TREENERBEANER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TREENERBEANER TREENERBEANER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Trying to get control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615386 I am trying so hard to get it under control... by "it" I mean everything. My eating, my life, my exercise.. I have been working out and I feel myself getting stronger again considering I started over now that I hadn't worked out in 8 months. It's so frustrating to keep giving up on myself. <BR> <BR> I have been back at this for 3 or 4 weeks now. I don't really have a support system at home and have absolutely no one to be active with me and share in the activities that I do enjoy. <BR> <BR... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 21:31:43 EST Life is so hectic! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5483886 In my last blog, I finally had gotten a job. Well, now I have 2. I work during the day at the first job.. most days of the week, usually 5 for sure. Then I work at the other job 2 nights a week. I like both of my jobs, but what I don't like is the one employer is always sending people home early. I am scheduled for an 8 hour shift and only get to work 4.5-5 hours usually. It's becoming hardly worth the drive, because it is such a small wage and you make hardly no tips at all. Most days you ge... Thu, 12 Sep 2013 17:43:23 EST So Excited!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5469171 Finally! I feel like my life is falling back into place. I have been so stressed out lately with having no job, quitting school for the most part and getting little to no child support. <BR> <BR> Buuuut, today... wait for it... I GOT A JOB!! Finally! After so many applications and many interviews I finally snagged a job! I feel like all of my stress has been lifted. Will I be rolling in the dough? No, but that's ok. I will be moving and making some income and that is what I need! Not only h... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 18:12:49 EST Back at it.. once again http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5461115 I am currently on day 2 of getting back on track. I did really good yesterday and am doing good so far today. <BR> I am debating if I should get back to working out or if I should wait a week or 2 to get back on track. Ugh, decisions.. decisions! <BR> <BR> It feels good to be getting back on track as it seems a lot of things in life are completely out of my control and I can't fix them even though I've tried. So, I can control this and I plan on doing so! Tue, 20 Aug 2013 14:30:05 EST I did it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5346235 I have been super stressed again! Not losing any weight, no measurements changing, and hanging at 4-5 pounds up from my lowest. I don't know what to do to make the weight start moving again so I can get to my goal. My fitness level is improving and it should be for all the time I have been spending at the gym! <BR> <BR> <BR> So today, I went to the gym and ran 4 miles straight through! Up until today I had only done 3.1miles and never went beyond that. I feel proud of myself! <BR> <BR> I... Sun, 5 May 2013 12:27:58 EST Grrrrr! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327883 I am so sick of the weather we have been having. Snow storm, after storm, after storm! By now we should be seeing green grass and 60-70 degree weather. Instead we get snow, no grass, and 30-40 degree weather. It's absolutely ridiculous and extremely depressing. <BR> <BR> Fishing opener is in about 2 weeks and the lakes are still completely frozen over. <BR> <BR> If only I had money and no school I would leave. Actually, I would have left here about a month ago. There seems to be no end in... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 18:10:42 EST Been a while!-Progress With Pics! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5319799 Finally checking in after nearly a month! I have been sticking to my eating program pretty well and joined a gym about a week and a half ago. I have been working out pretty hard lately and according to SP burning probably too many calories. The problem with changing my workout goal every week is that what I have in there is my goal. Sometimes I don't make it and sometimes I far exceed it. I do not want to be eating too much and gain weight back. I have enough weight ups and downs already! <B... Thu, 11 Apr 2013 14:38:23 EST Broke the plateau! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5284960 So I was stuck at one weight for I don't even know how long. Too long is what it was. I even gained back a few pounds. Stress may have been the culprit.. or maybe it was just my body trying to adjust. I don't know, I can ask it all I want but It never answers back. <BR> <BR> I stepped on the scale today and I have got 3 pounds lighter than my previous lowest and I am officially at where I was nearly 3 summers ago!!!!!! Seeing this was quite a lot of excitement for so early in the morning! I... Wed, 13 Mar 2013 08:56:13 EST Giving up... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256621 I have fallen off the bandwagon. I was doing soo good until recently. Lately, I haven't been working out and I haven't been watching what I've been eating close enough. I haven't been tracking all of my foods. <BR> <BR> I had an amazing weekend last weekend and ate fairly healthy considering I wasn't at home, but made sure to pack lots of fruits and veggies and yogurt and made a mock chicken salad to have in a wrap for lunches. After eating out a couple of times, I can't seem to get back o... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 19:55:37 EST NSV!