TSOWELLS07's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TSOWELLS07 TSOWELLS07's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ M.I.A. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5390290 I've been M.I.A. for an extended period of time. I check the site every now and again, but I have not blogged a word or visited the message boards. I have no other excuse but that I am embarrassed by the fact that I worked hard for 2 years to lose 50 plus pounds to put it right back on. I was 30 pounds smaller this time last year. I thought I found the connection as to why I was fat and what was holding me back from losing weight. I guess not. I need to reevaluate some things and get back on... Sat, 15 Jun 2013 21:09:14 EST October 2012 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5088521 Thanks John (Music_Junkie) and Canice for this idea. <BR> <BR> Here's my list of October 2012 Goals! <BR> <BR> Wellness Goals: <BR> <BR> 1. Take my vitamins <BR> <BR> 2. Lose 5 pounds this month <BR> <BR> Food Goals: <BR> <BR> 1. Plan and prep my meals, twice a week. <BR> <BR> 2. Stay within my calories, 1200- 1500.. Cycling high and low carb days. <BR> <BR> 3. Drink 80- 110 ounces of water a day <BR> <BR> Fitness Goals: <BR> <BR> 1. Cardio 4x's a week, burning a minimum of 40... Sat, 6 Oct 2012 00:01:29 EST Fit2fat2fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080060 I read the Fit2Fat2Fit book. It was a pretty good read. He also has a very informative website & YouTube videos. Sun, 30 Sep 2012 00:07:59 EST Time to Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5074859 Its been a couple of days since I've blogged. I have to say I have been working out everyday, but not tracking my food. It's always one or the other. I'm going to get this right because I plan to be down 2 pounds this week. <BR> <BR> I'm proud of myself for my 6:30am workouts. I'm even doubling it up on some days. We will see. <em>386</em> <BR> <BR> Oh... Did I tell you... I attempted 2 of the P90X video's... Omg they are really challenging. There's no way one cannot lose weight followi... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 19:37:21 EST 9 Questions about myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067793 1. How much weight do you want to lose? 72 pounds <BR> 2. When do you want to lose it by? July 1 2013 <BR> 3. What are 3 of your interests? Reading <em>149</em> , Browsing internet, dancing <em>352</em> <BR> 4. What are 3 things you have a hard time with? Chocolate, Chips and binge eating when stressed/bored <BR> 5. Do you have a workout buddy? No <BR> 6. Do you have a gym membership? Yes <BR> 7. What are some of your health issues if you have any? Diagnosed with hypothyroidism <BR> 8. W... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 12:02:43 EST 5% Fall 2012 Challenge (Pre-Challenges #1-3) Preparation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067650 In a few weeks I will take part in a 5% Challenge. I have several assignments I have to complete before the challenge begins. #1 The first assignment is to answer the following questions: <BR> <BR> Have you got your gym clothes, runners, water bottle, etc. ready to go? Yes, everything is ready to go. <BR> <BR> What is your exercise plan? My plan is to go to the gym every morning, except for Friday and Sunday. I will work out a minimum of 30 minutes each day. <BR> <BR> Do you know what die... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 10:41:01 EST Happy Birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5064834 To me. <BR> <em>383</em> <BR> <BR> I'm praying that this time next year I have a better outlook on life, health and happiness. I pray that I will not be in the same mental state as I am today. I pray that I am on track to a healthy lifestyle. I pray that I have surpassed several of the goals listed on my spark page. <BR> <BR> Goal: Take up running (To complete two 5k's this year (2012)) <BR> <BR> Goal: Fit into a comfortable size 14 (Currently wear size 16/18) <BR> <BR> Goal: Fit into ... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 11:58:47 EST Sparker TanyaP71 30 Day blog Challenge 1-20 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063814 I'm following the 30 day blog challenge created by TanyaP71. I'm having to play catch up, so decided to answer #1-20 in one blog. <BR> <BR> 1: Your stats. Starting stats, current stats, goal stats. Are you currently trying to lose weight, gain weight, or maintain weight or something else? Do you have a goal for the month of September?  <BR> <BR> My current weight is 217. I am 5'8" and pear shaped. My goal is to lose a total of 76 pounds. For the month of September I initially wanted to lose... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 19:57:58 EST Why I am still overweight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5059549 I sat down the other day and skimmed through all my journals since 2001. Every other day, I talked about my weight and the disappointment or excitement. Wow. <BR> <BR> I have come to a conclusion as to why I have not kept the weight off when lost or losing consistently now. <BR> <BR> 1. I dont get enough sleep <BR> 2. I eat too much of the healthy foods <BR> 3. I starve myself when left with unhealthy options to eat <BR> 4. All or Nothing attitude <BR> 5. I dont eat enough veggies <BR> 6. I... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 19:32:16 EST Disappointment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5059499 I am trying to wrap my mind around another week of no loss. That means I am not accurately counting my calories. I have to do a better job. <BR> <BR> I hope to lose 2 pounds next week. <em>306</em> Fri, 14 Sep 2012 18:42:46 EST No Loss, but Gain http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4950834 You know something, I am one of those people they call "know it all's". Yes I can admit that. If I don't have the answer I will research for hours until found. Well today, I realized that I have been losing more than gaining. When I say losing, i mean friends, co-workers, family and so on. <BR> <BR> In church, I broke down because even if I am a know it all, I never commit myself to anything. So truly I am not a "know it all". I don't know enough to trust and believe in the Bible, which I ... Sun, 1 Jul 2012 19:58:01 EST 10% http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4935259 I'm going to write something really quick. I normally blog on Sunday's, but was a little busy on Father's Day. Anywho, I started the Turbo Fire DVD's, but did not workout with them everyday. Its easier for me to workout outside my home, but I love the DVD's. <BR> <BR> I believe I have been giving 90% this week. I have to find something to curve my sugar cravings. ITS RIDICULOUS. I do so well during the day, but when I get home, its like I am attacking my pantry. I try to opt for greek yogur... Wed, 20 Jun 2012 20:08:16 EST Here We Go. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4920856 So I normally spend Sunday browsing SparkPages to check in on others and celebrate with them. I read a few who talked about doctor appointments. Well I visited my endocrinologist last Thursday, tweaked my meds and added a little fire under my butt. <BR> <BR> I'm ready to give 90%. I didn't say 100% because I have to be realistic. This 90% can be meal prepping, illiminateing soda's or other. I can't make all changes at once. I know me. So I made my meals (lunch, breakfast) for the week. This ... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 23:19:55 EST My Oh My. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4915444 My oh my.... i have been really focusing on change, mentally and emotionally. If feels great to know i am in control. I know I have been told this many times over, but to actually believe it, is different. <BR> <BR> Who said losing weight was easy? Did I ever tell anyone that? Well yea, I must admit.... <BR> <BR> Mindlessly gaining the weight back, minus 20 pounds and having to refocus is quiet hard. What in the world made me think losing weight was easy. <BR> <BR> Bottom line......I'm d... Wed, 6 Jun 2012 21:50:55 EST Emotional Roller Coaster http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4862146 Its been a while since I've blogged. I have to say...the last two months have been really rough for me. I lost my mother-in-law and two friends, one killed last night, the other two in March. I feel like I am on an emotional roller coaster, but I know God IS able. <BR> <BR> I felt so powerful and full of energy, as getting back to my old self, and then an awful phone call at 6:00 this morning. Wow. <BR> <BR> Please keep me and my family lifted as we go through these rough times. I will try... Tue, 1 May 2012 22:35:46 EST 02/22/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4752295 Okay so I feel myself kicking in gear. It feels great. I actually worked out. I workeed out within my heart rate range to burn calories. I felt different parts of my body squeaking and breaking down, but I kept going. <BR> <BR> <em>198</em> Wed, 22 Feb 2012 22:40:00 EST 2/21/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4750494 Morning started off great, with a shake and almonds. I lost track of time and realized I wasn't hungry until 2:30 that afternoon. Mind you I last ate at 7:45am. I can say that the shakes work, but boy oh boy was I hungry. My body was craving carbs. Needless to say I didn't want the healthy food I brought for lunch. I opted for the bad. