UK2003's SparkPeople Blog UK2003's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Oh, the drama... always, my life is complicated. <BR> <BR> Just got back from Europe, again. Not sure that I accomplished what I set out to do, again. Wondering how long I can continue to justify the expense without seeing a return. Maybe one more time? <BR> <BR> In other news, I lost 10 lbs in the 3 weeks I was gone. I guess walking 4+ hours/day helped with that. <BR> <BR> Motivation continues to be a problem. Or rather action based on motivation. <BR> <BR> I now have an amazing new wardrobe, ... Thu, 22 Sep 2011 16:36:47 EST December goals Ok, so November goals were a bit iffy. I think I need to start tracking my goals on a physical calendar again with stickers because that worked for me before. I think actually seeing something helps motivate me. This month, I want to focus on moving. <BR> <BR> <em>34</em> <em>319</em> <em>416</em> <BR> <BR> 1. Lose 5 lbs <BR> 2. Dance at least 3x/week <BR> 3. Work out each workday morning <BR> 4. Stay within my calorie range 6x/week <BR> 5. Cook at least 4x/week <BR> 6. Bring... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 11:33:20 EST November goals It's been about a year since I joined sparkpeople however I think I'm finally at a place where I can take things seriously. I'm done with school and settled into my job, with my own apartment and enough money to take eating right and excercising seriously. So I thought I'd set some goals for November. <BR> <BR> 1. Eat within my calorie range 6x/week <BR> 2. Excercise at least 2x/week <BR> 3. Start a dance class <BR> 4. Don't buy any junk food <BR> 5. Cook at least 4x/week <BR> 6. Spe... Mon, 1 Nov 2010 08:39:07 EST Another stolen blog... From Yoovie :) <BR> <BR> Put your music player on shuffle. <BR> Press forward for each question. <BR> Use the song title as the answer to the question. <BR> No cheating! <BR> <BR> <BR> How am I feeling today? <BR> Rockafeeler Skank - Fatboy Slim <BR> <BR> Will I get far in life? <BR> In a Dream - Rockell <BR> <BR> How do my friends see me? <BR> Stronger - Britney <BR> <BR> Where will I get married? <BR> I Love You - Sarah McLachlan <BR> <BR> What is my best friend's theme song?... Sun, 24 Oct 2010 16:50:05 EST And I'm back... So I've been gone a while mostly because I was focusing on finishing up my Business Project and my Thesis, both of which are now done!!! Well, I still need to defend my thesis next Tuesday but then it will finally be over. Kind of :) I still have one assignment and one exam this semester. Then I need to do an internship and pass my proficiency exam and then graduating. And oh yeah, I need to condense my thesis into less than 10 pages to get it ready for publication this summer. When wil... Fri, 4 Jun 2010 11:56:46 EST Another stolen blog quiz from YOOVIE 1. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? No closet but my dresser doors are shut <BR> <BR> 2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? yes because they meet the airline restrictions :) <BR> <BR> 3. Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? out <BR> <BR> 4. Have you ever stolen a street sign before? I've wanted to <BR> <BR> 5. Do you like to use post-it notes? OMG, I go to the post-it website when I'm stressed out or sad, LOVE does not even begin t... Tue, 11 May 2010 16:18:38 EST Stress Stress leads to fat, plenty of studies have proven this. <BR> <BR> I know this and I know I shouldn't be that hard on myself when I don't see the scale going down. At least it's not going up. And yes, I am stressed. Actually, stressed doesn't even begin to explain it. <BR> <BR> My thesis was due on Friday. Not that I actually turned it in. I've actually only recently started writing it. My advisor is cool with me turning it in sometime in May and if I focus and work hard, I should be ... Sun, 2 May 2010 18:08:34 EST Self motivation - internal dialogue Why should I stay within my calorie range today? Why should I track what I eat? Why should I go to aerobics? Why should I do some strength training? <BR> <BR> After all, I'm super stressed right now trying to finish my thesis. I shouldn't have to worry about what I eat and whether I excercise. <BR> <BR> But I should, because: <BR> -now that I'm showing my trackers, people can see what I do <em>223</em> <BR> -excercising actually makes me feel good and helps me write my thesis <em>149... Sun, 25 Apr 2010 05:28:10 EST Tracking So I've turned on the option to have others see my food and fitness tracker. This is in hopes that if other people are able to see what I'm eating and how I'm exercising, then maybe I'll be more accountable. At the