VANALADIEL's SparkPeople Blog VANALADIEL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I have to be honest with myself above all else I don't mean to use excuses or put things off but I do. I have to be totally honest with myself and those around me. I want to lose weight and gain better health but it is so easy to keep saying tomorrow or when I feel better. <BR> <BR> I wont feel better till I stop making the excuses and get off my butt! <BR> <BR> I have to stop hiding behind the excuse that I will do it tomorrow or as soon as I can make time for it. <BR> <BR> I can not lose weight to please someone else nor can I get... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 13:36:08 EST I don't want to have excuses, I need to follow through! I saw a clip today that made me cry like a baby and want to hope again that maybe someday I can truly be free of all that was holding me back. The weight, the illness and life in general!! <BR> <BR> There is not much out there that helps anyone to have the confidence in themselves anymore. Everything is so negative and a true struggle. <BR> <BR> I want to enjoy life and find hope in the world. <BR> <BR> Well today I saw this video in one of the spark teams pages and it made me cry. I fel... Sat, 26 May 2012 13:10:38 EST Life sometimes turns your life upside down My life has had its ups and downs for many years but this spring I had my life become a nightmare that even I did not see coming. <BR> Luckily it is not something that was life threatening but at the same time just as devastating to me. <BR> <BR> I have been married now for almost 4 years to the most wonderful man I have ever met. He is younger then I am and we have been <BR> together almost since the day we met. We discussed every major issue before we made any decision to get married so ... Sun, 13 May 2012 08:42:49 EST Still aiming for wellness no matter how long it takes! Here it is 5 months into my journey here at SparkPeople. I will not give up!! <BR> <BR> Partnerships in life are what keeps one sane and getting up in the morning. I may not be the best friend that anyone ever had but I do want to be a good example and a good friend to everyone I meet. If I can help someone find the courage or stamina to stick with it, then I have done what I have set out to do. <BR> <BR> Life has not gotten easier but it now has a purpose that is worth while! <BR> <BR> I ... Thu, 10 May 2012 18:34:54 EST Struggling to stay on the right path Recently some things in my life took a turn that I had no control over. I was floored when my life had a major shocking event that nearly swept me away. <BR> <BR> In years of dieting and struggling with my weight and health issues, I would have turned to food and just said to hell with the world and gone on an eating binge. But this time I stuck to my plan and continued to stay on the path to wellness. I was proud of myself for that but still felt that I had failed life again. <BR> <BR> As ... Sat, 7 Apr 2012 07:35:18 EST Striving to be fit for life Hey there, this is Vana and I have decided to start a blog for those who have wanted to learn more about me. <BR> <BR> I am a mother of one daughter named Melissa who now have two beautiful children. My grand children are Julissa and Austin, I love them dearly but because they live over the mountains from me I don't get to see them but a few times each year. <BR> <BR> I work close to full time at a sporting goods store and I just love the people that I work with. I live in the Beautiful Pa... Fri, 3 Feb 2012 23:33:35 EST