VALKYRIA-'s SparkPeople Blog VALKYRIA-'s Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community NSV bathing suit <img src=""> <BR> First time swimming since getting back from Argentina (dec 29)..... my bathing suit is FALLING OFF of my body 😂 <BR> <BR> I will have to try to alter it to make it smaller!!! <BR> <BR> Wed, 28 Feb 2018 18:33:47 EST NSV dress <img src=""> <BR> (My favorite figure skater, Yuzuru Hanyu, winning his second Olympic gold medal!) <BR> <BR> Haven’t lost more weight, but I wore a dress that I hadn’t worn since Dec 29... it fit MUCH better, and I looked great! Soon I’ll be shopping for smaller clothes 😊 Thu, 22 Feb 2018 23:25:31 EST Down 30 lb since jan 1! <img src="">I just weighed in ! Even with the cheating last week, I’m down 30 lb from Jan 1!!! <BR> <BR> :) <BR> <BR> Happy Valentine’s Day! <BR> <BR> Wed, 14 Feb 2018 12:13:41 EST Back at it <img src=""> <BR> Thank you all for your support on my previous blogs! <BR> <BR> I’m back in ketosis and feeling better. I had some terrible carb cravings after eating them again, but they’ve passed and I’m feeling normal again. <BR> <BR> I managed to clean my kitchen sink (which is huge since I’ve been avoiding it for weeks!), and each day I’ll clean a little more until the entire kitchen is back to where <BR... Mon, 12 Feb 2018 08:36:22 EST Feel it to heal it <img src=""> <BR> I will not shove down my emotions with food <BR> <BR> I will not hide behind a food hangover to avoid seeing friends and being out in public <BR> <BR> I will not make myself sick and self sabotage my health goals <BR> <BR> No matter what my circumstances are <BR> <BR> And if I do, I will forgive myself and move forward and make this pledge and do my best to uphold it <BR> <BR> Until it is... Sat, 10 Feb 2018 20:20:08 EST Bad week <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I had a bad last half of the week. <BR> <BR> My job was really stressing me out. I used to think I’d stay with this company for years, but now I’m to the point that, at my 1 year anniversary (If my team dynamic does not drastically improve, which I’m trying to help facilitate every day), I’m planning to start looking for another job and answering recruiters. Just making this decision make... Sat, 10 Feb 2018 14:25:19 EST NSV blood sugar under control! Anxiety down! <img src=""> <BR> The pharmacy called to ask if I wanted to script-sync my medications and I got to tell them I’m no longer taking any of the diabetes or anxiety meds 😎 <BR> <BR> My blood sugar is stable for the first time in years, <BR> And I feel better than I’ve ever felt <BR> <BR> Today I’m going for a hike and then making almond flour crusted quiche. <BR> <BR> I haven’t weighed in since last week but I ... Sat, 3 Feb 2018 16:12:03 EST A really good day!!!! <img src=""> <BR> Today I ate keto, felt great all day at work, had green tea and lots of veggies, and had enough energy to hit the gym! I feel like I’m really transforming and my energy levels and emotions are steady and high. So glad I started this diet! <BR> <BR> <BR> Now I’m going to sleep 9 hours and have a rest day tomorrow. <BR> I’m cooking “unstuffed” cabbage roll soup with riced cauliflower instead of r... Mon, 29 Jan 2018 22:06:21 EST Down 20 lbs in 2018 so far!!! <img src="">GUYS! <BR> <BR> I’m under 400 lb and I can use my scale again :) 398.2, to be exact. <BR> <BR> I’VE LOST 20 LB IN 2018! Most of it in the last week on the ketogenic diet. I’m still eating at least 2000 cal per day, and am not starving myself or over-exercising. <BR> <BR> Going to keep it up and see how far I can go :) Sun, 28 Jan 2018 12:33:23 EST Rest day, keto diet day 4 <img src=""> <BR> I’m on day 4 of the ketogenic diet (very low carb, high fat, moderate protein). So far it seems to be going really well! I feel good mentally and physically, the pain is much reduced (barely even any at all!), and I’m losing a lot of water weight. I’m trying to get as much low carb veggies and berries as