very least, I'll feel bad about putting junk in my mouth <em>29</em> . <BR> <BR> Song: Lionel Richie's Hello covered by Glee Sun, 18 Apr 2010 16:29:48 EST My girl crush Ok, so this week, I am totally obsessed with Leighton Meester. For those of you that don't know her, she plays Blair Waldrof in Gossip Girl (yes, I judge myself for both watching and liking the show). <BR> <BR> I want to be her. I think she's absolutely georgeous and sexy and I would love to look like her. I like both her character in Gossip Girl and I like what I know of the actual actress. <BR> <BR> Current song: Closer by Kings of Leon <BR> Song of the week: Good Girls Go Bad by Co... Sun, 11 Apr 2010 15:56:18 EST Another stolen blog quiz... YOOVIE's again :) <BR> <BR> If you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be? <BR> THAILAND <BR> <BR> If you could have your dream job, it would be...what? <BR> Event planner for the rich and famous <BR> <BR> What would you like them to say about you after you're gone? <BR> Lived her life with no regrets and had a blast doing it <BR> <BR> What are 3 things you'd like to do before you die? <BR> Visit all 7 continents <BR> Rock a hot black bikini on a tropical beach with a hot... Sun, 11 Apr 2010 15:52:15 EST 4 inches So, I just ordered my bridesmaid dress. I hate that they size those things way up. My friend tried one on at the store so I could get a general feeling for how the sizes are since she can actually go to one of the stores in the U.S. and I'm stuck having to order it online. She's normally between a 4 and a 6 size in regular clothes. For this bridesmaid's dress, the size 10 fit her comfortably. Seriously, that's 2-3 sizes up. Since I'm normally a 10-12, ordering a size 16 dress is not mak... Mon, 5 Apr 2010 07:17:10 EST March Calendar As promised, here is my March motivational calendar full of awesome stickers. For those of you that don't remember, starting March 1, I created a calendar to keep track of my 4 goals that I would track each day for the month of March: stick within my calorie range, excercise for at least 30 minutes, drink 8 glasses of water, and no soda. For every day that I achieved at least 3/4 of the goals, I awarded myself a sticker. Here's how I did: <BR> <BR> 21 days of stickers - of which 17 days ... Wed, 31 Mar 2010 13:34:03 EST TV + Strenght Training So, I need to watch less tv online <em>17</em> and do more strenght training <em>34</em> . Since both of those things are not working out for me right now, I thought I'd combine them. Starting April 1st, I'm allowing myself 1 hour of watching tv shows online and any tv time after that, I have to do some sort of strenght training while I watch. That way, if I do watch tv, I'll at least be working out :) <BR> <BR> <em>319</em> Mon, 29 Mar 2010 13:57:14 EST 5,000 spark points :) At least it will be after posting this blog ;) <BR> <BR> In other news, after a pretty un-healthy week last week, this week is going awesomely. I even did Yoga last night so I got plenty of stretching in which is something I've been neglecting. <BR> <BR> And I'm working on my much neglected thesis. All in all, a good week! Thu, 18 Mar 2010 13:59:52 EST Since I like to steal other people's blog posts... ...from YOOVIE's blog since that's where I usually steal them from :) <BR> <BR> Where is your cell phone? <BR> desk <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> dreams <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> brown <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> ATL <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> ATL <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? <BR> Paris <BR> <BR> Your dream last night? <BR> CIA <BR> <BR> Favorite drink? <BR> Champagne <BR> <BR> What room are you in? <BR> bedroom <BR> <BR> Your hobby? <BR> travelling <BR> <BR> Your fear? <BR>... Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:18:13 EST Push-ups I did push-ups today, I was quite happy to see that I was able to do 20 push-ups in one minute but then realized that it wasn't that many, in fact, 20 is just average. Oh well, need to work on my upper arms :) Sun, 7 Mar 2010 14:00:58 EST Protein I need to eat more of it... it's surprisingly hard owing to the fact that I have super limited access to a kitchen. And nuts have a ton of fat/calories. And I hate beans. Sat, 6 Mar 2010 14:54:24 EST The ultimate reason that I'm doing this A few years ago, I created a lifelist - basically a list of things I wanted to do in my life. A lot of them are travel related because that's what my passion is. I thought I would share my list here because it would be a great reminder to me why I'm trying to lose