USMAWIFE's SparkPeople Blog USMAWIFE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Rainy Thursday Last night as been usual for the last 2 weeks, a friend has calmed me down, made me laugh and look forward to the mini reunion we are planning <BR> <BR> Went to bed and actually slept fairly well since their were cool breezes in the room and then the sound of rain hitting the roof also calmed me down <BR> <BR> Today just trying to deal with things. Still wired and doing a lot of things but not getting any done. Thu, 31 Jul 2014 15:27:38 EST Hump Day I have been wired all day today. <BR> <BR> Wed, 30 Jul 2014 17:12:34 EST Long Day Last night have a very very long talk with the guy I was dating before I met my husband. We have been chatting for a while, but finally we had to have that heart to heart. <BR> <BR> We were both curious as to why we stopped seeing each other without saying anything. I told him I gave him lots of hints that I wanted to go forward and he admitted that he did not understand that was what I was doing. <BR> <BR> So we chatted about how we got together with our spouses,(my husband and the guy... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 15:58:06 EST Monday I spent most of today on the phone.. not feeling any better as to possible solutions to his <BR> <BR> Most likely I will be going the credit counseling route and closing down most of our credit cards now, just leaving some we use for meds, gas, etc. <BR> <BR> Will not have enough to cover the mortgage and the bank really does not want to work with me. Mon, 28 Jul 2014 16:17:59 EST Sunday Tomorrow is going to be busy. Lots of phone calls to make and pray I get some resolution Sun, 27 Jul 2014 21:18:06 EST Stressed Saturday the last few days this new antibiotic killed my stomach. Have not really been eating much <BR> <BR> Today I really want something to eat but there is nothing good in the house and I really do not want to go out <BR> <BR> I have been up since 5 am again. I need to stop stressing but it just is not going to happen Sat, 26 Jul 2014 15:03:52 EST Get a life HOA Honestly I would think my HOA would have more of a life than to take wide distance lenses and sit there and actually look into my back yard and see I have leaves in my gutter. <BR> <BR> REALLY Fri, 25 Jul 2014 13:47:17 EST A friend loves me Last Saturday night I was feeling nostalgic and started to see if I could find any of my old college friends on facebook <BR> <BR> I found one special one and we connected almost immediately <BR> <BR> We have talked every night since we connected. Two days ago, they offered me a special treat. Since they were flying to vegas anyway for business, I was asked if I wanted to go with them and some other friends we mutually know. All I have to do is pay my airfare unless we can come up with ... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 17:41:45 EST Bad day scared that we are going to loose everything <BR> <BR> Feel like no help is out there and I just want to run away from all the bills and stuff Wed, 23 Jul 2014 14:44:39 EST Tuesday Last night was a bit rough. My siactic nerve was flaring up from my waist all the way to my toes. It hurt so bad that I could not turn over. Finally fell asleep and stayed asleep for a while before I needed to move. <BR> <BR> Before I knew it, I was awake from 4 am on. <BR> <BR> Finally got up around 7, got ready to get my mammogram, go to the pharmacy, stop by my other doctor for a weight and bp check and a quick trip to starbucks <BR> <BR> Came home and just did what I needed to ... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 17:33:20 EST Monday really bad day. <BR> <BR> Feels like even praying does not help anymore. Mon, 21 Jul 2014 14:58:06 EST True Humanity Great words to live by Got this from a spiritual page I am connected to on Facebook <BR> Lance Wallnau <BR> TRULY PONDER THIS....It’s important not to confuse genuine humility with false humility. A person with false humility continually talks about his unworthiness to take on a task God has given him. On the other hand, true humility is demonstrated when a person recognizes his inadequacy to do the job but accepts God’s plan and place and says, "This is bigger than my ability, but I trust that that I can get it do... Sun, 20 Jul 2014 14:40:28 EST saturday my gyn thought with my medical history I could use some hormones to help my body out <BR> <BR> She also is treating me for something while she has no idea how I could have gotten, yes that unusual. The medicine is worse than the condition <BR> <BR> It is also raining and I could not walk outdoors so it was a lot of indoor walking . Afternoon going to be writing and knitting Sat, 19 Jul 2014 15:44:53 EST Friday Very stressful day.. I will survive Fri, 18 Jul 2014 23:40:09 EST Thursday think I have figured what I am going to do for an at home buiness <BR> <BR> rather than investing 1300, 3900 or 11K into a travel discount business where I still have to pay 70 a month for website maintence, I am going to start small and go into a business that links to amazon for 300 and no additional monthly charges. Thu, 17 