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I will keep track of the time and try not to get so caught up in work that I forget to eat. I skipped dinner tonight because my afternoon ... Tue, 21 Feb 2012 23:32:25 EST 2/20/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4748033 It's early in the day. But I am confident and feeling good. I am being open and honest with friends and coworker's about my struggle, changes and planned goals. Been conscious of what I am eating. Thinking about where I was last year. Building that confidence back. Regardless, I know that change is what you make it. Mon, 20 Feb 2012 15:58:40 EST Lately http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4746613 I normally don't blog, but was convinced by a fellow Sparker that it can be addl motivation. well here is an update, since 2009 (my last blog) <BR> <BR> I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism February 2010. With the direction of my physician, the weight started coming off. With this condition, one has to stay on top of their levels and so forth. Needless to say, I am 15 pounds away from my starting weight, gaining 35 pounds in 10 months. They are coming quick. I'm frustrated, mentally drained ... Sun, 19 Feb 2012 19:54:19 EST Wk7 07/13/09- 07/19/09 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2229339 OK I think a lot has calmed down by now, with medical concerns, stress, mild depression and so forth. I'm ready to get back with it. My goals are still the same. Just wanting to track day to day for myself. Accountability. <BR> <BR> Monday: The day went okay. I am incorporating a lot more fruit and veggies in my diet (as i should). So I basically ate clean the morning and afternoon. Well my cravings hit around hmmmm 4 o'clock. I can admit I was really hungry. But mind over matter. I feel in... Tue, 14 Jul 2009 20:29:19 EST Work Out May 2009 Wk6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2050994 I would normally plan my workouts for the week. I will place the plan below, but unsure if I will stick to it. I will follow-up on the results/status next Sunday. <BR> <BR> Fitness Plan (WK of 05/11/2009)......................STATUS <BR> Monday: Cardio (30 min) <BR> Tuesday: Cardio (60 min) <BR> Wednesday: Spinning (1 hr), Weight Training (30min) <BR> Thursday: Cardio (60 min), Weight Training (30min) <BR> Friday: Cardio (60 min) <BR> Saturday: Elliptical (45min), Bike (15 min), Weight Train... Sun, 10 May 2009 22:37:57 EST Prayer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2050983 Okay. So another week has passed. The good part.. I did the best I could according to my preplanned workout. The bad.. I have an unknown medical diagnosis. <BR> <BR> I received a call from my doctor this past week (Wednesday), stressing great concerns about me. Okay so that places me in panic mode. Im trying to think, nervous and anxious all at the same time. I scheduled an emergency visit with him b/c i felt i had to work out twice or three times as hard to lose one pound, he now understand... Sun, 10 May 2009 22:35:32 EST Pattern http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2032952 I'm noticing a pattern about myself. When it comes to my third or fourth day of workout I let everything else take presedence. I'm glad i'm bloggin my weekly workouts, its really helping me. <BR> <BR> I want to focus and put myself first, so I need to do that. I understand feeling faint scared me, but instead of quiting for those few days, I should have returned to the gym the next day and took it very,very slow. Little is better than none. <BR> <BR> So tonight i will be hitting the pavemen... Mon, 4 May 2009 18:41:29 EST Work Out May 2009 Wk5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2032942 Fitness Plan (WK of 05/03/2009)......................STATUS <BR> Monday: Cardio (30 min).................................Compl<BR>ete <BR> Tuesday: Cardio (1 hour).....................................