I can into my diet, as well as almond butter for minerals and antioxidants, and the rest of m... Sat, 27 Jan 2018 15:11:13 EST Another successful day <img src=""> <BR> (Pic is an underground sinkhole in Cancun, where I want to visit next year!) <BR> <BR> I met all of my goals yesterday! <BR> I woke up today feeling great because I ate well and exercised :) <BR> My lower back and hip are sore but they aren’t terrible.. I’ll take some anti inflammatories, stretch them later, ice them before bed. <BR> <BR> All of the snow is gone! <BR> <BR> After work today... Tue, 23 Jan 2018 08:42:07 EST I am not throwing away my shot! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I’m soooo happy, it’s been in the 40’s and 50’s for the last few days and all the ice and snow are almost gone :) I fell two more times early last week, which made my back really start hurting. It was a miserable week and I did some comfort eating. <BR> <BR> I had a massage on Saturday that seems to have fixed whatever was wrong with my back (my lower back / right hip / leg has been bothe... Mon, 22 Jan 2018 07:18:22 EST Why do I live in Ohio? I just spent 30 minutes, 50 lb of ice melt, and 16 lb of Epsom salts on the Great Lake outside of my apartment; I managed to make a path of salt from my stairs to my car (and did a few of my neighbors’ pathways as well). My hair is frozen. I’m done. No going outside til Monday. Hopefully there won’t be a skating rink covered in 5+ inches of snow waiting for me. <BR> <BR> P.S. I am SO glad that I bought this elliptical 😂 no way I’m going to the gym in this mess! <BR> <img src="http://phot... Fri, 12 Jan 2018 16:05:30 EST Blegh The oral diabetes medication I was prescribed — glipizide — has caused uncontrollable vomiting and diarrhea (which metformin did too). So I had to stop taking it. And my blood sugar is still way too high. And I’m still eating well, using the elliptical every day, and it’s still not going down 😣 <BR> <BR> I have an appointment Monday with the endocrinologist... hopefully they will give me an injectable med (and maybe just straight insulin at this point) to get my numbers down. <BR> <BR> Th... Fri, 12 Jan 2018 04:10:08 EST Supplements, Sun Basket I got the results of my A1C :/ it was 10.3. It should be below 7, ideally below 6. I’m going to work on it, with the help of the new meds. I picked up a few different supplements to help, too: 1. Vitamin D (blood work shows mine is way too low) <img src=""> 2. Turmeric - anti-inflammatory, I can’t take NSAIDS with my new med, but this spice is supposed to work just as well for pain and inflammation ... plus it... Tue, 9 Jan 2018 12:25:41 EST New medicine I made an emergency appointment with my doctor today to get some new medicine to hopefully bring down my blood sugar. I hope I won’t need it forever, but for now it should help. I’ll keep up the diet and exercise and see what happens. 🍎 Mon, 8 Jan 2018 20:53:44 EST Pushing forward I woke up at 6 am, used the elliptical, and made myself breakfast: scrambled eggs, a laughing cow wedge, and a piece of gluten free toast. Lunch is lentil curry. Dinner will be roast chicken with wine sauce and broccoli and carrots 🥕 🥦 I’m not going to just lie down and die. I’m going to fight for my health. And now I’m off to shower and then work. Have a good day, Sparkfriends! Mon, 8 Jan 2018 06:45:42 EST My blood sugar.... ... today it is 395 :/ I haven’t checked it in a while because I was traveling and then catching up at work <BR> <BR> This is a problem. Good thing I have an endocrinologist appointment next Monday ... I will probably be put on insulin. <BR> <BR> I’m just sitting here seeing my life flash before my eyes. I can’t let this go on. Something’s got to change. My whole lifestyle needs to change. <BR> <BR> So far, I’ve been making good on my promise of no fast food and no delivery, but the morni... Sun, 7 Jan 2018 16:04:36 EST He was only 39 Today I learned that a guy I used to date died from a heart