Jul 2014 21:07:55 EST Hump day <em>46</em> Wed, 16 Jul 2014 21:26:19 EST Tuesday did not really get a lot of sleep last night. <BR> <BR> This morning I had an appt with my Christmas Doctor. She is tied for first with my PCP as high on the list of doctors I see who really listen and care for me. <BR> <BR> <BR> During the exam a few issues came up and she called in meds for me and two I had to pick up at Walmart. <BR> <BR> When I got to the drug store, picked up the meds, got home and found out one of the drugs is made from an ingredient I am allergeric to. First... Tue, 15 Jul 2014 21:03:55 EST So tired I can so tell that hubby is depressed with this job but I can't say anything to him <BR> <BR> This morning I was listening to the 700 CLub and they were praying for someone who had the ideal perfect job but then lost it. They can't look past that job even though they are employed again and it is hurting them in their present job <BR> <BR> That is so my husband. They just changed him from first shift, Mon to Thurs to 3rd shift Friday, Sat and Sunday the only good things about that is th... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 19:58:27 EST the week is beginning Another bad night of sleep even with a glass of wine <BR> <BR> got up this morning and ran the normal errands . When I left Barnes and Noble, I noticed a gentleman and his family. He was holidng a sign that he lost his job and home and needed to feed his family. I thought, OMG that could really be us soon unless this place sells or I get this job going quickly which I am still so afraid to do. <BR> <BR> got come and did dishes, laudnry , paid pills and then tried to get myself in ment... Sun, 13 Jul 2014 19:09:15 EST saturday after dealing with the real estate agent and talking to my mother in law to help think what should we do, I went out to pick up some meds for hubby and then ran to the grocery store where I got a piece of my favorite cake with almondd. That was kind of an emotional moment thing as well as a treat for sticking to my eating plan for a while now <BR> <BR> It was hard to sleep last night. my mind was racing with everything. I tossed and turned a lot. I laid there and prayed. Finally I feel ... Sat, 12 Jul 2014 20:35:04 EST New agent interview Just had a meeting with another real estate agent.. she wants us to remove the coral and gray colors from our sun room, breezeway and stair case and make them all cream or white. that cost, 1000 <BR> <BR> she also wants carpet changed out in all the bedrooms as she thinks it is old looking coar 2200.00 <BR> <BR> also suggested we get rid of the dog for a while that is not going to happen and then wants us to lower the price another 10K Fri, 11 Jul 2014 17:54:55 EST Thursday today I am getting ready for meeting the new real estate agent tomorrow afternnon. <BR> <BR> Something truly has to give with the house being on the market for the last two years and no hits Thu, 10 Jul 2014 16:56:36 EST Hump day mentally tired right now. <BR> <BR> not sure which way I am going but all the horrible scopes and people who do positive motivation tell me things are going to work out. <BR> <BR> I am so in belief that God's plan for me is still not apparent and he wants us to loose all for some reason Wed, 9 Jul 2014 16:21:16 EST stress already from this new business I learned a lot in training today. SInce I am only signing up for the basic package, I only get paid for those cstomers who sign up for the basic package. If any of the customers I recruited want one of the top top packages, myearnings from them will go to my trainer until I upgrade my paciages.. that means I could be out between 3 and 9K, <BR> <BR> going to take to a friend and see if they want to partner with me and do a short term loan Tue, 8 Jul 2014 18:58:48 EST Monday it has been a long day. I decided to go for it and start the training for the online business. Mon, 7 Jul 2014 20:44:20 EST another week begins right now I am still having my moment and it is so hard to get myself to charge my charge card for my investment in the online business. I know this is a sound company but it is just the apprehension Sun, 6 Jul 2014 17:35:32 EST saturday I am still trying to get to the point where I am going to commit to the online jov. will fill out the training paperwork tomorrow and go from there Sat, 5 Jul 2014 20:31:37 EST july 4th today I am trying to figure out where life is taking us. things have changed and honestly have to find a way ot again Fri, 4 Jul 2014 13:54:59 EST Laid back weekend going to try and make this weekend very laid back but it looks like we have to go out tomorrow and get a replacement phone for my hssband. luckily this has an insurance plan so it will not cost us to get a new one <BR> <BR> Thu, 3 Jul 2014 21:08:10 EST can't believe it is hump day this week seems to be kind of like in limbo for me. <BR> <BR> dealing with so much stupidity and trying to find a job. going to consider one at home position which I need to start soon so that I might get enough money to pay the credit card i will be putting it on in August <BR> <BR> Doubt I ever will win the lottery