UNSWEETMAMA's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=UNSWEETMAMA UNSWEETMAMA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Doing my best to maintain my weight and my sanity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768256 Guess who hasn’t blogged in nearly 3 months. <BR> <BR> I’ve been super busy playing the part of a turtle hiding in its shell. <BR> <BR> Let’s back up a bit, shall we? I started hoarding candy right after Halloween last year. But I was eating it in a very controlled way. Then the “controlled” part went all to hell somewhere between Christmas and Valentine’s. In spite of that, I reached my goal weight of 140 pounds in early February. I then proceeded to completely lose my mind. Li... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 18:44:10 EST handy-dandy strawberry tongs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5706770 After my post about strawberries yesterday, I was commenting to a couple SparkFriends about the tongs I use to hull my beloved strawberries. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l981463734.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I think they were designed for olives. But with the little teeth at the end they work beautifully for hulling strawberries. I pick off the leaves with my fingers, then stab the tongs in, squeeze, twist and pull. Presto. <BR> <BR> I got them years ago at a store ... Fri, 30 May 2014 11:50:21 EST strawberry junkie http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5705988 Some people may look in their recycle bin and see soda cans or beer bottles and realize they have a problem. <BR> <BR> Mine is full of strawberry boxes. At $23 a flat (12 pints per flat and I eat 2 or 3 pints a day) it is not a cheap habit. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/6/l268387287.jpg"> Thu, 29 May 2014 11:31:38 EST A Walk in the Vines http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5687401 Today my mom and I participated in a walk to raise autism awareness. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1394059298.jpg"> <BR> <BR> As the title suggests, the walk was held in a vineyard. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l117560158.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It was pretty warm out (highs have been nearing 100 °F the last few days), but it was fun and we treated ourselves to a relaxing brunch on the patio of a Mediterranean restaurant afterwards... Sun, 4 May 2014 18:57:05 EST calorie wise and pound foolish http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5677112 In my last blog, I was talking about the fact that I had bought myself a single cookie and was mildly freaked out about it. <BR> <BR> HAHAhahahaha <BR> <em>246</em> <em>495</em> <BR> <BR> There have been many cookies since that day. There have been many PACKAGES of cookies since that day. <BR> <BR> For the last couple/few weeks I have been eating like my starting weight was actually my goal weight. It has not been pretty. <BR> <BR> But I'm still here. Still trying to work th... Mon, 21 Apr 2014 13:27:59 EST this makes no sense http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669899 I bought myself a cookie at the bakery counter in the grocery store this morning. The thing is, the last time I ate this cookie, I wrote myself a note... <BR> <BR> "Note to self: Don't buy that stupid turtle cookie anymore. It's too sweet. It gives you a stomach ache. Okay?" <BR> <BR> This isn't even ABOUT the calories people (which are not insignificant at 390 per cookie). This cookie gave me a stomach ache last time I ate it. It tasted overly sweet. AND I STILL WANTED ANOTHER ONE TO... Fri, 11 Apr 2014 15:04:28 EST balance ball chair - week 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5669229 This is just a follow-up to my previous post about using a balance ball chair at my desk. <BR> <BR> Day 1 post here: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo<BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653303 </link> <BR> <BR> I am nearing the end of my third week with the balance ball chair and still going strong. I kept my old chair as a back-up just in case I didn't like sitting on the ball and I haven't used the old chair at all. <BR> <em>30</em> <em>322</em> <BR> <BR> It only to... Thu, 10 Apr 2014 17:46:58 EST for reals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667588 I realized some things today... <BR> <BR> 1. Going over my calorie range does not make me a bad person. <BR> <BR> It won't help me meet my goals. But it does NOT mean that I am weak, immoral and deserve to be miserable. (Which is basically how I've been feeling for the last month. Welcome to Crazy Town.) <BR> <BR> 2. Oh, crud... I forgot the second thing already. Tue, 8 Apr 2014 17:52:58 EST fitspo: Sandra Bullock in Gravity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5664788 Fitspo is a silly word, isn't it? It's one of those smooshy little Internet words. It stands for Fitness Inspiration. <BR> <BR> I just saw Gravity for the first time last night. It's a pretty intense movie. If you haven't seen it - and don't have a heart condition - I recommend it. <BR> <BR> Sandra Bullock spends most of the movie wearing a spacesuit. But when she takes it off I was really impressed by what a good example she is of what a strong, healthy female body can look like. ... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 05:50:17 EST food issues: the early years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5663913 Alrighty SparkPeeps. We're jumping on the Way Way Back Time Machine and plunging the depths of How Stephanie Got Here. <BR> <BR> Before we get going, let's understand something. This is not about blame, this is just an exploration. <BR> <BR> MOM: <BR> My parents divorced before I was a year old. As an infant, I was sick often. My mother, who is a very caring person, was very stressed out. It didn't take her long to figure out that nursing (breastfeeding) me calmed me (and her). Loo... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 23:42:04 EST life hack: lunch http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5662761 If there is a competition for Laziest Cook on the Planet, I would be a very good contestant. If I could be bothered to enter the competition. <BR> <BR> In spite of that laziness, I am inspired to share with you good people a couple of my recent lunches. <BR> <BR> My "program" of late has included a LOT of vegetables and protein at every meal. Somewhere along the line I got the idea to combine frozen meals (which are NEVER enough food for me) and frozen vegetables. <BR> <BR> And the c... Wed, 2 Apr 2014 15:17:17 EST from the desk of Captain Obvious http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656452 This may seem like the most self-evident thing ever to be shared on SparkPeople, but I just have to say it out loud... <BR> <BR> I am being passive-aggressive when I deliberately eat large amounts of things I know I should not. <BR> <BR> From Wikipedia: <BR> Passive-aggressive behavior is the indirect expression of hostility, such as through procrastination, sarcasm, hostile jokes, stubbornness, resentment, sullenness, or deliberate or repeated failure to accomplish requested tasks for w... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 19:13:30 EST balance ball chair - day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5653303 The following is just me talking. I have not been paid or gifted anything. <BR> <BR> I ordered a Classic Balance Ball Chair and an extra ball in "wasabi" green from Gaiam.com last week. Today is my first day using the chair and so far I like it. <BR> <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> Some observations... <BR> <BR> I'm glad my first day using it is a short day because I hear people get fatigued when they aren't used to these chairs. (For most of the year we work 4/9/4's here - 9 hours a day M... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 14:28:09 EST fear http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651986 I had an "aha moment" about weight maintenance while watching The Walking Dead (of all things). A character who was in denial about how dangerous the walkers (zombies) are was playing with a walker. My husband said something about this character being stupid and I said that maybe she was so tired of being afraid that she just wanted the inevitable (death) to happen already so she wouldn't have to be afraid anymore. <BR> <BR> Pause. <BR> <em>189</em> <BR> <BR> Ever since I reached m... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 23:05:07 EST 18 months http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645352 Yesterday was very, very bad food-wise. I know I'm not supposed to use judgemental words like that. I should say that I made many less-than-healthy choices. And that would be true. <BR> <BR> But it was also very bad. <BR> <BR> I was already past the 4,000 calorie mark when I realized that it was the 18-month anniversary of the day I joined SparkPeople. <BR> <BR> I paused. I double-checked my dates, counting the months. I thought that it was noteworthy that I was eating more than I ... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 12:36:18 EST just a thought http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642520 After some starts and stops, I finally finished reading Women Food and God by Geneen Roth. <BR> <link>www.amazon.com/Women-Food-God-Unexpe<BR>cted-Everything/dp/1416543082 </link> <BR> <BR> Overall, I found it helpful and thought-provoking. But there was at least one thing that she said that I disagree with. She said (and I'm paraphrasing) that when you eat to avoid feeling unpleasant emotions like sadness, after you eat the sadness is still there, but you've added another layer to yo... