TRACYNOTGIVINUP's SparkPeople Blog TRACYNOTGIVINUP's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Fear of Sugar I haven't had a chance to blog in a couple of days, not by choice, more just that I am always keeping busy and the past couple of days I had some stuff thrown my way and just kept throwing me off. Last night I didn't sit down until 9pm and I was exhausted, both physically and mentally! Now I still have to play catch up on cleaning, but wanted to blog first. Priorities! <BR> <BR> So, I have been officially done with my Whole30 for a few days now, but nothing has really changed. I did eat... Thu, 3 Apr 2014 10:04:39 EST Done, but not really! Whole30 DAY THIRTY!!!!!! <BR> <BR> So, yesterday was the last day of my Whole30, though as I have mentioned, nothing is really changing in my life right now. I am in a very comfortable place and very content and happy. So, I thought I would start this blog by going back to the ways I was gauging my month of Whole30. I decided that I was NOT going to weigh in (though I have a number from March 5th and will be going back in mid April for a recheck so will update when I go, just so anyone who wants to know will kno... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 16:48:47 EST Paleo-tizing my family. Whole30 Day 29 Here I am beginning the last day of my Whole30. I am sure it won't really be my last. Not much is going to change for me from what I have done in these past thirty days....other than tomorrow I am going to sit and have a square of dark chocolate and have never been more excited about a piece of chocolate in my entire life. I am more excited right now about taking what I have learned and applying to not only my life, but my family's life and diet. I know that I can't expect results from th... Sun, 30 Mar 2014 10:27:35 EST Only a couple of days left! Whole30 Days 27 & 28 I have been crazy busy in the past couple of days. The days I watch my niece it seems like my time flies and on Fridays my time flies even faster. I have decided that Friday is my shopping day from now on, so that is where I spend 1.5 hours doing while Samuel is in school. It saves me a lot of stress! First off cuz Samuel is not running with me and secondly and probably more important, the stores are far less crowded. There is nothing worse than a Saturday morning at Costco! I have my n... Sat, 29 Mar 2014 13:03:02 EST Ever Wonder???? Whole30 Day 26 Why it is so easy to forget how easily the feelings you get from overeating makes you feel? You feel so crappy, not only physically but mentally as well. The mental feelings even outweighed the physical ones for me. I know for me, I would feel that way and say OH NO MORE! This is the last time for this binging crap. I hate feeling this way. But that never happened. I would wake up the next day and be binging again less than 24 hours from vowing I wouldn't do it again. Heck there were ... Thu, 27 Mar 2014 10:10:50 EST The flipping cashews! Whole30 Day 25 Not the best day yesterday. I was feeling good til the afternoon. I started getting texts from my daughter about food. I am so tired of talking about food with her. I feel like everyday I am having the same convo over and over again, like she didn't listen to me the first million times I gave her the info. And she doesn't let things go. I try to ignore her, but I have a hard time doing that as well. Then my son comes home and immediately doesn't like that we have to sit and discuss his... Wed, 26 Mar 2014 10:52:00 EST A Deeper Look into My Food Obsession. Whole30 Day 24 Yesterday I watched an interesting video that I had found on my Facebook feed. It drew my attention because it addressed cravings while doing a Whole30 or following a Paleo lifestyle. What they had to say about the different aspects of a craving I had previously read. I know that some times a craving is hormonal, sometimes you really are hungry or thirsty, sometimes it is emotional, so none of that was new to me. But one woman did make a good point that seemed to make a connection with me... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 08:48:31 EST Hard Night and Feeling Scared! Whole30 Day 23 Last night was the hardest night I have had since I began my Whole30 journey. It started in the afternoon when I made Samuel a snack and saw the cashew butter I made the day before. I couldn't stop thinking about it and kept fighting myself from going in and taking huge spoonfuls. Occassionally I was going in and taking little tiny bites, thinking that maybe if I did, the craving would go away. It got worse after dinner. I tried many things to stop thinking about it. I tried keeping busy... