TRAVELISMYGAME's SparkPeople Blog TRAVELISMYGAME's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I won the battle... The fast food battle that is. When I left my apartment I’d decided that I was stopping at McDonald’s and getting breakfast. It’s been more than 2 weeks since I’d stopped I felt that I deserved it. But when it was time to get into the turn lane to actually go, I was strong and said NO. I got to work and ate my oatmeal (not as satisfying when you were tasting a sausage biscuit with cheese) but I feel good about it. For lunch I have to run to the post office then I’ll come back to work and eat a... Tue, 20 Jan 2015 10:04:29 EST Day "whatever" I've fallen a bit off the wagon since this past Thursday. I got lazy and found excuses for not doing what I said I was going to do. But I'm picking myself up and getting back with it tomorrow. I liked meeting my goals each day. <BR> <BR> Anyway, that's it for today. We'll talk again tomorrow! Sun, 18 Jan 2015 20:39:58 EST Day 8 It was very nice having the afternoon off work yesterday. Columbia was fun, however we spend more time in the car going to/from than we actually spent there! Oh well, at least I was able to get my mom a unique birthday present from Bluestem. I just love that place! <BR> <BR> I never did drink a bottle of plain water yesterday. I was super tired and ended up drinking Mountain Dew all day. So I only completed 2 of the 3 items on my “I WILL” list from yesterday. I did watch my eating though. F... Wed, 14 Jan 2015 11:37:40 EST Day 7 Thank goodness for the SUN! I’m so thrilled that the sun is out in full force today. It is a bit deceiving though, it’s still down right COLD! <BR> <BR> I completed all 3 tasks on my “I WILL” list from yesterday. I really didn’t want to spend time cleaning last night when I got home, but I forced myself to sit on the bathroom floor with my Lysol wipes scrubbing tile by tile. I’m telling you these wipes are like magic. My floor hasn’t been this clean since I moved in 9 years ago. I have a ... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 11:16:57 EST Day 6 Do you ever wake up and just wish that you were someone else? That’s where I’m at today. I’m tired of being me. I know this feeling will pass and I’m trying really hard to not let it get me down, but it’s hard. Especially since today is a gloomy weather day. I think I’m going to have to look into getting one of those sun lamp things. So many people have mentioned that it can help with seasonal depression. <BR> <BR> I woke up around 415am this morning, turned on the tv, and painted my nails.... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 10:53:47 EST Day 4 & 5 Hello friends! <BR> <BR> Yesterday was not a good day. I woke up yesterday feeling awful. I barely made it through my niece's birthday party. I have no idea what the deal was because I feel fine today. So yep, that's an excuse - but I think it's a pretty good one - for not blogging yesterday. I still managed to do my squats for my challenge, but that's about all I did. <BR> <BR> I've enjoyed lounging on the couch most of the day today - with a bit of cleaning and laundry doing thrown in.... Sun, 11 Jan 2015 20:44:19 EST Day 3 Well – I’m off to a half and half start. I got up early, walked in place for a bit while watching Parenthood, I did my daily squats for the daily squat challenge, I did NOT stop for a fast food breakfast b/c we are going out for dinner tonight. I got to work and heat up my oatmeal then someone brings in a stolen from Panera Bread. So I cut a sliver of it to have along with the oatmeal. So I’m almost done with the oatmeal and one of the outside agents brings me a donut as a “thank you”. Instea... Fri, 9 Jan 2015 10:49:32 EST Day 2 Hello my Sparkfriends. <BR> <BR> I’m not exactly sure what to say on my day 2 blog. I did ok yesterday. I wrote down everything that I ate (and have done so for today too). I didn’t get any real exercise in other than day 3 of my squat challenge. I didn’t get up early this morning to walk in place while watching my recorded shows. I woke up around 3am and was awake until nearly 5 then fell back asleep until almost 6. I just don’t know what the deal is with me waking up around 3. It’s been h... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 12:12:19 EST No more No more excuses. I’m serious. I’ve had enough. There are many many people in the world who are way busier/stressed/heavier than me and they are finding a way to get moving and get healthy. My little excuses need to stop. I have the same amount of hours in the day as everyone else. I just need to use them better. I get up at 5am nearly every day and sit on the couch and watch tv for at least an hour. How wasteful is that?! Now I do live in an apartment so I have to keep my noisy activity to a ... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 10:59:56 EST Unrealistic Expectation I sometimes live in a fantasy world in which I think at the stroke of midnight on New Year's Eve things will magically change and all of the sudden I'll crave nothing but veggies and exercise and I'll have all kinds of energy and desire to clean my apartment. This couldn't be further from the truth right now. This weekend is going to be extremely busy for me and my goal is to just make it through until Sunday afternoon. Sunday afternoon I will sit down with myself and make plans and goals for... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 13:33:39 EST Good-bye and good riddance to 2014 2014 was NOT my year so I am NOT sad to see it go. I am ready for a new year and a fresh start. I'm not saying that 2015 is going to be perfect or that everything will go exactly to plan, because it won't. There will be trials and tribulations, but I am going to work on handling things better. I'm going to enjoy life more and not let the little things bother me as much. I'm going to get my life organized. <BR> <BR> This is probably my shortest blog yet! But there will be many more to follow... Mon, 29 Dec 2014 10:44:50 EST Been awhile..... So I had planned to post this blog on Saturday, but Saturday ended up being quite a busy day for me and Sunday was even busier! <BR> <BR> I have really fallen off the wagon this year. My life changes completely threw me for a loop and I have yet to really get back on track. I’ve been posting blogs all year saying that I was going to get back with it, but nothing ever happened. I fell into a serious lazy streak. But I have no HAD ENOUGH. I’ve had enough of being out of breath just from bendi... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 14:03:55 EST A new plan Greeting my friends. <BR> <BR> I've spent a lot of time thinking since I posted my blog yesterday. I was having a pretty rough day yesterday and I let a lot of things get me down. Things were just not going well financially and my weight was up. I woke up this morning with another email from my bank and I thought, "ugh, here we go again", but I made a plan and things WILL get better. My plan may be frowned upon by most, so I've chosen not to post about it, but trust me, it's nothing illegal... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 11:36:47 EST Quest to find "me" Somewhere along the way I have lost "me". I've lost my spunk. I've lost my strength. I've lost desire to get things done. I am no longer the person I used to be. Every now and then I'll get that drive I used to have and will wipe out the refrigerator or do some random household chore that desperately needs to get done, but overall I'm just plain.....lazy. <BR> <BR> I don't want to be lazy. I don't want to do the bare minimum. I don't want to have my debit card declined or have my checking ac... Tue, 26 Aug 2014 10:24:15 EST Ok.... So I apparently have a seriously distorted view of being healthy & weight loss. After being so good a couple weeks ago (eating healthy, tracking, exercising, and losing 4 lbs) I apparently thought that was enough and I went right back to eating terrible and not exercising. My official weigh-in day is tomorrow, but I peaked this morning and am back up 3.5 lbs. Instead of getting back with the program today, I have done nothing but shove junk food in my face. Why do I always sabotage myself? In... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 15:32:20 EST Feeling good! So I'm down 4 lbs from last week, I've been exercising more, and I've been eating less. Oh, and I've been spending way more time on SP. Things finally feel like they are "normal" again. <BR> <BR> The new job is going well. I've been getting high praises from clients, my boss, the owner, and some of my co-workers. I know there's still a lot to learn, but luckily my co-workers have been in the travel industry FOREVER and have so much knowledge that it's ridiculous! <BR> <BR> Now, my next ta... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 10:56:06 EST Whew...what a walk! I just wanted to post this blog so I could share the picture. We went on a walk on a new trail this evening. The trail was beautiful. And about 2 minutes in, we saw this... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have never seen anything like this in the wild. It was so pretty! <BR> <BR> Anyway, the walk about kicked my hiney. It was just a bit over 5 miles. We finished in about an hour and a half. Not bad considering how out of shape I am!... Mon, 28 Jul 2014 22:23:48 EST Day 3 So it's been a couple days since my last blog. I am please to say that things have been going pretty well. I have been eating much less (but still having some of the good stuff) and the scale has moved down 2.5 lbs. I did eat a bit more for lunch today because we had a vendor bring us some yummy stuff. Little did I know that the chocolate chip cookie had more calories and fat in it than the 1/2 of sandwich. Yikes! <BR> <BR> We are planning to go on a nice long walk tonight then have Subway a... Thu, 24 Jul 2014 14:33:56 EST Very rude awakening So I've been honest lately and have told you all how awful my eating has been and how the number on the scale keeps going up up up. Well this morning I was absolutely shocked at the number. This morning I hit 249 lbs. Two-hundred and forty-nine pounds. Oh my goodness. I vowed that I would never EVER hit 250 and here I sit on July 22, 2014 just 1 lb shy of that number. <BR> <BR> Things change NOW. No more McDonald's for breakfast. No more fast food for lunch. No more constant eating at my de... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 09:59:32 EST Happy Wednesday Sparkfriends! So I've been at my new job for about 3 weeks now. I'm still getting used to the new computer system, new procedures, and new co-workers. I would love to say that I love it here and am super happy, but I think it's a bit early to say that. I think that I will like it, but I'm just not quite in the swing of things yet. <BR> <BR> Anyway, I've been eating terrible, not exercising enough, and gaining weight (again). I keep saying that I'm going to get up at around 515am and walk before work. Tha... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 13:35:18 EST Finally! After several 1st interviews and several second interviews, I am happy to announce that I got a new job! I am so thrilled. I was really starting to feel down in the dumps. I had even been to my counselor and she was beginning to worry that I was depressed and had even talked about putting me on meds. The very next day, Thursday, is when I found the job online, applied, got a call for an interview (set up for the following Monday AM), then got the offer on Tuesday! Talk about fast! ab... Wed, 18 Jun 2014 22:38:38 EST Another 2 months gone! Will my life ever get back to "normal"? I've been asking myself that since January. And so far I have no idea what "normal" even is anymore. I'm still at the job that I thought was going to be temporary. I've been interviewing for other positions but nothing has worked out. I was supposed to hear back from one last week and so far I still haven't gotten the call. Sigh....God does have a plan...I know he does. <BR> <BR> Nothing much has really changed. I'm still being lazy and not exercising.... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 18:30:10 EST Howdy friends! So it was brought to my attention today that it has been almost 2 months since my last blog. I have no excuse other than the fact that I just can't get into the swing of things of my new life. <BR> <BR> I started my new job on February 24. I really thought it would be a very temporary position that I would already have moved on from. But here I am, six weeks later and I'm still there. I'm having a really hard time getting used to my shift (10am-630pm). It really interferes with my evening. ... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 20:33:03 EST So excited! But nervous at the same time. I just signed up for a 4 mile "Run for the Chocolate" race THIS WEEKEND! I haven't been training. I haven't been exercising. It's going to be cold and possibly snowy. WHAT THE HECK AM I THINKING?! But at the same time, I'm thrilled! I cannot wait to do this. <BR> <BR> So...all you winter runners/walkers out should I dress? As of right now, it'll be in the 20's when the race starts. I have no idea what to wear. Your suggestions are greatly appreciat... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 11:40:02 EST This has GOT TO STOP! I have allowed myself to be "bad" for too long. I've been eating whatever I want whenever I want. I've not been exercising. And I was winded at Curves last night just showing a new member how to use the machines. This is UNACCEPTABLE. <BR> <BR> I have no reason for a pity party with comfort food anymore. I have a new job. I get my severance package. And I have a 1 day birthday shopping trip at the Mall of America coming up in 3 weeks. <BR> <BR> I need to get off my tush and get back on tr... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 08:20:50 EST Whew...what a ride! The past two weeks has been a roller coaster of ups & downs. Lots of anger, confusion, and panic started to settle in about my job situation. I know two weeks ago I said I wasn't going to panic until 4 weeks out, but it started to happen around the 6 week mark. I've been praying about it and enlisted the help of some dear friends who I consider great prayer warriors. I had good days and then I had bad (crying basket-case) days. I knew/know that God has a plan for my life and I just need to tr... Fri, 24 Jan 2014 21:24:10 EST Seven Weeks That's how much time I have left at my current job. This week has been a rough week. I have spent A LOT of time online applying for jobs. I did find out that posting resumes on and was not such a great thing. I am being bombarded with emails and phone calls from people wanting me to sell insurance. That is not a career path that I want to take. <BR> <BR> Other than those calls/emails I haven't heard back from anyone else yet. But I know that less than a week is... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 13:54:26 EST Not a positive post I know that I said the other day that 2014 was going to be more positive than 2013. Well it's January 3, and that's proving to be untrue. I found out today that my position at work is being eliminated the end of February. I'm doing ok. I'm averaging 3-4 hours between crying meltdowns. <BR> <BR> I know that God has a plan and eventually I'll be excited about a new life path. But right now, it just sucks. I'm not a fan of snow or extreme cold but it fits in perfectly with my pity party plans ... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 22:32:18 EST Oh my goodness.... Have I really not blogged since October 30? Wow. I had no idea it had been quite that long. But I know why it's been that long. I haven't been doing anything healthy or good for me. I haven't been eating healthy or exercising. I really been letting myself down lately in all aspects of my life. My apartment is a disaster. I'm not keeping up with my Sparkfriends. <BR> <BR> Ok, blah blah blah...negative negative negative. That's what I've been lately. NEGATIVE! <BR> <BR> It's time to push tha... Fri, 27 Dec 2013 14:35:59 EST Another month goes by..... And I'm no closer to any of my goals. In fact, the number on the scales keeps going up. When I make my goals, they always seem reasonable, but after the month flies by I realize they were a little ambitious. I keep "forgetting" that I really am a pretty busy person. Between 2 jobs, my nieces, and church commitments, I feel like I am always on the go. And when I do get some down time, I'm usually asleep on the couch within minutes. <BR> <BR> So what's going to happen in November? Well, I'm g... Wed, 30 Oct 2013 10:00:07 EST Less than a week... Until my annual Go St. Louis Halloween 10k race. Still haven't been training and now the weather forecast is showing rain & possible storms. This is not looking good! Not to mention that it's a new unfamiliar course. Yikes! <BR> <BR> I have been eating better, but still not great. I also tracked 99 fitness minutes last week, which is 101 minutes short of my weekly goal. Not to mention the flights of stairs. Only 39 compared to the 200 I wanted. <BR> <BR> I refuse to let it get me down tho... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 10:05:22 EST September Reflections & October Goals September was a bad month for me. I barely exercised, I barely logged into Sparkpeople, and I ate absolutely terrible. As my reward for all of those bad things, the number on the scale kept creeping up up up. I am very unhappy with myself right now, but I only have myself to blame. I have a 10k race in less than 2 weeks that I haven’t been training for, and with this extra weight it just might kill me! I also know that my goal of a 20 lb loss by Thanksgiving is now probably impossible to meet... Mon, 30 Sep 2013 09:54:08 EST Long time no see. I'm not even sure where to begin. I haven't been spending much time on SP lately. I haven't been eating right and I certainly haven't been exercising and instead of having you help hold me accountable, I just disappeared. I've fallen behind on my Team Leader duties and I've managed to gain a little bit of the weight back that I lost in August. <BR> <BR> I know I've said it before, but I AM going to get back on track and start keeping up with all of my wonderful Sparkfriends! Sun, 22 Sep 2013 19:44:34 EST Been awhile It's been a busy month. After having a successful week 1, I struggled with the rest of the month and didn't really put my all