VAMPTRIANA4EVR's SparkPeople Blog VAMPTRIANA4EVR's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Trying to hold it together So things have been really rough lately for me. The past 5 months have been one of the hardest times of my life. I am currently trying to deal with a full time job which is closing down on December 13th and then on top of that I am trying to be the best mom I can to my children. As if this wasn't enough my beloved husband and the father of my children has been sitting in jail for the past 5 months for something he didn't even do and I am now being told that in order to get him out I will more... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 19:38:20 EST PAWSE Plan/Prepare: I have been following Atkins plan and will continue to do so as it seems to help the best with my weight loss. Since I was not feeling well today I did not take the time to plan out my menus yet but I will be planning what meals I want to make tomorrow and writing them down on my calendar. I also intend to do all the weekday challenges and weekend challenges to get in my exercise. <BR> <BR> Thursday: Strength (cards) <BR> Friday: Morning walk 30 minute minimum <BR> Saturday: I... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 22:45:17 EST S.M.A.R.T Goals So my goals are actually pretty simple for this BLC Challenge. <BR> <BR> My first goal is to get back to a regular workout schedule. I am going to be doing a minimum of 20 minutes 5-6 days a week and most days I intend to do much more. <BR> <BR> I want to get back into Onederland. And I mean firmly in not just on the border. My goal is to get into the 180's by the end of the challenge. Considering I have been losing about 2lbs a week on Atkins (or more) I think this is definitely achievab... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 15:51:56 EST Jungle ABC's of Me A is for ABOVE and BEYOND...Does competition give you an extra push? I love healthy competition... Just don't like sore losers.... Lol <BR> B is for BLC rounds... Newbie?(first BLC round) Oldie?(1-3 rounds) Goldie?(long time BLCer)? Former BLC team(s)? I guess you would call me an on again off again Goldie. I have done at least 5 to 6 rounds of the BLC but have taken several breaks for various reasons. I have been on several different teams but most recently as an Onyx Outlaw before I took a ... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 23:03:40 EST BLC 18 Begins! Today is the official start of the BLC 18. I am excited to get back in the swing of things after my extended break. I fell so far off the wagon this time that it is crazy!!! Never again will I let myself get so far off track. I am ready and willing to put in the work I need too to make my goals happen. I know that I have a bad tendency to over reach so I am going to try to moderate myself this time since I know that going too hard too fast has burnt me out quickly in the past. <BR> <BR> So ... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 21:21:59 EST Day 2 of the January Jumpstart So it is day 2 of the January Jumpstart. I woke up this morning and did my day 2 video and the plan is to go for a walk with the family a little later. I am very pleased with myself right now but the real test will start tomorrow when I have to wake up at 6am instead of 8 in order to get the workouts in and still get to work on time. I know that I can do it.... I just have to remind myself why I am doing it and that it is worth it. Plus going to bed at 10 instead of 11 or 12 should also make ... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 09:38:15 EST New Year... New Attitude! I have a confession to make... I not only fell off the wagon over the last 4 months... I actually started running away from the wagon all the way back to where I started this journey just about... I have gained 16 lbs over the last 120 days and I am so disappointed in myself that I could cry. But I won't! (Cause I am a big girl and big girls don't cry! LOL) What I am doing instead is coming back to the site that started me on this road here in the new year with a new dedication and a new att... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 09:35:41 EST My new Blog!! Ok so I am just writing a quick blog here to let you all know that I am going to be doing all my blogging from now on over at I have found that when I come on SparkPeople I get so distracted with everything else there is to do here that I totally forget to blog at all. LOL So I decided my best bet was to have a seperate blog somewhere that the only reason I would be logging in was to BLOG! was the perfect solution to my dilemma! I am hoping that this will help me ... Wed, 20 Oct 2010 19:24:13 EST Making Strides I have been impressing myself so far this week. I have worked out nearly every day so far and I am having fun doing it too! It is usually so hard to keep going for me but now that I have been doing workouts on FitTV it seems so easy. The