TRACEEAST's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=TRACEEAST TRACEEAST's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ What I've Learned from Kung Fu Panda http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4347715 Last night hubby and I took the kids to see Kung Fu Panda 2 at a cinema cafe. It's a second-run theater with tables and you can order pizza and sandwiches. It's not the greatest pizza but of course I had to have my popcorn, as some of you may know, popcorn (the machine-popped kind) is my absolute favorite. It's absolutely unhealthy, but one thing I will never give up! <BR> The movie was pretty good- really funny parts. It had a great message though, too: don't worry about what was in... Thu, 7 Jul 2011 17:17:15 EST My world has been rocked (and not in a good way) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4343595 Well, I decided I just needed to get back here and get doing SOMETHING. I have had a lot of crap thrown my way in the past couple weeks, and I haven't dealt with all of it very well. But life goes on, and I have to. This blog may be long, boring, and contain too much info than you want to hear, so I'm warning you to read at your own risk. <BR> I had hit a bad spot in my weight loss and healthy living and all the goals surrounding that. I was extremely busy doing schoolwork and working at ... Tue, 5 Jul 2011 22:12:18 EST Good things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4291235 A very wise sparkfriend of mine made a comment that really made me think. She said "you may not have a good day, but there's good in every day." (I paraphrase) <BR> I started to think about that, and figured out that I need to start looking for the good in every day. I can feel better about what I'm doing if I focus on the good, and not the things I've done wrong. I don't want to write blogs that are downers and tell everyone how bad I'm struggling! I am struggling, but I want to pull ... Sat, 11 Jun 2011 01:27:43 EST 100 days. Wow. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4277562 Tomorrow marks my 100 day mark of being on Sparkpeople. I have logged in and spun the wheel every day faithfully for 99 days. <BR> That said, I have fallen off the healthy wagon. I was holding on and being dragged behind it for a while, then I just let go. <BR> I weighed myself and I weigh the same as I did the last time I weighed myself. Thanks, God, cuz I really should've gained, but if I can pick this up again right where I left off that will be easier for me than if I have to re-lo... Sat, 4 Jun 2011 22:39:32 EST God is funny http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4241758 So, yesterday I blogged about how I see a lot of people on Spark, and I see their success in different ways and I had such a strong desire to be like them. Well, I changed around some of my sparkteams to put more focus on God and what I really want to do. <BR> One of the teams I joined was for those doing the Lord's Table bible study. There aren't very many people on that team, at least not many who are active. Okay, I don' t need a lot of people to interact with. And I was thinking, wel... Wed, 18 May 2011 18:43:12 EST I want to be like..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4238889 When I started back on Sparkpeople, there was one major thing that kept me going. That was reading lots and lots of pages and blogs, and looking at before and after pictures. I had one thought: I want to be like them. On a daily basis my thoughts were: <BR> I want to be like her- she has lost over 100 pounds. <BR> I want to be like him-he used to be really overweight, but he started running and the weight melted off. <BR> I want to be like her- she is eating clean and losing weight real... Tue, 17 May 2011 13:54:20 EST One Goal at a Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4236594 So, today I weighed in for what was the end of the BL 17 challenge that I was in. After eight weeks I had a one pound gain. Niiiiice..... But, I DID lose one inch.... in my boobs. Hubby will be real pleased about that one...LOL! <BR> So, obviously I was not in the right mindset for the challenge. I wouldn't even have weighed myself if it weren't for the challenge. But, today, I am starting anew. And I'm doing things the way I want to do them. I am not doing any challenges. I am not doi... Mon, 16 May 2011 14:43:09 EST Tracy's New Life: Take 3,862! And.....action! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4234777 Okay, so I have been absent from here in what feels like forever! I've still been logging in and spinning the wheel every day, and reading my friends' blogs, but that's about it. I have been sitting almost every day all day for the last couple weeks finishing up on all my homework assignments. Well, they're done! My paper is done too. All I have left is the final exam in one class. I have 30 days to do it and don't have to take an extension on my class. But I want to get it done ASAP. ... Sun, 15 May 2011 20:49:44 EST So overwhelmed I could cry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4212142 I don't even really have time to write this blog, I have so much to do. But this is usually the kind of thing I do- when