TRAINEDBYHORSES's SparkPeople Blog TRAINEDBYHORSES's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Loving Life, 5 years later Hi, everyone. Thank you so much for the Motivator of the Day award! I just want anyone who might wonder to know that I am loving life--still a healthy size after 5 years. Here are some images of what I did during the past couple of days: <BR> <BR> Hiking to University Falls and back...about 6 mile round trip: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> (I am the one in the blue tank top.) <BR> <BR> This past weekend, I won a tennis tournament...this picture... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 09:05:19 EST Grace is Offered...So What? About 2000 years ago, Jesus, King of the Universe, condescended from the throne of Heaven. He stepped out of incomprehensible light and love to walk this earth, putting on flesh. Perfect, sweet fellowship within the Trinity was transformed. Moved by compassion, he made such a sacrifice even before the walk to the cross. The expanse between man and Holy God--immeasurable. This, the only way to bridge the chasm. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 09:07:46 EST What's Really "Mine! Mine! Mine!" ? Corrie Ten Boom, a Christian who survived life at the Nazi concentration camps, was asked by a reporter in a press conference if it was difficult remaining humble while hearing so much acclaim. She replied immediately, “Young man, when Jesus Christ rode into Jerusalem on Palm Sunday on the back of a donkey, and everyone was waving palm branches and throwing garments in the road and singing praises, do you think that for one moment it ever entered the head of that donkey that any of that was f... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 12:42:50 EST New Things Last weekend, I had the wonderful privilege of speaking at a women's retreat for some women in Mt. Vernon, Washington. They were the most delightful women. I have spoken to women's groups before...often, they are Thin Within groups...but never had the opportunity to do all the speaking/teaching for a women's retreat from beginning to end. What fun it was! To build on a theme...Such a joy! To enjoy interacting with the women, too...they were such an amazing bunch! <BR> <BR> The theme was "Lif... Fri, 30 Mar 2012 23:13:13 EST Forgiveness Forgiveness has been crucial in order for me to release the weight. I know that to release eating out of mindless emotion or resentment, I need to keep short accounts...forgive anyone and everyone who I feel wronged by--even if that is ME or GOD! I know that may bother some people since God does no wrong, but there are often times when I feel He has expected way too much of me. I can't see how what he has ordained matches who I am. I end up resenting the Lord at times like that. When I feel t... Sat, 20 Aug 2011 12:16:22 EST Perceptions It is so strange...weird. All my life I have perceived myself as a very large person. I still do, apparently. Today, I had something strange happen. It has me unsettled because of what it says about what I STILL believe! I went in to the UPS/Box store to send something off. A young man invited me to step down to his end of the counter where he would help me get my package sent off. We exchanged are you's, etc. He had just eaten lunch and asked me if I had eaten lunch yet? I... Thu, 18 Aug 2011 19:43:24 EST Trust the Process? But it FEELS so WRONG! I currently have lots of opportunities to play doubles tennis with a lot of wonderful women. I find the interaction tremendously fun. So, because volleying is an integral part of doubles and since I want to be an asset to my "team," I have been going to Mr. Tennis Pro to learn a bit about how to volley well. Being at the net, catching the ball on the fly, is something I have avoided for all of my tennis life. <BR> <BR> \ <img src=""> <BR>... Fri, 22 Jul 2011 10:05:00 EST Muscle Confusion? After almost 7 months of Turbofire, I have been changing things up a bit. Today, though, my rear was kicked by the Cathe Friedrich Intensity WARM UP...good grief! I have done the entire step portion a few times without having "issues." Today I did a warm up of floor aerobics and then hit the Intensity...the