UWPALUM's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=UWPALUM UWPALUM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 1 - 9/15 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5780877 Yesterday I started again. This is it. My brother is planning a wedding and right now my body issues would overshadow the event. I don't want that. So I started again. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I worked out for 40 minutes at the gym before work. I didn't push too hard, because I have a history of hurting myself and I have a weak/injured back. I can't afford to start again and then just have an injury. <BR> <BR> I also ate pretty good. A fruit smoothie in the morning (blueberries, orange juice, w... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 09:47:20 EST I just want to crawl under the covers and have a good cry! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5700990 And there's no good reason for it. I'm just lonely and disappointed in myself. <BR> <BR> So here's what has been going on for the past month...nothing but eating a lot of junk! I go to the store, I get chips and chocolate. Then that is my dinner. It's a comfortable habit that I got into years and years ago when my back pain was more intense. So when life got busy and I fell out of my new healthy habits, I went back to the old ones. And where has that gotten me? I've gained back more than 50 ... Thu, 22 May 2014 19:31:15 EST time to get honest with myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677897 Life has been tough recently and I don't think I've really let myself accept much of what is going on around me. First, I'm eating junk all the time. And I'm pretty numb when I'm doing it, so I know that I'm trying to feed my emotions instead of my body. Second, I'm back to terrible habits. I'm sleeping more, watching more tv and talking myself out of exercising. I saw a picture of myself from October and didn't even recognize myself. How did I look that healthy? Now I've gained back 55 pound... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 12:35:57 EST Finding myself again...finally. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5647607 I still have a long way to go, but I'm starting to feel like myself again. The sun is out more, the snow is starting to melt, I can almost feel myself being able to walk outside again. So great! <BR> <BR> Last night I worked up a great sweat at the gym with my trainer and today it feels good to be a little sore. I also wrote out my training plan to be ready to walk the half-marathon in June. And it feels really good because I'm way ahead of where I should be for the training, and I'll contin... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 09:52:36 EST Medical Updates and moving forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638535 Happy Monday everyone! <BR> <BR> It has been a rough week for me, although in comparison to what my friends are going through, this isn't huge. I seem to be taking on the emotions of my friends going through surgery and the fact that they are fighting so hard. It feels overwhelming and I don't know how to get rid of this feeling of carrying the world on my shoulders. Feeling helpless in the face of medical emergencies is so rough. <BR> <BR> My friend who had the recent brain tumor diagnosis... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 12:06:16 EST Thanks for the support everyone! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634419 Hi! <BR> <BR> Thank you so much to everyone who kept my friend in their thoughts/prayers yesterday. The surgery was successful, my friend was really enjoying her meds last night! She's feeling the surgery more today. They did not get the entire tumor, and her left side was affected by the surgery, but it shouldn't be permanent. The concern was that if they did go for the entire tumor, they would have permanently paralyzed her left side. The doctor seems optimistic, although the pathology tes... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 13:42:44 EST Prayers requested http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633279 I know that not everyone considers prayers in the same way, some really believe in the power of prayer, some just send happy and healthy thoughts...all of that is appreciated today. <BR> <BR> I have a friend who is having brain surgery this morning, in about three hours. Saturday morning her boyfriend was woken up when she was having a seizure and she was rushed to the hospital. The CT scan found a mass in her brain and she was transferred to a larger hospital with a neurosurgery department.... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 09:43:58 EST Wheat Belly author and the Best Question Ever http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5621585 I'm so grumpy this winter. I can just tell that I'm depressed and desperate to be outside walking again. But I draw a limit to walking outside when there is a negative sign in front of the temperature. I'm a fan of four seasons and hate that I'm so grumpy this winter. I was actually looking forward to being outside more this winter, but not when there are warnings about frostbite. I'm not that crazy! <BR> <BR> This past weekend I went to a women's health expo in Madison, WI. Learned a lot, m... Tue, 11 Feb 2014 17:20:48 EST self-loathing continues...but I will turn this around http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5616835 Back in November, I hit a rough patch, and I have used that rough patch as an excuse for the past few months. I've gained back more than 25 pounds and I am miserable. <BR> <BR> I spend the entire day thinking about binging after work. I'm spending way too much money on junk food. When I go to the grocery store now, I worry about getting "caught" buying just straight junk food. I think about what I'll tell someone who asks about why I'm buying junk. I worry about my parents coming to visit an... Thu, 6 Feb 2014 11:19:49 EST No more celebrating for me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5560607 I have thought about writing this blog every day for the past few weeks, even have it on my "to do" list. But when it comes down to it, I just haven't had the patience and courage to put into words how bad I've been feeling. <BR> <BR> For the past year, I have resisted temptations, gotten my depression under control and learned to listen to my body when it comes to food and exercise. But in the past two months, I have really been struggling. I have lost weight, even got out of the "obese" c... Mon, 9 Dec 2013 14:56:47 EST What a month! Time to celebrate! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5506847 I want to be someone who blogs every day, but most days I don't have the patience to put my thoughts and feelings together coherently for someone else to read. That's why this blog is almost a month later than the last one. <BR> <BR> But I am celebrating today. Here is what I'm celebrating: <BR> 1. I have been training successfully for my 10k <BR> 2. This weekend I cut 2 minutes off my 5k time (walking a totally flat route) <BR> 3. My goal was to lose 15 pounds before my birthday next week, ... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 10:24:18 EST When life gets hard, I eat. But I should exercise. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5482911 Life has been hard. I know it doesn't compare to the challenges that someone else may be facing, especially on this historic day, but for me, it's been hard. There has been less time to plan ahead for food, more travel for family events, increased pain in my back and more stress at work. <BR> <BR> For the past two days I have been binging on applesauce again. What I really want are peanut m&m's but I went for applesauce instead. Now, applesauce is allowed on my diet, but not in the portions ... Wed, 11 Sep 2013 16:39:28 EST Clothes shopping was so terrifying! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5477697 Based on the comments of my friends, family and colleagues, I went shopping this weekend for new clothes. My old stuff was way too big and I had avoided it as long as I possibly could. I have been putting it off because I am poor, or it feels that way. So I have been picking up pieces at the local thrift stores in order to get through the summer. <BR> <BR> But this past weekend I had to face the music. Or more precisely, I had to face the changing room. I walked through the first store, not ... Fri, 6 Sep 2013 11:13:08 EST Today we celebrate!! 73 pounds lost and I feel like dancing! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5470968 Hi everyone! <BR> <BR> Thanks for all of the comments on my last blog about my fear of change and losing weight. I felt so much better after I got out all of those emotions and started to deal with them. So much better in fact that I lost 6 pounds in the last week and a half. I stepped on the scale last night and I just stared at the number. It doesn't feel real that I'm into the 220's. That seems crazy! <BR> <BR> I'm finally allowing myself to get some new clothes now that I've lost so muc... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 14:59:23 EST For the first time since getting healthy, I'm scared to continue... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5469163 Wow, it feels good to just write those words out to the world. I haven't had the guts to say it to myself outloud yet. The truth is that I've lost 67 pounds and I'm comfortable where I am. I am back to the size I was in graduate school almost ten years ago. I'm getting compliments about my weight loss, I'm more active and flexible than I was at 300 pounds. But I'm terrified to continue to get healthy. <BR> <BR> I want to lose at least another 50 pounds, getting me to the size I was in colleg... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 17:54:56 EST First week of the new semester, and additional weight. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5463232 I work at a community college in Illinois and we started classes on Monday. It's great to have the students back on campus and the excitement of the new semester. Even though I love the start of a new year (who doesn't love new school supplies?) it is also a really stressful time of year for advising and teaching my math class. It takes a few weeks for me to get back into the swing of teaching four days a week and being a student myself. <BR> <BR> When I started taking classes a little more ... Thu, 22 Aug 2013 15:43:52 EST Brick Walls are to be expected, right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5454972 "The Last Lecture" by Dr. Pausch (sp?) teaches that brick walls are not placed in front of us to stop us, but to force us to prove how badly we want something. Do I want this enough to bust through every brick wall put in front of me? So far so good. <BR> <BR> The last couple weeks have been yet another set of roller coasters up and down. First, the good, is that I'm still losing weight. I feel myself getting stronger, and I'm a little obsessed with my leg muscles, mostly because I haven't f... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 11:04:33 EST Two steps forward, one step back... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5447895 I have been doing a good job recently with my health. I am pushing myself in my cardio, walking a lot, working with my trainer as much as possible, and staying on the nearly impossible diet that my doctor gave me. So, when my stomach started hurting again this week I was nearly devastated. That might be a tad overly dramatic, but I felt terrible. Not only was my stomach unhappy, but I thought I'd been eating so good. I'm worried that it was the homemade tomato sauce that we made over the week... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 16:49:29 EST Update: I'm successful! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5439614 If you had told me eight months ago that I would be where I am today, I probably would have fallen over in a fit of laughter. I was living a very sedentary life. Little activity, unhappy with my body, in pain constantly. I feel like I'm awake for the first time in years, about ten years to be exact. <BR> <BR> Today I have realized that I have to do a better job of tracking my food every day. I might be eating all good foods, but recipes are not created for losing weight in the Specific Carbo... Wed, 31 Jul 2013 10:29:24 EST Wednesday Realization: Binging on "healthy" food is bad too! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5431630 So yesterday I had to have a serious talk with myself. I realized that in the past, I would binge at night, in bed, on junk food. It might be cookies, or M&M's or whatever, but that was how I ended nearly every day in my "before SP" life. And now I'm just binging on all-natural applesauce instead of junk food. That is not the "healthy" lifestyle I want to be living. <BR> <BR> From today on, I'm going to keep applesauce out of my apartment, and work to not snack after dinner. Because of my wo... Wed, 24 Jul 2013 09:34:44 EST Progress again, finally! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5429708 A month ago my doctor put me on a really restrictive diet to try and determine if I have some food allergies that are messing with my digestive system. I won't go into details, but it made eating healthy really frustrating for me. This diet though, was exactly what I needed and it came at exactly the right time. <BR> <BR> First, I had let my emotional eating get out of control again. This time I was eating entire large bags of dark chocolate M&M's every night, which only hurt my stomach and ... Mon, 22 Jul 2013 18:31:22 EST Surviving so far...SCD is harder than I anticipated. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5401599 Today is officially day number 4 on the SCD (Specific Carbohydrate Diet). And it's really hard. No grains, no sugar, no lactose...no potatoes, no corn, no rice. It's really hard. I'm basically eating meat, eggs, veggies, fruits and nuts. I have to read the labels for food really closely, and when I think a food is safe, I go back and find that it's on the illegal list. So disappointing! As someone who does not cook much at all, this diet requires a lot of cooking in order to have variety in m... Tue, 25 Jun 2013 17:18:48 EST It's D Day! Starting with a clean slate. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5398300 I can't believe I'm actually starting this crazy diet, and I do call it a diet. It's a set of guidelines about what food to put into my daily life, and what foods to avoid. Worst case scenario of trying this...my stomach problems aren't fixed. Best case...I learn to eat healthier, lose weight and fix my stomach issues. It's a no brainer, right? <BR> <BR> So yesterday my parents came to visit, well, they came to work really. My dad and I put together a new headboard for my room and my mom cam... Sat, 22 Jun 2013 13:12:08 EST Second 5k and starting a very scary diet http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5395487 Hello everyone! <BR> <BR> This weekend my future sister-in-law and I participated in a 5k event in our hometown in Wisconsin. I think she was nervous that we'd be the only people walking, but we finished with about 20 people behind us, which made me happy. I also took 7 minutes off my time for my first 5k in May. I know that much of this is thanks to my partner for the race, because she just naturally walks at a crazy fast pace and can actually jog an entire 5k so I was keeping her back but ... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 18:18:50 EST Will this journey ever get easier? Please say yes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5384755 I have officially and completely fallen off the SP wagon. I've gone days without logging any food or activity time. I've stopped blogging for almost three weeks, that's not right! But I haven't had anything to say, and definitely nothing positive. I've been slowly getting through every day, and some days have been better than others, but in general I have not had any successes since the middle of May. <BR> <BR> I wonder if part of my problem has been getting to a major goal, close enough to ... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 15:44:34 EST The scale must be broken! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5362429 Hey everyone! <BR> <BR> So a couple things have happened over the past few days. <BR> <BR> First, I went to the gym on Saturday after our college's graduation ceremony. Nothing crazy yet. I go downstairs, set my stuff down on an elliptical machine, notice that there are many two other people in the gym. Awesome. I walk over to the scale, which is digital. I turn it on, wait for the numbers to go to zero and step on. So far, so good. Then the numbers stop at 253. I'm shocked! I was hoping f... Mon, 20 May 2013 15:03:48 EST First Random Compliment and reaction :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5359525 I am the first to admit that I am not a very confident person. I hide behind my weight, lower my eyes from people and just generally don't think a lot of myself. Now, before you yell at me, I am working to change this, but it takes time. <BR> <BR> So I started this adventure at the end of December. I have lost 42 pounds, and have a lot of very supportive and encouraging people around me, but they all know what I've been doing. That doesn't mean that their compliments and nice words don't hel... Fri, 17 May 2013 16:46:32 EST Two weeks without my trainer?!?! What will I do? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5357513 I went to the gym last night and my trainer broke the worst news to me. She is going to be out of work for at least two weeks for some sort of surgery. Really? I feel bad about the surgery, but my first thought was "What about me?" Is that terrible? <BR> <BR> She gave me a list of strength training stuff to do while she's gone, but I know that she pushes me harder than I push myself. I'm a little worried! I so want to lose 8 more pounds in the next month, and every time I turn around I have ... Wed, 15 May 2013 13:55:50 EST My first 5k and NSV's today!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5352086 Hi Everyone! <BR> <BR> I just haven't felt like I've had much to say this week, but am excited to share my updates from the week, so now I'm sitting down to write it all out. <BR> <BR> First, a friend and I completed our first 5k last weekend. We walked the route in 55:33 which was faster than I had originally thought we would do. My friend was great to do it with me, although I think I'm more competitive about finishing faster and faster. It felt good on one hand to complete the race (and ... Fri, 10 May 2013 11:45:26 EST Day 121 or so...and full disclosure day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5339772 It has been a very full weekend. I have worked out every day except one, and that day I was at my parent's house and binged on dark chocolate m&m's that I found in the house. I felt terrible, but I just couldn't stop. But instead of hiding it, I came out and told my parents what I had done, how bad I felt, etc. And now I'm telling my support network. They didn't even taste good! <BR> <BR> The rest of the weekend went better. Well, mostly. I ate really good, healthy foods but when I went to ... Mon, 29 Apr 2013 17:14:08 EST Change sucks! Cancer sucks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5336140 I just haven't had the energy or desire this week to blog, but I'm making myself because I don't want to forget this past week. <BR> <BR> First, I went with some friends to an expo about gluten and allergy free foods. So much fun. I made the decision that morning to allow myself to try whatever I wanted, just a tasting size, and not deprive myself. I'm not sure how bad I really was, but the food was great, and it wasn't too hard to go back to not having sweets again the next day. We had a g... Fri, 26 Apr 2013 09:13:13 EST Friday!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5328564 I ended the day yesterday just wanting to go home and sleep. Haven't gotten as much good sleep as I should during the week because of work being a little crazy. But instead of going home, I went to the gym and worked on the elliptical for 50 minutes. It felt good to work up a great sweat, to push myself again and my trainer gave me a great pat on the back for being there. Felt really good. <BR> <BR> Today I am going to see a physical therapist for my back pain, but this one works with a natu... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 10:19:46 EST Ups and Downs continue... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327866 Tuesday I went back to work with my trainer, and she kicked my butt. I worked so hard, and so many muscles. She really does make me want to do better. I push myself harder and farther when she is watching. But I'm not seeing any progress and am getting impatient. I know I shouldn't, but I am judging everything by the scale. I do have to admit that I'm fitting in to jeans that I haven't worn in more than a year or two. But I want to be doing better. <BR> <BR> Wow, what a whiner! I think I'm g... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 17:37:38 EST Sad day for Boston, makes a one pound gain seem trivial http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5324939 Morning everyone! <BR> <BR> I have been MIA for eight days from blogging. I can't believe that! Well, I can because I've been working late every night and am somewhat ashamed at how little exercise I've been doing. But it caught up with me. Yesterday I made myself go to the gym and face my weight. I gained a pound. Hopefully this is the wake up call that I need to get myself back to being strict with my food, motivated to get the gym and moving forward again. Right? <BR> <BR> So then I get... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 09:09:48 EST Made it through election day and a big Non-Scale Victory! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5318072 Hi everyone! <BR> <BR> So, yesterday I worked from 5am to 8pm for a local election. I packed one lunch bag with lots of fruits, salad for lunch and yogurt. Then I packed another bag with ice so I had ice cold water all day. I felt a little foolish for packing all of that for one day, but I used it all and it made the day easier, although in comparison to everyone else I was working with (all over the age of 80) I was eating all the time! <BR> <BR> I haven't done so great with no tv yet eith... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 08:52:17 EST Monday and still not eating enough calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5316275 How is it possible that I am not able to fill my calorie requirement with healthy foods? Seems totally wrong! <BR> <BR> I did make it to the gym today, and am feeling really good about that! But I gave in and watched tv when I got home. Seemed a better idea than putting away dishes and laundry. Why is it so hard to make the right decision when it is so obvious what the "right" decision is? Oh well. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is election day in my local area and I am working the polls from about 5a... Mon, 8 Apr 2013 19:17:43 EST Fighting my demons again...and getting back to the gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5315074 What a week it has been. I spent the majority of the week in pain, trying to be careful and not miss any work. It brought me back to the reality of my life very quickly. I saw myself going back to bad habits. I was eating in bed, not measuring food, spending way too much time in bed and just starting to feel hopeless. <BR> <BR> As someone who has struggled with depression for years, I recognize that everyone who has depression experiences it differently. I also know that it can hit without w... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 20:54:24 EST sidelined with pain...how do I push through this? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308915 I know what you are thinking...pain is your body's way of telling you that you shouldn't push through it. There is something wrong so the pain is telling you to stop or slow down. <BR> <BR> But this pain has been with me for more than 10 years. It is chronic back pain that is literally making it difficult for me to stand up straight, walk or sit. It started yesterday, so I went home and iced my back hoping it would help. Today the pain is worse. If you haven't experienced lower back pain on ... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 13:07:51 EST Getting Ready for Spring Challenge Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5307310 This was my first challenge on SP and I am going to miss being a part of it. It made me accountable to a team, provided tons of encouragement and motivation and was a great help in tracking my progress! I only hope I can continue my success without the consistency of the challenge! <BR> <BR> For this last day of the challenge, I am supposed to look back on my goals and consider my next steps. <BR> <BR> Goal 1 was to lose 15 pounds during the challenge. I exceeded that by 11 pounds. 26 total... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 10:19:49 EST Happy Easter...and more progress! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5306167 Happy Easter everyone! I'm celebrating today with my mom who is visiting. I feel bad because we don't have any candy or fun Easter stuff around my apartment, but I am proud that I was strict about my healthy food choices. We made taco salads last night, with ground turkey seasoned meat. Today we are having ham, steamed broccoli and sweat potatoes. We did all of our grocery shopping yesterday and I think my mom was surprised how serious I was about just getting the stuff on my grocery list and... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 10:30:19 EST Day 91 and I'm recommitting myself to this journey! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5304617 I am shocked even to be writing "91" in reference to the number of days that I've successfully been eating healthy and taking care of myself. I have lost 31 pounds (as of 10 days ago) and given up soda and caffeine. I haven't had any fried foods, I haven't had any sweets and I haven't bought or binged on junk food. This hasn't been a smooth experience, but it has been a learning experience. <BR> <BR> This past week I have been sick and I haven't pushed myself to get back in the gym, mostly b... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 17:56:22 EST Being sick sucks! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5301085 I have been sick since Saturday and am such a baby about being sick. I haven't been working out, have tried to eat healthy and drink water, but it's not easy. I'm so sick of not being able to breath, sneezing all the time and using a ridiculous amount of kleenex. <BR> <BR> That's my rant for today. Sorry it's not super motivational or reflective, I'll do better next time. When I'm healthy! Tue, 26 Mar 2013 17:46:10 EST Getting back on track is hard! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5295223 I have had really good success losing weight so far this year, and I know that there will be ups and downs, but getting back on track is still hard. I knew that I wasn't going to be perfect on this journey, but I was still surprised at how easy it was to slip up. <BR> <BR> I worked out last Thursday with my trainer and then didn't do anything active or physical until Tuesday, and I really had to drag myself to the gym that night. But I knew that if I put it off any longer, I might never get ... Thu, 21 Mar 2013 16:07:16 EST Not going to beat myself up today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5292716 I have been working so hard on my food choices, my activity level and my personal well-being over the past three months. I am so very proud of that, but the past four days have not been as successful and I feel like I need to be honest about this so I can get over it and move on in this journey. <BR> <BR> I tried out a new doctor on Friday, naturopathic and I loved it. She thinks she can solve some of my digestive system issues, many of which started after I had Salmonella almost 13 years ag... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 17:36:11 EST Using the gym to blow off steam...great option! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5286327 Yesterday was a very random day for me. I was very productive at work, but was just feeling a little "off" have you ever had one of those days? I'm trying to get everything done so I can be away this weekend, which means prepping for the course I teach, doing homework for the class I'm taking and planning for healthy foods and travel arrangements. I was starting to feel a little overwhelmed. Then I get a call from a boss at work with some frustrating news. After that I get a call from my new ... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 09:59:39 EST Where did yesterday go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284979 I had been having such a great stretch of successes and then yesterday I realized I couldn't ignore the toothache that I've had for almost a week. It was time to bite the bullet and go to the dentist. Which means I must have been in real pain because I never go to the dentist without a really good reason. Well, turns out the dentist thinks I might need a root canal. Yuck! But I can't put it off because I hate the pain. <BR> <BR> So after the dentist yesterday I went home and pretty much did ... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 09:16:55 EST My reward for 10% loss, and a Thank you to SparkPeople! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5282873 I got into work early today and was shocked at the number of emails waiting for me. As I started going through the emails, someone made mention of my blog being featured in the email that morning. What? <BR> <BR> Of course my work email system consistently deletes my Best of Spark emails and everything else (no matter how many times I enter the address as a safe sender) and I didn't even get the email. But I went onto the website and opened up my blog and was shocked by the number of comment... Mon, 11 Mar 2013 17:43:07 EST Reached my first major goal today!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5281533 I started living a new healthy lifestyle in December and my first major goal was to lose 10% of my starting weight. Today I achieved that goal and I couldn't be happier. <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning with terrible back pain, but I made myself go to the gym. I weighed in and I have officially lost 30 pounds! I'm beyond happy and proud of my successes. I fit better in my clothes, my pants are all falling off my hips and I'm looking forward to more hard work and more successes. <BR> <BR> ... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 18:47:10 EST Back pain isn't going to stop me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5280444 Everyone knows by now that I have some chronic back issues and daily pain. Some days it goes down my back into my legs and others it can just be dull pain in my lower back. I never really know what to expect. <BR> <BR> So Thursday I did stretches with my trainer, but since then my lower back has been feeling bruised, it hurts to touch it, which isn't normal for me. But I did the stretches today, so my trainer will be proud of me on Thursday. And even though my back has been sore, I did go to... Sat, 9 Mar 2013 19:29:51 EST It's Friday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5279228 Hey everyone! So glad it's the weekend. Last night I met with my personal trainer for the first time. So much to think about and it was a great meeting. I have a bunch of stretches to do for the next week until we meet again. I think she'll be exactly the extra push I need. <BR> <BR> Also, according to her scale, I have hit my 10% loss of my original weight, so I'm excited to work hard tonight and this weekend! Who knew I could be motivated like that? <BR> <BR> Have a great weekend! Fri, 8 Mar 2013 18:02:39 EST