I have a ton of stuff to do I always end up doing the less-important things to avoid doing what I should do. Then I am up all night working on things that have to get done. Why do I do this? No wonder I feel so overwhelmed. <BR> I need to get this all down, so I can start making decisions and sticking with them. I have so many things going on I feel like I can't even... Thu, 5 May 2011 11:57:07 EST Zumba, groceries, and homework day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4207655 I finally got back to Zumba class this morning. I hadn't gone in two weeks cuz I've been working on homework and cakes and junk like that. I decided I needed to fit it in, because I can't just stop working out when I have other things going on. <BR> Since I missed two weeks of it I knew there would be some different songs, and there was, but they seem pretty easy to catch on to. The songs that I knew seemed to be easier for me to do, I was able to put a little more "bounce" into the moves ... Tue, 3 May 2011 14:53:24 EST Some things I'm looking forward to http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4206040 Well, I was going to make some goals for May, but I think I am just going to list some of the things that I am hoping to achieve within this next year. I am getting closer to these things every day, and I don't know when I will reach these milestones in my journey, but I know I will reach them as I continue to make changes and stick with them. <BR> <BR> * Be at my pre-pregnancy weight. I weighed the same at the beginning of both my pregnancies. Since I had really bad morning sickness w... Mon, 2 May 2011 22:22:02 EST My 38th Birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4203699 Well, I am now 38 years old. I have exactly two years to get healthy before I turn 40. That was the original plan when I joined Sparkpeople last May- to get healthy and be at goal weight before I turn 40. <BR> It appears that I am actually going to do it! I am doing it! <BR> I just read the book "Skinny Thinking" by Laura Kettleman Prue. (thanks JeniKinz for the suggestion!) It is really insightful. The most important part I took away from this book was this: <BR> ... Mon, 2 May 2011 00:19:08 EST I really don't wanna be the role model all the time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4198451 I don't know if anyone noticed, but I joined a team called "Michael Thurmond's 6-Week Body Makeover." Anyone who has been paying attention to my blogs and such was probably thinking, "oh, brother, now what is she doing?" So let me explain.... <BR> My parents are both overweight. Obese. My mom is very obese. She has a lot of health problems- she has rhumatoid arthritis, diabetes, high blood pressure, a factor in her blood that causes clotting (which I have also), Addison's disease (a ra... Fri, 29 Apr 2011 11:20:02 EST Here's Another Fun One! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4196996 1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? <BR> No, but my kids have meanings to their names, cuz I think that's nice. (Trinity's middle name is Jillean after my friend that passed away, and Colby's middle name is Mitchell, after my hubby's hometown.) <BR> <BR> 2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? <BR> Yesterday when I watched a Dr.Phil episode I had recorded. <BR> <BR> 3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? <BR> Most of the time <BR> <BR> 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? <BR> Turkey- the real stu... Thu, 28 Apr 2011 16:55:42 EST A to Z questions...love this kind of stuff! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4193971 A. Age: 37 (okay, 38 on May 1) <BR> <BR> B. Bed size: Queen <BR> <BR> C. Chore you dislike: Laundry <BR> <BR> D. Dogs: a Boston Terrier/Pug mix named Hazel <BR> <BR> E. Essential start to your day: Unplugging my cell phone and checking emails and Facebook (and now Spark) <BR> <BR> F. Favorite color: blue <BR> <BR> G. Gold or silver: silver <BR> <BR> H. Height: 5'5" <BR> <BR> I. Instruments you play: I played saxophone in junior high but otherwise none- I would loooove to learn to p... Wed, 27 Apr 2011 11:24:19 EST My 2 Month Sparkversary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4193092 Well, today is my 2 month Sparkversary. I am the same weight now as I was for my one month Sparkversary. At first, I felt kinda bummed. <BR> Then, I realized, hey- I've been at this consistently for two whole months. And I'm not dropping weight like crazy, but I'm STILL working on it. I don't know that I've ever stuck with this for two whole months. Even when I was dropping weight really quickly, I think I gave up the second I stopped losing. <BR> I took more pictures tonite. I don't ... Tue, 26 Apr 2011 23:28:58 EST Sad, but must move on..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4185321 I went through my friends list and started deleting anyone that hasn't been active on SP for a long time. There were quite a few I remember from just a month ago that were so supportive and positive. Now they've dropped off the planet it seems. <BR> I did the same thing when I was on SP a year ago, so I totally understand. I'm just glad this time I am sticking with this and seeing it through until I hit my goal, and then for the rest of my life! <BR> Hope you guys are okay with hearing fr... Sat, 23 Apr 2011 10:00:12 EST I have a conflict with my conflict resolution instructor..