into it until the last week or so. As of this morning I'm down a total of 4.1 lbs. I really really really want to hit 5 lbs by tomorrow morning. I'm going to watch what I eat today and try to get some last minute exercise tonight. Keeping my fingers crossed. <BR> <BR> I did have a bit of an epiphany moment the other day. I was on my way to church and was thinking abou... Fri, 30 Aug 2013 08:37:47 EST Week 1 = Success I am thrilled to say that I lost 1.6 lbs this past week! That was just a bit above my goal so I am a happy camper! Who knew that exercising and watching would I ate would help me lose weight?! <BR> <BR> Anyway, normally on my weigh-in day I swing by McDonald's and grab breakfast and then eat something just as unhealthy for lunch - because I "deserved" it. But today I packed my healthy lunch and some healthy snacks instead. I didn't bring anything for lunch because I flat ran out of time to ... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 08:59:28 EST Happy Monday! Really? Did I just say "happy" Monday?! Have I completely lost my mind? lol - nope. Just had a great weekend and am preparing for a great week. <BR> <BR> I had been doing really good tracking my food last Wed/Thurs/Fri, but then the weekend came and I wasn't preparing my own food AND I wasn't actually home much. Not to mention that I went to Six Flags twice and ate a total of 3 meals there. The scale showed a slight increase this morning, but I'm sure that getting back on track today with b... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 11:50:24 EST New thoughts So yesterday I posted a few goals for August. But then I got to thinking about the months ahead and have come up with some longer term goals. <BR> <BR> The BF and I are leaving for Texas in 16 weeks for Thanksgiving with his family. We see his mom a couple times year and his brothers family once a year. The BF and I have been together for about 6 1/2 years and I'm about 20 lbs heavier than I was when I first met his family. <BR> <BR> I would really like to be down 20 lbs by the time we le... Thu, 8 Aug 2013 11:40:04 EST August has started off busy! Hello my Sparkfriends! <BR> <BR> I cannot believe that it's been almost 2 weeks since I last blogged. August has started off super busy and doesn't look like it'll settle down much. <BR> <BR> I took my 7 yr old niece to Six Flags on Saturday. We spent around 9 hours going from one thing to the next, back & forth to the car, and having a wonderful time. My fitbit says that I had well over 18,000 steps for the day, but I really think that some of those steps were earned while on the bumpy r... Wed, 7 Aug 2013 11:49:26 EST Hello! So it's been awhile since my last blog. I've spent some time on SP, but not nearly as much as I would've liked. I've pretty much spent the better part of the last two weeks watching the live online feeds waiting for the Royal Baby to arrive. I don't know why I get so hooked by all of it, but I just do! <BR> <BR> I have been exercising a lot though. I'm only about 141 minutes away from my 1000 fitness minute goal. I'm so excited that I'm so close. I wish I could say that my eating habits hav... Thu, 25 Jul 2013 16:40:59 EST Friday Friday Friday! So far I'm having another great day! I haven't exercised yet, but my plan is to walk during lunch and then go to the lake and walk after work. I need to get another 155 fitness minutes in this week to make my 500 minute goal - so I have to "move-it move-it"! <BR> <BR> I splurged a little for breakfast, I had a biscuit with some butter and two pieces of bacon. I have 3 servings of fruit in my bag and a fat free vanilla yogurt cup for my snacks. I'm hoping to have a salad for lunch, but I'm a... Fri, 12 Jul 2013 10:14:02 EST Good day! Hello my Sparkfriends. <BR> <BR> I am having a great day today. The weather here in St. Louis is absolutely gorgeous. It's in the 80's and the humidity is low. I got up this morning and went for a 42 minute walk. I felt great afterwards! I did have around 500 calories for breakfast, but I only had some veggies, ranch dressing, and a small-ish piece of bread for lunch. I haven't been snacking much either. I'm counting my calories today and so far I'm doing really good. <BR> <BR> I tried as... Thu, 11 Jul 2013 16:31:49 EST I WILL be better! Ok, so I think it's time to get back to my daily "I WILL'S". No more of this whining because I'm sick stuff. Yes, I may be sick, exhausted, and have a head full of snot...but that doesn't mean I can't eat properly. <BR> <BR> I went to the grocery store yesterday and bought just a few things to get me through until I can do major shopping. I