TRACYDH's SparkPeople Blog TRACYDH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community what am I afraid of? I've had this realization before, wonder if anyone has advice? <BR> <BR> Around certain favourite foods (not always snacks, sometimes it's a cherished meal) I get almost 'angry' when I think that I might not get my fair share (kids, husband, etc). <BR> <BR> I do tend to hide treats that I buy so I will get some, and I actually almost always take far more than my share of a bucket of icecream, for example. My kids are usually disappointed because they rarely get more than one serving of som... Tue, 2 Jun 2015 16:01:51 EST toothache I need to get to the dentist. Tooth started hurting a few days ago and now it's bad! I have so many cavities and can only afford to fix them here and there. On the plan I am good though! Feeling back on track, tracking even when I don't want to admit what I ate :-) So feeling good, if still disappointed that I gained back most of the weight I had lost. But I know why. I am looking into going to counselling to see if that will help! Happy enough for now though. I am enjoying my mor... Mon, 11 May 2015 23:30:45 EST tracking back at it...blogs will be boring because I am going to just do it without trying to be entertaining :) <BR> period suuuuuuuuuucks today, but I pretracked all my food and I feel much better seeing all the food I am going to be able to eat. Seems to make me feel better somehow! <BR> still haven't worked out, will jump on the treadmill in about 15 minutes so I get something in! <BR> I have been exercising for a couple of months but not tracking - back to it now, I need the feedback and the com... Fri, 8 May 2015 20:09:15 EST hockey!! wow, I just saw my last blog entry was just before Halloween...those holidays just knock me right off track...this year I need to plan for them! <BR> <BR> So I am back at it though, 3 days in and feeling good. Purged the house, feeling strong, enjoying's an easy horse to get back on at least! <BR> <BR> This weekend I am taking my 12 yr old son to a hockey game in the big city of Vancouver :) He is a huge sports fan, and I love hockey, frankly know more about sports in genera... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 20:42:56 EST advice on how to track and travel? you know, I would probably blog more if there were a 'blog now' button on the Start page, just sayin... <BR> <BR> So I have been away, and I have gained, oh, 15 lbs, back in the last year. It's not rocket science, I haven't been tracking! <BR> <BR> On the other hand, I have managed to keep exercise a part of my life. This is a major victory for someone who pretty much did nothing of the sort for 10 years! Even though I weigh more again, I still feel way healthier and my fitness level is ... Wed, 22 Oct 2014 01:49:32 EST nice trip up the island what a beautiful long weekend it's been! swam in the ocean, it's actually warm enough where we went, so lovely. And we stayed at this awesome little hotel that's been reno'ed to look like 60's era chic - chrome and funky patterns everywhere, it was really cool, and very reasonable, good thing because it was the only room left in town! <BR> my moment of reflection with DH came when we parked about a kilometre or so from the beach because there's a big sandcastle competition and show and shin... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 20:53:56 EST owwww who knew aquafit could be such hard work? switching it up, I have gone back to these classes, at the Y instead of my old place. <BR> I am doing shallow water because it is at a convenient time, and wow, the workout is soooo much better! <BR> wall pushups in the water - ouch! got a bit of a kink in my neck though, need to stretch that more. <BR> <BR> bonus, I am down to 167!! <BR> <BR> I am not weighing again until September 1 - I find it helps me focus on those non-scale victories more :) Fri, 1 Aug 2014 15:19:37 EST movie night so last night I went for dinner and a movie with my 20 year old son, the movie buff. Great film, Life Itself, about Roger Ebert. <BR> <BR> But dinner and a movie, yeesh. I did choose a salad, but also wine, and some bread. I rarely drink because I am really just not in the habit, and now especially, so many calories, just not worth it usually :) <BR> <BR> But the real issue is that I still had to have popcorn, and least it was at a theatre where the candy and popcorn are small... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 23:55:46 EST Lake Swam at my parents house today. They Live on a beautiful lake and I swam to the island in the middle of it (and back of course). <BR> <BR> Spark says I burned 310 calories but my aching muscles disagree! Mon, 28 Jul 2014 01:30:26 EST yum yum mexican food... wow! good day today. we got ourselves a little patio set, spent all day shopping around and found an awesome deal, we've been saving but it was less than we planned for, so bonus! <BR> <BR> I went out and had a great mexican soft taco/salad thing, which was so fresh and really healthy and low calorie because no sauces and whatnot. Delish. <BR> <BR> So lo cal that I am way below my range and starving. I have a great snack planned though. It will still put me under for the day. think I... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 01:13:23 EST Snack food is the devil So I mentioned to a friend the other day that fries are the devil. <BR> <BR> It turns out, I have a devil on my shoulder pretty much all the time. I realized this, this morning, when I was thinking to myself, 'Wow, good thing that giant bag of Costco tortilla chips is gone' after a minor binge finishing up the bag last night. <BR> <BR> Well, guess what my little devil immediately said to me? 'But you still have the giant box of Costco microwave popcorn'. Darn you, devil! You're right. <B... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 11:37:06 EST mindful eating... so I read through a great blog series on Refinery 29 about a woman who's gone on an anti-diet. <BR> <BR> The idea of it is much like what I have been trying to do, I guess, and it helped me to solidify some of the things I think have not been working for me so much. <BR> <BR> I had a great spring and summer last year. Huge progress was made, and just a general change in my life - no longer feeling ill, old, tired, worried about my great! <BR> <BR> I slacked off over the winter.... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 21:47:29 EST technology for the over 40... All my life I've really been proud of keeping up with the times - always up to date with the latest in technology. <BR> <BR> Pretty much since I hit 40, it's starting to pass me by. I use Google Drive, I have a tumblr, but I don't have the first clue how to make an app. How to connect my blog to my tumblr to facebook an other social media. How to even make a gosh darn web page with a template. Seriously, for me this is sad. <BR> <BR> Anyone know where I can get over 40 tech lessons? Ma... Thu, 16 Jan 2014 01:50:20 EST little check in! Busy times, getting back into the swing, readjusting my schedule, all the junk out of the house now so it should be better... <BR> <BR> 30 spark points a day: I've been on track with this the last 4 days in a row, yay! I'll work my way up to more but it's still a good goal for consistency. <BR> <BR> 8 cups of water: going to take this one off my tracking on the blog - it's really quite easy :) <BR> <BR> 8 hours sleep: still getting more like 7 a night. I find it hard to go to bed early ... Mon, 13 Jan 2014 16:44:45 EST my son is 11...:) my lovely middle child's 11th birthday today. and tomorrow, we clean alllllllll the junk food out of the house! seriously it's bad. <BR> <BR> 30 spark points a day: only 12 today, didn't track my food so it makes for low points. that's why the junk has to go, I have this mental block that if i'm eating junk I shouldn't bother tracking, when the reality is the opposite, I know! <BR> <BR> 8 cups of water: yes. I can do the water thing - I actually need and crave it, water is now a full on... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 00:04:47 EST Goal tracking day 1 Let's see how it goes if I blog about my goals for a little bit. Definitely feeling kick-start, the holidays were a little too relaxed :) <BR> <BR> Goals: <BR> <BR> 30 spark points a day: done! <BR> <BR> 8 cups of water: also done! <BR> <BR> 8 hours sleep: check! <BR> <BR> Actively smile/actively be nice to DH (added that one): done! <BR> <BR> Exercise 10 minutes a day (good goal to start with): done! <BR> <BR> Come up with a savings goal: not done yet :) <BR> <BR> Do something towa... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 20:46:07 EST resolutions! You know, I usually don't do the resolution thing. I have always figured that if you want to change there's no need to wait until January 1, just do it! <BR> <BR> And I did, last year, middle of May - just did it, got back into Spark, lost 30 something pounds, and more importantly, drastically changed my mindset and lifestyle. I feel like a totally different person! <BR> <BR> Now, I still have ground to cover, weight wise. I can definitely pat myself on the back for having the most succe... Sat, 28 Dec 2013 17:43:32 EST Great insights from Healthy Holiday Challenge; Why Wait 'til January? Gosh I haven't blogged in so long! <BR> <BR> I have been honestly too busy - work has kept me from Spark. But I have flu, and I am trying to do some reading since I can't work out (seriously - it's all in my lungs), and I joined this challenge because frankly the holidays do me in every year :) <BR> <BR> Here's a link to the challenge in case you're interested (hope it works, not super tech savvy - if not, the name is in the blog title): <BR> <BR><... Sat, 2 Nov 2013 15:33:47 EST bloggity blogging long time no blog! <BR> <BR> I'm telling you, the fall takes it out of me, I am wayyyyy too busy! <BR> <BR> I have been making sure to take the time to log my food and exercise but that is about all! My Spark points are pathetically low, not a lot of time for Sparking, but that's ok - keeping it up and staying on track. <BR> <BR> I got a little flu back a couple of weeks ago and it slowed me down for a bit, but I really feel like I'm back now, baby! Been working hard the last week and it... Thu, 17 Oct 2013 23:44:23 EST calories and exercise day 17 Calories yesterday: 1350 <BR> <BR> Exercise yesterday: morning walk to and from school, paper route after school, total of about 50 minutes - but just low key walking for the most part - back to the C25K today! Thu, 3 Oct 2013 15:33:57 EST calories and exercise day 16 calories yesterday: 1459 <BR> <BR> I was really sure I went over yesterday but didn't! Still it wasn't the healthiest day, only 4 servings of fruit and veggies, I had phad thai and spring rolls for lunch. Delicious but deep fried and ultimately I wish I had shared it with someone - I only ate a third of the serving of the phad thai, but couldn't resist eating both spring rolls... <BR> <BR> But still - a far cry from times past where that would have led me down a 'eat what you want today... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 12:14:13 EST calories and exercise day 15 I think I missed a day but oh well! busy... <BR> <BR> calories yesterday: 1450 <BR> <BR> exercise yesterday: C25K - that's couch to 5K - did my first official day - a run/walk, 30 minutes. <BR> <BR> gotta run but getting the blog done! Mon, 30 Sep 2013 18:57:58 EST calories and exercise day 14 busy day, finally getting to yesterday's stuff! <BR> <BR> calories yesterday: 1500 <BR> <BR> exercise yesterday: walk to and from school. I keep saying that, it's about 15 minutes each way, brisker on the way home without dawdling children :) I'd say that at my new level of fitness it's a bare minimum thing, but I used to do nothing at all's good! It's worth about 150 calories burned which is better than zero :) <BR> <BR> Sat, 28 Sep 2013 22:33:50 EST calories and exercise day 13 lucky 13...cookie day :) <BR> <BR> calories yesterday: 2137 - yes, cookies. went to a PAC meeting and didn't plan for it. No biggie, but next time I need to come armed! <BR> <BR> exercise: walk to and from school. quiet day, but on the other hand today I feel less under the weather, so that's all good. Fri, 27 Sep 2013 16:31:29 EST calories and exercise day 12 So I got my new shoes! JILL, for you - they are black with pink and green highlights. My DH wanted to know the brand but I have no clue - I just don't pay attention to that stuff :) <BR> <BR> So far they are a bit stiff but my back is very happy with me, so it's all good! <BR> <BR> Calories yesterday: 1297 <BR> <BR> Exercise yesterday: ok Jill, so I didn't really take it too easy - walked to and from school, 15 minutes on the elliptical at the gym, 10 minutes on the weights circuit, an... Thu, 26 Sep 2013 16:32:18 EST calories and exercise day 11 good day - but on an exercise note, my back feels on the verge of going out. I didn't expect this after months of exercise but I'm