first 30 minutes of it...and I was toast! MeltinSue indicated in her blog today that maybe the concept of "muscle confusion" *could* apply to cardio, too! I will buy that! LOL! My heart is... Mon, 28 Mar 2011 18:54:11 EST Pain? I love what a Facebook friend said: "Pain is youth leaving the body." I can SO relate to that. After 6 months of TurboFire with all due diligence and daily faithfulness, I think it is just too hard on my joints. I have been IN PAIN! <BR> <BR> So, recently, I pulled out my old step bench and started using a variety of step workouts intermingled with some of the Turbofire stuff here and there. Whew! My joints are beginning to thank me! :-) <BR> <BR> I had forgotten just how fun the step work... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 20:05:56 EST New Life in the Thin Within Team! I am so thankful for NANA717 who has joined the Thin Within SparkTeam and infused it with life! Thank you, Lord! Truly, she has a fire lit under her and it is spreading! If you haven't stopped by the team in a while, please do. Nana is leading us through a study of the Thin Within book and we are just starting. You aren't late if you join in now! <BR> <BR> This has really come at a good time. I had found many of my old thinking patterns returning. I guess with the trials upon trials that we ... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 13:29:55 EST Exercise Stuff and P90X I haven't really used the P90X yet. I have continued with TurboFire and today I went to a Body and Soul class. I won't be teaching a class at my church soon, though. Our pastor is eager for us to offer it in the future, but now isn't the ideal time. So every so often, I will join the women "down the hill" at their church. It was fun to be with the women today and to exercise to worship music! LOVED it! :-) I hope to still get trained and be available whenever the time is right at our church. ... Wed, 9 Mar 2011 17:15:01 EST What is Body and Soul? Body and Soul is bringing together joyful movement and worship music--the best of popular Christian music. You can read more about it at <link> </link> . It is great fun, but more--it is like an expression of worship. What better combination could there possibly be? There are times when I am alone and I have my ipod playing with worship music and I can't help but move my body. Why not do it "officially" and in an environment with other people where we can be encouraged to... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 10:18:35 EST Body and Soul I have decided to apply to be a Body and Soul instructor. Seems random, but it really isn't. It is something I have considered over the years and now seems to be the time to give it a go. I would love to encourage other women to joyfully move and strengthen their God-given bodies. Whatever we do, eat, drink, or move...ANYTHING...can be done to the glory of God! :-) Sat, 26 Feb 2011 11:08:48 EST P90X Arrived Today ::Gulp:: P90X arrived today. I am waaay intimidated. I am in the 5th month of TurboFire and found today's workout in *that* challenging enough. I don't know why, but I really felt out of it. I know these things happen from time to time and I *have* been really sick, though I have kept up my workouts all through my sickness. Maybe I just finally hit a wall today. <BR> <BR> The thought of starting P90X is daunting! <BR> <BR> Reasons (or excuses?): <BR> <BR> 1.) When I am emotionally off kilt... Fri, 28 Jan 2011 19:25:55 EST The Next Step I just began the last month of TurboFire. I am ready for something new and then I will intersperse TF workouts in with whatever I do next. <BR> <BR> I ordered a pull up bar (scary thought!) and P90X today. I want to investigate the Zumba DVDs, too. A friend of mine has them and I may go over to her house and workout with her once or twice. P90X may not have enough cardio for me to be happy--I have been loving it so much. I really REALLY don't want to get hung up on strength training again. ... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 21:21:53 EST Maybe P90X Well, I think I may go ahead and get P90X. I figure I don't have to go nutty with it, right? I can make a hybrid of TurboFire and P90X and just enjoy. I asked my husband if he felt more muscle would be unattractive and he said that sounds like a go to me. Maybe he will want to join me, too. That would be wonderful. He sometimes goes to the gym, but if he could workout at home, I bet he would be more faithful. He is mostly concerned with his heart health, though...not gaining muscle or... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 19:58:03 EST What Next? Advice, Anyone? Hi, folks. I have been diligently using TurboFire for the past 16 weeks. According to the schedule they set, I have 4 weeks left. My question is, THEN WHAT? :-) I would love your input for this. Let me tell you a bit about my "needs" so you can give input accordingly. <BR> <BR> My goals: <BR> To stay as fit as I am now. I don't really want to get any fitter. I don't want to have to maintain that fitness level! <BR> To stay about the size I am with some slight variations in "trouble areas" (... Fri, 14 Jan 2011 20:16:49 EST Wow... I guess I haven't posted here in a long while. I have been diligently using Turbofire. I just finished my third month of the five. My body had changed a lot and it is so easy for me to get overly fixated on that. I don't want to slip back into being obsessed with exercise, but I fear that has happened. I DO enjoy the workouts, even if they are a bit redundant, however. <BR> <BR> Today I made a video with my daughter...Thin Within Christmas Time Tips! If you want to see it, visit this link: ... Tue, 21 Dec 2010 23:29:10 EST Crazy I know that weird things are happening when I am considering doing another workout in a day. It isn't because of fear either. It is because during this season of my life when things are so crazy emotionally, I know that I will feel GOOD after another TurboFire workout! I think I will "deny" just play tennis with hubby. If he doesn't want to play when he gets home, maybe I *will* have to pull out a 45EZ workout or something...just to enjoy moving my body. I can see wh... Thu, 14 Oct 2010 19:57:28 EST Loving it, Loving it... I continue to be sold on TurboFire. I really do love it. Today I didn't get to do it early in the day like I prefer. I had appointments and then bible study at the church. After that, I had to rush to play tennis with my partner for the league match we have on Friday. We hadn't played before. It was warmer than usual. My tennis has been WAY better since I started doing TurboFire. Sure, it may be coincidence, but whatever the reason--I FEEL much better. After a set and a half of doubles (we CR... Tue, 12 Oct 2010 20:58:05 EST Control and Ramblings after very little sleep... Life has been spiraling a lot, out of my control. God wants me to "get it." It never really IS in my control, IS IT? :-) This is hard to get, to REALLY get, and I know that he will help me to get really get it. <BR> <BR> Right now, it feels like the only thing I *can* control is my body. So I am doing that--imperfectly, but nevertheless. It feels good to be exercising, but what doesn't feel good is the shadow of *fear* that is there. I know that is part of the dysfunction of my past... Sat, 9 Oct 2010 07:52:11 EST TurboFire MeltinSue has "turned me on" to TurboFire. All I can say is WHEEEEEE!!!!! Wed, 6 Oct 2010 22:14:49 EST Blessed Effort or Rebellious Striving? The hope for the fulfillment of a life-long dream was given wings over seven years ago when we moved to Cool, California. We got our horses soon after. A rugged trail opens across from our driveway, linking up with the entire Western States trail system. I have always wanted to live where I could have horses and ride them off our property. Monday was a big day for me as I mounted my horse, Harley, and adventured from our home to the river. I typically take my horses via trailer to another loc... Thu, 22 Jul 2010 09:41:14 EST Don't Stifle the Heart Cry Do you struggle with eating again and again at the same time each day, even if you aren't hungry? I have tried a couple of different ways of handling this tendency, including planning my physical hunger to coincide with the "needy" time of the day. <BR> <BR> This, however, seemed to be more of a band-aid. Whatever-it-is that has made me needy each night, has insisted I recognize it. <BR> <BR> When