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 23:14:16 EST Lent http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640507 I am not religious, but I like the idea of observing Lent*. It seems like a good exercise in self-control and I like the idea of proving to myself that I can in fact live without whatever it is. <BR> <link>en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lent </link> <BR> <BR> That said, you have to find something that offers the right amount of challenge without choosing something you know you will fail to abstain from (I think). <BR> <BR> Candy? Hahahahaha. Maybe hard candies (I've been on a Tootsie Pop ki... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 14:02:08 EST When I grow up I want to be a unicorn http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5638746 I get so tired of myself sometimes. I’m tired of being obsessed with food. But it’s not exactly an obsession that you can just turn off. Wouldn’t that be great? To just say, “I’m done. I will be a normal eater now.” <BR> <BR> I cannot even fathom what being a “normal” eater would feel like. Do normal eaters really exist or are they imaginary? Like unicorns. <BR> <BR> I am growing though. I went over my calorie range yesterday. I was disappointed to do that so early in the month... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 16:06:10 EST a good day out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5635320 I took the day off from work yesterday to spend time with my mom on her birthday. She and I don't get out together as often as we used to. When we do get out we tend to shop and eat, eat and shop. <BR> <BR> Trouble with that is neither of us need a darn thing. So why go shopping? I suggested we do something different and we decided to go hiking at the Santa Rosa Plateau Ecological Reserve. <BR> <link>www.rivcoparks.org/education/santa-r<BR>osa-plateau/santa-rosa-plateau/ </link> <BR>... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 13:42:22 EST yoga is changing how I see myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5630849 When practicing yoga, it can be helpful to look in the mirror and check your alignment. <BR> <BR> There have been times over the last few weeks when I have looked at myself (probably during the Warrior series) and thought, "I'm strong." <BR> <BR> I have even thought to myself (unbelievably), "I'm beautiful." <BR> <BR> Let me be clear - this was not about positive affirmations. I wasn't telling myself that I am strong and beautiful. I was reacting to my reflection. <BR> <BR> This ... Sat, 22 Feb 2014 12:22:27 EST Still working toward balance http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628284 Literal/physical balance and metaphorical/psychological balance have been a challenge for me for as long as I can remember. (I can't ride a bike, balance poses in yoga are difficult, and I am completely crazy.) <BR> <BR> I went a bit off the rails again yesterday with chocolate, exactly one week after my last gorge. It felt less frantic, but still desperate (emotionally). <BR> <BR> This morning my stomach growled and I realized I haven't felt PHYSICALLY hungry in a while - like several ... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 11:32:45 EST spectacular fail of a day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622333 For those of you who were alive in the 1980s... do you remember those Disneyland/Disney World commercials that would show the winning quarterback from the Super Bowl and the voice over would say, "you just won the Super Bowl, what's next?" And the player would say, "I'm going to Disneyland!" <BR> <BR> Here's my version for myself this week... <BR> <BR> Voice Over: Stephanie, you just reached your goal weight. What are you going to do now? <BR> <BR> Stephanie: I'm going to Self-Sabotage!... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 13:45:58 EST weighing in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5619244 As of this morning (Sunday, February 9, 2014) my scale says 140.0 lbs. <BR> <BR> I am at my goal weight. <BR> <BR> [Enter Crazy Stephanie now.] <BR> <BR> Changing my official SparkPeople weight and my ticker felt like a lie. I have been weighing in on Friday afternoons for the last 17 months. But the afternoon weigh-in really wasn't working all that well. Often I've already had 8 cups of water by that time. Not to mention breakfast, a snack and lunch. But I had been consistently weigh... Sun, 9 Feb 2014 08:48:41 EST funny thought http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5614313 I have a very diverse group of friends. <BR> <BR> I'm not talking about race, religion or sexual orientation. <BR> <BR> I am friends with vegans, low-carbers/high-proteiners, calorie-counters and mindful-eaters alike. <BR> <em>20</em> Mon, 3 Feb 2014 19:10:54 EST mixed bag of a day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612848 I was so ready for January to be over. It was a tough month. Partly because we were low on money and I only get paid once a month. But also for emotional reasons like my late grandfather's birthday. <BR> <BR> I was ready for January to be over. But be careful what you wish for. If yesterday is any indication of what February will be like... oh boy. <BR> <BR> February won't be much better money-wise. <BR> <BR> I made very good choices yesterday on the fitness front though. I cau... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 09:17:18 EST too much of a good thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5610180 For the love of all that is holy, will I ever learn? <BR> <BR> I may have mentioned it here once or twice before, but I tend to get obsessed with things, including foods. I've blogged about hoarding M&M's and falling in love with prunes and dried apricots. One obsession I haven't blogged about is salsa. But it's not just any salsa. It's the salsa from an Italian restaurant (yes Italian, not Mexican) in the town where I grew up. <BR> <BR> I no longer live in that town, but my grandmot... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 11:56:50 EST For a New Beginning by John O'Donohue http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5608365 (I am sharing this here because it reminds me of when I started this journey on SparkPeople.) <BR> <BR> FOR A NEW BEGINNING <BR> <BR> In out-of-the-way places of the heart, <BR> Where your thoughts never think to wander, <BR> This beginning has been quietly forming, <BR> Waiting until you were ready to emerge. <BR> <BR> For a long time it has watched your desire, <BR> Feeling the emptiness growing inside you, <BR> Noticing how you willed yourself on, <BR> Still unable to leave what you had... Tue, 28 Jan 2014 15:26:41 EST red orange and green http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5607122 Did you know that our brains are programmed to eat the rainbow? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l1968222087.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I've read this over and over again. Not only do our bodies need the nutrition from a variety of fruits and veggies, but our brains are attracted to colorful foods to help us get those varied nutrients. <BR> <BR> Back in November, when I was knee deep in an addiction to M&M's, I even read about a study where a bowl full of all the color... Mon, 27 Jan 2014 11:54:07 EST stream of consciousness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5598432 I am thinking about eating something that I don't need to. <BR> <BR> My tummy is full. I am satisfied from dinner. Why do I want to eat? What purpose would it serve? I don't know. <BR> <BR> It's a distraction. I am frustrated about money. I feel alone. <BR> <BR> I am riding out a powerful wave of sorrow. <BR> <BR> Does food stop the wave? No. Does it take me off the wave? Maybe for 2 minutes. Then you get to enjoy a bonus wave of shame. <BR> <BR> Why do I want to shame my... Sat, 18 Jan 2014 22:00:14 EST Keep your head up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5596235 I've had pain and tension in my neck and shoulder the last two months. I was attributing it to stress and sitting hunched over at the computer at work (I really need to watch how I sit). <BR> <BR> Today I went to a Mind Body Tune Up workshop and one of the things the presenter talked about was how people hold their heads when they walk. <BR> <BR> Walking makes up a significant portion of my fitness routine. <BR> <BR> I have a habit of walking with my head down, looking at the ground (p... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 18:45:40 EST to thine own self be true http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5594632 Time to be honest with myself. <BR> <BR> I am still using food to avoid the tough stuff. It's all well and good that the food I use now includes healthier choices than it used to, but that doesn't change the unhealthiness of the behavior. <BR> <BR> The truth is, I am struggling with anxiety and mild depression these days. <BR> <BR> It will pass. And it may even pass more quickly if I face it instead of acting like it isn't there. Wed, 15 Jan 2014 11:07:26 EST Better than candy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5593635 It's a good thing I never tried crack because when I get hooked on something - watch out! <BR> <BR> I blogged about trying and loving prunes a couple days ago. A couple folks suggested I try dates too. I did and they are good. They didn't hit that same spot for me though. I also tried dried figs. Again - good but not like WOW. <BR> <em>30</em> <BR> <BR> I'm still loving the prunes. Part of it is the shape and dark color. Larger than raisins, one is a perfect bite size and I lov... Tue, 14 Jan 2014 13:37:23 EST a couple small firsts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5590446 My husband an I joined a new gym that opened over the holidays. I went to a yoga class there for the first time today and I WAS SO STINKING NERVOUS. <BR> <BR> There was a class that I went to regularly at another gym a couple years ago, but schedule changes happened and I couldn't go anymore. I LOVED the teacher at that gym. She was fabulous. <BR> <BR> So trying a new teacher at a new place made me