<BR>.Skipped. Worked late <BR> Wednesday: Spinning (1 hr), Weight Training (30min)..........Completed Cardio only <BR> Thursday: Cardio (60 min), Weight Training (30min)..............Completed <BR> Friday: Cardio (60 min)..............Skipped <BR> Saturday: Elliptical (45min), Bike (15 min), We... Mon, 4 May 2009 18:37:13 EST Boot Camp April 2009 Wk4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2008939 Fitness Plan (WK of 04/27/2009)......................STATUS <BR> Monday: Boot Camp (1 hour)..................Accomplished... <BR> Tuesday: Cardio (60 min) ...............30 min in started feeling sick <BR> Wednesday: Spinning (1 hr), Weight Training (30min)...................No Workout <BR> Thursday: Cardio (60 min), Weight Training (30min)......................No Workout <BR> Friday: Cardio (60 min)......................................<BR>................................No Workout <BR> Sat... Sun, 26 Apr 2009 23:53:01 EST Boot Camp April 2009 Wk3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1987659 Fitness Plan (WK of 04/20/2009)..................Actual <BR> Monday: Boot Camp (1 hour)............................Complete <BR> Tuesday: Cardio (60 min)..............................Complete <BR> Wednesday: Boot Camp(1 hr), Weight Training (30min)........Working overtime hours.. worked late. <BR> Thursday: Cardio (60 min), Weight Training (1hour)...Working overtime hours.. worked late........... <BR> Friday: Bootcamp (PM) Working overtime hours.. worked late. <BR> Saturday: Elliptical (45min... Sun, 19 Apr 2009 22:43:43 EST Goals Mid April-End May http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1987618 ~~GOALS Mid April- End May~~~~ <BR> <BR> 1. Cardio 6 days a week for 60 minutes. Elliptical, bike, treadmill, treadclimber. <BR> <BR> 2. Strength train @ least 3 days per week. <BR> <BR> 3. Track ALL food intake! Stay within my calorie range and EAT NOTHING that is not in my healthy life style. <BR> <BR> 4. Eat minimum of 4 fruits a day. <BR> <BR> 5. 50 Crunches, 50 Squats and 25 pushups daily. <BR> <BR> 6. Try a different Class @ gym per week. <BR> <BR> 7. Lose a total of 5 pounds... Sun, 19 Apr 2009 22:27:34 EST 04/17/2009 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1984374 I've had a good couple of weeks. Started a boot camp, which is kicking my butt. I feel the inches coming off, feels lovely. On the contrary my husband bought a large box of Little Debbie Fudge Round cake, a whopping 300 calories a cake. I am at my wits and want to throw the box out. Not sure if it was a sabotage or what. <BR> <BR> I posted my measurements and weight a couple of days ago. I didn't realize I had gained weight until one of my clients brought it to my attention. My clothes were ... Sat, 18 Apr 2009 17:05:46 EST 218..36..41..52 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1977055 Those are my measurements and weight (according to Wii Fit). Really disgusted. <BR> <BR> I started on Alli in January. Doctor advised that I lose weight quicker. She know I have a hard time. We have been discussing my weight issues for over two years now. Well anyway, I started the pills for two months and stopped. <BR> <BR> I thought about the after affects when I stop taking them in the future..WEIGHTGAIN.......So I wasn't surprised that I gained weight, but I am disappointed. There are ... Wed, 15 Apr 2009 23:40:37 EST Boot Camp April 2009 Wk2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1973098 Fitness Plan (WK of 04/13/2009)......UPDATED on 04/19/08 <BR> Monday: Boot Camp (1 hour)....................... COMPLETE!! <BR> Tuesday: Cardio (45 min)............................ COMPLETE!! <BR> Wednesday: Boot Camp(1 hr), Weight Training (30min)...........Completed Boot Camp, no time for weight training. <BR> Thursday: Cardio (30 min), Weight Training (1hour)...................COMPLETE!! <BR> Friday: Bootcamp (PM)................................. COMPLETE! <BR> Saturday: Elliptical (45min... Tue, 14 Apr 2009 19:57:48 EST Boot camp April 2009 Wk1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1926457 Fitness Plan (wk of 04/06/2009).................Week Progress <BR> Monday: Spinning (AM) .................. No Spinning Class had a rough weekend <BR> Tuesday: Cardio (45 min)........................Completed <BR> Wednesday: Elliptical (30 min), Weight