attack. He was only 39. :( It’s really sad. He was just married last year... I really feel more motivated than ever to get my health and weight under control. I don’t want to end up like this, so young, so sad.... Sun, 7 Jan 2018 00:58:02 EST Buenos Aires! - 2017 recap and 2018 goals Hello everyone! <BR> <BR> 2017 <BR> ——— <BR> 1. Was hospitalized for mental health issues and experimented with new medication until I found something that worked for me <BR> 2. Successfully completed a computer programming boot camp <BR> 3. Got a new, amazing job as a software engineer <BR> 4. Got my first new car! <BR> 5. I just got back from Argentina, where I met my boyfriend face to face for the first time, and it was AMAZING. ☺️ <BR> <BR> I can’t believe how much I’ve accomplished ... Mon, 1 Jan 2018 21:47:05 EST 6 am or bust It’s been difficult getting used to work. The stress has made me want to binge eat / get fast food on the way to and from work. Sitting in a chair all day is rough for my back, and by the weekend it’s seriously messed up and I don’t want to do anything but sleep. Work itself is going alright — I’m learning and being a productive member of the team. It’s just draining me physically and mentally to the point that it’s my only focus, and I want to change that. Usually when I get up in the ... Wed, 15 Nov 2017 07:02:58 EST 2 weeks I'm starting to get the lay of the land at work, and I'm shadowing other developers on my team. I'm still in disbelief that I got this job (so grateful!). My car is great and I love it! I made a rule that I will not eat food in it and I've been doing well with that. That brings me to my final challenge: emotional eating. It's funny I didn't really pay attention to just how much I was eating til I put myself on a strict food budget and now I realize it was SO expensive to overeat so much. A... Sat, 19 Aug 2017 08:55:08 EST First few days ...have gone well! I did so much walking yesterday that I couldn't even go to the gym. I was quite tired, but now I'm situated in my new office and going through the onboarding process. I can't believe I got this job. I am incredibly grateful and lucky and proud of myself. Last night I went to Lane Bryant and got a small line of credit -- I had hardly any business casual in my wardrobe. Now I do! Tomorrow I'm picking up my new car :)... Is this the real life ?! Going to make my w... Tue, 8 Aug 2017 18:31:03 EST Graduated! Today I finished my boot camp and earned my certificate of software development :) Monday I begin my new job at Chase! For my next feat, I plan to lose 50 lb between now and 2018. I'll be posting a lot more often now, promise! Fri, 4 Aug 2017 21:43:19 EST Day 4 - have my starting weight! A few days ago my scale wouldn't even weigh me (it's only supposed to go to 400 lb, so I assumed I was 405-410). Welllllll, I had a few great days (went to the gym twice, eating has been in my calorie range), and today it deigned to give me a weight: 402.2! No idea how much I lost in these 4 days but I will just go ahead and use 402.2 as my starting weight :) Obviously, first goal is to be below 400. Well below. Forever. 👍🏻 Long term goal: below 360 by the end of the year. Thu, 27 Jul 2017 08:26:11 EST How things have changed! Sorry I've been gone so long! 1. Mental Health- the Lamictal has been wonderful for me. I feel so much better on it and will continue to take it. 2. The boot camp - is going really well. We are about to start week 11, and our graduation date is Aug 4. Right now we are working on final projects, so it's been a bit stressful (with some drama from certain teammates), but I'm confident we will pull through with a presentable final project that we can be proud of. 3. I got a job!!!!!!!!!!!! Th... Sun, 23 Jul 2017 14:46:46 EST Quick Update Boot camp starts Monday! <BR> <BR> I'm trying a new medicine, lamictal, for my bipolar. So far so good! <BR> <BR> Sorry I haven't been blogging much. I've been unpacking, and seeing a slew of