been eating on all week. And, some homemade pickle slices. <BR> <BR> For breakfast this morning I had one of the breakfast muffins I made this weekend and a banana. And because I accidentally opened two bananas trying to get one off the bunch, I'll be having another banana with lunch. <... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 11:39:05 EST Staying Accountable: Food Diary 2 Since, I'm not actively counting calories right now I though keeping a food diary here might help keep me accountable. <BR> <BR> Breakfast and lunch worked out really well yesterday. I wasn't ravenously hangry by the time lunch rolled around, which was good. I totally could have used an afternoon snack though, and ended up eating a handful of dried cranberries when I got home. <BR> <BR> We went out with friends last night so we had bar food for dinner. I had a burger and fries and we split ... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 10:24:12 EST "Real" Food So, I'm making an effort to step away from the packaged processed food. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I baked blueberry muffins, breakfast muffins, and a loaf of beer bread (used a locally brewed beer and local honey). <BR> <BR> For breakfast this morning I had one of the breakfast muffins and the first little end slice of the beer bread. And, I'm drinking a cup of caramel vanilla tea also. <BR> <BR> The breakfast muffins are a little slice of pillsbury crescent roll dough, one slice of bacon crum... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 10:12:24 EST Calories Vs. Quality I've been thinking for awhile now that I'm relying too much on processed prepackaged food to keep my calorie intake down. Particularly when it comes to breakfast. Lunch to a certain degree, but during the week my breakfast is almost always something that came from a box or a bottle. And I don't think that's a good thing for me. <BR> <BR> One of my sparkfriends just started doing The Whole 30, and while I don't think that's really for me right now, it really got me thinking about how I eat a... Fri, 11 Jul 2014 10:26:54 EST Coming Soon-ish So, they're building a 41,000 sqft LA Fitness practically across the street from my house. I was trying to find out what sort of stuff they'd have, like if there would be a pool, and when they're planning on opening. They're building two here from the ground up, so I'm sure it'll take a little while. There are three locations in Nashville, and none of them have a pool, so it's not looking promising. And there's a $99 sign-on fee. I guess the super cheapness of Planet Fitness has me a little s... Thu, 10 Jul 2014 10:31:46 EST When Other People Become Invested In Your Weight Loss So the cleaning lady at work is overly invested in my weight loss and it's getting on my nerves. <BR> <BR> I've never particularly liked this woman because she's one of those people that thinks because she's old she can say whatever the hell she wants and it bothers me. I actively avoided her for the longest time because I got tired of her asking me if she could have my jewelry or when was I going to buy her lunch. WTF. <BR> <BR> Now for the last three or four months she asked me one-two ti... Wed, 9 Jul 2014 10:44:25 EST Plank Fail & Mini Vacation So... I think the 30 day plank challenge is a little too intense for me as it is. I did well until I hit the two minute mark and then I started having to repeat days. Thursday morning I woke up with my right shoulder screaming at me. It felt better within two hours of being awake and be up and moving around. <BR> <BR> I didn't make the connection that it might be plank related until later that evening when I tried to do the 2.5 minutes and my shoulder and right elbow went NOPE. <BR> <BR> I... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 10:48:39 EST Skin Issues & The Week Ahead First, I am only working three days this week. And I cannot wait. I plan to spend a great majority of my four day weekend in my parent's pool. I need to do some other things, like get an oil change and some garden maintenance. But I can't wait to just have some chill time. <BR> <BR> Genetically, I don't know where it came from but I've always had pretty good skin. I never had acne as a teenager and rarely (even now) get pimples. I get compliments on my skin a lot. What the people that give t... Mon, 30 Jun 2014 09:59:44 EST Grump I've been working the reception desk in the morning all week because the regular day receptionist is on vacation. I have to work up here until 2 today. I HATE working the reception desk. Dealing with our sales staff is not the problem, they're pretty awesome for the most part. It's the customers, and answering the phones. I have very little patience for people who are rude on the phone. And I get defensive on behalf of our sales staff when people talk bad about them. So it pretty much ruins a... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 09:54:36 EST Mixed Results & The Related Feels This morning was my first weigh in since planning out my exercise last week. I went from 289 to 291. Yup, back in the 290s. <BR> <BR> Since this is a place where I'm supposed to talk honestly about my feelings and whatnot here it is: It sucks. It's frustrating to know that I kicked ass this week and the scale went up. <BR> <BR> But the other side to it, and the one that I hope will be more dominant in a few hours when the sting has worn off a bit is this: I kicked ass this week. I am doing ... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 10:24:35 EST