workouts are something different every day and it makes it so easy to stick with it since I never know what to expect! I find that I like the variety more so than anything else. I am guessing that is what makes it so easy to keep getting up and working out ea... Sat, 10 Jul 2010 12:52:18 EST A new day Things have been going good since my last blog entry. My fiancé is really impressing me with the strength of his determination to stick with his new attitude towards me and our relationship. I feel more appreciated, emotionally supported and physically attractive to him than I have in years and for that I am so grateful. He is even making super human like efforts to control his temper and I love him more every day for his hard work to make our relationship strong. For my part I have been doin... Sat, 22 May 2010 11:02:41 EST Lie is a Three Letter Word I hate liars... Not the kind that tell a little white lie to spare someone's feelings, but the kind who lie out of malice, or spite, or to protect their own butts when they know they are doing something they shouldn't be doing. I have always been pretty good at spotting liars. (though some are harder to spot than others) My fiancé is not really the most honest guy in the world... and though this bothers me it has never been so severe as it has been for the past month or so. <BR> <BR> At firs... Wed, 19 May 2010 12:01:34 EST My reasons for joining the BLC-13 This will be my third round with the BLC. During my first round (BLC-11) I managed to lose 5lbs. Unfortunately between the breaks in between and my second round with the BLC I have been stuck in a revolving door, regaining and losing that same 5lbs that I originally lost. So in this third round of the BLC I am starting out where I left off at the end of BLC-11. For this reason I decided that I needed a bigger challenge in order to kickstart myself back into losing weight. So I decided to join... Sat, 8 May 2010 18:21:06 EST Day 2 - P90X Today was Plyometrics X. It really kicked my butt something awful but I am going to do everything I can to keep going strong with this program. With the amount of sweat that was pouring off me today I am pretty sure that this could be just what I need to kick my weightloss efforts into high gear! I am almost scared to wonder what tomorrow's workout will bring... I haven't even looked yet. I am sore and achey in places that I did not even know existed! LOL I guess that is a good thing though. ... Thu, 6 May 2010 16:42:26 EST P90X Begins! Today I completed the first day of Tony Horton's P90X program. I have to admit that it was definitely one of the hardest workouts I have ever done. The ab work is especially tough! I can still feel my ab muscles quivering half a day later. I am not sure how I am going to make it through this whole program... But I am going to keep going until I can't go no more! LOL Wed, 5 May 2010 18:57:27 EST BLC13 Starts Tomorrow! I am so excited! Tomorrow is the official start of the BLC13 and I am jumping out of my skin with my anticipation. Things are already going pretty good on my new team and I am starting to feel really motivated by all of our wonderful members. I am just hoping that this time around I can keep up with my momentum. That has always been the hardest part for me. I am hoping with the help of my team members that I will be able to keep going even when my motivation starts to wane. I am feeling prett... Tue, 4 May 2010 11:28:42 EST Making Great Choices and Staying Strong So the day is a little more than halfway over and so far things are going great! I got up when my 7:30am alarm went off telling me to exercise and got in 50 minutes worth of cardio and yoga first thing this morning. After that I made myself a great Breakfast Bagel Sandwich and spent some time on the message boards and checking email. I had to run some errands right around lunch time and forgot to grab myself some lunch before I left so I ended up going over to Taco Bell while I was out and ab... Fri, 26 Mar 2010 16:20:16 EST A Fresh Prespective and New Goals After another gain on the scale yesterday I realized that I have been lying to myself about my dedication. I had to reevaluate my whole outlook and have come to realize that I really lost track of my Spark sometime in November and have been struggling ever since. So I decided it was time to recommit myself to my healthy lifestyle and get back to the habits that I have allowed to fall to the wayside. As of yesterday I established new goals for myself and I intend to stick to them. <BR> <BR> ... Thu, 25 Mar 2010 20:49:05 EST Halfway Through! I am now halfway through the BLC 12 and I can tell you that I am definitely not anywhere near my goal. I did not get to weigh in this past Wednesday since I did not have access to a scale but I know the week before that when I weighed in that I was actually up from where I started the BLC 12 at. It is very dissappointing but considering the upheavel