doctors for various things. Getting ready for this computer programming boot camp that begins Monday and will hopefully end with me having a real job :) <BR> <BR> Weight has pretty much stayed the same since my last post, but I'm optimistic that it will be trending downward. <BR> <BR> I've been us... Fri, 12 May 2017 14:56:14 EST Whoa! I woke up today and I was back down to 391.4 :) OKAY, maybe it was just water weight. That means I only have 3 lbs to lose to be back to where I was in the beginning of April! I can do this! <BR> <BR> 12/01/16: 405 <BR> 01/06/17: 395 <BR> 03/22/17: 390.4 <BR> 03/29/17: 388.2 <BR> 04/25/17: 394.2 <BR> 04/26/17: 391.4 <BR> Wed, 26 Apr 2017 08:40:09 EST New starting weight 394.2 A gain of almost 6 lbs :/ all of the fast food and maybe the side effects of my medicine contributed to this gain. I think I need to just take this one pound at a time and try my best to swing it downward. I might not like the number I see, but ignoring it will only lead to more gains, so I will need to keep weighing in every week. Tue, 25 Apr 2017 08:06:31 EST I moved! The move is over! Now I'm unpacking everything. I have 3 weeks until the bootcamp starts, so I'm planning to focus on eating healthy, going to the gym, fewer fast food and more homemade meals. I love my new apartment! I feel like I have a fresh start. There's a ton more light in this place, and the noise level is much lower. I'll get my starting weight tomorrow and I'll go from there. I know I've gained over the past few weeks, I'm not sure how much. . . Optimistically hoping that I'm stil... Mon, 24 Apr 2017 18:33:18 EST Low Carb and updated Fast Food Plan I took a diabetes education class with my friend, Cat! The dietitian there recommended that I try to get 10 servings of 15g carb, or about 150g per day as part of my plan to lower my blood sugar. <BR> <BR> I can do this! I will do this! <BR> <BR> I've updated my list of fast food so that it's a bit lower carb. I'm printing this out and keeping it in my car for when I need a quick meal on the go, but I will also be cooking a lot more of my meals at home. <BR> <BR> My goal is to have about... Tue, 11 Apr 2017 20:18:45 EST Packing My brother is coming out to help me pack for the move this weekend! <BR> <BR> For the past 2 days, I've been eating breakfast and sticking to my eating goals. I do feel so much better when I spread the calories out through the day instead of eating 1-2 big meals... I know it's better for my blood sugar too. <BR> <BR> I'm anxious about the move. My mind keeps telling me I can't pack everything and I won't get it done. I keep telling my mind to give me a break and just take it day by day...... Fri, 7 Apr 2017 19:07:13 EST Weigh-in I gained 1.2 lb this week :( <BR> <BR> I know why. <BR> <BR> My cravings and portions have been out of control -- from pizza last Wednesday to fast food mega-meals, I haven't been pre-tracking and I have been eating pretty much whatever I wanted, including sugary lemonade and a soda. <BR> <BR> What the heck am I doing??? I told myself I was cutting refined sugar out of my diet for health reasons, but it was like I had the worst sugar cravings all week long. <BR> <BR> This week, I'm goi... Wed, 5 Apr 2017 12:16:52 EST :D Today I was feeling good so I went a little bit faster at the gym. I managed to beat my personal best on my mile of jogging intervals by more than 2 minutes :) I've been to the gym 5 times now in 2 weeks... Wed will be my 6th! Mon, 3 Apr 2017 12:18:09 EST Weekly weigh in I'm down 2.2 lb this week :D!!! <BR> <BR> I wasn't perfect (far from it), but I made a lot of good, small decisions. <BR> <BR> Hopefully this trend continues next week! <BR> <BR> Today I did my strength training at the gym, then bought some boxes; I'm working on packing... I have a feeling I'll be doing this for a long time! <BR> <BR> 12/01/16: 405 <BR> 01/06/17: 395 <BR> 03/22/17: 390.4 <BR> 03/29/17: 388.2 Wed, 29 Mar 2017 13:41:19 EST Gym day 2 and