( LONG-but would appreciate input) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4182779 Well, I am back- blogging anyway! I am over halfway done with my classwork, so I think I am okay coming back and working out a balance with the homework and weight loss. I haven't been doing very well at all this week, I've been at my computer doing assignments all day every day. I haven't worked out this week and I haven't been tracking my food. And my house is trashed! I am so bad about doing more than one thing at a time. But I want to get back on track. <BR> So like I said, I am ove... Thu, 21 Apr 2011 23:03:00 EST New "start"- mixin' it up a bit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4158335 So, since I was so frustrated yesterday, I took a good long look at things, and I'm making a few changes. I had to be really honest with myself and look at my calorie counting and portion measuring. I haven't REALLY been counting everything, and I haven't been measuring everything. So, now I am counting everything, right down to the 3 calories of celery I had in my tuna salad at lunch today! <BR> I wish I had a nicer food scale. A digital one would be spectacular. But I am going to go th... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 14:29:18 EST I didn't know where to put this so I'm just stickin it here for now. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4157661 HEALTHY BROWNIES <BR> <BR> Description: Dense, fudge-y and ultra-healthy, these brownies are a great alternative to traditional brownies! It¡¯s amazing how they taste like chocolate and fudge and not beans! <BR> <BR> Ingredients: <BR> <BR> 15 ounces black beans, drained and rinsed <BR> 2 whole bananas <BR> ¨÷ cup agave nectar <BR> ¨ù cup unsweetened cocoa <BR> 1 tbsp cinnamon <BR> 1 tsp vanilla extract <BR> ¨ù cup raw sugar (optional) <BR> ¨ù cup instant oats <BR> 1/2 cup choppe... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 10:35:50 EST Screw it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4156059 Forget the dumb cleanse idea! I do not want to drink those shakes anymore. I just hate them! I'm just so frustrated right now because I'm stuck at this weight right now, up and down, up and down, I just want a bigger loss to get me excited again. I know just two days ago, heck-one day ago I was saying it didn't bother me that I haven't lost. And it didn't- THEN. <BR> NOW it's bothering me! I KNOW the scale doesn't tell the complete story. I KNOW I have made lots of positive changes an... Sun, 10 Apr 2011 17:02:59 EST Busy weekend but keepin' my Spark! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4153640 I have a lot of homework to do so I am not going to be doing much other than that this weekend. Sigh... <BR> I weighed myself this morning and I was the same. Oh, well, like I said, I kinda knew it. But I have a lot of positves to report other than weight loss. <BR> One- I went with my daughter for out 5k run/walk training. We went around our neighborhood so it wasn't flat and cushy like the track at the Y. Plus we had to walk for 4 minutes and jog for 1 1/2 minutes (instead of just 1 m... Sat, 9 Apr 2011 12:30:00 EST I feel like I'm just treading water http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4150631 I have been weighing myself a few times here and there throughout the week, and I have been gaining, losing what I gained, and/or staying the same. I have been more dilligent about measuring and staying within my calorie range, but I just don't feel like I'm gonna lose anything this week. <BR> I have a lot of classwork to do, so I'm not gonna sweat it too much, cuz I just don't have time to delve into my food logs and exercise and try to figure out if I need to eat more calories or less cal... Thu, 7 Apr 2011 23:03:25 EST A Hmmm.. moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4148135 I had a little moment today. It wasn' t really big enough to be an a-ha moment, so I'm calling it my hmm.. moment. <BR> I watch three little boys at home, and I have switched meals to mostly non-processed stuff. So, no more hot dogs and chicken nuggets. Today we had turkey ham on the menu. <BR> I kinda felt like, eh, don't really feel like eating ham today, what could I do? I got a whole wheat tortilla and spread a laughing cow lite swiss wedge on it, then put diced up ham on it and mic... Wed, 6 Apr 2011 22:38:49 EST How to NOT get a speeding ticket http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4145518 If you read my status earlier you saw that I got a speeding ticket on my way to Zumba this morning. I was running late- the class started at 9:15 and I got stopped RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE YMCA. At 9:14.... I was soooo close....... <BR> The officer asked me what I was in such a hurry for, I told him I was trying to get to a class at the Y. <BR> Later, I thought of a way I could've gotten out of it. I wish I would have used this excuse. So, if any of you ever get stopped, you try it, okay? <... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 22:31:48 EST 5k training http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4142966 My daughter Trinity and I began our 5k training today at the Y. We walked for 4 minutes and jogged for 1, and then walked for 4 and jogged 1, etc. It was really neat. I love having a goal to work on with her. It's gonna help us bond. <BR> I was a little nervous to do the jogging part. I had started my workouts at the Y on the treadmill doing walk/run intervals, and it was really, really hard. Then I stopped doing that cuz I started doing Zumba every day instead. <BR> Doing the inter... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 23:14:55 EST If you love something, set it free..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4139472 So, after many comments, suggestions, soul-searching, and just rethinking my plan with a little more common sense, I am freeing myself of the free-day freedom. That "freedom" was just making me like a crazy free-kin monster! (See what I did there?) <BR> My sparkbestie said it best when she said if you give yourself a free day, then you are insinuating that the rest of the time you are in prison. Then on the free day it's like getting out of prison, and then who wants to go back to prison onc... Sun, 3 Apr 2011 19:24:51 EST I am (feeling) Disgusting!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4137558 So, I confessed to my Sparkbestie, and I decided that I need to confess to everyone. <BR> I binged today. I don't know why. It was really stupid. But, I am a food addict so I guess I can't expect to be perfect all the time, I know sometimes I will slip up. <BR> I weigh in on Saturday mornings, and since I started SP I told myself that if I wanted to, I could have a "free day" on Saturdays. I told myself I could eat whatever I wanted on the free day. I have been having those "free" days, ... Sat, 2 Apr 2011 21:27:13 EST My favorite foods http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4135663 I have committed to writing a blog daily, but I don't know what to write about today. <BR> Hopefully I have something exciting to talk about tomorrow. I weigh in on Saturday mornings, so hopefully I have a loss to report. <BR> Well, let's see, I think I will discuss my former favorite foods, and my new favorite foods now that I've changed my lifestyle. <BR> This is gonna be eye opening for me, and probably horrifying to a lot of you. It will be kinda therapeutic though to see how far I've... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 23:13:15 EST This is a sad date for me every year..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4132974 Twenty-one years ago today- March 31, 1990, my best friend Jillean was killed in a car accident- on her 18th birthday. <BR> I was 16, I was a year younger than she was. We met through a mutual friend and we took her to youth group every Wednesday night. Then I started working with her at Taco Bell. <BR> We were very unlikely friends. She was very pretty and popular, really outgoing and crazy. I was overweight, quiet, and shy, and very self-conscious. She really brought me out of my "... Thu, 31 Mar 2011 22:22:07 EST I have sooo jumped on the clean eating wagon! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4130497 I spent a lot of the day looking at recipes on here to find lots of clean eating stuff to make. I made banana bread, it was good but hubby complained it was too dry. <BR> We're still in the process of using up all the junk food, I have it all planned out and it should be gone by next week Monday or Tuesday. I haven't been eating the junk, but they are finishing it up. For dinner they had hamburger helper. My daughter was asking where the rolls were. (Normally when I was eating crap, we... Wed, 30 Mar 2011 23:03:35 EST Blah day.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4127878 Today I had kind of a blah day. I had menstrual cramps which have gotten really bad in the past year. After I had my kids I wasn't getting any at all, but now they are almost unbearable. Ugh, at least it's only for one day. <BR> Tonite we had our last bowling nite of the season. The first game I got a 198, which really stunk cuz I bombed the last frame and if I hadn't I would've been over 200! My high is a 223 but I haven't seen that score in years! <BR> It's 9:30 and I'm going to bed, h... Tue, 29 Mar 2011 22:31:11 EST After yesterday's fast food fiasco... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4124176 I decided I am done with all fast food. Then I started to get really bothered by all the crap food in our house. So, I re-organized my fridge and pantry, and put all the junk front and center to use it up. Some of the stuff I just chucked. I would chuck it all but hubby would freak out. Plus that is a lot of money wasted. I'm just gonna try and balance out "junk" meals with healthy ones until they can all be healthy ones! <BR> I took all the crackers and snacky stuff and portioned them ... Mon, 28 Mar 2011 13:56:04 EST Spent all day away from home http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4122344 Well, today was really hectic and busy. I had to get my daughter to a birthday party, so I decided to take my son out to lunch. We ended up at KFC- his choice- and I had some chicken and cole slaw. Not in my eating plan, and so not what I wanted. It's weird cuz I really didn't want it. It tasted really gross to me. I haven't eaten fast food in the whole month since I started Sparkpeople. That is really crazy for me because I used to eat fast food like 5-6 times a week. So my tastes ha... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 20:38:23 EST One Month Sparkaversary- 21.5 lbs gone..Can't tell by looking but I've pointed out the Differences http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4120358 Today I've been on Sparkpeople for a month. So, since I've lost 21.5 pounds, I wanted to see if you could tell any difference. Here is my picture of me at 300 pounds: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l169525051.jpg"> <BR> Here is the picture of me from today, wearing the same shirt: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l494918695.jpg"> <BR> You can tell my stomach is a little smaller and my shirt is looser, but otherwise you can't really see much of... Sat, 26 Mar 2011 20:52:38 EST I Made My Husband Cry http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4117669 I currently watch three little boys at home. I am really starting to hate it. I don't want to be babysitting anymore. I know we could do it financially, but hubby is always afraid to let me "not work" and/or work part time. I've been wanting to ask him about it, but instead I've been just making comments when he's around like, "I am so sick of this.... I am so done with this..... I'm going crazy"... etc. <BR> I've been kind of resentful to him too. He works for a research company, and th... Fri, 25 Mar 2011 13:00:15 EST School Carnival Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4116543 Well, tonite was the school carnival. I am glad it's done. I worked the cake walk (if you don't know what that is, it's kinda like musical chairs, except when the music stops, everyone sits in a numbered chair, then they pick a number, and whoever was in that number chair wins a cake) <BR> It turned out to be a huge middle-schoolers' social event. I guess, what else to they have to do but meet their friends at the local elementary school carnival? I was in charge of crowd control, which b... Thu, 24 Mar 2011 23:18:00 EST Oops I almost forgot.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4114260 to make a blog post today. Well, I'm doing it at ten to midnite. <BR> My day was just not really very good. There was a huge blizzard so it was just crappy weather. Then I got on the computer first thing in the morning and they still hadn't let me know about my bronze team. Well, that was resolved. I realized I typed out that I was about to give up. I knew I was thinking it but I didn't realize I actually typed it! <BR> Then I realized I had forgotten to take my anti-depressant meds... Thu, 24 Mar 2011 00:58:38 EST I want to be thought of fondly when I'm gone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4110815 In September 2010, a good friend of mine passed away. She was 37 years old, actually she would turn 38 this Thursday if she was still alive. <BR> Mel battled with epilepsy, she had seizures since she was 3 years old. A catastophic seizure is what killed her while she was cleaning her bathtub. <BR> I miss her so much. She made such an impact on my life, and many of the lives of people she knew. She was so positive, so upbeat, so optimistic about life. She was very giving. A true frie... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 18:51:53 EST Starting BLC 17 today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4107646 Well, I am doing BLC 17- I am on the Bronze Warriors. When I did Sparkpeople a year ago, I had signed up for the BLC. I was on the Bronze Warriors then, too. But I ended up not doing it cuz I totally gave up SP after a week or so. <BR> I took my meaurements this morning for the challenge, and I am down some inches since last year when I took measurements! I lost one inch from my chest, 2.5 inches from my waist, and 2 inches from my hips. Cool, I'll take that! Don't know when I lost tho... Mon, 21 Mar 2011 14:23:36 EST Oh, to eat like a four-year old..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4105562 I am exhausted tonite. Hubby didn't feel good, so I took the kids to church by myself. I wasn't gonna cuz I really didn't want to, but my daughter's big brown eyes pleading with me, with her hair in curlers so it would look pretty for church... I couldn't say no. <BR> Normally yeah, I would've stayed in bed and said no. But I took them. It was cold and rainy, ugh. <BR> After church we went to Moe's- if you don't know what that is, it's a Southwest type grill restaurant with burritos and ... Sun, 20 Mar 2011 19:29:12 EST One pound loss makes me re-assess http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4103506 I lost one pound! Yippeeee! I've lost 20 total now which I am soooo excited about! <BR> I went to Zumba again this morning- it was packed in there. After I decided to treat myself. So I went to Walmart and got a heart rate monitor, and then to the shoe store and bought new tennis shoes