we have a longing to eat even though we know that doing so goes against godly goals we have es... Fri, 16 Jul 2010 13:04:33 EST Sitting in the Feeling Be still and know that I am God. <BR> ~ Psalm 46:10 <BR> <BR> Emotions are powerful. In the moment in which I am accosted by powerful feelings, sometimes the last thing I can fathom is to "Be still and know" that He is God. <BR> <BR> But this choice in the moment is the hub around which my healing turns. <BR> <BR> I can do anything with an act of my will--so can you! <BR> <BR> With an act of my will, I can be polite to someone who I am not very pleased with--like the clerk in the check-o... Mon, 12 Jul 2010 09:51:08 EST Thin Within Chat If anyone is interested, there is a Thin Within chat this morning at 10-11am Pacific Time. <link><BR>?t=2256 </link> tells you how! <BR> <BR> Come, even if you can only stay a few minutes--just come! :-) <BR> Wed, 7 Jul 2010 09:51:49 EST Are You Eating the Seed? Do you ever wonder about why you have heard the message about freedom in your eating, freedom from being tormented about your body and all those things that you struggle with...why you KNOW stuff and feel STRONGLY that "Yes! This is the truth! I believe! I will do it!" and then still struggle to walk in victory? Still have trouble fleshing the thing out? <BR> <BR> So many I talk with about Thin Within experience this. I know I did for years. Probably at least 6 years before things "clicked" ... Mon, 5 Jul 2010 11:39:09 EST Am I Junk? What do I believe about myself and the One Who has made me? Am I junk? Can my choices over decades cause me to become junk? <BR> <BR> What I believe about these things will radically affect how I live. The same is true for you. Conversely, the way I live indicates what I really believe about these things. <BR> <BR> I mentioned earlier this week that I want to think biblically so I will live biblically. The scriptures declare that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139) by the sovere... Wed, 30 Jun 2010 08:51:06 EST Let's Think Biblically so we can LIVE Biblically! I look back over this weekend and am frustrated with myself. My guard was down. Instead of practicing gratitude which *always* transforms my experience, I allowed myself to focus on circumstances and respond with my emotion. I allowed my feelings to dictate my choices. Instead of sitting in the presence of God, I allowed my emotions to dictate other choices. <BR> <BR> From the emergency vet visit for one of my horses and wondering if he would survive, to having to put down our geriatric chin... Mon, 28 Jun 2010 09:00:37 EST Updated Summer Schedule The summer study of the Thin Within book is at this link: <link> </link> <BR> <BR> Still tentative, but it is up to date! :-) Mon, 21 Jun 2010 12:14:16 EST Instead of WOE is me, try GREAT IS GOD - Devotional Week 02 Can discontentment make us gain weight? <BR> <BR> Has an attitude of negativity ever affected your eating habits? <BR> <BR> This week, we will focus on fostering a grateful heart, but, first, let's look at the detriment of a discontented spirit. <BR> <BR> During the Exodus out of Egypt, the Israelites saw God do amazing things, but it didn't take long for them to decide that life was better back in Egypt. When they faced some trials in the present moment, they glorified their past, forgett... Mon, 21 Jun 2010 09:40:42 EST Week 02 Assignment Hi! I am excited about what God is doing. We are studying Day 2, 3, and 17 this week in the Thin Within book. Please visit the Thin Within team for details of the assignment. More to come later this week! Mon, 21 Jun 2010 08:29:36 EST Sunday Suggestion Practice random acts of praise today! When tempted to think "Woe is me," trade those thoughts for "Great is God!" thoughts, instead! This can transform a person from the inside out. Try it and see. :-) Sun, 20 Jun 2010 09:02:32 EST Chat Transcript and Next Chat Time Hi, everyone. If you want to read the chat transcript from this morning’s chat, please visit <link><BR>pdf </link> <BR> <BR> <BR> We were lifted up and encouraged! What fun! <BR> <BR> The time for our next chat will be changed to 7pm - 8pm Pacific Time on Wednesday, June 23rd. We had to move the chat time because