TRIBULUM's SparkPeople Blog TRIBULUM's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Clearly the last blog was a lie! I started exercising again and then I stopped in May due to exhaustion and sickness but here I am again. I'm going on vacation in September and I am NOT ready. <BR> <BR> Whoops. Mon, 8 Jul 2013 21:21:58 EST Exercising Again The holidays hit hard and knocked me on my gigantic butt and I stopped exercising. I haven't really gained any back but I lost a bit of the tone I had going on. Trying this again! I'm writing a whole bunch these days, I can pound out a six page chapter in a night without really trying. I hope to add drawing in tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I had ice cream tonight and honestly instead of making me hyper and happy I just feel tired and like my stomach is fully of sugary lead. :P I got much more s... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 23:13:34 EST I'm awesome. So, in the big bad life of me, I've moved and started working out. I've not really been tracking myself on Sparkpeople but I am doing about two hours a day of exercise. One of those hours is cardio via the elliptical and the other hour is usually something with stretching or hula hooping or doing a bellydance video and now with some yoga. <BR> <BR> Life is going on and I can see and feel my body changing as I go. I've been really awesome about this whole thing and I feel so much better. ... Mon, 15 Oct 2012 12:43:41 EST Big Changes Ahead We finally moved! <BR> <BR> I have a short goal that I feel I can meet if I push myself. Well, actually, I have an assortment of goals. <BR> <BR> Goal One: Exercise every day in September. <BR> <BR> Goal Two: Exercise every day in October. <BR> <BR> Goal Three/Ultimate short-term goal: Size 18 by Halloween/End of October. I am currently a size 24ish. <BR> <BR> I am certain I can do this. Two hours of work out every day except Sunday which is cool down day with yoga! <BR> <BR> Hello ... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 15:35:08 EST Miserable I'm angry all the time and I've not been working out. <BR> I don't know what to do really. <BR> I say I do but I really don't. <BR> <BR> Everyone hurts my feelings and I feel like I'm invisible. I feel like complaining makes me some sort of whiny loser but I don't know what to do... <BR> <BR> How can things be getting better when I still feel miserable all the time? Mon, 16 Jul 2012 02:15:42 EST I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I had all these dreams and wishes and wants... but right now? <BR> <BR> I don't know what I want anymore. <BR> <BR> Will losing weight really help with my dysphoria or will it be worse? I've never weighed a 'normal' weight, not since I was like 8 years old. <BR> <BR> I have no idea what I look under all these fat. <BR> <BR> What if I still hate me? What if being 'normal' leaves me with even more pronounced breasts and hips? I have hoped that losing weight will make my breasts and hips... Sat, 9 Jun 2012 16:32:21 EST Life Changing Events Since November I've felt my life change. On the first I learned my younger cousin had breast cancer. She is currently attending Chemo. On the 16th I learned my Mamaw has cancer once again and surgery while possible wasn't something she wanted. Mostly because they couldn't get all the cancer, I suppose. We haven't really talked about it. <BR> <BR> Christmas and Yule and New Years came with me sicker than a dog after a trip 'home'. <BR> <BR> January was a quiet month for me, a lull bef... Tue, 14 Feb 2012 15:38:02 EST New Goals. I've changed my goal weight. Instead of 150, I'm aiming for 130 for fashion purposes. Silly I know, but I want to be FIERCE. I want to pull off those leathers pants, I want to pull off whatever fashion choice I make and I know that at 130 I will still be as solid as I want to be. I might change my mind of course, going up to 140, depending on how I look. <BR> <BR> Here we go. All new year. All new awesome. Wed, 1 Feb 2012 14:20:36 EST My Most Important Weight Goals and Rewards. As I'm writing this, I'm currently 260 lbs. I'm 5'1", just to say. <BR> <BR> So. Let's name some goals to get me motivated. <BR> <BR> 200 Lbs is my Current Goal, my reward besides better health is going to be a Binder (or two). The real goal is to be able to Pass again. <BR> <BR> 150lbs is my Long Term Dream Goal. I want to be solid. At 150, I want a whole new wardrobe, from top to bottom and to get fitted for a Suit. <BR> <BR> I of course have smaller goals in between, but those... Tue, 5 Jul 2011 16:42:37 EST Can Do. I lost my initial Five Pounds in April. For the month of May I stayed stable at my current weight but lost an inch of my stomach, my thighs, and my hips! Which is pretty amazing for me. <BR> I'm getting closer. One day at a time. Wed, 1 Jun 2011 10:30:10 EST Ready! Here it is Monday and I'm finally feeling better! Considering how much sleep I had this weekend it was about time I started feeling like a person! <BR> On the Menu of things to do today we have the basic cleaning stuff, I already did my cardio and of course my ten minutes of Hooping and 3 songs on Just Dance. I'd like to throw something else in there, I could try to add in bellydance but I'm not sure how into bellydance I am anymore. Bellydance seems... girly and I'm trying to get away fro... Mon, 16 May 2011 15:37:32 EST The Second Day is Often the Hardest Another Day. More Challenges. <BR> I spent today cleaning and walking, managed to comlete all my goals, walking and my 10+ minutes of hooping plus my three songs on Just Dance. As well as stretching of course. I already feel more loose and today in my Just Dance I actually shook my bum like I was *really* dancing. Or something. As close as I come to dancing anyway. <BR> <BR> I hooped to 'Uncharted' by Sara Bareilles and it was gloriously fun, I even managed to keep the hoop up for longe... Wed, 11 May 2011 18:33:42 EST The Start This is my first blog entry here. I'm currently cleaning out my closets, trying to lose the parts of my life that I don't want anymore while I'm losing weight. I'm looking for a complete life overhaul. I'm going to do it. Tue, 10 May 2011 18:01:00 EST