weight and also as a way to share more about myself and my experiences. <BR> <BR> In no particular order: <BR> <BR> 1. Visit all 7 continents - 4/7 done (Europe, N. America, Africa, S. America) <BR> 2. Get a graduate degree -... Thu, 4 Mar 2010 11:47:36 EST Remember the name Music has always been a part of my life - I've been singing and dancing since I learned how to speak and walk. Therefore, it's no surprise that I find inspiration in music for everything I do (and those of you that have been reading along probably figured that out). <BR> <BR> One of my favorite new quotes is some lyrics from the Fort Minor song "Rember the Name." I think it's very appropriate to this weight loss journey cause it's defintely how it feels a lot of the time: <BR> <BR> "This ... Tue, 2 Mar 2010 09:59:25 EST I feel like a kid I just went out and bought a calendar and a bunch of stickers - yes, I'm making my own motivational calendar. For every day that I reach my daily goals, I will reward myself with a sticker for the day. The stickers are all smiley faces doing fun things. I will post a picture at the end of the month of this month's calendar and hopefully it will be covered with stickers. <BR> <BR> Goals for this month: <BR> *At least 1,000 fitness minutes <BR> *8 glasses of water each day <BR> *No soda <BR... Mon, 1 Mar 2010 14:23:33 EST stereolove Last night, I thought I had finally made a decision about what I wanted to do with my life. After I finished school, I was going to go back to DC and back to my old company (just in a different position). I miss DC and I miss my old life. And things here are not as wonderful as I thought they would be. <BR> <BR> Today, when I found out that P&G had rejected me (b/c I don't have a EU work visa and they don't want to bother getting me one), you would think it would have cemented my decision... Fri, 26 Feb 2010 11:05:58 EST More stolen quiz type things Stolen from YOOVIE's blog :) <BR> <BR> 1. What time did you get up this morning? Originally 6 but I snoozed until 8. <BR> <BR> 2. How do you like your steak? well done, no pink, no negotiating on this one! <BR> <BR> 3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Valentine's Day and yes, I saw it on Feb 14 <BR> <BR> 4. What is your favorite TV show? Currently it's Criminal Minds <BR> <BR> 5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Geneva or Barcelona <BR> <BR> 6. W... Wed, 24 Feb 2010 11:22:06 EST I don't know why I'm surprised but Spark actually works! I want to jump up and down like a little kid. I lost 20 lbs. And I didn't even notice. I haven't seen a scale since I was at home in December so while my pants were feeling looser, I didn't realize that I'd actually lost a lot of weight. 20 lbs, that's amazing. This makes me feel like it's possible to reach my goal weight. Spark has been the best thing that's happened to me. <BR> <BR> <em>321</em> Sat, 20 Feb 2010 11:35:34 EST Making to do lists Whenever I have a lot to do, I don't actually do it. I spend some time (ok, a lot of time) making a to-do list. I think getting organized sets me up for a better frame of mind and also calms me down. Whatever, maybe I just really like them. <BR> <BR> What does this have to do with weight loss? Well, that's kind of how I approached my weight loss goals - like I couldn't start until I was prepared - right clothes, right food, right time. And now I realize that I've spent all this time wai... Thu, 11 Feb 2010 14:12:48 EST Since everyone else is doing it... A is for Age: 24, almost 25 - eek <BR> <BR> B is for Butt: Totally hot in yoga pants <BR> <BR> C is for Career: Consulting... at least it was before I went back to school <BR> <BR> D is for Dad's name: Roman <BR> <BR> E is for Essential items to bring to a party: Vodka! <BR> <BR> F is for Favorite song or music: "This Love" by Cocteau Twins - this is "the" song <BR> <BR> G is for Goof off thing to do: Dance around in my underwear (alone of course) <BR> <BR> H is for Hometown: ... Thu, 4 Feb 2010 16:53:10 EST Starving!!! <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I am starving - like can't think about anything else starving. I've had my recommended number of calories today but then again, I only had about a third of the protein I should have had. <BR> <BR> And it's not as if I don't have any food - I do, except it's in the common room's fridge. And the common room is about the last place I want to go right now. All my new flat mates are there, talking (in french) and drinking (smoking) in there. And if I go in there, I'... Mon, 1 Feb 2010 16:23:56 EST Back... again So I'm back to Spark after about a break of about a month. Not that I've stopped