that I have experienced in the last few weeks it is really not much of a surprise. Living a healthy lifestyle is hard enough to get used to when ... Fri, 26 Feb 2010 22:02:03 EST Day 1 of the BLC 12 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Well.... today is the first day of the BLC 12 and I am once again a Dark Blue Diva and Dude member! I love my Dark Blue Divas! Our challenge for the week is the START ME UP challenge and the S in this acronym is too Sound Off! So to complete this aspect of the challenge I am here writing a blog entry to let everyone know my goals and intentions for this challenge. <BR> <BR> First off, my weighloss goal for this chal... Wed, 13 Jan 2010 12:15:58 EST Day 1 of Bootcamp! Well today is the first day of the Official SparkPeople Bootcamp that I joined and part of today's challenge is to update my page/blog with my current stats and photos so that I can have a starting point for the bootcamp. Since I am waiting for the first video to finish buffering I figured I would go ahead and get this out of the way. So here I am!! <BR> <BR> This is from today: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> At my weight in this morning I w... Sun, 3 Jan 2010 16:41:25 EST Learning to live in the moment.... (A journey through heartache) The past 3 years or so have been some of the best and worst times of my life. I will start out with the bad and then tell you about the good... I just want to warn you for those of you that like to give advice. I appreciate all that my friends here try to do for me... but I am not writing this post to ask for advice. This blog is my way of releasing the bad things in my life and celebrating the good as well. If you feel moved to comment I want to thank you in advance for refraining from tryin... Tue, 15 Dec 2009 13:49:39 EST December Goals OK Here are my goals for December <BR> <BR> 1. Break through into onderland! <BR> 2. Spend as much time as possible with family and friends. <BR> 3. Support and help my team in the Holiday Spectacular to achieve their goals. <BR> 4. Logon to SparkPeople every day even if just for a few minutes. <BR> 5. Finish my current 30 day challenge on EA Active and start a new one! <BR> <BR> I think that should be enough for now.... But the one thing I want to add is to just have fun, relax and enjoy t... Sat, 5 Dec 2009 10:58:04 EST A Better Day (but feeling a little blue) So far today has been a better day than the last few weeks have been... I got up early and got my exercise in this morning which always starts the day off right and so far I have been conquering the food demon with healthier choices (though I am sure I could use a lot more veggies right now, I just don't have much in the house and can't really afford to go out and get any right this second). At least I am trying and tracking and everything else... My stomach is telling me that it wants more f... Thu, 12 Nov 2009 13:43:16 EST Update on my goals Ok, so I have to admit that November has been kind of a rocky start for me. This first week I have not really been doing very well with my goals. I need to get back in the groove but between taking care of the kids all day and worrying about when my fiance's chapter will be complete and having to move once that is complete... well needless to say it is hard to find the time to track my eating and keep up with my workouts. I am going to do my best to get back in the habit of getting up at 7am... Mon, 9 Nov 2009 19:37:01 EST November Goals Ok so I keep seeing people setting goals for the month and posting them for the whole world to see.... LOL Now normally I am a pretty private person but I have come to realize over the course of my journey so far that being private about my goals and achievements just makes it easier to give up and quit. So no more hiding! I am going to post my goals here and do my best to try and update everyone on my progress at least once a week. (everyday if I can manage it!) Here's to a great November! <... Wed, 4 Nov 2009 12:48:01 EST Monday is the Biggest Day of my Life so far! This weekend is my once a month visitation with my oldest son. For those of you who do not know the whole story on this let me just say that I have never been happy with this situation and was blackmailed into this position by my less than honorable parents. I intend to enjoy my weekend as much as possible, like always, but I am also nervous and excited at the same time. This is due to the fact that once I take my son back to his grandparents on Sunday, the very next day I will finally be goi... Fri, 23 Oct 2009 14:06:48 EST Back in the Saddle Again..... I have to admit to everyone that even though I have continued to lose some weight over the last few weeks it has not been because of any heroic efforts on my part. LOL I guess I was kinda riding the wave of my earlier effort... now that wave has ended and I have no choice but to get back in the saddle and actually start working at