VENA111's SparkPeople Blog VENA111's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community What is my true motivation? My action step today is to think about what my true motivation for losing weight is. <BR> <BR> I want to be healthy and fit, but that really isn't specific enough. <BR> <BR> Let's see...what are the little things I want to see change? <BR> <BR> 1. I would like to go back to feeling like I have enough room in my seat at the movies. Right now, I always feel like I'm bumping elbows with the person next to me and I feel cramped. I don't want to feel like that anymore. <BR> <BR> 2. I would lik... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 09:50:01 EST Waiting on my ankle I've been doing well in the food department. I haven't gone out for my walk for 3 days because my ankle is swelling. I'm going to try to get to the doctors today or tomorrow to see what the story is. I think it's my Achilles tendon. I had a problem with it last year. It doesn't hurt, but it is swollen. I just don't to walk for exercise until I get the ok from the doctor. I don't want it to get worse. I've been icing it 3 times a day but the swelling is still there. I'm afraid she is going to ... Mon, 1 Jul 2013 08:48:25 EST Birthday Party Triumph I was at my nephew's 8th b-day party yesterday. <BR> <BR> I actually tracked what I ate yesterday. I didn't do too bad. I only went over my calories by 200. I even had all the moderation...a small piece of cake...handful of M&Ms...a serving of each dips...and a 4-inch sub. <BR> <BR> Plus, I had a healthy breakfast that morning. <BR> <BR> YAY, me! <em>44</em> Sun, 30 Jun 2013 10:36:44 EST The Spark - Chapter 2 Letter to a friend: <BR> <BR> Dear Friend, <BR> <BR> I know you have been struggling with your weight loss and confidence lately. I believe that you have the power to overcome your negative thoughts...the setbacks...the hurdles, and move on to a happier, healthier you. <BR> <BR> You deserve to be healthy, confident, and strong. You DESERVE to be HAPPY!. <BR> <BR> Just remember, I am always there to support you, and you can count on me to help you with this journey. <BR> <BR> Love, Andre... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 09:15:59 EST I think something clicked It's been almost a month and I have slowly been getting my act together. Baby steps. <BR> <BR> This morning, it feels like something finally clicked. My brain is saying I deserve to treat myself better. I deserve to feel better. I deserve to be healthy. <BR> <BR> I just finished Chapter 2 of The Spark. I have The Spark Solution but The Spark sounded more motivational so I wanted to read this book too. It seems to be exactly what I was looking for. <BR> <BR> I feel the motivation today! <BR... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 09:03:04 EST Ok, calm down It's ok. Calm down. Calm down. <BR> <BR> Why am I so worked up, you ask? <BR> <BR> I was just putting a load of wash in. I decided to throw in the shorts that I was wearing, the shorts that I live in around the house, the shorts with a drawstring waistband. <BR> <BR> So I tried to find another pair of elastic waist shorts that fit. I put on one pair that I bought to walk in last year. They fit but were so HOT. I was dying. I ripped those off. My jean shorts are too tight and I didn't want ... Tue, 11 Jun 2013 08:29:12 EST Motivated I don't know what got into me today, but I FINALLY woke up feeling motivated to start eating healthy. I've been listening to my SparkCoach for 2 weeks now but really haven't been eating properly. I was kind of getting in some exercise, kind of not. <BR> <BR> But today, I just feel like this is the day. This the day where things will all fall into place. <BR> <BR> I went food shopping. I got lots of fresh veggies and fruit. I actually have a go to lunch planned out this week and already hav... Sun, 9 Jun 2013 12:09:22 EST Just an update... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Saturday my hubby and I went to Comic Con. I made great food choices and we walked around all day. We met Giancarlo Esposito from Revolution and got a picture and autograph. We went to the Reading Terminal for lunch. It was a nice day. <BR> <BR> Sunday, my body hurt so bad from all the walking around that I was a couch potato practically all day. Hubby and I said how sad it was that just causally walking around fo... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 09:41:28 EST Day 4 - Hula Hoop Still making very bad food choices midday. I start out with a good breakfast and lunch is an ordering out binge fest. I know it's because I'm home and unemployed. But you would think that I would say to myself that I should be saving money, but I don't. <BR> <BR> That aside, I got all my Fast Breaks done today. <BR> <BR> AND, my hula hoop came! Yay! I'm going to be a hooping fiend! <BR> Right now I suck at it. Or I will say I am having trouble with it. <em>211</em> <BR> But I tried for... Wed, 29 May 2013 21:40:20 EST Day 3 <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> So that about says it all. PMS got the best of me today. I ate my chicken salad and then continue to eat chips, M&Ms, pasta, and what not. <BR> <BR> Although, I currently feel absolutely gross, greasy, and bloated, I am not going to let this one day discourage me. <BR> <BR> I still didn't have a Diet Coke even though I wanted one really bad because I had a migraine. That is one of my Fast Breaks; no soda. <BR> <BR> I also see how good I felt yesterday and how lou... Tue, 28 May 2013 20:22:02 EST Day 2 - Yay So I made it through the day without running out for a hoagie, ice cream, nachos, or a Stromboli. Lately, it seems like that was almost an every day thing. I am currently unemployed so sitting at home eating seems to be what I do. I am going to online school for medical transcription editing, but I need to spend more time working on that than eating. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I made myself some chicken salad over a bed of lettuce for lunch, ate a nice healthy snack of nonfat greek yogurt with a litt... Mon, 27 May 2013 17:04:34 EST This Is It I am so disgusted with myself right now. I don't know how I keep getting back here. This is it! This is the end! I will not fail again. I have 70 pounds to lose and I will do it. I will trip, I will fall, but I will get back up and keep going. <BR> <BR> I need to feel an accomplishment. <em>306</em> Sun, 26 May 2013 20:01:09 EST