Training (1hour)............Completed <BR> Thursday: Cardio (30 min), Weight Training (1hour)..............40 Min Cardio only <BR> Friday: Spinning (AM) Boot camp (PM)......Cardio 40 min, Boot camp cancelled <BR> Saturday: Elliptical (45min), W... Mon, 30 Mar 2009 13:24:27 EST 03/29/2009 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1924072 Worked out less than 3 day's this past week, a little disappointed. My sister and I starting paying on our long awaited trip to Turks. She has lost 118 lbs so far. So proud of her. I think she's smaller than me now. Anyway, I have to get with it. I'm doing this for myself, and my trip. :) <BR> <BR> I would hate to feel like the fat girl. Besides I want to have fun and not be self conscious. I'm ready this time around. Scary being overweight knowing that your only getting older. I can imagine... Sun, 29 Mar 2009 19:55:24 EST 03/20/2009 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1898547 Today was an okay day. The girls and I spent the majority of the day cleaning house, and the evening outdoors skating and playing at the park. Didn't go to the gym today, was exhausted. Plan on going tomorrow morning, spending an hour and thirty minutes on myself. <BR> <BR> Really looked at myself in the mirror today. Noticed an increase around my middle section. Thank goodness I can still wear shorts from last year. Thats a plus. <BR> <BR> Would love to be discipline enough to start body b... Fri, 20 Mar 2009 23:03:43 EST Again. What is it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1888726 So I went to the gym today and worked out hard. My clothes were wet. Yeah it sounds gross, but I pushed myself. <BR> <BR> Anyway. Left the gym, went to the store, picked up a bag of chips Ruffles Cheddar and Sour cream, ATE THE WHOLE BAG. <BR> <BR> I have to continue to ask myself what is it. What do I not get? Why do I keep sabotaging myself. I hope to find out why I want to stay fat. Until I know, I dont think my weight will come off. <BR> <BR> Well lets not say that. It will come off, ... Tue, 17 Mar 2009 19:39:27 EST What is it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1435180 You know something. I feel myself sabotaging my weight loss again. Every time I get compliments I start putting weight back on. I feel afraid to get below 200. What is it? <BR> <BR> I have to refocus. I have to continue to plan my meals. I have to believe in me and my abilities. I cannot be afraid. I have God on my side. I will be able to conquer. I am a magnificent human being. I am not my body, but my soul. <BR> <BR> Sorry about the rant. I have to tell myself those things sometime. Mon, 1 Sep 2008 20:40:10 EST Finally appreciating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1420528 I have been receiving compliments and now I finally appreciate them. <BR> Before I would always down play my weight loss journey and not know how to accept it. I now tell myself that I am worth the compliments and to say thank you to those that notice. I never realize that although I may not feel like I am not working hard enough or showing progress, but others notice. Real supporters will say "Hey whatever it is your doing, keep it up". <BR> <BR> That feels good. Sun, 24 Aug 2008 23:33:31 EST A new day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1265014 Okay. so have have started planning my meals for snacks, lunch and breakfast. For the last few days I have been extremely hungry around 3:00, so I decided that I would add more carbs to make me feel more fuller. Tomorrow I will implement this. I would hate to start binging when I walk in the house after work. I'm looking forward to many days to come. Now I have to get off my butt (or should I say make time for myself) and go to the gym. <BR> One step at a time. One change at a time. <BR> <BR... Wed, 11 Jun 2008 23:36:39 EST Where do I start. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=1257917 I can say that I have been stuck. Stuck in not knowing who I am, where I need to be and my focus on health and weight loss. I have tried many, many, diets and pills. I have come to realize that my body is stubborn and most likely will not lose more than 1 pound a week. But how does one stay motivated with just a pound. I have not given up on the unknown, I have been Sparking since April 2007 or 2006. I have many, many magazines and diet books. Right now I'm reading The Zone. I know my body is... Sun, 8 Jun 2008 21:44:06 EST