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 09:52:43 EST Tempations Whole30 Day 22 I haven't been too tempted by foods around me since I started this plan. I have even put temptation in my face with baking cookies, breads, muffins and cupcakes along the way. My kids have had ice cream and milkshakes. So many things that I used to just take a bite of, I haven't done that and it hasn't really bothered me too much. I think the only reason I miss tasting cookies and baked goods, is because I like to taste stuff before I serve it, plus they are YUMMY! Yesterday I met the ha... Sun, 23 Mar 2014 15:16:10 EST I have finally found my "normal" Whole30 Day 21 Yesterday I never stopped moving. It was a crazy day. I decided after last weeks grocery shopping trip with Samuel on Saturday that lasted 2.5 hours and two stores that I needed a change. So, I made a menu for the week on Thursday instead and planned my trip for Friday morning. This not only keeps me out of the two stores (one being Costco) on the weekends AND I get to shop kid free since Samuel is in preschool on Friday mornings. It was great. I saved an entire hour. So, I did all my ... Sat, 22 Mar 2014 14:30:02 EST Oh that amazing coffee! Whole30 Day 20 So yesterday I decided to go without fruit. Which I totally forgot about until dinner, but I think that I learned something anyhow. The couple of days I have found myself wanting to snack and eat when I didn't need to, were days that I ate fruit alone. I think I need to pair the fruit with my meal if I am going to have it. And possibly until I see how things go, keep it at one or two servings a day. Yesterday I had no fruit all day long until after dinner, which I ate with my dinner and ... Fri, 21 Mar 2014 15:39:59 EST Getting Hungry, Too Much Fruit?, Looking Ahead. Whole 30 Days 18 & 19 So, today will include two days of meals since yesterday got so busy that I wasn't able to do my blog. I am going to have to be more prepared on Wednesdays/Fridays. I have started watching my 5 month old niece every week alternating those two days. I pick her up when I pick up Samuel from school, which makes it hectic upon arriving home. Usually I blog in the morning when Samuel is at school, but yesterday I got some last minute errands thrown my way and knowing I would have the baby, I ... Thu, 20 Mar 2014 09:53:31 EST Binging in the past. Whole30 Day 17 So, I am really getting into this lifestyle change that I have made. I feel like I repeat myself over and over, but I honestly can't believe the changes that I have felt in such a short amount of time. Mostly it is amazing to me how going down this path has made my cravings for food diminish so much. <BR> <BR> Last night I was thinking about this with the cookies in my house. I have always loved to bake, it started back when I was in my early 20's and my husband would have card night an... Tue, 18 Mar 2014 11:41:19 EST Just keeps getting better and better! Whole30 Day 16 Happy St. Patrick's Day! I hope everyone has a wonderful day planned and everyone is ready to take on a new week! I do not have much planned today, I try to keep my Monday's on the down low and recoup from having everyone in my house over the weekend. For some reason this one was very loud. I felt like I was always yelling at my 13 year old son, he was just bouncing off the walls out of boredom, I sure wish the nicer weather were here and it was dryer. Soon enough. Also we had a huge bl... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 10:47:49 EST Shopping on the perimeter. Whole30 Day 15 Good afternoon, so as of yesterday I will be officially half way through my first Whole30. I can't believe it has been that long, but at the same time how quickly it is going. I don't see myself having a problem getting through the next 15 days either. I am still sifting through a lot of Paleo information and will probably continue to do so until the end of the month, though right now I would think that I will probably add in some cheese/dairy. I am not a milk drinker, but I do like to ha... Sun, 16 Mar 2014 15:28:59 EST Cravings, Dreams, and Fat Concerns. Whole30 Day 14 Good morning. I can't believe I am done with the first two weeks and after tomorrow I will be half way through my first Whole30! I am amazed daily at how great I feel, despite times of being nervous about somethings, and having days like today. <BR> <BR> Well for the most part yesterday was a great day. I had so much energy all day long, I kept finding things to do. I baked banana bread, I cleaned my kitchen....again for this week...I don't think my laundry is ever this caught up nor are... Sat, 15 Mar 2014 09:58:29 EST Working out, knee update and sleeping like a baby! Whole30 Day13 So, another busy day in my life yesterday, but we are nearing the end of the make up/missed work that my son is having, so it wasn't half as stressful. I had a really good day yesterday. I felt like I could have exploded with energy and had a really hard time sitting still. My house is pretty clean! I also baked more cookies with Samuel. That kid loves to bake, next I am going to introduce him to cooking, maybe he will have more interest in eating a meal! <BR> <BR> I haven't really ta... Fri, 14 Mar 2014 10:45:24 EST Stressful day; some things I am noticing. Whole30 Day 12 Good afternoon everyone! I have decided to start posting a little later than first thing in the morning. I tend to put off all my cleaning if I sit down to the computer and then it just builds up and such, so here I am in for my daily blog! I hope everyone is doing well. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was the most stressful day I have had yet. I got three emails from teachers of my son about missing work and such. I then get a call about him having a detention for not finishing work, which was in ... Thu, 13 Mar 2014 12:15:41 EST I think I need about another days worth of hours in my day! Whole30 Day 11 Good morning, yesterday was crazy again and I have a feeling today isn't going to be much different. I watched my 4 month old niece at the last minute and today is my day to watch her. I also made plans to meet a friend for tea. Not sure where I will fit my workout in. Then it was a FIVE hour session of homework helping/nagging with my son and we are in the same today probably as well. So, todays entry won't be so long since I need to start my day or nothing will get done that needs to g... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 07:27:50 EST Emotional day and some darn yummy items on my menu. Whole30 Day 10 Yesterday was the most stressful day I have had since I started. Which was too bad since the rest of my day went soooo well. I made a meal that though a little more work, totally worth it. After my lunch I felt so happy and just so good in general it was a little overwhelming, I strangely could have cried. I felt like everything was in place and that for the first time in a long time, for the most part I feel in control now. Then my day went downhill from around 4pm. I had a battle with... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 07:14:21 EST Fighting the Sweets and the Binges! Happy Sunday. So, I made it through another weekend. In my first year, the weekends were never a problem, but in my quest to eat like a "normal" person, I started slacking off here and there, so they became a problem and an excuse to binge since the holidays. I would figure "well I will just start on Monday". <BR> <BR> So, even though I didn't save any money on food this week as I wanted, I certainly became more proficient in prepping my food this week. I saved about half an hour from l... Sun, 9 Mar 2014 20:08:03 EST Planning, Shopping and Weighing In Whole30 Day 8 Good Evening. I have a few extra minutes tonight, so I thought I would do my blog tonight. Seems like on the weekends, I have more time to blog that day, where as on the weeks, I have so much going on at night and I can't get it done. <BR> <BR> So, here we are at the beginning of the second week. I did my meal planning, for both my family and myself. I found it really hard, but I am trying to cut the cost back a little from last week. I was thinking maybe if I made it so I was eating ... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 19:10:58 EST Week One DONE! Whole30 Day 7 I can't believe it has been a week now. I must say I am still skeptical over the changes I feel. I keep thinking that I am feeling so empowered and amazing because I just started this journey and I am still pumped about it....but usually I struggle starting on day 3. But I do find myself wondering if the walls will come crashing down any moment. It just seems too easy. Here are some amazing things I have already experienced: <BR> <BR> I don't think about food as feels like ev... Sat, 8 Mar 2014 18:46:19 EST There are Samoas in my house....but NOT in my mouth! Whole30 Day 6 Sorry so late today, I had a lot to do this morning starting with how everyone wants to start their day.....blood work. After that I visited with a friend and then did some errands. Came back, my little one convinced me to bake cupcakes, made dinner in the crockpot and did some cleaning, so here is the update from yesterday! <BR> <BR> <BR> Another day in the bag! So excited. A couple of things I noticed yesterday. The first couple of days I realized how many little bites, licks and tas... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 14:41:05 EST Let's Change Things Up! Whole30 day 5 I can't believe I am through Day 5. I found a time line online to how you should be feeling on certain days of the program and so far I can't say I have any of them feelings/symptoms they are talking about. I also look at 2 days ahead since the 2 days before I officially started, I did 90% of my eating as a trial run to see how I could do. I still think that is because I wasn't loading grains and sugars into my diet on a normal day. Those binge days are a different story. <BR> <BR> So, ... Thu, 6 Mar 2014 11:16:03 EST Lots of little stuff, knee, nuts, and being sad after dinner Whole30 Day 4 Good afternoon, it was a busy morning today. I woke up, got a quick upper body workout in, showered, got myself and Samuel feed and ready to leave all to see James left his lunch money and binder (for every single class) in my hallway. We ran the binder over, dropped Samuel off, picked up my order of Girl Scout cookies (which I don't really like anyhow, thank goodness since I ordered 5 boxes from my soon to be niece and then my husband told me he ordered 4 boxes from his clients daughter) ... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 13:48:57 EST learning about me and sometimes I am messed up! day 3 whole30 Good morning. I had planned on blogging each day for my Whole30, but last night I was tired, and I am finding that it is hard to fit into my night on weeknights. So, I decided that I would blog about the previous day in the mornings or early afternoon. Yesterday I also made little notes when I thought about something I wanted to talk about in the blog. Mostly they are notes that I know I will want to read as I go back and read about my month if I ever need to. <BR> <BR> So, yesterday was... Tue, 4 Mar 2014 09:30:36 EST Oh those darn nuts and my desire to eat for no reason Happy Sunday All! I hope everyone had a great weekend. I know I did, though it was pretty uneventful. I already miss James playing basketball and now can't wait for nice weather so we can get outdoors more. <BR> <BR> So, last night I had a plan if I got hungry after dinner. It was to have an apple with a little bit of sunflower seeds.....well that never happened....I never got hungry....but I did want those darn seeds. I went back in four or five times and took only small amounts, but ... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 18:41:26 EST Day 1 Always Seems So Easy...Let's Talk on Day 7 =) So, I am wrapping up day one and didn't find it very hard at all. I am sure there is a couple of reasons for this.....first off, it is a weekend and my sleeping patterns are always off as is just my whole schedule, which helps me feel more energetic all day. Second, it is day 1 and doesn't everyone always feel good on day one. I know for me, I am always pumped up, I feel awesome, in control, like I can take on any obstacle thrown my way. I had plenty of small things to be mindful of today... Sat, 1 Mar 2014 18:36:21 EST The Ever Evolving Mind of Tracy Hello! It has been a long time since I blogged and it is probably one of the top things I miss about SP, besides all the support. I wish I had more time to get online and be as active as I was. There are two reasons for my lack of being around. <BR> <BR> 1. I am so much busier!!! We bought our new house in October of 2014 and I spend a lot of time keeping things up, where in the old house I would go on cleaning sprees, cuz it needed to be done, here I have a great routine, which does t... Thu, 27 Feb 2014 14:22:36 EST Eliminating Poison In My Life In More Ways Than One. So, lately in not having a computer and having spent lots of time running, I have done lots of thinking. I have realized how much toxic stuff I put into my body, and I am not talking just food. I am talking, feelings and people AND literally stuff in my body. <BR> <BR> I used to have days where I talked down to myself, and those are pretty much non exsistant, even on days when I do have a binge, I cut myself some slack and say it is one time right now, not another moment and move on, I a... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 12:39:29 EST WHAT??? A month in between blogs????? Hello All my Sparkfriends. I hope that all is going well for each of you in your journeys to healthier lifestyles and your goals! I am finally back online having lost internet, a broken modem and sick kids! I don't even know where to start my update so it may end up jumping all around here. <BR> <BR> I am doing well and all my kids are done with that nasty nasty cold that they all had, though I fear that my husband is getting it now. I thought we were in the clear after everyone was on t... Fri, 9 Nov 2012 08:48:51 EST Would You Throw $4 in the Garbage??? I did. I threw away four dollars. At first I thought I was crazy for doing so. But again I see this as another step in the right direction that I wouldn't have to done in the past. Are you wondering yet why I threw away the four dollars? <BR> <BR> I have had a few rough days here. One of those days I had to run to the store and on half impulse bought a container of natural peanut butter. I am out of my peanut butter, but I have Skippy here and could have made due with what I have until... Fri, 12 Oct 2012 08:14:17 EST Binging and Sleep Deprivation? I want to start out by saying that I am not ignoring all the wonderful supportive comments I have received on my Scary Place blog. I am just kinda chilling about the whole thing right now and want to give them the proper responses. I can't begin to tell you all how amazing it makes me feel that I have such great friends here on spark that I am able to get that kind of support. <BR> <BR> I am still not feeling 100% myself yet. My usual, get up and tackle the day like the superhero I usuall... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 08:38:53 EST Going Back to a Scary Place...a little more prepared, but still scary So, this weekend, I tried hard not to think about the ER visit I had with my daughter on Friday night that resulted in no answers and us not getting home until 2am in the morning with the almost 3 year old (I can't believe in 11 days my baby will be three). Anyhow, I know there are reasons that I was trying not to think about it. It is going to send me to a bad place. A place I have been before with her. A place that lead me to add 30+ pounds in one year to my already 250 pound self. I ... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 16:04:23 EST It's true....I just used the "S" word to describe a run So, another run in the rain tonight, except there was a BIG DIFFERENCE.....and excuse my language and choice of words, but: <BR> <BR> IT SUCKED! <BR> <BR> I don't think I have ever been miserable on a run. I have run in the rain two other times before this. Both being a steady drizzle. It wasn't pouring when I left, but very quickly turned into a pretty steady rain. My shoes were still a bit damp from Tuesdays run in the drizzly rain and it was about 45 minutes than I wanted to leave. ... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 20:58:15 EST I love the fall....cooler temps, halloween and one of my fav desserts: recipe included for my friend I hope everyone is enjoying the fall as much as I am. I love the changing leaves and the cooler temps. This year I am appreciating the cooler temps even more since I am pretty sure two things are helping my running times improving, my commitment to stretching after my runs and the cooler temps. I went from running just over 10 minute miles to all the sudden coming in around 9'30"-9'40" miles. I love it. I love the fall decorations on all of the houses in the neighborhoods I run though. ... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 20:25:47 EST Goal setting: back to basics It has been a long time since I sat down and did some monthly goals for myself. I stopped doing them a while ago and I stopped doing them because I felt like every month I was sitting down repeating myself. This was a wonderful process for me since in writing down those goals each month and striving for them, they made those things very habitual in my life. After a while I felt like I didn't need to keep saying those things because I knew I was aiming to do them anyhow, kinda like the laun... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 13:01:48 EST Confession: I am SCARED and already doubting myself! So, all week I have been blessed with all kinds of messages, goodies and responses to my past three blogs, mostly the two which were why one should never give up and the second was the reasons I want to maintain my weight loss. I feel like I have really was able to reach out to a lot of people with the help of everyone who read, commented and liked my blogs on those subjects and that made me happy. The most received compliment came in the form of the word: <BR> <BR> Inspirational <BR> <BR... Fri, 28 Sep 2012 22:11:21 EST Color Me Rad!!! Albany with pictures! I have been looking forward to this race since I learner about it at the beginning of July. It was so completely different than my other 5k. Not so serious and everyone there just there for a good time. They have music playing and an announcer who is cracking jokes every time he speaks. We had to get up at 515 to leave for 6 since the drive was just over 2 hours and good ting since it took closer to 2.5 hours. The energy was contagious though. People were color bombing each other before the r... Sat, 22 Sep 2012 16:10:51 EST The Reasons Why As part of the 5% Fall Challenge, we are to document the reasons that we want to lose weight. I had plenty, pretty funny that I went back and read some of my past blogs last night and saw some of them from back then and compare them to now. Though at this point, I will be entering the challenge in maintenance. In a perfect world I would love to lose another 4-8 pounds, but I am content with where I am as well, so I will see how things go and work with them from there. Funny side story las... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 07:51:12 EST THIS is why you NEVER GIVE UP!!! At goal, my journey with pics! I remember when I first started out on this journey on July 8, 2011. I didn't take any pictures or measurements. I didn't announce my goals or aspirations to anyone in my family or even to any of my friends. I started eating well and exercising. I am sure my family noticed, but not really. I did it mostly when my husband was at work and my kids are kids and don't really pay much attention to me all that much, since I am "just their mom" to the then 15 and 11 year old and the then 1 year ... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 10:49:26 EST Set "IMPOSSIBLE" Goals! I LOVE goal setting! LOVE, LOVE, LOVE it. <BR> <BR> I have realized that by setting goals, it actually makes me a happier person. It feeds into that part of me that loves having lists to check off of things to do, just on a more lengthy period. <BR> <BR> I have set goals in the past. I set a goal when I first started WW and reached it. The problem here, I NEVER set another goal. Not in terms of weight, or fitness, or personal. <BR> <BR> I set a goal when I first started SP, but I also... Sun, 2 Sep 2012 22:18:40 EST Three New Things I Learned About Myself.....LONG! So, I am returning from vacation. We went for six days to the White Mountains in New Hampshire, though we had some rocky moments, most of our trip was quite enjoyable. <BR> <BR> And though not looking for new things about my new life, I found a couple of them anyhow. <BR> <BR> This was the week that I changed my running days to fit more into the kids school schedule. I can't have them watching the little one anymore and his schedule is so crazy in the morning, I have NO promises of gett... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 21:14:21 EST Change My Goal Weight: Cheating or Realistic Shall I warn you now....this blog is coming from my kindle so please excuse any extra punctuation and errors. I usually do not blog from my kindle it is not the easiest thing to do but I have had this weighing on my mind a lot lately and figured since I am having a hard time coming to my decision on my own who better to ask for some looks outside the box than my friends and Spark community. <BR> <BR> I am honestly conflicted on changing my weight goal. I have a few reasons for this and not s... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 20:56:10 EST Time to take my own advice....and JUST DO IT! As I have mentioned in the past, my daughter has an ongoing issue with weight. There isn't much I haven't tried to help her with. I have helped her research different ways to look at things, different plans for eating and exercising. Helped her formulate plans, menus and schedules. I don't want to say I have given up on this, but in the past couple of months I have realized that there isn't anything else for me to do. I have done ALL (and maybe beyond ALL) I can do. It is now up to her.... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 10:11:04 EST My Best Friend So, I have been on SP for a little over a year now and have learned a lot about myself. I am inspiring others and actually learning to accept and embrace that role. I remember writing a blog about how I was scared of that, I just noticed after it being brought to my attention, that I am no longer afraid of this. I am okay and actually welcome it. I love talking about my journey about my weight loss and my new found love of running or any other aspect of things going on with me. During th... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 15:16:47 EST Wanna Watch Me Run To Disney????? my personal challenge I remember when I first decided back in the fall of last year that I wanted to run. What inspired me the most was reading about members doing a Disney Half Marathon. It just jumped out to me and screamed, "YOU HAVE TO DO THIS!!!!" I signed up to do a virtual 5k and started with the 5k your way programs. Only to have not even gotten through halfway and injured my knee, which kept me from walking, let alone running. I tried the running once back then and couldn't even run the first minute... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 13:06:26 EST Wanna Watch Me Run To Disney????? my personal challenge I remember when I first decided back in the fall of last year that I wanted to run. What inspired me the most was reading about members doing a Disney Half Marathon. It just jumped out to me and screamed, "YOU HAVE TO DO THIS!!!!" I signed up to do a virtual 5k and started with the 5k your way programs. Only to have not even gotten through halfway and injured my knee, which kept me from walking, let alone running. I tried the running once back then and couldn't even run the first minute... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 13:06:17 EST Accomplishments & Lessons Learned That Are Making Me a FIGHTER. So, here I am just over one year on Spark people and I have a lot to say I have learned so much about myself and accomplished a lot in this time. I didn't expect to feel like this when I was at this point in my journey. <BR> <BR> Accomplishment #1: Lost 106 pounds. With 20 pounds til I hit my goal weight. <BR> <BR> Lesson Learned: It doesn't matter. I NEVER thought this was a possible feeling. I remember with WW, I was so focussed on that goal weight and hitting it, it seemed to be ... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 14:39:59 EST