of a conflict--a Thin Within class is using one of the chat rooms and we don’t want confusion. I hope you can join us 7pm pacific time Wednes... Sat, 19 Jun 2010 14:52:39 EST Chat is in 5 minutes! Hi! Even if you join late, I hope to "meet" some of you! Thin Within chat is 7-8am Pacific Time today! Go to this link to find out how to join in <link><BR>.php?t=2256 </link> See you there in a few! I hope! :-D Sat, 19 Jun 2010 09:54:28 EST Join us for a Thin Within Real-Time Chat! Hi, everyone. If you can, join us for a real-time Thin Within chat tomorrow morning (Saturday) between 7am and 8am Pacific Time. I will be fielding questions about how to get started, what to anticipate as the first week ends, and anything that generally has to do with Thin Within or eating according to hunger and satisfied signals. If you are interested please visit <link><BR>.php?t=2256 </link> to see how to participate. It is easy and fun! See you tom... Fri, 18 Jun 2010 16:16:34 EST Thank you! Thank you all for your kindness in recommending me for the little Motivator thingummie! I am so clueless about these things, but goodness! I know kindness when I see it. God is definitely working on me. I am walking this path imperfectly, but he is strong in my weaknesses...and in ALL of ours! No moment in time need be a "failure" when it is given over to him. <BR> <BR> He takes our straw and spins it to gold! <BR> <BR> Anyhow, thank you all! :-D Wed, 16 Jun 2010 21:56:35 EST The Blessing of Grace - Observation and Correction The sun is waking the world. Nestled in your armchair, bible open in your lap, God's presence is palpable. You truly sense him delighting over you with singing just as scripture says in Zephaniah 3:17. What a treat to begin the day this way! The Word speaks to you afresh. <BR> <BR> You launch into a new day, filled with great intentions and anticipation. You purpose resolutely to glorify God with your eating and drinking today, in response to the exhortation issued in 1 Corinthians 10:31. <B... Wed, 16 Jun 2010 13:48:31 EST Let's Indulge and Get STOUT Hearts! <BR> Blessed are those whose strength is in you, <BR> who have set their hearts on pilgrimage. <BR> As they pass through the Valley of Baca, <BR> they make it a place of springs; <BR> the autumn rains also cover it with pools. <BR> They go from strength to strength, <BR> till each appears before God in Zion. <BR> Psalm 84:5-7 <BR> <BR> In what do you find strength? <BR> <BR> Upon what is your heart set? For what do you long? <BR> <BR> While the world promises us that joy and fulfillment a... Mon, 14 Jun 2010 22:44:12 EST Ok, so "I Love My Thighs!" I have a friend with thin thighs...she is in a wheelchair and can't walk. :-/ <BR> <BR> My thighs aren't thin, but I am blessed to be able to walk and run and leap. <BR> <BR> I love my thighs. <BR> <BR> Check out this video: <BR> <BR> <link><BR>0kZFkg </link> <BR> <BR> I haven't been able to get the little girl in this video out of my head since I first saw the video yesterday. (I do wonder where that little girl is today, nine years later, and if sh... Fri, 21 May 2010 09:55:32 EST Eating Like Pharaoh!? What does how I eat have to do with Pharaoh? :-) <BR> <BR> When I read Scripture and notice in a short section that there are words or phrases repeated, I take note. Maybe God has something for me there. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Monday morning, in Exodus 7, I noticed a few of these repetitions (they continue in subsequent chapters of Exodus, too): <BR> <BR> "Moses and Aaron did just as the Lord commanded." <BR> "Phar... Wed, 19 May 2010 11:26:33 EST An Ant On My Hat This morning I had a "stow away" on board, a tiny little "friend" promenading along the brim of my baseball cap as a I sat down at my laptop. Rolling my eyes up to gaze at him directly, I could see, sure enough, that the stowaway was an ant. Where did you come from? <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I had just come in from feeding the horses and had also "mucked" the corral, where my equine pets hang out. For non-horse people, "muck" b... Mon, 17 May 2010 13:10:45 EST Memories of Mom - Part 1 Mother's Day is tough for me. It is hard to get misty-eyed and