being very ginger with it today. Any words of advice? It's my thought that maybe my shoes are blown out - could that cause it? My core isn't ultrapowerful but it is certainly strong compared to when my back used to go out... <BR> <BR> so! Calories yesterday: 1132 - I never understand when I go under. I actually ended up at 702 calories after dinner yesterd... Wed, 25 Sep 2013 10:45:39 EST calories and exercise day 10 yesterday was a pro-d day, and a work day - those are always fun :) we did have some help! <BR> <BR> calories yesterday: 1327 <BR> <BR> exercise yesterday: <BR> <BR> walking up and over the hill for 30 minutes. I walked briskly as I could. I got really out of breath. Lately I have been really out of breath and I'm not sure if it's because I haven't been working the cardio as hard, or if I have something flu-ey going on, or if it's still heart related. Not super happy with my doctor, ... Tue, 24 Sep 2013 12:05:40 EST calories and exercise day 9 nice Sunday - little work, little chillin', little Costco shop... <BR> <BR> calories yesterday: 1460 <BR> <BR> exercise yesterday: 28 minutes run/walk up and over the big hill - really trying to get to the point where I can run more than a minute without losing my breath. I feel like I'm going to start needing to join some organized runs and stuff to keep me going. <BR> <BR> hope you all had a great weekend too! Mon, 23 Sep 2013 12:09:25 EST calories and exercise day 8 birthday party! one of my best friends has her birthday the day after mine. <BR> <BR> I did awesome - didn't go very far over calories at all - taco salad instead of tortillas, yum! One glass of wine, one piece of cake. <BR> <BR> calories yesterday: 1625 <BR> <BR> exercise yesterday: 20 minute walk around the neighbourhood with a group of kids - it was really a rest day - the walk was pretty low key :) <BR> <BR> feeling like a cold may be coming on though - crossing my fingers I get th... Sun, 22 Sep 2013 10:46:30 EST calories and exercise day 7 So, yesterday was my birthday. 44! Last year I would say I felt much older than my age, this year, definitely younger - I feel great! <BR> <BR> It was a good day - went out for sushi dinner and had a lot of calories, but no beating myself up - it was all good, I enjoyed every bite and I don't do it regularly any more :) <BR> <BR> Calories yesterday: 2309! <BR> <BR> Exercise yesterday: welll this might be part of the reason I ate so much last night - I spent 4 HOURS running around movin... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 14:49:02 EST calories and exercise day 6 this is really keeping me blogging - and honest :) <BR> <BR> so yesterday's calories: 1045 - low eh? so I had my period (or shark week as I now like to refer to it :) and was so starving through it and then yesterday - just not hungry enough. got to the end of the day and saw the calories, but you know, I had had enough veggies and fruit, water, protein...I could have made myself eat something but I was tired so I just went to bed. <BR> <BR> yesterday's exercise: <BR> <BR> pretty much t... Sat, 21 Sep 2013 00:49:11 EST calories and exercise day 5 finally getting to yesterday - today has been a crazy day!! <BR> <BR> calories yesterday: 1524 - I have been so hungry lately!! thought I would eat closer to the high end of my calories today and see if it helps - definitely less starving at bedtime... <BR> <BR> exercise yesterday: <BR> <BR> walk to and from school in the morning - the to is slower, the from is faster without kids in tow :) <BR> <BR> then I went to the gym, 20 minute intervals on the elliptical, 10 minutes intensive wei... Thu, 19 Sep 2013 20:12:43 EST calories and exercise day 4 calories yesterday 1320 <BR> <BR> exercise only 15 minutes - walked up to the school with the kids, but DH came up in the car so we drove back. Not exactly a vigorous workout :) <BR> <BR> I need to find a way to do this while the kids are in school. There's so much work going on, it's hard to get out during work hours - but I just need to see it as taking lunch, since I work at home anyway. <BR> <BR> I have to just start going to the gym when I have a minute, again - I'm too concerned ab... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 11:00:50 EST calories and exercise day 3 yesterday's calories: 1629 <BR> <BR> A bit over, I made potato leek soup for lunch and had bread with it. AND pasta for dinner. One of those meals probably should have been a salad. <BR> <BR> Bread always seems to put me over the top, no room for potatoes AND bread :) Oh well, it was delicious and it is what it is - I got all the nutrition I needed, lots of veggies and fruit (I put masses of veggies in my pasta sauce), so being a bit over doesn't bother me as much as if it was because I ... Mon, 16 Sep 2013 12:32:37 EST calories and exercise day 2 calorie count yesterday: 1239 <BR> <BR> exercise: We went for a walk as a family - we have a really cool breakwater that juts out into the ocean, near our house. It's about a mile long, and we walked both ways along it, then crawled all over the rocky beach next to it with the kids. <BR> <BR> Then a little later I jumped into the gym for a quick 20 minutes iof intervals on the elliptical. <BR> <BR> Awesome day, and I feel much more on track! Sun, 15 Sep 2013 11:17:39 EST calories and exercise day 1 1320 calories yesterday <BR> <BR> 36 minutes, walk up and over the hill with podcast (Star Talk Radio, time travel in the movies - recommend!) - it was hard, haven't done that route since school got back in! <BR> <BR> Faithfully logged everything, even the 20 soda crackers I ate before bed... <BR> <BR> have a great day everyone! Sat, 14 Sep 2013 14:12:49 EST back to school and a new business! So the kids are back in school and this has made my evenings busy! You might think I would have more time because the kids are not in and out all day, but in fact I feel like I have less time - I've only made it to the gym once in the last week. Still walking daily but I'm going to have to figure out reorienting my schedule for gym visits. <BR> <BR> We've also taken on a new business in our consulting company - basically managing the startup, which seems to take every bit of spare time! I... Fri, 13 Sep 2013 19:12:08 EST the secret thing is catching EMCQUE, it's catching, I had 3 people ask for the secret today... <BR> <BR> to my weightloss of course. I have guided a number of people to Spark, and DH actually met a couple of long term Sparkers at a party last night... <BR> <BR> I guess the change is really visible - I can see it but I always wondered how much others noticed - 22 lbs down is the magic number for others to see it on me. <BR> <BR> What's funny is people think I must be done - people, I am not even halfway to my weight ... Thu, 5 Sep 2013 19:57:09 EST new clothes! No pics yet, but I finally bought two outfits - a workout outfit and a skirt and blouse. <BR> <BR> Value Village - I have to go cheap so I can afford good running shoes, since I think I may start running! <BR> <BR> My friends commented the other day that I needed to get some clothes that aren't baggy and hanging off of me. <BR> <BR> I told them I wanted to wait until I was actually down a size, and not in between, but I decided yesterday to just go try things on. <BR> <BR> turns out I a... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 12:42:22 EST mastering the eating out thing... we've been eating out more lately - just on the go, doing summer things. <BR> <BR> But I seem to have a handle on it. And I think it's mainly because I actually *gasp* recognize hunger now! <BR> <BR> Shared a bento box with my daughter today, tons of food and we didn't even finish it - came home and logged it, and it was perfectly within calories. yay me! <BR> <BR> Probably too salty, lots of reasons why eating at home is better, but all in all a good choice and good portion control. <BR... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 18:03:53 EST how do you get over the night eating?? So I haven't been blogging daily, and I realize it's because this week I backslid into night eating again, and I felt like I had nothing good to say. <BR> <BR> But this blog is about reaching out for help as much as celebrating successes, so here I am. <BR> <BR> We got a box of nutrigrain bars for the kids' lunches since school is back next week. Like a big box. <BR> <BR> And every night I've been having 3 or so of those suckers. It's totally blowing my calories for the day out of the wa... Sat, 31 Aug 2013 14:58:29 EST fun in Vancouver! great day - we headed to Vancouver for a little local fun. Went to an awesome sushi place and had the family sushi boat - yummy! <BR> <BR> Then we went to the Chinese night market in Richmond - biggest in North America, I am told - it was crazy fun, and since we were full of sushi, no fear of eating sketchy and questionable deep fried foods <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> Fun day, headed to Science world tomorrow with my little girl, along with a trip on the SeaBus and Sky Train - adventure tim... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 00:42:29 EST Thanks to all of you such great support - I feel badly that I don't always get a chance to go comment on your pages, etc. in response to my blogging and internal thoughts :) <BR> I really appreciate the support you all give and really, I don't know how I would do without it! <BR> so those are my thoughts for the day - thank you all! <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Wed, 21 Aug 2013 22:00:57 EST how do you reward yourself? My rewards really used to be food and tv - at the end of the day, once kids were in bed and work was all done and it was time to relax, that equalled food and tv. <BR> Now I still watch shows here and there, I also go on tumblr, facebook, I read books on Wattpad or actual real paper books sometimes...I still tend to have a snack, but now it's cottage cheese and fruit or something like that. <BR> It's kind of my me time before bedtime. <BR> What sorts of things do you do to reward yourselves? ... Wed, 21 Aug 2013 00:10:41 EST put on the walking shoes first thing! shark week - yep. sharks at work, sharks in the anxiety pool, well and some of you know what I mean otherwise :) <BR> <BR> I got my walk in. I did not put on my shoes all day - and that made it harder to want to get out and walk. Moral of the story, put on your walking shoes first thing in the morning - when you work at home, it's just too easy to procrastinate all day long! <BR> <BR> still I got it done - it was not easy, cramps were severe through that walk - but I am glad I did it and... Tue, 20 Aug 2013 00:21:34 EST aaagggh :) really it's all good. but I thought yesterday was tough - nothing on today, let me tell ya! <BR> <BR> I am so grateful to be healthier and in better shape. I honestly think a day like today would have done me in a few months ago. <BR> <BR> It's times like these that bring a family together though - I feel closer with them today than in a long while. <BR> <BR> and I'm still smiling! Sun, 18 Aug 2013 23:41:15 EST still smiling! my husband made me crazy today. Gosh I love him. His anxiety wears me out sometimes though! <BR> I think I have it bad, but then on days like today I realize my anxiety is mild compared to his - it must be so hard to feel that way so often...poor guy. <BR> No details are necessary, suffice to say it was a tough day for both of us emotionally but it ended really well and I'm proud of him for how he got through it so successfully. <BR> You know what made me handle it better, and be a better p... Sun, 18 Aug 2013 02:02:22 EST what's your resting face? I've just realized mine is kind of a frown - sheesh, I think of myself as a pretty positive person, but some of the stuff I deal with, work-wise, is serious, and sometimes I have to be serious with the kids, and, well, frown seems to be the default setting. <BR> So today I have (since 7 am mind you, for an hour and a half so far:) been working on turning that frown into a smile every time I notice. <BR> Been great for my mood, but also wow, I have lost count of the number of times I've had to... Fri, 16 Aug 2013 11:34:23 EST get that workout in early... super busy work day, it's like something exploded on my computer screen, more tabs open than is really rational - but I got my walk in first thing in the morning, feelin' a bit gym-deprived but I got it done AND worked my butt off - that is all. <BR> nighty night! Fri, 16 Aug 2013 02:11:43 EST dr's visit so I had done this holter monitor test, and the dr's office never called after. So I called them and they said it was on the pile to be filed. So I asked for an appointment to review the results - they seemed so surprised that I would want to discuss them! <BR> Honestly I am not sure why doctors expect us to naturally understand all this stuff. <BR> I questioned her about the results, and what the arrhythmias could mean, etc. and I am feeling mostly reassured now, but will still be getting ... Thu, 15 Aug 2013 00:18:15 EST