anxious. Would I be able to keep up? Would the teacher be clear? Too fast/slow/aggre... Sat, 11 Jan 2014 16:38:29 EST TED talk about dieting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5588291 Are you guys familiar with TED talks? This one is interesting. I wasn't sure if I wanted to share it, because it opposes what I am practicing right now (controlling what I eat). But there is an interesting bit about lifestyle and healthy habits that decrease our risk of (earlier) death whether or not we lose weight. <BR> <BR> Sandra Aamodt: Why dieting doesn't usually work <BR> <link>www.ted.com/talks/sandra_aamodt_why_<BR>dieting_doesn_t_usually_work.html </link> <BR> <BR> I am not ... Thu, 9 Jan 2014 16:05:02 EST January sunrise http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5585543 This doesn't have anything to do with fitness or nutrition... but stopping to appreciate the beauty around you - even when you're putting gas in your car - can be quite good for your well being. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l1369747364.jpg"> Tue, 7 Jan 2014 11:32:17 EST belt http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5584189 I'm wearing a belt today to hold up my pants. I don't care for belts, but I don't have time or money to shop for new pants and the ones I have are falling down in the most annoying way. <BR> <BR> I'm holding onto the fact that my pants are still too big as a non-scale victory because December netted only a 1 pound loss. <BR> <BR> One of my December goals had been to reach a "healthy" BMI. At my height this works out to 149 pounds. I closed November at 151. I reached 149 on December ... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 11:19:25 EST 3 Decembers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5574233 3 selfies from December of 2011, 2012 and 2013. Full body shots are great, but sometimes the chin/neck area can be just as telling. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1104487728.jpg"> <BR> 2011 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1816357007.jpg"> <BR> 2012 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/0/l1056780210.jpg"> <BR> 2013 Sun, 29 Dec 2013 00:23:46 EST Learning Experience http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5571892 Oh no, not another learning experience! <BR> <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> As much as tracking my food was enlightening in the beginning, taking a break from tracking has shown me some things about myself. <BR> <BR> For instance, there are still foods around which I have no self-control. Also, I am perfectly happy to do without foods that I used to eat a great deal of. <BR> <BR> Today (Christmas day) can be summed up in three words: TOO MUCH CHOCOLATE <BR> <em>493</em> <em>493</em> ... Wed, 25 Dec 2013 23:09:53 EST Not tracking craziness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5570896 Is this time of year a food orgy or what? I can't decide if it was complete madness to choose a holiday week to take a break from tracking or if it saved me from madness. <BR> <BR> So far I have survived two days of not tracking what I eat after tracking every single day for a little over 15 months. <BR> <BR> For the most part I have planned ahead where possible and made good choices with my meals. <BR> <BR> It's the random handfuls of things I would absolutely not have touched if I ... Tue, 24 Dec 2013 06:52:19 EST A short break from tracking food http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5569562 I've decided to take a week off from tracking my food. This break will start tomorrow, Sunday, December 22 and go through Saturday, December 28. <BR> <BR> This does NOT mean that I will eat the way I did "before." For the most part, I will eat much the same as I have when I track. I just need a break from constant obsession over every bite, every calorie. <BR> <BR> I think I will continue to track my water. I haven't decided for sure whether I will track my fitness. I may or may no... Sat, 21 Dec 2013 22:33:28 EST NSV http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5565708 This month's big non-scale victory: I bought jeans. <BR> <BR> I haven't had jeans for a long time. It might have been sometime before my son was born. He's 7 years old now. <BR> <BR> Wait. That can't be right. That would mean I haven't worn jeans in, what? More than 8 years? Who knows. I just know it's been a long time since I decided they were just too uncomfortable to bother with. <BR> <BR> So anyway, I went to Old Navy more than a week ago to get jeans for my daughter and the... Mon, 16 Dec 2013 13:31:06 EST mixed feelings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5564526 I overindulged a bit this afternoon. After having some real food for a snack, I went ahead and had a treat as well. Then I almost had seconds. I had a second package in my hand, even. But stopped before I opened it. On the one hand I am a little disappointed that I overate (and still feel bloated because of it). But