sentimental for her. <BR> <BR> My mom has played a huge role in <BR> my battle with disordered eating. <BR> <BR> <BR> True Confessions: Eating "nutritious" foods--those dense in vitamins, minerals with a lot of nutrient bang for caloric buck--is impossible for me without gagging. I can't do it. Nope. Nothing doing. At least not as a general rule. I can't eat salad or steamed veggies to save my life. I really can't do ... Sun, 9 May 2010 12:27:29 EST Acceptance? When is acceptance a good, godly trait and when is it compromise? What are your thoughts? <BR> <BR> My body distributes weight differently than it did when I was younger. No matter my activity level, the weight I have just sort of "settles" differently. Yup. It is true. So, do I accept that this is likely a result of a stage of life (whoever says menopause doesn't need to change your body hasn't been through it! :-)) or do I fight to trim things all the more...try to run again (I have one ve... Sat, 8 May 2010 14:33:34 EST How Does Praise Help Weight Loss? This may sound totally cheesy! This may seem ridiculous, in fact, but I assert that Praising God helps further me toward my weight loss goals--or it can! <BR> <BR> I don't believe in dieting. God removed 100 pounds from my body just by my finally (it took many years for me to "get it") eating between the parameters of physical hunger and physical satisfaction. <BR> <BR> That part of it was so simple! But it hasn't been easy. <BR> <BR> Why? Because there is a well within me...and within you... Thu, 6 May 2010 08:56:56 EST Today The day stretches before us! We have a million opportunities to make choices today. Each moment represents an opportunity to choose. So, what will I do with this moment? Will I capture it for my goals and for God? <BR> <BR> My goals are: Whether you eat or drink, whatever you do, do it to the glory of God (1 Corinthians 10:31). <BR> <BR> So each moment, I can choose thoughts that will honor and glorify God, or...not. <BR> <BR> Each time I sit down to eat (and sitting down is so helpful!), ... Tue, 4 May 2010 10:26:13 EST When to Stop Eating...? Recently, someone asked on the Thin Within forums ( <link> </link> ) about how to know when to stop eating and how to stop when you know you should. These are some thoughts about that: <BR> <BR> For me, considering the boundaries that are a part of my life helps me. <BR> <BR> 1.) Dog has a fence. Keeps her safe from deer hooves which flail when a deer is attacked. Seriously. And the cougar that was prowling the neighborhood. One view of the "kitty" apart from... Sun, 25 Apr 2010 11:07:40 EST Apprehended... "If I don't do something, I am going to wake up dead!" <BR> <BR> It was a prayer. It was an observation. It was a plea. <BR> <BR> One hundred extra pounds on my frame were a liability. <BR> <BR> “How did I get this way?” <BR> <BR> For the love of food, I was risking leaving my children without their mom and my husband without his wife. I was highly motivated. <BR> <BR> Pursuit of "body beautiful," an old familiar routine, resumed--this time with a vengeance. <BR> <BR> What began as a ph... Wed, 21 Apr 2010 11:48:45 EST Perfection Doesn't Qualify You! How could a Christian killer become the #1 missionary in the world for the cause of Christ? (The Apostle Paul.) <BR> <BR> Or how could a man with 700 wives and 300 concubines pen beautiful words exalting marital fidelity? (Solomon and the book of Song of Solomon.) <BR> <BR> What could possibly cause a man who an adulterous affair with one of his faithful soldiers, murder him to "cover up" his sin, then be called "a man after my own heart" by God? (King David.) <BR> <BR> life t... Mon, 19 Apr 2010 01:50:30 EST Lessons from Deli Lady You can get a WHOLE sandwich AND a soda for just a dollar fifty more!," the woman behind the counter proudly disclosed. <BR> <BR> A bit taken aback by the assertiveness of the deli-counter clerk, my daughter quietly replied, "No thank you." <BR> <BR> "Are you SURE? Do you KNOW how SMALL half a sandwich IS?" Deli Lady looked at me for support. None was forthcoming.:-) <BR> <BR> "Yes. It will be fine. Really." Michaela smiled weakly. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Mon, 12 Apr 2010 09:19:09 EST