things again! I never should have stopped but I guess with starting my new AVON businss I neglected the other important things in my life. It is no excuse and hone... Thu, 22 Oct 2009 15:07:53 EST Busy Bee! I have been so busy with life lately that I have not been taking the time to blog like I wanted to do. I intend to make a pledge here and now to at least try to blog once a week from now on. I have slacked off on tracking my nutrition and my fitness for that matter and ironically enough since I am in the fourth week of the biggest loser challenge that I joined to try and jump start my weight loss I should be trying to be even more dilligent, not less! LOL Luckily I have still been losing weig... Wed, 30 Sep 2009 15:30:14 EST Biggest Loser Challenge Go figure that on the second day of this challenge I would end up sick as a dog and unable to work out! Ughhhhh.... Life is so unfair sometimes. At least I stayed within my calorie range today though. Hopefully I will be better by the weekend and able to get back on tack with my exercise. That is always the hardest thing for me to be consistant with. Well I am gonna head to bed now and try to get better! I will talk to you all again soon. Thu, 10 Sep 2009 23:21:07 EST Quickfire! Ok I just can't help it. I am really loving this new Quickfire Challenge team that I just joined yesterday. Basically you just do this one exercise (up to a hundred reps in sets of 15-25) throughout your day to "quickfire" your routine. It is a great way to fit in little bursts of fitness through out your day and makes you really want to go that extra mile to work harder. I have not been able to get in a full hundred reps on the two days that I have been doing it yet but I am a beginner so I ... Wed, 2 Sep 2009 21:33:43 EST Keep on Sparking! It has been a long day and unfortunately today I did go over my calorie goals. LOL I knew I shouldn't have eaten that second piece of pizza! It is ok though. I know that in the long run that second piece of pizza is not gonna mean a thing so I am not going to sweat it. I am really enjoying the new team that I just joined today. The Quickfire Challenge is quick but tough and energizing. I think everyone should try it! LOL Anyway I am gonna head off to bed now so I can get up early to do my exe... Tue, 1 Sep 2009 22:47:54 EST Back in the Saddle I am much better now. I want to thank everyone for their concern and kind words to me while I was recuperating from my cold. It is great to know that there are so many wonderful people here who are so quick to support me in my time of need. Luckily during my little sabbatical I still managed to not gain any weight. Actually I have lost about 2.5 lbs in the past 12 days so I am very happy about the whole thing! I am happy that everything is going so well for me. One more pound and I will be do... Mon, 31 Aug 2009 21:42:20 EST Out of Commission I have been MIA for the past couple of days due to being under the weather. I hate setbacks and can't stand being sick but I also know from past experience that exercising when I am sick causes my healing time to lengthen considerable. So I decided to take a couple of days off instead to give myself time to heal. I still have a headache and some bodyaches but I am hoping that one more good night of rest will have me right as rain by morning and able to get back into my routine. Thanks to ever... Fri, 28 Aug 2009 22:57:02 EST New Week I am off to a good start this week. I did splurge a little over the weekend, went over my calories on Friday and Saturday some but got back on track on Sunday. Luckily my splurge did not cause me to gain any weight.... <em>244</em> so I am happy. Today I started the 30 day challenge on my new EA Active for the Wii. This first 30 day workout I plan on doing all the easy workouts just to make sure I don't overdo it or get burned out. If I make it through that than I will do another 30 day chal... Mon, 17 Aug 2009 10:07:25 EST Last Day of the Week (for me) Well today is Friday and for me at least it is time for me to take a break... I am trying not to overwork myself by starting my program out slowly. That is why the first two weeks I was only doing 3 -30 minute workouts a week and this week started doing 5 -30 minute workouts a week. I will continue this trend until it starts to feel like second nature and/or becomes too easy for me and than I will start increasing the time I spent on my workouts each day. Eventually I would like to be doing ... Fri, 14 Aug 2009 10:56:37 EST Still Going Strong Well today is my 4th day in a row getting up at 7am and doing the challenge exercises on my Wii Fit Challenge team. I am so proud of myself! The last two weeks before this week I was only working out every other day for 3 days each week. I made a promise to myself that I was gonna up the intensity this week and start working out 5 days a week, Mon-Fri and so far I am doing good! Just one more day and I will have met my goal for