for Zumba and some of those nifty Sketchers shape-ups. (The flip-flop kind- so when's summer gonna get here?) <BR> So now I'm gonna get the HRM ready to go so I can see how many calories I'm burning at Zumb... Sat, 19 Mar 2011 18:35:19 EST Family Friday, Zumba, and Calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4101169 My day has been really busy today. I started off going to the Y to do weights and Zumba. <BR> I weighed myself this morning, and I was the same. I realized after reading LOIDAEG's blog this morning that I have not adjusted my calories to account for all this Zumba I'm doing. It says I burn 634 calories in one Zumba session, but that seems like quite a lot to me. But even if I'm burning 200 calories then I'm only taking in like 1300 calories (eating 1500 calories and burning 200), so tha... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 14:08:22 EST I'm committed.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4099050 I know I've finally made some permanent changes. I realized that some of my habits are no more. I'm gonna list what I've noticed so even if I don't have a loss this week, I know I still am on the right track to being healthy- for good! <BR> I went to the YMCA last night to do weights and Zumba. My sister was coming to try it, and it started at 6:45. I got all my weights done and it was 6:35. The old me would have gone and sat down to wait for her for 10 minutes. Instead, I walked the t... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 16:42:07 EST Weird Dream..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4095516 Last night I had a weird dream. I was on the school bus and the driver dropped me and my sisters off at the house we used to live in. We walked up the driveway and acted like we were going into the house, but then we went to the neighbor's house. Then all of a sudden we were the new owners of that house. It was huge. It had a pool and an indoor and outdoor hot tub. There was a petting zoo next to it, and a roller coaster. It had 3 kitchens, and one of them had a treadmill that you coul... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 09:33:00 EST Zumba and me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4093215 So this morning I went to Zumba. I have done Zumba before a few times, on Wednesday nites at the Y they have family Zumba. That must be a little easier than the regular Zumba, which was a lot faster and harder to keep up. The instructor was different though, too. <BR> It's so hard to move my body that fast! It's like I'm trying to move with a person riding on my back. <BR> Oh, wait, that really is what it is since I have almost 150 extra pounds on me... <BR> Zumba is really fun, if any... Tue, 15 Mar 2011 11:37:02 EST Still going strong...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4091775 I don't have anything real profound to say today, but one of my goals is to blog something every day. <BR> It's 7:30 and I'm done eating for the day. I stayed in my calorie range and ate plenty of fruit and veggies today. I had been eating less and less each day for the past few days. Refreshed our fridge with a bunch more so I can keep going. <BR> I worked out this afternoon and I feel awesome. My arms are a little shaky from the weights but it's good. <BR> I'm really tired, didn't s... Mon, 14 Mar 2011 20:39:13 EST I'm very sad, but I brought this all on myself... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4088260 So, this morning I was not feeling well, so I slept in and my husband got up with the kids. Today my 8 year old daughter is going with a friend to an indoor waterpark resort for 3 days. I told my husband to have her come down and say goodbye to me. <BR> So I wake up at 11 and she is gone and never came down to say goodbye. Jason (my husband) forgot to tell her(which in itself is a WTH moment) but I thought she would at least think to say goodbye to me herself. <BR> I am not saying this t... Sun, 13 Mar 2011 13:46:15 EST Put yourself out there... I dare you! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4086270 I don't have many friends because of my weight. No, it's not that people see my fat and don't want to be friends with me. It's because this fat makes me a different person. I feel bad about myself, I am self-conscious around other people, I have severe social anxiety. <BR> You think of low self-esteem as feeling like others are better than you, and their needs come first. But actually, low self-esteem makes you very selfish. At least for me it does. <BR> If I'm with a group of people... Sat, 12 Mar 2011 12:39:06 EST My doggie is missing her cuddles http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4083615 I have a Boston Terrier/Pug mix named Hazel. She is a very active and hyper dog, but she has really taken to me. She loves to lay on the couch next to me. The only problem is, now I'm not hanging out on the couch all day anymore. I can tell she's lost. She's barking at me to go outside all the time now. In, out, in, out, in, out. She doesn't know what to do with herself. <BR> Instead I have been taking her on walks. Then we can have the "quality" time together, and she could stand to... Fri, 11 Mar 2011 09:25:34 EST