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5233492 Ok, So I have had some changes on the scale lately.. so that is a victory too! But, the best thing is I am soooo close to fitting into all of my summer clothes from 2 years ago! <BR> <em>67</em> <BR> <BR> I would like to be at my goal before summer, but if I take until the very last moment I guess that is ok too. I am only 3 pounds away from where I was 2 summers ago and this year I plan on going past that! <BR> <BR> Even with school, homework, stress and life in general. I am managin... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 16:20:57 EST Figured it out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5211923 I keep trying to figure out with the help of my mom and friend, why I can't get the weight to budge! Well, I think we may have figured it out... STRESS! <BR> <BR> I didn't even realize I was so stressed until today. I blew up.. flipped my lid.. got down right furious. I am not normally a pissed off person, not unless I'm uber stressed and my anxiety is getting to me. <BR> <BR> I didn't recognize the anxiety to be super high like I normally do, and didn't realize I was so stressed out. Why?... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 18:15:04 EST Plateau? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207189 So, I was sick for 2 weeks. Didn't lose any weight but wasn't worried about it because I wasn't working out or doing anything but laying around. I also didn't gain, yay! <BR> <BR> Now I have been working out for 2 weeks or more, eating my daily intake, not always the same amount sometimes minimum sometimes maximum, and not a gosh darned pound has left me. Not sure if I've plateaued or what?!? <BR> <BR> I started back in school today, and probably won't get to work out as much as I had bee... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 18:42:16 EST Finally back at it! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5195980 This week I have been working out again, and carefully tracking everything! I am feeling great about finally getting back to it, but would really like to start seeing some results again! I am determined! <BR> <BR> I have been trying to get back on my training schedule with my running but each time I tried I just wasn't where I had left off. I just kept pushing and trying. And... Today.... I FINALLY RAN my full run! I was so excited!!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I feel like I am regaining my... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 22:35:07 EST Frustrated http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186814 I have to vent... <BR> <BR> I have now been sick for 2 weeks. I am so frustrated! I can't seem to get better. I fought one thing, now another. It's never ending. All my hopes of working out and doing so great on my break from school has been a flop. <BR> <BR> I feel like I am getting weaker and am going to have to start all over again with my running and everything else. That makes me more than frustrated, but nearly downright mad. <BR> <BR> I am still working out everyday.. but only walk... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 19:20:57 EST Finally! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5181334 After what seams like 2 weeks of being sick *and maybe it was* I am finally feeling well enough to work out! I am starting the 28day boot camp challenge through spark and did day 2 today. I also tried to get back into my running but got side stitched 5 minutes in. Oh well, try again tomorrow! <BR> <BR> I survived the holidays without gaining weight. I'm not sure how I did it, but I am not going to argue! I definitely do not feel as fit as I did before I got ill, and feel plumper.. but appa... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 20:12:26 EST The best present ever!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5176072 I am pretty sure I got the best present ever today. My Mom got me a Polar Heart Rate Monitor. I was soo excited to try it out. It keeps telling me to check the transmitter though :( and says I have a BPM of 00. Pretty sure I am not a Zombie, and that there is something wrong with the equipment! <BR> <BR> Despite having a sore throat and feeling plugged in the face, it is back on track tomorrow. No excuses. I have to get back to it or I will get really upset with myself and I will never rea... Tue, 25 Dec 2012 19:57:21 EST 1 Month Down! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5172413 Today, I had a little bit of a rough day with myself. I didn't want to work out, I didn't want to clean the house, I didn't want to do anything! <BR> <BR> I'm sure this is because today was the first day that I am officially done with this term! So instead of behaving myself, I didn't track my calories for the most part and just ate whatever while still being conscious of what I was eating. <BR> <BR> Scale went down today, I didn't really get excited about it. I thought to myself, ya supe... Thu, 20 Dec 2012 21:46:52 EST Getting Stronger! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5169430 I am still working on my goal of running a 5K. I am about 3 weeks away according to my training program. In 1 week I will be doing 10minute runs, and in 2 weeks I will be doing 20minute runs. If I think about it, I get nervous. I have no reason to be nervous though! I ran 15minutes straight the other day because I wanted to, and felt it was harder to walk and then start running again. I know I'm capable of doing it, so why is it intimidating? <BR> <BR> I can't wait for the weather to warm u... Mon, 17 Dec 2012 20:01:35 EST Overwhelming sadness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5166609 I think most of us know what happened today. The tragedy of someone going into the small school of K-4th graders in CT and opening fire. 18 children gone, 8 adults. <BR> <BR> The lump in my throat grew, and I thought I was going to get physically ill. <BR> I do not live in CT and do not know any of these families. It hits a little too close to home either way. I am the mother of a kindergartener who was at school at the same time that this happened. It could have been her school, just as i... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 15:40:19 EST A case of the Mondays http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5162563 Today is Monday, and it let its self be known. Everything I touched or even looked at today, fell down. *too bad it didn't turn to gold!* <BR> <BR> I nearly got taken out by another driver twice in 10 miles of driving. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I couldn't get the medications for my family due to insurance issues and a few other issues. <BR> <BR> Finally, I thought it would be a good idea to finally get out my stability ball that I haven't used for a couple years due to a missing plug. W... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 20:44:32 EST Quiet Sunday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5161610 It is a winter wonderland! <BR> <BR> Most people around here would really enjoy this 7+ inches of snow but, I do not. <em>425</em> <BR> <BR> I have yet to find an activity that I truly enjoy in the snow, that doesn't cost a ton of money to either buy the equipment or doesn't involve driving forever to rent equipment and use the facility. <BR> <BR> I can not for the life of me find my cross country skis, and no one knows why we would have ever gotten rid of them. It's not like they ar... Sun, 9 Dec 2012 23:19:13 EST Mid Week 2.. or 3... ? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5157567 Short Entry Today! <BR> I can't even remember what week I'm on! Ha, I think week 3. It doesn't really matter though as I'm trying to make this a lifestyle change not just a lose the weight and go back to my old ways kinda thing. <BR> <BR> I got in 40min cardio kickboxing today! It made me sweat and was harder than the 30min walk/run intervals I have been doing. Guess I need to do it more often! Burns major calories too! <BR> <BR> So my reward today for working out everyday except like 1 a... Wed, 5 Dec 2012 21:47:46 EST What to do.. What to do.. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5155358 Today I had my daughter go to the doctor because in nearly 6 years this is the first time she has ever said her throat hurts. I looked in there and low and behold.. white spots! I thought for sure this was strep, as I was plagued with strep until I had my tonsils removed in May. <BR> <BR> Results from the doc.. No strep! Great, right? Next thing I'm told.. her tonsils should probably be removed because they are soooo large. My stomach dropped. <BR> <BR> I know they say it is best to have i... Mon, 3 Dec 2012 22:57:49 EST Nearing the end of week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5152101 This week has proven to be a tough one. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I have had headaches nearly every day of the week, sleeping 12 hours at a time just trying to get rid of it. I managed to get in my workouts this week, and will get another one in tomorrow still. <BR> <BR> I have been really out of sorts today, almost like disoriented. I think I have been not eating as much as my body wants, so I will start taking in more calories. I think I am having some hypoglycemic symptoms. I am not di... Fri, 30 Nov 2012 22:33:22 EST Hit the ground running! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5149865 After 2 days of a serious headache, I decided today I was gonna get back on track with my goal of running a 5K! <BR> <BR> I picked up where I had left off in the program that I am using because I was able to run a 1/2mi straight through on Monday. So.. I plan on sticking with it this time and getting to do my 5K this summer. <BR> <BR> I am having quite a bit of trouble getting in my daily calories this entire week. Maybe I will try adding in some grains and what-nots. I'm not a big pasta pe... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 19:51:43 EST The dreaded week 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5147545 Day 2 of Week 2 and I am still going strong, with the exception of a headache that just will not leave today. Grrr. I didn't work out really today, just did a few short sparkvideos online, and called it good considering how I feel today. <BR> <BR> I am having trouble eating all of my calories today too, still have almost 200 to get to the minimum to eat daily. My water intake has been ok today though, I plan on getting in 2 more cups to get my daily 8! <BR> <BR> Been super tired too, howe... Mon, 26 Nov 2012 19:58:36 EST The beginning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5146145 I wanted to make this video so I could look back later on, closer to my goal and see where I started at. Sun, 25 Nov 2012 16:20:21 EST End of Week 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5145383 Its now the end of the first week. I had a really good week, and that motivates me to keep going! <BR> <BR> Some of the things I have noticed in the first week: <BR> - more energy <BR> - less symptoms of illness <BR> - less bloating <BR> - more self confidence <BR> - less cravings *of sweets in particular* <BR> - weight loss <BR> <BR> I have a positive mindset, which I think is helping a whole lot. Sulking and feeling bad about myself because of my weight and not liking how I looked most c... Sat, 24 Nov 2012 20:23:42 EST First Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5142052 Today, I did 40 minutes of exercise. I am trying out the Firm Wave program that I have had for some time now. I really feel like I am at my rock bottom and don't have a choice but to do this for me, no matter what. I ate well today, drank my water, and feel good! I have spent a whole lot of my day on sparkpeople.com exploring the website and finding all of the great resources! Tomorrow it is back to cleaning for the holiday and getting my homework done, as well as a workout and tracking ever... Tue, 20 Nov 2012 23:34:16 EST