USMAWIFE's SparkPeople Blog USMAWIFE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community waiting all day for the handyman it is now 424 pm on Monday afternoon <BR> <BR> the handyman was again to be here at 1 and did not show up. the glass company did not call either. So tomorrow I am getting my neighbors handyman' <BR> s phone number and calling him to get this done <BR> <BR> Neighbor and I had a long talk this morning and she was saying that the last few days she actually has heard gun fire in our quiet subdivision and like me is wondering what they are shooting at and thinking also like my other friend tha... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 16:28:41 EST It's Sunday night hubby got the window in the attic tape up this afternoon and removed the huge piece of glass which was left hanging. you can see some shattering around the edges but we still can not find anything which caused it but know it was a wear and tear issue. this was caused by man Sun, 19 Oct 2014 21:10:57 EST the broken glass incident continues last night hubby came home and drove around to the front to see if he could figure where the glass came from <BR> <BR> turns out it was from the circle glass fixture in the attic which is just above the second floor bedrooms. this thought was that a squirrel was hanging on the gutter and slipped into the glass breaking it. <BR> <BR> I called lots of places Friday night to get this fixed so we do not get more animals in the attic as well as rain damage. one place was horrible price wis... Sat, 18 Oct 2014 21:50:13 EST Friday today is just one of those days I want to go to bed and stay there all day <BR> <BR> last night my friend and I figured out which casino should be booked for the trip to vegas in Feb. just because we are not paying for it does not mean we should find the most expensive place out there. So with some codes I have they are booking it tonight <BR> <BR> Went to sleep almost immediately but was up several times during the night then up at 4 am to get things ready for hubby to leave <BR> <... Fri, 17 Oct 2014 14:36:48 EST Thursday Was a rough night last night. If I am lucky I got 3 hours of sleep. was awake at 3 am, alarm clock went off at 430 and I stayed up until 7 and then got another hour of sleep <BR> <BR> Have been waiting to hear from my doctors office and nothing yet. <BR> <BR> tried to eat a hamburger and nothing tastes good anymore so I am drinking water and some juice which I can at least taste Thu, 16 Oct 2014 15:49:27 EST wednesday I finally admitted to myself I can no longer go on like this and asked my doctor to please put me on something for anxiety/depression <BR> <BR> it is bad when I can cry at anything these days. when I had a talk with a friend on Saturday it was like the tears started and I can not get them to stop. <BR> <BR> so many things are going on in my mind now. all my military wives friends have sided with my stalker and there is no way I am going to try and get them back after 3 years. <BR> <... Wed, 15 Oct 2014 16:22:13 EST tuesday right now we are under a tornado watch. we have been under one since 8 this morning and it continues to 10 pm tonight. for about an hour this morning we were actually on a tornado warming <BR> <BR> had wanted to go out today but that is now happening at all. talk is tomorrow could be the same way Tue, 14 Oct 2014 15:49:13 EST thanks thanks to SMG <BR> <BR> You were the only person who wanted to know why I did some things in my past which are now affecting my present and future and you are the only one who is supporting me while I see if I should end a new phase to life Mon, 13 Oct 2014 23:46:23 EST the return trip the return trip <BR> <BR> <BR> When I got to the airport and then the gate I now had over 3 hours until my flight left. <BR> <BR> <BR> So I took out the computer plugged it into the charging until on the chair and looked up old friend on linkedin who I then messaged. this was my grade school up friend who we went to grade, high school and some college. She then transferred schools to start a prelaw program at another university. we ran into each other a lot when we were at West poin... Mon, 13 Oct 2014 14:48:42 EST Sunday home again. will update tomorrow Mon, 13 Oct 2014 01:15:22 EST saturday Now after midnight and I am still a bit hungover <BR> <BR> to be updated Sun, 12 Oct 2014 00:49:13 EST thursday incredibly long day <BR> <BR> went to bed at 1130 but was up at 130 and stayed up to 7 am, back to sleep for an hour and then off to do everything on the list <BR> <BR> met the gal to set up the room for the meeting that night and I ended up moving and unfolding 40 folding chairs while she put them in place. we had issues with the room and finally I had enough and we all left <BR> <BR> Took the dog to boarding, 3 stores after that to come home and fix a meal for hubby for the weekend as... Fri, 10 Oct 2014 06:38:37 EST Hump Day After a busy Tuesday, we did not end up going to bed until close to 130. <BR> <BR> I kept waking up to see if I could see the lunear eclipse. <BR> <BR> Finally passed out and was just so warm and comfy in the bed, when at 712 am, the phone rang. Why is it that when people wake you up they do not apologize especially at that hour. Not every one works a weekday schedule <BR> <BR> It