bought some grapes, yellow & orange peppers, bananas, a giant Florida avocado, and asparagus. I've never prepared nor eaten asparagus before. So any tip... Wed, 10 Jul 2013 11:38:53 EST Hello all! So I'm not doing all that great with my daily blogging or my July goals. The number on the scale keeps going up too. As of this morning I'm only down 2 lbs from my highest weight. Now, I did have a big dinner late last night, so I'm sure that contributed to the high number, but still...the number keeps going in the wrong direction. I have got to get my act together NOW. I do not enjoy seeing how much bigger my belly has gotten lately. <BR> <BR> First off, I have to figure out how to get wel... Tue, 9 Jul 2013 15:09:08 EST TGIF! So I didn't blog yesterday - and there's no reason why. The BF was sick, so we stayed home all day. I had plenty of time to blog, I just didn't do it! <BR> <BR> I did get up early-ish and got some exercise in though. I walked for about 48 minutes, stopped by the grocery store, then walked home carrying my purchases. I didn't get one healthy thing at the store. I knew we were in for a day at home and I wanted snack/comfort food. Not the best choice - the number on the scale was not kind this... Fri, 5 Jul 2013 10:50:12 EST Happy Wednesday! Hello my Sparkfriends! <BR> <BR> I am feeling great this week. I thought I was relapsing with my cough, cold, sinus crud over the weekend, but I woke up Monday morning feeling great. I worked out Monday night at Curves and had planned to go for a walk yesterday. However, it rained ALL DAY! Yes, I could've gone to the treadmill, but I didn't want too. <BR> <BR> I ran some errands yesterday and ended up with just over 5000 steps for the day. I think from here on out I'm going to post everyd... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 11:08:37 EST July thoughts & Goals I decided to post this a few days early since I rarely get online over the weekend and Mondays are usually pretty hectic at work. <BR> <BR> I want to make July a successful month. I want to get back on track and make healthier decisions. I know that by doing that, I'll feel better both mentally & physically. July is going to be my month to take time for myself. This doesn't mean ignoring everyone else, this just means putting me & my needs first. There are 6 months left in this year, and I ... Thu, 27 Jun 2013 17:04:14 EST It can't be the end of June I cannot believe how quickly time goes by the older I get. Christmas is in less than 6 months for crying out loud. On the same note... we are 6 months into 2013 and I am in the same place I was 6 months ago. No weight lost. Not eating healthier. Not exercising enough. <BR> <BR> The exercise thing isn't entirely my fault this month though, I worked hard the first week then got sick the 2nd and it's still hanging on 2 weeks later. I work at Curves tonight, so I'm going to try to get in a work... Wed, 26 Jun 2013 11:58:12 EST Just can't win! I was doing so awesome on exercise and then I got sick last Wednesday and haven't done anything since. Just walking up a flight of stairs leaves me gasping for breath and coughing my fool head off. I'm taking my medicine and praying that it goes away soon so I can get back into the swing of things before the rest of the month is wasted. <BR> <BR> According to the scale I'm up quite a bit this month. Hmm, let's see why....eating out, candy bars, ice cream, junk food....and not one single sol... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 11:18:33 EST What a struggle I had an awesome exercise week last week. Lots of walking & Curves workouts. My eating was out of control, but I blamed that on mother nature. I figured it would get better after she went away and left me alone. But this week has been just as bad. I've had no self control. Whatever I want, I eat. The BF and I have been going to Six Flags a lot lately and that's not helping either. Why? you ask... <BR> <BR> Well we bought a season dining pass which entitles us to 2 meals each and every time w... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 08:49:33 EST Hello! Hello my Sparkfriends! How is everyone on this fine Friday? <BR> <BR> I am trying to do about a million things at once (as always, right?!) I'm sitting at work with my laptop because I just had Windows 7 installed on my desktop and one of the programs that I need won't load. So now I have to work off 2 computers until we (IT) can figure it out. It's a little annoying! <BR> <BR> I was given a Fitbit One last night and I'm trying to figure out the bells & whistles. I am still wearing my pedo... Fri, 7 Jun 2013 10:24:01 EST