packing A good start to the week! I made it to the gym this morning despite not wanting to go (I guess that's why it helps to have a gym buddy, right? She helped motivate me!) Once I got there, I was fine. I did 6 jogging intervals on the treadmill with walking in between, and worked up quite a sweat, then I used the hydromassage bed. I am doing just enough (not too much) each time I visit the gym, so that it is enjoyable but still challenging, and I don't feel like I got hit by a train the next day.... Mon, 27 Mar 2017 13:39:33 EST Moving! I'm so happy!!!! I'm going to be moving from this apartment to another one with the same floor plan, in a different building. Why? Because this one is horrible and is really close to the highway, and no matter what I do, I cannot relax here! I didn't realize it until after I moved in, but the noise just keeps me on edge and feeling anxious all day. I use ear plugs to sleep every night. My cousin and his wife offered to help me move when they found out about my predicament! The new apartm... Sat, 25 Mar 2017 11:54:49 EST First day at new gym Went well!! <BR> <BR> I took the advice of other Sparkers and I didn't push myself too hard. I did a brief warm up on the elliptical (phew that thing is hard), and then I used 3 weight machines -- leg press, chest press, and lat pull down for two sets of 10-12... and then I did the treadmill with short jogging intervals mixed with walking for the rest of the workout. Best of all -- even though I wasn't a member yet, they let me use the hydromassage bed after my workout. It was AHHHMAZING an... Thu, 23 Mar 2017 08:52:22 EST Weekly Weigh-In Omgosh! I weighed in much lower than I thought I would and well below the threshold for my scale to measure me. <BR> <BR> 390.4 <BR> <BR> I was expecting 405 or higher :) So, I'm down about 6 lb from when I was in the hospital earlier this year, and down about 15 lb from my highest weight last year.I guess this goes to show I'm bad at estimating my weight and also that small choices really add up because I was doing almost no exercise and this was nearly all diet-related. <BR> <BR> Tonig... Wed, 22 Mar 2017 12:08:46 EST Feeling Better Thanks for the support on my last blog. It means a lot to me that so many wonderful Sparkfriends are supporting me. <BR> <BR> I had my appointment with the sleep doc today and it went well; I'm going to have a sleep study on Apr 1st. She said I should be taking the antipsychotic med Vaylar instead of my Risperdal, and she gave me a free sample, saying it had fewer side effects and that all of her patients loved it.... I was excited, so I called my psychiatrist to ask permission to try the f... Tue, 21 Mar 2017 17:59:10 EST First day back It feels really weird to be back in my apartment, but here I am! <BR> <BR> I have these memories of feeling bad in this apartment, so it's very strange to be feeling good in it right now, but I guess I will get used to it. I almost feel afraid that something bad is going to happen, but I know that's not logical. <BR> <BR> My friend invited me out to dinner to welcome me back. I'll see her tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I feel like a completely different person. I can't describe how weird I feel. It'... Mon, 20 Mar 2017 21:58:25 EST Back to Columbus Last night we saw Beauty and the Beast. It was good! I also managed to only have a handful of my brother's popcorn, and I had a very sensible portion for dinner and didn't binge or snack afterwards. <BR> <BR> This is my last day visiting my family. Tomorrow I'll be packing up my cats and heading back to my apartment in Columbus. I'm feeling a lot more stable than I was when I came here, and the medication seems to be working to help me feel better each day. <BR> <BR> This week I have two do... Sun, 19 Mar 2017 11:29:01 EST Fast Food Plan! Thanks to the helpful suggestions on my previous blog, I've decided not to demonize fast food, but to simply make a list of *allowed* meals