was the lady from the HOA wanting me to know where I can pick up the key for the clubhouse for this ev... Wed, 8 Oct 2014 20:44:39 EST almost hump day right now it is eight minutes before midnight <BR> <BR> I am totally wiped out. Did laundry today instead of Thursday and made my list of things that I have to accomplish before I leave for the weekend Tue, 7 Oct 2014 23:53:53 EST Would you go to this event Some who read my blog know about me and the travel job I started. <BR> <BR> Well this is the flyer they in mailboxes in three subdivisins today <BR> <BR> <BR> YOU SHOULD BE HERE <BR> <BR> Middlecreek Club House <BR> Oct 9 2014 <BR> 630 pm mixer and mingle <BR> 7 program <BR> <BR> Door prizes <BR> <BR> Does it draw you in to want to attend? Mon, 6 Oct 2014 19:08:18 EST Sunday Went to bed and had a hard time sleeping <BR> <BR> they were showing the house today from 1-3 pm and I had to be out by 1230. <BR> <BR> I had not eaten since 5 pm on Saturday and was really starving when I stopped by Wendy's for a burger. Of course they messed up my order and I had to make this really hard turn around to get back into their driveway <BR> <BR> the dog ended up eating half my burger as it just did not taste good to me. <BR> <BR> Got home to find all the lights on in... Mon, 6 Oct 2014 00:02:42 EST Saturday long day today. <BR> <BR> they are showing our house tomorrow. Usually they give a 1 hour appt range but this agent has scheduled it to a 2 hour block which means I have to be out the house with the dog for 3 hours total. <BR> <BR> I hate those kind of appts. Sat, 4 Oct 2014 23:11:42 EST What happened Thurs I said I would update what happened yesterday so here it comes <BR> <BR> Wednesday night the friend who is organizing the trip for next week to Biloxi and New Orleans, messaged all of us that there was a good chance the trip would be cancelled. If I does I have to get on the phone with the travel agent and get a credit for my flight and pray it can be credited to the vegas flight we are going on in February <BR> <BR> So then I go to bed early knowing that I am financially challenged s... Fri, 3 Oct 2014 18:45:31 EST So mentally drained will post tomorrow Thu, 2 Oct 2014 23:29:11 EST its over and I am SCREWED The person who was going to lend me my mortgage payment called his financial advisor last Friday. She finally got back to him today <BR> <BR> He was 99 percent sure he had the money to loan me but tonight he tells me that his advisor put all his funds, including his 401 and other options into there daughters college fund. He was so not happy with that and since all the money is there, he is going to back out the deal <BR> <BR> So now I am royally screwed. there is no one else I can turn... Wed, 1 Oct 2014 18:23:43 EST Tuesday Bad day.. Wed, 1 Oct 2014 08:58:12 EST Dreary Monday Right now it is dark and rainy outside even though it is only 1230 pm <BR> <BR> The outside does look like how I feel. I am constantly at the point now where I can cry just opening the refrigerator.. Walking to the mailbox was horrible since I do not know what I am going to find in the mailbox <BR> <BR> I did email my friend and asked him if he could please let me borrow the funds I talked about with him last week. Still waiting for an answer Honestly without it everything is lost <... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 12:39:30 EST No miracles for me Good things just do not happen to me <BR> <BR> Friend said they would loan me money last weekend and has not yet. <BR> <BR> I keep praying on it as well as receiving messages on line from religious groups that all will be ok and it is not going to be ok. Unless things change quickly the house can go into foreclosure <BR> <BR> I am so scared now.. Sun, 28 Sep 2014 21:02:03 EST Saturday got a little bit of restless sleep last night but pushed myself out of the bed to get to the bank to fax the paper off to the mortgage company and pick up my monthly RX's. Wanted to stop and get ice cream but I held off. <BR> <BR> Still waiting for my friend to see when he is going to be able to transfer money to me. right now trying to decide if I don't get it which do I pay, the mortgage which is already trying to get lowered or my American express bill. right now it is looking like ... Sat, 27 Sep 2014 19:26:26 EST The drama continues this morning I was awake from 330 and finally got up at 440 to get coffee from hubby and to put his meals together for the weekend <BR> <BR> <BR> I actually stayed up until 745 am and just as I was falling asleep, the phone rang. It was my urologist office saying one of the two tests was in after three weeks and it as negative and the second test really was lost by the technician. I was asked if I still had pain in my stomach and said yes. they want me to see my GYN and see if she ca... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 23:33:14 EST Insanity continues After I post last nights blog, I talked to two friends who calmed me down a bit. <BR> <BR> Woke up at 430 to get hubby coffee and ready to start the day <BR> <BR> When I logged on to my computer, I found a message from the trainer. Earlier I said to her that my son would not be doing the travel thing as he has just started in a law practice and was busy trying to get himself established. He worked so many hours that it is now rare for him to even cook a meal these days <BR> <BR> Her r... Thu, 25 Sep 2014 21:25:41 EST fricking disgusted now since I joined this travel group in August I have been trying to get my first sales but still have not <BR> <BR> My husbands best friend was and still is going to sign up but he is still try to get over this mom's passing. <BR> <BR> I mentioned to my trainer he was coming on after he got his mom's estate settled and each week get messages on facebook when can we get him set up and when can we make arrangments to go to see our friends in Atlanta. <BR> <BR> Mentioned to the trainer last w... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 19:54:11 EST Tuesday Still dealing with my fourth round of corrections for the mortgage company <BR> <BR> I am so fed up Tue, 23 Sep 2014 23:37:19 EST Pondering Life I have been doing a lot of thinking and going over all the good and bad decisions I have had in my life <BR> <BR> Not sure anymore if I truly like the way things turned out and with some decisions, I know there is no way to change them Mon, 22 Sep 2014 22:42:46 EST the mini reunion ended way to early I learned just like in college I should never drink Bahama mamas <BR> <BR> we call got back together about 9 pm, and started drinking and eating. sleep was precious. again <BR> <BR> I dropped one person off at the airport at 730 and then headed back home the others had left already to dive back to Charlotte and VA. <BR> <BR> I fly out to FL on the 10th and meet up with one person and we drive to Biloxi where the others are supposed to be arriving later that afteroo <BR> <BR> so gla... Sun, 21 Sep 2014 18:30:14 EST Saturday reunion day 2 everything I going great. love these ladies Sat, 20 Sep 2014 21:03:50 EST mini reunion day this morning I was up at 5 with hubby <BR> <BR> within 3 minutes of him closing the side door, thunder and lightening and the dog was a quivering person. got him back up to the bedroom and as I say on the omputer he finally calmed down even though the storms got worse. <BR> <BR> was able to go back to sleep at 730 and by now the temps had fallen and I wanted an extra blanket on the bed but I was to tired to get it <BR> <BR> Now it is almost 930 <BR> <BR> just picked out the clothes ... Fri, 19 Sep 2014 09:30:09 EST thursday this morning got up early as hubby went into work <BR> <BR> when I got up I knew I had a lot to do today <BR> <BR> went to the grocery store <BR> <BR> got gas <BR> <BR> came home and cleaned out my car <BR> <BR> wrote a few emails <BR> <BR> 4 loads of laundy <BR> <BR> colored my gray hairs and then put my hair in rollers where it will stay until tomorrow <BR> <BR> now trying to finish up a few things and get ready to go to bed early again <BR> <BR> tomorrow is the big reunion day. ... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 17:48:38 EST hump day well I am on countdown. at approximately 4 pm on Friday I am having dinner with my friend from college and can't wait <BR> <BR> this is going to be one of those weekends for chatting Wed, 17 Sep 2014 22:58:20 EST Tuesday Last night I got a message to make a phone call for my home business. Normally I dislike them especially at 930 pm but figured go for it. this was our local group vs the national calls. <BR> <BR> something clicked with this one when I heard the words, you need to reach out to the person you know will be the hardest to deal with. <BR> <BR> So last night I did just that. I reached out to the reunion director for my husband's class. I sent him the links and asked if I could post to the c... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 19:03:28 EST Monday last night just could not sleep so I stayed on the computer working on the book when I heard that ring that tells you someone wants to chat with you on facebook, <BR> <BR> switched over and got a wonderful surprise My buddy was back and wanted to chat with me. Earlier Sunday afternoon they were at the airport waiting for their flight and I got a few pm's which really changed the mood of my day. <BR> <BR> stayed up chatting with them until 125 am and then went to bed. <BR> <BR> this ... Mon, 15 Sep 2014 21:00:32 EST Sunday The temps are great today . <BR> <BR> Think God was watching out for me with the cooler temps finally getting into the house since the AC unit on the first floor is not working and people were coming to see the house. <BR> <BR> Spent a lot of time cleaning within the last two days and now just hoping and praying as to if this is going to sell or now. <BR> <BR> Still waiting for the results of a smear my urologist sent out over 10 days ago. Honestly, if this had been my GYN, the results w... Sun, 14 Sep 2014 17:05:31 EST Saturday I have been doing a lot of cleaning today and plan is to get up early tomorrow , do the floors and then the dog and I leave the house for 2 hours. <BR> <BR> I stopped being optimistic about this house ever selling or leasing out. Sat, 13 Sep 2014 21:17:48 EST The weekend is here Today was one of those days that I asked myself why <BR> <BR> Last night had my last chat with a good friend for a few days so I am <em>46</em> we skyped for a few minutes last night and they were shocked that I was actually crying at the end. THis person truly has supported me a lot and just going to miss it <BR> <BR> I took the dog out for a walk and when I came back in felt some pain. I reached under my right underarm and there was a lump that swelled up very quickly and was pai... Fri, 12 Sep 2014 21:15:03 EST Thursday the last 24 hours have been crazy. <BR> <BR> Around this time last night, our mortgage company called and wanted me to make some changes in our home loan modification paperwork. I got the list of changes and knew they were going to be simple and I would held over to the bank and have them fax the paperwork for me tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Then asked hubby if he scheduled off the two days for the wedding weekend after this. Of course, he did not and of course it was to late to do it. So glad I ... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 19:04:36 EST Hump Day I am still dealing. thanks to a good friend who I have never met, I am not running away yet although she knows I am very close to doing it Wed, 10 Sep 2014 21:36:47 EST Tuesday really wonder why I even try. <BR> <BR> I am the only one who as not sold a travel membership yet. I know one friend is going to get one but until he finishes his mom's estate I am not going to start drawing some type of salary.Also getting bugged by the team leader, when am I going to Atlanta. Can't set anything up in Atlanta until my friend signs on and we can plan a group get together <BR> <BR> Tue, 9 Sep 2014 20:59:06 EST Monday just can't deal with everything anymore. Mon, 8 Sep 2014 17:17:21 EST Sunday today I tried to lay back and get some relaxing in <BR> <BR> had a refund card from Lowes and tried to use it to purchase more minutes for my tracfone nd their cashier put the card in wrong and it rejected. so I had to pay full price for the card which was going outside my budget <BR> <BR> <BR> Hubby called and he is not coming home until Monday night. <BR> <BR> Worked on the shawl and now down to the last 70 stitches to be worked and I am trying to finish it before I head to bed Sun, 7 Sep 2014 23:47:40 EST Saturday today I spent a lot of the day knitting, trying to get the shawl in the mail by Tuesday, then cleaning out two closests, made spaghetti sauce and watch college football which I normally do not do. I was facebooking with a lot of my husbands classmates on the game as well as several friends of mine who went to Buffalo and we just had some fun. <BR> <BR> Later I talked to my friend and we are finding out the past is really something we messed up on BIG TIME. there is obviously no way to cha... Sat, 6 Sep 2014 23:27:53 EST the weekend is here this morning got up and headed to my gp's office for my weekly weigh in and bp check <BR> <BR> since last Thursday, I am down 7 lbs. YEAH Praying I am going to continue loosing like this as my goal to reach the one under side has come and gone so many times. This time I see it in sight again <BR> <BR> then went to see the gyn urologist. Love this practice. When I got there, handed my paperwork in and the receptionist said if I needed anything just ask. <BR> <BR> Ok. <BR> <BR> Then ... Fri, 5 Sep 2014 19:37:25 EST Thursday Last night had my talk with a friend before I went to bed. Always like that .. nice way to end he day <BR> <BR> Was up on and off through the night, but was up at 3 am to get hubby ready for work. Felt like I was going to pass out as I got his coffee. Most likely it is stress and lack of sleep. <BR> <BR> Stayed up until 530 and finally passed out again <BR> <BR> Up at 8 just because I could not lay in bed anymore. <BR> <BR> Barely out of bed, I got a call from the urologist I ... Thu, 4 Sep 2014 19:45:56 EST my spirit is broken For those who are on facebook with me or say my status update on here I now longer am believing everything is going to be ok <BR> <BR> This morning while watching the 700 club in the part where they prayer about healing a different kind of message came through, one having to do with money and I prayed and accepted it as if Pat was talking to me but this was o different am not holding my breath but I am also not giving up <BR> <BR> the day has been lot of financial disastrers for me an... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 20:15:16 EST Tuesday Another day of hot temps and humidty. <BR> <BR> I am going through things mentally trying to figure out how to carry on. I am a whits end and right now, even with all the prayers in the world, can't get things together. <BR> <BR> I know if our friend was not dealing with his mom's death he would be helping me and most likely somewhere along the line he will assist me still <BR> <BR> So right now I am trying to get things in order which is mentally draining. <BR> <BR> Have to wor... Tue, 2 Sep 2014 15:05:52 EST Labor Day thought today was going to be a day of relaxation for hubby and me but it did not turn out that way <BR> <BR> Last night after working his 3 day 16 hour/day shift, he tells me that he has to work a 14 hour shift today. the guy who took over his weekend shift has once again screwed him, hubby was called in on two of his days off last week as this guy called in sick and then yesterday he calls in sick again, approrpriately on a holiday. So this morning he was up at 430 and I got up with him... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 18:04:07 EST