eating right and exercising, it's more that I've stopped keeping track of it. Going back home for winter break was really nice and it hasn't been that I wanted to stop this weight-loss journey, more that I was taking a break from the internet. <BR> <BR> But, I'm back in school, this time in Brussels, Belgium and I thought it was about time to get back on Spark. I've missed it, especially the daily support I g... Mon, 1 Feb 2010 14:40:05 EST Back in the States... finally made it After a hellish 20 hour trip, I finally made it to ATL. It's nice to be back home for a while. <BR> <BR> And I cooked today, it was so yummy. Mmm, chicken stirfry with veggies and a fresh salad. Made me so happy. <BR> <BR> And I finally got a chance to weigh myself - yay, I actually did lose weight since starting Spark. Wed, 23 Dec 2009 13:36:04 EST Move Shake Drop If anyone's looking for a good song to workout to (especially dance workouts), I highly recommend the DJ Laz remix of Move Shake Drop - <BR> <BR> In other news, it SNOWED in Paris all of yesterday and now we have about 6 inches on the ground - it's so pretty. Especially at my school. We're in the middle of the woods so it looks like a winter wonderland. Fri, 18 Dec 2009 04:54:16 EST Goals and rewards I've finally set some rewards for hitting certain weight-loss goals. I'm hoping those will help motivate me more. As I keep reading here, those rewards will help me celebrate the little successes on the way to my ultimate goal! <BR> <BR> Along with that, one of my new goals is to blog 6x/week. I've found that if I do this, it keeps me more accountable. It may not always be about weight loss or excercising, but knowing that I'm going to write a blog forces me to think about what I do each... Sun, 13 Dec 2009 14:23:17 EST 8 hours of class... ...on Saturday. Now who thought that was a good idea? <BR> <BR> It's done and now I can finally finish writing that last paper :) 9 days till going home for Christmas - can't wait!!! <BR> <BR> Thanks everyone for your super kind advice on my previous blog. You don't know how much it means to me that there are people on Spark who take time and help out others, the support is incredible! Sat, 12 Dec 2009 12:34:20 EST I think I'm hitting a motivational slump I am mentally motivated but this week, it just seems so hard to excercize and watch what I eat. I know Spark is helping because I'm not binging like I normally do when I'm really stressed out but I'm still not eating as healthy as I should. I pick convenience over trying to find something healthy and I pick comfort (junk) food because it's easier. UGHH. When will finals be over? I want to feel in control again but it's just way too much effort. This would be so much easier if I wasn't ... Fri, 11 Dec 2009 12:56:29 EST Soiree... Today is the day for parties. We start off the night with my last French class and a French party in it - wine, cheese, grapes, baguettes, macarons. Yep, over my target today (but so far by only 20 calories). If that was the end of it, I'd be ok. <BR> <BR> However, in about an hour, we have a 3 person birthday celebration because 3 of our friends had birthdays this week. This means... MORE ALCOHOL. <BR> <BR> And to top it off, we have the official Party of the Month. Can we all say thi... Thu, 10 Dec 2009 15:15:22 EST 1 down, 3 to go They say that eating can be an emotional response. I'm actually not really an emotional eater. Well, if you define emotional eating with eating if you feel sad, angry, etc. I used to eat when I was bored - I used to do a lot of things when I was bored. A lot of people make bad decisions due to alcohol, peer pressure, all sorts of things - me, it was boredom, I have a super low tolerance for it. <BR> <BR> However, that's one behaviour I did actually change before I even got to spark (the ... Tue, 8 Dec 2009 15:10:00 EST Snap, crackle, what?! My pistachios are making crackling sounds. Now if this was my cereal and I had just poured in some cold milk, it would be ok. But the pistachios kind of scare me. <BR> <BR> But more to the point, Christmas is coming up soon <em>446</em> . And that means presents for me <em>407</em> . Yay, I love presents. But to be good this year and so that I can blog about it on Spark, of the two presents I asked for this year, one was excercise related. Whoo-hoo. <BR> <BR> Speaking of excercise, ... Mon, 7 Dec 2009 14:00:16 EST The real reason junk food is bad for you I just had a real strong craving for a KitKat. I'd been really good with my lunch choices so I figured that a KitKat would be ok. I went to the main school building - it has vending machines and is the only place I could get a