and do not have any family members where I am in a will so I will get some type of inheritance Wed, 2 Jul 2014 17:01:32 EST feeling like I pissed off the Gods This morning I called the person who operates the online job site I applied to work at. I received an email during the night that my question I sent to them yesterday was returned as cancelled. So I called the person and she went in and put the information back in to get the codes from me. <BR> <BR> What happens, they cancelled the order for it and were refunding my deposit.. What the heck. <BR> <BR> So started calling them and now no one is there at the company <BR> <BR> Finally when I ... Tue, 1 Jul 2014 16:06:39 EST June 30th stil trying to get things straighted out Mon, 30 Jun 2014 12:22:26 EST I am such a fool I am in such need of money I signed up for this online marketing plan which is supposed to send you codes and you start making money once the codes are connectedd to your name <BR> <BR> instead what I got was confirmation of my money 49.00 being recceived and then getting more videos from the company but never getting the code. LUCKILY, I have the paperwork which says 60 day money back guarantee and if their customer service dept does not do anything, sending all my paperwork to the credi... Sun, 29 Jun 2014 17:02:59 EST Great day for a change We went to see Evita today with friends and had a great time. THey will be coming here in a few weeks with some other couples for a mini class reunion <BR> <BR> Sat, 28 Jun 2014 21:22:07 EST Friday Last night got worse. I was kicked off a facebook knitting page for defending that the pattern that a women was passing off as her own was already a published pattern. She and I did a private conversation and I did not want more confrtontation and left the discussion. She reported it to another admin (yes I was a group admin) who ordered me to apologize to her. I aid sorry.. woman wanted more, complained to the admin who removed me as an admin and also from the group which is over 26K mem... Fri, 27 Jun 2014 20:25:11 EST Thursday Today sucked Thu, 26 Jun 2014 18:18:57 EST Hump day I just want to feel cool again Wed, 25 Jun 2014 21:53:07 EST realization about me over rhe lasr few months I have been told I am to nice.. I to everything for all and get nothing really in return. <BR> <BR> Tue, 24 Jun 2014 20:10:58 EST tired I hate sunday nights.. we go to bed at 1030, up at 245. <BR> <BR> Last night I could not sleep well and it seemed like every 20 minutes I was awake yelling at the dog who was has a habit of marking his territory before he gets comfortable <BR> <BR> at one point i passed out for a few minutes and then had a nightmare that woke me up shaking. <BR> <BR> after that I was tossing and turning and of course when I fell into a deep sleep, the alarm went off <BR> <BR> fixed hubby's meals for t... Mon, 23 Jun 2014 21:35:20 EST Spent the morning looking for one type of yarn Why is it that fingering weight yarn is so hard to find in chain stores except in baby colors. <BR> <BR> I want adult colors <BR> <BR> so now I have to order the yarn on line Sun, 22 Jun 2014 18:21:50 EST saturday today was one o those days... thanks to the internet , tv and phone going out I was able to do 10 pages of the book. hope to do two more before bed tonight Sat, 21 Jun 2014 21:20:45 EST the weekend is here yeah Fri, 20 Jun 2014 16:57:52 EST Thursday It is to hot outside and summer starts in 2 days.. Heaven only knows why July and August is going to be like Thu, 19 Jun 2014 12:06:01 EST Hump day did not get much accomplished which disappointed me Wed, 18 Jun 2014 22:18:35 EST Tuesday Today is just one of those days <BR> <BR> tried hard to get some writing done but only did part of what I had hoped <BR> <BR> Tue, 17 Jun 2014 21:59:21 EST Monday Up early and dealing with life. <BR> <BR> got another 3 pages of the book done and hope to get more done this evening <BR> <BR> tomorrow have to go mail boxes and dreading it as there are lots of them Mon, 16 Jun 2014 14:03:33 EST Sunday a new week begins... hoping I can get more of the book worked on as well as achieve some other goals Sun, 15 Jun 2014 17:39:03 EST saturday Our closest friend came and spent the night while his wife and daughter went to Atlanta for a girls weekend away. my mil thought it was strange that I was not invited to go but that is fine.. I have more fun with her husband and my husband.. we all go back to 1973 so there ia a lot of bonding <BR> <BR> hubby smoked some ribs and they were <em>345</em> <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I am fixing them an omblet you put in the oven <BR> Sat, 14 Jun 2014 22:45:14 EST Friday the 13th tried to stay home today but that did not work. at least I got lots of steps in Fri, 13 Jun 2014 21:38:25 EST Thursday last night I spilled everything that was wrong in my life out to my husband's ex roommate who these days is my only real friend I can share everything with <BR> <BR> the blessing is that he is going to spend the weekend with us so that he and I can talk and start hopefully working on the second book we are planning Thu, 12 Jun 2014 21:12:55 EST