that I can get from fast food places near me and not have it be a cheat meal. <BR> <BR> Now obviously most of these foods are not my *First Choice*, and they have a lot of sodium, but no diet is perfect, and having a plan in place makes me feel safe and like I can handle things a little bit easier, without feeling deprived. <BR> <BR> Wendy's <BR> -----... Fri, 17 Mar 2017 20:45:53 EST 2 Months OK, I found out I have a seat reserved in the boot camp that starts May 15th (if you'll remember from my previous blogs, I had to take a leave of absence from this boot camp because of my mental health, but they are letting me complete a later one and I will not lose the money I've already invested). <BR> <BR> This means I have 2 months... 2 months with no work or school. What will I do?! Obviously resting and recovering is going to happen.. but what else? <BR> <BR> I'm thinking about volu... Fri, 17 Mar 2017 12:05:58 EST I worked out today This might not seem like much of an achievement but for me, at this time in my life, it is. I went to the mall and walked for 30 minutes because it was too cold to walk outside. It feels really good. I took the time to do intentional exercise and to focus on my health, and I'm going to keep this pattern going. <BR> <BR> I've been in a dark place the last few months and I'm digging my way out of it slowly. One step at a time. <BR> <BR> I had lemon juice in my water at breakfast and it help... Thu, 16 Mar 2017 11:17:20 EST Joining a Gym with my friend! It's amazing to me that this has transpired the way it has... because just yesterday I was thinking about how much I missed my (expensive) old fitness center and I was considering trying to find a cheaper place to work out... well, today my friend Katie told me that she joined Planet Fitness and was looking for someone to go with. It's a very cheap membership, and I now have a workout buddy! Things fall into place at exactly the right time :) I'm so happy! and the social aspect is just what ... Wed, 15 Mar 2017 12:03:10 EST Cutting Refined Sugar The first thing I'm going to do to try to get my numbers down is cutting refined sugar from my diet. I don't drink soda, but I have been eating sugary breakfast cereals and I have been known to snack on sugar-laden granola bars and sometimes sugary coffee drinks from Starbucks or juices. <BR> <BR> I've decided to give myself a little bit of wiggle room (since I'm trying to take baby steps), so I'm going to try to keep it below 25g sugar per day, and on most days I want the sugar to come from... Mon, 13 Mar 2017 16:58:52 EST Blood sugar too high I am upset to see that my blood work came back and my blood sugar and HA1C are both way too high... in the diabetic range. <BR> <BR> I'll need to make an appointment with an endocrinologist to get onto some medication. <BR> <BR> I want to reverse this. I don't want my body to suffer and deteriorate. <BR> <BR> I need to make some changes.... Sun, 12 Mar 2017 13:16:02 EST Day 2 I cooked dinner for my family today (as well as I could in my mom's crowded kitchen)! I made lemon asparagus chicken with mushrooms... we had it with baked potatoes (I ate half of it and saved the other half for tomorrow). <BR> <BR> I started my entire dose of medication today, so hopefully it continues making me feel better as it seems to have been doing on the half dose. <BR> <BR> One. Day. At. A. Time. :) Sat, 11 Mar 2017 17:48:23 EST Day 1 - Measurement Time I'm trying hard not to be ashamed of these measurements, and I'm sure they will be decreasing soon :) This is just the way it is for me right now. I need to learn to accept and love myself at this size if I want to make a lasting change for the better. I will be remeasuring on the first of every month to see my progress. <BR> <BR> Neck: 18 <BR> Wrist: 7.25 <BR> Forearm: 14.25 <BR> Upper Arm: 22 <BR> Chest: 57 <BR> Under Bust: 50 <BR> Waist (biggest point): 58 <BR> Hips: 62 <BR> Thigh: 36 <BR... Fri, 10 Mar 2017 13:39:54 EST