KitKat. <BR> <BR> I was a bit concerned because the main building is usually locked on Sundays, but the main door was open so I walked in excitedly, already tasting the crunchy chocolate. I put my card into the machine and I got an error; turns out, I'd accidentally... Sun, 6 Dec 2009 11:12:39 EST Decluttering my life Since I have about 2 weeks left here, I've decided to go through my things and decide what to keep, what to throw away, what to store for next semester. But while doing this, I'm also going to declutter my life - i.e. keep things that make me feel good about myself and my life and get rid of things that don't. For example, gone are the clothes that don't make me look good. <BR> <BR> Reading through various articles and blog posts here on Spark, I've found that I need to surround myself wit... Sat, 5 Dec 2009 15:44:31 EST 3 In honor of my new favorite workout song (3 by Britney Spears), here are 3 thoughts on why I decided to finally lose weight, once and for all: <BR> <BR> 1) Little black bikini - I bought it, now I want to wear it and look amazing in it <BR> <BR> 2) Maid of Honor - I don't want to look like the fat maid of honor, especially in front of all of my friends <BR> <BR> 3) Old crush - yep, I will be seeing my old crush this summer and I haven't seen him in 2 years; I don't actually want him, bu... Thu, 3 Dec 2009 17:05:58 EST Eclairs, or 2.5 weeks till going home This whole college living thing is really starting to get on my nerves. I think mainly it's going to grad school after being in the real world for 2 years. I mean actually having a job, making money (I miss money), a real apartment (with a kitchen!), and oh yeah, no loud college parties on my floor while I'm trying to sleep/study. <BR> <BR> I can hardly remember what it feels like to cook or actually to eat normal food that's not crappy cafeteria stuff (see kangaroo entry). I miss grocery... Wed, 2 Dec 2009 14:20:48 EST Mmm, yummy kangaroo So, as a preface and because of much needed background info for this story, I go to business school in France. My campus is about an hour outside of Paris in a tiny little village. Our food options consist of a school cafeteria which rarely has salad or edible food, a take-out type place on campus (pizza, sandwiches, junk food pretty much), and a supermarket. However, our dorms don't have refrigerators or any cooking things (oven, microwave, etc.) so cooking for yourself is not an option. ... Tue, 1 Dec 2009 15:11:25 EST Strenght training kicked my ass tonight... ...and I liked it. It feels so good to have my muscles stretched out and burning and I can actually feel the endorphins flowing :) And it's not just the excercise, it's food as well. <BR> <BR> I went out to a restaurant with a friend for lunch today. A place that's known for their pizzas <em>483</em> . And I was having a really hard time choosing between a pizza and a salad. To start off with, I immediately went to the thin crust, lots of veggies pizza so even with a pizza, I was al... Mon, 30 Nov 2009 11:54:53 EST Does fruit count? Ok, so it's halfway through the day and I've almost maxed out my calories. But not on junk food and stuff but on bananas. I had 4 bananas today - apparently the equivalent of 450 calories - that's like a meal. Sure, filling and delicious but should that really count towards the amount of food I'm allowed to eat? <BR> <BR> Realistically, of course I know that fruit and veggies count and that they should actually account for about half of the food that I eat each day. And that's probably h... Sun, 29 Nov 2009 09:45:45 EST Support Well, I can definitely tell a difference between my previous weight loss attempts and this one. Here, I've found a support system. From day one, there's been this sense of community that makes me want to accomplish my goals and share them with people. Thank you everyone who has reached out and shared me with your good wishes - I appreciate it a lot! <BR> <BR> I think that really tracking the food I eat makes me realize all the mindless eating I do. <BR> <BR> For example: Today, I got ... Sat, 28 Nov 2009 14:35:20 EST I've been meaning to do this... ...but I guess I just haven't gotten around to it. At least that's what I keep telling myself. I've been trying to start losing weight for a while now; the problem is, everytime I start, I just stop. For a variety of reasons. But no more. <BR> <BR> My mother has also been trying to lose weight, but unlike me, she's actually been successful. She weighs less than me and that is seriously embarassing. Granted, she has way more time than me. Right now, I'm in business school in Europe, tr... Fri, 27 Nov 2009 17:45:14 EST