on the other hand, I am glad I stopped before I threw all caution to the wind. <BR> <BR> It's been a challenging week with office parties and treats at every turn. I've ... Sat, 14 Dec 2013 22:13:00 EST calorie range http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5562230 Since I only have about 10 more pounds to lose to get to goal, I think I may have changed my daily calorie range for the last time. <BR> <BR> I guess I can't say it's the last time. Who knows how much tweaking maintenance will require. And if I continue tracking for a long time, my calories may need to be adjusted for various reasons. <BR> <BR> But for the foreseeable future, this is where I'm at: 1350-1700 calories per day. <BR> <BR> Not bad. Very livable. <BR> <em>30</em> Wed, 11 Dec 2013 15:26:49 EST Empty Spaces http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557714 I realized (again) today that I am still trying to use food to fill a space that it cannot fill. <BR> <BR> I have been thinking obsessively about food this week. (Ha! I say that like it's *just* this week. It's been worse than usual this week.) And a couple days I got a little higher than I wanted to calorie-wise and the hateful, negative inner dialogue started up. But that's not what I wanted to blog about. <BR> <BR> I wanted to come back and remind myself of something. A little w... Thu, 5 Dec 2013 15:16:42 EST December Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5555019 Has this year flown by or what?! <BR> <BR> I met my November goals to do yoga twice a week and update my SparkPeople status daily with something I am grateful for (see my previous post "Grateful"). <BR> <BR> This was the second time I had a monthly goal to do yoga twice a week because I was not keeping up with my practice and again, I really see the benefits and wonder why I let myself slack off there to begin with. It's so worthwhile! The one drawback I have seen is when I have a goal... Mon, 2 Dec 2013 11:51:46 EST Grateful http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5553759 One of my goals for November was to update my SparkPeople status daily with something I am grateful for. Just for fun I compiled those updates into the list below. I missed one day, but I am giving myself a pass on that because I had started a couple days early in October. <BR> <BR> When I look at this list I know that I am a very fortunate person. Also, sometimes the small things make all the difference. <BR> <BR> <BR> 10/29 UNSWEETMAMA is grateful for SparkPeople. <BR> <BR> 10/30... Sat, 30 Nov 2013 22:22:25 EST The L in goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550702 I just need to pause for a minute and look at my ticker as it is now. I'm so close to my goal weight that the little scale icon is obscuring all but the L in the word goal. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/9/l193408987.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I stay so determined and focused on working my program and moving forward that I don't often take time to reflect on how far I've come. <BR> <BR> I see the L in goal. I'm getting there. Tue, 26 Nov 2013 11:53:44 EST Making peace with where I am right now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5550082 Trigger Alert: Folks who avoid thinking, talking or reading about candy or chocolate should not read this post. <BR> <BR> I have not been blogging much this month. Mostly because I couldn't bring myself to write about what has been happening with me mentally. Partly due to shame, and partly out of fear that I might trigger others on SparkPeople to give into weaknesses. <BR> <BR> But this is a real part of my journey and sharing it might help me embrace it. <BR> <BR> I survived Hallo... Mon, 25 Nov 2013 16:52:29 EST Wherein I illustrate how crazy I really am http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5539669 I have been hoarding candy since the day after Halloween. <BR> I'm not eating it much. But I keep buying it. <BR> <BR> I am still tracking religiously. I still stay in the lower half of my calorie range. Last week I was below my calorie range a few times. I didn't lose any weight. <BR> <BR> I've seen this before. When I get my calories too low, I don't lose. I may be overcorrecting this week though. Again, though, I have not gone over. Not even once. Not once this year. <BR> ... Tue, 12 Nov 2013 23:27:31 EST Need to let it go http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5536113 Worked myself into a shame spiral of negative thoughts this afternoon over something stupid: a food choice that I could have just as well done without, but the pouty three-year-old inside me thought was justified. <BR> <BR> Pouty in part because I didn't lose anything this week, even though I wasn't surprised that I didn't. <BR> <BR> I worked through it (mostly) during a two-mile walk and then fixed and ate a reasonable amount at dinner. <BR> <BR> I was amazed though at how judgment... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 21:06:43 EST