TREYSONG's SparkPeople Blog TREYSONG's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community LIFE CAN BE OVER WHELMING OVER WHELMING, Just trying to get a grip. My mother is very sick. Life goes on. I thought i was okay. but my chest feels a little heavy. Then my son was deployed to Afghanistan. I thinking i am keeping it together. I just need to talk. But you cant talk to everyone. I find my family is dealing with the same. So, I try to be strong and carry on. Mon, 24 Jun 2013 03:26:18 EST Hello I am back I have taken a little time off. Needed a mental break. I feel recharged. So I have to get back to business. You know we have a tendency to stop reacting to things that give up pleasure. I don't understand it but it is a part of my life .. So I am back . Fri, 22 Mar 2013 13:55:04 EST Good Morning Today is3/16/2013. I am working overtime and it is 0025 hrs. I will be getting off at 0300hrs. I have to be back at work at 0800 hrs. I am trying to stay awake . I am a little upset with myself because i have fallen off the wagon with my eating habits. The stress of my mothers health ways heavy on me. You see i am a 911 operator. I save life's and I hear death over the phone as well. Trying to keep it together is difficult at times. I am trying to stay health but found myself in the er. I hav... Sat, 16 Mar 2013 00:31:25 EST Touching Base I have to get on top of things. You see my mother is in hospice , i went to visit her last week. I am trying to keep it together. It is hard when you have never experienced the death of a parent. You know thing like this is suppose to happen. I guess what i am trying to say. i have to except this. My mind is every where. I know i need to take care of myself so that i can help others. Just not coming together at this time. keep me in pray <em>390</em> Sat, 9 Mar 2013 13:57:03 EST Relax, Relief Taking a different approach today. I plan to relax distress from a long day at work. I want to take a nice hot shower and listen to some old school music. <em>211</em> Thu, 28 Feb 2013 14:24:22 EST Trying to get a Grip My mother was diagnosed with cancer five years ago. She is now in hospice at her home. My family and i have been flying home to help my father. It is very draining trying to stay focus and positive. We don't talk about death with just try to enjoy the time we have left with my mother and attempting to comfort my father. I am holding on with all my heart, I am having problems sleeping and staying focused. I find myself stressed out. <em>128</em> will tell. Wed, 27 Feb 2013 09:18:22 EST Movie Night I had a relaxing evening last night. I cooked dinner and watch a movie with my husband. I really bought the movie for myself. I really wanted to watch Hopes Springs. Little did i know he would actually watch the movie. The movie made us think about our own relationship. We were able to talk about things that were going on with us. Most of the time we are in the <BR> our own worlds. That was nice. And thanks for the hugs and encouragement. <em>224</em> Sat, 16 Feb 2013 08:04:05 EST Temptation I found out that my mother is in the hospital and her cancer has spread. She is know in hospice. I plan to fly home and visit with her for a few days. She is in good spirits. I am trying to keep up . But I am falling short with my eating habits. I have been walking. But I find myself angry with my husband. He is is aggravating me! Really he is just being himself but I feel I don t have time. I have prayed and read scriptures to help me. On how to respond to people that i care for. Work is no... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 10:24:47 EST Family Well, I made it to alamba and back. It was great times. <em>334</em> Fri, 15 Feb 2013 10:16:25 EST Vacation i made to Alabama to spend time with my son and his family. This is great to relax. I still got up and went for a walk for one and half miles. It feels good to spend time in another state and enjoy the view. Just a little time out. Always attempting to stay on track. Love the moments, <em>311</em> <em>250</em> Fri, 8 Feb 2013 14:14:45 EST Keeping up Yesterday I walked for two mile in the morning. Then afterward i did the bolly video, I only lasted fourteen minutes. I figure i will master the 10- 20 mins video first. I notice when i buy video i don'f find much interest after I purchase them. I think i have a short attention span when I am out of breath and trying to keep of with the video. I plan to go work out today, after i get off work. I made sure to wear work out pants to works . This way i do not have an excuse. I do have thoughts ... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 13:00:02 EST Starting Fresh I plan to go for a walk after a <em>334</em> good breakfast. I want to attempt to stay on track throughout the day. I am on my way. Tue, 5 Feb 2013 09:05:42 EST Focus on the day at hand My morning started off great with a small breakfast. I track my food but the last two days have been rough. But the food was good. I trying to change old habits but the they continue to sneak back into my life. I just have to keep my guard up. I am not upset with myself. I just have to be more aware even when I am having fun. <em>198</em> Mon, 4 Feb 2013 19:15:39 EST Twenty six years later Today is a great day. My second child turned twenty six making her a young adult. I am happy she has made it this far she was a premature 1lbs 8oz. When a friend asked what time was she born I could only remember the trauma. I can say she turned out to be a great, out going young lady. Know don't get me wrong out of my three children she tried my nerves more than any of them. Just going down Memory Lane. <em>30</em> I hope to stay on track because I am preparing a great meal for the... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 09:55:29 EST Today's events Well, today is my first day writing in the blog. I never typed anything because i was nervous. I thought, who would want to read what i wrote. So, here goes. My day started off pretty good. I went to work at 6:30 am. I took overtime for a couple of hours and my husband is not to happy. i feel a little guilty. Dinner will be late and he is baby sitting. Oh well, I just don't want to deal with his frustration. He is a good person but is never really do more than he has too if you know what i ... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 15:12:39 EST