this week. Plus I have been staying within my calories really goo... Thu, 13 Aug 2009 13:21:50 EST A Little Bit of Hilarity! (and an update) I was browsing around SparkPeople last night and looking for some good recipes to make my favorite comfort foods healthier. Well one of the recipes I found was for baked mac and cheese and it called for nonfat cheese in the ingredients. I decided to read some of the comments to see if the recipe was any good and one of the comments especially caught my eye. A user stated that they would rather use full fat cheese because nonfat foods are all man-made! (....pause for laughter...) Now for those... Wed, 12 Aug 2009 09:06:15 EST Another Day..... Today is another day and I am feeling fabulous this morning! I got on the Wii Fit this morning again and did the Wii Fit Challenge exercises. But the greatest part is that by the time I was done and weighed myself I was at 217.2lbs! I am so happy. I know that there is a good chance it may be higher tomorrow or it may not move at all.... but I know that I can keep doing this and that eventually it will go down. My energy level is super high today and so far my stress has been pretty low so thi... Tue, 11 Aug 2009 10:11:25 EST A New Day, A New Week Well today is the start of a new day and a new week for me. (I don't normally count Sunday cause it is an off day for me) I have started the week off on a high note with a great breakfast and a workout this morning. I am feeling great this morning and I feel much better than I did when I took that picture yesterday. Hopefully this trend will continue but if not than I know that my friends here will be more than ready to support me and lift me back up when I start feeling down. Thank you all f... Mon, 10 Aug 2009 11:32:52 EST Disheartened..... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is me as of today. I intend to try and use this picture to motivate me to change my body.... but it is still kind of disheartening to see just how huge I look. I know that this journey is gonna take time and a lot of effort on my part. But right now my goal seems so far off and unattainable. I guess I just need a little encouragment to keep me going. Sun, 9 Aug 2009 12:46:56 EST Conquering Life "To conquer life is to take a step toward fear" Anonymous <BR> <BR> I really like this quote. I found it on one of the many journals that I own. (I collect journals, just my little bit of OCD, lol) I decided to use this particular journal as a diet and exercise journal to record this journey to better health that I am on. I want to use it not only to record my exercise and eating habits (which I am also doing on here) but to record how this journey makes me FEEL. I want to be able to look ba... Fri, 7 Aug 2009 09:53:52 EST Just an update Well I am out of the Fast Break stage and so far so good. This week I am into the first Spark Diet Strategy. Measuring my food! I have not been doing too great yet but I am going to keep trying until I get it right. I don't want to fail this time because I did not give it the chance that it deserves. I can see that this program Spark came up with has helped others and I want to be one of those with a marvelous success story! I have not really seen any progress yet but I have read where severa... Wed, 5 Aug 2009 11:09:26 EST Point of View "You never understand a person until you consider things from his point of view." <BR> <BR> Though I know this is true I still find it very hard to do at times. I remember a t-shirt I saw one time, "I'm trying to see things from your point of view but it's hard to get my head that far up my ass!" I know it is cruel but sometimes it is hard to see things from someone's else's point of view because they really are just that stuck up and ridiculous. Maybe I am just biased... LOL I do try, I pr... Wed, 22 Jul 2009 14:30:50 EST A good start.... <em>243</em> I wanted to wake up at 7am to workout on my Wii Fit before the kids got up but unfortunately I slept in this morning until about 7:45. Luckily though the kids were not up yet so I still managed to squeeze in 30 mins on the Wii Fit. About halfway through my fiance's little girl woke up but i still mananged to finish and even got a shower in before my baby boy woke up for the day. Needless to say my energy level now is pretty high and my stress so far has been fairly low. <em>30... Mon, 20 Jul 2009 11:07:35 EST "Patience is the key to paradise." As much as I hate to admit it.... I have never been very patient so this is a difficult concept for me. My whole life I have been the one who wanted things NOW not later. Waiting was never my strong suit, which makes it very difficult to lose weight obviously. LOL It also makes everything else in life pretty difficult too as there is a certain amount of patience involved in everything that you do in life. Just like now, I have to learn to be patient with my fiance and wait until he is ready f... Sun, 19 Jul 2009 12:00:26 EST